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a reunion
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#i'm FULLY normal about this btw#rand al'thor#mat cauthon#cauthor#derry: gifs#wot on prime#wot show spoilers
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was thinking about takeshi and how he's my favorite brand of unconditional devotion btw. the utter and absolute and all-consuming kind that runs so deep to the very core and is so intrinsic and fundamental to it, it can only express itself in the most casual and natural and certain way. without second thoughts, without any room for doubts or for any moral dilemma to be had over it, because of course he ought to always be breathing and living for his chosen person first and foremost. of course he ought to hang on their every word and make them true no matter what, no matter what he has to do to make it happen, no matter what he has to do to other people to make it happen, and no matter what it might turn him into in the process. because it's obviously the way the world should be for his chosen person. at their feet, ready to bend over backwards and break and build itself again to better answer to all their needs even if they don't ask it for it. it's the only right way it should be for them, and of course takeshi's going to do his utmost at all times to make it a reality as much as possible.
and his devotion comes out as naturally as breathing, comes out lighthearted and nonchalant like he might as well be talking about the weather, but it's not unaware of itself. it's not that takeshi doesn't know it's unhealthy and wrong and that he's willing to go entirely too far in its name for anyone's good. it's not that he wouldn't hear you out if you were to sit him down and explain to him just why he needs to tone it down a little (a lot). logically, he'd agree with you and know you're right. and then he'd tell you he's still not going to do anything whatsoever about it. that he's not bothered by it and doesn't feel the need to change anything to his attitude. makes it a point to never let anyone or anything sway him even an inch in the stand he took when it comes to that, no matter how many thousand of times you might go over the subject with him.
because the morality of his devotion isn't the point at all. is entirely irrelevant to it and doesn't affect the way he expresses it all. it's not the metric with which he draws a line in the sand to hold it accountable to. because the thing is, takeshi's entire world revolves around tsuna--tsuna is his entire world altogether, and it's just a matter of fact, that simple. to him it's a truth as unchanging as the sky being blue, and so being the way he is according to that truth is the only way he can imagine being that'd feel right to him. and so the actual and only metric that matters here is "would tsuna be happier if i were to do this?" and/or "is this something tsuna needs me to do?"
and like. i don't think takeshi ever stops being a kind person capable of compassion and understanding and mercy and forgiveness even ten years later once they became mafia through and through. and i don't think either he grows up to be feared and called a monster per se despite the things they inevitably had to do during those ten years (and the things they'll inevitably keep having to do as long as they keep being mafia), at least not in the way, for example, they'll never stop fearing and calling mukuro one. but i do think that among the tenth gen, he ends up being the one with the most ruthless, merciless and horrific blood on his hands of that particular and distinct loving kind. you know the one i mean, right? he comes to be the one most expected and the one first expected to be willing and to take it upon himself to go through with it when the need arises. and to think little of it after, if anything at all. all in the name of making tsuna's reign as easy on him as possible.
and it's to the point where it's the kind of blood that makes even mukuro pause at times. or, when takeshi is the one coming up with solutions himself during meetings, makes even reborn blink. not because it's unjustified or wouldn't be safe or efficient or anything of the sort, but because it is unwarrantedly thorough in its retaliation. and sometimes, at times like this, he's the one tsuna needs to step in for the most, because he's the only one who can reason with him that "yes, this would work in getting rid of our problem" but "no, please, don't do that takeshi". because if tsuna is the only thing that infers on just how much and in what ways he'll let himself be devoted to him, then of course, he's also the only one takeshi's willing to reign himself in for without second thoughts. because he'd hate to ever do something tsuna would disapprove of or wouldn't want him to do. or do something that'd make tsuna see him differently or love him back less even in the slightest.
and it's also like. his devotion isn't an undisciplined one. it's not one he doesn't have control over, the very opposite. it's a very purposeful and conscious choice he chooses to keep making over and over again every step of the way, and he taught himself to have control over it, to know when it's needed and/or wanted, and how much and in which ways it is when it happens, and to keep it down otherwise. and, yes, to also reign it back in at tsuna's request at times when it still slips past his control. because it's all about making tsuna's happiness easier and secure and long-lasting, and never about burdening him with just how committed he is to do that.
so it comes down to this: takeshi willing to go above and beyond and more for tsuna unless tsuna explicitly asks him not to. and to tsuna needing to ask him not to every now and then. and to other people pointing out to him how too many times tsuna's already needed to stop him, and that maybe there's a hint for him to take there. and to takeshi seeing the hint, looking it straight in the eye and recognizing it for what it is and just. deciding it doesn't apply to him because it's all perfectly normal behavior to him. because it's the only kind of behavior that makes sense to him and feels right.
and so—to circle back to my first point—he can only express his devotion as naturally as breathing, so casually, almost like it's something inconsequential and not worth talking about despite how unmistakably it couldn't be further away from being the truth. it's the only way he could have always known how to express it, because, after all, who has ever taken time to ponder about the details and the hows of the way they breathe?
and i, for one, absolutely eat that shit up every time, thanks for coming to my ted talk <3
#katekyo hitman reborn#khr#khr meta#can i even call this one?? well i'm going to anyway lol#yamamoto takeshi#sawada tsunayoshi#i've never been normal about devotion in stories and characters and won't ever be so sorry if this doesn't make sense#also this is not to say the 10th gen loves tsuna any less unconditionally this isn't a competition#it's just me saying the particularities and specificities of the way takeshi specifically does it appeal to me the most#which is one of the reasons why i have such a big soft spot for 8027#and it's not a problem in their relationship either btw that's also not what i'm saying#like tsuna doesn't mind it and absolutely /does/ reciprocate it 100%#he's just careful to keep an eye out so none of them will lose themselves along the way#also this is within the context of me shifting canon slightly to the left in the way where the 10th gen loves tsuna /so much/#they could just as well actually and properly worship him as a god and it still wouldn't make a single difference#and me liking to lean into that fully and taking it to extremes and it inevitably becoming some extent of dark#because considering the environment canon makes them express it (the mafia) it's like. well how else are they meant to keep it alive#and make sure it survives through it without giving it sharp teeth and claws and jagged edges of its own you know?#so if you feel like this is some kind of ooc-ness you're not wrong#but also consider: i'm not wrong either <3#anyway consider also: unconditional devotion running /so/ deep down to your marrow and to your very essence#even in the face of the whole world telling you how wrong it is and how insane and unhinged you are for it and condemning you for it#it still wouldn't so much as make you consider the thought they might have a point#and i genuinely EAT that shit up every time i love to see it <3
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Found a glitch while playing Princess Peach Showtime. The game registered that I did the spin but didn't play the animation, thus allowing me to keep the Theets for the second half of the performance minigame.
Btw it didn't reduce the number of Theets supposed to show up at the end (since you need to grab them for a sparkle), leading to twelve being there rather than eight.
Look at all those girlies
Will put in another post the video of the minigame's second half with the Theets following Peach; I didn't expect it to happen so pressed the capture button early to save the animation glitch.
EDIT: Here's the second half with the Theets and here's the finale with all twelve.
#Princess Peach#Princess Peach Showtime#Princess Peach Showtime spoilers#Super Mario#Flor talks#yeah I've re-played this game like 5 times already; granted in a completed file#I'm low-key speedrunning trying to get every gem and ribbon just for fun; tbh it's just an excuse to play more of it#as you can tell I'm completely normal about Peach having her own game <- lying#(tbh the fact they still pose at the end makes me wonder if it's fully a glitch#or if there's a way to fail the section when you first group them and spin#which leads to them staying with Peach like they did here)#(btw I say 'girlies' here but it's worth noting that Stella uses they/them for the Sparklas#so it's likely all theets are nb/agender)
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you stop shaving as a woman and people just dont know what to call you anymore huh
#you ever get so annoyed that you draw ur irl self instead of your epic swag yass slay pretty sona#i didnt stop shaving for any statement btw it just drains me to do it & i havent been in the mood for months LMAO#i think i'm so used to the comfort of being surrounded by ppl presenting however they want and calling themselves whatever#sometimes i forget how. binary everything still is where i live#note that aint trans btw. i was afab & i dont fully identify as that currently but i have no problem being called a girl#and due to Health Reasons(tm) i get hairier than one would consider 'normal' for a woman (among other things)#(listen we all know gender is a nuanced spectrum but im not in the mood to talk about it in the tags of my own blog lol)#that + short + fat + voice breaks sometimes + mostly wears 'gender neutral' clothing. been mistaken for a prebuscent guy sometimes#(i say 'gender neutral' but its just regular ass baggy shirts and pants/jeans. 💥)#and if y'know me personally youre prolly reading this like 'what'. and yeah thats my reality sometimes LMAO#and im spanish so things are Extra gendered >8'D#i dont even bother explainin my gender to family its just not worth it so i take the she/her and move on#usually i dont talk about these irl things bc whatever but it's starting to irritate me lol#like. do i have to fuckin shave just to not be misgendered. fuckin christ dude#i need to get my yearly haircut btw. i dont like long hair on myself. its getting warm & it makes me sweat i hate it 🧍♂️
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(Spoilers for the Fourth "Letters from the Outlook") Wait, so if Grian's hands are damaged, then does that mean he cannot go back to his drafting job anymore? What does he do instead when he does eventually regain some movement and dexterity to his hands?
I basically answered this in the chapter notes, which is just that I did not intend for him to have long-term damage that permanently affected his function in a massive way. That's why he has physical therapy and a compression garmet and in the scene he says his doctor is fairly confident it won't be forever. Yes, it will probably affect how fast he can go back to the job (but also his mental health is going to affect that too) and perhaps he'll have to rest his hands more often. But basically it wasn't my intention to keep him from being able to hold a pencil forever, so I don't see why he can't go back to drafting in a while. He just couldn't hold it during that still-fairly-early scene because he hadn't regained a lot of grip strength.
Also his days of drafting are numbered anyway—by the 90s, architects started to use AutoCAD for their work instead of manual drafting :)
#i hashtag believe in the power of physical therapy (and them starting PT immediately as soon as grian was healed enough)#when i had my knee in that brace i could not bend it at all when i got it out and within a month i had normal range of motion thanks to PT#some of this uncertainty about the burns and stuff can go back to the fact that i did not always plan to have grian go through the fire#there are versions of the plot up until me literally sitting down to write the scene that included him successfully running away#so when i finally took the leap and went 'no he HAS to go through the fire for it to 1) satisfy foreshadowing and 2) be realistic'#i then had to very quickly spend several hours researching burns because i hadn't researched it earlier and pivot where needed#so i didnt leave enough 'room' in the story to like. deeply and properly examine potential disability as an effect of the story#so i tried to find the middle ground of like. reasonable and realistic injury that ultimately has a good outcome#quara asks#hc_firewatch_au#like i'm not saying that i dislike the option of potential disability as a long term effect in this story i'm saying that i'd rather#be able to FULLY and properly explore the topic instead of tacking it on at the end? like oh yeah btw#and i just don't plan on doing an extension of the story like that. so. he has 2nd degree burns that will heal and just need PT
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wow!!! nothing better than watching your AO3 subscribers stat go down every time you post a new chapter of your current fic!!!
#/sarcastic btw. i am. Not happy about this recent development#Seven.txt#writing stuff#ao3#like. don't get me wrong i do understand why and i can't fault anyone and i'm not like.. Mad. but it does hurt a lil#but alas. tis the nature of creating and posting things. not everything's gonna be received well and that's fine#it does suck to see a fic i put so much time and effort and love and part of myself into flopping so hard#not because i wrote it for anyone's sake other than my own#but i'd be lying if i said i didn't want people to enjoy the things i create. that's like. a normal and common desire#and i think i maybe killed it before it could get going with how i tagged it and the bigass disclaimer at the beginning#i think those turn a lot of ppl off that might otherwise read and maybe even find that they enjoy it??#but i would rather over-warn ppl for the triggering and non-canon aspects than under-warn them and potentially trigger or upset someone#and i can't blame ppl that subscribed for some Other thing when they open their email and see a notif that i posted smthn#and it's a mile of upsetting/negative sounding tags for a fic abt a guy they either don't know or don't wanna see mischaracterized#and so of course they unsub and that's okay. it's okay.#anyways. enough bitching abt my fic not doing well. i don't have much room to complain!#most of my stuff is fairly well received imo. so i can stand to have a flop fic every once in a while. gotta balance things out lmao#the good thing is it's already fully written so the lack of engagement can't stop me!! there's no motivation to kill! it's done already!#anyways. i'll post a chapter a day as planned and then it'll be out of my system in a week and i can post other stuff again finally#next up will be an [N]MbD oneshot. then i'll finally post the Dew Ghost Band OCD fic. then another [N]MbD oneshot ehehe#and thennn ES Ch.5! fucking finally. i can't wait to continue that story#the Dew fic is a oneshot too btw. once AEIWNF is fully posted then the only multi-chapter project i'll have is ES. and that's Enough
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#god i haven't said anything about this but i'm full on stewing on behalf of ry & matt but especially ryan#like jesus christ you can't be that dense and vengeful as a person to constantly drag someone's name through the mud who attempted#all in the guise of your own SA. like be a human with a brain fucking hell#that'd be like if one of ** ******'s* friends had SA'ed me and then if they had a friend who had attempted s*icide#and then i thought it was fine and normal to drag that person into it. which it's fucking not#anyways as someone who's gone through SA but also someone close to s*icide attempts if they're not fully related don't bring them up.#out of context you just look like an asshole who despite having gone through something themselves (not trying to diminish that)#who doesn't understand people also go through things too that are equally traumatic#anyways fuck off <3#this just has to do with l*x btw. this isn't even relation to the whole shitstorm that was/is le*ghton and eth*n and r*v.#anyways im also aware i posted something about causing drama so i might not leave this up but i needed to get this out of my head lmao
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I am an adult, I have responsibilities, I can log off at any time, it is beneath me to get involved in or vaguepost about petty fandom disagreements- sees a post ah.
#this is about the duck should get human rights thing btw if you care#duck#ahiru#meta#fandom wank#I Disagree With People On The Internet. shocking I know but that's how it is#she is happy on the lake as a duck? idk. skeptical. are you sure#she can't relate to other birds and sees them as simple creatures as a human with more complex desires#she just has fakir and that's not enough she can't live like that she deserves more than that#and who are you to accuse me of “not knowing the show is about self acceptance”#I have made multiple separate tag rants on the topic. I know about it I just disagree. we exist#I know what the show is about. I just don't think that it was written in a convincing or satisfying enough way#for me to fully agree with it#like from here it just looks like a character who is placed in an unstable and miserable situation#purely because it's what she naturally is. even though she displays few behaviors typical to that. and thinks “it sucks”#and she has to accept that because? it's not convincing and is frankly circular#if you want a narrative like that then DON'T FUCKING LAST UNICORN IT.#don't place an ant on a circuit board give it for a brief moment the capacity to comprehend the circuit board#and then tear that knowledge away and leave it an ant again and expect it to be fine with that and keep on trucking like normal because#“oh well this wasn't meant for my eyes let me just forget about it”#no!!!#pick Anything else to use as your metaphor. I'm begging you.#when your self acceptance metaphor is a textbook fucking cosmic horror story you are *doing something wrong*#and I'm saying this because I love this show#unrelated but the cosmic horror angle here is kinda interesting actually. hmm.#mysterious and transmutable
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my family . i love them . but good god .
#I WANT TO LIVE MY LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#I MOVED OUT FOR A REASON AND THE REASON WAS NOT SO THAT THEY COULD COME VISIT ME IN MY UNI CITY#it's fine i'm normal and kind and a good child and sister .#i'm also going to kms if they try to get me to take time off work for them#after fucking being on my ass the entire fucking year about getting a job and how i needed a job and how i should be employed#i just want to live my lifeeeeeeeeeee i want to be free i want to not be asked by my dad at 11.45pm why i'm up because it's late#i feel like i'm losing my actual mind but ykw it's ok and i know it's okay because this time next week i will be back in my uni city#i understand that my parents try and i understand that my sister is 15 but i cannot be everything they want me to be and i cannot#deal with them hanging over me at every second i can't do it#and i need to get over myself i need to let my entire past go and just move on with my life#but it's like i was so so sick the other week and literally both my parents and my younger sister were all on me for things they#needed me to do and i was fully in a different country . completely . a different country where i live out of home btw#and i get i get that family is important and we need to have each others backs or whatever the fuck BUT THEY KNEW I WAS SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#what about having my back........... anyway i'm not bitter .#i do need to just let it all go though bc it's just how it is and there are many worse situations to be in and i am very grateful for my#life so it's all fine . i just feel suffocated . but it's ok because soon i will be in a different country to them again and they will not#know where i am and i will be living my life <333333
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My heads a little odd it's like it was filled w water and it had a marble or something and everything I disturbe the water with sound or movement the marble thing goes crazy
#im thinking of a word but can't remember it lol#might have to skip sleep so i can shower before everybody wakes up and ask to be taken#somewhere?#like a clinic or anywhere for a checkup?#like i dont wanna go to er they're gonna make me wait hours bc im breathing and not bleeding lol#but maybe a simi clinic#disoriented is the word#i feel like an astronaut it's funny when not alarming it's like#when im very motion sick without the nausea? im just glad im not nauseous lol my stomachs been so nice the last week or so#we're all sick tho im thinking of asking if i could get a covid or influenza test done bc we're /all/ sick my dad almost kicked it last#weekend and my mom's taking a day off for the first time like ever#I've been feeling emotionally devastated for some reason (btw the baby saved all their classes!!!!) and i keep thinking it's bc im#physically ill which i can never fully process despite being sick all the time lol#but i got a /normal/ fever twice or thrice in a week and it scared me so bad lmao they usually make me feel like#i was throw into a furnace but i felt the bone deep cold n all that relatively normal shit but it felt so foreign i was scared#naproxen and a 13h nap (lol) took care of it yesterday tho#im v scared of antibiotical restriction or whatever it's called I'm not very bilingual rn#so i never take them without them being prescribed by someone reputable lol#but I've been feeling like I've got a mild ear infection for what seems like forever which im aware can be super dangerous#but i was too focused on getting them to take me to the dentist first that I wasn't even thinking about that#(and they were going to! but then my dad got his phone stolen and he needs it for his job lol)#anyways my mom said that im either juuust entering a fever or coming out of it or whatevers the right term#which is why im so chatty rn lol my mom says i talk even thru my elbows (thanks gboard for the translation) but she#can tell when i have a fever bc i get squirmy bc of the heat + super chatty it's so funny#hopefully it all goes well and the simi doctor magically puts me a step closer to finding out what's Wrong™ w me#(magically a.k.a. medicine)#ive also wanted to talk w a doctor about how many antibiotics i was given as a kid without the#stomach pro something thing. for like thr flora so it doesn't die w the illness#and how it could be v closely tied to my chronic stomach issues (even tho i was like born w them but like it could have made that worse)#personal
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sigh i truly am not a huge fan of when Specialest Boy in my fanfics
#i'm just bitching#it turns me off so easily even when it's my blorbo#Specialest Boy /gender neutral#tho i admit it is usually a dude...#like noooooo i liked when they were a normal guy.... come back....#u can be angsted and not Specialest Boyed btw#it's just the Energy. i cant fully explain it rn but ya#like. i want to see this perosn in their natural habitat. in their life. why is everyone fussing like that. over specifically them#sorry im mad about fictional people in twice over fictional works Caring Too Much abt my faves#but agahagahaggGahhjdj grrrr.#if you specialest boy someone the other people matter less.... like u can feel it#and no i want to feel them have an existence outside of this moment with this person..#existence in relation to only one person is much better Intentionally explored rhan as a accidental consequencs of the story imo#but what do i know#im just some dude on tumblr#anyways rant over. again i'm jusr bitching out loud im not soapboxing or anything#do whatever you want make urself happy
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I need someone to talk to ab this cause imagine dbf!Keegan genuinely feeling so bad he likes his best friend's daughter, not to mention the age gap and all that. and he keeps trying to push the thought away until she's managed to get through his head INTO HIS DREAMS?? and he has a few normal sweet dreams, but ONE OF THEM BEING YKK a wet dream and he wakes up feeling so guilty but it was hot..? then not being able to get it out of his head when he sees her
- kindly 🪷 anon (hope it isn't taken btw)
YURRRR!! SO REAL FOR THIS ONE CUZ
Dbf!Keegan would definitely feel guilty about the age gap and the fact that you're his best friend's daughter. Sure, you're an adult, well into your 20s but that doesn't erase his guilt. He knows that in your father's eyes you're still his little girl, the apple of his eye, the only family he has left— and Keegan... well, he's something. The man kills people for a living and has seen more of his friends die than he'd like to even think about, a stoic man through and through who has done awful things for the sake of his country.
He might feel like he doesn't even deserve to touch you or think about you in any way other than someone he must protect with his everything. He forces all the thoughts of you to the back of his mind despite the way you always look at him like he's worth something, like he deserves to be looked at, yet it's the same way he forces the thoughts of you away what causes him to have wet dreams.
It's downright nasty. Sinful, forbidden, the way he keeps dreaming about you and has to wake up to a painfully hard cock after seeing the images of you, so perfect and glistening in sweat while he made you his. It gets more difficult with time— Keegan absolutely adores cuddling with you, yet he always has to leave bed and relieve himself in the bathroom so you don't feel his hard cock poking you, not wanting to make anything awkward despite knowing fully well that you want him too.
It's hard to push the memories of those dreams away when he looks at you, so damn perfect and always wanting to show him affection no matter what, the two of you having grown attached to the hip throughout the years. He has to adjust his position every once in a while when you're both cuddling on the couch, not wanting you to see the way he gets so hard from just having you close.
I'm so fucking feral for dbf!Keegan wjdjwlebwown
#cod keegan#keegan russ#keegan x reader#keegan russ x reader#call of duty ghosts#keegan p russ#keegan smut#dbf!keegan#dbf!keegan x reader#dbf#keegan russ fluff#keegan russ headcanons#keegan russ smut#keegan p. russ x fem!oc#keegan p russ x reader#stray answers
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to add to your last point about jason (which you're so right about btw) i am a firm believer that he loves to bite his significant other, especially on the thigh area.
Ohhhhh anon you and I are sharing a brainwave right now!!! Please have my ramblings about this. I'm super normal about Jason and biting. <3
So. I think Jason experiences bouts of cuteness aggression with his partner. Sure, he will also bite during sexy times, especially if you ask. (Jason loves being asked and being told that you want his touch and affection.) But honestly, I feel like many of Jason's bites aren't meant to be suggestive. He just sees his partner's bare skin, sees their thighs, arms, tummy, back, anything, and HAS to bite. He has to. He'll explode if he doesn't.
So he'll come home and you'll be innocently relaxing on the couch or cooking or on your computer, and then Jason's there. And he might startle you because sometimes, when he gets one track minded like this, he forgets to make noise and reverts to his typical stealth mode. Sometimes, it's like you're being hunted. In a good way. You're really into it. (I'm really into it.)
Anyway, point is, you're not doing much. You're existing. But Jason will see you and be overwhelmed by love and want. He'll feel a rush of tenderness over the fact that you feel safe around him, that you treat his home like your home, that you don't thrum with nervous energy upon his return. If anything, you get more relaxed. You're literally just sitting there and he'll get major heart eyes. He needs to show this swelling affection he has for you right. now.
How can he not bite?? Kissing isn't enough. Jason needs to drape himself over you. He gathers all your limbs and nuzzles your chest because he can, because you're his and he's yours. And then he bites your neck. Never hard enough to cause pain. Always gentle bites (unless you beg for him to go harder 😎).
He loves to bite and kiss and suck the fat of your thighs. LOVES it. Jason's not necessarily crazy about 'marking his partner' but if you want a hickey, he'll give you a hickey. He fully expects three in return. Half the fun in biting you is the fact that you'll always bite Jason back. And he loves being bitten.
(and if I said that jason todd has come untouched from being bitten hard enough. if I said that. what then.)
#see! normal.#please feel free to send more biting jason asks 👌 good soup#jason todd x reader#inbox#nsft
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I just read the akutagawa fic someone requested so I wanted to request smth similar if that's cool!
Sigma comes home with an attitude after getting all stressed at work so we cockwarm him
Take ur time btw ik you're prolly stressed w school and stuff 🙏
Gah, brother! Ittookmeashittonofwhiletogetthispieceoutimsosorryireallyreallyreallytriedveryhard-
*clears throat* I... *Sigh* I'm sorry it took me so much time to get this out. But I'm really proud of myself for finally finishing this, ngl. Hope you like it, and thank you for being patient.
Contents: Making Sigma cockwarm reader.
Warnings: Smut, Top male reader, cockwarming. Think that's about it.
Sigma was more than just irritated.
He was tired and annoyed; there was a dull ache in his head and his body was too heavy for his legs.
So when you pressed your signature soft kiss to his temple, and asked him if he remembered the date you'd planned for him, he snapped a little too ferociously.
"[Name], I can't go today, okay?" He said, his brows furrowed. "There's too much on my mind and I don't have time for stuff like that anymore."
A part of you was hurt by that. 'I don't have time,' You'd always thought he enjoyed your dates.
But you pushed it to the back of your brain.
About an hour later, Sigma was more than regretting the way he'd talked back.
You were fully clothed; just your pants were unzipped so your cock could be buried in him as it was, nestled between his walls all warm and snug, but achingly stationary. You were pretending as if everything were perfectly normal, scrolling through your phone and blatantly ignoring Sigma, who was sitting in your lap straddling you, naked.
He was starting to grow desperate; he wanted you to fuck him the way you always did, aiming at his sweet spot with the accuracy of a professional archer. He needed it. But you weren't listening to him at all.
"[Name]," Sigma said, voice slightly unsteady as his hands clutched at the fabric of your shirt. "[Name], please..."
"Hmm?" You raised an eyebrow, not quite looking up from your phone.
"Don't do this, please..." He looked up at you with those teary eyes of his. "I need you."
You glanced at him, the sight of his gaze making you almost give in. You sighed, putting the phone down and looking at him fully. "Need me? I thought you had too much on your mind and not enough time."
Sigma looked slightly hurt, but then he buried his face into the crook of your neck, wrapping his arms around your neck. "I'm sorry."
A sob shook his shoulders, and you felt tears drip onto yours. You sighed again, and put an arm around him.
"I can't take it anymore," He mumbled.
"Fine," You said. How were you supposed to remain firm when your love was crying? "But you're gonna have to do it yourself."
Sigma pulled away to look at you, cheeks red. "What do you...?"
You put your phone away, and turned to look at him again. "I'm not really feeling like doing anything, to be honest. And since you want it so much, you can do it for yourself."
With these words you sat back against the couch, looking up at him as he contemplated your suggestion. Sigma had never ridden you before; it was usually just you doing nasty stuff to him that made his eyes water and brain fog up.
But times were desperate, and you did not look like you were gonna cave in soon, so he nodded.
"Okay," He murmured, eyes downcast.
"Perfect," You said.
And so he started moving, grinding down on your cock slowly as his fingers tightened around your shirt. He bit his lips trying to muffle the moans he knew would start to spill out soon. His whole was fluttering around your cock already, his own dick twitching with want.
It was almost painful for you to not move, to not flip the two of you around and pin Sigma against the couch beneath you and fuck him till he was screaming. Gods, and he didn't even know the effect he had on you.
"Come on," You caressed his waist softly, stomach taught and shoulders tense with your restraint. "You can go faster, can't you?"
Sigma nodded, and sped up slightly. He was still shy, unable to make eye contact with you and with a stiff blush across his face. His eyes were tearing up slightly, and no amount of biting his lips was keeping in the ah-ah-ahs that spilled from his mouth as he bounced on your cock.
You could feel your dick twitching with want and restraint inside him. Your breathing had grown laboured, and you couldn't help but lean forwards and kiss Sigma slightly harshly.
He moaned into it, hole clenching around your cock and eyelids fluttering shut as a tear rolled down his cheek. You bit and nibbled so hard at his lips that he had to pull away to stop you.
"Don't- nghh! Don't b-bite so hard," He panted.
"Hmm," You grabbed his love handles, mediating his pace. "Don't you like it?"
Sigma flushed, burying his face into the crook of your shoulder as you made him bounce wilder on your cock. When you hit his prostrate, he whimpered, clutching your shoulders so hard his short nails dug into your skin.
So you hit it again and again, your hips snapping up to thrust your tip against his sweet spot, making him start to whine from the feeling. His own hips were bouncing to meet your thrusts half-way, and the lewd sound of skin slapping against skin that echoed through the room was making you restless.
You decided, fuck the punishment, you needed Sigma.
Flipping yourselves around so that Sigma was laying on the couch and you were on top of him, you pressed his pretty legs to his chest and fucked him, bullying his sweet spot and abusing his hole as he cried out underneath you.
Your pace was destructive and brutal, sending Sigma scrambling to find purchase as his chest heaved with each breath. You could tell from his blurred-up eyes that his brain was starting to cloud, his hands clutching your shoulders so tight his nails had managed to draw blood from your skin.
Soon, his thighs started trembling violently, his hole clenching around you in the way that it did when he was close. You smirked, teeth-half gritted against your arousal, and sped up.
Sigma cried out, cum shooting from his dick as a sound of pleasure ripped itself free from his throat, his hole so tight around you it was almost impossible to pull out and thrust in.
You weren't far behind, what with him so tight around your dick it was making you see stars. The white hot coil in your intestines snapped, and you painted Sigma's walls white.
Slowing down to a stop, you huffed to catch your breath, eyes landing on him.
He was out of breath and dazed, quite obviously in subspace. You pulled out of him, earning a small whimper from him, and placed a small kiss on his forehead.
It didn't take long to get a bath ready for Sigma, and you soon carried him to it from the couch. As you set him down in the water, he reached out to hold onto you.
"[Name]..." He murmured, perhaps already out of subspace.
"Hm?" You stroked his hair gently.
"Something's bothering you, right?" He looked up at you, voice quiet. "You looked weird earlier."
You sat down on the floor next to him outside the bath. "Earlier when?"
"When I said..." Sigma bit his lip. "When I said that mean stuff."
You smiled softly, even as the memory made you want to wince. "Hmm, yeah. It did hurt a little, honestly."
Sigma lowered his head, pouting slightly. "I'm sorry. I was just upset because of-"
"Because of something that happened at work, right?" You finished for him, nodding. "I know, that's why I didn't say anything."
He bit his lip. "I'm sorry."
You smiled at him again, leaning forwards to kiss his temple. "It's alright. But next time..." You paused. "If you don't want to go out somewhere with me, just say so."
"No!" Sigma sat up straight, looking at you with his wide eyes. "I like going to places with you. I didn't really mean it, I swear."
You looked at him, and this time the smile that tugged at your lips was automatic. "Really?"
"Yeah," He nodded furiously. "I really like spending time with you."
You chuckled softly. "Mn, good to hear."
#dom male reader#top male reader#dom reader#bungou stray dogs#sub bsd#sub bsd x you#bsd x you#sub bungou stray dog x you#sub bungou stray dogs#sub character#sub character x you#sub sigma x you#sub sigma
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Dad! Jouno headcanons...
He just looks like a stressed as hell father here. Someone help him.
Before ->
To be totally honest, I don't think Jouno would ever plan to be a father. He would never plan to be one simply because he is completely aware of how horrible of a person he is
Why would he bring someone into the world who could be exactly like him? Or worse, he would end up being a horrible parent?
He would just avoid any topic about it.
So parenthood is 100% an accident. Also, this guy would probably try to convince his gf to get an abortion at some point, cause he probably thinks he would make a child that's just that horrible
I feel like the best chance of him becoming a parent would be him not knowing about it when he got arrested and was forced into being a hunting dog. Can't tell your gf to abort when you're in jail ig. Also now he is legally obligated to pay child support. GOTTEM!
Personal theory tho.
He probably wouldn't be jumping for joy at the thought of parenthood tbh. If anything, he is freaking out. I feel like he's in between denial and freaking out. Probably gave some weird rant about the government.
During pregnancy ->
If he's miraculously there (I think the last part is more plausible. This would be his #felonera) then he would be stressed as hell
Dude knows that it's inevitable (unless he throws her down the stairs. or smothers the baby. He probably thinks some weird shit it's Jouno sorry) so now he has to prepare for a very near future of being a father
He can't have sex for what might be the next few years. He has to learn how to take care of a baby. He's made Tecchou-like food combo's now. His life is hell.
Jouno I think would only be dramatic for a month and then get over it quickly -> he has two people relying on him now. Even past his kid being born, he will inevitably have to take care of his baby mom for a while after and will have to provide. Like a dad.
He probably loves the attention and the title it gives him. Probably starts owning it and is thinking 'yeah, actually, I'm going to be an awesome dad' because he gets brownie points for doing the bare minimum as a man
Dude would be kinda ridiculous and do lots of shit just so he can get praise. He's going to be a great dad, so yea, ofc he's going to buy weird useless shit no one would actually use. It's what good dad's do (he's not even pregnant and is suffering from baby brain I think)
Is probably terrified of touching his gf because he is more than aware that his child is in there and it unnerves him. Probably is super freakish about the most random shit, like drinking coffee or going up and down stairs since he can hear whats going on.
His normal level of anxiety goes through the roof during this time. I feel like they won't ever go back down again.
During the birth he would probably be supportive although I think the sounds and smells would be so horrific for him that he would vomit and be kicked out by nursing staff
I feel like the birth was so bad for him to hear (sensitive hearing would be terrible. and smell) that he would be crying as if he pushed a baby out of his hole
Raising that Child (early years) ->
The early years are the worst for him. He still is in a stage between "I want to be a good dad" and "I'm a horrible person I literally have fucking killed people. He doesn't know I have killed people and enjoyed it"
Would have this crisis with a literal baby btw. Probably has full on very serious conversations with his kid about morality when his kid still drinks from the tit
I don't think he'd enjoy being around his kid fully until he starts actually forming full thoughts. Obviously, he loves him, but he enjoys weird kid questions much more than a baby who shits himself
Eggs him on too, tries to make him think until his brain hurts. He thinks it's funny, making a seven-year-old wrap his head around the concept of global shipping and LLCs.
He wouldn't give his kid normal child entertainment. It's all educational and weird shit. Also is very picky about their toys, he's basically a beige mom but its about noises and smells. NEVER give his kid something like slime, he'll go insane.
I think he's 100% the 'bad cop' parent because he would have a lot of rules that a little kid wouldn't get. I feel like the other Hunting Dogs would get on his ass about it
I think Jouno probably worries a lot about giving his kid a good childhood since I doubt his was good - he was alive during the great war as a kid, he turned into a criminal, and he's an ability user. not the best circumstances.
100% has been forced to bring his kid to his job, but he doesn't actually introduce him to any of his actual duties. Torturing? He can't know about that.
Jouno lets his kid hang out with his colleagues -> probably Tachihara, who I think would play the best 'uncle' role out of all of them
Later years ->
Personally, I think Jouno would have a son, but I don't think its a curse. I think it would actually be a sort of blessing, because Jouno was probably a lot nicer of a person before whatever fucked up shit happened that made him the way he is now.
Mentioning this cause I think his son would probably be a direct reflection of who he could have been -> more happy and carefree, and less on the offensive about everything
So when his kid gets older, Jouno is probably some weird guy who tries to tell his kid everything he 'wished he knew at that age'
Probably got his son to have a sex talk from one of the hunting dogs doctors. it was a traumatic bonding experience for the both of them.
He definitely fake kidnapped his kid like 3 times in case something happened. Jouno is a super soldier, but his son is not. He needs to learn how to stab people.
Gave his son a gun/knife. Insists he brings it school, no he does not care if it's against the rules - he literally is the law. His son is also a target, so it is necessary in his eyes.
God please someone stop him he thinks someone is going to murder his son every second of every day
I'm pretty sure his son is some dweeb that Jouno is almost jealous of - like he never got the opportunity to be a dork who cries about homework. he was too busy killing people in his gang at that age
Jouno definitely drops the most insane dad lore. "I killed werewolves in Kenya once" while in the middle of a PTA meeting
Worst PTA mom btw. He WILL interrogate his sons teachers and pull up their records, he is the worst parent. He really shouldn't be allowed there actually
Is a lot nicer to his kid when his son is older.
He isn't his 'best friend' but he tries to do everything he can to be a good dad -> he lives everyday thinking that it'd be his last one with his family, so he tries not to leave with a bad impression
Jouno probably lies awake at night with the thought of what his last words could be to his family
The bitchy teen years would be the worst cause Jouno would probably have the best comebacks, so any sort of argument would be shot down immediately.
i dont think he lets arguments fly at dinner. If he's even there. He would be very busy, so I think his schedule would be erratic. Although I think his son would be the same and stay up at 3 am and get a lecture from him
The hunting dogs all try to teach his son about basic things like shooting and self-defense -> Teruko definitely shot at him once or twice so he knows how to avoid an assassination attempt.
Was actually really proud that his son graduated from school and is a relatively normal member of society. He never even killed someone, that's a high achievement!
#these are just headcannons#im gonna use these for a fic or two maybe cuz they give me ideas#i just cant stop thinking about dad jouno....#also to the ppl who responded to that post this is for you#bsd x reader#bungo stray dogs x reader#bungou stray dogs x reader#jouno x reader#jouno x you#jouno x y/n
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Infection au part 4: Outbreak
the infection is no longer confined.
you all get a little writing blip to enjoy as well :D pictures are at bottom.
Tw blood/gore and disturbing imagery. also implied death. because of the amount of blood.
It had been several days since Dream, swap and Ink Found Cross lying on the ground. Several days since one of their enemies started pleading with them to help with something. Cross had been an emotional wreak the entire time. It almost hurt for Dream to be near him.
The panic and terror was overwhelming. Of course that didn't stop people saying this was some elaborate plan by Nightmare to do some sort of evil. Dream knew this wasn't true though. The emotions where real enough.
Right now though Dream was making his way to the room cross was in. It was really a glorified prison cell but at least it wasn't as bad as it could have been, considering Cross was a part of the most feared gang in the entire multiverse.
Dream stopped to greet the guards and was let in. The room wasn't lavish by any means but it had a bit of coziness to it, or maybe that was just his hopeful thinking. Cross was sitting on the bed picking at the magic canceling cuffs.
He looked up and spotted Dream. A mix of emotions always came from him whenever he was aware of the guardians prescience. There was an immediate sense of distrust and wariness but also a bit of reluctant hope. Even if he disliked dream he was aware that he was more likely to help than others.
"hey Cross" Dream said, his voice friendly.
Cross nodded in response. "what does the council say.."
"They still think it's a trap Cross." Dream sounded regret seep into his voice. He had to admit his story was rather hard to believe.
A look of anger Appeared on Cross's face. He looked like he was about to scream something in frustration but was interrupted by a guard opening the door.
"Dream, we have reports of Nightmare and his team attacking underswap."
Dream was confused. Normally he could sense the presence of his brother outside of wherever he his his base. Dream was then aware of the sudden increase of negativity in his friends au. Nightmare had never attacked such a positive au, doing so might have weakened him enough to risk capture or defeat.
"I'm Coming, where is Blue and Ink?" Dream said heading to the door with a sense of urgency. Cross grabbed his arm making the guard step forward.
"Dream please, Don't... just... Just you have to help Them- Don't let them get You. You can't help them if you end up infected- "
The guard pressed the spear against cross's chest threateningly. He let go of dream and backed off. "Please- "
Dream Nodded and left the room not fully understanding what exactly cross was asking him. The feeling of unease grew in his soul as he also felt the negativity in under swap rising. He found Swap waiting for him with Ink. The skeleton was obviously impatient to get going. the only thing stopping his was likely the fact he couldn't fight Nightmare's gang on his own.
Dream made a portal and stepped through with his teammates. The terror dream sensed once he walked through was enough to make him stumble. It was so strong-
"Dream..." Blue sounded shocked and fearful..
Dream looked up
he wished he hadn't
btw there are more infected atm. several actually. The gang didn't stay in the castle very long after cross left this is just the first big attack. I couldn't draw all the infected currently attacking and they aren't very big to the story.
The Infection has been spreading a bit under the radar.
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