Yona ch 244

This chapter really made me realize just how wasted Mei-nyan’s character is... 

do you think Kaneki might ever pray with Amon despite not being catholic himself? just sitting next to him mumbling the words as Amon says it because he likes to be with him

speaking of religion, what kind of faith do you think Kaneki would follow? I hc him as an atheist :) but I think you know more about religions than me lol

Ooooh I like that idea a lot actually I have So Many Thoughts (rubs my hands together evilly)

also this is just a sidenote but i know some people may be uncomfortable with religious discussion, so if you are lmk and i'll start tagging it :thumbsup:

I feel like Amon hasn't prayed often in a while because of his past, but he may still on occasion (habit), and may get back into it properly after actually resolving his feelings with the past. At some point Kaneki starts to join him. He doesn't really know How to pray, especially since a lot of it is in silence, he probably just kneels there and silently wishes for safety for his friends, for strength and resolve, etc. etc. But when Amon starts saying the actual prayers out loud he just sits there and listens to him quietly saying them.

At some point Kaneki might start mumbling along with them, he vaguely knows some of the prayers and has heard Amon say them enough times to kind of know them. Amon is surprised when Kaneki starts doing that and it just kind of becomes a Thing; maybe Kaneki even asks Amon to tell him how to pray the rosary since he sees him doing that often as well (when the rosary is prayed in a group there's one person leading that says the first half of most of the prayers and the rest say the other half, and I think it would be interesting with them alternating like that)

While Kaneki isn't catholic himself he finds it reassuring, while it's unlikely to him that there's someone out there that'll actually grant his prayers it's a nice thought, y'know? It's also just very relaxing there, even if it was kind of awkward at first

I think he also finds the sound of Amon praying very relaxing *cough*

I also think Kaneki would be atheist, while he wouldn't completely deny the possibility of there being a god of some sort he also isn't really a follower of any particular belief system (note: ive actually been informed that there is a better term for this, agnostic, which is essentially being neutral lol). I think Amon would know this, and therefore doesn't really know why Kaneki chooses to pray with him despite this, but he figures that Kaneki does have a lot of things he would want to pray for, things he would want to seek forgiveness for, too, and he appreciates that Kaneki is willing to spend time with him like this anyway.

Okayy hate to be too ranty but uhhhh... People know Idia didn't actually kidnap the overblotters, right? He didn't even want to be there with them. He just tells Azul surrender's the best option, but that's because he knows that he'll just suffer if he doesn't. Idia didn't know about the whole affair until it happened and only supervised the others because his parents made him.

Anyways, sorry just had to rant a bit yes I know his actions during his overblot were still wrong and the way he speaks about overblot is pretty insensitive but ffs he's not a kidnapper or anything, the story literally makes it a point to show how it sometimes even feels like he's the one trapped with them! He didn't want to be there. He never did. His parents just summoned him and made him supervise them while the tests were being run.

OH I realized something else I love about Sarah McGuire-- she assumes the intelligence of her readers, and don't shove details in your face repeatedly until you get it

I HAVE BEEN CLAIMED OH MY GOD OH MY GOD HOLY SHIT OH MY GOD

it hurts, to hear you call me crying. when i know all i can do is listen. i can't help you, i can't make your parents see logic.

i get worried hearing your sobs. all i wanna do is wrap you in a hug, make you feel as safe as possible. sometimes i start crying too.

i'm sorry i have no words, no assurances, so stability, no comfort. i just do not understand how a parent could be cruel.

"we'll find a solution," i say

"don't say that! it's all hopeless!" you yell

i wish i could tell you it isn't hopeless, utter the words i do not believe in confidentally. i wish i could take away your pain, make you laugh your silly laugh. i wish i could be the reason for your smile. i wish you are as giddy as you usually are when you call next.

i'm sorry for being helpless

So I was having a conversation with a voice actor earlier. The conversation was actually taking place within a daydream, yknow, within my own head? But it's still important eh? I had a bit of a realisation

We were talking about a character the actor plays and about why I strongly head canon that character as ace, and I mentioned they'd probably value a more emotional connection with other people than a physical/sexual one. Then I tried to relate that to my own experiences but then I realised

I don't value connection with other people. I think they're quite helpful and a nice way to pass the time but I don't think I value connection with them, at least not in the way that most people do. Even my best friend and most important person in the world to me, is just like a good routine for me and not much more than that? He makes me happy, we have a lot in common and we agree with each other on a lot of things, but because of my lovelessness I wouldn't say I love him and definitely not in a conventional way

I'm choosing to see how long I can stay up for tonight and it's already 03:01 so I apologise if this post is written a bit weirdly. I'm not even tired, I'm just really hungry but getting food would be too noisy and wake everyone else up so I'll just wait for now. I'll probably make it quite a while until I have to go to sleep and might not have to sleep at all

Vash gaining weight post tri/max. Him getting embarrassed about it so WW intentionally gains a bit too. Slowly but surely they both realize they are kinda into it and it snowballs into a bit of a competition. Cue mutual stuffings and too small clothes until the girls catch on. They are surprisingly supportive (they might be enjoying it more then they let on).

Hello, hello! I started this blog one month ago today!

Thank you so much to everyone who reblogged, replied and liked one of my drabbles or one-shots. Seeing my work appreciated by so many of you is genuinely so nice. I won't lie, I was very nervous to start posting again after my retirement. I hadn't written any creative pieces in over 3 years so you can imagine I was a bit rusty, but you've all been incredibly kind and patient.

Now, unfortunately, I didn't get to finish the first draft of the Dabi fic like I wanted to. Who knew I sucked at pacing myself with longer stories (I did) and that writing this would be difficult for me (I did)? I feel bad for not being able to make it, but I'm working hard to get it done. Which is also why I typed this message up in advance and scheduled it lmao. As much as I like reading and interacting with other people on here, I'm gonna take a few days away to binge-write.

WE 👏 WANT 👏 A 👏DABI 👏 SEMI-SLOWBURN 👏 and I aim to deliver.

So excuse my silence, friends. I will return from the depths of my Google docs victorious, with a draft in hand and plans to emotionally decimate you all.

Love, Shade ♡

i am once again popping on to remind y’all that i care you very much and miss y’all!!! and i will be around again!! at some point!!! life is just stressful and taxing at the moment, so it’s hard to find motivation, particularly when i want to move blogs for a fresh start ;n; but i do plan on coming back!! even if i do it slowly as per usual asdfg 

as always, thanks for being patient with me and i’m wishing y’all a very happy weekend!!

Misha deserved so much better than V.anitas just straight up abandoning him in this essay, I will -

i think the trick to me writing is going to a coffee shop

I lied I’m still angry and  a bit stunned, if it was about literally any other media I write from I might be slightly more understanding. But I just cannot fathom somebody being “TAG THAT!!” at self-inserts in the Pokémon fandom especially. 

Not only is the anime literally Satoshi Taijiri choosing to go on whimsical fantastical adventures with his friends (Gary is even based on Shigeru Miyamoto!) -- but we have Pokémon Mystery Dungeon which canonically transforms the player into a Pokémon, transporting them into the Pokémon world 

Not to mention on top of those, we also have the movie that came out not that long ago “Pokémon: I Choose You” which shows Satoshi waking up in the real, mundane world when he “dies” showing our world might be parallel to the Pokémon world (personally I say our world is hell but that’s a meta for a different time!).  I can understand that the anon likely had bad experiences with self-inserts in the past, I’m not a heartless monster and I’m not stupid. But I could say she’s an “original character” and literally nobody would know the difference so am I supposed to tag all OCs too? Especially since I have multiple Pokémon OCs? I just... don’t understand, I suppose. Anyway. Rant over. I’m sorry. 

I said I was gonna write something but I just spent these past few days dozing in and out of sleep while reading manhwas, novels, and fanfics

Life is so wild right now because I have so many things I’m happy about and enjoying (Fun K-Pop music, more Percy Jackson, more Our Life, more Sims, more Harvest Moon/Story of Seasons, more Critical Role, etc.) but simultaneously my life is falling apart and I’m miserable about many things (One of my cats and one of my dogs died, I’m suffering from yet-to-be-explained medical issues atop my usual chronic ones, having the worst anxiety I’ve had since I was in high school, can’t write anymore due to my chronic pain, etc.) so I’m like. Man. I want to be Happy but I just feel like a Wreck but I also have soooo many things I’m looking forward to.

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