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Look what came through the mail today! The letters & ( •̀ω•́ )σ 3 little gremlins from letterstoear.

Just wanna say i adore the flower stickers on the letters too much, they are that much worth mentioning.

do you ever feel uhm left out no matter what

my whole existence is a trauma response :/

I love arranging it's like YES YES THE OBJECTS ARE IN LOCATIONS

Three other thoughts:

Finally getting around to rewatching the fight. Orym hits Laudna four times. Three are without seeing who it is (she drops Darkness after the third hit, only because she loses concentration). The fourth is after he attempts to take the sword with Grasping Vine (would not deal damage) and Laudna counterspells it. He attacks Laudna once knowingly and only after attempting an option that would not be an attack, and the main goal is disarmament.

In talking warlock comparisons I really do feel like some people do not split "I enjoy this character's choices as a character in the story being told," "I think this character is morally right in their choices," and "I understand why this character is making these choices." Like, to be clear, Fjord is my favorite character. I think if he'd unsealed Uk'otoa during Campaign 2, it would have been narratively fantastic, extremely understandable, and also like, a really bad thing to do. Similarly, this was a banger choice from Marisha to do as Laudna, and I understand where she's coming from, but yeah it's not morally defensible. My comparisons between Laudna and Fjord have always been "if you have an evil patron telling you to do bad things you have to either actively lean in or actively lean out for the story to be good," and personally I do not actually care if the character makes morally good or bad decisions. I happen to think Orym has pretty consistently been morally in the right, but a big part of why I like him is that Liam made a guy whose whole thing is Trying To Do Good By Those He Lost and so this ties in narratively as well. As I said about villain stans, I don't care if you stan villains; I start minding if you do so by trying to twist the story into a pretzel by deliberately (or through stupidity, to be fair) treating them as the good guy.

it continues to be the funniest shit when the no-brains anti-god squad sees literally any character go "I don't much care for the gods personally" and be like SEE THE BAD GUYS ARE THE VANGUARD AND IMPERIUM ONLY even though it's quite a leap from "I don't care about this group" to "they should be annihilated" and then when one of the gods sends a sign to a member of Bells Hells and is like "hi, you're doing great" they're either like well the god didn't show up to the party member I care about so this doesn't matter, or simply do not at any point address it.

he's not fooling anyone

the og meme

Don't be deceived by my cushy appearance.

steve telling you you're his favorite person. maybe you've just made him laugh when he really needed to, maybe hes walking you to your door after a date, maybe you're laying in his bed with your head on his chest with his fingers brushing through your hair. either way, he says it quietly, soft and serious. "you're like. my favorite person." its somehow more romantic than any i love you you've ever heard.

I think someone should just throw all of the BG3 companions into Dungeon of the Mad Mage. Just take the post-canon generally considered "good" endings and throw em in there.

Why? Because it would be hilarious to me and also that's like the one official module that goes up to level 20.

I won't lie and say the only thing I can think of is the team trying to kill an angry mechanical purple worm while screeching at Gale because "what do you mean we're in Waterdeep and you know the bastard who owns this death trap?? I was perfectly alright in the damn Underdark thank you very much I did not sign up for this"

it’s always when I have things to be doing that this happens but it’s like. I don’t know I’ve gone so far into weird love territory and I’ve been here so long that when I go back and really look at canon it’s like it’s new to me. because like do you ever think about how hanzawa masato just sort of DECIDED that tashiro would be the next captain of the ping pong club. like it wasn’t a recommendation or anything that decision was made. and absolutely if tashiro genuinely GENUINELY didn’t want to do it nothing bad would have really happened, someone else could have done it, sure. you know? but at the end of the day tashiro, in the midst of his running away, had that thought, like. not in a thought bubble but in a b Hold on

in the narration box. like it’s not a fleeting in-the-moment thought like the whole poor shmuck thing. I’m not explaining this well. it’s just you get the impression that tashiro thinks about things a lot and also tangentially kind of thinks about his hanzawa senpai a lot and that realization of burden is so significant to tashiro that he takes on the position of captain

and he doesn’t look him in the face when he does it, and I love it. I love when things are indirect and subtle and sort of reluctant because it’s human and speaks to sincerity and tashiro’s grounded…ness that he isn’t unflinchingly happy to do it. he still doesn’t really want to do it. but he will. and he’ll do it WELL. because and this so matters hanzawa masato just sort of DECIDED that tashiro would be the next captain of the ping pong club because he knows tashiro and has been watching tashiro as a fun kouhai who he likes a lot and who makes him laugh like literally no one else in the world, and he knows that he would be a good president because he is, amongst other relevant things, a good person. the right kind of good person! he wouldn’t have forced tashiro to do it because frankly he couldn’t REALLY force tashiro to do it, tashiro has a way of getting around things (pudding head….) but he decided tashiro would be captain, because he knows tashiro, and tashiro decided to take that on, because he sees hanzawa. he decided that tashiro would be captain, and tashiro decided to accept that decision because hanzawa decided correctly.

and tashiro cares, and encourages his senpai to rest, and we get the FUCKING.

that just speaks VOLUMES. hanzawa masato who notoriously stays busy for at least one of two known reasons that sound a little contradictory but aren’t actually is resting right now. hanzawa masato who is so weird and so unknowable to his juniors is wearing a small smile that, unlike so many of his other ones (ominous as they are, usually), shows for only contentment. he’s resting right now. like the tashiro gonzaburou hanzawa masato dynamic IS so weird I’m not delusional for that. but my favorite thing that I think I do a really bad job of showing is that their exchanges go back and forth and are so much fun for the both of them, and it’s exactly like PING PONG. well matched and silly and hanzawa masato knows tashiro gonzaburou and if tashiro gonzaburou doesn’t know hanzawa masato he sure as hell sees him, and wants to know him, just a little at least, and it’s all so much. I’m resting right now. fuck. anyway

HAS ANYONE EVER TALKED ABOUT STYLE SAVVY: STYLING STAR (girls mode 4 in japan) YURI..

rosie storyline spoilers !!!!!

(Ignore the ugly outfits here MARZIPAN SKY WASN'T GIVING ME ANYTHING GOOD)

basically the girl on the left is camilla, she's the classmate best friend of rosie and she acted like she didn't worry about rosie even though she REALLY DID and is her biggest fan to the point of creating rosie (the girl on the right)'s chant

rosie came from the countryside and her story in styling star is becoming an idol to be like her idol angelique and camila comes to basically like. All of rosies concerts and it's genuinely so sweet of her

if I remember correctly though when rosie finally sings with angelique and got really famous camila realizes that she doesn't need to worry about rosie anymore so she just like. Straight up leaves rosie

camila ends up ignoring rosie and rosie gets Worried about HER and then rosie even vents about her worrying through reading her lines in a film she was acting it that was about losing a friendship

so then next concert rosies in she gives a ticket to the protag in hopes they can give it to camila, the protag meets camila at the train station and camila shakes the protag off telling her she's not going to come because rosie Really made it big. She doesn't really need her anymore because she needs to go into the more famous circles she belongs in now And that camila is really just a rich girl (before this she requested a chic outfit, a rich girl outfit, even though she's usually a girl who dresses up in lolita)

but she ends up going to rosies concert anyway DRESSED UP IN A ROCK OUTFIT.. THAT ROSIE WAS IN TO SUPPORT HER.. AND SHE SHOWS UP WHEN ROSIE DOES THE FAN CHANT BECAUSE THE FAN CHANT ROSIE MADE FOR HER THE CROWD IS SAYING IT WEAKLY..

SO SHE COMES AND SAYS IT LOUDER...

I didn't get I would get so attached to. Fashion yuri but I love ethem I'm documenting this post just so I can remember them

(ignore rosies ugly outfit I Have grown sick of making 'girly' outfits. wheres my baby doll fans marizpan sky exhibition hall ost is the only thing saving them)

and for the ending of rosies storyline IT'S JUST THE PROTAG THIRD WHEELING THEM ON AN AMUSEMENT PARK DATE WITH CAMILA SAYING SHE'S GOING TO BECOME AN IDOL NEXT.. I really like how for the the main 3 idol stories it's about them rising to fame but their endings all tie to the people around them it's very sweet to me

I know I've been kind of here and there lately. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has left me kind and positive messages - it means the world to me. ❤️ The irl struggle is ridiculous right now even though it's mostly in my head. ily guys.

i realize i will most likely never be loved the way i love and that i have always come second, third or fourth even tho i always make time to put people i care about first because i want the people in my life to feel loved in the same way that i so desperately want to be loved. just came to the realization that i will probably never ever get the love i truly want :,)

Just saw the fnaf movie and I am literally so glad that my favorite stupid fucking bastard was in the movie and we got a springlock failure scene like was the movie the greatest no but I got exactly what I wanted so goddamn it I'm gonna be happy about it

I think being a fan of InuYasha has awakened in me a craving for mythology series where it's always an adventure focusing on a human befriending/falling in love with a mythical person from the mythology. Doesn't matter what kind of media it is, if it's like InuYasha, I'm like "sign me up".

Like seriously, my favorite series aside from InuYasha are literally Kamisama Kiss, The Red Winter Trilogy, the Guild Codex: Demonized (not exactly mythology per se, but it's still a human x mythical person adventure series) and now I'm about to watch the Kdrama Tale of the Nine-Tails on Netflix. Literally InuYasha as a series has awakened in me a craving for the mythology fiction genre and I can't even be mad about it.