#i’m sorry for this fucking rant but needed to get it out
Note
Hello! I'm a new reader and I fr love your writing, especially the scara x bunny girl!! Please need more🥺
Maybe when bunny girl got in heat while scaramouche is on a business trip. She kept touching herself but she can't cum. The best she can do probably is hump the stuffed toy scara got for her so she calls scara. However, scara kept on ranting about his day, making bunny needier so she continues her shenanigans while scara is talking. He catches her eventually and punishes her. You can be creative with it.
(I can't really depict scenarios I'm so sorry shshshshshh)
SCARAMOUCHE X BUNNYGIRL!READER
Notes: HI IM SORRY THIS IS SHORT I DIDNT WANT YOU TO THINK I WAS LIKE IGNORING YOU ITS JUST BEEN IVE BEEN IN A WRITING BLOCK SORTA 😭 I’m sorry I didn’t exactly follow the prompt I just wanted to get this out to you, again I’m extremely sorry for the lateness.
I’m so happy you love my writing and our cute bunny girl reader and scars
Pairings: Scaramouche x BunnyGirl!Reader
Tags: Humping, Scara being mean and bossy, just really filthy, hybrid!reader, Fem!Reader, NOT PROOFREAD
It’s been pure torture for you, your body feels like it’s constantly on fire and like you’re carrying a heavy weight as you go from room to room smelling various things Scara owns whilst he’s on his trip. He left you because the doctor assured that your heat wouldn’t come for at least another two weeks, he couldn’t have been more wrong.
The only things keeping you comforted and relieving your body is the stuffed animals that you insist stay on the bed when you and Scara are sleeping, he despises the things but keep them as to not upset you. So they things are filled with his scent, his lavender hair wash and woody smell lingers. You can’t help but inhale the scent in the plushies every so often.
You’ve already called him and told him about how it came earlier and the sneer that came upon his face did nothing but make you twitch, you know he’s enjoying how you’ve been suffering, he is ultimately getting off on the fact that you can’t have his cock to fill you up, it’s so frustrating but he looks so good while scolding you on how you did this on purpose, even though you literally can’t control when your heat decides to come.
One night you’re tossing and turning, when your heat finally hits you full on, moans slip from your lips as your clit throbs with need, you get a whiff of Scara again in the stuffed animal you’re currently whining into, and instantly your horny mind shifts to dirty thoughts, thoughts of his long cock battering your sensitive walls whilst he groans in your ear.
A few moments later you’re dragging your whole cunt against the poor stuffed animal, you feel bad but your hips won’t allow you to stop, won’t let you stop feeling that slight drum in your little clit. You reach your fingers down to add a little more stimulation to find your completely soaked. By now you should’ve cum, but you’re left whining into the pillows as you keep trying to hump away. His smell isn’t nearly enough your heady head deems.
You successfully managed to grab the phone and call Scara, already begging him to accept the face-call. He does and props his phone up so you can see him completely in his element, buried in paperwork with a scowl on his face, so pretty. He’s already ranting about how he hates this place and all the people in it, angry about the annoying escorts they keep sending to his room that he’s meant to fuck, he’s already said he wants nothing to do with them because they think he’ll eventually change his mind.
His eyes glide to the camera, seeing you flushed and naked? He can only see your face and shoulders.
“Are you clothed woman?” He says while closely inspecting the camera again.
Did he completely forget about the fact that you’re literally in heat?
He laughs a little and gets up, the lights in whatever room he’s in goes dark and you’re graced by his appearance again.
“What are you up to bunny?” He questions, you respond with a slight mumble under your breath but the mumble comes out too breathy. The only thing lighting up his face is the lamp by his side, it gives his skin a pretty golden gleam and that makes your cunt twitch.
“I’d forgotten about your little issue, m’sorry, do you want my help? Poor thing.” He’s doing that fake voice where it’s filled with concern but once again hes getting off on your suffering but that spurs you on too.
You hear some slight shuffling before the camera is moved downwards, where you can still see his face until his thick cock is seen, he’s fully hard: even from your conversation earlier he had been thinking and waiting for you to call him. He starts slow when he strokes himself, precise hands slide up and down while he maintains eye contact with you. You feel weird, a good weird.
“Nu, uh, bunny, don’t you dare, keep doing what you were doing before” he manages to get out inbetween stuttered breathing. He knows you were about to touch yourself using your fingers, but no he wants you to keep humping your stuffed animal.
“Won’t work, Kuni” you whine out, god he squeezes his tip, he loves when you get like this but he won’t tolerate you disobeying. “Do as I say” he gives no room for arguments with his sharp tone. Your ears deflate but you do as you’re told and start gliding your messy cunt back and forth. Scara seems pleased to see you further ruin yourself: you can see him start stroking himself faster, saying your name over and over through clenched teeth, calling you a good bunny for listening so well to him.
He tells you to show the mess you’ve made, you don’t protest as you shift to sit up and spread your legs in front of the camera, you really are dripping. He fantasizes about just how good you’ll feel wrapped around him, how he’s going to make you cum so many times on his fingers then you’ll be able to have his cock. Your fingers trail down, he’s about to scold you but you use your fingertips to pry your pussy so he can really get a full view.
Loud moans slip from his lips as his balls tighten hard, and he’s cumming with thick spurts. You don’t hear a few words but you do make out how he’ll be back shortly.
#genshin smut#zsworks#genshin x reader#fem reader#hybrid reader#wanderer smut#scaramouche x female reader#scaramouche x reader#scaramouche x you#wanderer x female reader#wanderer x reader#wanderer x you#scara smut#scaramouche smut#kunikuzushi smut#kunikuzushi x reader
218 notes
·
View notes
Note
May I ask for a sick fic of high school AU?🥹 Gale gets sick, and it's a bad one. John stays with him the whole time and takes care of him. During this time, John realized how tender and patient Gale was and how much he loved him🥹
Hi dear 😊 Sorry, I’m not doing requests! But I can always share some headcanons, I love talking about these boys 🥰
When Gale gets sick in the HS AU:
He's very irritable until he gets some medication
At home, he was never really coddled when he was sick as a kid. His mom took care of him but there was always some detachment there, like she really had to be elsewhere. Working, for example. He used to spend most of his time alone in his bed until he recovered.
So, Gale learned that being sick was a nuisance and that getting back on his feet as fast as possible got him his parents' company again (which he still craved as a child). So the belief formed that he mustn't be sick.
Therefore, he’s very much the type to hide an illness and attempt to carry on as if nothing's wrong.
Meanwhile, Bucky is used to being cuddled and spoiled when he’s sick. His understanding of comfort for a sick person is not peace and silence, but hugs and food and forehead kisses and comfort movies.
It's a shock to his system how badly Gale reacts to this at first
Maybe, Bucky notices that Gale has a fever and touches his forehead, then tries to stroke his back, but Gale snaps at him to leave him alone, he’s fucking fine. Part of this explosive reaction is the subconscious response to being found out to be sick.
Bucky backs off and leaves the room. Comes back later with hot soup and checks on Gale. Another unpleasant surprise greets him - Gale’s gunpowder anger has been replaced with sadness.
Gale asks him, hurt, where he has been. Bucky bursts into a rant that he doesn’t know what Gale wants.
Gale doesn’t reply, just stays curled up, motionless. Bucky ends up climbing on the bed/sofa next to him, puts on his headphones and starts watching stuff on his phone.
It turns out that this is what Gale needed. For him to be there but not be overbearing. For Gale to feel his support but not feel like he’s keeping Bucky away from something. Just his presence and the sense that it's okay to rest and not do anything.
Eventually, Gale ends up putting a loose arm around Bucky's middle and sleeps like that.
55 notes
·
View notes
Note
The weird radical/revolutionary politic larpers on this site are so allergic to political pragmatism I swear lmao. I am definitely left of the Democratic Party and I am certainly voting for Joe Biden in November. Not because I like him (I don’t). He is absolutely horrific on Gaza and that’s only the top (and priority considering there is a genocide going on there) of a list of complaints I have about him. I even voted uncommitted in my state’s presidential primary (the Pennsylvania one; I had to write it in) to protest. However, I’m still thinking pragmatically. Trump has said things that make me credibly think he will be worse on Gaza (insane that being worse on Gaza than Biden is possible but it is unfortunately), and that’s only the tip of the iceberg. Project 2025, the potential for him to appoint more deeply conservative justices, more of his aggressively screwing over poor and middle class people with his tax policies. And does anyone else remember the spike in hate crimes after the race was called for him in 2016? Before he was even inaugurated? Whether people vote or not in November we will still have to deal with one of these two men in office come January unless all of the internet ancom larpers overthrow the government by then (doubt), so I’d rather deal with the one who will be marginally less bad and who didn’t try to overthrow the government. Can’t have your revolution if nobody’s alive cause you kept pushing off politically participating because there was no perfect option. 👍
Political pragmatist anon, sorry for ranting in your askbox but I feel like I lose brain cells watching these people talk. The other day I saw someone say Biden is bad because Roe v. Wade fell under his administration… even though the reason for that was Trump appointed justices. 💀 (2/2)
Fucking insane. Sincerely.
It's a completely, flatly binary choice for anyone with a brain stem and sincerity. It's distilled into the two below images:
Where all major third party candidates are even on the ballot
How many electoral votes the largest of those (green party, a.k.a. Jill Stein) would win if they won every single state they're on the ballot for.
They are literally, legally, incapable of winning the election. They are not on enough state ballots to win and Jill Stein would need to somehow win California and Texas to even "win" all the states they're on the ballot for. Which, again, would still not be enough to win the presidency and throw it to the currently existing Republican House of Representatives. Which would put Trump in office.
It's that straightforward. That simple. That BLARINGLY obvious to literally everyone except these people.
On the one hand you have:
Significant and continuous support for Israel and it's genocide
Record levels of pardons for low-level drug offenses
the gearing up of the strongest anti-trust regime since the early 20th century
the most aggressive NLRB I've seen in my lifetime, with massive wins and institutional changes to help workers
Including getting Rail strike workers a week of sick-leave that gets paid out at the end of the year, which is better than NYC and LA sick leave laws
Millions of people (not enough) getting student debt forgiveness
Some trillion dollars (not enough)of investment in renewable resources and infrastructure
Proposed taxes on unrealized capital gains (a.k.a. how billionaires never have any money but can still buy Kentucky, Iowa, and Twitter)
Effectively an end to overdraft fees
The explicit support of leftist world leaders like Lula de Silva. Who he has explicitly worked with to expand worker rights in South America.
Has capped (some, not enough, only a tiny amount really but it's something) some drug prices, including Insulin.
Reduced disability discrimination in medical treatment
Billions in additional national pre-k funding
Ending federal use of private prisons
Pushing bills to raise Social Security tax thresholds higher to help secure the General Fund
Increasing SSI benefits
and more
vs
Said Israel should just nuke Gaza and "get it over with"
Personally takes pride in and credit for getting Roe v Wade overturned
Is arguing in court that the President should be allowed to assassinate political rivals
Muslim Ban Bullshit, insistently
Actively damages our global standing and diplomatic efforts just by getting obsessed with having a Big Button
Implemented massive tax cuts on ich people, tax hikes on middle class and poor people, and actively wants to do it again
"Only wants to be a dictator for a little bit, guys, what's the big deal"
Is loudly publicly arguing that the US shouldn't honor its military alliances after-the-fact
Tore up an effective and substantial anti-nuclear-proliferation treaty with Iran
Had a DoEd that actively just refused to process student debt forgiveness applications that have been the law of the land for decades now
Has a long record of actively curtailing and weakening the NLRB and labor movement, including allowing managers to retaliate against workers, weakened workplace accommodation requirements for disabled people, and more
Rubber stamped a number of massive mergers building larger, more powerful top companies and increasing monopolistic practices
Fucking COVID Bullshit and hundreds of thousands of unnecessary deaths
Openly supporting fascists and wannabe-bootlicks ("Very fine people" being only the beginning of it
It's really not fucking close.
#biden#trump#gaza#palestine#politics#original content#union rights#realism#2024 election#jill stein#rfk jr#cornell west
24 notes
·
View notes
Note
hi, i saw this on twitter the other day and my mind immediately went to constant repeat
HAHSHAHS OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS ITS SO FUCKING FUNNY!!!!
you just know the second Alex sees it he’d buy it, no second thoughts had at all. cos he just knows that he’ll have her pissing herself laughing as he proposes and nothing sounds better than getting to hear her laugh and see that smile he adores while he’s down in one knee.
and let’s face it, Ella is from the south so she loves her odd tacky trinkets (when she’s on tour with Alex and they go to a truck stop, she’d acquire a bunch of shit she doesn’t need but those ugly ass studded denim caps speak to her) and she’d actually fucking adore it and keep it in display next to her jewelry box.
it’d be so fucking funny as well when ella posts a picture of the most beautiful fucking ring ever (which is definitely a big starbrite cut green sapphire with little stunning citrine accents around it, cos of course Alex would match it to the colour of her eyes) in the most obnoxiously tacky little ring box and everyone starts commenting congratulations but taking the piss out of the box choice, Ella would get so defensive about it because she genuinely adores it with her whole heart.
still, everyone would be obsessed with the video he managed to take of it happening: her sobbing into her hands as she sees him getting down in one knee only for her sobs turn into cackles when he pulls the cowboy hat box out of his pocket.
#oh god i fucking loved this#i genuinely fucking cackled#it’s so fucking perfect#also i went on a little rant there sorry#can you tell i’m eager to get into the extras?#if you want more of these little glimpses after the end of this series#just ask#i will happily rant away hehehe#maybe even properly plot some blurbs out#depending on what you ask#there are some already written down#you just need to ask the right questions heheh#A’s asks#Constant Repeat asks#Constant Repeat extras
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
Y’all okay so my friend from high school goes to the same college as me and we had a class together this semester. She showed up for one day and then I think she dropped out cause she’s not on the list of students in the class anymore.
I texted her asking if she was coming on Thursday and she didn’t respond. I didn’t think much of it.
I text her again a couple hours later asking if she dropped the class just cause I was genuinely curious. No response.
I texted her again tonight and she still hasn’t responded…
Like idk if I did something but I don’t think I did??? It’s lowkey stressing me out cause she usually texts me back pretty shortly after I text her. Like we had a class together last semester and we communicated a lot. I genuinely enjoy being her friend and I’ve known her since like 2019, so this isn’t like her…
The only thing I can think of was me leaving after class to get food with some other people in the class pretty quickly, but I said goodbye and that I’d see her on Thursday-
I dunno if I’m overthinking but it’s making me really sad and stressed for no reason :(
#like I always assume it’s my fault#but genuinely idk why it would be my fault#like I don’t know why she’s not responding cause she literally saw a Tik Tok I made earlier 😭#my cousin fucked me over so hard I just tend to assume it’s my fault though#like what do I do 😭#leosmasktails#leosmasktails rants#also she hasn’t looked at my snap stories which she normally does#sorry about this rant I just need to get this out cause I wanna know if I’m being over dramatic or what#leosmasktails personal
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
i want to do something regarding my personal projects these two days off work
#getting addicted to videogames again i should focus on my projects#i need to fucking. revamp my patreon. i need money#i should probably switch my payout plan to manual#cause i sure am struggling way harder with getting#finished things out on a monthly basis#than i had imagined i would#i suck so much man. like i could cry#30 days sounds like so much time but it’s fucking exhausting to me#remember when i was a teenager and even though i went to school for 40 hours a week i would still write novels and make animations#and stuff?#good times. i miss that energy so much#sorry to rant/vent i didn’t mean for the post to get depressing#there’s just so much on my mind. i’m so scared of the future lol
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
If I see one more person misconstrue good-faith criticism against Thomas Sanders and the way he’s handling his series, I’m going to scream.
Yes, there are people who genuinely despise the man, and are nitpicking anything that can prove that he is an evil person. There are people who are constantly pestering Thomas about the long wait, demanding the content they want this instant. Those people aren’t being productive with their criticism, and I can understand being frustrated with them. Hell, I’M frustrated with them!
But there ARE valid criticisms. Thomas has recently been very bad with handling questions about the series, as his recent Twitter posts have shown, and he hasn’t been transparent about what’s going on with Sanders Sides.
If you don’t take anything else away from this post, THAT’S what we’re upset about. We aren’t upset about the wait itself. We will GLADLY wait days, months, YEARS for this series we love. We already HAVE waited years, and we likely will continue to do so! But we don’t know what’s going ON. He has given us very few updates, and in the few updates he has given us, he has been INCREDIBLY VAGUE.
And he CAN BE VAGUE, just ACKNOWLEDGE IT.
“Hey guys! This series is taking longer than I thought it would for reasons I don’t feel comfortable disclosing! I can’t give you an exact date for when the next part will be out because I don’t know when it’ll be done, but it will take a long time! Please be patient, thank you!”
THAT’S IT! That’s all we want! But as far as I know, he hasn’t announced an official hiatus or anything of the sort. He has just said that he’s “working on it”, which doesn’t tell us ANYTHING.
If he is prioritizing Roleslaying or another project, THAT’S FINE! Just TELL US, so we don’t expect something we aren’t going to get!
People have brought up how the series used to be as part of their argument, on both sides. The production quality was lower, but updates were more frequent. I won’t argue about which era of the series was better. But the point I want to make is that Thomas set up a precedent. After years of this series, we’ve come to expect this type of update schedule.
And now, obviously, it’s changed. And that’s FINE. But when a precedent has been established, and then it’s changed without any kind of announcement, it’s reasonable that people are confused and kinda thrown off! And we would be a lot less confused if Thomas would TELL US WHAT’S GOING ON!
I don’t know Thomas personally. I’ve never interacted with him. I’m sure he’s a lovely man. But he can be a wonderful person AND be irresponsible interacting with his fans. Not every bit of criticism thrown at Thomas is a direct attack against his character! Kindness and irresponsibility aren’t mutually exclusive! And yes, there ARE people using these recent tweets as attacks against Thomas as a person. You can be upset about that. But there are also people analyzing these responses and (rightfully so in my opinion) asking for some accountability!
I understand that he’s frustrated! I would be as well, in his circumstance! And there ARE people who are being incredibly rude and unhelpful in demanding that Thomas pump out Sanders Sides content at a faster pace! That is incredibly unreasonable!
But that isn’t what everyone is saying to him! Many people are being perfectly polite and asking for the smallest bit of clarity! And yes, this can also be really frustrating! But it isn’t completely unwarranted! When you don’t say anything, people ask questions! And the best way to stop people from asking questions? ANSWER SOME OF THEM!
You can still be a fan of the series that Thomas made AND be critical of him and the series. The fact that we take the time to express and convey these criticisms in a manner we hope to be constructive is a testament to the love we have for it, and the potential we don’t feel it’s reaching. So don’t you DARE suggest that we are any less part of this fandom, or “fake fans”, because we see some flaws in the system. We can love something and acknowledge it’s flaws. You are no better than us because you are standing on the other side of this argument.
If I’ve missed anything, which I likely have, then feel free to correct anything I’ve gotten incorrect. I know my perspective may have some gaps. But I’d like to have a conversation with someone who disagrees with me, rather than someone seeing the words “ts criticism” and immediately assuming that we are ungrateful little shits who hate everything Thomas stands for.
Once again, I apologize for the wave of criticism on my blog. You are more than welcome to unfollow or block me of that makes you upset, no hard feelings on my side. But I wanted to say something, and I doubt my stance will change. I hope, going forward, that we can discuss the ups and downs of this series without fingers being pointed or accusations being thrown. From BOTH sides.
#ts criticism#ts critical#my ramblings#my rants#rant#im so fucking tired…#won’t tag as sanders sides because I know people don’t want to see this on the main tag#but I will add it if people ask#I’m sorry about my aggressive tone#I know I didn’t present my argument in the most diplomatic fashion#you can be upset at me for that reason. I completely understand#also this is NOT about anyone specific#I’ve just seen this thrown around a lot today#and I needed to get this out of my system#so if you think this is about you: it isn’t#feel free to DM me if you feel hurt by something I said#or think I WAS targeting you specifically#I’m more than happy to talk things through
26 notes
·
View notes
Text
I saw this tweet the other day with an insane amount of likes that said something along the lines of “I don’t trust people that hate children, the most vulnerable members of our society” and a ton of comments were “those people are hands down pedophiles trying to overcompensate by saying they hate kids” and like dude ?? that is the most insanely batshit and problematic take I’ve ever read ?? People that don’t like kids are not automatically fucking pedophiles? What a dangerous and horrible thing to say??
No one has an obligation to like children. This whole automatic “maternal” “paternal” instincts shit simply does not apply to everyone and the only reason people think it does is because of the overwhelming emphasis society has placed on the necessity to bear children. But it’s time people just fucking deal with the fact that not everyone wants kids. And they don’t need to. People don’t need to have kids to have purpose on this earth. And the attitude of “you’ll understand when you have kids of your own” like no, I won’t. I have enough autonomy and sense of self to know that I don’t want children. Please stop assuming people want children. Please stop pretending people are supposed to have children.
I’m certainly not condoning grown ass adults who are cruel to children and belittle them or talk down to people who do have kids because that’s just not okay because, yes, kids are vulnerable and heavily influenced by attitudes around them. So, yes, adults do need to be kind to children so they grow up in a healthy environment even if they don’t “like” them but no one has an obligation or a requirement to want to be around kids.
I am not required by law to like children and people need to stop pretending like people who don’t want kids are some fucking danger to society just because they don’t conform to it.
#like what the fuck???#if a person doesn’t like kids they’re a PEDOPHILE??????#are people out of their fucking minds#sorry inspo via my nephew driving me insane today#and me telling my dad I don’t have the patience to be around him right now because I know I’ll get snappy with him#and I don’t want to be rude to him#and my dad acting like I’m a fucking monster#because I don’t want to be around kids#and I didn’t want to hold my sisters baby#and that makes me a fucking lunatic#like dude ?? I just don’t like kids I don’t know why I need to explain myself over that??#sorry I’m like so mad#I just hate being told I should have kids#and that I will have kids#and it’s always ‘when you have kids’ and not IF#like bro I have NO obligation or requirements to bare children bc I have a uterus#so you need to shut the fuck up#ok rant over#I know this has nothing to do with 5sos but also it kind of does bc#people are so fucking insane about mystal’s baby#and like expect everyone to be so over the moon abt it and like#and like can we just please stop pushing this narrative that babies and children are the be all end all#everyone has a different vision of their life#and not everyone likes or wants kids#so uh shut the fuck up thanks
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
when he writes you an entire letter to provide closure (the closure is vaguely mentioning that he messed up a little in the middle of three pages just accusing you of being a manipulative lovebomber): 😨
#Sorry I just needed to rant a little because HELLO ??? WHAT THE FUCK????#Who the fuck does he think he is? It’s so poorly written too#I would excuse it if it was hand written—but this was TYPED AND PRINTED OUT#Not to mention he quite literally blames me for everything. Blames me for making him “loose his ability to be kind”#And for making him “never love again”#I’m sorry? If you think that I changed in a bad way? Because if you do you definitely need help#For the first time in MONTHS I felt confident without worrying about what he’d say about what I was wearing or how I looked#And how uncomfortable it made me every damn time#And I’m not even going to get into the endless amount of harassment and pressure to do the things he wanted to do because it’s gross#Cuz I’m not fully ready to face all that just yet. I’m literally still getting over spoken things and implications#Back to my point—subconsciously I started associating happiness with that feeling I had in the summer rather than with him#I grew as a person. I realized how fucked everything all was. If he can’t see that he might be right about being too far to fix himself#In conclusion: fuck Eloise and fuck his bullshit letter and fuck everything he did to me#S.K thinks#Vent#again….sorry
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
What is this problem and how do I fucking fix it.
#Mmmmm how do I enjoy myself like a normal human being instead of feeling crushing guilt if I’m taking a break for my own sake#I have a love hate relationship with my brain and mental illness#OCD I could do without you leave me alone#I’d like to keep all the manias to a minimum tyvm#Honestly I wish I didn’t have to medicate my ADHD but it’s hit or miss if I can function averagely if I don’t#I don’t fucking know where the dissociation periods came from as a kid#(Actually I do. Fuck you anxiety.)#but now I get freaked out if lose track of time or feel too emotional or like the world isn’t real#Mmmmmmm I just wish I could enjoy things and find happiness in them like I used to though#Yk it’d be great if I could take care of myself too instead of promptly forgetting to do basic human needs#My cat KitKatniss is here though and she’s v excited to see me#Anyways sorry#rant#Delete later#probably#I did rewatch a lot of She-ra was nice
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
I made a weird comment on someone’s tiktok and they made a respond video with the “will I get over it? Hmm no.” Sound and I got really scared that people were gonna get mad at me so I blocked the creator and everyone who responded to my comment then deleted my account (with over 600 drafts and thousand of favorited videos and a bunch of community and swiftie moots, and all my friends) and then had a panic attack and didn’t think about anything else for three hours then got a one hour break from the anxiety cause I distracted myself by watching community but now I’m back to panicking and I’m actually scared I’m gonna do something I’ll regret
#by “wierd I mean he posted a video with boygenius and I said#why is this man posting a video with Julien baker singing in the background? leave her alone#and then when I checked his profile I saw he made a post with his boyfriend#so I responded to my original comment#“wait he’s queer nevermind it’s fine#and I get that that was weird and I shouldn’t have said that#but it was just a joke#and I’m so fucking scared right now#now that I’m typing it out I might’ve overreacted but im actaully physically ill#and I’m scared that people I know irl will somehow see it and hate me#and like I already deleted the account and before that I changed the pfp so they wouldn’t be able to trace it back to me but I couldn’t#change my username until in a month#and it had my government name on it#anyway I’m sorry about the rant my anxiety is just off the fucking charts right now#kinda hope no one sees this post I just needed to get it off my chest
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
hate hate hate having to explain irrational fears to people it’s the worst thing on earth uurrgrgvghh
#my rambles#and the fact that u have to explain it every single fucking time too#hey I don’t want to go to this river :/ if u remember I hate water#‘’WHHHAATTT???? u hate water?????????’’#sigh. yes#<- literally explained this to the same person a month ago#but u used to love it!!! we couldn’t get u out of it as a kid!!!!!!!#ur lying. GOD this generation is so soft#I’m gonna be pissy and invalidate ur fears. and make u explain all this again next week all over again#-_-#have u heard of this thing called ppl changing over time. what about anxiety. how abt ppl not being the same person they were at 8#or even. consider this: pretending to like stuff. bc I would’ve been punished otherwise#-_- I am so tired#sorry I just. need to rant sometimes#delete later
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
I think this school is making me more physically I’ll than I’ve ever been in my life
#SORRY IM RANTING IN THE TAGS#everyday I need to throw up#I feel so much like shit#it’s not doing great things for me mentally either#I have literally never felt more stupid and worthless in my entire life#like#I know this shit is hard and the failure rate of this class is fuckin..#unbelievably high#but DAMN#I feel like shit I think like shit#I can’t take a break because I’m always thinking about class#I cant even go to get checked out because the fuckin medical building hours are the same as class hours#and fuck if I can risk missing class#only a couple more weeks tho…
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
hey! not to be dramatic but i cannot fucking stand being in this house!
#me: why are you making me clean my brother’s room#my mom : well you dont HAVE to live here. why do i think i provide for you? youre just like your brother. what kind of person forgets#what theyre doing every few seconds? youre not the same kid anymore.#LIKE YEAH I WONDER WHAT MADE ME LIKE THIS .#I WONDER WHY IM SUCH A FUCKING FREAK . LOOK WHO RAISED ME ?#^ sorry ‘raised’ is the incorrect term. ‘who let their kids run around and play with unhinged fucking men because she was too busy doing#what she always fucking does .#she’s gonna try and talk about how much pot i fucking smoke? woman who gives it to me.#i need to get the fuck out of here its genuinely not good for me to be here#I CAN HEAR HER RANTING ABOUT ME DOWNSTAIRS LMAO#‘why don’t you stand up for yourself more’ bc shit like this. i ask why im doing shit for chris & she threatens to kick me out#vent post#DO NOT MIND ME ! I AM IN A MOOD .#i am about to explode i am sorry for ranting about my mom in the year of our lord 2023 but holy fuck#‘you’re not the same kid’ i’m 20. i am twenty years old i am not your fucking mini me.
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#beware: covid ranting incoming#I’ve really been trying to not leave my room for food/bathroom unless I know no one else is in the kitchen/hallway#but two of my roommates just keep hanging out in the living room????#(our house is small the living room and kitchen are basically one room)#and they always give me looks when I go out like as if they’re offended#but sorry if you’re gonna be out there for HOURS#I’m gonna come out there sometimes I fucking need to eat/refill my water#and one of them is a germaphobe and I can tell she’s uncomfortable by it but like ??? don’t hang out in the common areas then!!!!#i literally only leave my room when I have to and I disinfect everything after I touch it that’s all I can do#if you’re gonna spend all day in the kitchen you can’t expect me to just starve all day#It’s just annoying#Anyway I’m so tired of my room#i still feel like shit but mostly I’m restless#i wanna go to the store! go get some food! talk to another human!!!!#personal
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
I have to pack so badly but I Cannot get myself to do it I’m so overwhelmed holy fucking shit
#i have a whole Situation rn but long story short I potentially have until only Sunday night to get out of my house ! lovely#pray for me I guess bc I’m going to probably lose things and it is entirely out of my control !#including my cats which is actively making me have panic attacks every few hours lmao#god life is a fucking Joke dude lmfao#anyways wish me luck I guess bc I’m scared and feel lost as fuck !!!!!!#hoping so bad the court or police or whatever will be nice and let us have more time but#doubtful :) so …………….panicking it is!!!!!!!#sorry to rant I needed to get this out so bad hahahahahahahahahahahaahaha#ok no seriously I have to get my shit together so badly I have an entire room to get together and I don’t even know where to start#bc I’m god awful and messy and my room is a disaster so everything’s Everywhere gotta love depression rooms#I’ll just start w surface level shit I guess#also I’ll probably be deleting this bc I’m embarrassed by talking about my situation hahahahaa
2 notes
·
View notes
Last Seen Blogs
sfz-sforzando
SfZ Sforzando
forevers-world
🌿Rhaelyn🌿
zalupkina
zalupkina
ringgobarasblog
Untitled
bellcranel-00
Untitled