#idk soul crushing
Text
.
#salsa ramble#vent?#idk i was just thinking#it was kind of heartbreaking to learn my mother never really loved to sew#that she learned it out of desperation to have a skill she could use for work#she was never really interested in the craft just that she could use it to work at a fabric or whatever#its heartbreaking to me because i cant even imagine how it feels to craft without love#everything you create is uniquely yours and its something you can be proud of! no matter how small or 'bad' it may be#and to live your whole life doing something you find uninteresting and boring is#idk soul crushing#i could never#but then its something so common i have realised#i know im so very privileged to being able to keep myself floating with something i love#mum nowadays only does repairs on clothes and sometimes sews stuff for this company#she told me that there was a time where she tried making clothes to sell#but she hated it#she hated making...#idk why im thinking so hard about this i should stop
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
some hualian + moomin thoughts
#I feel bad I don't think I've posted all month...#anyways thesis is crushing my soul#I'll be done in like........ 6 months.....#hua cheng#xie lian#hualian#tgcf#tgcf fanart#tian guan ci fu#heaven official’s blessing#moomin#idk if I can use the moomin tag but WHATEVER
698 notes
·
View notes
Text
Me (whispering to myself as I hit play on Merlin s1ep1 once again): And like the cycle of the year, we begin again
#Merlin#bbc merlin#arthur pendragon#merthur#and like the cycle of the year we begin again#is this how the format works?#idk#but this is all I could think as I was hitting play#because I JUST finished my last rewatch like a week ago#am I mentally well right now?#no#am I trying to watch Merlin to fix it?#yes#is watching the most devasting#heartbreaking#completely soul crushing show going to help?#ya know we’ll find out
545 notes
·
View notes
Text
yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.
to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!
i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.
also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.
they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.
they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.
i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.
#eve text#elmike#stranger things#byler#only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol#tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS#god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear#i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable#i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts#elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about#even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike#i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up#the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much “he was a boy she was a girl” to me#and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing...#the fact that lumax exists — a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy — makes that clear to me#and the “love confession” in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin#also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choice…#fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK#so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows#i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too???#love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk#tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO...#like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their “golden couple” LMAO#stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest#anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul#i need frivolity#ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show
142 notes
·
View notes
Text
Y'all know your girl loves her AUs, and my partner pointed out that this is just a fursona with extra steps but idc here's the animatronic version of my s/i!! I wanted to draw her in the style of the official Security Breach art cause it's cute, I'll probably draw the real animatronic later lol but meet Missy Mouse! 🧀🐀
Her attraction amounts to essentially a karaoke room where kids are encouraged to play and sing as loud as their little lungs can (soundproofed ofc) and she sings along with them! She's modeled after the 60s and sings a lot of songs from the 70s as well but tends to favor 80s hits like Call Me and Girls Just Wanna Have Fun! 💖💖
#artfarts#self insert#self ship#fnaf self insert#fnaf oc#animatronic oc#i mean its basically an oc at this point!!#five nights at freddy's#fnaf security breach#but yeah!! this is based on an au where willy boy manages to kill my s/i 😔😔 so sad#i was discussing it with my buddy and idk its kinda cool to think abt her in the SB era!!#especially since ive seen both theories that glamrock freddy has michaels soul AND aus where he never burnt up and is a guard#i think both have potential for both cuteness AND big angst >:3#like for the purpose of glamfred being michael if the two were always really close and sang a lot of duets together#freddy has a crush on her but doesnt know why cause he doesnt quite remember their relationship in life#and also guard michael only being able to see her in animatronic form 🥺🥺#either way shes usually very kind to kids and is something of a nanny as well#not like sun/moon theyre like for toddlers and shes for slightly older kids#anyway ill defs draw more of her soon!!#i just HAD to get this out there lol#crush: 🔦🧟♂️#forgor his crush tag lol
70 notes
·
View notes
Note
Hi I saw in your pinned post that you've read over 1,000 TMNT fics. Do you have a few really good ones you would recommend?
(don't feel any pressure to respond if you don't want to)
Oh boy this is...quite an ask. Especially bc fanfic recs are so personal? What I think is a good fic will be vastly different from other people. I have a really high angst tolerance, so please double check tags with these. Also keep in mind that I mainly read donnie-centric fics.
Here are my personal favorites! My hand slipped and I have more than just a few to recommend...what can I say there are so many good fics.
CRACK BUT READS LIKE CANON
Back To School by Em_H | 10,965 [FINISHED]
Donnie enrolls in April’s school and tries to juggle his packed schedule. A shrek play is included. Do I need to say more?
☆ In Volvunt: a RotTMNT Fanfiction ☆ by kittylittersmoothie | 27,082 [FINISHED]
In which the rest of the bros continuously try and fail to rick roll donnie. A war is started, alliances are made, betrayals occur, this is a hilarious feel good fic. It’s very in line with the show tonal wise and the dialogue is very rise
Mikey's Jam-Packed, Guaranteed to Get Donnie's Memory Back, Friendship Tour! By Eyse | 92,972 [ON-GOING]
Donnie wakes up with no memory of anyone including himself. Que his brothers trying to find ways to get his memory back. Has some of the most wacky adventures and scenarios I’ve ever encountered in a rise fic. Feels like you’re reading the actual show
YOU WILL BE EMOTIONALLY DESTROYED
Quiet Your Mind by daedelweiss | 18,081 [FINISHED]
Fusion Au with the disaster twins set in the bad future timeline. I don’t cry. This one made me cry. Bittersweet ending.
Telepathy (of a Twin Variety) by vosian_nightmare | 24,423 [FINISHED]
My personal favorite twin telepathy fic. Character study on the disaster twins.
Something Borrowed, Something Blue by Cass_Phoenix | 31,963 [FINISHED]
A Donnie from an alternate reality kidnaps Leo. Or is he bringing him home? This one will fuck with your mind. One of my bookmark notes is “Reality existentialism”
Firefight by remrose | 94,480 [ON-GOING]
What if donnie gets trapped in the prison dimension with leo? I’m usually not a fan of changing plot points in the rise movie or suicidal leo, but this fic is the exception. It is VERY well written and has some of the best exchanges between the disaster twins. You WILL be scared for the characters and your heart WILL be crushed. Proud to say I was here for this fic since chapter 1 bc that NEVER happens with me
THE CROSSOVERS
Familiar Places, Foreign Faces by Petra4President | 36,434 [ON-GOING]
Rise/2012 Crossover Fic. The Rise Donnie & 2012 Raph fic I didn’t ask for (I read this before watching 2012) but didn’t realize I NEEDED. Donnie gets sent to the 2012 universe and must find a way home.
A Tale of Spirits by unorthodoxx | 168,344 [ON-GOING]
Rise/Avatar the Last Airbender AU. This one is pretty popular so I won't say anything else except its really good.
I WOULD BOOK BIND THESE
All I have to say about these fics is that they’re REALLY good and BOOK WORTHY
Monsters Among Us by DanzinoraSwitch | 86,136 [FINISHED]
Violet Hues and Holy Blue by SibillaScribbles08 | 115,752 [FINISHED]
I May Be Invisible, but I Still Look Good by Dandy | 124,862 [FINISHED]
MY PERSONAL COMFORT FICS
Things will never be the same (but that's okay) by Petra4President | 14,493 [FINISHED]
Post movie aftermath fic that focuses on the changes created by the events of the movie. Idk what specifically has me rereading this occasionally, but its really well written and a little different than most aftermath fics I've read.
Corrupted Upgrade by Dandy | 25,898 [FINISHED]
Donnie Villain AU with a twist. He really gives off megamind vibes. DO NOT BE FOOLED. THERE’S A REASON EVERYONE IS OUT OF CHARACTER IN THE BEGINNING. I almost slept on this fic and it became one of my favorites. It’s the type of fic that I can read over and over and over.
Turning Purple by Lizardstuff | 48,123 [ON-GOING]
Donnie slowly gets more and more sick post rise movie and the rest of the characters must find out what’s wrong and find a cure. THIS ONE’S FOR YOU, MEDICAL NERDS. Author has done research and any inaccuracies have gone over this EMT’s head. I reread this one every chapter update and every time I’m haunted by “the blueberry french toast paragraph” No I will not explain further, go read it.
MY TOP FIC RECOMMENDATION
Spider's Web with Strings Attached by CurlySwirly | 125,661 [ON-GOING]
Donnie and Leo get kidnapped and are forced to fight in the battle nexus. This is my pick for the most well written fanfic and most in canon characterization with ALL the characters. You will HEAR the characters not just through the dialogue but also through the writing itself. As the reader, you will be beaten down and have your heart crushed mercilessly which makes the pay off the most rewarding, satisfying experience that I've personally ever felt with a fanfic. This fic lives in my head rent free and I think about it at least once a day. It is my all time favorite rise fic and I highly recommend it.
#there's a fic im missing and its driving me crazy#i can't find the post movie fic where donnie and raph are still infected by the krang#and there's a scene where they nearly merge together and raph has to mind meld with donnie to save him from krang's control#idk why i didn't bookmark it its one of my favs#there are so many other amazing fics#if anyone needs any fic recs with specific tropes i got you#i started a google spread sheet categorizing good fics i read#this was like last year#but i couldn't keep up with how much i read#and stopped at around 145 fics#im laughing bc i have two modes#soul crushing angst#and crack#pixel replies#rise fanfic recs#fanfic recommendation#fanfic rec#rottmnt#rottmnt fanfic recs
32 notes
·
View notes
Text
Laios and Marcille are soulmates (platonic), and Falin and Marcille are soulmates (romantic), at least to me.
#aster talks#this is my wisdom [joking]#Idk I think Marcille doesn't love Laios in a romantic way but I also think they're somewhere beyond just friends in a way that is platonic.#but also unspeakably branded into their hearts souls and very concept of love in one sense or another#i just think these three are very neat and full of love for each other in different and soul crushing ways#dungeon meshi
26 notes
·
View notes
Text
grace chasity reads both testaments
#this is a bisexual christian joke#i hope this is clear :) i am the target audience :)#npmd#nerdy prudes must die#grace chasity#canon? idk canon is dead i devoured its soul#like girl has had one crush she acknowledged at 18#and - projecting my personal experience here - i absolutely liked girls *and had gay dreams about them* but didn't let them register with m#like i had full-on dreams about kissing girls and. refused to let myself think that made me queer??? just 'that's probably my subconscious'#'wanting to disturb me or something but i'm not actually bi'#and the crushes on them i had#also. i think it's fully possible she liked a girl and killed her a couple of years ago. (on purpose). but she doesn't feel bad bc that gir#was also queer! so REALLY she was preventing others from stumbling#whatever point is i think she's bi i don't care if she knows it or not#give me 3 main girls being multisexual please and thank you :D
49 notes
·
View notes
Text
like bro idk terf arguments against trans men sound the same to me as truescum did back in the day. YOU cant be trans that way because I cant be trans that way. just because YOURE dysphoric as a woman doesnt mean youre trans because I AM TOO. you CANT be trans because the liberation you tout has been stolen from me. like girl you can be trans too. get out of the fuckin echochamber and maybe youll start to feel a lot better about yourself and not need to cut down other people to feel something. maybe your dysphoria would be helped by transitioning. maybe it wouldnt. wont know unless you explore it though.
#this is especially obvious to me when they forcefully detransition men like. idk. its just so in the writing to me#youre miserably incapable of exploring your gender identity so seeing other people do it and succeed is soul crushing#well fucking get over yourself. grow up. take responsibility for the people you surround yourself with. find healthier spaces.#thats not anyone elses fucking problem but your own so stop thrusting your suffering onto trans people who are happy#you can be happy too!! ive never seen a happy terf bc theyre incompatible states of being. CHOOSE HAPPINESS.
25 notes
·
View notes
Text
Rolling With Difficulty as texts I have saved on my computer for some reason
(i drew every day for like a month straight and burnt out so have this nonsense instead)
#rolling with difficulty#dani rwd#finbar rwd#kyana rwd#vrla rwd#vr la rwd#which of those is the correct tag. like genuine question#k lb rwd#maxim rwd#i had one that was k-lb and c-ra but it got eaten by tumblr somehow#anyway sorry for the wildly varying formatting these are amassed across like 4 years and god knows how many messaging apps#if you want context to 'we eat spoon' me and my friend bought a bean curd and for some reason we thought the spoon was made of like#that biodegradable/technically edible plastic material#i mean idk what it was actually made of but it sure as shit wasnt edible because i was the one who tried#same friend is the one who almost died on a highway with me because we misread google maps and tried to push our bikes#along a highway shoulder for 30 minutes at like... 12 in the morning#selling your soul for 25 bucks is a joke from when i was playing fallen london and actually sold my soul in game for about that much#im realising now that i may very well be the dani of my friend group and i have no idea how to feel about that#the original of the crush on maxim one was me @ my arospec ace friend who loved making fun of me for my dumb crushes#so it was like. my one rare chance to take revenge because while they were Suffering with that *i* was studying for a competition! lmao#i should do these more often like i do these for all my fandoms and its always a blast every time
57 notes
·
View notes
Text
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
that's it, thank you for coming to my TEDTalk
#sad girl hours#exam season is crushing my soul#basically i just got my grade and it wasn't as good as i was hoping for. like it wasn't bad. but it wasn't good wither#*either#idk im just so sad about it#but i have another exam tomorrow and now im so lost and i can't make myself study after getting this grade#idk#sorry for the rant#aj rambles
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
hmmm. you sure abt that.
#I've been rereading all the inkworld books & i don't remember it being this gay XD#there's also the whole mo/staubfinger thing that includes soul sharing#farids embarrassing puppy crush on staubfinger (he's jealous!! of his WIFE!#let's not even get into whatever is going on between nyame and staubfinger we'll be here all day#basically inkworld is just 4 books explaining how everyone is in love with staubfinger even the villains#except as demonstrated violante cause she's gay for brianna#and it's clearly intentional even the occasional no-homo-ing is half assed at best#idk what's going on here. it's not queercoding. or queerbaiting. or queer subtext.#it's a secret different thing: author does what she wants and doesn't give a fuck what you think#your petty labels have no power here#tintenherz#cornelia funke
30 notes
·
View notes
Text
they will be returning to us soon..... #TRUSTTHEVISION
#sakamoto days#sakadays#akao rion#rion akao#nagumo sakamoto days#nagumo#sakamoto taro#taro sakamoto#my art#id in alt text#click for higher quality#might be my cutiest patootiest nagumo 2 date idk#drawing sakamoto made me understand why i havent drawn sakamoto#i was fighting for my life in ways i never have before#but we persevered....!#i have more ideas for them but i dont think i have the skill to pull it off. we'll see#anyway yayy i love them and i miss them and their reunion is going to be soul crushing ball tingling earth shattering#cant wait ^_^
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
Sometimes I don’t trust published writers to write smut because usually it’s nothing compared to the fanfics I’ve read
#and people for some reason eat it up?#like my mutuals have better sex scenes#and have written some soul crushing smut#and you’re fauning over a paragraph of him thrusting in the mc#before it’s over#idk#I’m not trying to come off as rude#but I’m just like#…#read what you like
29 notes
·
View notes
Text
👉👈 them,,,idiots 👉👈
minors dni!
#nsfw?#drags myself out of the void to draw tiny man being freaky deaky#slinks back into the void#ily them sm ur honor#he’s a cliche mf#idk idk smth abt these respectful lovey idiots#doing size. stuff that i always was exposed to in a super dehumanizing light#healing#he’s so dumb he wants to be scared but the fact that she literally would never hurt him makes him all 🙈💕💖💞💖#i want to write more of them idk i have Thoughts i just lov them#the only of my ocs that have any soul these days#chamomile doodles#cgtocs button#should i put a crush tw???#she just tap him gentle#and look hot doing i#safe silly lil guy
281 notes
·
View notes
Text
seeing EY say 'please' like that really upsets me. for someone who only ever says that disingenuously to get what he wants by acting, can you imagine how far his limits have to be pushed for him to say that and mean it?
#soul-crushing truly. at the same time tho#i might just be reading too far into things. again#idk man i'm just sad seeing this bc i want him to be safe and happy am i asking for too much?😭😭#no home#no home manhwa#집이 없어#webtoon#eunyung baek#haejoon goh#ey hj parallels#meta#also. hj and i have beef now. HOW TF DO YOU INSISNT SENDING HIM BACK TO THAT PLACE???#LIKE BRO U'VE SEEN HOW THAT TURNED OUT?? HOW? WHY? GRRRRR#i thought that man was smarter than this😭😭📉
27 notes
·
View notes
Last Seen Blogs
slasherbvnnie
bunnie
seanait
Lost notes
tayloralisonswiftnetwork
TAS Network
sapphic-book-tournament
Sapphic Book Tournament