8 songs / 8 people

rules: answer 8 prompts with 8 songs, then tag 8 people

tagged by @verdanthoney a lifetime ago lol sorry i’m just seeing the tag now

1. your favorite song at the moment - i have three actually- good times, if i had a hammer (the hammer song), and tennessee waltz, all by sam cooke have been on constant repeat for at least a fortnight

2. a song you associate with a favorite character or ship - uhhh i have fic writer brainrot wherein every song i listen to reminds me of zukka. that being said, a list of songs that have come up on shuffle and immediately made me start writing zukka fic:

in another time, in another place by bastille

in the next room by neon trees

i’m in love by maria mena

heather by conan gray (this one’s obvious but. c’mon.)

all i’ve ever known by eva noblezada (from the hadestown cast album)

3. a song that could be about you - lmao talk too much by coin OR good thing by zedd and kehlani

4. a song you think is overrated - i can’t tell the songs apart so just. the music that pheobe bridgers makes? tbh i heard so much hype and then the actual music just. does nothing for me

5. a good song that reminds you of a specific memory - so actually i have a really fucking shitty memory but it’s the strongest when it’s tied to music?? and when i find a song i like i play it over and over again so most of my favourite songs take me immediately back to a specific place/time/situation. anyway uhh most recently supercut by lorde reminds me of my last mini relationship with someone whose makeout playlist for some fucking reason had supercut by lorde on it and it was only like. 12 songs long so it kept fucking playing and by like. repeat #8 i couldn’t fucking stop laughing and it didn’t kill the mood but it sure as hell changed it

or la venia bendita by marco antonio solis which immediately reminds me of the end of every single family party i’ve ever been to, that moment when the adults are all drunk as Fuck and shout singing marco antonio and vicente fernandez. good times

6. the last song you listened to - zitti e buoni by måneskin i will not apologise it Fucking Slaps

7. a song that makes you laugh - lucky by jason mraz and colbie callait for reasons i legally cannot elaborate

8. a song you want your mutuals to listen to - i mean. i think we should all treat ourselves to a viewing of the music video for yo perreo sola by bad bunny

i missed when this was originally going around so sorry if you’ve been tagged before (and no pressure to do it lol) but @dickpuncher @ash-and-starlight @rxio @sebsketchs @unacaritafeliz @fruitysokka @montparnasse @flitwickslittlebrotha @beekeeperoscar (i know i’m cheating w a 9th one but im not sure if oscar does tag games but i’m also confident if he does he has Immaculate music taste. so.)

roman for the character game, please and thank you!! :D

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favourite thing about them

1) he’s so honourable!!  2) Absolutely Doing His Best  3) he’s so funny  4) tries!! so hard!!!!!! to do right by his friends!!!!!  5) owns up to his mistakes!!   6) the protector trope :)   7) he’s SO smart   8) he’s maturing!!  

least favourite thing about them

again, didn’t apologize to virgil in words  >:^(

favourite line

hm. 

i’m a fake fan i don’t remember his lines :((

brOTP

prinxiety :)) !!

OTP

royality probably but roceit slaps

nOTP

prinxiety and r*mr*m

random headcanon

has at least (1) scar for each side from situations in which he jumped in to protect them (be it from smth in the kitchen or smth on a quest) (5+1 fic anyone?? 👀)

unpopular opinion

people stop writing roman as solely dumb, immature, and hotheaded challenge?? he’s more than that??

song i associate with them

i think either epic iii (they danced) from hadestown or inner workings by louie zone

favorite picture of them

again i don’t have a photo but that part when logan summons him n he pulls his hair yeah that

send me characters!

(For the ask meme u rb'd yesterday!) OK um.

1 3 4 5 6 7 8 10 11 16 18 21 23/40 25 30 33 34 36 38? You don't have to answer all those. I have no self control 😶

OH AND Happy Pride Month Mars!!! 😊❤🧡🤍💖💜

BREN HAPPY PRIDE MONTH !!! <3 AND YAY ASKS

1) What's your favorite way to dress?

As casually and relaxed as possible honestly unfortunately I do not look hot when I wear sweatpants I just look Bad. If you look hot when wearing sweatpants dni I hate u /j

3) What movie/game/etc. helps you calm down?

HMMMMMM movie wise just like. Anything I deeply deeply love so catch me watching "The Thing" (1982) dir. John Carpenter when I'm mad about something or like. a dudebro action movie because I am unfortunately my father's child

4) What does your room smell like?

I don't think it has much of a smell at all honestly but if anything maybe like. a dryer sheet that's a day or two old nothing pungent or overwhelming

5) Do you like to organize?

I LOVEEE organizing stuff specifically like files and alphabetizing and putting things in order like that. If it's my room I Do Not See It but in high school I worked in the library a few times as a class and if we had to get dispersed b/c the people weren't there or needed the library for another reason we'd go to the office and I'd file sick notes and I was like WAHOO YES I GET TO FILE AND ORGANIZE... LIVING THE GOOD LIFE there might be something wrong w me </3

6) What kind of music would you listen to if you could only choose one?

Cop out answer showtunes because showtunes can have or be any genre as long as they're musicals :) Stream "Hadestown" and "Falsettos" also sorry for liking musicals :(

7) What song is your aesthetic?

The song changes depending on my mood or whatever aesthetic I'm trying to go for but uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh whatever "Personal Jesus" by Depeche Mode gives off that's what I want and what I want to be. I have a lot of songs I vibe with this is HARDDD

8) What color do you think goes best with your personality?

Purple ! :) I just think it's a neat color and also my favorite and also can be very calming and soothing !!

10) What do you wish you hated, but actually like?

MMMMMMMMMMMM we'll go with a food lens on this one. Veal. Also shitty dudebro action movies dude I was obsessed w "The Expendables" for a long time when I was like 12 if you want answers I can't give you them because I don't know either <3

11) Vague about your crush(es)

LIVES IN ARIZONA AND I WANT TO MEET THEM SO BADDDDDDD STOP LIVING SO FAR AWAY FROM ME!!!!! >:(

16) If you could pick any planet besides earth, where would you live?

Uranus for the laughs but Pluto because Pluto has a heart on it :)

18) What animal would you keep as a pet, if you could?

FERRET I WANT A FERRET SO BAD THEY'RE SO NEAT

21) Is there a song you can't handle listening to, even though you like it?

Any song I've had on a playlist for longer than 6 months </3 I will skip right over them but uhhhhhhh "Landslide" by Fleetwood Mac is a great song but it was ALSO the first song that came up when I hit shuffle on a playlist on the way to granddad's funeral like a year ago now so when I hear the song I just associate it w all that and I'm like ok let's cry now :)

23) Do you like soft, fluffy blankets or rough/smooth blankets?

HMMM soft fluffy blankets for lounging around and the rough/smooth ones when I'm going to sleep because fluffy blankets retain heat like a mf and you WILL wake up sweating if you fall asleep with them

25) What country's history do you find the most interesting?

Genuinely cannot think of an answer for this one because like. They're all interesting ? Also any time you read about a country there's a 95% chance you'll find "invaded and colonized by England/France" in the history and you're just like wow world history is a mess! how was this only a single semester long class in high school there's literally so much to talk about

30) What instrument do you wish you could master?

Any instrument at all bc I have no musical talent and I'm mad about it!! Piano or violin would be pretty cool :) I was obsessed w wanting to learn the violin for a while in 8th grade and into high school I blame the music class I took for that. OR THE SAXOPHONE THE SAX MY BELOVED

33) Do you have any strange fears?

My sister and I to this day refuse to keep a shower curtain fully closed because we're afraid that somehow. some way. Jason Voorhees will be there once we pull back the curtain. Also things hiding under my bed if I'm especially paranoid I'll vault myself onto my bed like I'll take a running start and everything. Also also seeing things in my reflection, people breaking into my house just to mess with stuff and leave and not actually take anything, being watched from the shower drain or vents in the house, and anything that's been shown in the Final Destination series <3 laser eye surgery my beloathed

34) When you get angry, how do you show it?

In unhealthy ways but I'm getting better at being non-destructive and not hurting myself ! It only took 22 years of my life but better late than never <3 But my first instinct is always to like, break or hit something even if it's myself or my own property but from an emotions standpoint someone could tell if I was angry if I was just consistently silent or snappy and rude for no reason and the vibes I will just give off are. not good ! like just by looking at me you could probably tell if I was mad but also my resting face can either make you think I'm sad, pissed/angry, or tired ! It really depends shdfjkf

And I answered the others in the last ask I got ! Thank u Bren my great friend Bren :)

Odes to Old Gods

I started this year intending to journal about things I survive. Then at the end of the year, I could look back on my challenges and think about them in a more positive way--wow, look at what I overcame! The plan was to document everything, both good and bad, so that I could think about them more as experiences and lessons learned than as... good and bad. 

Needless to say, I stopped keeping track of those things in April. 

Earlier this month, I pulled out the journal again to update the list. I ended up quitting on that too. 

I do think, though, that in a less chaotic year, thinking about my life this way would be good practice. So, here I am, sharing my list with you in the form of an end-of-year, wrap-up blog post. 

A few quick caveats: 

This year was hard for literally everyone except maybe Jeff Bezos. 

It is not healthy to compare challenges or struggles or suffering.

I am not sharing this because I am looking for sympathy... I believe that being vulnerable is a very important part of the human experience but we can all also use a reminder that we never really know all of what anyone is experiencing. We shouldn’t need that reminder to treat others with love... but the older I get, the more I think those reminders might be necessary.

Things I have survived in 2020:

- A bit of a stalking experience in January which has since been resolved.

- Losing my job, hunting for a new job, securing a new job, training for the new job.

- My first Harry Potter tattoo for my ten-year tattooiversary.

- The fires in Australia.

- An absolutely wonderful trip to NYC with my dad when I got to see both Beetlejuice and Hadestown and have an enormous strawberry cheesecake milkshake from Junior’s. 

- Losing Kobe Bryant.

- Parasite absolutely CRUSHING the Oscars.

- Having a really, really good visit with my grandparents in March before all hell broke loose. 

- Weinstein being convicted and sentenced.

[Everything after this point happened during a global pandemic.]

- Losing Grandmom. I was unable to attend her funeral and still have not had the chance to grieve this loss with my extended family. 

- Losing my health insurance.

- A Zoom party for my Grammy’s 80th birthday.

- Losing Breonna Taylor. And George Floyd. And so, so many others. This is the first year I have really committed to understanding the current race-related issues this country faces and BOY, do we have work to do.

- The stress but success of orchestrating a safe family trip so that I didn’t have to go an entire year without seeing my brother.

- Losing my shifts at my primary job due to virus-related concerns.

- Countless other family happy birthdays over Zoom.

- My 60-year-old mother returning to work face-to-face with a student population that largely ignores all virus-related guidelines despite her working tirelessly for months this spring to offer UHS providers an adequate work-from-home option. 

- Being diagnosed with hypertension.

- A nightmarish friend trip. Despite our best laid plans for a safe and healthy visit, Mother Earth decided to trap me 90 miles north of my best friends for 4 days. I eventually got to see them for about 12 hours and honestly, it was worth it. That is the only time I’ve gotten with them all year.

- Losing Ruth Bader Ginsberg.

- The selection of Amy Coney Barrett to the Supreme Court.

- Our sweet girl Clio being diagnosed with a seizure disorder and then coming down with a life-threatening upper respiratory infection. 

- Learning that my grandmother would be voting for Trump in the 2020 election.

- The actual election.

- Losing Rooster, my sweet, sweet boy.

- Learning that my uncle has been diagnosed with esophageal cancer.

- Missing Thanksgiving with my extended family.

- Getting really excellent holiday gifts for my favorite people.

- Missing Christmas with my extended family.

- Safely spending some holiday time with my immediate family.

That is FAR from everything. But I don’t have the energy? Capacity? Time? to sort through everything.

Here are the things from this year that I am still currently surviving:

- A global pandemic! And all the associated chaos. With my asthma and high blood pressure and obesity, I am considered high risk and am still not able to safely return to my primary job. 

- Hypertension! More on this later.

- Grieving Rooster. In the days after we said goodbye, I wrote a memorial that I will eventually share here. Psychology has recently analyzed data suggesting that losing a pet can be equivalent to losing a relative... I have never felt grief like this. It’s been over a month. I cry every night. 

- Managing Clio’s health. She is still adjusting to her seizure medication, which she gets twice a day, and is still on medication to help with lasting symptoms of the respiratory infection. She is fussy about food and her weight fluctuates a lot week to week. She is also a feral rescue who has only ever been handled by me, my mom, and our vet. If mom and I are ever going to vacation together again, we will need to find someone who can manage catching and pilling her twice a day... no easy feat. Fortunately, at the moment, vacations aren’t really a thing for either my mom or I and I am working hard to approach these concerns in a cross-that-bridge-when-we-come-to-it way.

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This year has been overwhelming. The last two months alone have been overwhelming. And they would’ve been overwhelming without the added spice of a global pandemic. The number of Americans we have lost to this virus has doubled since I last posted here in mid-August. Some time this week we are likely to reach a point where we’re losing 4,000 Americans per day. PER. DAY. This year has been overwhelming.

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There were some good things this year, of course. I am so, so thankful for all the time I got with my immediate family and the very brief but vital time I got with my friends. Fortunately I am only ever a text away from my closest friends and we are able to message pretty much every day. I am also extremely glad to have found a place in the fantasy enamel pin community. The family I’ve found in pin-land has carried me through some of my lowest points this year. I spent more time in view of the ocean than I typically do in a given year... even though much of that time was still riddled with anxiety. I did art this year. I read books this year. Some really important ones, in fact. If you read nothing else in 2021, read The New Jim Crow. I also got tattooed! I’m going to include those here because I think the significance of each reflects something interesting and important about all I have survived and am surviving this year.

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In January, I got my first Harry Potter tattoo! My favorite quote from the entire series is delivered by Hagrid during the Triwizard tournament:

”What’s comin’ will come, and we’ll meet it when it does.” 

I got that incorporated into a tattoo. In January. 

Also in January I got a “Prisoner of Donuts” tattoo... because life just wouldn’t be manageable at all without donuts.

In March, I got a bird of prey carrying a book to represent one of my all time favorite poems, “On Thought in Harness” by Edna St. Vincent Millay. The final lines of that poem:

“Soar, eat ether, see what has never been seen. Depart, be lost, but climb.” 

In July, I was able to safely navigate getting a tattoo that symbolizes the saga told in The Lord of the Rings trilogy. LOTR is my first and oldest fandom and the story is still so, so important to me today. The lessons I learned from Tolkien when I was a kid also carried me through some of my hardest moments this year.

Also in July I got a Plumpy tattoo. That’s right. Plumpy. From Candyland. If you haven’t played the game in a while, you may not remember Plumpy. He’s one of the first characters you meet on the game board... and one of the worst cards to see when you’re close to winning the game. You could be three damn squares from the finish line and pull the Plumpy card and back to the beginning of the board you go. Plumpy is a really great reminder that even when we have no choice but to lose ground, we can gain that ground back again. And hey, once you pull the Plumpy card from the deck, you likely won’t see him again for a good long while. 

In October, I was able to safely navigate getting my second Harry Potter tattoo. Neville has always been one of my favorite fantasy characters and I chose to carry him with me permanently. His courage, despite so, so much bullshit, inspires me every day. I also got a nautical tattoo for my mom’s ancestors who came to this country and fought in the Revolutionary War. Just as my family has a long and proud history of fighting for what matters, I too will carry that banner, even if it looks very, very different in the modern age. My third tattoo of the appointment is a cuckoo holding playing cards, a nod to one of most important stories I’ve read: Ken Kesey’s “One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest.” This book has informed not just my personal journey with mental illness but my passion to work in the field as well. My final tattoo of my October appointment, less than a week before the 2020 election, is a weeping Lady Justice. 

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This year has made me look critically at things I very comfortably ignored for a long time. I would hope that it has done the same for most of you. Very little if any of this year was easy for me... but the most important lessons are never easy to learn. I’ve spent this year more worried and more angry than I’ve ever been before... and all I hope to do moving forward is use that fear and that anger to make this country, this world, a better place. Miss me with your resolutions this year. Every single day we should prioritize surviving and treating others with understanding and active love. I worked hard to do that this year and I will continue to work hard to do that every day. I’m proud of the work I’ve done. And in case it wasn’t clear, I’ll be dragging as many of you as I can on this journey with me. If you really feel the need to make a resolution this year, resolve to learn. Resolve to understand. Resolve to read The New Jim Crow and then TAKE ACTION. Take action with your votes and your voices and your money. Resolve to act.

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This year wouldn’t let me escape it without being put on blood pressure medication, despite my best efforts to lower my blood pressure without it. Although I had gotten back down into a healthy range for a few weeks, RBG’s death and the landslide of utter shit that followed that completely wrecked all the progress I had made. I’m not happy about adding a new medicine to my regimen. I’m not happy about adding a new chronic diagnosis to my already lengthy laundry list. I did not expect 30 to look like allergy pills and three daily moisturizers and foot stretches and Metamucil and acid reducers and migraine medication and iron supplements and six prunes a day and chronic pain and blood pressure medication... but here we are. I’m exhausted from working so hard to be healthy just to have all that work not be enough. I feel very much like my body is giving up on me... and that is a feeling I am struggling with a lot right now. My soul is a vibrant but powerless passenger in a car speeding towards the edge of a cliff.

I’ll keep trying though. I start my new medication tonight. Hopefully it helps. Hopefully the side effects are manageable. I don’t really feel like I can handle much more... but I guess we keep going until we can’t.   

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I have no expectations for 2021 to be better. I don’t have much hope for it to be better either. This vaccine will saves lives and that’s really good news. But a lot of other things will be difficult, will stay difficult, will become difficult. I’m going to try to keep fighting, and I hope you do too. 

“What’s comin’ will come, and we’ll meet it when it does.” 

Hiya! G O S H I've been gone for a little while now whoops! Ah, here's a question for ya! Do you have specific songs you associate with the sides, and do you write while listening to those songs? If so, what are the songs? I really like hearing about what kinds of music/artists/songs people associate with characters, I myself have a bunch of character playlists for my OCs! Anyway, hope you're doing well!

I do! I have playlists for the Sides. Though if I’m working on a fic, I tend to make fic-specific playlists because like, not all of my Roman songs really fit “roman angst”, y’know? So I tend get specific while writing. But I do have songs I associate with the Sides! I’ll them under a cut because it’s a lot. Like. The shortest list is Logan’s at 13 songs and the longest is Virgil’s at 46. It’s a long list. Some songs are repeated because they remind me of multiple characters.

Logan

Little Wonders by Rob Thomas

I Know by Hank Green

Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol

To the Future! from Meet the Robinsons

Cambridge, 1963 from The Theory of Everything Soundtrack

All I’ve Ever Known from Hadestown

The Imitation Game from The Imitation Game Soundtrack

To Boldly Go from Star Trek 2009 Soundtrack

Love Like You (End Credits) from Steven Universe

Incomplete (Puzzle Song) by Thomas Sanders

Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close from Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Soundtrack

Quiet from Matilda the Musical

You Will Be Found from Dear Evan Hansen

Patton

You’ve Got a Friend by Carole King

I Believe In You by Michael Buble

Unruly Heart from The Prom Musical

Ready Now by dodie

You’ll Be In My Heart by Phil Collins

It’s Alright by Mother Mother

Secret for the Mad by dodie

Don’t Give Up on Me by Andy Grammer

6/10 by dodie

Love Like You (End Credits) from Steven Universe

Rainbow by Kacey Musgraves

You Will Be Found from Dear Evan Hansen

Would You Be So Kind by dodie

Hiding In Your Hands - Bonus Track from Dear Evan Hansen

Never Alone by Jesse Bonanno

Love is Big Enough by Holley Maher

The Motion Waltz (Emotional Commotion) by Rufus Wainwright 

Roman

Fly With Me by Jonas Brothers

King by Lauren Aquilina

High Hopes by Panic! At the Disco

A Million Dreams from The Greatest Showman

Corner of the Sky from Pippin

Brave by Idina Menzel

Never Alone by Jesse Bonanno

Proud of Your Boy from Aladdin on Broadway

The Impossible Dream (The Quest) from Man of La Mancha

Take Me or Leave Me from RENT

Go the Distance from Hercules

Fantasmic! Exit Music from Disney’s Fantasmic

Son of Man by Phil Collins

Ten Minutes Ago by Rogers and Hammerstein’s Cinderella

I’ve Got a Dream from Tangled

I Believe In You by Michael Buble

If I Didn’t Have You from Monsters Inc

Proud Corazon from Coco

Who I’d Be from Shrek the Musical

Cinematic by Owl City

Unruly Heart from The Prom Musical

Talk by Daya

Everything I Ever Thought I Knew from Tangled (TV show)

Lovebug by Jonas Brothers

You Will Be Found from Dear Evan Hansen

Virgil

Demons by Imagine Dragons

Carry On by fun.

Keep Holding On by Avril Lavinge

Until the Day I Die by Story of the Year

Iridescent by Linkin Park

Castle of Glass by Linkin Park

Some Nights by fun. 

Whispers in the Dark by Skillet

Words Fail from Dear Evan Hansen

You Will Be Found from Dear Evan Hansen

Disappear from Dear Evan Hansen

1985 by Bowling for Soup

Bring Me to Life by Evanescence

My Immortal by Evanescence

Tnks fr th Mmrs by Fall Out Boy

This Year by The Mountain Goats

Unbroken by Black Veil Brides

Waving Through a Window from Dear Evan Hansen

Not Alone by Darren Criss

Paranoid by Jonas Brothers

Radioactive by Imagine Dragons

After All by Saving Abel

All the Small Things by blink-182

American Noise by Skillet

Battle Cry by Skillet

Brave by Idina Menzel

Car Radio by twenty one pilots

Eyes Open by Taylor Swift

Fireflies by Owl City

I’m Alive! by Becca

Leave Out All the Rest by Linkin Park

Life is Beautiful by Sixx:A.M.

I’m Still Here (Jim’s Theme) from Treasure Planet

Scream from High School Musical 3

I’m Not Okay (I Promise) by My Chemical Romance

Sugar, We’re Going Down by Fall Out Boy

Misery Buisness by Paramore

Safe and Sound by Taylor Swift

Welcome to the Black Parade by My Chemical Romance

Never Alone by Jesse Bonanno

breathin’ by Thomas Sanders

The Only Exception by Paramore

Mr. Brightside by The Killers

Won’t Stop Running by A Great Big World

One Little Slip by Barenaked Ladies

when my own words aren’t enough

okay so you know that one direction song that’s made of other song titles, “Better Than Words”. same concept here except not really and you just listen to the lyrics of the songs LMAO. anyways sometimes the words of others can convey better what im trying to say to you so enjoy 19 songs that do so. i highlighted some of the lyrics that really made me think of you/us. click on links on then click on togepi

Love Like This - Ben Rector

“Never used to get excited to sit here in the silence Holdin' on to somethin' the way I'm holdin' you Didn't used to know how fast time walks and runs and flies by I never thought I'd feel so deeply, but damn, I do

i never knew i could feel so happy just doing the mundane things with you. walking and talking, going out for drives, sitting and eating food. time goes by so fast when im with you. i always wish time would slow down and let it stop for awhile just so i can have a couple moments of just us yeno? you make me want to spend more time with you even when we just finished spending a whole evening together. there’s so many new feelings that ive experienced since ive been with you and i cant wait to keep feeling new ones 

All I’ve Ever Known - Eva Noblezada and Reeve Carney (Hadestown)

All I've ever known is how to hold my own But now I wanna hold you, too

for the past couple years i learned how to love myself again and how to be okay with being alone. alone doesnt mean im lonely but it did mean that i had built up my walls again and letting someone in new again was so scary. you made it seem okay though. you made sure that when i was opening up to you and being vulnerable that it was okay to do so. that i wouldnt be hurt and that i was safe. i learned how to love romantically again and learned what it feels like when you arms wrap around me and hold me. it’s currently my favourite feeling and i dont think i ever want it to end

roses & sunflowers - Timmy Albert

You're a flower that's blooming every season with spring I fell in love with your roots, the whole you, everything

i mentioned before that falling in love with you was like how the seasons changed. like you know it comes but it’s always different. this isnt my first time in love but it’s most definitely something very different. a good different. im in love with every part of you. from the way you make your puns to the way you buy me things that show you care (my favourite foods, my ddr adapter, and most recently itch cream) to the way you sing in the car to me to how you tell me about your good and bad days. i love it all!

Favourite Girl - Jesse Barrera and Tori Kelly

My baby, She still drives me crazy After all this time, You better believe that Nothings greater, She still makes me better After all this time You're still my Favorite Girl

BONUS:  I remember when, You didn't know how to kiss  (hehehhe) Now you know me well, And nothing compares to this 

best girl. favourite girl! is maxbean hehe jkjk.. maybe. we both do some whack ass stuff but there’s no one else i would rather be having fun with than you! you make me better in every way. you encourage me to keep going even when days are rough. you support me on my good and bad days so im here to remind you too that im here for you always okie?

No Matter Where You Are - Us the Duo

I will stand by you Even when we fall I will be the rock, that holds you up and lifts you high so you stand tall

whatever the world throws at us, whether that be a pandemic or people who dont support us, im going to uplift you and us in every way that i can. i want to be a pillar of strength for you and show that even though am baby and that i am smol that i am a girlfriend that you can count on to show up by your side. i got your back from now till however long

Tattooed Heart - Ariana Grande

You don't need to worry about making me crazy 'Cause I'm way past that So just call me, if you want me 'Cause you got me, and I'll show you, how much I wanna be On your tattooed heart

honestly this is just one of my favourite love songs ever so i just wanted to add it into the playlist lmao

Lemonade - Jeremy Passion 

She's so beautiful, sometimes I stop to close my eyes She's exactly what I need She's my smile when I'm feeling blue She's my good night sleep when my day is through yeah

i say this all the time but i love looking at you oh my god skjskjs like YOU. ARE. LITERALLY. MY. TYPE. lmaooOOSKSKJkj. other than physically being my type you really do embody everything that i need in a partner. kind, compassionate, genuine, good communicator and listener. you make sure that i dont fall asleep sad and you make sure that im okay on my not so good days. i love you so much

I Was Made For Loving You - Tori Kelly ft. Ed Sheeran 

A stranger's hand clutched in mine I'll take this chance, so call me blind I've been waiting all my life

i took a chance on someone i really didnt know anything about but my god i think it’s the best thing that ive done 

Ger Here - Sam Smith 

I don't care how you get here, just get here if you can

this reminds me of the time you bused through a snow storm just to study with me at utsc. also just in general whenever you make the effort to come all the way here to my house just to spend time with me and even then you end up driving us downtown or to different places too. you are truly the definition of “if there’s a will, there’s a way”

goodnight n go - Ariana Grande 

Oh, why'd you have to be so cute? It's impossible to ignore you Why must you make me laugh so much? It's bad enough we get along so well Just say goodnight and go

“why do you make it so hard to say good bye” something we both always say haha. one of these days we’ll have a night together and we’ll fall asleep together and wake up together too. one day! very excited for that day where we can say good night and stay

While We’re Young - Jhene Aiko

I'm tellin' everybody you're mine and I like it And I really hope you don't mind, I can't fight it

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I'm giving you my heart, please don't break it Take it and lock it up and put me in your pocket, love

i tell everyone youre my girlfriend because haha im so happy to be dating you and telling everyone you make me so happy so yeno just a subtle flex. it’s also so scary fully giving myself to someone physically, mentally, and emotionally. to trust that you will safeguard my feelings and that you wont hurt me but i know youre scared of the same thing too, i guess even more so since im your first girlfriend. i promise i’ll protect your heart too. water it, nourish it, and let it grow into something even greater

Blessed - Daniel Caesar 

And yes, I'm a mess but I'm blessed to be stuck with you

ive told you since the beginning that i didnt want to bring you into this until i could fix and improve my mental health. i think that way of thinking was me associating my ability to love with how healthy i am. that’s not fair because i am capable of loving others even when im not at my 100% best. im so very grateful that you are there with me when im dealing with my mean/negative thoughts and that you can help ground me and be there to let me ride out my sad days. 

Runnin’ Home to You (cover) - Jake Spencer 

Can't say how the days will unfold Can't change what the future may hold But, I want you in it Every hour, every minute

i can see you in my future for a long time my love. i hope you can see the same as well 

Please Keep Loving Me - James TW 

For all the mistakes I'm making, I don't mean (I don't mean them, I don't mean them) For all the little things That I fail to see

please be patient because sometimes i wont be able to get things right the first time around. i tend to be a little slow when doing things and i come quite late to events. so even on days when i may be difficult to be around, please do your best to keep loving me and i’ll do my best to make it easier again.

Nothing - Bruno Major

There's not many people I'd honestly say I don't mind losing to But there's nothing Like doing nothing With you

no need for an explanation.. -_- 3rd date. d&b. mario kart. fan... hhh but i mean guess this also applies just in general whenever we play games and i lose lmao. honestly though doing nothing with you is still so fun for me. from making puns in a grocery store, to watching movies on my couch, to watching the sunset together by the water. nothing is better than doing nothing with you :)

Teenage Dream (cover) - Boyce Avenue 

Before you met me I was alright, but things Were kinda heavy You brought me to life Now every February You'll be my Valentine, Valentine

i think this applies to both of us in a sense that we were (and still are) both dealing with some not fun stuff when we first met each other, but we have each other now to get through it together. at the time, it had already been a few months since my falling out with you-know-who and just a couple months since i had decided to get help for my mental health stuff. i remember feeling so touched when i first told you about everything because you had made the conscious effort to reassure me and soothe me by holding my hand and looking at me when i got anxious talking about it. that was the moment i knew that you would be someone special in my life and someone i wanted to keep for a long time as well.  so im hoping that next year (and for the next foreseeable years) you can be my valentine haha

Only Us - Lauren Dreyfuss and Ben Platt (Dear Evan Hansen)

I never thought there'd be someone like you who would want me So I give you ten thousand reasons to not let me go But if you really see me If you like me for me and nothing else Well, that's all that I've wanted for longer that you could possibly know

while i have grown up with some great and amazing people who have made me feel so loved. ive also grown up and have come across some not nice people as well. they made me feel like i wasn’t worth it or made me feel small and not wanted. it’s not a nice feeling being shut down when youre just trying your best to get to know others or when you talk about the things you like and people become uninterested. i guess you can say that’s what contributed to why i dont want to show my whole self yet to new people at first. im scared that i will scare them away and they wont like me. so when you, a total stranger at the time, wanted to get to know me more, genuinely enjoyed my company, and wanted to spend more time with me, i was like “wow someone new actually LIKES me for ME?”. you dont understand how much it means to me that you made the effort to get to really know me and to still make the effort now to make me feel comfortable so i can be my whole self around you. i cant thank you enough. you make me WANT to talk about what i like and share my joy with you. thank you for letting me be me.

Take on the World - You Me at Six

I can see, see the pain in your eyes Oh, believe, believe me and I have tried No I won't, I won't pretend to know what you've been through You should've known, I wish it was me, not you 

i know there’s things you dont want to talk about and things you really cant talk about. knowing all the pain and hurt youve gone through has made you tough and strong but it sucks thinking of everything that youve had to face on your own. i wish i could take that pain away from you if i could. take it, ball it up, and throw it so far away that it never hurts you again. it is so very unfortunate that the saying goes “why do bad things happen to good people”. you dont deserve any of that. a good person like you deserves a life filled with unwavering support from those around you and days filled with boundless joy. i cant change the past or what other people think of you but what i can do is to do my best to make sure that even when you are hurt that you still feel loved and you still want to fight another day. you can do it, and i’ll be with you now for every new challenge that you face. your’re not alone

She Keeps Me Warm - Miranda Lambert 

She says I smell like safety and home I named both of her eyes forever and please don't go

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And I can't change, even if I tried Even if I wanted to My love, my love, my love, my love

those first two lines are just so very nice to listen to. 

you and i both know that we cant change who we are and who we love. i think we’ve both had countless nights and thoughts of wanting to be straight so we wouldn’t have to deal with the consequences of loving the same gender. i know this past month has been especially hard for you though. im here to remind you that there’s nothing you need to change about you my love. i love you just how you are. your family may not understand it yet but i hope they will. i hope they understand that you make others around you feel so welcomed and loved. that you are the most selfless person that a lot of us have met. that you stick up for those who are mistreated and that you care for them. i wish they could see just how deeply you love and i feel like ive only scratched the surface of what your love is and can be. i want them to see how much i love you too and how you have made me a better person in all aspects. my parents, my cousins, and friends have all said that they have seen me change and become a softer person. my cousins say that you compliment me in the best ways and sand down my rough edges. i hope one day soon that they see all the love that emanates from you and that they can support you at least even a little bit. i hope they can see that love is love is love and that they learn to love all aspects of you too.

Eli Tomac Net Worth Age Wife Bike Height Instagram

Eli Tomac Who is Eli Tomac? Born on 14th November 1992 to John and Kathy Tomac, Eli Tomac is an American professional motocross racer. Eli has been in this profession since 2010 and has gained immense popularity riding for Kawasaki and competing in the AMA Supercross and Motocross championships. TBH, riding was a passion that turned into a career for Eli, and riding runs in the family. You might say riding and Eli are the essence of OTP. Eli’s father, John Tomac was a former competitive BMX and legendary mountain bike racer, and Eli was raised to be a mountain biker just like his dad. Riding was well tuned into his blood from a very young age, just like it happens in other sports such as baseball and basketball. it must have been in the atmosphere in the Tomac household and permeating Eli's brain. Eli started his career riding for team Geico Honda in 2010 and became the second rider in the history of the sport to win 250cc class AMA Pro Motocross debut. He holds the record for being the first racer to win the first pro race he entered. He won five 5 races with consistent performances in 2012 and he continued to win several championships after this. Many of his fans live vicariously through his accomplishments and talk about it on Facebook or even MySpace. You can search Yahoo and DuckDuckGo to see more. He did face some injuries, but that didn't keep him from racing in the years to come. In 2016, he joined the Kawasaki factory racing team called the Monster Energy Kawasaki. He moved up the ranks with tough competition and he pushed harder to achieve success and growth. Until now, he has participated in many races and has around 72 wins and counting. Check out his highlights in 4K HDR on Youtube. You can also see plenty of GIF and MEME about him and riding on Tiktok, Twitter, and Facebook. What is his height? Eli Tomac is 1.75 meters or 5 feet 9 inches tall. His height benefits him in his profession and is found to be ideal for balance as well as for the sturdiness needed in this profession. It's sensible to think nutrition is important as well monitoring things such as high fructose corn syrup, magnesium, protein, water, salt, turmeric, and potassium. How much does he weigh? Eli weighs approximately 75 kg or 165 pounds. He maintains his weight which is in perfect ratio with his height and most suitable for his profession. Who is his girlfriend? A popular rider, a handsome hunk, and a dream date to many girls, Eli is in a relationship with Jessica Steiner. The couple has been seen together on many occasions and on social media platforms like Instagram as well. The couple has not tied the knot yet, but are blessed with two wonderful children, so they already know HIFW you have a family. What is his net worth? Eli’s estimated net worth is approximately $4 million. The number is just an estimation as the rider prefers to keep his financial information and money under the radar. We don't know if he owns any Bitcoin or Tezos. The estimation is based on his salary and the several accomplishments and cash prizes he has won in his journey as an accomplished rider. Additionally, he is associated with Kawasaki and Monster Energy, and his personal website also promotes ET3 merchandise, which is also a source of his income. What are his career earnings? Apart from the sponsorships that Eli gets, he earns a basic salary of approximately $85,000 a year. But as he is associated with major brands, his career earnings are difficult to estimate. Motocross For many of us, motocross has long been synonymous with off-road dirt bikes. Now that more people are interested in the sport, it is becoming more popular with motocross bike racing. Motocross and off road riding go hand in hand for a few different reasons, but to learn how to be a motocross rider can be quite challenging and at times quite difficult. It's not easy to become the next Eli Tomac. Before you set out to enter your motocross competition, you need to do some research on the sport of motocross. This way you will be more prepared to get into your competitions and learn how to ride a great off road dirt bike. In this article I will give you an overview of motocross and all the things you need to know before entering your first competition. The competition is intense, just like a game between the LA Dodgers and NY Yankees or a game between the Houston Rockets and Dallas Mavericks. First off, there are three types of off road dirt bikes that are used in motocross. They are dirt bike, dirt racing bike, and off road dirt-bikes. The great thing about motocross is that you don't have to be a skilled rider to enter. There are plenty of starters in the motocross circuit that come with training wheels and have absolutely no experience on the bike. Dirt bikes have evolved to be almost like four-wheel drive vehicles in that they have gas and tires that are wide enough to handle off road dirt riding. Most off road dirt bikes have the ability to stand up on them and perform incredible maneuvers over steep hills, mud pits, and other obstacles. When it comes to riding motocross and dirt bikes, you can feel comfortable that you are in the same realm as BMX bikers, mountain bikers, motocross racers, and off road racers. They all share the same gear that you will need in order to ride a dirt bike. Another great thing about motocross is that it gives you a chance to actually show off your skills as a rider. Motocross allows you to actually see what your skills can really do with a dragster. If you have ever thought about racing but wanted to get a better look at what is needed to be successful in the sport, this is a great place to start. There are several classes of motocross and the ones that you need to learn are dragsters, motocross sliders, and motocross truckers. You will also need to learn the various riding techniques that are part of the sport, such as advanced line jumping, hard skid stopping, and apex shots. The tracks of motocross are so large that it will take time to develop your skills in trail positions and jumps. However, once you develop your skills, you will soon be on your way to riding awesome off road dirt bikes. One big hurdle that most people face when they first start out in motocross is that they do not want to risk their necks or their lives by doing something that they don't really want to do. I find that there are many tricks that are very safe and they do not require much of your muscles. But there are still some bumps in the road that you need to be aware of when riding on these ramps. I really encourage all of my riders to always be on the lookout for these bumps in the road because they could end up wrecking their bodies in a massive amount of pain. You never know when you might meet one and when you do, be ready for it. I also feel that this should be a reason to make sure that you check out your local motocross riders for out of state competitions. 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