#idk man....i cant even say what's bothering me just...will keep it as much as i can
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#this past few days....my thoughts are getting to me lol#and it's not fun#it gets me worried and scared#i try to brush it off really but at some point#in a day#i just feel like breaking down from whatever it is#i tend to become teary eyed but i dont cry#i just...have that feeling that i wanted to cry lol#and rn am at a salon and i just got this shitty feeling and i cant and wont cry lol#idk man....i cant even say what's bothering me just...will keep it as much as i can#coz i dont want to make anyone worry or anything lol#also...death has been getting on my mind a lot more recently#all this :/#its shitty ik#personal#trigger warning?
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PT1. Infunami !
↳ pairings: miles 42 x reader
↳ cw/tw: cursing, like 70% proofread, miles going through it, pet names: my love.
↳ genre: angst.
↳ synopsis: miles missed one too many dates and the truth comes out. poor miles
↳ blue says: lets just act like i didn’t disappear for a few months, thanks! enjoy
spoilers ahead !
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fuck
…fuckkkkk
10 missed calls…
miles rushed to get his suit off. fuck how many times has this been? he couldn’t help but think. five..? no five was to little… maybe 10? quickly he called the familiar number.
…ring
…ring
“please leave a-”
fuck. miles had no clue on how he was going to comeback from this one.. its been six months since the two of you started dating and within those six months miles had only took you on about twenty-five dates (yes he counted). now hear him out, 1. the two of you are teenagers and its not much two teenagers can do. 2. it would be way more if you considered cuddling together in your room as a “date”. look miles wasn’t proud of it ok? he s been busy with school and the prowler stuff so hes had a lot on his plate and trust, he does love you, more than you think, but its been a rough couple of months and he cant even remember the last time hes had over six hours of sleep. But fuck it, that was besides the point, now he had to focus on trying to not lose the person he loves….again
quickly he sent a text.
hey..im so sorry about tonight.
he checked the time…only 10:25, you should still be awake. miles knows that because your a bit of a night howl and just like him its hard for you to get sleep most nights…but for different reasons.
anyways.
idk if your still up but if you are just know im coming over.
fuck..im sorry seriously
just please text me back…
after a minute of nothing, in more suitable clothes, miles quickly ran out of his window and straight to you place. ok morales think… maybe a gift? no. miles knows you better, he tried to do that last time and he quickly realized he couldn’t buy your affection back. man that was a shitty three weeks, you had ignored him for a long time before he was at your door for hours begging to talk with him.
miles waited on the sidewalk before a cab stopped near him. getting in he was consumed by his thoughts. so what then? will they even buy the being at work bullshit again?
“kid where to!?” quickly snapping out of his thoughts miles told the cab drive your street address. only 10:33…fuck where did the time go? recently time for miles seemed to be slipping away and fast. never a slow moment to catch his breath or sit down and focus. that seemed to always be the case, especially after…anyways. maybe he could just tell the truth? he chuckled silently to himself. yeah..like thats a fucking option.
“where here” “oh yeah thanks” pulling his wallet out he handed the driver a twenty and a five. “just keep the change” exiting the car miles immediately headed for the back of your apartment where your fire escape was. he couldn’t bother going to your front door, after 6 p.m, no visitors, or rather no boyfriends were allowed in, specifically your mothers orders.
ok morales, just pray you don’t lose your relationships tonight, worry about the rest later. after climbing to the fourth floor he was meet with your window. please be open, please be open, please be- he lifted up the window.
thank god. miles made sure you weren’t in your room before climbing in. ok…now or never. going over towards your door miles knew this was risky. on the off-chance that you mother was up he would be really fucked. before he could open the door someone opened it first.
…miles let out a sigh of relief as he saw your face.
“what the-?!”
he quickly grabbed your wrist and pulled you into the room, shutting the door behind him. “….fuck?” you let out a disappointed sigh. “miles..what are you doing here?” a trick question he knew that you knew he was here to apologize but he didn’t say that part out loud, being a smartass would get him nowhere. “look i am beyond sorry-” “yeah i know miles” damn he could hear the hurt in you voice. you had your back turned to him now, focusing on getting you vanity in order. “…if you allow me, i can make it up to you this weekend” “yeah, i know miles…” is that a yes or…? “so…what day do you want to-” “i can always trust that you’ll make it up to me miles but what after?” ok..what? “what do you mean my love?” sighing you turned around to face him again. you couldn’t help but to roll your eyes, quickly mumbling “why do i even bother”
“ok look miles ill um talk to you later ight? it’s getting late anyways” you made your was towards him trying to get to you door. miles stopped you. “fuck, look i know i fucked up but please dont shut me out” he went to grab your hand but you stepped back. yeah, im fucked. “just please hear me out…” “you’ve released ive been hearing you out four times this month right?!” you said, your tone slightly rising. “and im beyond grateful my love, seriously i am, but if you can just hear me out one more time i can explain” turning back around you went to sit down. “well the floors all yours morales” usually, in any other instance, petty comments like that would have pissed him off but he had no right to be upset as of this moment.
“right…ok, i was called in late today. my manager said it was important and i couldn’t just bail on him you know..?” you slightly chuckled. “even you don’t believe that miles” ok yeah thats fair. “just please let me make it up to you my love.” he took a small step towards you “i already said i know that you will” now he was just confused “yeah so what does that mean? you’re saying nothing and everything at the same time” “it means i know that you will make it up to me miles, you always do, but what about after?” “will anything change…?” you voice grew smaller. miles wanted to respond but practically couldn’t. the room was left silent before you spoke up again “right, if thats your final answer than i think you should just-” “no, no, no. i promise i can change, you just have to be…” you glared at him “right…look i couldn’t be more grateful to have you as mine and i seriously dont want to lose you, just please..”
…a silent pause filled the room.
“than tell me the truth” you replied quietly. another silent pause followed. miles couldn’t do that, or else he would definitely lose you. “i..i cant do that.” your face contorted in confusion with a bit of anger. “and why exactly cant you?” you two stared at each before you made up your own conclusions “i see, maybe your too busy entertaining someone else ?” you huffed out. bow it was time for miles to be confused. “what?? why would i-?” miles sighed “no of course not i would never and you know that!” “so than whats the problem miles?! why exactly can’t you tell me the truth?” your voice gradually got louder, your patience clearer at its end. “if i do than you’ll be upset with me, so upset that you’ll most definitely break up with me” miles said quietly, a slight wobble in his voice although it was still prominent enough for you to hear. now you couldn’t help but be concerned. miles rarely got emotional during intense fights between the two of you, thats not to say miles is emotionally unavailable, just that he always stayed cool under pressure and fights.
“miles i cant be more upset with you than i already am, plus im the one asking for the truth so i can’t be mad at you, no matter what it is” you were slowly walking up to him now. hoping to reinsure him. “ok…listen, i cant tell you the full truth but please know im being completely honest when i say that: most times when i cant make it to our dates its because of my work..” you two stared at each other, miles was unable to read your face, although if you asked him, you looked pretty conflicted. as if you were deciding if he was telling the truth or not. after a small pause you came to your conclusion. “you know what miles? if its so hard to just-“
“fuck, ok im the prowler does that help?!”
the room grew silent as before, neither of you uttering a single word.
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hey there. idk if you remember me but im the lesbian virgin anon
its been a while, hope youre doing well. im still a useless silly little virgin who is clinging to my lesbianism by a thread because i can only get off to the daydream of a man fucking me
i literally cant fantasise about being with a woman. the only thing that gets me wet and aching fast is thinking about a man forcing himself on me, either fast and hard or manipulative and slow, it doesnt matter.
in my mind he's always bigger, strong, and just appears out of nowhere, grabs me, bends me over whatever the nearest surface is wherever i am (public or not) and just fucks me like he owns me, and as he does he makes me keep repeating that im a lesbian to everything he says......
fuck.... im sorry i just.. rediscovered your blog again after a while and have spent the last few minuets getting hot and bothered while scrolling through, but rn im not in a place where i can get off so I'll just torture myself like this until i can 🥰
Of course I remember you, sweetheart! (Previously.) I was just wondering where you'd gotten to, in fact. (As opposed to what you'd gotten off to; I had quite a good idea of that.) I'm so pleased that you've come back - and that you weren't able to come as you returned to my words, so that you just had to be wet and desperate. ❤️
Have I told you how much I love that I've ruined you like this? That the very first thing you told me is that "im a lesbian 100%", and now you can't come without thinking about a man raping you? That's my touch on you, sweetness. Even if I never get to bend you over and use you myself, I've left my mark on your pussy.
There's even a little of me in your fantasy rapist - we both have you keep calling yourself a lesbian while that slips away from you with every moment and every word.
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Mother I’d Like To….
Jake Seresin x Bradshaw Wife Reader
Warnings: grey hair, aging insecurity, age gap(reader:45 J:34), Jake“I Love My Wife” Seresin, stepdad j.s, unnamed douchy ex/husband, religious word is used once-blasphemy, sprinkle of curse words, slighty smutty end
Summary: She embraced her grey hair with ease never seeing a problem with it until one night a young mean woman words come crashing into her head.
“One man's loss is another man's gain”.
ofc:Lucie Bradshaw-Seresin, other oc: Leo Bradshaw-Seresin,
pretend goose was born in 59 and the b4 he met carole he had a kid in 77 and then met carole and had bradley in 80. Also there’s kid name in their bcus Lucie has a son from her previous marriage and his name is hyphenated just like his mother. idc idc reader is an admiral while jakes still a lieutenant idk how idky. There’s five admiral’s instead of four.
AN: plz i don’t why the title is that don’t ask me, im dealing with insomia rn. I was gonna do B.Bx Reader. But decided against it. an old draft that took forever to finish. Should I make this into a small series?
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“Awe, I think its nice your younger brother is here with you celebrating your 54th birthday”, the younger waitress drops the cake down infront of her.“Give him my number please”. (sn: waitress purposely switched the bday # around)
Lucie was beyond tired— not because she had get up for work the next morning, but because she’s sick and tired of being mistakened for her husbands sister. Jake Seresin is a blonde man, while Lucie Bradshaw-Seresin still had streaks of her brunette hair left. She couldn’t help but think about what that waitress said a couple of nights ago.
Look normally comments don’t bother her, being a mother and a woman in the navy she’s built a pretty thick shield around herself, Lucie always throws a fake smile on her face and pushes it to the back of her mind. But she’s cant help but realize the wrinkles that have made her face their new home or how her bones cracked when she went on her morning and evening run.
She’s getting old— what’s new?, You can only handle being mistakened as your husband’s sister for so long before your self-confidence sinks into hell. Lucie Seresin is always been known for impulsiveness, she’s proved it too many times to count. There’s a reason why the navy calls her Falcon.
An example is allowing that jackass to walk all over her.
She was standing infront of the bathroom mirror alongside her was a box of brown hair dye on the counter. While Lucie there she spends sometimes looking at herself, picking and prodding at her sagging skin.
Surprisingly. Only because she’s afraid of what Jake will think if her hair is re-dyed.
No matter how many times she dyes her hair, she still be old. “Hey Jake where’s your old lady at?”.
Lucie talked him up. She recognized that cologne from anywhere, Lucie straightens up and throws a fake smile on her face and greets her husband.“Hello Lieutenant Commander?”.
“I hate that dumb fuck so much”. Jake says, he has one hand on his hip and the other hand is carding through Lucie’s hair. “I swear Lucie the next time him and I—”.
Lucie could see Jake visibly stiffen, she could feel his confusion.“My Love is there is a box of hair dye behind you?”
“Mr. I See All”.
Shit…that— Lucie herself stiffens at the mention of the hair dye, suddenly finds herself combing through various insecurities in her head. Was she right— did Jake also hate her grey hair?, did he want her to keep the grey?
“Options”, Lucie lies with a smile on her face.“Just wanted to have just in case”.
Her husband green eyes zeroed in on her, but luckily he drops it.“okay darlin”. Maybe she should dye it, Jake doesn’t deserve someone like her on his arm.
“I know my opinion wasn’t asked for, but I love your grey hair”. You gotta be fucking kidding me. Wait a minute—
“Really?”
“Of course, darlin—how could I not?”
Thank god, that means Lucie doesn’t have use her hair dye— also means that she just wasted 15 dollars.
“Wow”, she doesn’t mean for that slip— but then again maybe this conversation is something they need have. She’s getting it over with.
“What Lucie?”Jake so gentle with her— he’s not getting angry by the minute. Lucie bites her lower lips in attempts to calm herself down. Great…now shes crying.
“Sugar, I’m so sorry I made you doubt yourself”, She hates whenever his eyes get so damn puppy like. He’s used it so many times to get out of trouble with her. EX:Between me and you darlin I purposefully pushed to mach 10”.
“It’s….It’s not your fault—”, Lucie starts again, her ex-husband words echoing in her ear.“Ducky, Ducky—me and you both your not pretty anymore”.
Jake’s fingers are underneath her chin, her eyes are rimming with tears.“Yes it is— I should’ve made sure my wife knew how much I was in love with her”. His arms wrapped around her waist— his fingers interlocked together. Never letting her go.
“I looked so much better in my prime Jake— I looked so good twenty years ago”. Lucie spits out her mouth-as if she just tasted something distasteful.
“Blasphemy” Jake’s shaking his head, and pulls from Lucie him— having the need to make sure his hardheaded wife listens to him.
“Jake—”. A strong hands strokes her face, dissuading Lucie from saying more hurtful words.
“Lucie, Lucie—darlin I know you outrank me by alot but listen to me right now”. He standing infront of her with a slight frown on his face. “I love every physical & emotional trait about you from your grey hair to the stretch marks from carrying our son to how you switch between Lucie to Admiral Seresin or how you always smile when you see a bird in the air”.
God her husband could’ve been a poet. She practically throws herself into Jake arms— clinging onto him for dear life. “You mean that Jake?”.
“Of course I mean that darlin, I’ll love you till the day I die”. She hates when Jake pulls her out of his arms again. “Darlin the dye must go”.
He walks over to the bathroom counter—“Would you like to do the honors Lucie?”
“Sure Lieutenant”, She replied with a small smile on her face, Lucie picked up the hair dye box and without hesitation threw it away.
“Need make sure you understand how much I love you twenty years later”, Jake stands behind her.
“Come show me Seresin”, he has his hands tightly wrapped around waist.
“I will Seresin”.
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hi bby hope you’re well🤍
what’re your thots on idk innocent, naive reader falling and hurting herself, like scraped her knees on gravel and how beefy, daddy ari would help her? would he be like degrading or comforting? or maybe both😏
“oh you dumb baby. don’t worry angel, daddy’s going to clean you up.” and he carries you into his house and looks after you, after he’s patched you all up you’re stuttering and nervous, thank him and go to leave but he catches your arm and cradles you in his lap “i’m not letting you out of my sight from now on little one, cant be hurting yourself if im always around to catch you.” IDK SOMETHING LIKE THAT LOL
Okay so I don’t think you understand just how obsessed I am with this. Like. I’m obsessed with this in an unholy way.
Just imagine beefy older DILF Ari moves to your neighbourhood, and he’s always watching you (he lives across the street). And one day, you’re babysitting your younger brother and playing catch with him when you fall over. Of course, Ari sees the whole thing….
Warnings: daddy Ari, dd/lg, dubcon, dumbification, naive reader
“Whoa, slow down there, honey. Are you okay?”
You gulp when you hear the voice of your hot older neighbour. Ari is looming above you, so tall and beefy and imposing, and you cringe at how much of a fool you look like. Sat on the pavement, your dress slightly torn and a noticeable scrape on your knee.
“S-Sorry, Mr Levinson. Didn’t mean to bother you or make so much noise. I just fell down.” You try not to look at the cut on your knee, feeling your lower lip wobble at the minor pain. You can’t help it — you’ve never been good with pain.
“Poor baby,” Ari coos, big hands rubbing up and down your bare arms, “You need to be more careful when you’re playing, honey. That looks like a nasty little cut you’ve got there.”
You blink up at him. Is it just you or is he speaking to you like you’re a little baby? And why is it that you don’t even find it creepy? Surely you should find it creepy?
“I — uh — I’m okay, Sir.” Suddenly, you feel shy. Up close, Ari is even more rugged and handsome. All the girls on the street have a huge crush on him. You always thought he was much too old and sophisticated for you, however.
“Nonsense. Poor baby, you look like you’re gonna cry.” Before you know what’s happening, Ari’s scooped you up in his arms and is carrying you towards his house. “Don’t worry, sweet baby. Daddy’s gonna take good care of you, get you feeling good again.”
You can’t seem to get any words out of your mouth — why is he taking you inside his house? Why is he speaking to you so condescendingly? Why did he just call himself daddy? Why are you not saying anything???
Ari sets you down on his kitchen counter, rummaging through his drawers before he pulls out a jar of medicine. You cry softly as he applies it to your cut, “H-Hurts!” You whimper.
“I know, baby. But you’re my brave little girl, aren’t you?”
You swallow, trying to ignore the warmth you feel in your chest when he babies you.
“You need to be more careful, honey. Cute, delicate little girl like you playing on the street like that? I won’t allow it next time.”
“Wh-What?”
Ari ignores you, instead holding up two different bandaids. One’s got a Hello Kitty pattern on it and the other has Snow White. You wrinkle your nose — Ari doesn’t have any kids, so why does he have those?
“Pick one, honey.”
It’s almost instinctual when you point to the Hello Kitty bandaid.
Ari patched you up and you’re just about to run off when he grabs you suddenly, pulling you up onto his knee and holding you close with a tight grip, “Honey, it’s not safe out there for little girls like you. You better stay inside with daddy. I’ll take care of you, baby. You’ll be safe with me.”
“But Mr. Levinson —”
“Call me daddy, honey. And don’t worry, I won’t let you out of my sight now, pretty baby. Daddy will keep you safe.”
Ari kisses your temple softly, and you can’t help the warm and tingly feeling you get from his touch, and the older man notices straight away.
“Oh you like it when daddy kisses you, don’t you baby?” Ari’s hand snakes it’s way down between your legs. “Tell me pretty baby, have you ever been kissed down there? It’ll make you feel all tingly and good, and you’ll forget all about the pain. What do you say, baby? Want daddy to help you out some more?”
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as much as im annoyed by the potential implications of the mhj/hybe drama i do feel like theres way too much speculation rn ... rlly doesn't sit so well with me that everyone is bashing on mhj alone (im not supporting her either though) and not bang sihyuk too. some hybe stans rlly js worship the guy and idk why . its not like he's innocent too. like those texts from him are so annoying too. abt if she's satisfied that nwjns is so popular and also abt trying to rival aespa / bp alone ...
hybe has sm power and r known for their mediaplay so i rlly do wish people would keep that in mind instead of doing their own speculation to bash on mhj . we don't know fs if she's the reason behind seunghan, youngseo, etc .... it seems so forced that everyone just collectively is making stuff up on their own theories and pissing on her. like im all for it when everything's done with but it's giving misogyny to me ughhh idk how to explain it eitherr without sounding like a mhj stan I PROMISE IM NOT TAKING HER SIDE T_T i just cant help but feel like poeple find it easier to hate and bash on women sometimes. even me scrolling x nowadays feels so annoying. literally feel so bad for illit and nwjns rn.
personally i was a teeny annoyed that illit had a similar image to nwjns w their nostalgia/coquettecore (also though just seems like cute/youthful concept is making a cb in general in kpop) but only because their songs on super real me were the exact type of songs i liked most from nwjns (super shy, hurt etc. the softer less peppy songs compared to hybe boy) so it bothered me that there was an implication that nwjns might be forced to distance itself to a more differing concept to keep some contrast btwn the two ... but ik that's not illit's fault at all (literally love the girls sm im a runext fan ^^) i feel like i can understand the upset that illit was getting a similar concept when every other grp before illit in hybe had more defined concepts seperating each other. but once again that's all hybe's doing ...... seeing the choreographers supporting mhj too makes it seem like not even the nwjns team or even all the staff were on board with the references in the choreo either...
anyways i do hope this controversy doesnt impede on either grps promos :( and i rlly hope everything gets sorted out... im srsly hoping this doesnt turn into a 5050 situtation again but with nwjns i was so upset when that happened . was curious on what your thoughts were or if u were keeping up with everything?
i feel like i've seen a good amount of people bashing them both but we could have different tls maybe !! but yeah i don't know why there's so many hybe stans 😭 it's been this way for a long time + armys idolizing bang pd back when bts was the only group under bighit. i feel like everyone needs to just accept that all these companies are trash and you can't be defending ceos
i do get what you mean because women are often criticized far more when those same things would be overlooked if a man did it,, however i don't think that's the case here 😭 because 1. she has an extensive history of s3xualizing minors back from when she was in sm and 2. it was revealed that she and bang pd bought out source music to debut a girl group so it's not that far-fetched to say that she could have sabotaged the trainees from source music, especially after she said that she didn't want to debut sakura because she was "too old." some of the other theories people are making definitely don't have much of a basis but i think most people also recognize that the main victims of all this are newjeans and illit + the other groups mhj dragged in with her. so yeah i wouldn't call it misogyny that people are going after min heejin, and honestly i'm even more surprised that people just forgot about how she sexualized shinee, red velvet, jisung, and newjeans and only started calling her out after this incident 😭 she's always had a LOT of defenders and personally i've never felt the need to defend billionaires :/ also mhj's a businesswoman who knows how to play the media herself. you can see it even in her press conferences; she's bringing up different groups to take attention off of herself and talking about her "relationship" with newjeans to garner sympathy from everyone
i think hybe definitely was shady for greenlighting illit's concept when it's clear there was inspiration from newjeans. i personally just assumed they discussed this with ador but i guess not?? so weird that they don't act like proper adults in that building. i'll also say that i don't think min heejin's concept for newjeans is original or considered "hers" but since most people associate that concept with newjeans, it's safe to say that illit's creative director probably got it from newjeans anyways. another thing about hybe tho is that i don't think they've been doing strong concepts for their groups. txt did have a strong one initially but bighit just stopped trying for them (probs bc their team got moved to source music 🥲) i think belift did a good job with keeping the vampire concept for enha consistent and i was initially scared that it would stop after hybe fully acquired cj enm, but i think they've recognized that enha just has too much connected to their vampire concept (their webtoon, storyline for their music videos) but enha's also been neglected by hybe a lot so screw them 🚶♂️
i hope this issue doesn't mess with comebacks either :/ it's like suspiciously right before newjeans' comeback, which throws me off because i feel like there's always some shit min heejin's pulling right before or during their comebacks (ex: inserting herself in the OMG music video at the very end) and it's so weird to me how she always talks about them as if she's the sixth member 😭
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I know the April Fools episodes are jokes but it's kinda funny to analyze them
Earth's nightmare seemed to be her fearing that she's a terrible person that everyone hates, dislikes, or avoids, her forgetting everything again, people not telling her things or keeping secrets from or about her, feeling powerless even to herself, losing Lunar(except for that last bit), being generally confused...
And then Sun's, Sun's was all their enemies apologizing for everything they did, fixing whatever they screwed up, and disappearing, or in the case of the Creator dealing with Fazbear since Sun hates that company, and then Moon leaving after being weirded out, even Sun pointed out the sheer absurdity early on, maybe all of these incidents affect him subconsciously even more than he realizes, poor guy just wants some catharsis
Earth and Sun telling one another about their weird dreams after the fact is something I could see happening too
ANON WE THINK THE SAME I WAS GONNA START THINKING TOO DEEP but I felt soo stupid but AA IM NOT ALONE!!
for Earth- I guess is a mix of feeling guilty she "failed" Lunar- and fears she may be too focus on her family life she may not pay attention to Monty- also something about fearing you "did a terrible thing" and just feeling gaslited even when you know you didnt hits home..
her fear of maybe "being forgetfull and controled" may be the most obvious, yet is still interesting.. as.. for me, she gives me "hero complex" at times, thinking she is meant to be the one fixing ppl (even when I see ppl saying she never asked for this role)
maybe because when made, she was mentioned as "the better version" so she goes by that.. ending up feeling both fake, try hard, yet afraid to fail and emotionally stressed out trying to be what ppl expected of her.
so then- we see her fears, being seen as a bother, seen as someone to deal with rather than work with.. also, maybe is me, but she does kinda takes too hard her "brother" not wanting her in his date/celebration.. also going on over Solar "hating her" when the dude seems to be neutral with her.. that got me feeling odd, she takes simple soft push as "you hate me" .. no? they dont want you there, yet they still care to ask if you are ok.. what is she on about?
(I know, is a nightmare, she is not meant to make much sense, specially as the emotional one she is.. I cant blame her too hard )
NOW SUN~ OHOHOHOHOHHHHHHH
oh HE HE DOES SHOW SOO MUCH~ isnt it.. curious? of all the jokes they can make.. is ppl saying sorry ! what they show us? again, I expected actors or bloopers like other channel did! but.. now..
isnt it curous, right after he tells Eclipse to kill himself, he dreams of him saying sorry, sure, is clear Eclipse is not happy nor all sappy. not even wanting to be there with them any longer than BM did.. not saying "I hope im welcome back"-- nothing!
Eclipse showed up, say his words, and choose to walk away, Sun is clearly weird out .. yet- clearly hoping to see the lie,, he doesnt, Eclipse lose more than he wins.. so Sun is left to wonder- was it true? he means it?
we know Sun feared him. then hated him- has every reason to- yeeeet.. Sun has to know.. he is mad at the shell of how was a enemy. maybe having Eclipse saying sorry is the thing he needs to let go of this anger , just like Lunar did
Lunar faced the big bad wolf- only to see a mere AI, broken and lost, lying to itself hoping to gain some sense of control over a life he cant even run away from..
Sun maybe needed to tell itself, via Moon
"thats not the man that hurted you, thats the ghost of the past.. let it go" Moon is that side of him telling him to let go, and when things got too wild, his "reason" just had to leave-
I feel thats when Sun stayed to yell, feeling too much stress confusion and cringe even
(I have more to say but may do a post later on. idk)
last joke video was not canon at all, yet this one is clearly tied to canon.. soo.. this has to mean something!!
IM NOT LOOKING TOO DEEP YOU ARE ANON!
I hope my ramble isnt too long! but yea. I may explin myself better later on. just- I feel the fact this is DREAM and not an AU means a lot..
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they haven't quite turned on vcarb the way they did mclaren but from what i've read that seems to be bc daniel keeps saying "it's not the same problem as mclaren" when like idk dude if the only time you've finished a race ahead of yuki was bc you got put on softs at the end of the race it is smelling very shades of mexico '22 to me. just without the having to make up a time penalty bc u punted yuki off the track.
i can say yuki is already getting the lando treatment though. "hOW MANY RACES HAS HE WON AND YOU DARE SAY HES PERFORMING BETTER THAN AN 8 TIME GP WINNER?" (ya i'll go to the top floor of my apartment and shout it into the void through a megaphone too what are you going to do about it) only this time there's a heavy dose of racism added in. the amount of people i have seen calling yuki a "pokémon" derogatorily and refusing to admit the racist connotations there are wild. not to mention the ableist terms i've seen be used to refer to his height. it's all very gross and yet again daniel says nothing to even try to prevent it. it's wild how someone always has to get harassed by his fans regardless of if he fails or succeeds.
ok so like first of all yikes. i rly rate yuki but im v selective w my online (especially my tumblr)
experience so i rly almost never venture out of my mclaren-centred bubble, which means i never rly see what ppl say abt him. 'pokemon' is actually vile like thats so clearly racist bc its not even a pun of his name at all or any sort of reference to his personality?? AND the fact that its a cartoon w the infantilising implications of that... ku's essay on the infantilisation of east asian drivers u will always be famous.... like u guys ever noticed how nyck is also rly short and has a youthful face and nobody ever talked abt him in the way they talk abt yuki? much to think abt
now. permission to be mean here but even if its 'not the same problem as mclaren' is the problem not STILL the fact that daniel in his 10+ year career hasnt bothered to understand the way the engineering of f1 cars works in like any material way and thats the reason he always struggles to identify his driving issues / has a disconnect with his chassis unless its tailored exactly to what he already likes and knows how to drive? i saw that bit from newey's book about how max and checo give rly good feedback and so did webber and vettel and it was kind of subtly implying that during the bit in between (the daniel era) he designed less effective cars be he wasnt getting enough precise feedback.... i genuinely havent been able to sleep at night since. like it felt like smth slotted in my head like aaaah this has been the problem all along. if only daniel wasnt so busy going on podcasts making fun of the idea of women in motorsport and actually spent some time to do some way overdue physics homework... lol. Imao even
the truth of the situation is yuki is in the best form of his career and also wiping the floor w daniel. like factually so. EVEN with team orders favouring daniel so his fans cant say its bc of that like they did with mclaren. i genuinely think its quite sad the amount of personal stock daniel fans have clearly invested in this mans career and how much it bothers them when he doesnt perform to their expectations - like he's ur driver, swallow it and accept it, because thats what he's been doing to try to move on. doing all this intense online hate bullshit only makes him look bad bc it highlights how badly and for how long he rly has been embarrassingly underperforming. but by this point it feels like they WANT him to underperform bc they crave that martyr underdog victimised figure to root for and fight for - which is why ur totally right anon, that someone always inevitably gets harrassed regardless of if daniel is failing or succeeding.
i will say one thing which is that i rly dont think daniel is at all aware of whatever the fuck his fans do on twitter and instagram (and deffo not tumblr lmao). so i dont think this is an issue of like him telling his fans to chill out - and it doesnt work anyways, bc lando literally has made talking abt how much cyberbullying sucks a part of his personality and theres still some rly mean and hateful lando fans (not in a fun way like me<3 lol) (i hate on my own blog and in discord groupchats). so like thats not necessarily on him, its more on netflix for making him the lowest common denominator guy to like, ykwim? also the unfortunate reality is that despite the tshirts and the kneeling (or no kneeling) no one rly seems to stand up to defend the drivers of colour who literally constantly get SUCH vitriol thrown towards them w any occasion. im not expecting daniel of all ppl to say anything abt it ngl
#i still think we just have to wait another couple months and we'll start seeing the vcarb is mistreating daniel discourse#ive been on f1blr long enough to see the patterns#anon#ask#daniel#meta#yuki
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*hands you cursed content* *hands you cursed content* *hands you cursed content* *hands you cur
the idea of envy eventually becoming mei’s patron troll is so inherently comical that i needed to draw this.
more fmastuck thoughts under the cut
ok this is different from the fmastuck i was originally thinking of but that old art of wecansexy’s fmastuck got me thinking abt the homunculi as trolls and where they’d fall on the hemospectrum + their dreaming moons so... (presume the godtiers are the same as wecansexy’s, bc those were some Good Godtier choices)
Wrath as a Fuchsia is Completely Correct but I think specifically he’d be a human/troll hybrid living among the humans so he wouldn’t LOOK like a troll in any obvious way. Derse dreamer obviously. wrath kind of bothers everybody equally- which isn’t saying much, bc he doesn’t talk to everyone much at all- but he does take note of ling and lanfan for a little while. also is the one to get winry involved in the session- she’d been kept in the dark about what was happening “for her own safety.” no one is happy about this.
Pride as a violet blooded seadweller is also correct imo. pride trolls riza (and sometimes ed, but rarely), and father provides pride with a human disguise, somehow.
Lust would be a seadweller imo? i cant see her as a purple blood. obviously not all purps are clowncore but like... idk, it just feels more correct for them both to be seadwellers. but purple blood is fine. theyre both derse dreamers too, again obviously. lust trolls roy.
greed is where i think it gets very Inch Resting bc i think greed would actually be a cerulean blood and a prospit dreamer. i understand that red was chosen bc Color Matching but i rusts have the highest likelihood of psychic powers and i think that doesnt rly track for him?? even if he were an outlier who didnt. he bothers ling, but we know this
envy is a mutant, specifically a lime blood, partially because i think its funny but also because i think it makes sense for him. but this is a Secret that only father knows. envy instead masquerades as an olive blooded troll. limes were said to have special powers, so in his case im taking that as his shapeshifting. he’s also a dual dreamer! he starts off bothering ed, but eventually becomes mei’s “patron” troll. mei does not like listening to his whinging. he is so annoying
sloth is an indigo blood, same as wecansexy’s, and starts the game w/ his prospit dreaming self dead, killed by pride to dissuade sloth from sleeping and to keep him working on whatever their plans are in this au. sloth talks to no one. it’s too much of a pain.
gluttony is a bronze blood, and a prospit dreamer. gluttony tries to talk to al and at some pt they’re forced to work together, but y’know. once he lets the cannibalism slip (which is quick, bc gluttony is not smart). al kind of doesn’t want to speak to him.
also, mei’s sprite is xiao-mei, bc ofc it is. lanfan’s is old man fu
#my art#fmastuck#fullmetal alchemist#mei chang#envy the jealous#homestuck#is that a tamagotchi phone yes i couldnt think of what else to draw
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more complaining
its really starting to sink in just how shitty of a friend my roommate has been to me since his break up. he’s letting poor mental health be an excuse for all of his shortcomings and doesn’t care at all about how much harder my life is because of it. he doesn’t give a shit that im the one who cleans everything or that im constantly picking up after him. he literally only cares about himself. only cares about something im doing if it pertains to him. just the other day i went out with him and our other friend so he could take pictures for a zine he’s in and when i brought up the possibility of us stopping by trader joes on the way home he just said “i dont want to do that” and nothing else. like. literally all you would have to do is drive there and wait in the parking lot. we’re already going out together and trader joes is on the way home. but you can’t even do something that small for me. because you get nothing out of it. he is so fucking selfish and i am done making excuses for his laziness. if he doesn’t wake up and smell the fucking roses im done. i cant keep someone in my life who will never have my best interest at heart. i can keep supporting someone who refuses to support himself. he is honestly baggage for me at this point and it makes me really sad because we used to be such good friends. i still want to call him a good friend. but he just isnt. he cant be serious or responsible and if someone asks him to he demonizes them. actually he demonizes anyone who doesnt give him what he wants but in a way that he clearly knows its unjustified so he just says he doesnt feel that way but his actions speak for themselves. even his words cant hide his true feelings most of the time. “its not like im mad at them its just…. yeah idk” is something he said about someone he was seeing that decided they just wanted to stay friends. um that sounds like youre mad to me buddy! anyways sorry im just ranting atp. im just going back and thinking about all of the little things erik has done that made him hard to live with and im realizing just how much dead weight he’s been in my life. like im literally supporting us both in a lot of ways. i buy all of the kitchen cleaning supplies. i pay the bills on time and dont constantly bother him when he owes me money. i actually fucking clean the place unlike him. i even fucking. so i bought paper towels a couple months ago when it was my turn and i bought a 24 pack. as you do. we run out and its eriks turn and he buys…. a two pack. so im like well fuck that im not providing for our household so i buy a two pack when its my turn. motherfucker then buys a SINGLE ROLL of paper towels when its his turn. claims its because he was low on money. oh but you can afford this whole fucking apartment to yourself? get a fucking grip man
im so upset with him. my therapy appointment could not come sooner. i know i am actually sick rn but the stress of all of this is definitely making it worse. i want to scream in his face to get real and stop wallowing in misery. stop feeling sorry for yourself and start making improvements in your life because nobody is going to do that shit for you.
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akaza’s backstory
heyo so i decided to do live notes on me reading this guys backstory. my mom says she literally cried when she read a year before me, and that its really sad so i wanted to keep my live reactions bcs this isnt my first time screaming at the plot twists in demon slayer. i start the live notes in the beginnings of chapter 154 and im also reading the manga in japanese so i might have mistranslated/misunderstood some things lol
SPOILERS BELOW THIS IS YOUR WARNING
initial thoughts on akaza: idk hes pretty fruity like the mugen train arc “oni ni nare, kyoujurou” in japanese was omg just. so fucking fruity. and he said the same freaking thing to giyuu omgs- also he hates douma and wants to kill kokushibo but idk what to really feel about him. anyways ive seen the little hints at the girl holding his hand and he tried to punch it, and his head grew back bc he said he had to get stronger???
live notes start here (just jot notes):
- damn she pulling out the existential crisis on akaza
- oh his dads sick boo hoo
- woah wait is he a pickpocket?
- oh my fucking wait is that why he looks like a basketball???
- holy shit is this where he becomes a basketball?
- like every time he gets caught stealing he gets a mark as punishment
- damn how many times did u get caught bruh
- welp idk how hed steal without his hands
- oof he just got called a demon child well hes a demon moon now
- oh wait my mom specified for me it means a kid who was born with teeth
- HOLY SHIT NAME DROP DUDE THATS A NICE NAME
- OMG HIS DAD KILLED HIMSELF JUST LIKE ZENITSUS TEACHER
- dude this suicide letter like ‘i cant take medicine bought by stolen money sorry for making myself a bother for you live a good life’
- oh hes mourning by hurting himself fighting people
- “even if it took 100 years for my dad to heal” and he kept half of that promise
- damn akazas backstory is just him getting beat up by everyone he meets
- and hes just like taking the beatings bc he wanted his dad to get medicine
- well fuck medicine for special diseases does cost a lot poor akaza
- and his dad just killed himself anyway
- still dont know who the girl is
- damn i wouldnt be able to stand getting whipped and bones broken for my parents
- huh he beat the living shit out of seven adults
- and he didnt get a scratch and hes also a kid
- who tf is that guy it seems akaza also has the same question
- oh is this guy who applauded akaza some sort of sensei i mean he has a dojo
- why does akazas personality sort of remind me of inosukes ‘fight me bitch’ type thing
- oh shit theyre gonna fight
- that wasnt so much of a fight than a man slapping a kid silly
- nother name drop keizou
- OOF AKAZAS FACE LOL
- oh akaza is gonna take care of a girl?
- HOLY SHIT ITS THAT GIRL I THINK WAIT HER NAME IS KOYUKI
- I SMELL BUDDING TEEN ROMANCE HERE JUST SAYING
- OMG ITS SO AWKWARD AND CUTE
- and akaza has someone to take care of again!
- aww cute moment between them
- also fireworks! yay! hes saying he can piggyback ride her there that so sweet
- oh shit shes crying
- oh thats so cute that their only purposes are to protect those they love
- omgs and akaza on his little training arc with keizou like how tanjirou did with urokodaki and both are taking care of a younger girl who is bedridden- the parallels
- holy shit three year time skip
- oh ok koyuki is better now
- OMG THEY DO LIKE EACH OTHER AAAAAAAAA THEYRE SO SWEET AND SHES SO NERVOUS AND HES SO NERVOUS
- OH HES GONNA SAY YES TO THE MARRIAGE PROPOSAL
- HES GONNA FOLLOW HIS DADS SUICIDE NOTE AND LIVE A GOOD LIFE
- HE EVEN VISITED THE GRAVE HELP
- WAIT SHIT NO HES A DEMON SOMETHING GOES WRONG
- NONONONONO WAIT SHIT I WAS ACTUALLY SORT OF STARTING TO LIKE THESE TWO
- OMG HES ADMITTING THAT THEYRE HIS TWO FAVOURITE PEOPLE
- wait whats this abt poison
- WAIT WHAT POISON
- THIS IS TURNING VERY FAST WHAT THE FUCK
- WHAT THEY WERE BOTH POISONED AND FUCKING DIED WHAT
- BECAUSE OF THE FREAKING DOJO WTFFFFFF
- I- I NEED TO THINK ABOUT THIS
- ok were back and ready to react
- wait what promise
- CALLBACK TO THE FIREWORKS
- ohh shes saying she wants to watch the fireworks with akaza next year and the year after too... oh shit she died.
- damn so both their parents killed themselves bc of their kids
- ohhh this is so sweet but sad knowing she just died
- AND HE PROMISED TO PROTECT HER BUT OH NOOOOOO
- OH SHIT HES KILLING THEM ALL WITH HIS BARE HANDS
- DAMN THATS BRUTAL AND TWISTED OF AKAZA
- BUT DAMN THIS IS HIS WAY OF MOURNING HOLY FUCK
- EVERY SINGLE STUDENT OF THE RIVAL DOJO?!?!?!?!!??!
- HOLY SHIT ITS MUZAN JACKSON
- DO THE MOONWALK PLS
- OH SHIT THIS IS WHEN MUZAN WAS THINKING ABOUT MAKING THE TWELVE KIZUKI
- OH SHIT AKAZA RLY SAID MOVE BITCH TO MUZAN
- HE PUNCHED AKAZA I REPEAT HE PUNCHED THROUGH AKAZAS SKULL
- i feel like this is sad because it wasnt even muzans fault that the two of them died it was just poison
- he even admits it out loud himself that his own story is sad help
- hes even completely ok with the fact he wont go to the same place as the three most important people in the world to him
- and giyuu is just standing there
- lmao tanjiro is just always yelling for demons to stop
- wait what tanjiro ur sword-???
- oh shit it slipped from his grip
- sorry i snorted at the fact that tanjiro decked akaza in the face instead
- i think im gonna stop there the backstory is over
- i feel horribly empty inside after finishing that chapter
- think i might just go cry
current thoughts on akaza: damn i understand why ppl are so sad about this, holy shit this is so sad like i have no words im probably gonna have to come back to this post tomorrow to give my thoughts after thinking about this all night
#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#akaza#upper rank three#backstory#live notes#japanese#spoilers#demon slayer spoilers#infinity castle arc#tw#mentions of suicide#mentions of murder#mentions of death#kibutsuji muzan#tomioka giyuu#kamado tanjiro#keizou#hakuji x koyuki#koyuki
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MOVING ON AND NOT TAKING NCT WITH ME
dont get me wrong though im not leaving tumblr haha i love this blogging shit too much.
Okay. That title sucked but I don’t have any ideas right now. Anyway, I’m gonna talk about how I’m now moving on with my life and shit. Adulting is a huge reason for that but I’m not hating it. I love the fact the I make money with the job that I love and buy literally everything I want, I feel like I’m on a new level of self improvement because let’s be for real, the pandemic made a lot of people think small for themselves including me and so after the pandemic and all that aftermath, I’m glad that I’m actually alive right now even though I got covid once and two, I’m finally back on track again and life is pretty challenging still of course but I’d rather have this, than feel so useless to the core.
In line with that, given the things that I mentioned above, obviously I’m busy af making shit happen, getting shit done and all that jazz, for a couple of months now, I don’t know shit about nct or any of their promotions or solo gigs. Of course I do know a few, I do know a few update about my man Taeyong but not as updated as I was before. You get what I’m saying? I’m usually on Twitter 24/7 because of kpop, but now I think I don’t have Twitter installed already, not even sure.
I missed the wayv fanmeet which i regret 100% because they performed, the last time i saw them they didnt. and dude i really want to see them perform because i feel like thats what im missing already. i saw nct dream perform already, but 5 members lang. but dude, wanting to see wayv perform is a whole new level of longing.
And now that 7 Dream is coming to my country and will have a concert for 2 days, Idk what I’ll feel though because, I didn’t even bother buying tickets, and someone was offering me free tix but I didn’t accept because I don’t know I feel like a worthy dreamzen will be happy accepting that ticket but if that was me, yeah I’ll be happy but I’ll be going just for the pictures and shit. And yo everyone knows im a 127zen so that is that. Tho my dreamies are like sons to me I just dont get too excited when it comes to them right, unlike 127 i’d scream my lungs out. Dude I fucking cried during the link and didn’t go to work the day after.
Anyways, point is. Personally, I’m not yet ready to say goodbye to NCT yet because we all know that loving nct 127 was not just a phase for me. I love them even though nctzens were like 20pcs per country at that time haha, I loved them even though there were not enough contents yet, i loved them even before 127 got a full album, i love them before instagram and bubble subscriptions.
But life is making me leave nct where I left them which is the beautiful 2 Baddies era. I’m just so busy right now that I cant keep up anymore, and that’s why it got me thinking ‘hey, maybe it’s time to let go? and leave the crazy world of ncity?’ and move on with my life and invest with the real deal??
Do you guys feel the same way at some point?
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breaking down this fic for no reason other than im bored - i stopped at chapter 24 i cant do this in one go so maybe a part 1
its such a white perspective clearly because malik doesnt come home from a party and after panicking that his mums gonna kill him she doesnt say anything and ??? idk the fact that they drink they’re not religious in any way shape or form despite the fact that religions especially islam have a heavy cultural impact so theres no excuse as to why hes a complete atheist. ik this fic was made in 2014 but damn these ppl hate muslims fr we never get rep in fics??? anyways altaïr is a complete homophobe and has a little flirty banter with des but thats his cousin ? uhm. des is like ‘no dont be homophobic’ and then says ‘nvm ur not relevant enough to be cancelled’ thats just chapter 1 btw
malik has a blog where he shits on altaïr and he made it after accidentally sleeping with him because uhm he has nothing better to do… this is so OOC even if altaïr is a complete homophobe and misogynist i cant see malik make an anonymous blog and everything to call out his immorality… PURELY for his immorality its not like a tumblr blog he made sassbadgers just to shit on altaïr… and then he has a moment where he responds to an altaïr stan, she says hey women are made for men and malik was like i dont believe in any religions so im not responding to that but thats an L for you anyways cuz wtf
ok but islam literally says that women are humans and shouldnt be treated like sexual objects wtf do u mean ? this is a basic principle? youre mum is muslim? hello.?
HE WAS BORN WHERE.
then he continues to laugh at said delusion fan for thinking shes married to altaïr… i know ppl like that are real… but this adds nothing to the story and given 2014 the whole ‘women getting involved in my gay ship’ drives me insane
this series does not have to be 75 chapters btw its full of fillers and irrelevant shit like why do i need to read about malik getting on the bus texting kadar for giggles idgaf
altaïr likes christmas but hes not religious my man ur dad was muslim and ur family did nothing to uphold that? huh? are they all islamophobes?
why does malik keep referring to altaïr as Mr Ibn-La’Ahad if he has no respect for him why is he addressing this guy appropriately just call him a bitch and get it over with
malik in this fic is a pretentious bitch. stop using big words just cuss him out and go taking so much time just to tell me kadar cant read big words - chapter 6 btw
leonardo and malik being roommates is cute tho i’ll give them that - at some point leo has a crush on malik i think to stir the tea but it doesnt work because… they’re too alike in this fic? they finish each other’s sentences type of alike not every gay man needs to date each other fuck sake
WHY IS MALIK TELLING KADAR ABOUT HIS SEX LIFE IS THAT NORMAL… I DONT TELL NAT ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT I DO EW and why does kadar keep asking ‘when are u gonna tell mum’ this really really really fucking annoys me as someone with a religious mum can kadar stfu shit like coming out to someone who doesnt seem alright with it is practically dangerous?????
yk how ppl said altaïr was aloof for not catching on al mualims evil plans - yeah they seemed to really fucking run with this trope good god hes so dumb its pissing me off this isnt altaïr - he says hes not bothered to take care of his stock shares or whatever ??? the source of their grandmas wealth HUH… tf do u mean ik its pre development altaïr but he wasnt neglecting responsibilities he was just a huge fucking asshole that fucked up cuz of his ego so what is going on here
im not reading this shit theres SOOOOOO many convos and NOOOOOOTTHIIINNGGG HAPPPEENNNIIIIINNGGGG
so altaïr thinks the writer behind sassbadger is a woman and is tryna flirt with ‘her’ its funny and i like it tbh but shit drags so slowly ffs
ig they’re falling in love but altaïr and malik message eachother about how maliks being nicer to him… but the reason is so dumb ‘because u purposefully make videos for ppl to laugh at u how can u be okay with that?’ what. isnt he homophobic and misogynistic what are u talking about. how is that a reason to be nicer either shit on him or stfu
also it doesnt make sense if u dont like someone esp because of their morals then… u wouldn’t interact with them on a happy social level i dont like that maliks already like bantering with him
Malik: Hey
Leo: Hey!
Malik: Sex?
Leo: Weren’t u meant to be studying
Malik: Well Im not
maybe im nitpicking rn but man the sex is so awkward like no foreplay? no setting the mood? the little convos dont make sense like if hes asking for sex hes clearly not… gonna study…? like what this author is so OOC with everyone
DES EZIO MALIK AND INTERNET PPL KEEP TELLING HIM TO STOP BEING AN ASSHOLE AND HIS RESPONSE IS ‘im not gay! i dont like gays! keep ur dick away from me!’ wheres the critical altaïr gone this isn’t fun to read the writing itself isnt bad its just like… so much and so little happening at the same time why dont you tell me how hes so afraid of being gay instead of telling me ezio is an ‘ally’
why did they make maria thorpe… posh? is it cuz shes british?
if altaïr and malik are falling in love in chapter 15 wtf is gonna happen for the other 60 chapters ???
altaïr slept with claudias friends ? that feels weird uhm
also i forgot to say malik ended up moving in with leo or smth and then he was like no im going home i didnt quite pick up why maybe i was scrolling too fast but do u see what i mean? so much stalling that adds nothing to the story
the world building was going well it was really interesting seeing how the family works idk why they villanised giovanni but yk whatever william miles was a shit dad and des ran away to his grandma who cut william out of the will and giovanni took williams side cuz des was ‘being a lazy boy’ so he got cut out too and despite the auditores being rich and having 4 production companies to their name they’re still assholes who treat des like shit except for ezio and claudia now altaïr wants justice
see? going well interesting story so why tf are they making altaïr exotic and saying he knows 10 languages ffs - ‘English, Arabic, Hebrew, Spanish, German, Italian, French, Russian, enough Finnish to ask directions and very little Korean.’ i wonder why they’re all (but two) european languages… what does he need to do with all those languages tf how exotic
ok so uhm altaïr fought ezio cuz of the whole des thing uhm very counterproductive but now they have matching lips scars. this is so silly thats the only word i can think ezio wasnt even involved with des’ situation even ezios like wtf are u attacking me for i… is this the only way altaïr could get a scar? tf
again kadar doesnt need to tell his brother hes gonna masturbate tf is wrong with this author
kadar liking a muslim girl is nice tho
??? ITS RAMADAN? YOU CANT HAVE SEX IT BREAKS THE FAST… if it was during the night it’d be fine just have a shower asap but i mean. COME ON.
ik altaïrs not religious but he eats ham…
how does the author know all these words… wdym ‘surah’ dont tell me the authors muslim
whys altaïr fighting ezio AGAIN weve established it doesnt help anything
#assassin's creed#ac#ac1#altmal#altaïr ibn la’ahad#malik al sayf#idk what to tag this#fic review#text
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loustat, armand/daniel <3 and armand/louis and armand/lestat while we're at it
thank you for not stopping at the first two. these guys might not be on penny dreadful levels of polycule insanity, but they are nearly there. im going to give you a novel bc well where else am i gonna do this? im gonna reference book (including later ones i havent read) stuff so if ur avoiding that for some reason uhhhh consider not doing that bc spoilers are fun
loustat: when i read the book, i did not have time for this ship. i hated both of the characters and the writing was so bad that i just did not want to hear it. however…well, we all saw what happened in real time this fall. i was always interested in some of the broad strokes of the book, and the show filled them in in a way that really clicked for me. i love how they are endgame like if they were my friends id make sure they stayed on separate continents but i LOVE to see them bother each other as a viewer. why must they keep trying even though they have irreconcilable differences? theyre soulmates thats why. it’s an interesting ship bc of the unreliable narration. i love the shows version with them having a courtship and a real relationship near the beginning. gay enough indeed!! the way lestat loves is so interesting to me so of course im interested in the love of his life. yes it’s sometimes the wrong kind of love expression but at its heart it’s sharing a coffin and anything for louis (which isnt an ideal like lestat maybe think about urself but. cant go on lestat trauma tangent!!)
armand/daniel: love this one as well but for its normalcy. and yes it’s normalcy amidst completely batshit antics, but still!! like it’s a ship of boyfriends not husbands you know? and yet i take it way too seriously. i think it really gives armand a chance at something good. yes he repeats some patterns from when he was a human in a relationship with a vampire but i think there are crucial differences. i love all the pet names too. oh i should comment on them in the show. idk tall armand and notblond daniel does remove some of the layers but of course itd be fun to see him fuck that old man and i hope they got up to some fun stuff in the past!
armand/louis: i could almost stand the parts of the book with armand. idk it just seemed so much more tolerable. you cant even say oh i was young and just liked a relationship that seemed less complicated on the surface bc of what i was shipping back then. so yeah i do like it as a ship and i think it’s hilarious that they build this wonderful life together in the later book canon and then lestats like hey louis want to live a life that youll hate with me? and louis goes immediately. thats comedy baby. but it’s nice that they both have this place (their relationship) where they can kinda chill and recoop.
armand/lestat: i love mess!! bc i like armand, i do think it’s too bad lestat rejected him. it totally makes sense for who lestat is, and maybe armand wasnt reaching for him for sustainable reasons, but i think itd be fun if they got together in a different situation, sometime in the era of the books or after. just for fun! theyre in each others lives anyway.
ive also seen daniel/louis and daniel/lestat which are both funny and both ruby approved. i love how these vampires are always falling into each others beds, so i support every configuration possible (except for characters i hate they should die :) ). theyre like the kissing family on snl to me
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I dont like to say it because some white people might be weird about it but...
(Happy vent? Happy rant? Infodump? Idk if this is accepted here cause its not really a question just me being happy and proud but ye!)
I was raised white american with some dutch and polish influence because that was the closest my family had to their cultures on my mom's side with my dad's side being an enigma due to family dieing while my parents generation was quite young and disconnecting and a butt load of trauma. That and some light sprinkles from my half brothers(my dads son, we dont share a mom) italian side and the whispers of scotch-irish my great grandpa gave us.
As a kid, ive always felt a connection to native american culture. I really loved movies about it and it felt right. Ive always had a sort of connection to nature with impecible intuition. Ive felt watched over and protected by natural spirits that i couldnt see and felt a deep and on going connection to the earth. I could see spirits and creatures no one else could and picked up things others didnt. I felt ig... "Awake" to nature and the spirit world.
I substituted myself with wiccanism and paganism because it felt the most right at the time and did my best to keep it white/celtic/polish as to not appropriate other cultures. I was like this from basically 12 to 19. I came out as bi around 13 and trans/nonbinary around 16.
Finally, when i was 19, my mom bothered to mention that my great grandpa on her mom's side was an inuit man(some form of first Nations Canadian) and my great grandma on her dad's side was cherokee. Suddenly i had all these native american heritages that made so much more sense, especially concerning our more native features.
The more i read up on my native cultures and two-spiritism, everything in my life started to make more sense. My gender finally felt right, my orientation, my masculinity, my affinity towards nature and natural sources. The fact that two spirits, in many tribes, are considered closer to the great spirit and a blessing unto the tribe and the family( when i was made to feel unwanted and burdenous to my family due to disability and mental illness). It showed me that even if white society never understood me, i would of been and am loved and respected by my native communities and sometimes i cant help but cry when i think about it.
Being native is hard and every new tragedy being unearthed makes it even harder. Thanksgiving is becoming unbearable by the year but honestly, reconnecting and acknowledging this part of me i subconsciously knew was there and finally learning about my native ancestors has given me so much healing and pride. Ik pple tend to dislike the combinations of what white pple call "horoscope gemstone instagram magic stupidity" aka natural religious practices and non-white community but knowing all this time that even if i cant prove it, what i see and feel is real and that my spirituality, gender, orientation and race are combined in just the label two spirit is what makes me... Well me just brings me so much happiness. It fits like a glove.
Ik that just because you feel a connection to a culture throughout your life dosent mean you are that culture obviously but to me... Idk. Not to get spiritual but it feels like some source of power, be it ancestors or whatever, was always pushing me to investigate and now everything suddenly feels so right. The final puzzle piece of my nativeness was placed and it makes me feel so complete 💚💚💚
thank you for sharing your beautiful story 💕
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what is the problem w ppl charging money for stuff THEY made and that YOU DO NOT NEED TO ENJOY THE GAME IN ANY WAY and most of all THAT YOU CAN JUST IGNORE IF YOU CAN'T AFFORD IT
man idk what hole u came from but u literally just cant ignore it? aside from the fact that this issue is plastered everywhere and has been going on for years since the "conception" of sims 4, its literally saying im ignoring x even though its fucking up the culture and space of this community i actively dwell in because i wanna feign ignorance. why dont u read this post, anon, or countless other posts that circulated simblr, the community ur (clearly, hopefully) a part of? and since you've sent this question to other people as well, i want you to reread @/llazyneiph's answer.
i cant afford cc too, just like how i cant afford a lot of things in life. even early access ones and i actively use early access cc in my own personal game. but it doesnt mean i cant criticise perma paywalled cc. haven't u ever been so frustrated finding out that the one cc u wanted has been paywalled for over a year? then wow, ur lucky.
anon, i dont think its wrong to reward cc creators monetary incentive so they'd keep making cc. honestly if i had the means, i wanna support a cc creator too. i love supporting artists, but i especially love the ones who clearly love sharing and devoting time on the sims just as much as i do. dont u wanna support someone like that instead of someone who treats this game and its players as their own personal money making cow?
with that said, dont u find it greedy, anon? the entire practice screams greed. we had an entire situation about doxxing just months ago. were u sleeping under a rock when that happened or were u actively feigning ignorance on that as well?
idk anon, i dont wanna do the same and feign ignorance on such a prevalent issue in this community. it left a huge scar. even as a newcomer who has barely scratched the surface of this whole debacle, i can see and understand that its bad. not that hard to do tbh.
then again, maybe u dont treat it as a community. maybe its just a shopping space for u. and u just want to shop freely and ignore the trash all around coz yeah, u cant be bothered to at least fake solidarity with the majority who, more or less, cant afford whats in stores. i dont wanna say it but maybe its coming from my personal experience but the fact that you can ignore it really makes me think you're privileged as fuck. or im projecting. it just reeks tbh.
so I'll do u a better question: what prompted u to send this question to multiple people, small and large simblrs alike, anon? is it because you consider this as "ooo petty simblr drama"? is scamming money out of people who dont know any better not an issue worth taking notice to you? does the action of simply being informed take a huge physical, emotional, mental toll on you that you literally just cant?
sorry to break it to u, but it affects u just as much as it affects other people. maybe not now, but soon, it'll affect u. even early access creators i actively reblog from took this situation differently tbh. imagine until mods and cc alike will be banned. would u then still ignore that?
#long post#sry im surprised i got this ask#i really hate this issue and those who can actively ignore it#maybe im reaching but it eerily feels similar to how the privileged lot can actively choose to ignore social issues too#i get it ykno we all cant make opinions or smth but at least be aware of the issues the community u clearly dwell in have#asks
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