Dear me, you can do it ❤️‍🩹

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Feeling a little bit su!c!dal right now but Sterek is my comfort ship (especially the fluff fics)

Hi

I am working on changing emails but it’s not working, I sent a form to tumble but all I can do is cross my fingers and hope. If I cannot save my tumblr, I’ll probably make a new one, though I REALLY hope I don’t have to do that. If I do though, thank you for the experiences and the friendships, I love y’all so much. I really don’t want to lose it. This is my home. My everything. You guys are my family. Thanks for all the love and support. And just in case I can’t save my blogs I want you to know that I’ve never been happier than these months I’ve spent on here.

here’s a final Jax for your troubles, just in case I can’t return

I Love You all I really do❤️

i love buying five books in one day when im planning to skip ten hours of work this week 👍

Shit I’m sorry. I probably shouldn’t have asked about that. Now I feel like an asshole

It's fine

*Sigh* 2 hours. I was gone 2 hours. How are there already 13 posts.

Yesterday I've been hit 🤛🤛 with an idea for a scene where Renegade Dick does something wrong, like a really big really serious mistake and Slade obviously needs/wants to punish him for it.

The scene is basically Dick being scared shitless, just begging and pleading for his master to have mercy while Slade drags him off to a cell

It would be fun to write, it would be some sort of writing practice too BUT I DONT HAVE TIME TO WRITE IT

Real talk i think i might have a concussion

someone send me mass amounts of courage please

not to sound like an ungrateful ass because i'm really grateful somebody took the event over rather than it getting abandoned completely but oh boy, i really wish there was more consideration put into thinking about us poor lil gif makers lmao. i saw the prompt list & my heart sank because wow, what the flip am i supposed to do with some of these prompts? i was up late last night trying to come up with a plan & yh, it's going to be difficult that's for sure! anyway best of luck to you my love! x

Nonny I am really glad you sent this message because I am feeling the EXACT same way.

I am so grateful to the new mods that whumptober is continuing and I recognize how massive this event is, how much time goes into planning and running something on this scale. I have a massive amount of appreciation for themcause I certainly couldnt handle it. And I love them for doing it. I do.

But it feels like they only thought of this event as a writing event and that irks me. This prompt list is so hard for gifmakers. It's great for writing and I'm glad a lot of writers are feeling inspired but as gifmaker my heart sunk further and further with each days prompt I read. How on earth am I supposed to come with enough scenes for a compilation gifset for these prompts? Hell, I can't even come up with a single scene for a lot of these. Even the alternates are a challenge so I can't even use those to help me.

I don't know. I'm not giving up though!! I'm gonna figure something out for each day even if it's only vaguely related to the prompt! Still, it's a little discouraging reading these prompts. Feels like sometimes people forget that the whump community is fandom community and not just a writing community. There is so much more to this community than writing and I wish that was acknowledged more sometimes. Not to diss writers! I'm a writer! I love whump writers! Y'all are amazing! But being a gifmaker it can make me sad sometimes that people think of the community as strictly a writing community when it's more than that.

Ugh sorry for being a downer. I'm struggling here. I don't want to repeat scenes I've giffed before but it's not looking good. I know I'm gonna have to repeat scenes cause I just don't have any other examples. I was really hoping for specific tropes instead of vague ideas this year.

But its gonna be okay, yeah? Us gifmakers can do this! We got this! And we can help each other. I already know of a few days I'm going to ask for help with so if I can help anyone with a prompt please ask! We can do this!

my stomach is cramping but im not on my period. quick someone tell me whether im going to die or not

HI GUYS i was gonna post a link to the discord server w/ the fanfic im working on but its taking a lil too long to finish it so i'll just post it rn 😭 everyone enjoy pls don't let my server die i beg i worked hard on it (spent thirty minutes setting it up, twenty of those minutes going into getting off track and watching one of those cod cut scene "movies") here's the link :3

I am now obsessed with the idea of mama bear Zdog and is all because of your amazing posts 😂 Do you have anything else you want to share about her?🥺

I have had this one idea in my head for like a week now.

I don't know if you've seen bluey, but there's an episode about bluey and bingo's (the main child characters) aunt coming to visit after years of not seeing them, and its not straight out said, but heavily implied that she can't have kids of her own, and it makes her so sad that she couldn't visit her sister or the kids because it hurt too much (this is the episode Onesies), this is sorta how I imagine the relationship between paz, zdog, and spider is reminiscent of that.

like I can imagine that entire episode just switching out the characters, and tweaking the timeline.

paz and zdog had been friends since they got sent to this hellhole, maybe even before that, but when paz got pregnant, it made something ache in zdog, and she put a lot of distance between them. she assured paz it wasn't her fault, but some wounds never heal, sometimes they ache, and it was better that they stay distant so zdog didn't do or say something stupid in her grief and anger.

but then spider is born and she's invited to see him. her stomach rolls at the prospect, but she just can't not go see the baby, its her best friends spawn, so she goes. she falls in love immediately.

she gets to hold this little, fresh out the oven, baby. part of her cracks, the pain in her chest blossoms as she comes to terms that she will never have this. but part of her is just content to have this chance.

after that she becomes the go to nanny, paz finding ways to need a nanny more often then she actually needs one, just so zdog gets time with the baby.

she's a natural mom, baby touch and all, she's even got a good mom instinct. she can get him to stop crying the second she picks him up, can get him to smile and laugh. she knows how to tell the difference between his cries, what the different ones mean and how to rectify the situation. paz swears she's a better mom then her.

that's what hurts the most. she's good at this, she's really good at this. more often then not, when she has to hand him back over, they deep within a game or he's asleep on her chest. she hates having to give him back, she knows she has to, she doesn't see him as hers but a little voice in the back of her head screams every time she has to let go of him.

he is her salvation and her destruction.

I have A DOCTORS appointment today.

Gotta get in the carrier (car) and go vroom vroom to the place.

WISH ME LUCK