#ill be up in....7 hours? 6?
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15% nap time
#ill be up in....7 hours? 6?#dunno#too late for math#chu chu chu#ily'all#love yourselves#remember to eat drink and take your meds#rest well or have a good day#and good luck on anything you need to do today 💛💕#✌💙🌙#elliot rambles
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hi!! i just wanted to say that ive liked midoyuzu since i was like 14 and its been a few years since then (obviously) but seeing your midoyuzu art now is so!!! its so fulfilling to my past self who had like NO art to go off of, i guess? anyway! your art is super good and i love it so much <3
im glad omg? extremely late to the party but by god i am bringing snacks in here or die trying o7 was pretty baffled the first time finding out more abt their dynamic and looking them up on here to find maybe like two more recent posts and the rest from no sooner than 2017 or so askjdghsjkgdhjks but really THANK YOU!!!!!!!! happy to be of service to your inner 14yo somewhat ;v;
yknow what though the really funny thing is that i wasnt even that into them initially. just remembered that cute interaction at the end of xmas live and thought "huh these two r kinda sweet actually" and that curiosity is always a slippery slope into genuine investment and by god is tripping into it a favorite pastime of mine
#if i had to say tho honestly these two were both the last ones of their units i managed to get attached to properly#yuzuru has definitely become my fav of fine though but my actual rst fav is kanata LOL#also finding out yuzuru likes to draw in general is everything to me you go you funky master artist#cute critter line took me out back w a metal chair why r they so. auhhg#actually my good friend who got me in here Knows i was actually on track to becoming an ibyz liker but then. anvil fell comically on my hea#before i knew it theyve taken over almost every corner of my brain get them out!!!!! get them out!!!!!!!!#and i was already a ryuseitai fan and enjoyed fine casually but oh. oh god im a yuzurup too now arent i goddammit#SORRY THIS BECAME A RAMBLE UM. THANK YOU VERY MUCH!#asks#anonymous#sometimes i forget that their actual interactions probably amount to no more than 6 or 7 times in canon and the rest is just in my head#that and i just think its rather nice for both of their characters to get along!! romantic or platonic#really sweet to see midori so pumped up and passionate about the things he loves and yuzuru getting thrown off his rhythm of the always#perfect butler who resigns himself into the background most of the time. theyre just having fun!!! silly guys#and yuzuru rly does enjoy art and nonsensical doodles even if people generally find it horrifying midori loves them wholeheartedly its. yea#okay im still rambling. ill shut up now i havent slept properly in a bed in nearly 48 hours i should go do that
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MAHITO CAN GO HUG A LANDMINE.
Ugly ass frankstien wannabe.
Fucking bubble blowing fool
Bitch ass no shoulder sleeves on his shirt
No style havin ass
Weird monster fucking fool
That crusty ass tone nails piece of shit
Weird tongue mother fucker
well there you go. you said it not me.
#IM USING THIS ASK TO SAY IT IS 6 AM AND IM GOING TO SLEEP#IVE FILLED UP THE DASH A BIT TOO MUCH FOR MY LIKING#AND I ACTUALLY HATE SEEING ANYHTING I POST ON THE DASH LOOL#SO U CAN KEEP SENDING ASKS#ILL JUST RESPOND IN 7 HOURS WHEN I WAKE UP#OKAY PEOPLE#IF U GUYS REALLY LOVE ME YOULL GIVE ME INSPIRATION AND IDEAS ON WRITING A GOOD FIC FOR U ALL#BUT NO ALL U GUYS WANNA DO IS TALK ABOUT RATS AND CHEESE#which is all I wanna do to#but yeahh GOOODNIGHT I LOVE CHATTING W U ALL#UR ALL LIKE ACTUALLY FUNNY#like funny to the point where id have to consider that me myself is sending in these asks since ur on some emp level funnines#I write so much in the tags#do u guys actually read them#first one to write in my inbox 'empress ur *insert fic here* is my favourite' wins an award#hehehhee#just to see if ur still reading#gn#xoxo gossip girl 💋#unknown sender — ★
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you would think considering how much it loves sleeping that my body would, yknow, sleep when i ask it to. or even just when it has barely slept in days and im trying so hard to sleep
#the bin#uugghhhh i woke up at 1pm today bc my stupid idiot body refused to go to sleep at a reasonable time even tho i was alreday so sleep#deprived. i have to work at 6:30 tomorrow morning :/ so i guess i wont be sleeping till then bc i still have to clean stuff and shower#maybe maybe maybe ill get a nap in but idk. bleh. i hope after i get home my stupid body will sleep. its gonna have to bc i work 7 hours the#next day so i cant do that too sleep deprived. i really really hope i dont have to :( hhhh#i wanted so bad to get high last night mosty bc my body has been refusing to sleep this past week but my sister n her boyfriend didnt come#over so i wasnt able to get more edibles :( or boxes for packing. hhh. i need to move so soon! i have no idea what day its even gonna be yet#i badeky have an idea of how much its gonna cost either. they finally gave me a gas cost estimate afeyr ive been asking for 3 weeks#hhh. well. whatever. i only have 4 more shifts. im kinda sad tbh. i really like working here. my coworkers are so nice#tomorrow is probs the last time ill ever see my fav coworker. shes so nice. shes so nice she used he/him for me and calls me orb#i just mentioned the name in passing once after i changed my pronouns on my nametag and she noticed and she remember!#and before she used it for me she stopped and asked if i was comfortable with it or if i wanted to keep it private. i have never EVER met#another cis person who would even think to ask that. most cis people dont understand why you would care. shes like. the nicest person ive#ever ever met. why did i have to find such a great place to work in minnesota? well. even if i am super tired tomorrow morning itll probably#be ok. butbi really would prefer not to be.#i dont know why i havent been able to sleep properly. bleh. i do liek what edibles do to me its a fun time but its kinda annoying that i#cant use them very casually for sleep or pain. they incapacitate me for 14 hours minimum.#well. at least no matter how stressed i am abt everything. i will definitely be elsewhere in 18 days max. should be less than that.#i will miss this job and these coworkers but i am relived that i wont have to go to work for awhile. esp with this tooth pain.#and im so excited to be able to draw again! im glad im moving a month before artfight bc itll give me time to get shit prepped#i wanted so bad to participate last year but i wasnt able to come evn close to finishing any attacks bc i was too tired from working
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*voice of a girl that zonned out 2 hours ago and does not now what is going on*: I Sleept 0 hours last night and is totally functioning
#i have been cursed by the insomina gods#yesterday i rejoyenced realising i regularly was gotton 7-8 hours of sleep in the nights of the holiday period#and overall my insomina has been looking up recently#like im talking up to 6 hours on a school night sometimes! (yes sometimes sschool starts at 11 but i still hav to lissen so is still school)#so the gods cursed me for being a celebratory duck and made me get 0 hours of sleep#no ajustment period to return to my insomiac fays to get used to the feeling of heavy eyelids like brics i cant hold open#this was w no changed to my routine btwwww en no extra stress specifically on that day i had not before had#so yeah fate was basicly like now that you have engnolged that ur improving i have to put you back to squere 1#like a smakes and ladders board game but with numbers on the blokths#*SQUARES that js the word#how is it that this time last year i was regularly dealing w this shit and going through a functioning day like this#cant be me now#i have been spoiled by the sleep god and now i no longer now how to work on 0 hours of sleep an unmedicated brain and a crushing headache#(and it used to be that the days were i did get sleep i only got ever like 3-5 hours never any of this 7 hour shit i had saved up yet i#surviveded) i am no longer surviving succesfuly#my brain is too priocrepied trying to kwep my eyes open it cant think properly#there was a market today but i dint have the energy to go wich is a shame#also i am litterlay buried in dealdimes that i couldnt motivate myself to work on before i insominaed again so idk what ill do now#cry mabey but i am not feeling tears it is the buring jeeping my eyes open and they are not tears they are the regret of 3am me#insominac#insomnia#adhd#sleep#fail at life if lige is sleep and it is sleep in actuality#NO SLEEP BITCH LIKE COULD YOU NOT GAVE AT LEADT GIVEN ME 1 OR 2 HOURS JUST FOR FUNSIESES
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"yeah sure i can do a really early shift i just have to go to bed at like. 3pm" that was the devil talking man, fuck 🛏️🚶♂️
#tmos talks#the agony of needing a solid 6-7 hours bare minimum or The Bad Migraine shows up LMAO#like i have an HOUR AND A HALF after work until i have to sleep OTZ#at least ill be done super fucking early tomorrow and the day after lmfao
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Screaming
#im regretting life choices but im committing#2.5 hours ish until i can go home and crash#ive completed 7 things today so far - 6 of which were workshops/workshop letters#9 things if you include the 2 short stories i read this morning but havent gotten to doing the letters for#and 1 ted talk and quiz#plus i took an asl test and i have no confidence in my grade bc it was based on translating to english or gloss and my brain decided no#and its fucking hot out and ive been up since 4:20am so#i consider this day a win#ill try getting another letter done then take a break - see how much time and brain power ive got left and decide if ill do more#amber's shit you can ignore
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#I'm tired as hell of being sick#the magnitude of the boredom that comes with being sick with a chronic illness is crazy#i have between 0.5-6 hours out of bed per day. usually around 3 or 4. i spend almost that whole time cooking and shopping and cleaning#and taking care of what needs to be done before time is up and i need to lay down again#when I'm in bed i don't have the energy for anything except watching easy to digest shows or youtube videos or scrolling on tumblr#maybe some writing or drawing if the brain fog isn't too bad#my life is just a haze of one million meds and supplements and doctors visit after doctors visit#and smoking weed so I'm not debilitated by nausea 24/7 and sleeping. so much sleeping. I'm so bored. I'm so desperately bored.#i miss having a shitty retail job and going out with my friends after work and going to events#and being able to go anywhere more than 20 minutes from my apartment#:( :( :(#im just so bored and tired on such a deep and painful level and i want to be well enough to feel like a real person again
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Girl where is my joy where is my whimsy why am I tired everyday why don't my interests satiate me 😭 I'm not even depressed why can't I get my enjoyment :////
#everyday i go to work and come back and apparate for 7 hours or take naps that tire me out#im not getting my dopamine fix i am so understimulated everyday i cant get myself to do anything#why do i have a one track mind ehy cant i have like hundreds of interests that i can pick from the shelf when i need a break#this is so annoying and boring it makes me wanna live in a hole or be the most ruthless merciless heinous person known to man#why are all my interests so obscure or so dry/lacking of good content that i have to be the one who makes content#but as it turns out im forever in a creative slump where i cant create without a 6 month break in betwen so i just kinda sit there w my#with my metal illness and brainworms and refusal to get up and do something useful#ive watched like 40 mins of the secret life of walter mitty but i think im going thru that bullshit ?#brain in a constant state of tired can i just take it out put it in a jar and refill w juice#.... maybe i am depressed i just keep forgetting#oh well 🤷
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it's so difficult to get stuff done when i still am daily having to actively resist the urge to sleep all day
#cylas vents#like how am i supposed to get up and go to anywhere regularly if most of the time i dont even want to be awake lmao#maybe i am just not trying hard enough. maybe i am lazy and using depression as an excuse.#even my psychiatrist said that at this point since none of the meds really worked and therapy didnt change much and if i dont want to#day-care hospital / outpatient clinic he doesn't know what else to do either#but in any type of clinic situation i wouldnt be earning money#and outpatient i worry that if i have an one hour journey and possibly get up at 6 or 7 am i just won't do it lol#plus even a friend said that as soon as ot was over she kinda fell back into old habits#but cant do anything drastic either bc too many ppl care about me :))#especially ones with mental illnesses who could be negatively affectrd#but i am so tired and everything seems hopeless
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See you guys for quali in like 7 hours :D I should probably sleep soon...
#god i realized i have no idea what my sleep schedule will be on Saturday#like i wanna watch both events but the timing is absolutely horrible#like the shootout is at 4:30 am???? and then the sprint race is 9:30 am????#its so bad bcs its not like im gonna stay up and watch both but im not gonna wake up at 4 fucking am either#thanks again to f1 for that 🌚#baku is probably the worst race wknd for me in terms of time#the race is at...7 am i dont wanna be here anymore 😭#i think ill prob just get not that much sleep and then nap after#but i hate it :( why are you making me get up early on the wknd??????#ugh the european races will be horrible for me theyre not a bad time subjectively but i absolutely hate waking up early on the wknd#anyways 6 hours of sleep is fine right?#catie.rambling.txt
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FINALLY watched eeaao last night.
#i legit got 6 hours of sleep (i went to bed at 12 last night and i had to get up at 15 mins to 7 today so im not...feeling my best rn) so#ill be spending the rest of the day decompressing#but wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww#this one is one ill be thinking abt for a very very long time#very grateful i went into this one unaware of everything (all at once)#be quiet drea#risky risky queue y queue y
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i survived my first day but unfortunately im a fucking psychic and i foresaw that i would have to go there yet again this week.... and fuuuckkkk i will. TWICE as much
#two more fucking days of horrible public transport hours and 6h of sitting on a plastic chair daydreaming about doing the class from my bed#where i will actually be doing it 4/5 days a week after this one#im both too old and too mentally ill for this shit#asked my grandma which one of her catholic saints would do me the favor of letting me stay in bed tomorrow#she said san nicolás san judas o el san pancrancio pacracio pancracio ese 🙏#and i was like so true yaya#waiting for the administrative women thats literally the slug from monsters inc to send me the login details before 6pm#so i wont have to go tmrw hhhhh pls i want to sleep i dont want to wake up at 6 to be at the bus by 7#womAn*
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tells my boyfriend im overwhelmed lately bc ive had 0 alone time for almost a full month now bc we have a friend staying with us until we can get set up in the new house and he goes "oh yeah that sucks im sorry :(( but hey soon ill be working till 10 every night just like (roommate) so whenever we both work youll have most of the day to urself!" i go hide in the closet come out to make a drink and he sits in the kitchen and silently watches me make the drink the entire time
#i get youre trying to help but im going to fucking explode#oh boy a couple hours to myself several days from now thatll surely fix the breakdown im literally currently going through#and i have to go grocery shopping because roommate ate all the food while we were gone and cant afford to get more so i have to#do rhat tomorrow because theres Fuckinf Nothing in the house and im the only one who actually does the groceries right#have to get my tires rotated get my oil changed probably get new tires entirely#im mentally exploding from a -100 social battery and he sits there w#just STARING at me making my drink fuck off!!! literally the whole reason its overwhelmning me is because i NEED soace to Just Exist#without thinking about how im being perceived or how the way i exist effects others this is the opposite of helping i just want to#fucking rest#and theres so much more to do stil it never fucking stops not even for a second#just leave me ALONE stop touching me stop looking at me stop thinking about me stop BEING HERE ALL THE TIME#we just got back from an 8 day trip to canada where we literally spent 24/7 together only excluding bathroom breaks you dont need to#keep staring at me just ignore me for a little bit or just go AWAY#and he always chews with his mouth open and usually i can deal with it but especially now its like. even if were not directly interacting#i still have to just Be Aware Of You Near Me and i need a break#even the days ill have to myself later arent gonna do much because roommate doesn't wake up for work until like 3 but#i wake up around 10 and since its a studio i have to just Sit Quietly In The Dark for hours until they wake up until they finally leave#and then i get what maybe 5-6 hours alone? which like i do Need but its not fucking enough#thats good for a regular time when i have lther alone time as well not just my One Source#EVEN LITTLE THINGS earlier i started boiling water for a cup of soup and travis is like oh sweet grab me one tlo#and im not mad about getting him soup thats easy its just. that i cant do a thing for mtself without it becoming a group activity#and then he poured my water for me without asking which is nice but i like to put a certain amount of water so now mines too watery and#but i couldnt say no cause hed already done it and i cant get mad because thats a dumb thing to get mad about and im#already irritable so i dont want to make him feel bad at all but its just like. just leave me alone please#im trying so hard not to be resentful or let little things get to me but im just so. tired
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dude
im. so tired
#i worked like 60 hours this week#we're taking in 6 to 7 people a day and literally have nowhere to put them#everybody is exhausted#i was at work late assisting with an embalming that ended up being a 4-point injection#ill sleep when im dead ig 💀
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its 11. ive slept for less than 5 hours (my fault for sleeping after 6am, i know). my mom has people over and they are not even trying to not be extremely loud. i woke up, im hungry, i want to get up. i dont want to interact with said people (cause its people and im tireddddd). i feel like i might start crying.
#i know that 11 is not very early in the morning and that if id gone to sleep a normal time i would have slept more#but all im asking is for them to speak at a normal volume#and they are sitting in the kitchen so even if i get up ill get too nervous to eat breakfast cause i always get embarrassed when eating#breakfast in front of people who are over for coffee or whatever (i seriously dont know why)#also i know that in a few hours im gonna have a headache and start feeling sick bc i have slept less than 6-7 hours and that happens when i#sleep less than that#jo says stuff#personal ramblings
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