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poryphoria · 9 months

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RANDOM QUESTION OUT OF THA BLUE BUT!!! I've been thinking about what various madcom characters' fursonas would be bc i do that with all my hyperfixations and im v curious what animals youd assign them,, (especially crackpo n phoobert bc ur takes on both of them are delightful !!

OHH!!! I REMEMBER U SENDING ME A REQ ABT THIS AND I NEVER GOT TO IT BUT I REALLY REALLY WANTED TO SO IM ABSOLUTELY AT LEAST GONNA GIVE YOU AN ESSAY ABOUT IT

see the thing about this question i LOVE is that you can answer it two ways: "what the characters would say their fursona is" and "what God and everyone else knows their fursona is". "jerma you'd be a rat" vs "lion wolf hybrid king of the junjle". you get me?

we'll start with what they'd make up as fursonas- i think phobos would try to be as realistic as possible n choose a deathstalker scorpion, nd make VERY clear to specify that he has remarkably small claws (so you know how potent his venom is!!!) [scorpion venom is relative to the claw size- smaller claws = more potent venom, as they have less need to hold down their prey!]. tbf he'd probably literally just base it off one of his owned scorpions- no fancy bits n baubles attached, although he would also design UV markings [scorpions, along with many other animals glow under UV light!] for himself so the design isn't necessarily bland or lacking.

crackpot would be the complete opposite, however- he'd be too indecisive with which bird species he likes best that he'd just give up n make an every-hybrid of some manner (tho it WOULD look most similar to a vulture, i think!). he'd literally make a sparklebird. rainbow feathers, scene getup, FUCK YOU let him have fun for once in his miserable life!!! realistically unlike phobos, who cannot ever take the stick out of his ass for 2 seconds to indulge in a little whimsy, i think crackpot probably had a fursona at some point (he just kinda stopped having time to think about it after The Occurrences. you get it!)

now. as for what god and everyone else would assign them....... actually a little tougher. bc a scorpion still feels right for phobos, symbolically- the ole fable about the scorpion and the frog, y'know? DAMMIT, PHOBOS. YOU WIN THIS TIME! but maybe he'd be a species with weaker venom. Just cause. (i could be really extra mean and say pseudoscorpion but cmon man.)

crackpot on the other hand.... ive gone into such meticulous detail about the kinds of bird he could be, but the funniest part is i don't think God would let him be a bird at all. birds are something he takes great comfort in, something he wants to be-- but he's a pretender, he's always worn a mask his whole life, always wished he could be somebody else. he'd be something that exhibits batesian mimicry [batesian mimicry is when one harmless species mimics another, more threatening species]-- i think he'd be a hoverfly, a type of fly that mimics bees! alternatively he could be a salamander but i don't have cool symbolism reasons for that i just think it's right.

TLDR;

if we're talking "jerma you'd be a rat" phobos could be a scorpion or pseudoscorpion and crackpot would either be a hoverfly or salamander, if we're talking "lion wolf hybrid king of the junjle" phobos would be an ostensibly cooler scorpion & crackpot would be some kinda sparklebird.

TY FOR GIVING ME AN EXCUSE TO WRITE AN ESSAY!!!! i love prompts like this so so much plsplspls don't hesitate to send me three hundred asks of this nature I LOVE FEELING LIKE A GREEK PHILOSOPHER

#it said something #pory turgles #pory writes an essay in response to an ask...AGAIN!

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spikeinthepunch · 11 months

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rebrand conflict

idk how to decide what is a good or bad decision in terms of like...wanting to rebrand. i wish i could count back to how long i have used "morrysillusion" overall, i dont have a specific date. but i know after the white/brown antelope/wolf fursona, i think i dropped "moreyytilatot"? i think i tried to just go by "morey" in some form (i recall "princemorry" url). and then i dropped the 'nisovinsillusion' url maybe in early 2016? but i also had the coffini url here for a good while after. i cant remember if i used morrysillusion outside of tumblr around that time so. idk...

and heres the thing-- i dont really feel disconnected from my username, its fine and i think its p cool. but also in my head i keep wanting to change it, and part of that is wanting to claim a super old username i have no bad associations with. and i think part of that is bc of all the ways i am trying to do the things i was denied through my younger years-- so i am just reliving a lot of nice things and recalling the vibes and online trend etc i had. but also like.... attitude? personality wise? i feel like im not reflecting that w my current "brand" so to speak. at the very least if i didnt change my username, i still dont feel like the current look is something i want. i think the urge on the username change is just an additional feeling to push away from what i have been under this name.

the username i keep wanting to fall back to is 'spikeinthepunch/spikedpunch' (had the short one on xboxlive and the long one on deviantart) which was a short lived username but has no negative relations to anything, and i wished i kept it for a bit longer. and its kind of an edgy username lol. but in my recent years of growing as an adult, moving out, and being my own person, i feel soooo different than how my accounts have been presenting me. i guess ive been like soft, simple, and stiff in presentation? i think i fell into this when i was thinking id keep doing art commissions etc in a "professional" way, and especially bc i was doing my CN internship around then and wanted to still look presentable for the industry when looking for jobs. and while i certainly would love to work in the creative industry potentially, i obviously dont need to keep up that Normal-er image, i never should have, but also at that age and time i didnt feel like i could be that way at all. i was far more nervous of people interpreting me badly, negatively, etc if i was more edgy or mature. i was young and not dealing with my issues and so fixated on trauma etc.

this is also lining up w my plans to rework my website too. and i think a lot of this feeling also comes along w my "mascot" who i think is lovely! but him being a "mascot" makes him.... very detached from me as a person. i havent had any sonas to relate to in almost over a year... and my mascot was never meant to be a sona, just a Guy to represent my vibe (the colors, aliens) and social media appearance. and i guess i dont like that vibe anymore. i havent even felt all too into the shift i made to Mikike just having a vague spacesuit either, i felt i was just forcing that in order to fit the simple minecraft skin format for readability. (if people were to draw my skin, making it plantigrade and less animal would be easier)

and of course an additional observation i have had in more recent times are manic episodes that make me uproot parts of my life and change a lot of stuff about my identity etc. it may not seem like that happens online but its bc i manage to hold back on changing things abt my online branding lol- but it often results in making sideblogs for whatever new fandom/media i attached to in my episode and irl changing my entire appearance to fit and much more (and promptly drop both in about a month or so- its why i have so many abandoned sideblogs). this is obviously the bigger issue bc its what makes it Very hard for me to not do this (n yes i am in a bit of an episode rn despite my medication so...). and shocker, so many of my username/url changes and failure to ever keep one long enough to form an identity is related to that as well! its a surprise i havent done it in years but it was the expectation to stay with one identity, one look, in order to be Normal and recognized in a professional way, and i dont like that.

making this post and dumping thoughts has me thinking on a solution. as i said i dont really feel detached from my username. but what i dont relate to the most now is the way i feel i have gotten stuck in presenting myself online, and as a "brand". i want to toss out my color scheme, my mascot, my outward attitude. i want to let myself actually present in a way i like and not in a way that feels "clean". when my wcrp got shut down i had to come to the idea of acceptance and letting go of things i cannot control. and the reality of what truly doesnt matter in terms of what people may think of me. that was a huge pressure left on me for YEARS thanks to 2014-16 tumblr mindset and it is so so much harder to break esp if you want to try and be a creator and build an audience. i felt like i had become aware of this, and i have, but i didnt really click the fact that i wasnt into my current online presence bc i was still living with a piece of that era.. the fear of getting popular and being 'called out' for something for years ago, that wasnt even serious or bad, feeling like i was stepping carefully everywhere even when nothing was wrong. this doesnt entirely tie to WHY i want to do all the above. its just an observation on one of the things that hold me back too. just staying the same and staying safe. i hardly ever post, and while its something i chose to do its also a 'bonus' to not giving people much things to read off of me and assume from too.

this is getting too long and i think i have my point. idk what im gonna do but im thinking a lot abt how i should take control of my online life.

#sorry this could have been a shorter post but you know me #also. i cant change my username on all my sites either :/ so #my icon has been blank for this reason btw

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twinkrundgren · 8 months

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thoughts on who i am

Who am I?

I'm Cy, and I'm a human I suppose. But I never thought my body, my outward facing image, represented me, or encompassed all of me.

I tend to split myself up into different moods and personas if I need to represent myself. They act out my desires in a way that's me, but separate from myself.

I find it hard to say any one of these representations represents all of me. Cy comes closest as my mascot, but, I never felt like they represented my more human desires. They are a fantasy of being a funky creature and all that comes with it. However, they're my most outward facing representation of myself, so I use them when needed.

Others come in less often. Thistle, my newest fursona, is someone whos still working out the kinks and getting comfortable. He's a self indulgent version of myself I designated for more adult topics I didn't feel comfortable putting myself into. In fact, I find it hard to say he's really myself, but I know that I like to live vicariously through him sometimes.

Edwin is a strange one. He's my OC, but I think about him a lot and frequently play as him in video games. I'm accustomed to thinking like him and sometimes projecting my feelings onto him and, in a way, representing myself through him. Especially through him, I get to play with feminine presentations I don't feel comfortable doing with anyone else. It's hard to let him play though, because Edwin is a very rude and arrogant person and I don't want people to feel hurt when I puppet him. Even in RP situations, I feel like Edwin is on a very short leash of what he's allowed to do because I don't want to upset other people. But, since Edwin is me, I know he doesn't care.

I feel like I'm putting on masks to play different people instead of just being myself. But I am being myself, it's just that I prefer to represent myself in different alter-egos instead of one coherent "self". The Cy that lives in real life is not the Cy I am online and is not the Cy that's silly and goofy and is not the Cy that is Edwin, or Thistle. I don't think about what mask I'm wearing often, I can change on a whim if needed, but when I think about "who I am" I just can't take all of these moods and shove them in one coherent idea of myself.

I feel like some amorphous blob of feelings and thoughts and I pick and choose puppets to enact my force in the world. Unfortunately, the only real puppet I have control over is my own body, and it has baggage and roles that cannot begin to encompass and represent all the things I am. If I could take control of Cytric Acid, or Thistle, or Edwin, whenever I want, I feel like I could truly live as myself.

I'm not sure what this all means. I'm not sure if its healthy to try and find why I feel this way. I don't often feel distressed over these feelings, except when I try and force one mask on when doing another. But, that's not something I force often, since no one notices, including me, most of the time. The most I've ever noticed is… I feel like I need to pick different personas to represent me. There are territories some personalities don't feel right existing and others exist just for certain feelings. I'm not sure if it's because I'm ashamed or dysphoric or I'm just trapped in a world that doesn't let me be free.

Mostly, I just want to know if anyone else feels this way.

#rambles #if you read this id like to know what you think

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gvttergvrden · 1 year

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okay, so

don't read this post unless you want the deepest lore or whatever, i'm going to just ramble and spit nonsense and quite frankly it's going to be unhinged

just scroll past, stranger

so i've been playing a lot of text adventures and thinking a lot and drawing a lot and i've more or less come to the conclusion that my art style is just... rough and raw, and also refined, in some way? which explains me and my fursona pretty well, which i can only imagine is because of, and a kickback to, the decades of trauma overlapped with little smears of hope and comfort, and it's just like...

yes, on some level, i like my artwork, and the fact i had to be shoved in a meatgrinder several times over and discover artists with similar traumas to get a grasp on how to grow despite it -- not because of it -- is something that's just going to stick with me forever, much like most or all of my kinks, which, the more i think on them, have a lot of roots in trauma or avoidance or wish fulfillment and what-ifs and it's this whole fucked up rabbit hole i somehow still still haven't totally mapped out. you then smash that with how girls should be, and especially trans girls, and how people with base their entire perception of a mental illness on one encounter, and you bet your tits that put an indescribable weight on me to be the 'perfect' mentally ill transgirl and so finally letting all those layers crack and peel off and come out unapologetically fucked up and creased over and wrinkled and cracked and me was therapeutic in ways years of self-help and actual psychologists didn't. i set my own bones and licked my own wounds and wore the scars proudly and it was that, and only that, that let me finally heal.

i had to break down every wall and conception and i came out of it absolutely battered and broken and ugly, but happy. if my art, by extension, is too refined yet rough, too expensive, not cuddly and cute enough, or whatever else, that's not on me. it never was on me, as much as others insisted, and i believed.

this is without even getting my gender, or lack thereof, of my physical or mental desires, or so much more. maybe that's for another time.

maybe.

#gwyn rambles #this is gonna be a long one lads #cw: for a LOT of stuff...#probably #i'm tagging before writing

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ponett · 2 years

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curiouscat has been weird lately so i am going to take this opportunity to archive some more SLARPG-related Q&A stuff in case it goes down again. here's a big dump of questions covering a wide range of topics from throughout 2021:

How much Sonic influence would you say SLARPG has?

there's definitely sonic influence, but it's less specific references or even an intentional desire to make something Like Sonic and more just... sonic was the first game series i really got into as a kid. there's probably gonna be some level of sonic influence in everything i make because those games and the archie comics were formative media for me

i started drawing furries because of sonic. melody is a fox because my first fursona started out as a sprite edit of sonic advance tails, and working off of those sprites (as well as mega man 7 ones because i read bob and george) influenced my pixel art style. the wasteland is on a floating island because angel island made me think floating islands were cool - although it's not intended to just be a reference to that, since obviously sonic isn't the only thing with sky islands. i didn't intentionally set out to make a game about colorful anthro characters going on adventures in a world that blends fantasy, sci-fi, and modern earth elements because i wanted it to be Like Sonic, but i probably like that kind of thing in part because of sonic

beyond that kind of thing there's very little in terms of intentional nods to sonic, but i will say that there is one (1) easter egg referencing idw sonic. but you'll have to play the game to find out what it is!!!!!

SLARPG gets a movie with an all a-lister ensemble cast. Who does Jack Black voice?

i can't say because said character is a spoiler

Do you think any members of the zany cast of SLARPG would make good parents/parental role models? Why or why not.

i mean there are multiple characters on the cast who are literal parents. beyond that, jodie and faith would make good parents for sure. and beverly. probably holly too. they've all got that nurturing nature in their own ways while also having their shit more or less figured out

i am normally not invested in shipping but that tiger and unicorn need to kiss more often

i regret not actually having any scenes where jodie and faith interact in the demo but you will be pleased with the full game

is it possible for the different sapient (are they different races or outright different species?) in Reverie to interbreed? Would an Elf/Beastfolk mix have the potential to basically be a kemonomimi?

we don't currently have any hybrid characters in the game, but it's definitely possible. a lot of traditional fantasy creatures would probably just be part beast folk and part elf/whatever on reverie. centaurs, fauns, that sort of thing. and yes, kemonomimi are probably a possibility

(note: this was answered in june, we now have a couple characters that could be considered species hybrids in there)

if you could add one thing to the game, regardless of potential cost or dev time, what would it be?

i've heavily considered adding alternate costumes, but i just don't think it's feasible. given unlimited resources i'd love to go for that. rpg maker's sprite sheet requirements mean that all of the sprites for the party members (their normal walking poses, specific actions, bespoke poses for story scenes, lighting variants, etc.) are split across a bunch of different sheets, and it'd just be a total pain to have to juggle costume variants on top of that. especially when you get into combined sprites for stuff like two characters hugging, which would then need alternate versions for every possible combination of costumes

on future projects, though, when i'm not working under rpg maker's restrictions, i'd love to do alternate costumes

i mean i'd also love for the game to have a full blown anime-ass opening so that it could truly become the shounen anime for sapphic furries that it exists as in my heart, but the costumes are a thing i've thought about a lot

you mentioned implementng ff6s relic system, are you gonna add any kind of deliberately overpowered BS?

i'm trying to keep the charms fairly balanced so that they all feel useful in their own way, but there's an optional one in the late game that you can only find one of that has the potential to be a little broken. if it suits the build style you're going for, anyway

Would Claire eat a hamburger, with no one in Greenridge (or anywhere with a beastfolk heavy population) thinking it's weird?

there is a very clear delineation drawn between beast folk and regular animals on reverie, so in-universe i don't think these sort of things bother anyone. melody is not a literal fox, she is a beast person who looks like a fox, and so on and so forth

but i just kind of avoid touching on that kind of thing because people can get fixated on it. most of the food items in the game are sweets and drinks or vague things like "picnic sets" lol. if i depict any meat it'll probably just be fish or something made up just so people aren't weird about it

Tell Melody that I said her knees are cute n sexy

i will not tell her that

claire would definitely try to run a speedrun of her own video game just to prove she can and to hold a world record for a day or two before its beaten

claire would absolutely do this

you've mentioned that Melody came out when she was 16, but when did Claire's egg crack? at a similar age, or later? pre or post moving to Greenridge?

claire started to figure it out around 16 or so, but it took her a bit longer to come out. the details will come up in the game

As the creator of SLARPG, do you or anyone you know well enough that have already had opinions formed of all the characters, have any headcanons you kept yourself from fully implementing, or scrapped before finalizations? Or maybe just stuff you would never implement but would keep in your head because it didn't for the narrative or was too spicy?

i think it's natural to have lots of little ideas about your own characters that you can't quite fit into the actual story, yeah. although i'm not sure how much of that i'd wanna share here. given the writing style of slarpg a lot of my fun little character ideas make it into the game as optional dialogue and sidequest content and that sort of thing

like i've been asked if the party plays any video games, and if so what, and now allison's got a fightstick in her house for a little extra flavor. or i decided faith would probably read schlocky romance novels in her spare time, and so you can inspect her bookshelf in her office and there's dialogue about finding one of those

Are there dwarves in SLARPG? Are they the type of dwarf where even the cis women have full blown beards?

i won't rule out the possibility that they exist somewhere on reverie, but there aren't currently any in the game. but because of this i can't comment on what they'd be like

Will you release an image of the world map you made (even it if turned out to be a work in progress when you scrapped it) after the game comes out?

i mean the thing is that the overworld was cut so early that it only ever had proper locations for melody's house and greenridge. the rest is just a vague archipelago where i figured i'd stick the other locations later. (and it's not a huge game, so it's not like there'd be that many locations to visit on the overworld - which is the main reason why it got cut)

right now what's left of the scrapped overworld just looks like this

(note: the overworld was cut from slarpg because i chose to make the areas connect directly to each other pretty early on. the assets made for the overworld are now used for other things)

Is there any antagonists happen in SLARPG? I wanna see the boss fights in the game

the game does have villains, and quite a bit of the story revolves around them. to say there's a lot we haven't shown would be an understatement. we're keeping them under wraps for now because i think it'll be more fun for players to discover that side of the game for themselves. you'll see what i mean

folks are gonna like them, though. they're fun

What's the Watsonian reason why beastfolk are part animals? Do they share a close common ancestor to Orcs/Elves/other sapient races? Are they technically primates?

the origins of beast folk and the other sapient species on reverie are kind of foggy in-fiction because of all the business with magic and gods and whatnot. it's unclear what's due to natural evolution and what's the gods being like "hey wouldn't it be cool if our planet had cat people?" all beast folk are technically members of the same mammalian race, though, even the ones that look like birds and reptiles and whatnot. and yes, they're presumably closely related with all the other sapient species

Would Paula and the Fortune Teller get along? I'm envisioning Paula overhearing Allison saying that the guy was a jerk and thinking "well if Goleta doesn't like him there's a chance he ain't that bad"

i had to ask anthony and he says: "I think it'd be one of those things where, no matter when or where you ask him, he'd be like, 'Which one is that?' or 'Who?' and then the person would explain and he'd be like, 'Oh, erm right right, she's good. I like her a lot, she's a great friend.'"

personally i think they would get along but they aren't really Friends. acquaintances though, sure. but also paula would definitely be too scared to get a reading from him

we know about the other 2 but what breed of dog is Holly?

holly is a sheepdog, but anthony only decided on this long after designing her so she doesn't really look like a sheepdog

we built this city but the three cows is just claire in different outfits

this is the secret ending of slarpg

#ask #slarpg #slarpg asks

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soyouareandrewdobson · 3 years

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Dobbear! SYAC: The Master Review 6

I am so going to ruin someone’s childhood with that now, but...

guys, it had to be done!

Dashing and daring…

Courageous and caring!

Faithful and friendly…

With stories to share!

Doesn’t at all apply to this one artist…

Lesbian obsessed and each nerddom’s nightmare!

Dobby BEAR!

Whinning here and there and everywhere!

Making claims that are beyond compare…

This is our Dobby-Bear!

Yeah, if you can’t guess, around now is the time I am going to put down the kids gloves and will really dig into why SYAC is garbage. And a huge factor into this, is in part Dobson’s self insert past 2012.

The existence of the blue bear as Dobson officially calls it (or Dobbear as most people call it) is in my opinion rather baffling already in terms of design choices.

I get e.g. that Dobson wanted to distance himself of his past humanoid self inserts as much as possible. But why of all things a bear?

The fact I am focused on that may sound weird, but hear me out for a bit. For starters, I know that Dobson likes western animation. And seeing how western animation has for the longest time been dominated by anthropomorphic animals, I can understand why he would redesign himself as a funny cartoon animal.

But there are at least three things that feel weird about it. First, Dobson had made it clear in the past that he hates furries. So him actually redesigning himself as an anthropomorphic animal is kinda weird

In fact, Dobson himself acknowledges that realization in one of his strips shortly after his fursona took over.

Second, of all the animals to choose from, why a bear? This question is in so far valid, as that bears are not necessarily one of the first to go animals, furries or western animators tend to go for when designing an anthro. And before any furries or anthro enthusiasts are calling me a hater, let me make one thing clear: I like anthropomorphic cartoon and comic characters too, and am okay with most furries. As long as you don’t have a diaper fetish, are a pedophile or hurt actual animals, you can do and enjoy whatever you like.

But I am also aware enough of furry culture to know, that bear based anthros are most of the time hyper sexualized and muscular, connecting them to how the term “bear” is used in real life gay culture. Which is okay, I think it is just a funny coincidence that Dobson choose an animal, that most furries associate with a life style that Dobson is deeply afraid of, even if he claims to be an LGBT ally.

And as stated earlier, bears are not necessarily the go to animals for animators.

Don’t get me wrong, we all know some cartoon bears like Winnie the Pooh, Yogi Bear, Poh and the main cast of TaleSpin (btw, Kit Cloudkicker fan for life). But lets be honest here; ducks, mice, rabbits, canines, felines, equines and any other “easily to domesticate” animal in the real world tends to make better for easily recognizable cartoon characters than something that can reach a size of 3 meters tops and weigh over 500 pounds.

Truth be told, the pool of cartoon bears is so small, these are the first two things that came to my mind when thinking what may have inspired the Dobbear

And wouldn’t you know? According to Dobson, the Carebears were supposedly the main inspiration for his design.

Unfortunately, this is also more or less the most I could find of Dobson addressing what went into the creation of the character.

Which kinda brings me also to the third issue as why I think the bear redesign is weird; It is too sudden.

One day Dobson draws himself as a shaved 20 something, the next day he is a fedora wearing Carebear clone, likely created and then rejected by Care Bear villain No Heart, as part of a plot to create a mole when conquering Care-A-Lot.

… and now I need to reevaluate my choices in life, that I was able to make such an elaborate Carebear joke.

It is just a change of design that in my opinion should have been addressed either outside of the comic or in context of it. Which it kinda is, but isn’t.

See, this is the first strip with the blue bear

And then only 13 strips or so later in something called “Continuity” is Dobson more or less willing to address the change…

And he does so in a passive aggressive manner, with Persistent Pam as a stand in for those asking him what is going on, while Dobson just dismissively continues working.

On one hand, you can argue that this is just the joke. The change happened, don’t bother with it, just enjoy what is still to come. And you know, I don’t want to make a rope out of everything Dobson ever posted, including that comic.

But then you have also to account for the fact, that Dobson would eventually associate himself with the blue bear so much, he made him his avatar and icon for his comics and online accounts. In fact, that one comic I posted WAY BACK in the first Master post of Dobson reminiscing how he started SYAC?

For reasons that are a bit confusing to me, he redrew himself (badly I have to add) as the blue bear in one of his earliest strips ever. The one where he belittles the manga fangirl for drawing manga. So I have to ask, what is going on here? Has Dobson increasingly decided to reset his past? Does he want to destroy any traces of his “human” self in his work to create the illusion to any new readers, that he never was as controversial of a person as he was and that there never was a need for him to reimagine and reinvent himself? Is this 1984? And how many of you realize that this paragraph is just me going conspiracy nuts for the sake of entertainment?

But still, it is kinda weird that he went to the bother of redrawing his human self in that one background sketch as a bear. Plus, I honestly think Dobson never even attempting to “explain” the change in the pages of his comics is a wasted opportunity for some decent jokes. Like every time Dobson tries to explain why he is a bear now, something interrupts him or we only get fragments of a story that if we put them together would be as ridiculous as the entirety of “Trapped in the Closet”.

I mean, the dumbest joke idea I have in mind is that Dobson went to build a bear to get a present for a family member. Instead he was build into a bear and later on successfully sued the company, which explains why he can afford to live despite not really working on comics anymore but lecture people badly about the evils of nerd culture.

So yeah, three major things about the design choice that more or less confuse me.

But here is the thing: Confusion is nothing compared to feeling genuine disdain for the design at hand. And compared to Dobson’s earlier human designs, Dobbear is just utterly unlikable.

A lot of that boils down to the following three facts:

1. From a certain point in time on (which I will cover in more detail later on) Dobson uses his bearsona primarily as a soapboxing mouth piece to talk about “politics” in nerd culture. Or at least what Dobson perceives as politics, coming off like a condescending jackass who believes among other things that white people are inherently incapable to identify with black people…

… or that comic book shops have radicalized nerd culture, essentially calling them terror cells.

Which btw are so inherently offensive to me, I promise I will cover these two separately. One even sooner than the other.

2. If Dobbear is not talking about politics, he will tend to be a smug asshole to other people (most of the time strawmen) or their interests in one way or another. Being e.g. used by Dobson to express his disdain for criticism…

or to mock legit criticism he had gotten by exaggerating things.

All while also tending to make his critics look like inherent assholes.

These two facts, combined with Dobson’s average erratic behavior online on platforms such as dA, twitter and tumblr over the years, pretty much assured such a close association between the two, that a separation between artist and creation was not possible anymore, condemning them.

And for the record; Dobson was always a bit of a whinner who liked to act as if he was a better nerd than the average comic book fan. Otherwise, we would have not e.g. gotten Danny and Spot out of it.

But as the years went by in the last decade, Dobson turned from someone in his mid 20s, desperate to be seen as a “quirky” and likable internet persona (like certain internet reviewers), into a virtue signaling, lesbian obsessed asshole who likely regrets his life choices.

… Like certain internet reviewers.

But seriously, Dobson turned into someone who would flip the lid at something as ridiculous as Cheeto flavored chicken fries…

While also being just the worst type of condescending nerd….

All while losing his mind about politics. Especially after Donald Trump became president

And just as Dobson became a radicalized left winged jackass who saw politics in everything he consumed, so did by default Dobbear, because Dobbear was not a character with his own personality, but a mouth piece.

Something I am about to get into detail in the near future. But till then, I want to cover in the next post the following third and final fact about Dobbear that really makes him unlikable to me: The fact he can’t be happy.

#syac #Andrew Dobson #dobbear #tom preston #so...you are a cartoonist #review #master review #webcomic #comics

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theapathetickat · 3 years

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Since I'm between jobs right now, I've decided to update my commissions! My previous base illustration was a lot more simplistic in design and pose than my artwork normally is, and my additional character rates were also low to the point where I was almost shortchanging myself if I did anything complicated. This will be my last rate change for a while.

(working again but the rates still stand)

ALL PRICES ARE IN US DOLLARS

LINEART:

Headshot: $5 (additional characters $2.50 each) Half body: $7.50 (additional characters $3.75 each) Knees up: $8 (additional characters $4 each) Fullbody: $9 (additional characters $4.50 each)

FLAT COLORS:

Headshot: $8 (additional characters $4 each) Half body: $10 (additional characters $5 each) Knees up: $11 (additional characters $5.50 each) Fullbody: $13 (additional characters $6.50 each)

SHADED:

Headshot: $14 (additional characters $7 each) Half body: $16 (additional characters $8 each) Knees up: $17 (additional characters $8.50 each) Fullbody: $19 (additional characters $9.50 each)

LINELESS:

Headshot: $17 (additional characters $8.50 each) Half body: $20 (additional characters $10 each) Knees up: $21 (additional characters $10.50 each) Fullbody: $22.50 (additional characters $11.25 each)

CHIBI:

Lineart: $3 (additional characters $1.50 each) Flat colors: $4 (additional characters $2 each) Shaded: $7 (additional characters $3.50 each) Lineless: $8 (additional characters $4 each)

Additional character discount applies for every 5 characters in the illustration/panel. For example, that means if you order an illustration with 5 characters, 4 will be discounted. If you order one with 7 characters, 5 will be discounted.

Complex backgrounds will increase prices by at least $3 depending on level of complexity. Simple backgrounds have no extra charge. An extremely complex character design may likewise raise the price depending on how much additional detail the design has,

Lineless drawings can have a maximum of 10 characters. Complex backgrounds in lineless style will be a $5 minimum extra charge instead of the $3 mentioned earlier

Animals/Pokémon/other non-humanoid fantasy creatures: price varies according to complexity of species. Small, less detailed ones (like cats, dogs and other small-to-medium-sized pets, or Pokémon like Pikachu, Eevee/its evolutions, and Psyduck) would be around the same price as chibis Larger, more complicated creatures such as horses, dragons, and more complicated or legendary Pokémon (think ones with the level of detail as Onix, Rayquaza, or Entei to name a few) would be at least the price of a fullbody character, maybe even more depending on pose and additional features.

FOR COMICS:

Each panel will be treated as its own illustration and characters will be priced accordingly.

Please provide some direction as to how you want the comic to go, such as setting, number of panels, and a general idea of dialogue.

WHAT I WILL NOT DO:

-N S F W/fe ti sh content (especially not with characters under 18 or who are animals!) -Violence/gore -Any kind of hate art -Incest, adult/child or teenager, or abusive/otherwise toxic ships -Shipping involving real people who are alive or existed during any period of history -Or any sort of romantic attractions/relationships between humans and animals -Mecha (nothing against it, it's just I'm not proficient at drawing it) -Creepypasta/Horror stuff

NOTES:

-Complexity of character design or background may increase pricing. -References must be shown for OCs. -If you want to commission a character in a specific outfit, please let me know ahead of time and provide reference if necessary. -Due to lack of demand, I am no longer offering traditional art commissions -Animal Crossing characters/your pets or OCs in Animal Crossing style will count as chibis for pricing purposes -I am OK with drawing anthro animal characters (this includes fursonas!) However, my style will have slightly more realistic faces because I prefer a storybook-like style for these types of characters -I'm also open to drawing fanart of series I haven't already drawn stuff for, within reason. (ask if you're unsure!)

Please PM if you would like to set up a commission!

#commission #commissions open #art commissions open #art commisions #art commission prices #my art #artists on tumblr #animal crossing #chibi commissions

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kitsunerokko · 3 years

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End of Year

So, the short version is it was really bad. It went disastrously. I'm just, so tired. So tired of social security, tired of being poor, tired of having my customized cocktail of mental conditions. I failed everyone in my system as host, and everyone outside of my system as a sadsack money pit.

I did get my name legally changed but idk, to me it feels more like a "formality I want done before I die" kind of thing than anything else. I wish I could be happier about it, but yeah I really am not happy in any sense of the word.

Gonna let c/b take it from here since uhh, she has more to say that I just don't have the energy for.

-rokko

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As you saw above, 2020 did not go well for any of my system, but has hit Rokko especially hard. One of the "failures" she's referring to is the fact that our relationship with gray Folie ended this year. She feels that it's something specific to her that meant it wouldn't work out, and from observing the system since it happened, she is the one who by far took it the hardest.

It's... not easy to gain Rokko's trust, and she was basically head-over-heels by the fact that gray did. But idk... the way I see it, our (as in overall-me-system and gray's-system) love languages tended to get lost on each other a lot. I'm probably the one taking the whole thing the "best" because I valued the friendship aspect of us more than anything, & that's been retained. We’re still friends.

I mean, that's not to say I don't feel sad at all, but I guess, just kind of sad more for gray, and my alters, than for me-specifically. I know Mystery and Rokko have been really missing the affection which I was less into so my impression is that both have far more "daily opportunity" to miss the relationship.

So also like, over the past few months, I've been kind of just suddenly in a co-host/de-facto host role in my system, and I don't particularly like that because I've always never wanted to be host, and have said so multiple times. But with Rokko being a suicidal wreck... well you know, the Japanese have a saying for that "It can't be helped".

Probably the biggest contributing factor to that is I seem to be the only one left with any future wants/goals, what have you. This year I finally worked up the courage to join this Pokémon Fancomic group and did so, and that's been going rather well. Rokko was always kind of ultra-cautious about trying to find new friends for good reasons, but you know, I want what I want I guess.

She and I came to an agreement yesterday regarding this co-host situation, specifically because I do not want to be recognized as host, or have the "final say" privileges. (Selfishly, I don't want that kind of pressure). So like, overall system name will still be Rokko's name, and she's still host with final say. After all, not to sound like a media person, but I love her name & overall "look" (the mega-cute fox fursona and fox pokésona and think it's so much more appealing than my own, so yeah.

Anyway 2021... I hope to get to tell more of my stories, make more of my art, and if the social security stuff finally ends with a positive result, things may be looking up. We've been getting in touch with my Dad again, who's been cool with my name change/gender stuff so might also have some extra "keeping me alive" support potentially?

Let's dive into the future together, everyone!

-c/b

#end of year retrospective #alter stuff #brief suicidal ideation mentions

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earthnashes · 4 years

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This might be a hard question, but what is your favorite character you ever made? (Or if it might be easier for you, what are your characters?)

So, confession time! I... don’t actually have a lot of OCs to my name. o3o I think I have maybe like... 15? A little over that at most. But even less of that number are characters I like, actively use. So, I don’t think it’d be terribly hard to choose a favorite for me! BUT to answer your question properly I’ma just stick with the top 3, though they’re not in any particular order. :3

-KAELA-

This goes for the entirety of the FnF main cast, but I don’t think I’ve ever been so attached to a character of my own making before. It’s very common for me to design a character for a one-off thing before moving on, but the FnF crew, especially Kaela, have been one of the first instances where I had an idea I wanted to explore with my characters, not in a fandom or anything of that sort. I’m invested in creating their world and developing them as characters, but Kaela probably takes the biggest slice of that cake, if only just. I got a lot of ideas for her I really wanna share with ya’ll so I’m excited to do more with her!

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-BITRA THE BOAR-

So for those of you who’ve followed me for a while would know that I’m a huge gamer, and one of my all-time favorite multiplayer games is For Honor. This is pretty common for me and my friends, but whatever multiplayer game we play where we create a character, we usually give that character some backstory and lore. Bitra’s quite possibly my most consistent character of this make. So the short version of her backstory: each of our characters are chosen by gods to be their acting Champion. Bitra is a viking warrior chosen by the God of Fire, and said god granted her the boon of fire, strength, and rebirth (pseudo immortal; when she dies her body engulfs in flames before she is reborn from the remnants of her ashes, like a phoenix).

I love her uwu

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-BOOF BEAR-

Not quite a character so much a mascot, but I love her anyway! This here is Boof. Boof the Bear. She likes strawberries and playing video games and is quite possibly the closest I’ll ever get to having a fursona/persona/whatever-sona character. I don’t actually use the character outside of giving a face for stuff like banners and business cards (like she’s literally just a mascot), but I really enjoy her design so there’s that.

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sammysdewysensitiveeyes · 4 years

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Today I started thinking about what thecorteztwins’ Alt-Marauders would be like as cats, because that’s a good use of my time. Imagining the fursonas of comic book characters. And I don’t mean characters from the musical, I mean actual house cats. So I typed it up and now you all have to look at it. Breeds are based either on the character’s appearance or their personality (ex. Shinobi is Siamese because they are very vocal and demand attention, Sebastian as Maine Coon because they are big and furry).

Sebastian:

(This one looked sufficiently grumpy)

A mixed breed, but most prominently Maine Coon – he is big and hairy, with a long, thick coat, brown, grey and black tabby. Indoor-outdoor cat. Was born a stray, but spent many years as a factory cat, fed and cared for by employees because he kept the plant free of mice and rats. After the plant closed down, he wandered around, at one point siring Shinobi. His “owner” (not that Sebastian could ever be “owned” by anyone), began leaving out bowls for food for him, and eventually he deigned to venture inside the house. After all, it was warm and dry, free from predators, and had lots of soft places to sleep. Although he was willing to come inside, he was not willing to stay inside – a very independent cat, Sebastian insists on coming and going as he pleases. He roams outside and will sometimes disappear for two or three days at a time, but always returns. Unbeknownst to his owner, he actually has a few different houses that consider him to be “their” cat, as he will show up to eat whatever food they leave out. (Why attach himself to just one house when he gets food from several? It’s only logical). He’s not a very playful, vocal or affectionate cat. He won’t attack at random, but anyone picking him up, or petting him the wrong way will get bitten or clawed. If he is in an extremely mellow, sleepy mood, he may allow his owner to scratch his head and under his chin. He likes to believe that he dominates the house when he’s inside, but that’s actually Haven. At most, Sebastian just smacks down St. John and Shinobi when they get too rowdy. Madelyne will stand up to him, and he leaves Haven and Claudine alone. He has a favorite chair, ornate, expensive, and beautifully upholstered, and will plant himself right in the middle of it when he is inside. He is a ruthless and efficient hunter, although he doesn’t really need to do it. He spends most of his time wandering through the house and neighborhood like a king surveying his territory. Outside he mates with any female cat he runs across, inside Haven won’t let him touch Maddie or Claudine, so he just perches on his chair silently judging everyone.

St. John:

Mixed breed, short-haired orange tabby, scrawny with long legs and big ears. Originally a stray, spent some time “working” as a ship’s cat before eventually being adopted. Boisterous and energetic, an indoor-outdoor cat that needs lots of activity to be content. Shreds curtains, climbs the Christmas tree, knocks things off shelves (accidentally), loudly bounds around the house at 3 AM, jumps up on the TV stand to bat at the screen when someone plays a video game. Most likely to be featured in a viral Youtube video missing a jump or crashing into the wall. Too loud, clumsy and impatient to be a good hunter, but will proudly bring home “trophies” when he actually manages to catch something. He and Shinobi routinely chase each other around the house, play-fight, and sleep curled up together. Sometimes clashes with Sebastian, and the two will have to be separated. Also clashes with neighborhood cats, and will eventually get locked-in at night to avoid that. Not much of a “lap-cat,” and doesn’t care to be picked up, but enjoys being petted, and will voluntarily snuggle up to his owner on the couch. (Don’t touch his belly, though. That is a trap). Will nip and bat at hands, but is mostly play-biting, and will only bring the claws out if he is really frightened. Very friendly and curious, will come right up to strangers, and will follow his owner through the house and poke his nose into whatever they are doing. Even the bathroom is not safe, he’ll hop right into the shower. A very chatty cat, not as demanding as Shinobi, but he’ll meow back whenever a human speaks to him, and purrs like a motorboat. Likes to sleep in patches of sunlight wherever he finds them.

Madelyne:

Mixed breed, a short-haired calico, the smallest of the group. Had a comfortable life with a family, but was callously abandoned during a move. Went through several bad experiences as a stray, which left her skittish and unfriendly. Like Sebastian, the owner had to lure her in from outside with food, and it took even longer in Madelyne’s case – for several weeks she would bolt at the sight of people. Slowly, very slowly, the owner got her to warm up to them, and eventually she began venturing inside the house. It took even longer to for her to concede to being petted without lashing out and running away. However, once she began to feel safe and regain her sense of trust, she proved to be a very affectionate and loving cat. The owner still tries to avoid picking her up (unless absolutely necessary) or startling her, but she will willingly crawl into their lap. She dislikes strangers, and will generally hide whenever anyone else is at the house, but may eventually come out if the new person is there for several days. She especially likes hanging out in card board boxes or underneath tables, where she can watch everything but still feel secure. She also clashed with the other cats when she first arrived, especially St. John and Shinobi, who were too boisterous for her. But she quickly realized that they were not going to hurt her (even faster than she did with the human), and she now regularly plays with them. As her confidence grows, she can be adventurous as St. John, but not nearly as much of a dumbass. She is much more graceful, and manages to run around without crashing into things or knocking things over. She enjoys roaming around the house with Claudine, and cuddling up to Haven, and even manages to get along with Sebastian. She is the only cat besides Haven that can get away with smacking Sebastian around. She is fierce, but also extremely loving. Sometimes at night she will wander around in the dark meowing in a kind of mournful wail, as if she is looking for something that she lost. But if the owner calls her name, she will run back to join them. Although originally indoor-outdoor, she ventures outside much less than she used to, and tends to stay close to the house. She’s found a safe, happy place where she is loved, so why would she want to go anywhere else?

Shinobi:

His mother was a purebred Siamese, and his looks resemble her the most – long, slender and elegant, with cream and brown coloring. Was raised in a rich household, and was given every luxury, but his owners saw their cats as essentially decorations and status symbols, so he wasn’t given much affection. Eventually given up for adoption because his demands for attention became inconvenient. He is the absolute diva of the household, and he is loud. Mostly likely to lay across the owner’s keyboard, book, puzzle, video-game controller, etc. When not given sufficient attention, he will deliberately knock things off tables and shelves, jump up on the TV stand and block the view, meow at the top of his lungs. Constantly underfoot, but wails like a banshee if he gets stepped on. Indoor cat only, he tried going out through the cat door one hot summer day, and immediately fled back inside, for air conditioning, soft cushions to lie on, and his cat-fountain water dish. He doesn’t hunt – why bother when food comes so easily? He only accepts the best in toys, food and treats. Extremely affectionate, he will lay across any available lap, and cuddle up to the owner while sleeping (or lay across their face). He is eager to be petted anywhere, and will only protest if the person doing the petting is too rough or awkward. He rarely bites or claws people, he just meows or runs away if upset, usually pausing to look back at the offending party like, “How could you?” He usually hides from strangers initially, letting St. John be the friendly welcoming committee, but once he sees that it is safe, he will come out and flop down at people’s feet, expecting them to lavish affection on him. Tries to follow St. John around the house at night, but sometimes gets “stuck” in high places or gets lost in the maze of furniture, and will wail until he is rescued. Shamelessly steals food off his owner’s plate. Once nearly drowned getting his head caught in a glass of water. Will never sleep on the floor – only couches, beds, cushions, and his luxury cat bed.

Claudine:

Mixed breed, pure white short-hair. Indoor-outdoor. Was used in unscrupulous medical experiments, but managed to escape out an open window. Much like Madelyne and Sebastian, she had to be lured in with food, and eventually comes to see the owner’s house as a safe place. She doesn’t really lash out the same way Madelyne does, but she doesn’t become very affectionate either. She will endure petting by the owner, and will simply walk away when she loses patience, rather than biting or scratching (but she will scratch if threatened). Very mysterious, she frequently disappears for hours on end, but reappears very quickly when food is served. The owner has never been able to find her hiding spots, but it seems like she is never very far away. She wanders silently around the house at night, like a ghost or a shaft of moonlight. She is a much better hunter than St. John, as she is patient and quiet. She only clashes with the other cats if they get too aggressive, but is otherwise indifferent to them. She seems to enjoy Haven and Maddie’s presence, and will sometimes walk around with Maddie or sleep curled up next to her. She doesn’t tolerate strangers at all, and will make herself invisible when anyone else is at the house. When feeling comfortable, she likes to sit at the top of the stairs and observe everything happening around her. At her most affectionate, she might jump up onto the bed while the owner is sleeping, and curl up at the foot.

Haven:

A purebred Ragdoll, she is huge and extremely fluffy, with a brown and white fur pattern. Was a pampered show cat for many years, but was given away for adoption after her retirement (after she was no longer useful to her owners, in other words). Strictly indoor. As with many Ragdolls, her personality is extremely relaxed, affectionate and calm. Although St. John, Shinobi and Madelyne can all be very affectionate, Haven is the most patient. She easily puts up with toddlers and small children pulling her tail and lugging her around (generally just going limp in their arms). She never bites or scratches – at most she will cry out and run away if someone hurts her. A lap cat, she will lay on her owner for hours, purring contentedly, but also never seems to get jealous or upset when put aside. She does not loudly demand attention, she will just quietly snuggle up to the owner or any other person in the house whenever possible. She gets along extremely well with all the other cats, and was the first one that Madelyne accepted. Although never violent, she is the undisputed matriarch of the household. She will hold down and groom any other cat, even Sebastian, who will growl softly as he puts up with it. Her grooming is often a way of breaking up fights, or settling down the wilder cats like Madelyne and St. John. When she’s not cuddling with people, she sits curled up and stares into space, looking oddly wise and serene. Her favorite spot is a back windowsill where she can see out into the backyard, and the other cats tend to keep it clear for her. She enjoys watching the birds, but never seems interested in harming them. She doesn’t hunt at all, and will treat any small rodent that enters the house like her own kitten.

Special bonus: Fabian Cat-tez.

All of Shinobi and St. John’s bad characteristics, combined and amplified. He’s always on the wrong side of every door, but doesn’t have any of the Rum Tum Tugger’s swagger, and only wishes he could rule the neighborhood like Sebastian. Whenever he does something stupid, he will stalk away and angrily start grooming himself, pretending nothing happened. In fact, he spends more time grooming himself than any of the other cats in the household. Big floofy orange tabby.

Btw, I realize that it’s generally better for cats to be kept indoors, both to protect them from danger and protect local wildlife from their murder sprees. But I couldn’t imagine some of the Alt-Marauders as indoor cats. Let’s just assume the owner is trying to transition them all inside.

#thecorteztwins cinematic universe #I can't believe felt the need to type this up #housecat au for x-men characters #this is ridiculous and I am weirdly obsessed

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elazul-sasayaki · 3 years

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😍💋💕✋🍩🍰👅😈⬆️⬇️🔴👕👐☀️ɷ💣⏰○Ѡ👂🐳👉👈🍭🍫🍔🍕🔃♾ Have fun~

Hooo, boy, that’s a lot. o.o Right then, Let’s.. Let’s see if I ave the strength to go through the whole thing, haha. Long post warning.

😍 : Well, definitely feels weird having folks tell me I’m cute for some reason, but I will always appreciate it. Like I read in a comic once, maybe when we don’t see ourselves as attractive it’s just because we’re not our own type, you know?

💋 : I will be very shy if you try this. Cheek smooches I might be okies with, heh.

💕 : Cuddles are always good! Though I personally dun think I’m fat enough for a proper cuddle, hehe.

✋ : Not too hard, please. :3 Though, I am still a little hesitant about this kinda ‘affection’, heh.

🍩 : Mmm, yes, please, I need as much help as I can get fattening up, and having someone else get my stomach nice and stuffed...

🍰 : I hate to say, but am not really that into mutual feeding/gaining, as body contrast is very much a thing for me... Though, having someone already plenty plump wanting to fatten me up even bigger than themselves would be awesome too.

👅 : Oof... I’m... I’m not too comfortable with this one, honestly. For a few reasons, honestly.

😈 : I appreciate the sentiment, but barring some extremely specific cases, this one is a no-go. I am ace, after all :D

⬆️ : No feeding quite like a force-feeding, yeah? Tell me now and then just how fat you’re gonna get me, and tease me with how little say I get sometimes, hehe. ~.~

⬇️ : Unfortunately, not gonna happen, if only because I don’t have the necessary mindset for it. I can get a bit mean with my teasing, but that’s about as close as I can get.

🔴 : Hrm... Any foods in particular you’d like to do this with? :3

👕 : Gonna be a challenging task for you, these clothes were already slightly baggy when I got them, and I was 60lbs heavier at the time. I do have a lovely, tight, stretchy black shirt I would love some help fattening out of, though.

👐 : Honestly? Have never experienced having someone else rub my belly... I want the first time to be when I’m -PAINFULLY- stuffed, though.

☀️ : I can only assume this one was supposed to be “ ☉ “, as it’s not on the list otherwise, but ye, it is a nice belly, needs some proper tending to and fattening, hehe.

ɷ : If you mean my fursona’s, yeah, people do make it a lovely sight, hehe... If you mean RL me, well, I don’t think I’ve really shown it off much at all, maybe one or two side-views...

💣 : On the verge, please, and no further, I love the risk, not going all the way... Though I’d be lying if I said the thought of being fattened up fast enough that I look ready to burst if I so much as breathe too deeply didn’t send me all a-tingle.

⏰ : I’ll be honest... Would probably be either boring, or a plain ol’ hangout kinda night, albeit hopefully with a lot of food. You better make sure I wake up still too stuffed to move. :3

○ and Ѡ : Yes, exactly, especially the latter, I miss the butt I had in highschool, too bad it requires exercise... Passive exercise but exercise none-the-less.

👂 : I don’t really have any naughty ones, but if you -really- wanna hear some of my more intense ones, got a good few in my Kink Stuff tag.

🐳 : Better be prepared to not stuff fattening me up if you do, if I can’t move, I likely won’t have much else to keep me occupied beyond eating and eating and eating... If I actually do go that far, we better aim for the top, make it take decades for anyone else to break my record weight.

👉👈 : MEEP!

🍭 : I mean... You’ve... You’ve probably read that one post of mine... I... mmmph... Yes please.

🍫 : Probably the only way I can spoil someone if by just being too much cuteness for them, or their perfect ‘little’ fatty to keep growing to their heart’s content... Other than that, I probably wouldn’t be much good at pampering or spoiling anyone else myself.

🍔🍕 : Slob, unfortunately, is very much not my thing. Light messy eating, maybe, but only because it leads to the intimacy of having my feeder gently wipe the food from my face while I recover from just how packed they got me.

🔃 : As I said earlier, I am... not too into mutual gaining. Mostly been turned off to it by how often I am approached by people who, despite seeing I’m a gainer/feedee myself, -lead- their kink-related conversations with them wanting me to feed them. When -nowhere- in how they found me even remotely implies that I’d be into that. Sorry.

♾ : All depends on how I feel, but until I find my limits, I will assume I have none myself. ~.~

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angelofthequeers · 4 years

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Hold Me By Both Hands: Chapter 35

Disclaimer: I don’t own ML.

Technically today's chapter, just being posted in conjunction with the last because we had no power yesterday.

Chapter 34 | Chapter 36 | AO3 link

“Yes! Yes! Look this way!” the photographer cries, snapping photo after photo of Adrien down in the Trocadéro Square. Adrien. Handsome, rich, perfect Adrien, who’s going to be Lila’s whether he knows it or not.

Ugh. Lila deserves an award for sucking up to his friends for this long, especially since they still seem quietly suspicious of her. Not suspicious enough to exclude her or call her out, which is a good sign, but…after so many years of honing her craft, Lila can sniff out bullshit and falseness like she’s got a sixth sense for it. And Adrien’s friends are most definitely at least a little fake around her.

Especially Marinette Dupain-Cheng. Ugh, that perfect brat. When will Adrien get the hint that she’s not into him and stop chasing after her like a lovesick puppy? And to add insult to injury, he doesn’t even do anything to try and win her over. It’s like he’s content to be in the friendzone forever. Honestly, if he wasn’t rich and influential and good-looking, Lila wouldn’t even bother.

Finally, the photoshoot is done, and Adrien’s heading for the stairs up to where Lila’s sitting on the low stone railing, watching from above. She lets her lips curve into a small smile. Perfect. Now she’ll get Adrien all to herself, with no friends around to run interference and foil her plans –

“Lollipop!” a deep voice howls. Lila almost falls off the railing when a purple-black mass on the stairs below her starts to grow, shooting up, forming a gigantic baby in a purple onesie, with poisonous green eyes.

“A baby? Really?” Lila scoffs. “No wonder Hawkmoth hasn’t won yet.”

In the chaos caused by the baby akuma, Lila almost loses sight of Adrien as he ducks and weaves through the crowd. But Lila’s not letting her prey get away that easily. She follows him, heading down the stairs but melting into the panicking mess so that he doesn’t see her, and her brow furrows when he ducks behind one of the sides of the Trocadéro, out of sight of his bodyguard and the panicking crowd. What the hell is he doing?

“…just about to take a cheese break!” a scratchy voice is whining when Lila flattens herself against the perpendicular side of the Trocadéro.

“Aww, don’t be such a baby, Plagg!” Adrien says. Lila chances a peek around the corner. What. The. Heck. “Besides, the quicker this is wrapped up, the quicker we can go and see Marinette and you can get your cheese buns!”

“Ugh, don’t pretend you care about me,” says the little floating black cat. “You just wanna go make out with your girlfriend.”

What?

“Plagg, claws out!” a red-faced Adrien says. He’s enveloped in a flash of bright green light, which fades to reveal…Chat Noir. The leather-clad superhero unslings his baton and takes off running after the akuma, leaving a wide-eyed Lila to sort through everything she’s just learned.

So. Adrien is Chat Noir. And Marinette is his girlfriend. Well, Chat Noir’s girlfriend technically, which explains why Adrien hasn’t been fussed about pursuing Marinette as himself. Although it’s rather satisfying to be right about what a snake Marinette truly is, snatching Adrien from Lila even without knowing, it’s a bitter pill to swallow. Chasing Adrien won’t work, and Lila isn’t silly enough to think that she can get away with slipping little rumours about cheating here and there. Not when Marinette’s always been suspicious of her.

She can’t blackmail Adrien into dating her under threat of exposing him, either. That kind of thing never works out, and the last thing she wants to do is establish herself as an enemy of not only Adrien but the superheroes of Paris. If she messes with Chat Noir, there’s no doubt in her mind that she’ll also have to deal with Ladybug, Rena Rouge, Carapace, and Honeybee. No, to get Adrien, he has to willingly fall into her arms, or at least have no idea that she’s pulling the strings. And to do that?

Well, she’ll have to destroy his girlfriend, won’t she?

“Excellent job on the test yesterday, class!” Ms Bustier says when the bell rings for the end of class. “But before you all go…Marinette, could you bring your schoolbag to me, please?”

The confusion on Marinette’s face as she takes her bag to the front is a delight for Lila to behold. Sure, this plan might be a little extreme, but even if it doesn’t work, it’ll still give her extremely valuable information as to how far she can push to ruin Marinette. If she goes too hard, after all, people will grow suspicious, especially because Marinette is sickeningly beloved by all of them and Lila’s previous efforts to ever so subtly undermine Marinette have gone less than stellar.

“Today, someone placed an anonymous note in my mailbox, claiming that you’d stolen the test answers,” Ms Bustier says. She reaches into Marinette’s bag and pulls out the sheet of paper, and everyone else gasps. Lila hopes that hers isn’t too exaggerated. “And it looks like the anonymous person was right about the answers being in your bag!”

“But that’s not true!” Marinette bursts out. “Someone must have planted that paper!”

“And why would Marinette keep the answers?” Alya says loudly. “If it was me, I’d have thrown them away as soon as the test was done.”

“Besides, Marinette doesn’t need to cheat to get good marks,” Adrien adds. “She always does really well on tests.”

“This is so terribly unlike you, Marinette!” Lila says. “What could be going on?”

“Lila’s right,” Max says. “The chances of Marinette cheating are less than –”

Ms Bustier holds up a hand, and the class falls silent. The teacher’s eyes scan the whole classroom, lingering on each face, and Lila makes sure to school her features into complete innocence and bewilderment when Ms Bustier looks at her.

“What’s beyond me,” Ms Bustier says, “is why this anonymous person didn’t come forward until today. Why didn’t this person out Marinette before the test was taken? Plus, the answers were on my desk yesterday after the test, and I clearly saw Marinette walk past with Alya. So, however this paper ended up in her bag, it’s highly unlikely that it was her. Marinette, you can sit down.”

Marinette’s shoulders slump in relief as she takes her bag back to her seat. Ms Bustier’s eyes are hard as they once again sweep around the room, as though hoping to make the culprit squirm and give themselves away. But Lila’s been playing this game for far too long, and there’s no way she’ll be outed by some softie teacher.

“I strongly urge the culprit to come forward,” Ms Bustier says. “Whether it was a prank gone wrong or a deliberate, malicious attempt to get your class representative in trouble, your punishment will be far less severe if you own up now. However, if I have to take it further…”

Pfft. Let her. Lila knows what she’s doing. No fingerprints on the paper and no witnesses who definitively saw her swipe it. The only way Lila would be caught is if she came out and said it. At least now she knows that she can’t tarnish Marinette’s goodie two shoes reputation…but maybe she can sow the seeds against someone else and have a little fun.

“I’m so sorry, I don’t mean to be accusing,” Lila says. “But isn’t there already a person in this class with a motive? Someone with a grudge against Marinette?”

“If you’re talking about me –” Chloé starts, just as predicted.

“Chloé,” Marinette says with a significant look. Chloé huffs and falls silent. Interesting. Is Chloé now cosying up to perfect princess Marinette? “I know it wasn’t Chloé. For one, she was out of the room before Alya and I left. And for another, she’s been putting in a real good effort to change. I know she wouldn’t mess up like this.”

“Your faith in me is touching,” Chloé drawls, though her pink cheeks and the way her eyes soften ever so slightly takes any sting out of her words.

“Oh.” Lila looks down at her desk, making sure to look as small and pathetic as possible. “I’m sorry, Marinette. I guess I just wanted to get to the bottom of who was framing you…”

“It’s okay,” Marinette says. Ha. Sucker. “But throwing around accusations won’t help. I learned after Rogercop that you can’t just accuse people without proof.”

“Thank you,” Chloé huffs.

“This matter will be taken further,” Ms Bustier says. “And when we find the guilty party, their punishment will be more severe for not coming forward in the first place. Class dismissed.”

Okay, so it looks like it’ll be harder than Lila thought to take down Marinette. But no matter. If destroying her reputation won’t work, then destroying Marinette herself will have to suffice, and it will be oh so satisfying for Lila to watch Marinette crumble before her. Even if she’ll have to prune some of his more…undesirable parts, like his fursona and knack for puns, Adrien Agreste will be hers. One way or another.

#miraculous ladybug #ml fic #aotq fic #aotq: hold me #lila rossi #anti-lila #lila sucks #ugh #adrien agreste #chat noir #marinette dupain-cheng #alya cesaire #caline bustier #chloe bourgeois #gigantitan #episode: ladybug #one-sided identity reveal #rip adrien

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praise post for furry fandom lmao i’m feeling nostalgic today

when i was a kid and i had literally no friends to talk to in my daily life and felt continually ostracised and alone, i turned to the internet and found out people shared art with each other (through dA) and then through art circles i found out about furries, made my first fursona (a grey wolf with blue hair) and immediately was made to feel welcome and included and like i was part of a group of friends. like instantly. all i did was post a drawing of my fursona’s design and people were like “oh cool a new friend :D” and boy oh boy! thinking back, i had never had that before ever.

also worth noting: i can’t speak to any experience but my own, but i was lucky in that the adults who happened to be in the circles i was in were really responsible and taught us younger kids about internet safety and respecting each other. i was like 10 or 11 and i asked an 18 year old if i could visit them and they were like “absolutely not, no offense” and while my kid-brain was upset at the time, i’m grateful for that reaction to this day

the others my age were friendly and inclusive and we all drew each other’s characters and praised each other’s work and did art trades and roleplayed as wolves and shit. it was great

at some point i also went looking for more furry content and role-playing stuff and i found F//urcadia which at the time was booming. (i don’t remember where Furc came in. possibly predated dA? i know i was playing it SUPER young).

anyway it had communities, chat, art, creativity, roleplaying, map-making, programming, basically it was a game where you could do literally anything and i was thrilled. i installed it on the family computer, noodled around with it for a bit to see if i liked it (i absolutely did) and then showed my parents what it was and how it functioned, got the lecture on being safe online... and went about having the absolute time of my life there for the next, what, 8 years?

once again i was welcomed straight away wherever i roamed in-game and i had some absolutely wild times roleplaying as anthros, feral wolves/cats/dragons/rabbits/sparkle-animals with wings, whatever the hell a kid brain could think of.

sadly it’s really empty nowadays so i can’t say there’s much point joining unless you want to walk around in a mostly-empty world (sorry, Furc, but it’s true especially if you’re in a non-american timezone...devs please dear god advertise it or do SOMETHING, spend less on candles your game is dying etc etc) but it’s still chugging along and i go back there sometimes and noodle around and remember the good old days

ANYWAY tl;dr furry fandom was the only positive social interaction in groups that i had for most of my formative years and if you generalise and say you “don’t like furries” then i don’t like you :^)

edit: oh and yeah of course there are shitty people in furry circles. think of any other fandom youve heard of and now rinse and repeat. it’s our job as members of our respective communities to weed out the scum when we see them and we ALL have to shoulder that when interacting with any fandom. it’s not special to furries and i think people know this but it’s, i guess, funny or something to pick on furries specifically because they were the butt of most jokes for certain imageboards back in the day and we’re still living in those echoes. if you genuinely think furries are problematic by concept just go read a fucking book or something instead of getting within 30 miles of me

#gm furmative #gmtxt

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1, 2, 5, 6, 9, 21, 25 ;DDD

1. what song makes you feel better?

You ever just forget every song? Idk, let's go with Get Better by Frank Turner because it was an Important Song during a Very Dark Time. A bunch of songs on the Undertale soundtrack are also good feel-good songs. And Mika's No Place In Heaven album.

I feel like there's one that's very important, that I've been listening to a lot lately, that I'm missing, but alas, it's gone into the mind void.

2. what's your feel-good movie?

Zootopia and Inside Out are the first that come to mind. Also The Secret of NIMH, though that's less feel-good and more nostalgic? I just love me some animated movies. like if u cry evrytime

5. who do you feel most you around?

YOU KNOW WHO

...it's you, you goof

6. say three nice things about yourself (three physical and three non-physical).

Oh, evil.

For physical, I like my hair color, my eyebrows, and ehhh either my jawline or my height? It's a very androgynous height to be and I Like That!!!

For non-physical, I think I'm pretty dang good at art (lighting, especially), I'm adventurous/love to try new things, and uhhh I try to be kind/people tell me I'm drama-free, at least.

9. what calms you down?

PRESSURE, like, physical pressure - I'm a dog that needs to wear a thundervest, basically. Also, going for nice drives? Being in nature. Lighting this really great crackly candle I have.

In lieu of all that, uh, time, I guess.

21. if you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?

IT'S TIME TO GET SAPPY!

You're not possessed, nor are you destined to die by your own unwilling-but-desperate hands. You have a dissociative disorder, and there's actually a lot of people who do, so stop with the fretting about how you're so weird and mentally damaged that there's no hope for you. In a few years you're gonna find out some things that click, and are scary, but you're also gonna find help and learn how to work with your brain and there's still really bad days but it's nowhere near as hopeless anymore.

You're gonna meet the love of your life and pet so many dogs and draw and do dumb furry shit and life gets a lot better, and even though part of you is still convinced you're evil, you have to keep trucking through it, because the future is bright. It's gonna be ok fam.

25. what’s the best personal gift someone could give you (playlist, homemade card, etc.)

Is this some kind of sly --

… Honestly, I'm furry garbage and the way to my heart is through Drawings Of My Fursona. Or any of my OCs actually. Also, food and baked goods. Come into my room and hand-feed me cookies. Please, I don't want to leave the house...

Shit, though, I dunno about specifics. I like soft things and I like having physical things to hold. The thought of someone Making Me Something just warms my freaking heart, man.

#i have no concept of not rambling for these answers #have fun #cozyastronaut #ask #personal

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