forever amazed and confused at how often transformers franchise just straight up depicts suicide attempts. like not even considering the superhero trope of "i have to save everyone!!! by choosing to die!!!!!" thing. like. non-allow-yourself-to-die-to-stop-a-thing-from-killing-everyone-immediately type situations. which tbh i wish more ppl talked about but not the point here

like. sure mtmte, a comic abt mentall illness and war, i expected it to be aware of the concept. but its not handled well and mostly used for shock value or "im better now i swear! i have a husband and everything" BUT ITS IN THE KIDS SHOWS TOO??? MY BESTIE G1 RODIMUS?? BEAST WARS DINOBOT???

I wish mental health services were more easily accessible and certain mental illnesses weren't still demonized in the field

MOOTIES please tell me in comments/rbs about a character you love more from tdim from the main ones without repeating what others said (i hope someone will say something please)

I wanna try to do something for TDiM's birthday

this far: Jamie ✅✅ Mark ✅ Charlie ✅ Erin ✅✅

spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

My piece for the @hermithorrors zine!! I had the honor of drawing Jevin’s face melting into slime!! ^-^

been looking in tags for a few days now to see if anyone else found the whole high cloud quintet and related story to be a bit.....poorly written, nonsensical, contradictory, full of plot holes and loose ends, etc. apparently i'm not the only one. (and i'm not even talking about shipping stuff, because any time I saw someone mad about bad writing, someone always replies to be homophobic and laugh about failed ships. weirdos.) it could have been so good but was thrown into the garbage for the most part (IF you noticed all the plot holes and contradiction. if not, then it's a fine enough story tbh. I expect most people to see it on surface level and not read all the little hidden lore bits and try to piece it together like my autistic brain did. which is ok! enjoy it if you liked it and ignore me 😆)

Imso tired man. I'm so tired. Why do I work this hard I am so FUCKING over this shit

Anyways. 10pm rant bc I can

left work (midnight) and saw a little boston terrier wandering the field next to our parking lot (thought it was a giant fucking cat) and I stopped and he didn't have a collar and he's Old and has cataracts in both eyes and I'm pretty sure he's mostly deaf anyways he's in my backyard now LMAO

having some sort of chronic pain and tiredness issue and joint problems and whatnot but not knowing exactly what the problem is is really good at leading you feeling like you're faking it or making a big deal out of nothing or making it up. especially if there's a good day where it's not as bad and you can walk straight without limping for the first time in a year. but then you can wake up the next day and can barely walk and wonder why you can't just walk normal. it's hard to not guilt trip yourself into dealing with pain by trying to ignore it and force yourself to walk "normal" all the time

the good thing about asperger's no longer being a diagnosis is that it's just called level 1 autism spectrum disorder now. i know i probably shouldn't be poking around in the mental health of strangers online, but as an autistic person myself, your struggles resonated with me. ever since i've been able to accept, understand, and begin to provide myself accommodations for my autism, my mental health has improved tremendously. autism is also co-morbid with oodles of other conditions, so it is definitely possible to have autism and other conditions that may have overlapping symptoms

It's funny, I was diagnosed, accepted it, over analyzed and rejected it, subsequently forgot about it entirely, then when the only helpful counselor I ever had brought up the idea I was like: Oh yeah! That makes sense. And went through the same process over again. I will say, having someone point out that something might be inhibiting my ability to interact with people was extremely helpful. Because I just thought I was really bad at it and processed it as a point of failure (which was intolerable). At one point she said "You don't have to do things you don't want to just because you feel like you should" and I think about that a lot. That should have been obvious but it was like she slapped me with a fish

i do acknowledge i need to watch what i say wrt gender women men cis ppl etc just augh.

you are all wrong!!!

weird that the shape of love is two beating hearts glued together and not two hands holding each other