Jazzy Doodle

....howdy, everyone! Looooong time no see 😅😅

I’m sitting in my room right now, waiting as a friend drives over to spend the last few hours of 2022 with me, and I thought I’d try to put down a few of my thoughts as I reflect on the year. It’s been a while since I checked in for real with y’all and for that I am very sorry. (fwiw I dropped contact with quite a few folks irl too, so it wasn’t just you lol)

2022 repeatedly hit my blindside and hit it HARD. I spent a lot of the year in reaction-mode as surprises both good and bad kept coming at me fast; this year had some of the worst lows of my life, but also some of the best highs. It was overwhelming, to say the least.

At the risk of being too personal, here’s an overview of some of My Notable 2022 Moments:

Start the year about 8 months into a really good headspace, to the point where my psychiatrist agrees that if I’m still A-ok by springtime then I can likely step off my antidepressants!!

Help move my Grandma out of her home and into a memory care facility

Have surgery

May 7: Go dancing with friends I haven’t seen in years, to celebrate being alive and together and that I’ve finally finished my degree

May 10: Find out my parents have filed for divorce and will be selling my childhood home, that our family build by hand, by the end of the summer

May 14: GRADUATE COLLEGE!

May 15: One of my best friends goes in for surgery because her pain-management implant is no longer functional. There are complications and she needs 3 more surgeries before the month is over

Return to martial arts after years away

Help babysit the very sweet toddler-age child of someone I went to gradeschool with. (Have an existential breakdown about how old I suddenly am and how unlikely it is at this point that I’ll get to be a mom)

All summer: help clear out my Grandma’s things from her house, move my dad’s things to his new house, move the rest of our family’s things to my mom’s new house, and do repairs and cleaning at our old house

Have to start reminding myself again to get out of bed and eat and not walk into traffic

A best friend flies in from out-of-state to go with me to a disco night

See the Colorado Avalanche Stanley Cup Championship Parade!

Make a great costume and go to the Renaissance Festival in drag

Officially move out of our house; August and September are time soup

A friend from college that I’ve dearly missed moves back to Colorado

SEE MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE LIVE

My brother gets injured

Our house sells

TWO of my job applications that I was really excited for pan out and I’m asked to interview for both of them. The one I like better calls and offers me the position within 3 days! I’m going to start part-time at the local library in January!!! 😭😆

I spend an amazing afternoon with a friend on a maybe-a-date... 👀

I see many friends and family and have a wonderful holiday season

  ....Realize I might feel ok again soon

 (and, as usual, I also saw a lot of great concerts this year!)

....WHEW. Like I said, it was A Lot All The Time. Sorry to overshare 😅  but I just - idk - I feel like I need to write it down somewhere so there’s a record of all the shit that I experienced in the last 12 months. And I feel like some of you are my legit friends and might care about some of these developments? lol idk 😅 sorry if that’s presumptuous.

Anyways, all this to say that I know I’m not particularly an outlier and that most people have crazy things happen all the time. That’s life! But I hope that if you had a rough year (like me), that things turn around for you soon (also like me?). There is always the promise of something wonderful happening just as much as there is the risk of something terrible; and I think growing up is learning to balance the threat of those two extremes without falling down for too long when a new circumstance hits you.

I grew so much in the last year and for the first time in a long time I’m actually excited about what the future might look like for me! 2023 will be hard and full of new challenges, but I think I’ll be ok. And I think you all will be, too.

💖💖💖

All of my love, forever and ever,

C.

tag!

hii~ so i got tagged by @snugglemejeon thank you so much ! i think this is really cute hehe (to the people i tagged: i’m sorry if i tagged you and we haven’t talked that much... i don’t know that many people on tumblr... and also, you don’t have to do this challenge, so feel free to ignore it !) 

rules are: (1) tag the person who tagged you (2) answer the questions (3) tag 10 people (sorry i don’t know that many people here on tumblr so i’m only gonna tag one or two :( but ps! if you wanna be friends with me, don’t hold back and just talk to me hehe) 

(1) how tall are you? 

i haven’t checked in a bit but i’m about 5′2″ (ish) so that’s around 158cm (*sighs* yeah i know... i’m pretty short) 

(2) what color and style is your hair?

i actually got a haircut yesterday before my blackpink concert hehe so now my hair is layered and it goes a little past my shoulders. i didn’t start growing out my hair until late last year since i used to always cut it short (like, a little above my shoulders) so yeah... i used to dye my hair a longgg longggg time ago but now it’s its original color which is dark brown 

(3) what color are your eyes? 

a solid brown (not totally light, but not too dark) (my mom has really pretty light brown eyes but they didn’t get passed down to me so ahhaha *cries*) 

(4) do you wear glasses? 

yes, but no (?) i have glasses but i don’t wear them 24/7 since my eyesight isn’t that bad... i only wear them in class when i’m too far away from the board. i have kinda circular, brown glasses (lmao, i know no one asked but...) 

(5) do you wear braces?

i used to wear braces a couple of years ago so now i just wear my retainers once a week (you’re supposed to wear them every night but whatever,,, i’m pretty lazy and irresponsible and my teeth haven’t shifted sooo once a week will do ahah) 

(6) what’s your fashion sense? 

i care about how i dress but i don’t worry about how i look all the time soooo... i’ll sum up my style in a few words: 26 year old single korean girl walking to an aesthetic cafe on a sunday afternoon. yeah. that’s basically my style. lol i hope you guys understand what i mean... if not, i’m terribly sorry

(7) full name? 

only a few people on tumblr know my name... but i don’t want to reveal it here since i know everyone can see this, and tumblr is the only social media platform where my identity is hidden sooo... 

but if you want to get to know me and learn my name then you can definitely message me or send something to me :) i’m nice, i swear

(8) when were you born?

july 2001; i’m 17 ;) 

(9) where are you from and where do you live now? 

i was born and currently live in los angeles, california however, i am 100% korean. both of my parents were born and raised in south korea. and yes, i am fluent in korean. 

(10) what school do you go to? 

i am a highschooler. and that’s all i’m gonna say. skool sucks :P

(11) what kind of student are you?

i would like to say that i’m more of a hard worker than a naturally smart person, but i am currently getting straight As and for those of you who live in the us, i’m taking 5 APs (which totally sucks :’( but i’m handling them kinda well... i think). and i don’t really like being complimented because one of my biggest fears is of me becoming arrogant so let’s move on,,, pls. 

(12) do you like school?

hell no. but i have to deal with it since everyone does so :/// school isn’t that bad if you daydream and think about bts all day hehe. but in all seriousness, i think school is okay if you have the right friends to hang out with and talk to 

(13) favorite subject? 

history!!! i know this is really weird since not a lot of people like history, but i love ittt!!! i think it’s really fun since it’s kinda like one big story of our world (i’m sorry, i’m such a dork)... i took ap art history last year and i fell in love with it! 

(14) favorite tv shows? 

i used to watch kdramas a longgg time ago, but i kinda stopped but idk why... but my favorite tv shows are friends, the office, stranger things, jane the virgin, etc, etc... i can literally name so many tv shows that i’ve watched but then i’d go rambling on and on and on and i don’t want to bore anyone...

(15) favorite movie? 

forrest gump !!! (and also, did anyone see the two bts movies? i watched both of them at cgv and i literally exploded when i saw the members... okay, moving on (sorry... i get off topic really easily)) 

(16) favorite books? 

i read a book called “pachinko” by min jin lee over the summer and it was so! freaking! good!!! i highly recommend it everyone~ it’s a historical fiction novel about 3-4 generations of this korean family who lived in korea and then moved to japan. it takes place a little before the korean war and it talks about the discrimination that koreans faced in japan at the time. i recently went to the library to check it out since i wanted to read it again but they didn’t have an english copy of the book so i’m reading it in korean at the moment. 

(17) favorite pastime? 

rewatching and rewatching and rewatching bangtan. oh, and streaming their new album ;) oh, and stressing over the new test questions on the fan cafe that the staff upload every week (i need to level up but the test is so hard... i cry every time) 

and writing for this blog! i originally made this blog to de-stress and write some scenarios and reactions and i didn’t know that people would actually like them and respond to them,,, so hey, thank you :) you make me happy every day 

(18) do you have any regrets? 

yes. too many to count. but i’m not gonna sit here and list them all lol

(19) dream job?

i don’t really know... but something in corporate law (?)

(20) would you ever like to be married? 

yessss! have you seen my entire blog??? it’s an entire fluff kingdom!!! i mean, i know that marriage is not just one big fluff and i know that it’s tough, but i would still like to get married one day 

i have my own little fantasies about how married life would be, but that’s a little secret so i’ll save it for next time ;) 

(21) would you like to have kids? 

as much as i love kids, i’m not too sure if i would want any... i mean, obviously my answer will change in the future, but i kinda want either no kids or just one kid... the responsibility of being a parent kinda freaks me out...

(22) how many?

oops, i kinda answered this already in (21) but i’ll answer again anyway: 0-1 

(23) do you like shopping? 

no, i absolutely LOVE shopping. i think i’m addicted lmao. 

psssss: i know no one asked, but my favorite retail shop is madewell

(24) what countries have you visited? 

ahhh finally... the question i’ve been waiting for... so if you get to know me, i really really really reallyyyyy love traveling and i’m so grateful for all the opportunities i’ve been given to travel at such a young age. 

so, let me just list all the places i’ve been to (an i know not all of these are countries, or out of the us, but just hear me out,,, okay?) : france, italy, south korea, mexico, us (hawaii, nevada, utah, etc (lol, i can’t remember all of them)) 

my favorite location out of all of these places is definitely italy <3 (italy has my heart)... i stayed at rome and i also visited pompeii and positano (which were absolutely stunning and beautiful). i went to rome last spring (around april/may) and i personally, really love sightseeing and history and since rome is full of those two things i reallyyy enjoyed it there. oh, and don’t even get me started with the food <3333 

i also really loved france... i stayed at paris and my favorite thing about paris was definitely the louvre museum (once again, i love art history) as well as this place called montmarte (ahh! it’s so pretty) 

and last but not least, (as much as i love love loveee south korea) i really enjoyed mexico! i love calming, relaxing vacation spots so i got to go to cancun (twice!) and snorkel and swim and see little fishies in the clear turquoise ocean... yeah, i miss it there... :( 

(25) scariest nightmare you have ever had

i would totally tell you guys, but it was too complicated so i’m not even gonna bother. 

(26) any enemies? 

i am a lover, not a fighter (hehe)

(27) any significant other?

does jungkook count? lmaooo it’s a joke... he doesn’t even know i exist lol. 

my answer is no. 

(28) do you get along with you family?

yes, yes i do.

(29) do you believe in miracles?

i believe things happen for a reason... so does that count? 

last but not least... (30) how are you?

i’m actually doing pretty well :))) i was in this really big emotional slump that kinda felt like a roller coaster ride last year, but i’m over it now so... yeah... i doing pretty well :) 

okay, so now that i’m done, i have to tag people, and like i said, i don’t talk to that many people on tumblr since i’m a loser lol so here are the people i’ll tag (sorry, i’m not gonna tag 10 people) : 

@pjmochii @jsuga @kpopsffct @ anyone who wants to do it... 

but yea, i seriously don’t know that many people since i haven’t been on tumblr for a long time, so i’m sorry to the people who i tagged (if i haven’t talked to you a lot, i’m sorry... i’ll try to be a better person and try to talk to you more ...) 

Magicians Fan Questionnaire

By @high-queen-hedge-witch

I tag @sadlittlenerdking, @magicobsessedclinicallydepressed, @el-and-q, and @thehedgewitches

1) What’s your name/nickname?

Jessica, but I prefer the nickname Jessa

2) When did you start watching The Magicians?

When it first aired.

3) Who’s your favorite character?

I've accepted Julia Wicker as my goddess and saviour. I've also loved Alice since the beginning and I love her still, with all her flaws and all the shitty things she does. I truly believe she wants to do better.

4) What’s your favorite season?

Season 2. I've rewatched it a few times and there's just something about it that makes me feel good.

5) What’s your favorite episode?

I really liked The Flying Forest and The Rattening from season 2. But my new fave from season 3 is Do You Like Teeth?

6) Any ships?

Queliot of course. But as a wlw I love Wickoff. I'm also digging Julia x Alice as an awkward friendship/rivalry thing that has lots of indefinable tension idk?

7) Favorite plot line? 

Julia being a goddess. Alice's complicated feelings about bringing magic back. Margo fighting to be recognized as an equally capable and important ruler of fillory and then being actually elected high king.

8) Have you read the books?

No, but I'm thinking of starting to get into them as audio books.

9) If yes, did you read the books or watch the show first?

10) What made you start watching the show?

I think I saw ads for it on those little popup banner things that come across the screen while you're watching other shows on the same channel?

11) What would you like to see in season 4 and what are your predictions?

Maybe something along the lines of a Queliot 'I love you' moment. What Penny 40 is getting up to in the underworld and if he visits Benedict. Alice owning up to the shit she pulled (after she escapes the library) and wanting to fix what she screwed up and actually trying her hardest to follow through, whether or not she's successful. Julia is still 100% a goddess though and she maybe has worshippers already? She doesn't want to be like Iris, she doesn't want to leave her friends, she just wants to be with the people she cares about and help whoever needs her when she can.

12) How old are you? (if you feel comfortable sharing)

22 turning 23 in this year of 20gayteen

13) Do you have any pets?

I have 2 chunky Chihuahuas who are so mouthy and one is an absolute brat who gets into the garbage any chance she gets.

14) What’s the weirdest thing you own?

Probably a painted foam and clay face sculpture I made in art class in highschool. It has an ... unsettling expression.

15) How long have you been on Tumblr?

I wanna say upwards of 5 years? Idk it was probably in the middle of highschool like 2011-2012 or something.

16) What are you studying in college? (alternatively: what did you study or what are you planning on studying?)

Fun fact: I didn't even finish highschool so I can't really go to college 🙃🙃🙃 (but I wouldn't go anyway cuz money and idk what to study.)

17) Favorite band/artist?

Lights, Tove Lo, Halsey, and Lorde.

18) Are you more of a fantasy, horror, or science fiction person?

Fantasy and horror with a bit of sci-fi.

19) What’s your favorite thing to do in your free time?

I sometimes play The Sims 4, watch a lot of YouTube, and I play D&D.

20) Do you prefer cooking, baking, or eating?

Eating cuz I suck at cooking. I like a lot of frozen pre-cooked stuff or when other people cook for me cuz I'm useless.

21) What other TV shows do you love?

Orphan Black was my first big fandom and I loved clone club with all my heart and I miss it dearly. I like Supergirl, iZombie, Lucifer, Shadowhunters, Jane the Virgin, and Blindspot.

22) What else would you like the fandom to know about you?

Idk I'm trash. I have a tattoo of a trinity knot and a claddagh. I love cats but I have really bad luck with keeping them. I like mint chocolate, and peanut butter with nutella. I like watching video games be played, but I don't actually play any. I like all kinds of art but I can't really art.

Do you have a list of like top 5 tv shows? (Cartoons and anime included)

!!! Yes I do, actually!

I’ve actually thought about doing a YouTube video about this in the past, and while I do want to do list-like videos (and I already have at least one in mind) in the future, I put off doing this one because it actually…depends greatly on where certain shows I currently like are headed because some currently-airing shows would be on this list if they hit their full potential, but who knows if they’ll hit their full potential. Also I always split anime and cartoons into two categories because I always had a hard time picking otherwise xD But I do have some semblance of a list, and I adore talking about this kind of stuff, sooo:

5. Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood

This spot is kind of a three-way tie between Voltron, Bojack Horseman, and FMAB, all for extremely different reasons. So consider Voltron and Bojack my honorable mentions. But while I believe Bojack’s best is honestly some of the (if not the) best out there, and if Voltron promises through on what they’ve promised it will easily skyrocket up this list, Bojack’s worst is everything I hate about Hollywood and Voltron just has too many holes at the moment.  FMAB has the best of both worlds because it has great animation like Voltron, doesn’t have any of Bojack’s bad kind of moments, and doesn’t have many holes in it.  (Another honorable mention goes to BNHA, but like Voltron, I just don’t think it has had enough time to develop all the way. Unlike Voltron, it doesn’t really have any holes, but I do have a problem with how strictly it adheres to cheesy super heroes of the past.)

BUT onto FMAB itself. God cmon, its FMAB, do I really need to elaborate why its so great? The characters are compelling, their motivations are powerful and interesting. I could write an essay examining Ed’s character alone, because he has so many interesting motivations and morals that seemingly conflict with his angry disposition, and I don’t even like Ed that much. The story is exciting - there’s basically no filler, and it almost moves too fast at points. I do have problems with the show - as I said, it goes too fast. The only two deaths in the season happen in the first 12-15 episodes of the series, and although I think that’s because the original FMA animated those scenes already, it still fucks with the pacing of this show. Additionally, despite Lust, Gluttony, and Envy all being revealed before, the show introduces a completely new villain - Greed - to introduce the homunculi. And then they kill Lust - the presumed leader of the first three introduced homunculi?? Idk man, the show barrels in a completely different direction way too quickly. But other than that, its a great show. The only reason it isn’t higher is because I’m a biased shit towards other good shows.

4. Teen Titans

Speaking of being a biased shit, idk if it shows or not, but I have a HUGE soft spot for corny kids shows that try to give kids bad laughs and dark/relatable storylines, or rather, have a heart while doing so. Its not so much that I like a balance of comedy and darkness in my shows - although that’s a good thing, I eat pure angst up and I’m all-for pure comedy shows that have the aforementioned heart (ie we bare bears, another good show not on this list) - its just specifically corny pun-ridden teen/tweeny-feeling shows/games that actually have a decent story underneath that get me. (Also my sense of humor aligns much more with shitty teen lingo and puns than modern cartoon humor that’s considered “good”. Like I find Teen Titans 10x funnier than I’ve ever found Steven Universe. I’m a 90s kid at heart even tho I wasn’t alive in the 90s)

But the biggest impact of this show for me was the heart and the plot. The silly moments made me laugh, sometimes iromically and sometimes unironically and sometimes I wasn’t sure how, but it was the story that really gripped me. The first season’s overarching plot for Robin is honestly one of the most compelling things I’ve seen in kids cartoons…period. Its dark, its unique, its a subversion of such a simble and broad trope. Sure it had a nice cheesy ending but Robin actually saves the day through INTELLIGENCE, something he always had. No other Teen Titans ending did that, but I digress.

And god, do not even get me started on Terra’s arc. Just because Robin’s was the most well-structured arc doesn’t mean his was the most emotional. I was fucking distraught after Terra’s season. Those memes weren’t a joke, I legitimately cried right in front of my mom. IT WAS SO OBVIOUS, BUT IN MY BLIND LOVE, I MISSED ALL THE SIGNS… and god, even when she comes back, even when she’s given a happy ending, she manages to make me cry AGAIN. I never, ever thought I could cry over a character like Beast Boy, but she made me do it. I didn’t even cry when Sokka’s girlfriend died, but this really, really got to me. Once for personal attachment, and the second time because…the finale is so good. Literally its Bojack levels of deep, emotional, and realistic, and this was the ending of a fucking kids show. What the fuck. To this day I still get emotional whenever something reminds me of her arc. Which brings me to my next series…

3. Cybersix

Hi so did I mention Cybersix is really good? Because Cybersix is really good.  I’m not even done with it but yeah, I love this show.  It’s got an amazing art style, great animation, an intriguing story…I have a feeling I’m gonna be really disappointed when it ends because I’ll want to know what happens next so badly.  I like the characters, I like the aesthetic, I like the old-timey music that dates this cartoon so wonderfully, I even like the romance between Lucas and Cybersix/Adrian!  How’d you make me do that.  Oh yeah, because it’s not hard to get me to care about a mutually rewarding relationship that’s gradually built up through a friendship, then an aesthetic attraction, then presumably a relationship but idk yet, where both parties care about one another and their boundaries and have gotten along well since the start.  I forgot.  (I could nitpick that Lucas doesnt have the same buildup for the relationship as Cybersix [its complicated, basically he’s friends with Cybersix’s alternate persona Adrian but he’s in a relationship with Cybersix, and he doesnt know theyre the same person] but I’m not gonna.)  It’s just…a good show man.  @ hollywood, reboot THIS you cowards.  Stop rebooting shit nobody wanted a new version of and reboot shows that were ended to quickly.  Actually dont reboot Cybersix because the only animation studios that would be able to do it any justice are Studio Mir and anime studios, and whoever owns the current copyright to Cybersix would probably be okay using flash for it

2. Digimon Adventure (with a honorable mention to Digimon Tamers)

You can rip my love for the entire Digimon franchise from my cold, dead hands.  I’m sincerely surprised any show passed up my love for this show.  If/when the currently airing series in Japan gets brought over here, I’ll watch it, even though Digimon has kind of abandoned what made it so great in the first place.  But hell, even Fusion was enjoyable - the second arc, from what I remember, was pretty dark and interesting (im still mad they got rid of the two best characters tho) - and the only reason I disliked Data Squad so much is because of Marcus (that and it doesnt have anything else that’s absolutely stunning, in fact from a technical standpoint Marcus is the best thing about the show).

But there’s a reason I put Digimon Adventure here and not the entirety of the Digimon franchise.  Digimon Adventure is what started it all.  No Digimon season has as much heart in it as the original.  Sure the animation improves each season, sure Tamers is probably better story-wise on a technical level, but I dont think any season matches the raw charm of the original.  It was so charming, in fact, that what was supposed to be a 13-episode miniseries evolved into a massive franchise that’s still beloved to this day.  Hell, there’s still content being released for the 8 Digidestined of this season!  It’s right alongside Pokemon, Invader Zim, Hey Arnold, and all these other beloved 90s/early 2000s cartoons that are being revived in recent years, and I think that says a lot.

I wasn’t even alive when Digimon Adventure was airing, but I loved the Digimon games I had played so much that I went out of my way to watch it.  And I…loved it.  Sad as it may be, it was the greatest TV show I had seen at the time.  Growing up in the late 2000s watching only Nickelodeon and CN was not a good period to grow up in, and I never saw Avatar as a kid.  By the time the 2010s had rolled around, I had mostly given up on cartoons, and besides, they were all fugly.  I still tried to watch some, but just…the humor didn’t grip me, they seemed dumb, and they weren’t pleasant to look at.  (Okay the main shows I’m vaguing about are Adventure Time and Regular Show, as well as whatever Nickelodeon was doing but I begrudgingly put up with Nickelodeon for the most part because I preferred Nick and I never knew what else to watch)  Then Digimon came around, and hol-y-shit.  The characters were like nothing I had ever seen before, the storylines engaging and interesting.  Sure it was cheesy, but there was 95% less fart jokes than the average cartoon, a good story, and actually relatable characters that actually go through hardships and actually change for the better!

Digimon Adventure has been and always will be proof to me that no matter what you are, no matter what your show is, you can make a good show out of it.  If you get people who care, who can make relatable characters, who can come up with an interesting story, you can make a good show.  Digimon Adventure is basically a big long toy commercial, and yet its better than lots of shows that dont even have merchandise - and its also better than a lot of shows that have merchandise now, but weren’t created to sell toys in the first place.  I just.  Love it a lot.

Also, the reason I specifically chose Digimon Adventure, outside of having a personal attachment to it since it was always my favorite, is because Tamers hecking scared me as a kid and I’ve never gotten over how creepy the last arc is.  Like it’s good, but it still scared me.

Honorable mentions: Bojack Horseman, Voltron: Legendary Defender, We Bare Bears, Gravity Falls (thats a big one, it would definitely be on this list if I had 10 spots, and will gladly take the 6th spot if Voltron doesnt follow through or Bojack goes south), Over the Garden Wall,  the aforementioned Digimon Tamers ,and Infinity Train might be #2 or at least #3 if it wasnt just a single episode l m a o

1. A tie between Avatar: The Last Airbender and The Legend of Korra

HI SO YEAH if you didnt expect this then you dont know me //BRICKED

Before I explain both, I want to be very clear that I’m not counting them as a single entity.  No, I just cant pick between them.  They’re two extremely different shows, and I actually agree with people who say ATLA is overall a more-rounded show.  Problem is, I watched both during a period of my life where politics and darkness make an extremely interesting show for me (aka the current period of my life) and thus its a very biased and “nostalgic” pick, just like Digimon Adventure.  Had I watched these shows when they were airing, I dont know if LOK would even be on this list.  Heck Digimon adventure probably wouldnt be on this list since ATLA would’ve held the crown for my favorite show for all those years.

They both have amazing animation and solid writing, but that’s about all they have in common in my eyes - even though they share the same world.

Avatar: The Last Airbender is a kids show.  Through and through, its a kids show.  That’s not an insult in the slightest though; no, the fact that they can make something so sophisticated and enjoyable that still clearly appeals to children is really a testament to their skills.  Many kids shows that try to take on heavier/darker stories feel like completely different shows when they try to do that - shows that arent intended for kids.  Voltron and SU are the most notable examples of that, but even LOK has a little bit of that (but in LOK’s case, its the entire show, so I kinda give them a pass lol)  Other shows do it okay (Gravity Falls) but really the only show I’ve ever seen match Avatar’s perfect balance of comedy and seriousness is Bojack, which isn’t a kids show so it has an advantage over Avatar.

Avatar’s world is fanciful and larger than life.  I’m so sad that I watched Avatar and LOK after my fanfiction days; I would’ve loved to spend nights thinking about a potential Avatar story, complete with my own Avatar and original cast.  I could put it before Avatar, after LOK, who knows? but it would’ve been so much fun.  Hell I HAVE thought about Avatar stories, but I obviously dont have much thought up on any of my potential ideas.

The pacing of Avatar is golden.  How a show wish such good pacing got through Nickelodeon, I dont know, but whatever deal allowed Avatar to go on for three seasons and then end was a once-in-a-life-time deal (as evident by what happened to Korra).  Somehow this show came out almost completely perfect, with few or no flaws.

This is the pinnacle of children’s entertainment, in my opinion.  This is proof that there’s no excuse for the garbage that makes up 90% of children’s entertainment.  The standard doesn’t have to be this, since this is the best, but this show is proof that we need to raise the standard.  I wish executives actually gave a shit about quality; if they did, maybe we could get mostly good shows instead of mostly bad shows.

If most shows were half as good as Avatar, the average show would be gorgeously-animated, smartly-written, and really good, even if it had a flaw here and there.  If most shows were half as good as Avatar, Steven Universe would be the average instead of a godsend.

If I someday, somehow make a show that’s 2/3rds as good as Avatar, I’ll officially be a good writer.  I’d love to make tons of shows just as good as Avatar, but hey, I cant get TOO cocky now lol

Now for The Legend of Korra.  Korra has slightly better animation (god i love studio mir) and different but still intriguing worldbuilding.  I know a lot of people found the political bs to be annoying, but I actually found it quite intriguing.  Avatar did a little bit of exploring moral gray areas and playing with politics, but Korra just goes all-out.  I wish the first season’s morality could’ve been a little grayer, but even then, the politics were still interesting.  And god, that one scene in the first season finale, the murder-suicide…that’s still a really powerful scene.  The entire finale would’ve been super powerful were it not for everything resetting by the end of it, but hey, they basically did the same thing in season 3!

Holy shit though, season 3.  An on-screen strangling.  Someone exploding themselves to death.  And then the finale’s fight.  The finale’s fight. The finale of season 3 is one of the most intense things I’ve seen…ever.  The atmosphere in that fight is just…so good - combined with the animation and choreography, its just amazing.  You can almost feel every hit, you actually feel concern for Korra, you’re legitimately concerned for her life.  And you know what?  You should’ve been!  Because she almost dies, and she has to suffer the consequences of that.  The fourth season has a time gap in-between, but even then, she spends episodes trying to fully recover.

In my opinion, the only thing making Korra a kids show is Milo.  I’m certain they put him in there because otherwise, it wouldn’t have been allowed to be called a kids show.  It’s dark, its intelligent, its beautiful, and it’s going to go right over most kid’s heads.  As a kids show it does kind of fail; it just doesn’t really appeal enough to them.  Once you’re old enough to understand, say, Naruto or Dragon Ball you should be okay, but ATLA appeals to all ages while Korra really needs a certain maturity in its audience to be understood and to not scare its audience.

They’re just both. so good

(thanks for the ask!!!)

tagged by @lifepassesbyinwaves  Thank you so much!!! <3  rules are answer the questions and then tag some friends.

1. do you have a good relationship with your parents? No. It’s complicated. 

2. who did you last say “i love you” to? My friend because she was drunk and saying ‘I love you’ to me lol.

3. do you regret anything? I regret like 3/4th of my life so far.

4. are you insecure? Why is this even a question??? 

5. what is your relationship status? Not looking for a relationship (not that anyone cares lol).

6. how do you want to die? I want a painless and quick death.

7. what did you last eat? Whatever I had for dinner last night.

8. played any sports? I was on my middle school swim team and high school chess team.

9. do you bite your nails? Only when they’re short and I don’t like the edges.

10. when was your last physical fight? I don’t remember...

11. do you like someone? Yush I do.

12. have you ever stayed up 48 hours? Oh yea, so many times. 

13. do you hate anyone at the moment? Only myself.

14. do you miss anyone? I miss them so much it hurts.

15. have any pets? One doggie.

16. how exactly are you feeling at the moment? I’m always craving death  ╮(￣ω￣;)╭

17. ever made out in the bathroom? I’ve never made out.

18. are you scared of spiders? Ahhh yes >.< 

19. would you go back in time if you were given the chance? I would travel back to 1998 and beg my mother to abort me (I know I know it’s  cruel -.-)

20. where was the last place you snogged someone? The last place???

21. what are your plans for the weekend? Probably hang out with friends.

22. do you want to have kids? how many? I LOVE kids but I think I’d be a terrible parent lol.

23. do you have piercings? how many? Yup. I have five piercings. 

24. what is/are/were your best subject(s)? Art, English and Biology 

25. do you miss anyone from your past? I do. 

26. what are you craving right now? Sleep and affection. 

27. have you ever broken someone’s heart? I don’t think I have, at least not knowingly. 

28. have you ever been cheated on? Nope. 

29. have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? Oh god no, I’m always the first one to cry.

30. what’s irritating you right now? The fact that I have no inspiration to paint, even though I want to!!! 

31. does somebody love you? My mother? 

32. what is your favorite color? Black.

33. do you have trust issues? *nervous laugh* uhhhh

34. who/what was your last dream about? My friends from school.

35. who was the last person you cried in front of? I don’t remember honestly. 

36. do you give second chances too easily? Yes, second chances, third chances, fourth chances. Take them all. 

37. is it easier to forgive or forget I forgive easily. 

38. is this the best year of your life? Definitely no, but I have a lot of good memories. 

39. how old were you when you had your first kiss? I haven’t kissed anyone yet (and I’m not very eager to either) 

40. have you ever walked outside completely naked? Nope

41. favorite food? I don’t think about this question very often so Idk??

42. do you believe everything happens for a reason? Not exactly but sometimes I do >.>

43. what is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? Listened to music. 

44. is cheating ever okay? Absolutely not. Cheating is unacceptable imo. 

45. are you mean? Noooo never. 

46. how many people have you fist fought? Zero. I hate violence.

47. do you believe in true love? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

48. favorite weather? Rainy weather. Or cold weather when you just wanna curl up in bed with a warm blanket and listen to soft music. 

49. do you like the snow? Yes!!!

50. do you want to get married? Maybe. I don’t know. 

51. is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? Oh my god YES. I love cute nicknames!! If you’re reading this, please call me baby, babygirl, babe, sweetie from now on! My name is cancelled! 

52. what makes you happy? Knowing I made someone else happy. 

53. would you change your name? No. My name is pretty uncommon and hard to pronounce. But I wouldn’t change it. And that also means I only trust a few people to call me by my full name. 

54. would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? Refer to question 39.

55. your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? OKAY this is the best question in this whole thing! I literally spat out my chocolate milk when I read this and I actually couldn’t breathe for 7 minutes because I was laughing so hard!! And then I showed this to my best friend xD Oh boy I so badly wanna tag him here right now lmfao xD

56. do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can act your complete self around? Yessss.

57. who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? My best friend xD 

58. who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Umm I don’t know??

59. do you believe in soulmates? (⇀_⇀) 

60. is there anyone you would die for? Absolutely. Without a doubt. 

I tag- @blvckpanthers @soice @braver-git @sweetpoisonousmilkshake @vivikalazu @captainofthewasabiclub @noplacelike127-0-0-1 @shoutodorxki @chandyland98 @charcoalvoid @taytaycools @lonelyguyhere15

Get To Know Me

So I got tagged by the little sweet heart that is @shawndreaming (thanks❤️) and yes it feels like ages but I was in vacations you know so sorry :))))

and I tag WHOEVER passed by this and wants to do it seriously don’t hesitate I’ll be happy to read all of yours (yes I’m lazy) 

The Last

1. drink: ..water 2. phone call: a private number who didn’t stopped calling me all my freakin vacation  3. text message: laughing emojis from one of my best friend (and you don’t want to know what we were saying before haha) 4. song you listened to: Me and My Friends Are Lonely - Matt Maeson 5. time you cried: last wednesday  6. dated someone twice: nop  7. kissed someone and regretted it: yes 8. been cheated on:..from what I know no haha 9. lost someone special: oh god a lot ..a friend of mine died when I was younger, then one of my best friends when I was young moved in another country and we lost almost every contact I don’t know how it happened, and also when I arrived in high school..It’s crazy how people change from middle school to high school right? 10. been depressed: had some hard time but not think I’ve been really 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: …shhhhh (BTW I saw my sister drunk for the first time during these vacations and HEELLL DAMN fortunately I was not drunk enough to forget that)

3 favourite colours

12. purple (but like a nice purple you know a mix of grey and pink that turn purple idk how it’s called, in french I think it’s Gris de Lin but not sure) 13. white 14. Idk it’s hard I don’t really care that much about colors actually haha

In the last year have you 15. made new friends: yes  16. fallen out of love: …unfortunately I would say 17. laughed until you cried: YAS and just two days ago too 18. found out someone was talking about you: uuuhm yes GO BITCH TALK TO MY FRIEND ABOUT ME DO YOU THINK I WILL NOT KNOW IT ?? 19. met someone who changed you: yes  20. found out who your friends are: kind of 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: …yes

General 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: don’t really like Facebook so basically i have my true friends on it so probably most of them 23. do you have any pets:  i had but my dog is dead now 24. do you want to change your name: I don’t specially love my name but don’t want to change it 25. what did you do for your last birthday: it was my 18th birthday and my friends did a surprise party so It was honestly one of the best day of my life 26. what time did you wake up: lol I dont remember  27. what were you doing at midnight last night: I was on my way to come home  28. name something you can’t wait for: OMG SO MANY THINGS : my next concert, Shawn and The Vamps next album, finish my studies and find a job, move in Canada (the dreams girl i know) 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 4 minutes ago she came in my room  31. what are you listening to right now: Lost on You - Lewis Capaldi (ahdoehforighirhg I love his voice more than my life) 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: my cousin’s son who is too young to talk..? 33. something that is getting on your nerves: people who feel upper 34. most visited website: what do you think?  35. hair colour: chestnut (do we say like that?) 36. long or short hair: it’s cut just above my shoulders 37. do you have a crush on someone: 👀 38. what do you like about yourself: I like the fact that I really love the person I surround myself with 39. piercings: earlobes 40. blood type: O+ (to be original haha) 41. nickname: Mel, Pissa, Mémé, Méli, Milou, Mon Roberto (I have a lot…don’t try to understand) 42. relationship status: complicated  43. zodiac: Virgo 44. pronouns: she/her. 45. favourite tv show: Teen Wolf, Grey’s Anatomy, Skam, How To Get Away With Murder, The 100, The Fosters 46. tattoos: no 47. right or left handed: right, but my art school teach us to drawn with both hands so…?? 48. surgery: 2 for my right knee 50. sport: I used to ride horses (i did it for 6/7 years), then I did some running you know, but now i do some gym for myself 51. vacation: well every year my family tries to afford us some vacations in foreign country so I’ve been lucky enough to travel in few, just came back from Italia  52. pair of trainers: Vans

MORE GENERAL 53. eating: cookies  54. drinking: water 55. I’m about to: to do nothing Im in summer break for god sake  56. waiting for: being updated for what I missed haha 57. I want: cheeling 58. get married: the biggest dilemma of my life 59. career: publicity hopefully

WHICH IS BETTER 60. hugs or kisses: hugs with a kiss in the forehead (you feel me yeah?) 61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: taller 63. older or younger: older but I have a thing with the youngers..oops  64. nice arms or nice stomach: more like NICE HANDS 65. hookup or relationship: relationships 66. troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER: 67. kissed a stranger: not really 68. drank hard liquor: lets say ‘shhhh’ again 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: no which is surprising from me 70. turned someone down: ..yeah 71. sex on the first date: nop but I think he was ready to go down 73. had your heart broken: unfortunately  74. been arrested: no Im such a good girl 75. cried when someone died: uup yes I have a heart 76. fallen for a friend: not sure we were friends ya know what I mean

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 77. yourself: that’s hard 78. miracles: I think things happen for a reason so not really 79. love at first sight: you can’t love at first sign but you can have a little something 80. santa claus: I WISH  81. kiss on the first date: hell yeah 82. angels: I believe in shawn’s existence so

OTHER: 84. eye colour: brown 85. favourite movie: TOO FREAKIN HARD

all the queastions btw i love you

I WUV U!!!!!!!!

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?uhhhhhhh my irl friend i think2. Are you outgoing or shy?UH!!?????!!!?!?!?!?! both3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?my wonderful boyfriend sorey!!!!!4. Are you easy to get along with?uhh my friendz said ya soo5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?i wouldnt b drunk but ????? idk???6. What kind of people are you attracted to?sorey7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?ya!8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?no one9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?uhhuhhuhuh idk10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?uh sorey probably11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?“im gonna take a quick nap wake me when the dryers done”12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?not in any order butlo-fi children by wild partypay no mind by madeonno culture by mother motherback to front by early hourseverybody come outside by the pomegranates

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?ya!14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?uhh sometimes??????15. What good thing happened this summer?i got a wonderful beautiful boyfriend who i love very much!!!16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?theres no one to kiss!17. Do you think there is life on other planets?ofc!!!!!!!!!!!!!18. Do you still talk to your first crush?sdfds no i only crushed on him cause other ppl in my class were getting crushes and i wanted to be a Cool Kid19. Do you like bubble baths?ya!20. Do you like your neighbors?uhh never met them but i like their dogs21. What are you bad habits?i pull on my hair and pick at my nails a lot22. Where would you like to travel?netherlands23. Do you have trust issues?ooo ya24. Favorite part of your daily routine?this sounds gay but msgsing sorey25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?uhhh m chest26. What do you do when you wake up?msg my palz n pm sorey27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?idk its fine as it is i think28. Who are you most comfortable around?sorey29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?i think bt it ws complicated30. Do you ever want to get married?well me n sorey r p much already there31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?nope!32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?hhh idk i dnt kno much abt any celebs33. Spell your name with your chin.l,ersttg34. Do you play sports? What sports?i h8 sports!!!!!35. Would you rather live without TV or music?tv36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?ya37. What do you say during awkward silences?\nothing i leave it38. Describe your dream girl/guy?sorey!39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?thrift shop also like any decor store i luv homesense40. What do you want to do after high school?uhh well im there now and im jst working on portfolio41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?nope42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?i jst dont have uch to say bt i also might b depressed u never kno im a suprise!43. Do you smile at strangers?i try to bt only if we accidentally make eye contact44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?SPACE the deep sea is scary45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?sorey46. What are you paranoid about?everything!47. Have you ever been high?no!48. Have you ever been drunk?no!49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?uhhh i dont think so???50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?grey n black i think51. Ever wished you were someone else?uhhh i dnt understand th question 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?2 many things to name one53. Favourite makeup brand?uhsduhfui idk54. Favourite store?homesense55. Favourite blog?ilovemikleo1 hes a cool guy56. Favourite colour?pink! but i also rlly like blue and purple!n red an aaa i cnt pick57. Favourite food? sweets58. Last thing you ate?all dressed chips59. First thing you ate this morning?cherry gummies60. Ever won a competition? For what?i once one a ssb competition @ a friends bday party and normally i suck at smash but the prize was two (2) cosmic brownies and i Wanted them61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?nope!62. Been arrested? For what?i hav not63. Ever been in love? eheh yes64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?didnt happen!65. Are you hungry right now?not rlly66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhyahhhhhhhhhh67. Facebook or Twitter?i dnt use either bt twitter68. Twitter or Tumblr?twitter tumblr is the devil69. Are you watching tv right now?nope!70. Names of your bestfriends? sorey bt also uhhhhhhhhhhhhhall my friends!!!!!71. Craving something? What?i jst want more chips72. What colour are your towels?they vary cause i have many bt rn yellow72. How many pillows do you sleep with?1.573. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?ya!74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?100000075. Favourite animal?crows n also ravens dont ask me 2 choose76. What colour is your underwear?skipping ths77. Chocolate or Vanilla?vanilla78. Favourite ice cream flavour?strawberry!79. What colour shirt are you wearing?mahogany80. What colour pants?black81. Favourite tv show?uh!!?!?!?!?!?!?!82. Favourite movie?the secret of kells83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?never seen mean girls 284. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?never seen 21 jump street85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?dont have one86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?dont have one87. First person you talked to today?sorey!88. Last person you talked to today?m in a call bt sorey ws th last person to say smthn89. Name a person you hate?uhhhh i do h8 someone but i cnt say who they r90. Name a person you love?SOREY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE MY BF SO MUCH!!!! and m friends91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?see #8992. In a fight with someone?not atm93. How many sweatpants do you have?like 294. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?2 many95. Last movie you watched?i dont rememberr96. Favourite actress?dont have one97. Favourite actor?dont have one98. Do you tan a lot?no i just burn99. Have any pets?i have a dog!100. How are you feeling?uh?101. Do you type fast?kinda102. Do you regret anything from your past?living103. Can you spell well?no but i thought this said \can you cast a spell well’ and i got excited104. Do you miss anyone from your past?ya .105. Ever been to a bonfire party?nope!106. Ever broken someone’s heart?mayb107. Have you ever been on a horse?ya108. What should you be doing?art109. Is something irritating you right now?not rlly110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?ya111. Do you have trust issues?ya112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?sheep!113. What was your childhood nickname?didnt have one114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?ya!115. Do you play the Wii?yup!116. Are you listening to music right now?nope!117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?ya!!!118. Do you like Chinese food?depends what it is119. Favourite book?haunting violet by alyxandra harvey120. Are you afraid of the dark?sometimes121. Are you mean?i think i am bt ppl say no so uh122. Is cheating ever okay???!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?idk123. Can you keep white shoes clean?sometimes124. Do you believe in love at first sight?mayb125. Do you believe in true love?ya!126. Are you currently bored?a lil bt not rlly127. What makes you happy?sorey!!!! and my friends!!!!!! and vampires……128. Would you change your name?im tryin 2 do it129. What your zodiac sign?cencer130. Do you like subway?its ok131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?ths wouldnt happen bt if it did id ignore it132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?sorey133. Favourite lyrics right now?“im like a bull in a chinda shop knocking off an knock off” frm no culture by mother mother134. Can you count to one million?no i dnt have the patience for that135. Dumbest lie you ever told?uhh idk136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?closedd137. How tall are you?5′5″138. Curly or Straight hair?curly139. Brunette or Blonde?i hav brownish hair bt i like both140. Summer or Winter?summer141. Night or Day?night142. Favourite month?julyy143. Are you a vegetarian?nope!144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?all!145. Tea or Coffee?coffe146. Was today a good day?idk it ws jst ok147. Mars or Snickers?mars148. What’s your favourite quote?uhfdsfuishfui idk149. Do you believe in ghosts?ofc!150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? “he was dressed impeccably and properly, no matter the hour”

25 Q/A Personality Tag

A dear friend of mine asked me to do this tag myself after I wrote this a while ago for my lovely friends here on Tumblr, thanks to the post by @annarieta regarding this tag, it gave me a little courage to do it. (I actually think there are many scary questions, I don’t like the idea of revealing it to just about anybody.) RULES: Tag people you want to get to know better.

1. Are you introverted or extroverted? I’m very introverted. I can go weeks on my own, without needing company or social stimulation. 

2. Are you ruled by emotions or logic? I reason from a point of logic, but ultimately make decisions based of what I feel will make everyone the happiest. 

3. What is your happiest memory? Like many others have said already, which was a bit surprising to read, I don’t recall many outstanding happy memories. Like @annarieta said, it’s the small things mostly. But I remember happy car rides with my best friend where we sang (screamed) to music, and traveling to the Vatican City with my classmates. Even if the company wasn’t necessarily good all the time, that place really made me happy. It was so beautiful. 

4. What is your saddest memory? Nowadays, every winter, I go into a state of hibernation really. It’s very dark here during the winter, we have about 5 hours of sunlight everyday. It’s cold, it’s dark and murky. It makes me very depressed. But um. The day I lost my best friend is a terrible memory. We were friends for 8 years and I’ve missed her very much for 3 years since. 

5. In what kind of world would you rather live in? I’d love to live in an Elven world. I love the architecture, I love the purple/blue/mystic gloom of the places. The nature, rivers are very beautiful. Where people cherished art, music, writing, love, beauty etc, and no one cared a wit for politics, cruelty or had any desire to forbid people from being different or happy. 

6. What is your favorite video game? The Witcher, Skyrim and BioShock are my babies. 

7. What is your biggest fear for yourself? Being hated by people. 

8. What is your biggest wish for yourself? To be a happy little hermit =) In a beautiful place where I can write stories, paint and be surrounded by 20 dogs.

9. What fictional character do you relate to the most?  Queen Freya from The Huntsman (she’s my avatar for a reason guuuuuuys). Wait, let me explain, haha. She’s portrayed as a complex evil character. I don’t consider myself to be evil, nor do I consider myself to be purely good either. I can relate to her character process. Alike her, I was very trusting and happy when I was little, I was truly a little sunshine. But like with so many of us, life happens, and then life happens again, and I became... well, a different person really. Like her, I often feel misunderstood and isolated. But I also cherish loyalty above all, and shun love away from me (I also freaking love ice and snow). I think love is beautiful when I see it with other people, but I could never love like that myself, somewhere it’s hardwired in my brain in a twisted way that love is a weakness and can be used to manipulate and harm me. Heartache and emotional suffering is something I'm terrified of (you know, when you can physically feel pain in your chest), and I can’t handle it anymore. So I don’t feel romantic desire towards people anymore, I think I’ve... removed it?  

10. If you could become anything, without any education or demands, what would you choose as your profession? Author or an actress.

11. Do you have any siblings? Two brothers and one sister. I’m the second youngest. 

12. Have you ever wanted to injure someone? When I was bullied, I wanted to injure the people who hurt me all the time, but I never actually did it. 

13. Have you ever wanted to help someone, but didn’t? Yes, but I always try to do the best I can to help someone, even if I don’t know the person. It doesn’t matter, I’ll happily embarrass myself to help someone in need. 

14. What makes you angry? Bullies, homophobes, racists, sexists, rapists, murderers, especially animal abusers can fuck off right to hell. 

15. What makes you happy? My precious jewel, doggy.<3 Also, traveling and airplanes is a joy. Museums, exploring new places, yeah. Fun fun. 

16. Would you rather beat up a small child once - or get beaten up by an angry man every single day for the rest of your life? I don’t want to beat up anybody, so bring me the man. Maybe I’d get really psychologically twisted and Stockholm Syndrome would set in so I’d start to like it lol. 

17. What places would you visit today if you could? Ireland! Scotland! England! Just because @lithiumgrayangel showed me how beautiful Sevilla is, I wanna visit Sevilla one day. But of course, beautiful Italy (Rome is stunning), Venice again, Russia (possibly Moscow), FRANCE! Finland, Norway and Iceland are beautiful too. Also Warsaw, UK and US. And Budapest. And New Zeeland, Canada, Australia... Gosh I wanna go everywhere, I can’t pick one!

18. Do you want children? Why? If not, why not? To be honest, it will depend on what situation I am in. Did I, against all odds, found a person who wants children? Then yes, in a stable household and in happy relationship, I’d consider having one or two, no more. But... Right now, that future is looking very bleak. And if I end up with someone who don’t want children, then I won’t have children. Just get a dog instead, they’re less fussy.  

19. Did you have a happy childhood? It’s a bit complicated. When I was young, I did have a happy childhood, but my father was also abusive back then. He calmed down once I became a teenager, and then the bullying started, and when the bullying stopped, my dad became sick. And my mother has basically been hysterical and wacky my entire life so. But um, to be honest. I had friends, a roof over my head, food on the table. I got nothing to complain about. 

20. Have you ever done drugs? If you have, would you do it again? I’ve been offered, but I’ve never been interested and nor will I be. I know a couple of people who just smokes pipe and marijuana in front of me? I think it’s odd but. I try not to judge, and it’s not my business. 

21. Would you rather become a child again, possessing all the knowledge you have today, or become middle-aged, with 45 000 000 € on your bank account? I’d become a child again, start my life over, and be twice as intelligent. Could be like a scientist or something. 

22. If you could become any existing famous person in the world - who would you be and why? I admire Lana del Rey a lot, but I wouldn’t want to be any celebrity. Unless I can become someone really powerful and change the world. Like Donald Trump and resign as the president so someone more capable can take over. 

23. Are your parents married or divorced? They’re divorced, but sadly live together still. It’s a stupid decision, but I reckon my father wouldn’t last a day on his own, and my mother must be addicted to misery. 

24. Where do you see yourself in the future? An author, hopefully. Making a positive change, helping people, having meaningful friends in my life, living in a beautiful place surrounded by nature and animals. :) 

25. If you’d like, a question of your own here. Mine is directed to my fellow Witcher lovers; Who and Why?

For friendly purposes, Regis or Cirilla?  I like Ciri, and I can understand why people would choose her, she seems like she would be a lovely friend. But ultimately, I’d have so much to discuss with Regis. I feel like, without being self-absorbed or... delusional in any way, I have some things in common with him. We’re too loyal, we fight for people who don’t cherish our love or advice and we both like discussing philosophical topics with loooooooong sentences (as you’ve probably noticed by now). I’d feel so good in his company, he’s a lovely lovely man. 

For romantic purposes, Dettlaff or Avallac’h? My darling Avallac’h, I know there are so many people who misunderstands him, confuses his intelligence for arrogance. People call him horrible things. To be honest, I don’t have too much against Dettlaff though, I like him, and I love his complex nature. But of course, I’d never pick anyone over Avallac’h. He’s brilliant, and I would love to discover a million new worlds with him. (ps. marry me have my babies)

As your co-worker, Caranthir or Geralt? Caranthir would be a brilliant colleague, though Geralt is probably more lovable, Caranthir is intelligent. He’d help me with my tasks and I’d sit there gazing into his eyes and not hearing a word he’s saying. ♥‿♥ (true story, I often drift away when people talk to me)

As your boss, Eredin or Ge’els? I don’t know, he feels more attainable than Ge’els do. Ge’els is just da boss, he’d rule over me, I’d always feel incredible stupid and inferior around him. But Eredin is kinda wacky, but I love him, but he’s a silly goose so I’d just try to befriend him to eventually marry him so we could rule the galaxy together. 

As your best friend, Yennefer or Shani? Yennefer, my oh my, I’ve been in love with her since the first time I saw her. She’s INTELLIGENT AND INTELLIGENCE IS SEXY ASF. Shani, you cool too but. Meh, I think her character is a bit boring. There’s not much interesting about her that makes her stand out? She’s not really complex either? She’s just... idk... pretty and stuff. Redhead and stuff. (sorry @vaporeox dont kill me)

As your ally, Vernon Roche or Anna Henrietta? Nah nah, always Roche, I love that man immensely. I’d marry him too. I’d marry everyone. 

As your worst enemy, Triss or Dandelion? I don’t really like Triss that much. What she did to Yennefer has ruined her in my eyes.

Tagging: I’ve already tagged people for this tag, but I would like to tag some of my lovely followers who haven’t been tagged in this, tho I can’t possibly tag all of you, I’m sorry about that: @blackeasteagle @everydayzer0es @spooky-cowfish @dovahkiin-deathbat @shadanakara @i-am-the-sword-in-the-darkness @o-moonyue-o @heroesneverdiie @blohandrum @rosiesuzuya and anyone else who wants to do it - you can write you were tagged by me. ❤

Ghostie dared me to do all of them so here we fuckin go

1:Name: Rayne or Rayden pick ya poison 2:Age: 14 3:3 Fears: abandonment and spiders 4:3 things I love: positivity, set it off, band crack videos, oddly satisfying videos, art, writing 5:4 turns on: [CLASSIFIED INFORMATION PM ME] 6:4 turns off: [CLASSIFIED INFORMATION PM ME] 7:My best friend: i hate to sound degrading to my other friends but @verifiedsin is my homie 8:Sexual orientation: bisexual 9:My best first date: :") 10:How tall am I: 5'4 but I can still fight you 11:What do I miss: baking things w/ my aunt 12:What time were I born: how the fuck would I know 13:Favorite color: crimson and dark purple 14:Do I have a crush: IDK do I? 15:Favorite quote: "Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that." - Martin Luther King Jr 16:Favorite place: home 17:Favorite food: bacon bits 18:Do I use sarcasm: me?? NEVER 19:What am I listening to right now: Sarah Smiles by Panic! At The Disco 20:First thing I notice in new person: how their eyes wander 21:Shoe size: 9 ½ 22:Eye color: shit brown I hate them 23:Hair color: red 24:Favorite style of clothing: jeans and jacket babe 25:Ever done a prank call?: no I wish tho 27:Meaning behind my URL: I have over 20 ocs and I'm like the administrator behind them 28:Favorite movie: Lion King hands down 29:Favorite song: as of now it's Blasphemy or Hear Me Now both by Tyler Joseph 30:Favorite band: Set It Off forever 31:How I feel right now: content but I need a drink 32:Someone I love: my mutuals 33:My current relationship status: single pringle 34:My relationship with my parents: dad: lov mom: lov 35:Favorite holiday: Halloween even though I actually hate being scared 36:Tattoos and piercing i have: none :") 37:Tattoos and piercing i want: a lip ring :"))) 38:The reason I joined Tumblr: just to see how it was 39:Do I and my last ex hate each other?: it's complicated. 40:Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: every day from ghostie 💖 41:Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?: no bc we live in different states 42:When did I last hold hands?: shit I don't know,, 43:How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: about a good 5 minutes 44:Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?: pff no 45:Where am I right now?: on my bed in my house 46:If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?: either ghostie or @punkpisces00 tbh 47:Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?: loud af when I'm ignoring people, reasonable when I'm just chillin 48:Do I live with my Mom and Dad?: not my mom 49:Am I excited for anything?: am I? 50:Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?: no lol 51:How often do I wear a fake smile?: IDK prolly 10% of th time 52:When was the last time I hugged someone?: ,,,,,,idk 53:What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?: who did I last kiss? 54:Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?: nope 55:What is something I disliked about today?: fucking career prep 56:If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?: all my mutuals, my mom and sister, and set it off 57:What do I think about most?: it's a shitstorm up there 58:What’s my strangest talent?: I can make a screaming sound 59:Do I have any strange phobias?: timers 60:Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?: behind 61:What was the last lie I told?: IDK man shit 62:Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?: video chatting, it's just better 63:Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: ghosts a little aliens hell yes 64:Do I believe in magic?: ehhh nah 65:Do I believe in luck?: a little 66:What's the weather like right now?: cold 67:What was the last book I've read?: Th1rteen R3asons Why by Jay Asher 68:Do I like the smell of gasoline?: ew 69:Do I have any nicknames?: Raincloud (ghostie only), Blossom, Peanut Butter 70:What was the worst injury I've ever had?: I smashed my chin open itbhad to be glued shut 71:Do I spend money or save it?: I'm an impulsive buyer 72:Can I touch my nose with a tongue?: barelu 73:Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?: my unicorn blanket which is on me 74:Favorite animal?: vultures finally kinds 75:What was I doing last night at 12 AM?: sleepin 76:What do I think is Satan’s last name is?: Smith 77:What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?: Upside Down by SIO and Tear In My Heart by Twenty One Pilots 78:How can you win my heart?: be loyal and kind 79:What would I want to be written on my tombstone?: "Don't step on me" or in small print "nosy fucker get off me" 80:What is my favorite word?: Idk 81:My top 5 blogs on tumblr: @setitofffamily @verifiedsin @atrashysightforfoursoreeyes @cosmic-spector and @bliofficial 82:If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?: why are you listening to me of all people? 83:Do I have any relatives in jail?: I hope not 84:I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?: FINALLY I CAN SHAPESHIFT 85:What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?: "Who are you?" 86:What is my current desktop picture?: I don't have a desktop but my lock screen is danger days and my home screen is Against The Current lyrics 87:Had sex?: nope 88:Bought condoms?: hell no 89:Gotten pregnant?: NO 90:Failed a class?: ,,,,,,yea 91:Kissed a boy?:nope 92:Kissed a girl?: nuh-uh 93:Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?: God I wish 94:Had job?: I ran a snack bar at a yard sale once does that count 95:Left the house without my wallet?: I don't have one 96:Bullied someone on the internet?: no! 97:Had sex in public?: the fuck 98:Played on a sports team?: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAYOUREFUNNY 99:Smoked weed?: nope 100:Did drugs?: I am pure 101:Smoked cigarettes?: what did I just say 102:Drank alcohol?: just a lil and dad let me it was nasty 103:Am I a vegetarian/vegan?: nope 104:Been overweight?: no 105:Been underweight?: maybe I dunno 106:Been to a wedding?: yep it was beautiful 107:Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?: ,,,,,yes 108:Watched TV for 5 hours straight?: nope 109:Been outside my home country?: sadly no 110:Gotten my heart broken?: yep 111:Been to a professional sports game?: nope 112:Broken a bone?: surprisingly no 113:Cut myself?: not on purpose 114:Been to prom?: nope 115:Been in airplane?: sadly no 116:Fly by helicopter?: :"( 117:What concerts have I been to?: 3 Egypt Central concerts as a really small bean 118:Had a crush on someone of the same sex?: hell yeah 119:Learned another language?: no 120:Wore make up?: not willingly 121:Lost my virginity before I was 18?: I'm not even 18 wyd 122:Had oral sex?: nope 123:Dyed my hair?: nope and I keep it that way 124:Voted in a presidential election?: I cant 125:Rode in an ambulance?: nope 126:Had a surgery?: no 127:Met someone famous?: Egypt Central was famous 128:Stalked someone on a social network?: no I'm not a creep 129:Peed outside?: once as a kid 130:Been fishing?: ye it was quite boring 131:Helped with charity?: ye 132:Been rejected by a crush?: not really lol 133:Broken a mirror?: not that I remember 134:What do I want for birthday?: set it off merch, art things and Code Junkie by @carnahan

hello it’s ur Local Mess here to talk about herself and do a lot of tag games im sorry for being the worst these are literally from within the past like two months and you all probably don’t even remember tagging me or care about my answers but than k you to @ki-hyunie​ @haehoney​ @honeyvevo​ @94wons​ @ckyun​ for tagging me in these i’m putting them all together so that you can all have the ultimate compilation of useless information about me!! please enjoy!!

im not tagging anyone because i don’t want to subject anyone to this but if u too love talking about yourself please tag me because i love hearing people talk about themselves

Name - amy

Age - 20

Height - 5′3 (160 cm?)

Ult Bias - seohyun + minhyuk the two loves of my life :(

Nicknames - i don’t really get many nicknames?? my roommate calls me amu though

Zodiac sign - aries

Favorite fruit - mmm kiwi? raspberries? strawberries? mangos!!! i fucking love fruits i don’t know i love them all

Favorite season - probably summer!

Favorite color - pink!! pink pink pink!

Coffee, Tea or Hot Cocoa - hot chocolate!!!

Favorite animal(s) - GOATS (if ur reading this @ me in goats)

Dream trip - i’ve been there very very briefly but i’d love to live in germany for a little?? i guess that’s not a trip but idk i’d be happy going on a trip anywhere tbh :’)

Number of blankets you sleep with - one!

Dogs or cats - i love my cats!! even though i’ve recently discovered that i’m probably allergic fjdkslf

Side blog - this... used to be a sideblog until i became too involved with mx and snsd :// so i guess my old main is a sideblog? idk @morningcomes​ <<<

Follower count - a little over 700!!! i love u all thanks for putting up w me

When did you start this blog - this particular blog was the beginning of 2017! but ive been on tumblr since like 2010 i think ://

relationship status: it’s... um.... it’s complicated fdkslfjsd let’s just say im in a relationship even though im not sure if we’re actually dating or what we’re doing.... let’s just say that

favorite color: pink!!!!!!!!!!!!

lipstick or chapstick: chapstick

last song i listened to: i really like humble and dna by kendrick lamar so i’ve had those on repeat the last few days!

last movie i watched: ... moana?? god it’s really been a long time since i’ve watched a movie

top three tv shows: friends!!! fullmetal alchemist brotherhood if that counts? avatar the last airbender.. a forever favorite

top three characters: look im the worst at coming up w these things so i’ll just give my favorites from the above shows: rachel!! or monica or chandler i don’t know i love them all :( envy!! winry!!! zuko and toph!

top three ships: ok i just want to clarify like.. pairings and not ships but joohyuk!! hyohyun :’’) and.... wow how am i supposed to limit this to a third one i guess i’ll say kihyuk because im in love with them the past few days

Bold the statements that are true for you!

APPEARANCE:

I am 5′7″ or taller I wear glasses I have at least one tattoo I have at least one piercing I have blonde hair I have brown eyes I have short hair My abs are at least somewhat defined I have had braces There is something i would change about the way I look

PERSONALITY:

My Hogwarts house is: Gryffindor Hufflepuff Ravenclaw Slytherin I am an introvert I like meeting new people People tell me that I’m funny Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me I enjoy physical challenges I enjoy mental challenges I’m playfully rude with people I know well I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY:

I can sing well I can play an instrument I can do over 30 pushups without stopping I’m a fast runner I can draw well I have a good memory I’m good at doing math in my head I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES:

I enjoy playing sports I’ve been on a sports team at my school or somewhere else I’m in a orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else I have learned a new song in the past week I work out at least once a week I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months I have drawn something in the past month I enjoy writing Fandoms are my #1 passion I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES:

I have had my first kiss I have had alcohol I have scored the winning goal in a sports game I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting I have been at an overnight event (i honestly don’t know what this means but imma say yes) I have been in a taxi I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year I have beaten a video game in one day I have visited another country I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIP:

I’m in a relationship I have a celebrity crush I have a crush on someone I know I have been in at least 3 relationships I have never been in a relationship I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them I get crushes easily I have had a crush on someone for over a year I have been in a relationship for at least a year I have had feelings for a friend

(ok listen... lemme just reiterate... not sure if what im in is considered a relationship fdjkslfds)

MY LIFE:

I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” I live close to my school My parents are still together I have at least one sibling I live in the United States There is snow right now where I live I have hung out with a friend outside of school in the past month I have a smartphone I have at least 15 CDs I share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT:

I have breakdanced I know a person named Jamie I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce I have dyed my hair I’m listening to one song on repeat right now I have punched someone in the past week I know someone who has gone to jail I have broken a bone I have eaten a waffle today I know what I want to do with my life I speak at least 2 languages fluently I have made a new friend in the past year

1. do you have a good relationship with your parents? yes!!! im so grateful

2. who did you last say “i love you” to? i honestly have no clue i say it all the time through messages but im like... emotionally stunted in real life lmao

3. do you regret anything? yea mostly just opportunities that i should’ve taken that i don’t because i don’t have the will to put in the effort ://

4. are you insecure? not usually!

5. what’s your relationship status? listen.... complicated....

6. how do you want to die? this is 2 morbid for me next please

7. what did you last eat? bugles!!! i love bugles

8. played any sports? i ran cross country in high school for 3 years and did track for one!!

9. do you bite your nails? nope

10. when was your last physical fight? ha h ah haha i don’t think i’ve ever been in a physical fight

11. do you like someone? yea!

12. have you ever stayed up 48 hours? yes... too many times

13. do you hate anyone at the moment? no, not really!

14. do you miss someone? yea i miss a few of my high school friends that i wish i got to see more often and i miss us all hanging out as a group

15. have any pets?
 my family has 4 cats!

16. how exactly are you feeling at the moment?
 A+!

17. ever made out in the bathroom? damn i was ready to say no but.... i actually have.... im shocked at myself

18. are you scared of spiders?
 in certain situations?? who am i kidding lfjdkslfd yes

19. would you go back in time if you were given the chance? nah

20. where was the last place you snogged someone? ummmmmm my bed

21. what are your plans for this weekend? sleep and study :(

22. do you want to have kids? how many? idk?? i’m not very passionate about it tbh i’d be happy with anywhere between 0-3 kids

23. do you have piercings? how many? both my ears are double pierced!

24. what is/are/were your best subject(s)? i fuckin love math!! i would die for math also im pretty good at chemistry physics and computer science idk most things math/science related :)

25. do you miss anyone from your past?
 mostly just the same as before?? miss some of my hs friends

26. what are you craving right now?
 ..sleep

27. have you ever broken someone’s heart?
 i don’t think so??

28. have you ever been cheated on?
 nope!

29. have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
 yea :(

30. what’s irritating you right now? too much to do too little time

31. does somebody love you? ..yes? i hope

32. what is your favourite color? pink!!!!!!!

33. do you have trust issues? not really trust issues but like i said before i think im like.. emotionally stunted or smth

34. who/what was your last dream about? i hoenstly can’t remember any recent dreams

35. who was the last person you cried in front of? my ?boyfriend? lmao i cry all the time

36. do you give out second chances too easily? mmm idk? i’ve honestly never really thought about it

37. is it easier to forgive or forget? forget ://

38. is this year the best year of your life?
 noooo

39. how old were you when you had your first kiss? 18!

40. have you ever walked outside completely naked? fdjskflds no

51. favourite food?
 yo this just jumped from 40 to 51 fjdklsfdjsk anyway um! chicken

52. do you believe everything happens for a reason? lmao no that’s some wishful thinking :(

53. what is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
 i did most of my computer science lab :/

54. is cheating ever okay?
 no

55. are you mean? sometimes i can be really bad about impulsively saying things and... yea it can be mean :( but like in general? i don’t think im a mean person

56. how many people have you fist fought? i would cry if someone tried to fight me

57. do you believe in true love?
 yea!

58. favourite weather? gimme that sunshine, no humidity with a breeze

59. do you like the snow? yea!! but not excessively

60. do you wanna get married? yeah? but also it’s not like one of my overlying life goals ya know but if it happens that would be nice

61. is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? honestly whenever i hear people say baby in real life i cringe fjdsklfds idk i mean i say it in the tags on here but in real life... nah and i call some of my friends babe but i do it jokingly it just seems weird to do that like.. romantically

62. what makes you happy? getting time to myself!!! to do the things i want to do and relax! to spend time with my friends just relaxing as well! in particular getting to paint and getting to play piano make me really happy and relaxed

63. would you change your name? nope!

64. would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
 nope!

65. your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? ummm did u mean... my current situation jfkdlsfs

66. do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? yes mostly?? he definitely thinks im a lil weird when im like 100% myself but he still loves me anyway so :’)

67. who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
 ^^^ said above best friend

68. who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? my high school best friend?? i think

69. do you believe in soulmates? not really it’s a nice idea though

70. is there anyone you would die for? probably a few of my closest friends

fdskfdlsfjdks hope none of u read all that!!! this deserves to be my about page tbh

hey, i really love your blog!! and i'm really curious about you so could you answer all of the questions.. i understand if you can't, thank you if you do!!!

awww thank you so much :) since i'm really bored sure but sorry to everyone that doesn't care because this will probs be long af0. height: 4 ft 10in, i know i'm really short but i kinda love being short 1. age: 17 2. show size: 5 in womens and i can't fit into men's shoes3. do you smoke?: no4. do you drink?: no 5. do you take drugs?: no6. age you get mistaken for: like 13 7. have tattoos?: yes, i have three! i have a message from my papa on my right arm in his handwriting, a yellow rose on my thigh and underneath i have "in bloom" in kurt cobain's handwriting8. want any tattoos?: yesssss i have so many more tattoos planned and i'm so excited for them 9. got any piercings?: i only have my ears and their stretched to a 4g and my septum. i actually have clear plugs in my ears rn and i think they're really cool 10. want any piercings?: i'm getting my medusa before my prom, i really love the look of constellation ears so i think i wanna start something like that and i want my nips done when i'm 1811. best friend?: dekotah (follow her, her blog is sea-ofsound and we have really similar blogs so if you like mine you'll like hers!) 12. relationhip status: it's really fuckin complicated 13. biggest turn ons: in general- humour, beards (man you have no fucking idea how much i love beards dude), women in suits (if i women is wearing a suit i will nut), tattoos and getting tattoos, kindness especially to children (if i see you being nice to a kid or like playing with a kid i will prolly fall in love), tall peoplesexually- HAIR PULLING, literally anything else that involves getting dominated *oops*14. biggest turn offs: if you're mean i fucking hate you15. favourite movie: ouuu let's right a list because i have soo many (probs missing a lot) rocky horror picture show, donnie darko, it, scream, the shining, get out, monsters inc, pulp fiction, corpse bride, my neighbour totoro, saw, mean girls, lilo and stitch, now and them, hot chick, edward sissorhands, probably a bunch more but these were the first that came to mind 16. i'll love you if...: you're funny, nice to kids, call me cute pet names 17. someone i miss: my papa 18. most traumatic experience: losing papa 19. a fact about your personality: i'm very easy to make laugh 20. what i hate most about myself: physically- acne personality- i make myself vulnerable a lot even if i know it's prolly a bad idea and i'm way too anxious and shy 21. what i love most about myself: physically- my tattoos, eyes and tits personality- i think i'm very kind and look out for those i care for 22. what i want to be when i get older: i don't really know yet (even though i'm in grade 12) i think i wanna be an elementary school teacher and go to university for a bachelor of arts in english 23. my relationship with my siblings: i have one sibling and were so close! he's like one of my best friends and i love him so much 24. my relationship with my parents: we have a good relationship now but a couple years ago we still had a pretty good relationship but there was a lot more problems 25. my idea of a perfect date: literally doing anything chill with a person i care about 26. my biggest pet peeves: rude people 27. a description of the girl/boy i like: funny and tall 28. a description of the person i dislike the most: idk if i have someone that i dislike the most i mean there are people i don't like... i mean actually trump nvm29. a reason you lied to a friend: i only lie to friends if it's not to hurt there feelings 30. what i hate most about work/school: my store closed so i don't have work rn and school just annoying people and math 31. what my last text message says: thank you 32. what words upset me the most: just slurs \33. what words make me feel best about myself: baby girl, babe, princess, names like that 34. what i find most attractive about women: literally everything!!!!!!! girls! are! beautiful!35. what i find attractive in men: literally everything!!!! boys! are! beautiful!36. where would i like to live: probs like vancover 37. one of my insecurities: that no one actually likes me 38. my childhood carer choice: kindergarten teacher 39. my favourite ice cream flavour: chocolate 40. who i wish i could be: i honestly don't know 41. where i want to be right now: my house (and i am) 42. the last thing i ate: a croissant43. sexiest person that comes to my mind: posty 44. a random fact about anything: the oldest guinea pig was 15

101 Thought Provoking Questions

1. Do you like who you are? Yes, but sometimes I regret what I do though. 2. What would people say about you at your funeral? Just say how much they loved me. 3. What would you regret not doing in your life? Probably not having kids. 4. What’s the wisest thing you have ever heard someone say? Haha I forgot. Probably just to let people think what they think and try to interfere with your own life. 5. What lessons in life did you learn to hard way? That overthinking petty things is the worst that could happen. 6. How often do your biggest worries and fears come true? My fear is losing people I love, worries is to not be in balance. 7. If you had one year left to live, what would you try to achieve? To give lectures to students in universities on not censoring free speech and just to shut up about safe spaces. I don't want the people reproducing triggered children like them. 8. Do you serve money or does money serve you? Money serves me lol idk. 9. Are you afraid of being your true self around others? Why? Yes, because people judge too easily or I don't trust them. 10. What are you grateful for? Being born where I was, getting education and generally the west. 11. Have you done anything you are proud of lately? My drawing. 12. Have you made any recent acts of kindness? I've just been nice to people, I suppose. 13. If you knew that you would die tomorrow, what questions would you ask yourself? "Why are you so scared?" 14. If your biggest fears came true, would it matter in five years from now? Yes. 15. How would you describe yourself? I am a quiet (natural) blonde girl who believes in justice. 16. Do you take people’s advice? Sometimes too often. 17. Do you get quickly offended? Depends what it's about. 18. Do you consider yourself to be a likable person? Yes, unless that person does something I find off and I am cold to them. 19. ‘We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give’ – What does this mean to you? I suppose giving helps you feel confident and proud, and self-determination. 20. Are you enriching the lives of others? I don't know... 21. Are you living a meaningful life? Yes. 22. What makes a meaningful life? When you have things/people you care about and you don't want to give that up. 23. Would you ever give up your life to save another? Depends on how that person would react. 24. How much would you be willing to sacrifice for people in poverty? I don't have much money, so not much unfortunately. 25. If you could live one day over and over again, what would you choose to do? To stop crying and just think of reality. 26. Do you think you are important and worthy of affection and love? Yes. If I give, I mean for someone to give back. 27. What would make you feel more worthy? What do you believe needs to be different about you? Probably general affection of myself and self love. 28. What brings you down the most often? No confidence. 29. Would you rather work less (and do the things you enjoy) and have less money? I'd work to my best ability and enjoy what I'm doing, even if I don't have much. 30. Where do you find peace? At home or with my best friend. 31. What is the most important quality you look for in another person? Love. 32. What is your biggest dream in life? To be happy and have children. 33. What is your biggest fear? To lose others I love. 34. How would the world be different if you had never been born? My family would not carry on, my mum would probably die alone. 35. What life lessons do you wish you knew 10 years ago? To stop being so fucking obedient. 36. If you could tell your younger self one thing, what would it be? Do what you love. 37. If your life was a movie, what would the title be? "Reincarnation." 38. If your life was a movie, would you enjoy watching it? Depends how it's made and the style. 39. What does success mean to you? To do what you are happiest doing. 40. If you could be a different person, who would you be? Princess Diana. 41. What was the best day of your life? Why? Dunno. 42. What do you look forward to most in life? Being in my last years of life and telling others what life was like when I was younger. 43. What bad habits do you want to ditch? Overthinking, caring too much, laziness, to stop being obsessed with my phone. 44. Who do you look up to and why? Lots of people. 45. Do you know your partners love language? Dunno. 46. Do the people you love most know how much you love them? I don't know. I'll have to ask. 47. Are you satisfied with the depth of your relationships? I want more depth in relationships. 48. What do you owe yourself? Care. 49. Based on your current day-to-day life, what do you expect to achieve in 5 years from now? University. 50. Do you say ‘yes’ too often when you really want to say ‘no’? Why? I'm in denial or I don't want to hurt someone's feelings. 51. What did you learn yesterday? I need to sleep earlier. 52. What do you like about yourself? My fingers. 53. Would you consider yourself to be a generous person? Yes, only when that person's trustworthy. 54. Do you really listen when people talk to you? Only when I'm interested or I don't want to hurt them. 55. What is the number one change you need to make in your life this year? Read and revise more. 56. How many hours per week do you spend on the internet? Loadsssss. 57. What are your most common negative thoughts? Are they logical? More feeling, but I'm always contemplating life. 58. Do you think it’s too late to do certain things in your life? Why? It's too late when you're immobile or mentally damaged. 59. If you could be the most influential person in the world, what would you change? How people treat each other. 60. How much time do you spend with your family and friends? Not much time with family, with friends mostly in school. 61. Where do you want to be in 5 years from now? Doing what I want. 62. Is your life complicated by unnecessary things? The English education system. 63. How can you simplify your life and focus on the most important things to you? Do what would help you. 64. What stresses you out? School work or things not going to plan. 65. What makes life easier? Being rich. 66. How often do you give without expecting anything in return? Medium. 67. What is your greatest challenge? Living up to people's standards. 68. What is most important to you in life? Are you giving it the time it deserves? I think I need to spend more time in art. 69. If you could send a message to the world, what would you say in 30 seconds? I wouldn't say anything. 30 seconds is a needle in a haystack. 70. What do you most regret never telling someone? How I feel. 71. When was the last time you tried something new? Dunno. 72. Are you afraid to speak your own opinion? Yes, or I'll be called a racist or other things. 73. Do you give into others too often and feel resentful because of it? Yes. 74. Are you holding onto something that you need to put behind you? Probably. 75. How often do you let your fears hold you back? A lot. 76. Do the people in your life bring the best out of you? Yes. 77. How often do you make excuses? A lot, mostly because I don't want to hurt anyone. 78. What is one mistake that you will never do again? Worrying. 79. Which is worse, failing or never giving it a shot? Never giving it q shot. 80. What has grown you the most as a person – your challenges and trials or the comfortable yet enjoyable moments in life? I've learned not to trust my dad in his relationship situations. 81. If you could choose to have no more challenges or obstacles in life, would you? No. 82. In one word, what is standing between you and your biggest goal? My age and class. 83. How often do you go to bed feeling angry? Not that often. 84. Would it be wrong to steal in order to feed a starving child? Stealing is wrong, but if you have money, use it to feed that child. 85. If you paid more attention to the sad things in this world, would you feel more conflicted about it? Yes. 86. If we learn from our failures, then why is it so bad to fail? It makes us feel awful, or other mock or say we're not good enough. 87. What could you pay more attention to in life? The facts. 88. Why do we think of others the most when they’re no longer around? We either miss them or dislike them. 89. What does it look like to make the most of your life? To try your best. 90. What have you given up on? Athletics. 91. How many people do you truly love and what are you doing for them? Giving them my loyalty and dedication. 92. Do you ask enough questions, or are you happy to settle for what you already know? I would ask many questions to get more than one answer. 93. What were you doing when you last lost track of time? On holiday. 94. Do you think you would be happy if you never had to work again? No. 95. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? 59 y/o. 96. If you could ask for one wish, what would it be? To be yourself. 97. What inspires you in life? My dreams. 98. What can you not live without the most? Family, friends, culture, books, art. 99. What do you enjoy doing over and over again? Drawing, reading, watching Triggered Lava Girl. 100. When did you last laugh so much it hurt? On Sunday. 101. What is stopping you from living the life you want to live? Age or self thought.

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? Because I don't have feelings for him but I wonder if I could have those feelings if he gave me the room to let them grow 2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? Nope 3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? If he was a pothead, yes. If it was a once in the blue moon kind of thing then no. 4: Do you find it easy to trust others? Kinda not really, I give people a chance with small stuff until they earn it fully. 5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? Watching a movie 6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? I don't know...any one of my best friends I guess 7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? Depends on the circumstance but I would either raise hell or be silent. No in between. 8: Are you close with your dad? I used to be 9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? Nah 10: What are you listening to? Nothing atm 11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? Water 12: Do you like hickeys? Never had one 13: What time do you go to bed? 3am-4am 14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? Myself and my family. It's a tie. 15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? Bitch where 16: Do you always answer your texts? Nah 17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? Not at all, falling for him was the best feeling and he's always been an amazing friend 18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? Couple of minutes ago 19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? A lot of people AlHamdulilah 20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? I just want to be alone and not talk to anyone for a long time. Just to disappear for a while. 21: Is anyone else in the room with you? No 22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? If not in this life then in the next, so yes. 23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? I was more hopeful I suppose 24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? Once upon a time...yes...but now I want nothing to do with her. So no. 25: In the past week, have you cried? Yes 26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? Black 27: Do people ever call you by your last name? I'm more known by my last name than my first lol 28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? Jeez I hope not...cuz I haven't even noticed... 29: Do you have a best friend? Several AlHamdulilah 30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? Nah 31: Who was your last call/text message from? My best friends 32: Are you mad at anyone? Yes 33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Yes 34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? Ehhh 35: How many more days until your birthday? Idk, who cares? 36: Do you have any summer plans yet? Work work work work work work work 37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? Yea, they're awesome AlHamdulilah 38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? Yes 39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? Yes 40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Sometimes 41: Do you think age matters in relationships? I think maturity and consent matter 42: Are you available? Depends... 43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? 2 44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? Nose hoop 45: Do you believe exes can be friends? They can, but they shouldn't 46: Do you regret anything? All the time, but I wouldn't change anything either 47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? I hope the one or two people who figured out this is my blog don't read this 48: Did you ever lose a best friend? Yea 49: Was your last kiss a mistake? Yea 50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? Because even if he sends mixed signals it's very clear he doesn't have those feelings for me. No reason for me to make things awkward... 51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? Yes 52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? Yes 53: What was the last thing you ate? Granola bar 54: Did you get any compliments today? Nah 55: Where are you going on your next vacation? Idk but I hope it's somewhere with art 56: Do you own anything from other countries? Yea 57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? Girls 58: Where have you lived most of your life? Florida 59: When was the last time you took a long drive? My way back from work lol 60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? Yes 61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? Nah 62: Who do you text the most? Uhhhh my family...I think...I don't text tbh... 63: What was the last movie you saw? Beauty and the beast 64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? Not in a relationship 65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011? 0 66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? No 67: Do you curse around your parents? Yea depending on the curse word 68: Are you happy with where you live? No 69: Picture of yourself? Please. 70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? Monogamous 71: Have you ever been dumped? No 72: What do you most like about making out? Idk... 73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? Yea 74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? Depends 75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? Arms 76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? My gal friends 77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? Nope 78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? Nope 79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? Compliments or being teased by a guy I like 80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? Yea 81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? Confessed in general...? Yea.. 82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? Ugh sometimes...yea...I'm dumb 83: Do you miss your last sweetie? Nah 84: Last time you slow danced with someone? Never slow danced with someone 85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? Nope 86: How can I win your heart? Wldnt even know how to answer that without writing a novel or at least a reaaally long paragraph 87: What is your astrological sign? Who cares 88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM? Watching a movie 89: Do you cook? Yep 90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? Nope 91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? Rn I do but not for the right reasons 92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? Neither 93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? Taller than me 94: Name four things that you wish you had! Endless supply of motivation, self control, one old physical trait, and a larger attention span 95: Are you a player? Nah 96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? Nahhh 97: Are you a tease? Eh....depends.... 98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? Nope 99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? Yes 100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? Idk 101: Hugs or Kisses? Hugs 102: Are you too shy to ask someone out? More so afraid that if they reject me they'll think I'm suuuuper into them when I really don't give that much of a shit 103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Smile 104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? Yea 105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? No 106: Do you flirt a lot? Sometimes 107: Your last kiss? Dumb 108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? No 109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month? No 110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be? UHHH....a close friend lol 111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next? How wld I know that 112: Does someone like you currently? Not that I know of 113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone? Kinda, it's complicated 114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? Depends on the person 115: Ever made out with just a friend? They're not just a friend if you make out with them 116: Are you happier single or in a relationship? My relationship status doesn't usually dictate that for me 117: Your own question that you want me to answer. Just write it. How do you feel about the BLM movement?

4/7/17

hello hello hello.

im a bad person. like actually a bad person. i did something legitimately bad that i dont really want to talk about but i have to be honest with this blog and like idk it’s on my mind so i gotta. okay how do i say this. fuck okay i’ll just do it.

i missed class today. for the first time all semester. i’m a bad person. i was just so tired after this week and our story last night. my alarm woke me up, and i went pee, and got back in bed, and the next time i opened by eyes it was 9:47. aka 47 minutes after class started. i feel bad. i always feel bad when i miss class. poles is funny. he took a selfie with all his friends who showed up to class. aka himself and 3 stick figures drawn on snapchat. 

at least i got to eat breakfast and then go to the ecc and study for our quiz. also, bags did the exact same thing i did and thus was not able to wake me up and stuff.

studying was chill, i listened to new music. i’m mad kendrick didn't drop his album today, actually mad. i was looking forward to it. the new harry styles track was actually enjoyable and I'm surprised. the new chainsmokers was... fuck them. just not listenable like i can't I'm sorry. i had never listened to halsey before, but its exactly what i thought it was, overproduced hipster girl pop trash. not that overproduced hipster girl pop is inherently bad, but she’s bad. other new tracks were whatevs. wait wait i almost forgot, the new french montana track was horrendous. like what even is that fam. idgi.

had a quiz in systems. it wasn't horrendous, but still pretty bad and that made me a sad mark. 

i got froyo with poles after and then he came over and hung out with bags and kyle and i. we made kyle wait outside for like 15 minutes and pretended we weren't home lmao. 

oh yeah kyle’s here btw. his spring break trip got cancelled and he figured why the heck not.

but yeah then kyle left to go day-drinking with kassandra and bags went to work and poles and i literally just hung out in my room doing pretty much nothing.

it made me happy cause like poles and i literally were not doing anything but we still had super fun times and that’s so qt and he’s my bestest bff. 

he left to go on a tinder date. she didn't come. fuck that b. who would stand up mr alex s poles. like wtf. that hanna bitch better watch her back. 

played games with buds.

then kyle came home drunk and i kinda just turned netflix on and left him and kassandra downstairs. like i guess that kinda makes me a bad host but, idk i was just trynna play games with buddies and they just ran up on me all drunk and high or something idrk.

but yeah

time for deep mark.

okay i kid you not, but i googled questioning general beliefs and the first link was an lds.org video lmao.

but really uh time for thoughts and mark ideas.

okay so like I'm not some all-knowing jerk that is a super genius but i’ve always considered myself to have really strong reasoning skills and i guess that leads me to fake deep mark.

i say fake deep cause idk I'm not a psychology major fam, buzz off.

okay so i’ve had this conversation extensively with myself and my parents and friends and actually quite a few people, but okay.

wait on second thought this one isn't really some psychological deep thing. but kinda will turn into it maybe, if this plays out how my head thinks it will. 

okay so, we as a developed society will more than likely face a frightening revolution within our lifetimes. not like uprising type of revolution but a revolution in the way our entire economic system and the way people function. okay so within my lifetime, i am near certain that self-driving vehicles and the technology behind them will be perfected and mass-produced. what does that do? it gets rid of a huge part of our economy. not in a bad way for economic reasons, but in a bad way for people who need jobs and a method to contribute to society and a reason to exist on this planet. perfected self driving cars won't crash (once perfected), self driving cars will move efficiently and won't be late and won't brake too hard and won't cause damage to themselves and so on and so forth. truck drivers, won't need em. body shops for cars, nah fam. the huge chunk of the medical field that dedicates time and money to car accidents, meh. even car manufacturing and sales will go down cause like why would people need new cars. if you can just nap in your car and tell it to drive to LA, plane travel will take a hit. road work will take a knock, when there’s not people driving poorly on the roads. hoping by this time gasoline powered cars are gone, but if not, self driven technology will be a lot better at accelerating and braking to use it’s energy source as efficiently as possible. the fields go on and on and on and in most of the senses it’s a good thing. like it would be great to not waste money on these things, but people lose jobs, but not like jobs because we have a recession, but if anything jobs would be lost because we’d be doing too well. now i named one field, but consider the continuation of “robots” and computers and machines taking human labor jobs. but not just that, I’ll be a lil harder to replace, but in a perfect world computers take my job too eventually. a computer with infinite options and an understanding of which options are preferred will always be quicker, more efficient, and probably even better at engineering than i may ever be. it’s just a matter of developing a very complicated code. 

i’ve talked a lot but i’m just now getting to my actual thing. what do people do when they have nothing to do? like it’s easy for me to sit here and say idk fam watch netflix and relax, but no really. if even 20% of all currently employed people had their jobs taken by a computer tomorrow, what do they do? like they didn't lost their job because of economic issues or they fucked up, no like their method of bringing bread home is no longer available. what do people do? looking past the economics of it, let’s say the government is super aware and like wow people you’ll just get paid to exist cause we dont really need you as laborers. what do people do? have we forced people into just being laborers? i feel like there’s so many people who are nothing more than their 9-5. they go to work. they have small talk and perform a simple task over and over. they come home. they eat dinner. they stare at a screen for 4 hours, they go to bed. they do it again. i dont think anyone is inherently a mindless zombie like this, but i think it’s happened. if you just told everyone they didn't have to work tomorrow or the day after that or after that, people would have no idea what to do with their lives.

i dont think this, but i should mention it, what if some people really are just zombies? what if some people really don’t think anything. what if some people dont have any real deep down interests. or they can, but they dont care enough to. what i become that. 

i dont ever want to be that. i want to be me. i never want to go through the motions.

i’m better at closing this conversation off in person but i am scared to see what happened when we reach a society where laborers aren't needed. (please forgive me, i dont mean this sourly) where, the less intellectual are put in a place where they have to sit around and feel purposeless to society? of course i’m looking at this in a dystopian sense, i assume that similarly to the renaissance, art and knowledge will be further pursued when we are chilling financially, but idk it’s interesting to think about things like that. also the general public will grow more and more knowledgable along with this and maybe we’d have a super crazy smart culture. idk fam, this wasn't actually that deep but just something i thought of and not really on the theme of questioning things. that will come mañana and beyond that i’m still working on it. sry

-mark