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corellonsblessing · 6 months

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A BLACK OUT/SLAM POEM based on the teletubbies (tv) tag on ao3

TRIGGER WARNING_MILK.

stray dogs literature clubs, the school for good and evil. ink sans angel—stranger things

horror sans guy—don’t hug me i’m scared. don’t hug me i’m scared, (don’t hug me i’m scared.)

free form plot twists. tragedy/comedy. alternate universe—high school. alternate universe—music.

the chaos unfolds each day, pristine, centuries ago, fight the many.

post divorce, living together, implied drug use, alcoholism. snippets from the end of the show, renunion, although it takes place a couple years before. we were the stars (but space was a void) by ponfarrpussyqueen.

corporate clash, bug, duck, the guardian pest, the prince, macarena, kissing, crack, as a joke, boys kissing, regret everything

underage julius caesar, emo napoleon, mating bond, tentacle dick, magic healing cock, holy water, holy roman empire, kissing in the rain, the battle of waterloo, a true story.

crossover, insanehappymealgiver, original character, original, simulator, mentioned, i’m at my limit, intentionally bad, wearing the other character’s skin, start praying because this sure ain’t holy, my dad went to get the milk because of this, sent to the void, put me in a coffin, rancid hope’s peak

we greet you with good luck and prosperity.

we love gay anal and lesbian smut and we hope you do too.

diminishing flame, not for kids, you’ll cry so hard you won’t have eyes, not sorry, commit a clarity, vaporized, freeform, sewer rat

2020 presidential election, spit as lube.

chaos bear, crack, crack, crack, has religious trauma, gay, gay, lesbian, lesbian sex, orgy, moist naked bodies rainbow is jesus, sex during tornado, this is NOT. finished.

there she was, in a new world. guess she’ll play the cards she’s dealt.

jesus confessed, sin shock, tears streaming down her face. “i fucked your sister.” crack. treated seriously, why did i write this. gay best friend—i can see that (i’m safe here.)

why did i write this!

crack. treated seriously.

slowly losing our sanity, we die.

crack, treated seriously. the moon of hope and the sun of despair LET IT GOOOOO LET IT GOOO.

crack, treated seriously, blue balls, orphan account

his little purse. what was once an inside joke is now taken seriously. crack. crack. fluff and crack. angst and crack. i am a man of my word, and i speak for the people.

a million other projects to complete

crack, crack, i dont know what’s going on, we’re idiots so we made this

it starts out all nice then it all goes downhill

satan, crack, this is a joke, please help me, please don’t hate me, i’m so sorry, i cannot think of anything else, please don’t read this. but. do, the author regrets nothing, the author regrets everything, why do i still exist? (discontinued, at least until further notice.) by even moderner prometheus

forbidden love, dead dove:do not eat.

so small in the midst of it all. rolling with the weird and unusual, traumatized teens to comfort, and an important decision to make

i came up with this, i will go down with this

i can’t believe i write this, why did i write this, i wrote this while listening to mother mother, sleep deprived, wrote this instead of sleeping, the guardian witnessed sex and is now scarred, touching, addiction, slut shaming

insufferable with apologies to all my followers, hell (literal), sewage

i got problems, so fucking random, pulled out of my ass, hard to explain, hard to word, each chapter will be posted, find me on wattpad,

near death experiences, major illness, declarations of love, love confessions, eating, marking, delay/denial, knotting, marking, mating bites, overstimulation, based on taylor swift songs, missing spleen

help me pleease, im scared, why did i write this?, just this really chill person who wants to take over the world, humanized teletubbies, my friend and i wrote this over the summer

you better not forgive me for this, im serious, vaginal fingering, a hushed voice, the contact making her shiver.

may your heart stay strong. torture, vomiting, blood and gore, self-indulgent, touch starved guardian, all characters are adults, electricity, suicidal thoughts, medical inaccuracies,

and yet… you lie again. i like noo-noo i hope he explodes, don’t show up

crack. i am so sorry. not in detail but it could’ve been so count your blessings

gods this can’t end well, good parent, to two children, bad parent, to the other one

IM SO SRRY BUT THIS WAS FOR THE GREATER GOOD, HAHA SUFFER,

attempt at humor, death, gore, i don’t even know, i’m so sorry, you have been warned, i posted this for my brother’s birthday

plague, companionship, through the fields we ran

it quickly turns into anti-demon propaganda

a play in one act, post-war, no sex, no killing

the prize of reading this is to meet god

help my poor soul this is a disgrace but it was my first fic so i refuse to orphan it, and the teletubbies followed

help, i was forced to write this and i’m sorry, i don’t even know what to call this monster, the southern pansy, aziphrale, the prince of hell, and the archangel gabriel

angst, satire, this is not serious, it’s meant to be funny

DO NOT TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY, IT WAS WRITTEN BY THREE HIGH THIRTEEN YEAR OLDS.

this is what you’ve been waiting for and hoping would never come

hearing voices, broken bones, emotional manipulation,

live, work, play, a simple life, protected, until a stranger comes.

i can’t give you a summary of the plot. that would ruin the story.

the eternal rioting continues as it always will (part one)

the eternal rioting continues as it always will (part seventeen.)

let me know if i forgot to tag anything!!

blame the painkillers. i blame the painkillers.

#so when i was a kid i once made fun of this person i met irl bc he would post like. all the gay tags n i thoufht it wasnt cool #like gay twink n like all of those things #just an endless paragraph of labels #i couldnt imagine posting that or wanting to be seen like that #i couldnt imagine wanting to be seen at all #i didnt say it to his face i just called it cringe to a friend and they rightfully called me out on it #why is that so funny to you? that he wants to be known? that he wants to reach out to his community?#i woke up one morning and saw that he had imed me in the middle of the night #i imed him back n didnt get a response n thought nothing of it #i wish i had been up that night #i wouldnt have been able to do anything #but every time we post something every time we tag something #we are looking fir connection #this is not the void #you are not screaming i to the void #people we see you #and i hope they hear you #bc what you have to say can be beautiful. even when its a joke #this is a joke. but it is also real to me #every one of these tags and titles is real #and a real person wrote them #they sat down and did that #n they wanted u to see them #everyone wants to be seen #and smiled at. n liked #and i hope someone likes you. i hope someone likes you enough to be awake at 3am #n i hope you like yourself enough to keep posting and tagging and trying so hard to be noticed #bc there is beauty in everything #even and especially you #where are those high thirteen year olds now

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stellarspecter · 7 months

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@pscentral event 20: antagonists ↳ THE LORDS IN BLACK in NERDY PRUDES MUST DIE

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charrfie · 22 days

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#im so sad it was such a good ask blog too but my mood has been so severely impacted by it i literally could not handle it anymore #big surprise your favorite character being put through constant and severe turmoil is emotionally damaging. who wouldve guessed #it makes me sad people are so fucking mean too :^(#<- in relation to some of the asks folks send in to guide stories along #like sure cute aggression yeah whatever but some of yall are straight up cruel for no reason. ill never understand it #i really wish i had the heart to keep following this blog bc its such a huge and beautiful passion project... but im sensitive:^(#even if its fictional #sorry to the mutual i had to break </3 wahhhh #late night personal posting. goodnight #laika originals #oh should i tag this as uhhh #vent #? kind of not really im just talking here

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vvienne · 5 months

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I literally woke up in the middle of the night like God will dark rise is so fucking screwed. The line that’s like. “Everyone wanted to kill the Dark King.” What’s the part where he looks at Violet helplessly, haunted, almost pleading for mercy? But of course he reveals nothing of substance to anyone. Elizabeth is too young to understand but the reader knows what “Her relationship with that boy was…unnatural” can mean. Tying him to bedposts? Failing to strangle him? What else? Never not even once seeing beyond a mythological identity Will himself didn’t know he had? What did he think was the reason? That he was just intrinsically hateful? Of course he says nothing. Of course Violet can’t trust him- he’s given her nothing as painfully real as what she’s given him. So he gives her the sword hoping at least he can die at the hands of someone he loved, but even that doesn’t work out - she gives the sword to a Visander still furious at SARCEAN. The pattern continues; no one looks at Will, who vomits when he realizes what’s happened to James, Will who is much of a liar and killer and sneak as Elizabeth accuses but nonetheless wants to be different. Even when he doesn’t remember his own past. There’s no way out for him that doesn’t hurt. Hope this obsession passes soon given the one and a half years of waiting required for book 3

#dark rise series #dark heir #rarely does a cliffhanger pain me so much #bc rarely am I ever THAT invested in a plot I am sad to say #nona the ninth was so cathartic in of itself I’m content marinating before alecto #BUT PACAT ONLY EVER GIVES EMOTIONAL CRUMBS #have any of these bitches ever known peace fr #maybe this is what reading princes gambit and not immediately having the follow up might’ve been like #honestly it’s possibly damen and Lauren just generally had less problems tho #more than his relationship even with James. will/Violet is perhaps the genuine source of like. I WISH HED GIVEN HER A REASON.#the narration that describes Violet as Will’s star in the night…….. like fuck fine #will can’t reach any level of genuine intimacy with James bc the mess of fraught noncon dynamics is this massive unspoken horrible thing #wills identity is personal w James in a way it is with no one else but James is so fucking oblivious of undercurrents it comes unbalanced #and will knows it. but (as far as we know) violet isn’t reborn has no history with sarcean the dark king she’s literallt just Some Guy #and that almost makes it worse???????? that they are so loyal to each other even as he’s keeping a massive secret?#they weren’t dated or destined to entangle the way will is w characters like James and Katherine #and I think that makes his rship with Violet possibly the realest and truest experience of trust and love will has ever had #like it’s nothing bro. truly she knows nothing about him other than his lies of omission and her faith in him goodness which may or may not #beiltimately justified. but that was probably as honest and close will ever got to anyone. and him to her.

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mattodore · 7 months

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hello good morning happy thumb in his mouth tuesday (a day i just made up for matthias's slutty little whims)

#river dipping #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #echthroi #a burning house to live in #ts4 #blender #now i just have to make a pose where theo's thumb is in matthias's mouth so everything goes full circle #you already know matthias is gonna be on his knees for it 😌#but anyway i finished making that first pose last night while recording a little video showing nene how i make poses #and then when i woke up i jumped back into blender to make another version of the pose but like. hornier.#i love making poses rn like i'm in blender so often these days... honestly i'm in blender more than i'm in the sims lmao #there's one i started working on like two days ago that is so... i wish i could share it on here but cock and balls are out in it </3 #placing so many curses on tumblr hq #...........i did make a pillowfort account tho so :)#i'll post the wip of it onto there when i get further along bc the pose is kind of messy atm. still trying to figure out the anatomy 😁🔫#i actually made a pillowfort yesterday just to post an old screenshot from the casual oc save that i found again and had a good laugh at #i've been messing around on there and i really like how you can set posts to being just for logged in users / followers / mutuals #and there's an 18+ label you can slap onto your posts too #like it's great!!! tumblr sucks so bad why don't we have those options on here... seriously #ALSO you can turn off reblogs on pillowfort any time you want and you can set it so that it DELETES ANYONE ELSE'S REBLOGS OF THE POST!!!#WHY is that not an option on this website like i hate it hereeeeeeeeee #but anyway pillowfort also seems to not have that many people on it so like. that's literally perfect for me and my avpd #i'll probably end up posting on there a lot #...... oh and #nsft #?? just in case i mean matthias does in fact have a handful in that second pose there so. for the blacklists ☝️

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merverelli · 1 year

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"im a magician, i just dont bang on about it"

missing marvin the magnificent hours </3

#jacksepticeye #marvin the magnificent #septicart #just like art #fun fact: this pose (???) and inspiration to draw marv again came from a comedy panel show my parents have gotten super into recently #hence the caption: its just a line from the bit this is from lmfao #also hello! im still waiting for uni to start up again #and im trying to be productive before it starts #so im going for my licence sometime soon (april lol)#and im currently hemorrhaging money from seeing doctors about this long term pain ive had for YEARS #going into the city to see one and its gonna be $300 bc life is nothing but agony and suffering #so im thinking about opening commissions???? its still super up in the air #ive only done commissions from people i know lmfao and even then it was stressful tbh #either that or i get another job lmfao #but besides that: ive been good! and i wish the same for you! good night!

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nothisislyra · 7 days

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i feel like i look very different when i do makeup (which is, for me, kinda the point, even though i also tend to not do super ambitious makeup) and it's like. idk. weird thinking about there being two looks for me now, where i kinda feel like a different person when i've done my makeup? before transition i just always looked the same. a little different if i grew out my facial hair (read as: didn't care enough about my appearance to care to shave regularly or at all most of the time) but even that was change spread out over days or weeks or months, reasonably consistent until i reset back to the beginning, rinse and repeat, instead of change over 15 minutes to an hour (and then similarly undone by a few minutes in the bathroom mirror). just. weird. strange to think about.

idk this also kinda feels like a pretty normal thought for like. teenage girls i guess? or broadly just girls at or shortly after whatever age they start doing makeup? and that makes sense, that is essentially me right now

#i wish i had some cool backstory that made me uniquely ready to transition like learning makeup doing theatre or some form of vocal training #right that would sorta give me a leg up on like becoming and feeling like and to an extent passing as a girl #the best i had was that my favourite colour as a kid was pink until i'd been bullied enough to suppress it and not have a favourite colour #and even that like. it took me a little while to really get comfortable and connected to pink again. some headstart #okay some of this is because i just finished untitled cheerleader story last night and all of alyson's writing gives me Thoughts

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snazzi-strawberri-artz · 7 months

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SOME DOODLEROOS WOWOW!!!!🥺🥺🥺

#im actually not sure if ive posted these before???#if i did. WOOPSIES #ANYWAYS YES ive been very busy :3333 #schools kickin me in the butt SIGH but nionethless i persevere!!!#also i love. hands in faces. and like how the fingers curl up and frame and support the face AUGH so lovely. so very hot.#also exams are coming up very soon and im NEVROUS RARARA #OH ALSO THE GILRIE WITH THE UMBRELLA PARASOL IS LIKE A NIGHT /MOON WITCH??#never got around to rendering it but oh well!!!#and also man i wish i had a skateboard. although i dont think id be good at it BUT STILL!!!#also two of the doodleroos are of me CAN U SPOT EM???😳😳😳

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liquidstar · 14 days

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my wrist pain is starting to get really bad again, i hope it wont be a longterm issue like it was back in 2020ish. i know how to deal with it better now but that was genuinely a really sucky time bc on top of Everything Else going on i couldnt draw which is just. SAD! and also its annoying bc i literally get so bored when i cant like move my hands

#anyway lets pray it settles down back to normal manageable levels of wrist pain #i do my stretches i have been a good boy why have my wrists turned on me once again #i also have a commission im still in the middle of so itll be really annoying if i cant finish!#also last night i had to dig up ye old wrist brace and it BURNED for some reason #id ask a doctor but last time i went she was pretty much just like ''oh youre young youre fine just stretch'' so idk #she didnt examine me at ALL she just went off of vibes. but the stretches did help i just wish i couldve gotten more in depth advice here

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angellurgy · 16 days

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#AAAAAAAAAAAAA FUCKFUCKFUCK #CONDTANT UNENDING SILENT SCREAMING #NO WORDS BUT FORCED TO UNDERSTAND STILL UNESCAPABLE I CANT I CANT I CANT #ill never be anything ill never be anything ill never be anything at all to any of you #too fucking tired to go out of the house for so long no way to stop being tired its all wearing down on me like a fucking curse. too much #CANT CANT CANT take 10 more days of this waiting itll just go back to normal after #TRIED TO LIVE BUT WHAT IS THE POINT WHAT IS THERE EVEN FOR ME NO LOVE NO CARE NO IMPORTANCE NO PLACE #FADING MEMORY REMNANTS OF MY SOUL DRIPPING OUT OF MY HEAD LIKE A GUTTER. NO ONE WILL REMEMBER. EVEN I CANT.#AAAAAAAAAAA rotrotrotrotrotrotrotrotrot wish i just had a fucking dad to hold me wish i had a brother to show me the loving care noone will #please. llease. please. nothing left nothing left everyone wants me less with every single post but icant stop #cooped up inside. tumblrs knly good when you have a life outside of it. i cant fight it tho bc of this fucking EXHAUSTION #caused by the emotional pain and exclusion. eternal loop. let me.out #NOT LIKE IT MATTERS TO ANYONE BUT THE FEW WHO CANT HELP. THE FEW WHO CANT MAKE MY SITUATION BETTER. I JUST WANT A GROUP.#I KNOW COMMUNITY ISNT REAL BUT I FUCKING WANT SOMETHING. PLEASE #LET ME OUT. GIVE ME LIFE. INSTEAD OF THIS CONSTANT FUCKING VOID GROWING BLACK MOLD ON THE CREVICES OF MY SKULL #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa nothing is giving me life right now i want sometbing i cant create anything i dont wanna die but i have no choice #FIGHT THROUGH THE TIREDNESS WALK INTO THE FOREST IN THE NIGHT AND ROT.#SLIT MY WRISTS EVEN THOUGH IT WONT DO SHIT. LAY ON A BLANKET AND LET THE COLD TAKE ME #WOULDNT BE THE FIRST TIME IVE BEEN CLOSE TO IT. LEAST I CAN GO ALL THE WAY. GOD WHY DO I TRY. I WANT TO TRY. I HAVE NOTHING TO TRY FOR.#NO OTHER CHOICE.

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coollyinterferes · 3 months

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*taps mic; a certain gentleman is standing right beside him*

"Good evenin', everyone!! We're back!! Hope you didn't miss us much!"

"It sure hasn't been that long.... has it....?"

Uhhmmm....

#[shows up late with no st*rb*cks bc fuck those guys but HIIIII 8) ]#[*insert 'haven't been here since last year joke*]#[no but fr AAAAA i'm so sorry abt the silence!! as usual depression got my ass around mid-december due to Some Stuff irl]#[from there it's been all downs and just a few ups so i've been taking it slow and trying not to let it all get to me (much)]#[anyways hi hi hi. how have y'all been doing???]#[super late but i hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season!!]#[also sending you all the best of wishes for the new year!!!]#[i might not be able to post thread replies tonight but i'll be around for a bit working on some of them]#[i think i also had some pending asks last time??? so i might try to start from there]#[dumb brain is still all BLERGH but feel free to send in stuff if you wish!]#[prompted. unprompted. random. etc. all is good]#[hope you're all having a wonderful day/night/etc!!! <3]#;speedwagon says (( ic ))#;jonathan says (( ic ))#;ic #(????

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outeremissary · 1 month

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Post 5 songs associated with your OC, followed by 3 outfits they would wear

Tagged by @arendaes, thanks! Balthazar's the only one I have a sorta workable collection of outfit stuff accessible for, so he wins by default, haha. Although doing this I realized I usually just save single garments, crops, or people's daily outfits (can't post those!!!!) for refs... Forgive me a poor showing. ^^;; I mustered two images of outfits at least??

Five Songs

Nice Type - KIRA feat. monii

The Queen of White Lies - The Orion Experience

Bitter Choco Decoration - syudou

Secret Himitsu - PinnochioP

Debt Collector - Jhariah

Three Outfits

There was no proper way to include them, but these are my favorite shoes in my reference folder for him.

Tagging @camelliagwerm, @bearvanhelsing, and @mountainashfae, if you're interested?

#had a real moment of 'hm there really are at least two hundred songs across these four playlists' while sifting through last night #in the end somehow none of things from those stereotypical character playlist artists made it in...? I just really like secret himitsu #and it really belongs here #the thing that did not make the cut as a result probably would have been wishing well by the oh hellos #anyway I think it's fun that this lil mini playlist turned out like.#two songs about being hot and manipulative and having a good time. two about how life feels so empty. and a chaser of 'it all catches up'#tag game #balthazar lucienne #arendaes

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yuriyuruandyuraart · 1 year

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HAPPY (late) BIRTHDAY @zu-is-here!!!!

i can't believe i missed your b-day again!! i had to make you something this year and so why not draw the bean the legend, the sweetest baby ever as a gift!!! >:Dc

thank you so much for all of your sweet words and making your blog one of the most comforting places to be at!! hope you're having an amazing day<3333

#art #my art #my gif #my animation #fanart #gift #aim #sorry i'm a lil late! school has been a lil crazy with assignments and group projects lately and i only get some spare time the weekends #that and i didn't know how to draw something big and that doesn't need much time with a mouse hh :'Dc #i guess i went with a small gif because i've been waiting to make one with lil baby aim for sO LONG!!! look at him being so cuuute >:'Dc #(i technically had a whole different idea last year but i'll wait until i have a tablet again-#i wouldn't wanna limit myself when it's supposed to be a big surprise project >;)c )#you're like- one of my biggest inspiration ever on this site so you know i had to doodle something at least!!#don't think i forgot about your amazing gift last year either!!! if you were so kind to draw me something and brighten up my day like that-#then you can BET i'll repay the favor!!! >:'Dc thank you so much again for your supportive comments and your sweet words #your presence is beloved by so many people around the world!!! no matter who passes by you always treat them with so much care #and respect!! your works have only improved throughout the years at an insanely rapid pace and i can't believe it's been 3 years now #you deserve all the praise and support and i wish you the best of luck in your future projects!!! have a nice day/night<3333

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suddencolds · 3 months

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#not snz and not a vent... just passive musing #had a dream two nights ago where someone who i used to know (and love a little) wished me goodbye with a #kiss to the hand before i flew away from them forever on a magic chair #which is very stud//io g//hi//bli-esque and frankly very unserious but #the feeling of grief i felt saying goodbye to a friendship which i had once held so close to me - and which i know can probably never #be as close as it was at that point in my life - stuck with me for a long time even after i woke up #it's been something i've been thinking about for awhile... but the dream felt like such a concrete and painful severance #i think that like a childish part of me wants to hold the people i'm close to at #the same distance and trust that they will stay there forever #but logically i know it's natural that the people i met under certain circumstances might drift apart once those circumstances change #for one or both of us... i guess friendship really is just a lucky convergence at one point in time where everything aligns #like i know this and i have known this for awhile but god does it hurt #especially those kinds of goodbyes that feel so gradual... not like a clear severing of ties but just a gradual disappearance #i think i probably have to not feel so hung up over what i used to have. and for the most part i am not; life goes on #but for those people?#i sometimes just miss them #there's a special kind of hurt knowing that i could reach out to them and say hello and that they would probably respond but that it might #never be quite the same again

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kirby-the-gorb · 1 year

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#kirby #guns #firearms #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #I am having much fun running around destroying everything in the lego game I bought yesterday :>#I stayed up a little later than I meant to to finish one last mission before I shut it off for the night #in which I stole a trex skeleton from the museum and rode it to the airport #I wish the ride portion had been longer tbh lol

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streatfeild · 10 months

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#mmmmmmmmmmm yeah. tonight‘s the night i think #i‘ve been meaning to come out to two of my friends for a few days now (we‘re on vacation together)#but never had the right moment #but tonight. i will #wish me luck or something lol #shut up kit

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