anyways idk what is happening, maybe i'm just coming down with a bad flu or something, but i have been SO tired for no reason for several days now and today at work i also felt really ill. i drive around in a car about 6-7 hours a day at work these days and today i had to pull up two times on the side of the road because it felt like i was going to throw up. i didn't, it went away, but it was a close call.
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Yes 100%. My other pet peeve is when people claim expensive programs that would benefit society “pay for themselves” like no! On a dollar amount they won’t! But we should fund them anyway because making people happier+healthier? that’s worth spending money on
I mean, the research has been done, repeatedly, and it's my understanding that funding a lot of programs (like Universal Basic Income, or housing-first solutions, or preventative medicine) is actually less expensive in dollars, year over year, than paying for the social programs that prop up the current state of affairs...
...but that also doesn't mean that the current social programs shouldn't be funded, because they help people! Even if they don't solve the problem entirely!
If we can't make everything perfect in the future (we can't, because perfection doesn't exist), but we also can't make things less bad for people right now, then what are we even doing.
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So.
If you see me binging the rest of DRV3 faster than I normally games.
And then spending a lot of time playing DRS probably.
And then maybe binging through TWEWY2.
It's because I'm going through a bad time and yes I know I need to think about it some time but I'm pushing it off for future me to handle it because yesterday me got depression triggered so hard she considered self-harm again. Which isn't good for anybody!
And then got stuck in another spiral and ended up depersonalizing this morning!
SO.
I MIGHT BE GAMING A LOT.
TO NOT THAT AGAIN.
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I find it kind of interesting that we have a couple of delusions (and the hallucinations that come with those) that just kind of involve gruesome stuff happening to us, especially because they weren't as gruesome at first but have gotten more so over time.
the hallucinations are all somatic ones (sensations instead of visuals or audio) but they're stuff like I guess what our brain thinks it would feel like if our organs were decomposing, or being eaten by maggots, or just stuff with a similar vibe to that?
I can put up with it for the most part, but like I did nearly throw up on the bed because of it earlier and I'd really like to not experience that again
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Probably gotta take one of my babies to the vet tomorrow and I'm so scared about it. If it weren't for my anxiety meds, I'd probably be right back where I was last month. But I'm gonna get through this. I'm going to scratch and claw my way out of this with my head on straight.
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I totally forgot to mention that I called a prevention hotline on July 20th because I was having a Bad Time™ and the lady wound up calling the police because I was in active crisis.
Note that, while in crisis, I was physically perfectly fine. I had a knife, but I hadn't used it; I was fine.
The cops showed up after the lady had managed to talk me down, and then proceeded to nearly break my wrist when I refused to go to the Hospital and tried to go back to work. I will absolutely have scars from four of them tackling my 4'10 ass to the ground, and smashing my wrist into concrete. Reminder that prior to this, I was perfectly fine!
But hey, good thing the cops got involved, or I might've gotten hurt, right? /s
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for the past 3-4 days i've consistently been getting a headache at c.7pm that lasts into the early hours of the morning and isn't helped at all by painkillers. REALLY hoping it's a weird coincidence and not just the way i live now.
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