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i-cant-handle-change · 3 years

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I'm eager to talk about my Au’s instead of drawing them again-

’The Wired’ Au

Gotta love twisting reality to make up this Au.

This is a depressing Au ngl, besides all the mind fucks it has within it has a lot of desperation in it.

Izuku is trying to find his mother who has been lost within The Wired and there are people out there to get him.

More preferably The Knights and Nine and his gang. Gotta include Nine in too, loved his character in the movie and if you watched Serial Experiments Lain you might know who he’ll play as.

Oh, and Izuku’s dad wants to vault him

Nothing like good old DFO to add on to the already depressing Au am I right?

I’ll write and draw snippets of the Au soon enough but it’ll come off as strange and convoluted. But thats like the norm in the anime I based it on so once again mind fucks all around.

Bakugo is going to get ✨paranoid✨ in this Au. One moment he sees Izuku as a villain, the other as a cutesy extrovert wearing pastels, and the other as what he was after the fatal ’swan dive’. It's going to mess with him a lot and the fact that Izuku flat out told him he was the cause of all of this isn't helping him at all.

Does Inko ever get found by Izuku in The Wired?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

This Au is like a pinata, I bash on it and possibilities pour out of it like candy. There are too many and some look the same yet are very different, I don't know, that's the Au in a nutshell.

Also white-haired Izuku. That's it just white-haired Izuku.

’Itch’ Au

Oh yeah, this one is my favorite, and all I can think about-

Izuku has the All for One quirk and he doesn't know that yet the quirk is sentient and slowly starts to take over Izuku’s life.

Some DFO sprinkled in because of angst.

I just love the idea of sentient quirks and by far the AFO quirk just radiates chaotic evil energy and I’m living it. Once it awakens, (it was kept at bay until Izuku finally activated it at the sludge monster incident where All Might and many people saw the event with their own eyes) it’s just dead set on causing so much chaos.

But with how adorable Izuku is the quirk can't just help but groom him into his ideals and make him his new vessel. This is middle school Izuku who just got his quirk and he's still young so the quirk has all the time he needs to shape him how he wants to be.

Izuku is scared, no kidding, he still doesn't understand his quirk very well and why it's sentient in the first place. All he knows is that when it’s near he gets chills down his spine and has the unfortunate hunger of taking more quirks. He's learning to control it though and the more he does the more he spends in this so-called ’landscape’ with his quirk.

It's strange, scary sure, but he feels compelled to know more about this quirk he’s acquired. It claims that it’ll help Izuku when he's at his lowest point and by the looks of it he is at his lowest point. Izuku could deny it but the quirk knows Izuku, it’s been with Izuku for so long that it might as well know more about the teenager than the teenager knows about himself.

It knows about his life. The unfairness and treatment he’s been through for nearly a decade because of his ’quirklessness’. The pain, the bullying, the mistreatment, the scowls, the pity, the unspeakable acts acted onto this child because he did not have a quirk.

”I can help you, little one.”

It said with that trademark toothy smile.

”I can help you make those who have harmed you bow and cower at your very feet!” It exclaimed, raising its arms for effect.

”You have the power to make them quirkless! You have the power to make them weak, pathetic, completely worthless to a society dependent on quirks for survival! You have the power to overcome all those heroes and villains that reign this small world!”

Izuku’s only fourteen, he can't handle all this pressure alone, let alone handle the guilt of taking away quirks from other people. Even if they hurt him in his past he could never forgive himself for committing such an act.

Izuku was too busy thinking to himself that he flinches when he's brought into a suffocating hug, two long arms wrapping around his body like snakes. He acts fast, bringing his now visible arms up to push the quirk away but it was too strong.

Its laughter rang through the landscape.

”You can make anyone follow your orders with the power you hold, little one. You have the power to make them all pay for what they all did to you. Don't you think it’s time that they get a taste of their own medicine?”

’No!’ Izuku wanted to say, still struggling within he tightening hold. ’I don’t want to hurt anyone!’

”But you’ve already had.”

Izuku paused.

”How many quirks have you taken so far because of your hunger? Two? Five? Ten?! All of them taken and it's barely been a few months, little one, and the consequences were just tragic!”

Izuku struggled some more.

’I didn't mean to! I didn't know how to use my quirk properly! I want to give them back but I don't know how to do it right!’

”All those delinquents sent to the hospital, I can't say that isn't normal for children like them but the others... People will start turning heads! They’ll start to look around, rumors will spread, people will talk, they will start to get scared, and soon all those heads will turn towards you...”

’NO!’

”Think about it, everyone will now call you a villain! It doesn't matter what you’ll say they’ll all just point fingers at you and screech out ’VILLAIN’ and run away in fear of your presence! Children will think of you as a monster, children your age will start to avoid you like the plague, parents will take their children and run away from you, heroes will arrest you for illegal quirk usage, and your mother...”

Its grip tightened around Izuku, if Izuku could he would be screaming by now.

”What would your poor dear stressful mother think of you? Oh, she would start to blame herself, she’ll start to think that she gave birth to a demon that only spreads bad luck wherever it goes! All because of your quirk...”

It losses its grip on Izuku who was opening crying by this point, he raises his hands to his face, trying to cover his reddening face.

The quirk before Izuku simply crouched down to the teenager’s height, its smile still hadn't gone away. It raised its broad hands to Izuku’s face, carefully moving his hands away to brush away his tears. It waits a few minutes for Izuku to calm down, its hands on the teenager’s shoulders so that he wouldn't run away. As for Izuku could run away, his feet still hadn't been formed yet and all he could do was either stand up or lay down for anything to happen.

”But you don't have to go through all of that, little one, you’re still too young and your future is still too bright. It only makes sense to tie loose ends that could damage your future so that it won't worry you anymore. For instance, that boy, Naito Susumu, he was the first student that you’ve taken their quirk away, right?”

Izuku nodded his head, the memory still haunts him.

”Well, I can tell he would want it back, for all anyone knows he’s having a fit much like all teenagers do as they grow. Not using their quirk is one of them and he is a delinquent so I can tell that his quirk is what earned him his place to be different from the others. He’ll want it back, of course, but standing around and waiting for something to happen won't do.”

”You have to come up to him yourself, Izuku, leave a note in his desk, make sure he gets it, meet him somewhere private and where you two are the only ones there. Look at him and I mean look at him straight into his eyes into his very soul and make him know that you’re not to be messed with. Because you are not to be messed with, Izuku Midoriya, you are stronger than anyone else in that hopeless school.”

”Make him feel worthless, make him know that you have the power to take and give away quirks with your bare hands. And when he begs, let him beg, let him drop to his very knees, hear his cries and shuttered apologies that are directed to you and only you, Izuku. Make him know you are better than him and after his little session, you make a deal with him, make him know that if you ever need help that he’ll always be there to benefit you in your troubles.”

”Then and only then is where you finally give him his quirk back and I know what you’re thinking ’how could I do such a thing if I don't know how?’ and I’ll tell you how. You have to place your hand, only one, on his forehead like this.”

It placed its large hand onto Izuku’s forehead, from his obscure blurry vision, Izuku could see the hole in the middle of his palm.

”Keep your hand open wide and your fingers separated, make sure you do this right, or else you’ll send him back to the hospital again. You focus, you calm down and look within yourself for his quirk and you’ll know the quirk when you see it, it’s like a shining star in the vast emptiness that is this plane of existence.”

“You breathe slowly and steadily and you grab onto that quirk and give it back to its original owner. You’ll know when the quirk is gone when the light fades and once it fades away you let go of his forehead and step back.”

It let go of Izuku’s forehead, its smile was thin yet thrilled.

”You’ll need to calm yourself down, you’ll feel a part of yourself feel empty, but you need to know how to get used to that feeling. That feeling will eventually fade away and once it does you’ll feel nothing but the satisfaction that someone else is put on your growing pile of supporters.”

”Did you get that?”

’Yes.’

”Good, that's very good, Izuku.”

Something stirred inside of Izuku, the air shifted as he felt a sudden rush of adrenaline course through him. It smiled even wider even when its form started to fade away alongside the landscape it resided in.

”Let us meet again, Izuku Midoriya, I wish you the best of luck.”

It reached out its hand and ruffled Izuku’s unkempt hair but before Izuku could swat his hand away he was already on his bed. Sweating from head to toe the young teenager quickly went off to write down what he could remember in the landscape and from his quirk. He went over the technique, his palms opening and closing for the extra effect he could feel the hunger of his quirk course through his veins.

Izuku had already gotten ready for school faster than he’d done before, he startled his mother by cooking breakfast for himself so that he could get ready faster. He apologized for not cooking for her and hurried to put his shoes on by the doorway and before his mother could ask why he was so giddy he turned and gave a gleaming smile.

”I’m going to make a friend today!”

Izuku left with a skip in his step leaving his still shocked mother beside the doorway.

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waynedunlaptheorgandonor · 4 years

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can you please give some reasons why you don’t think Caryl is done after this? Don’t see how it can happen now unfortunately.

not to invalidate your feelings, but are we even watching the same show, my dude??

there has never, in ten years, one decade, 87,600 hours, been a more caryl heavy season of twd

i’ve done several in-depth analysis posts, and i gotta get to bed soon, so here are the highlights just to ease your silly lil’ mind (under the cut bc it ended up being a stream-of-conscious novel):

first and foremost, we have a new showrunner, who is a woman, which is always a plus for our female characters bc we have someone who will make sure they’re three-dimensional people, and that was a big problem with caryl for a while. gimple put carol into a “i was abused but i got strong but now i’m sad bc i killed ppl :(((” corner and let her collect dust, and tbf, he also put daryl in the “i was abused but i got strong but now i must wallow in my Man Pain in silence” corner, and then he kind of just forgot about how they had an amazing chemistry and focused more on his three season-long dick jerking contest between Rapey Man #3 and Main Lead Male Grappling With Loss and Morality. so that helps us out a lot!

now in terms of the actual show, i’m just gonna like, list things without giving analysis or clarifying bc i’m tired and have already explained a lot of it, but if you need me to explain again you can just message me and i’ll answer it when i’m awake:

caryl’s storyline has been set up to sail since the start of s9

carol and zeke were always going to breakup, and she only married him for henry and escapism bc she’s never dealt with any of her trauma ever in her entire life and there is a lot of it

the title cards indicated as such

carol’s wardrobe change between the time jump in s9, and between “the calm before” and “the storm” indicated as such

carol’s wardrobe this season also indicates where her mindset is rn

kang is rewriting carol’s storyline, and in effect, rewriting caryl’s storyline, in order to right the wrongs done before, and that’s why it’s taking so long, bc she wants to tell it properly instead of just having them smash in the middle of a field with no build-up

not that we’d be against it, but i personally prefer it this way

carol trusts daryl as a father figure more than zeke. see: her asking him to watch over henry bc zeke is too idealistic, and “so what if i dream about you being my husband and henry’s dad sometimes? shut up”

carol went to visit daryl in the woods to escape her marriage that she didn’t actually want to be in anyway

carol got daryl to stop isolating himself

daryl then proceeded to do all his therapy homework and has settled down and is like “cool, time to finally get with carol!”

except kang is telling carol’s storyline properly

which means that carol is in CrazyTown rn, bc she has 1. been in an abusive marriage 2. seen her daughter walk out of a barn as a walker and then get shot in the head 3. seen a small girl stand over her dead sister while wielding a bloody knife and smiling like a maniac 3b. after having promised her late father she’d protect her 4. had to shoot said maniac girl in the head 4b. after having promised her late father she’d protect her 5. made a connection with a small boy against all efforts to the contrary and then he got eaten 6. finally saved a child and thought she finally broke her curse and got into a rly boring weird fantasy marriage in order to protect him only to see his reanimated head chilling out on a pike among a line of all of her dead friends

AND SHE REALLY NEEDS TO DEAL WITH THOSE THINGS, OK?

so she has #cracked and is spiraling, and daryl’s entire storyline this season has been “shit carol is trying to smuggle guns to rendezvous with the enemy, wait shit lydia is getting beat up let me help her, wait shit carol is kidnapping whisperers and torturing them in the basement, wait shit lydia ran away, wait shit...” etc

SO HE HAS A REASON TO BE KIND OF TIRED RN

but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t care, it just means that all this tension is leading up to something INTENSE between the two of them. it’s going to come to a head Big Time, and i am v v v hype

anyway back to random things that have been pro-caryl this season

they keep juxtaposing zeke and con with carol and daryl, and caryl pick each other every time

carol’s choice of weapon suddenly being a bow

flower symbolism

boat symbolism

new mexico

acorns and bracelets and their subsequent #meanings

THE FUCKING DREAM WHY ARE WE NOT STILL OBSESSING OVER THAT DREAM THAT DREAM WAS SO IMPORTANT???

she. literally. dreamt. she. was. married. to. daryl. dixon. in. literal. canon. and. stated. it. wasn’t. the. first. time. and. that. she. thinks. the. dreams. are. good. like wtfffff

daryl does not have feelings for con and is very explicit about it

the fact that it keeps coming up is delicious tho

“follow my voice” vs “follow my light”

“i’m the one you talk to”

the repetitive use of we/us

“if i only knew what you told me i wouldn’t know shit”

“i NEED you to stay”

alpha/beta foils and parallels

repetitive reminders of both carol and daryl’s past abuse

did i mention the dream where she dreamt that she was married to daryl bc i feel like that might have been important

carol having sex with zeke

yes that’s a good thing

yes i’m entertained by it and totally chill

we are at the very top of the roller coaster, lads, we are tying up all the strings, we are making sure carol and zeke have closure, we’re gonna get (probably in an irritating murder way) closure with connie, and Then There Were Two

10.14 is called “look at the flowers” for christsake

“i could never hate you” ok fanfic trope number 6 billion

all of it

literally all of it

this has been a crazy romantic, tumultuous season, and some really meticulous and purposeful and beautiful storytelling and it is about to pay tf off

until i am given E X P L I C I T reason not to:

I WILL STAN KANG

and also, just to add, there are characters and plotlines that exist outside of caryl, and the writers have to incorporate all of them. there are gonna be scenes with them, there are gonna be things that happen that seem negative but that make sense when you look at them on a larger scale. you cannot, CANNOT, look at each individual thing and take it at face value. we have a showrunner who knows how to write now, so little things mean bigger things, and not always the things you expect

i know this is not the proper use of bullet points

it is past my bedtime

but anyway caryl is coming ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

stay hype, stan kang, and get daryl to call carol sweetheart 2k20

the end

-diz

p.s. remember that dream? wild huh

#me: not gonna make this a big long thing #narrator: she made it into a big long thing #as is my wont #anyway #caryl #caryl spoilers #caryl positivity #twd s10 spoilers #anon #ask #dunlap tp #Anonymous

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paradife-loft · 4 years

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1&2 for general, ships, characters & story

General

1. If you had to join a sect, which would you join?

Ahahaha oh, oh no, the difficult question!!! *covers face*

Tbh I would. join the Lan sect and then be like, the most problematic Lan ever to Lan XD (”But James, don’t you have a reflexive fight me!!! response to rules and authority....?” yes maybe so shush now that’s why I said problematic.)

Like the thing is. I DO like being a nerd, and I DO like the idea of cultivating with music certainly moreso than with swords look I do not enjoy physical exertion a lot of the time, and I semi-regularly become full of emotion and start wailing to whoever’s nearby about wanting to live in somewhere as beautiful as the Cloud Recesses??? It is SO lovely there. Also the only other option I was considering, the Jiang, tbh gives me the impression that I would die miserably of humidity in Yunmeng sooooo :/

But also for real I am... a lot more chill with following rules when I agree with them about their purpose being to better you ethically and also to form a cohesive community, and I’ve chosen to adhere to them by my own will? Uhh, demonstrably lmao. But yeah I’d definitely still be Arguing about things and eating hot peppers in Caiyi town and playing the “it’s not really drinking if you neutralise the alcohol” game ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

2. Your three favorite characters?

*lies dramatically on the ground* How am I supposed to pick just threeeeee???

But ok, so, Jin Guangyao, and then *spins the roulette wheel for today’s picks* probably Lan Xichen and Wei Wuxian, averaged out?? But I have a lot of feelings about Everyone ;u;

Ships

1. What’s your OTP?

*chinhands* Surely we all know this by now :P

2. What’s your NOTP? Or any other ship you hate?

Uhhhhh hhhhhhh hahaha ngl I usually feel guilty talking about notps in public??? Probably bc often as not it’s more about “90% of the content I see in the fandom is relatively fluffy and/or mundane and/or lacking in meaty conflict and therefore bores me to tears” oops.

But I will say tbh that I have a pretty visceral unhappy NOPE reaction to LXC/NHS in. Probably 95% of contexts ever. Unless I feel particularly into reading, like, sex-as-self-harm fic on any given day, lmao.

Characters

1. If you could date any character from MDZS, who would you pick?

Lol, none of them.

2. If you had to kill a character, who would you kill?

Save a sex worker or POW, toss JGS off a cliff :) (predictable answer but hey) (I mean, this is distinct from an answer to “who would I kill at a point in the story prior to their actual death,” but. I would be remiss at existing if I didn’t take the opportunity to say I would kill JGS given the slightest excuse.)

Story

1. If you could make one major story change, what change would you make? Why?

Ahhhh, hell. Actually, you know what? I would slightly revamp Qin Su’s character to have her be aware of her parentage since roughly the same time as JGY is, and have them both separately keeping that a secret from one another for roughly the same reasons. She’s disturbed by the letter from Bicao simply because of the implications around someone wanting to make this knowledge public. (On the other hand: she DOES still ask JGY about how Rusong died, and IS still angry and horrified by the attitude he takes to that question and the implication that he was the one who orchestrated that death, because wtf just because his parents were siblings doesn’t mean he should have been anything other than a happy, perfectly loved, alive child??? Get a fucking grip!)

...And then I think. if she does still end up dying* then it’s probably gonna be directly NHS’s fault, in this context? Because “oh okay I was not expecting her to be chill with that, that’s an unpleasant surprise; well I still gotta ruin JGY’s marriage somehow SHRUG”. But on the other hand I really really don’t love all the women dying, so maybe instead he just reveals her complicity publicly and destroys her reputation and turns her into a pariah? :/ Which is still unpleasant but at least isn’t. death.

Anyway the reason why is like. Partially just aesthetic preferences!! I like “morally questionable power couple” much better than I like “evil dude and morally pure innocent victim wife”. (I in fact very much dislike the latter. Looking @ u, late Numenor.) And also partially - I very much like the additional resonance of “JGY underestimates he sweet and kind people around him and doesn’t notice that they can also have sneaky ruthless streaks” that this would add re: Huaisang? While also for that matter foreshadowing the Huaisang reveal?

And, yeah, a lot of other changes I would “like” to make, honestly fall more into the genre of “things I would like as fix-it fics” rather than changes I want to make to the base story, because so many of the pieces I’ve gone “augh but what if that were different!” are just. structurally important to MDZS’s tragic and other thematic elements. Messing with this aspect to Qin Su’s story doesn’t have to make the base plot non-tragic, but does improve on a few issues I have with e.g. morally polarised female characters who all die anyway.

2. Which character would you bring back to life?

!!???!!? when are we talking, here! in what fashion?

....okay, so for the sake of not making my head explode with potential options, I’m going to limit this to cases of characters who are 100% confirmed dead, being brought back either as a fierce corpse or via sacrifice-summon, generally within the main timeline of the story (i.e. not several decades post-canon).

And of that set under those conditions, I’m gonna pick Jiang Yanli. Look. I LOVE the possibilities of fierce corpse!Jiang Yanli. As a scenario it’s both incredibly fucked up but also the possibilities for really emotional reconciliation between all three Yunmeng siblings in the present timeline??? Logistically I think this would have to take place in a bookverse-style “LWJ carries WWX off to the burial mounds post-Nightless City battle” situation... so like, in a fit of practically qi-deviating rage-grief, WWX reanimates JYL’s corpse right as she dies, a la Wen Ning? and then part of what he’s doing, half out of his mind, during the missing time in the Burial Mounds is working on bringing her spiritual consciousness to put back in there.

........there’s definitely more logistics to be worked out, most notably “where is she during the intervening decade?” but. I love the idea of Jiang Cheng’s anger being not only “you killed my sister” but also “YOU TURNED MY SISTER INTO A FUCKING ZOMBIE”. I love the idea of, eventually, her being ACTUALLY PRESENT to express some of her own opinions and feelings on how WWX & JC fighting over her death (& fierce corpse status) is rly fucked up. make them deal with her as an actual person who’s inconvenient in her wants and needs and willingness to always extend a hand to others, not just a place to hang all their messy emotions on! give her eventually a chance to bond with Jin Ling, and the awkwardness and grief about how much of his life she missed, interspersed with “!!!!! I get to have this back! feelings!”

Because also just in general, I’d really love to have her around to interact with all the characters in their fucked-up “one timeskip later” iterations, and her perma-dying really just robs us of that chance and it’s very rude!

Bonus: holy fuck what would it be like for all her talents and skills and weaknesses to suddenly be completely reversed? Extremely physically strong and capable now! But more likely to scare people than charm them. Can she still, like, taste food properly? Who knows. But wouldn’t THAT be a juicy situation to explore for her! :O

#stripedroseandsketchpads #about me #ask meme responses #no good things for the poor sad cultivators #ask a James

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theshinsun · 4 years

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1. as far as im concerned Kagami never left at the end of last game, that was an extended dream sequence... 2. i also totally agree with you that Kagami is prolly vers, if anything, and it was also MY PET PEEVE when people pinholed him into being a forever bottom at the peak of knb hype. 3. you keep teasing your long list of ships for Aomine PLEASE do him for the character thing lol. So far all your opinions are sending me into a realm of GOOD VALID VIBES

Omg thank you!! (I agree end of Last Game is not canon… or if it is he came right back the next year or smth I refuse to accept he just left forever. And I’m really glad to see the problem of Uke™ Kagami seems to be in decline these days… fewer people are writing for knb in general, but those that are seem to have an idea what a real gay relationship is or at least make him a fucking person and not a walking stereotype, and that’s encouraging to see).

Also thanks so much for sending Aomine! …Strap in for this character essay tho I’ve been known to never shut up about this boy once you get me started.

How I feel about this character

I honestly… can’t even explain it anymore or even try to justify it but Aomine has had a bigger impact on me than, I think, any other character I’ve seen to date. I don’t even know what it is, I do relate to him (and project on him *cough*) but like, there are other characters out there that I have more in common with, and I like his whole arc and aesthetic but it’s nothing revolutionary, so… your guess is as good as mine.

Whatever it is, I’ve been obsessed with this guy for over half a decade, and lately even as the KNB fandom falls into decline, my feelings are not they’re just getting stronger. His development over the course of the series is one of the most satisfying things I’ve ever seen, (that one bit at the end of the Touou/Seirin game with “I want to practice” and his later conversation with Kuroko hit me in the fucking chest every time), and I love how even though he’s portrayed as cold, uncaring and rude, it’s still understood (at least by anyone with some nuance) that that’s not what he’s supposed to be like, and underneath the distant, kind of dickish front, he’s hurting a lot. I’ve talked about the degree to which he cares about people before too, but I still have to give a mention to the ferocious level of protectiveness this guy has for his friends. I could go on about him for ages, tbh, and maybe someday I will write a for-real structured essay to try to get it out there, but the bottom line is I love this character, I have for a long time, and likely will continue to do so long into the future.

All the people I ship romantically with this character

Okay here we go… I ship this guy extremely liberally, even with people he’s never interacted with (hell you could mention any random character and I could probably see my way clear to shipping them with him somehow, I’ll still try to explain my logic if I can). Prepare yourself.

Kagami (of course, AoKaga is the OTP and definitely the one I’ve devoted the most time to, they’re just the best together I’ll never get tired of seeing them figure their shit out over and over)

Kuroko (I may be AoKaga on main, but I’m still such a sucker for the tragic romance between these two, and sometimes it just hits me over the head like a sledgehammer how much I love their relationship. I’ve also got a lot of feelings for AoKagaKuro, they’re such a perfect trio and I need to invest more of my time in the OT3)

Kise (I was a bit late to the game on AoKise, but I definitely see it now. I love their dynamic and how imperfect their relationship would probably be, the complexity of it. sign me up)

Momoi (I don’t see a lot of AoMomo love anymore, but I’ve still got a soft spot for it, childhood friends are my weakness okay)

Midorima (they’re so different but that’s what makes it interesting, and I love the idea of neither of them knowing how to show/tell the other their feelings and being awkward stubborn shits together)

Murasakibara (they almost never interact but I just think they’d have such a soft cuddly relationship and be really chill together… lazy Sunday mornings sleeping in and hanging all over each other that kinda thing)

Akashi (kinda same as Akashi/Kagami, I think the difference between polished upper-class Akashi and scrappy city boy Aomine would be hella interesting… though I’ve also got some angst ideas for them as a couple, after how things went down at Teiko… abandonment and whatnot)

Imayoshi (I got pulled into this ship HARD by Lysapadin’s A Firm Hand series and now it’s no longer a guilty pleasure ship and is actually something I’ll talk about in the open, just… the power dynamic fuck me up)

Sakurai (I fuckin love the idea of an anxious Sakurai crushing hard on Aomine and not knowing how to tell him but when he finally plucks up the courage and prepares himself for imminent death Aomine’s actually pretty chill about it… plus they’d be adorable together tbh)

Wakamastu (you know it’s gotta be enemies to lovers. not just bc I’m intrigued by the love/hate relationship itself but if you look past the attitude issues these two would actually probably have a lot in common. also I’m really interested in how their dynamic might change with Wakamatsu being captain and all)

Susa (idk but there’s one throwaway line in season 3 where Imayoshi says about Aomine “actually maybe he likes you” and that’s enough for me. bring me the rarest rarepair my body is ready)

Kasamatsu (it wasn’t supposed to be SERIOUS but they got me. That moment in the Touou/Kaijo game where Aomine helps him up and “you’ve really done it now, senpai” is legit, plus these two would be such a good-looking couple, honestly.)

Mibuchi (give me the pretty boys. I have no excuse for this except maybe their interactions in my own damn fic again)

Nebuya (sometimes shipping can be as simple as hey I want them to bang right. also they’re both humongous dorks under their respective rough exteriors and I love them)

Moriyama (they bond over liking girls at first and then they’re simultaneously like wait a minute… more Touou/Kaijo ships pls)

Nijimura (I have this idea of them reuniting late into/after high school and Aomine still calls him captain out of habit and Nijimura’s like relieved and impressed to see how he’s developed since the mess at Teiko)

Himuro (they Never interact but they’d be so Petty and Snarky sign me up)

Haizaki (twisted, but I’m interested it’d be so unhealthy and awful bring it)

Hanamiya (even more twisted tbh but there is that moment where Aomine confronts him… and I’m here for hate sex just as much as your typical romance)

Inoue (who, you ask? I know he’s such a side character and no one remembers him, but he’s a big reason for Aomine’s downfall at Teiko and they seemed to be buddies before that, I’d be interested in some kind of reconciliation between them, or a romance, ya know whatever works)

And then we get into crossover territory… MOST of these are not my fault they’re just things I’ve seen and adopted for myself

Kuroo Tetsurou (someone made a moodboard for them, and now I can’t stop thinking about them in a relationship, like damn… it’d be such a beautiful mess I wanna see more of it)

Oikawa Tooru (I’ve seen art, and also the light. These two damaged angsty prodigies, one sharp as a whip the other dumb as bricks, but both of them sassy and nerdy as hell. I could see myself getting addicted to this ship if I took the time to write it out, and I just might)

Yamazaki Sousuke (can’t lie, they look good together. I’ve seen more than one art piece of them interacting and I have a Mighty Need.)

Matsuoka Rin (angry lonely talented boys finding solace in each other’s company? you know that’s my shit. also shark teeth and cop AUs hells yeah.)

Tanaka Ryuunosuke (I don’t know where the fuck this idea came from but I thought of Tanaka trying to pick a fight with “shitty boi” Aomine while in Tokyo and then losing his shit and here we are)

Terushima Yuuji (this one is purely physical… they pretty, I have no other reason, but also this absolute fuckboy, these two would be such a train wreck and I’m here for it tbh)

Yachi Hitoka (okay picture this Giant Terrifying basketball player trying to be less giant and terrifying to tiny shy Yachi and tell me you don’t just want to see that happen. I get Legosi/Haru vibes.)

I’ll spare you the rest of the ideas I’ve tossed around, because past this point it becomes pure crack (if it hasn’t already) but you get the idea. Throw a character my way and I can probably talk myself into it that’s the power this guy has over me. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

My non-romantic OTP for this character

K considering the List… it shouldn’t be surprising that I also consider this person a romantic candidate, but you know when it comes to non-romantic OTP it’s gotta be Momoi. Platonic or romantic, the way she’s stuck with him all those years and his obvious protectiveness and love for her and how (even though he claims to like big tits) he never even once starts to objectify her in any way, it’s so important to me. Momoi is Aomine’s redeeming factor when he’s at his worst, and she goes to bat for him even while he’s actively trying to shake her off and still tries to protect and help him when he refuses to accept it, even when it means they fight. (Also Kuroko saying “Aomine’s probably looking for you” after their argument puts to mind Aomine running through the rain calling Momoi’s name and that is just… pure). These two have the kind of unshakable long-standing friendship that’ll probably last them the rest of their lives, and no matter what context or form it takes, I can’t get enough of it.

My unpopular opinion about this character

I’ve harped on enough about the fandom’s portrayal of Aomine as a one-note asshole who doesn’t care before, so let’s see if I can change gears a little bit here.

I honestly don’t agree with… the persistent idea people seem to have of Aomine being a narcissist or obsessed with himself? Like yeah, he’s self-absorbed and egotistical, no question, this is not to say he hasn’t got those flaws and others besides… but that’s not the same as being like, physically attracted to yourself. Part of me suspects it was a “the only one who can fuck me is me” joke taken too far, so that now the idea of Aomine being in love with himself is just ingrained into the fanon culture, but if you look at the show itself, personally I don’t see it. If anything, I would think he’d have some self-loathing issues to work through (and that’s part of the reason he gave for skipping practice, he doesn’t want to be the way he is, and specifically says he doesn’t want to increase the difference between him and everyone else). But hey, that’s just my opinion. I’ll get off my soapbox now.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

I mean he says he and Kagami are postponing their match, after their brief one-on-one when he gives him the shoes, and then we never get to see it… Tbh just more street ball with this guy would be great, since it’s what his whole style is based around. Even if he’s just playing by himself… or hell, maybe since he thinks no one at the high school level can beat him, we could get a scene of him trying to go up against adults. Maybe he still beats them and his despair worsens after that, but then it’d have more meaning, and at least we’ll have seen that he’s tried and is not just giving up before he’s seen all of what he could be up against in the future. Plus, picturing Aomine going five-on-one like Haizaki did against grown-ups and still slaughtering them is something I’d pay money to see.

#Answered #shin speaks #jesus h christ that turned out long #i warned you #thanks so much for sending my boy tho i was lowkey fidgeting waiting to talk about him #i cant help it #aomine daiki #knb #my son #long post

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thevagueambition · 4 years

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Atla, Zukka and Sokka :)

ATLA

Favorite character: Zuko, 100%. He’s a character I relate to a lot, eg the whole “hard work vs natural talent” thing... I even have a costume, although I didn’t get a chance to use it when I meant to so I haven’t really done so yet OTL

Least Favorite character: Hmm, god, I don’t know.... Bumi, maybe? As a comedic character he feels a bit too “haha crazy” and he doesn’t really (imo) work well as a dramatic one...

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon):

Zukka

Hakoda/Bato

Roku/Sozin

Tyzula

Jetko

Character I find most attractive: Zuko. Particularly s3 ofc lol

putting the rest under a cut for length

Character I would marry: idk. not big on marriage really

Character I would be best friends with: Sokka

a random thought: The true hero of ATLA is Iroh and I feel ashamed of not having mentioned his name yet in this

An unpopular opinion: The age difference between Kataang is 2 years which is the exact same age difference between Zutara and neither are particularly weird regardless of the fact that I don’t care about either ship

My Canon OTP: Don’t have one. Sokka/Suki is cute I guess is the closest I come to having strong feelings on a canon ship

My Non-canon OTP: Zukka

Most Badass Character: Toph but also low key Sokka bc he’s a non-bender

Most Epic Villain: That old blood bending woman who gave us all nightmares

Pairing I am not a fan of: Zutara, but that’as as much about fandom behavior back in the day as anything else

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): Korra, all of LoK

They gave Toph too little to do in s3 and she SHOULD have had her Zuko outing like all the others >:( Actually Zuko and Toph have a lot in common in certain ways and that was never fully explored

Also obviously SOOOO many characters in this series who were written as straight when they shouldn’t be lol. We get it, it was a kid’s cartoon in the 00s, but they didn’t have to agressively pair off everyone in neat m/f couples by the end of the series

Favourite Friendship: Aang & Zuko

Character I most identify with: Zuko, as mentioned above. He’s also the same MBTI type as me haha (INFP). Also, Sokka mix of being simoultaneously really clever and extremely stupid is a gigantic mood.

Character I wish I could be: Idk... Iroh, in some ways, certainly. Honestly, by the end of the series all the main kids are pretty admirable people. Who wouldn’t want Aang’s kindness, Katara’s righteousness, Zuko’s determination, Sokka’s cleverness, Toph’s independence, Suki’s leadership, etc? Hell, Mai’s bravery and Ty Lee’s loyalty? I love all the main kids.

Zukka

When I started shipping them: Only a year or two ago, actually! I think last time I rewatched The Boiling Rock I was like 👀

Originally when I was an ATLA fan I was still in the “we must adheer to canon” phase of my existence in fandom and then for a good while I was still affected by my... hesitance to look like a, idk, stereotypical slash fan, in the sense that back in the day people were REALLY hostile to slash ships that seemed, idk, contrived. Zukka also just wasn’t a big ship back in the day I don’t think, Jetko has always been more popular.

My thoughts: The cammaraderie that developes between them over their stay at The Boiling Rock is incredibly compelling to me and I think that... the ways in which Sokka holds Zuko accountable through “jokes” but still allows him the space to prove himself is really interesting and probably... something that is actually better for Zuko than either Katara’s rage or Aang’s kindness? Idk.

Also they both have pretty complicated relationships to masculinity and what it means to be a man in their respective cultures and their sort of struggles with that and how those struggles look different due to circumstances like their parental situations and different cultural expectations... Zuko’s is less directly about masculinity per se because the Fire Nation has less strict gender roles, or at least ones that don’t code certain activities as purely masculine endeavours (eg warfare) but certainly there are shades of Ozai’s treatment of Zuko and Azula that are gendered as well as about birth order and it’s interesting how Zuko and Sokka both impose restrictions on themselves about how they should behave and what they should live up to culturally.

What makes me happy about them: I think they complement each other really well. They have a lot in common but are pretty different about their approach to things... I also just really like battle couples lol

What makes me sad about them: Their respective trauma is part of what makes them compelling but it’s certainly also sad, so in that sense...

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: So much of it is modern AU and i don’t care for it lol. Completely ignoring any sense that the Avatar world must have some elements of homophobia bothers me to exist in the ways it does, but as does completely overplaying it, idk. It’s a balance not everyone strikes well. Also obviously when people demonise Suki or Mai to account for them not being in the picture that’s bad.

Things I look for in fanfic: Honestly, more than anything? Good characterisation. This is a ship that lives and dies by good characterisation. I also really like when they’re set during the time at the Western Air Temple.

My wishlist:

Swordfighting duels!! Practicing swordfighting together!! Bonding over swords like the dumb teenage boys they are!! Yes I know about the innuendo that only makes it better!!

Hakoda not just being cool with it but realising about Zuko’s abuse and being like Actually I Am Your Dad Now

I always want fic where the gaang find out about how Zuko got his scar and that with Zukka is even more *chef’s kiss*

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: Hmm ending up with, huh? I like Jetko for the drama but not necessarily as endgame. Sukka is pretty cute so I’m down for that but Maiko is.... look, it made sense for the time that Zuko was back in the Fire Nation because but I 100% don’t think it’s something either of them benefits from afterwards. They’re better off as friends imo also Zuko’s gay

My happily ever after for them: I want them to travel the world together tbh? I never quite know how to account for Zuko becoming Fire Lord in my thoughts about him post-canon because... well obviously I hate monarchy and I don’t actually think Zuko would be particularly comfortable being the leader of a nation, so... I don’t know. Maybe after some years, maybe a decade, of guiding the nation back towards stability Zuko starts reforming the country towards something more democratic and becomes less personally involved in the affairs of running the country? I don’t see them as people who would or really could be tied down by each other because they each have responsibilities to their respective communities and I don’t necessarily find “and then they lived in the Fire Nation palace together for the rest of their lives” compelling...

Sokka

How I feel about this character: I love him so much. His character developement is so compelling and as one of the very few prominent non-bending characters he is also compelling in the ways that situate him within the world and forces him to look for other things to contribute with. Again, the ways in which he is undeniably very clever but simoultaneously kind of dumb is also just... Very Good and Relatable lol. He was someone I overlooked a bit for a while but I think Sokka’s Master really awakened me to how great he is and on rewatches he became one of my faves. Also, you just gotta love any character that uses sarcasm as a shield lol.

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character: Zuko, primarily, as discussed above. I’m fine with both Yue and Suki as canon ships but I’m not really invested in it. When I was younger I liked Sokka/Toph somewhat but actually Toph is a lesbian so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ You could always do Suki/Toph, kill two birds with one stone you know

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character: Gotta love a good father-son relationship <3

My unpopular opinion about this character: I don’t know what the popular opinions about him are tbh. I’ll use this to say I think ADHD!Sokka makes sense though

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: Hmm, idk... the episodes he had that were focused on him were very good and did a good job of exploring his inner life in the face of how often he’s a comedic character, so it would have to be more in terms of his relationships with other characters. More interactions with Zuko would have been good ofc ! :3c

Favorite friendship for this character: Hm, probably Aang. Protective Older Brother Mode for a character that isn’t even technically his sibling is Very Good.

My crossover ship: I don’t really have crossover ships

#ask #atla #thanks for asking! <3 #rainhalydia

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drunklander · 7 years

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Drunj!Der Yells About Outlander

Thoughts on Ep. 302

Ok I am so fucking glad I watched this episode after a bunch of beers. Because I basically just giggled through most of it and I’m fairly certain that wasn’t the reaction they were going for. Like lol, nothing matters. And lol I did. Literalol.

Basically this episode makes me look back on the rage I felt about Claire’s half of the story last week and just intensifies it. Like yep. We literally got an entire episode that was just about her placating Frank’s #manpain. Nothing centered actually on her and her grief of losing her husband and her son (Hey, remember Fergus? Yeah, show!Claire loved him a lot.) and everything she held dear. No moment to be with Bree, just the two of them, before spending two decades having to lie to her and keep her slightly at a distance. You know, it’s not like Bree was the entire reason Claire even went back through the stones, so Claire definitely shouldn’t get a moment to reflect on the crazy jumble of emotions that come along with finally meeting this baby. Nope, literally everything was about trying to be what Frank wanted her to be and Frank being a selfish idiot and making her feel like she wasn’t trying hard enough. (Fuck you, Frank.)

So now we’re on ep. 2! So I guess it’s time to forget about last week’s rage and move on to laughing about sentient dildos and hats named Wilson! Because if I don’t laugh about it, I’m really not sure how to feel about this episode? I liked it more than the premiere because it didn’t make me ragey but it still feels like we’re just checking off plot points so we can eventually get to the juicy stuff once they’re back together and like dive into that? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Scotland

Oh hey! It’s Red Jamie in the title card! Good thing they’re all plugging #dunbonnet on twitter because the best way to hid your super iconic red hair really is under a brown hat! Glad we established that right off the bat.

Remember though, if the show decides to throw the thing they’ve established as what is supposed to be happening out the window, we’re not supposed to call them out or else they’ll make fun of us in interviews. Because LOL NOTHING MATTERS.

Apparently Romann hit puberty at just the right time lol, because otherwise it’d be *rull* awk pretending like six years had past. But look he’s all tall now and sounds like teenager. A babyfaced teenager, but whatever.

Although listening to Fergus be all macho about killing a redcoat and remembering how fucked up he was telling Claire about it right after it happened makes me want to give him a hug. Like it’s ok that you’re still a little messed up about that, hun.

Also like you’d think that Ian would be more careful about not letting the kiddos see where he was hiding the gun? Because like of course the boys will try to find it?

“I’m here for the dunbonnet. He’s an outlaw that wears a brown hat to cover his distinctive red hair.” “Nope, def no one around here matching this description. There is 100% literally no one around here using a brown hat to cover their distinctive red hair. I guarantee it.”

Maybe a tad too heavy-handed with the whole setting up Fergus for the Scottish redcoats showdown, but whatever. Like he got by on his wits and stuff as a pickpocket but now he’s fine just being like lol fuck you, dude, even though you’re arresting the head of the estate and looking for milord. Anyway…

Oh hey! It’s Jamie! Who is definitely not hiding his distinctive red hair. Because lol nothing matters! It’s not like the redcoats are always around looking for him and arresting Ian.

Hai, Claire. You look much better in this century than the 20th. This little vision didn’t feel as impactful as the one on the battlefield for me though? Idk. I guess I like it? I’m indifferent to it because I’m distracted by the ridiculous hair?

Seriously, I’m sure Sam’s performance in this episode was amazing, but the fucking hair was so distracting and over the top that I feel like I missed out on a lot of what was actually important.

“You scared the bowels out of me! They’ve taken Ian again. So maybe you shouldn’t be coming down in the middle of the day when the redcoats so recently left.” “Sun’s out, Dun’s out.” “What? Did you just…” “Just go with it, Jenny.”

“The dunbonnet, that’s what they’ve taken to calling you now. Soon enough you’ll have ballads sung in your honor.” No no, show. You don’t get brownie points for throwing in a fanservicey line like that, referencing how they find him during this period in the book. Nope. You decided that he wasn’t going to hide his hair, even though apparently he’s known for hiding his hair. So lol nothing matters, he’s just a sad guy who lives in a cave and has an odd attachment to a grubby brown hat. It’s name is Wilson, naturally. No brownie points for you, show.

Jamie and Wilson are the best of friends. Jamie even wears Wilson inside the cave! Some may say their bond is a tad codependent, but they’re really each other’s only friends.

Except sorry, Wilson, but Jamie needs to go into disapproving Da mode. You don’t mind taking a step back do you? No offense, Wilson, but it’s a family thing. No of course you’re family too, Wilson! I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to offend you!

“I want to learn to shoot, milord. And if you don’t teach me, I’ll probs just learn by osmosis in the next few minutes anyway because #plot.”

Ok so Fergus in this scene kind of just came off as a moody teenager until he called Jamie a coward. But man, that line. To Fergus, Jamie has given up. Claire’s gone, and Jamie’s living in a cave and it’s like he has lost both of his parents. Jamie called him a son but then left him with Jenny. And I’m sure that Fergus loves Jenny and Jenny loves Fergus, but man. I do not begrudge Fergus some anger aimed at Jamie.

“Sir! Didna ken you were expected today. And oh my, you’re hair! Those long, flowing locks! Where’s Wilson?!” “Red hair, don’t care.” “What, sir?” “Just go with it, Mary.”

I should be feeling things in this episode about Jamie basically hitting rock bottom, except I’m not. Because of that ridiculous hair and the show trying too hard to force a book thing while simultaneously not giving a single fuck about actually making that thing happen. They could have just skipped the whole dunbonnet thing and just had Jamie be a wanted man. But no. They decided to both go all in on the dunbonnet thing while also not going in at all on the dunbonnet thing and I cannot take you seriously even a little bit right now, show. Sorry not sorry. You brought this on yourself with your absurd wig choices.

“See Jamie, it’s cool that you didn’t teach Fergus how to shoot. He already knows how from watching Murtagh!” “Shut up, Wilson, you’re not helping.”

Nice shot, Fergus! It’s totally believable that you hit that bird in one shot having probs never actually fired a gun before! Way more believable than having you just shoot the gun and the bird flying away because you missed.

Although I’m glad they had someone other than Jamie shoot the damn thing. Because it always bugged me that Jamie did it in the book because he should have known better. I mean, Fergus should have known better too, but I guess I find it easier to accept a kid fucking up than a man who knows he’ll probs be killed if he gets caught.

Oh hai, Young Ian! I heart you! Slash we’re totally just forgetting the kids between Young Jamie and Young Ian because everything is so rushed, I guess. Because we had Maggie in ep. 113 and Kitty in ep. 208 and it’s totally cool if we skip the twins because honestly whatever, Jenny and Ian’s kids aren’t really all that important in the grand scheme of things. Except Michael’s apparently important enough that his wife manages to get her very own continuity fuck up in the books. *pounds beer because this is all silly and honestly, who cares*

“How long’s it been since you’ve lain with a woman, Jamie?” “It’s been a long while, I gotta say. You know, I love Claire so much. And you know, she’s the only woman I’ve ever been with. And with Wilson around, it’d get kind of awkward to bring someone back to the mancave. Roommates, amiright? The worst.”

Joking aside, I do really like Jamie in this scene. Like he’s been quiet and brooding and stuff all episode, but this is the first time you can really appreciate just how much he is holding on to his pain and loneliness. Because he doesn’t have Claire, all he has is her memory and the pain he feels because he’s lost her. So he won’t give that up. I feel some feelings.

“I won’t marry. Ever again.” I really think he means that. Like I absolutely believe that in this moment, Jamie never means to ever get married again. I’m still very interested to see how they’re going to play it when he does…

“It’s god’s sorrow you never had the chance to bring a child into this world.” Gah, Jenny, way to inadvertently sack-whack your brother in the feels.

I really don’t like Jenny in this episode, guys. Like she’s pulling a Frank and making it all about what she thinks Jamie should be doing rather than what Jamie needs. Don’t be like Frank, Jenny. Frank is the worst. This show doesn’t need two Franks.

Slash I like that Jamie hasn’t told Jenny about Faith or Bree though? Because she def wouldn’t be saying this shit if she knew, I hope… But it shows just how closely he’s keeping those memories? They’re too precious to share with anyone because they’re all he has left of his children?

“I just want you to have some happiness.” Oh Jenny, you mean well, but you’re not helping here. Please just stop talking.

I get that there aren’t really any good hiding spots on that hallway, but that is a really shitty hiding spot.

And I get that they have to get across how dangerous the redcoats are and how fucked up this period in Scotland is, but these guys going out to look for the body of a dead baby is a bit over the top. But at least they didn’t have Young Jamie in the room for this like he was in the book? Because I’m all for not unnecessarily traumatizing a child. Good job, show.

I love Mary MacNab. Like she just goes in there and is like yep, it’s my gun, here it is, here’s my story. And has no clue how it’s going to play out but it’s a risk she’s willing to take and you have balls of steel, Mary MacNab. I’m glad they gave her actual stuff to do in the episode besides just what happens at the end. Guys, I just really love Mary MacNab and I ship her with happiness so fucking hard.

Oh, so Mary’s no threat, but better go look for the dead baby of the woman who has clearly just given birth. Ok, rando English douchebag.

Slash you really couldn’t wait an extra two seconds to move, Jamie? Really? For a dude who has been hiding in a cave for six years, you kind of suck at hiding. But then again, Wilson could have told me that.

“Take a shovel. Dig a grave in the cemetery in case they look. Maybe take Wilson with you, since the redcoats literally just left and are probably still around. You should maybe try tucking your hair up to hide it this time too. You know, to at least *try* to disguise yourself.” “I can’t, Jenny. My hair, it won’t all fit.” “Well, you see there are these things called scissors…” “Enough, Jenny. You’ve said enough.”

Ok Ian coming back and being like “it’s been a lovely visit, gentlemen” kind of kills me. Because like obviously these repeat stints in jail are taking their toll (seriously, that wig, and also the disease that will eventually kill him). But like Rupert, he’s going to keep his dignity. Because it’s literally the only thing he has left.

It’s definitely in character for the Fergus in this episode that he’d get caught because he’s being impulsive and reckless, leading the soldiers around. But I’m still not sure how I feel about this Fergus? I guess I can get why he’s like this? Like after six years of living like this and Jamie’s off camping with Wilson and Claire’s gone and Ian keeps getting taken away? Yeah, I guess I understand this Fergus? Maybe?

Ok but when Fergus points at himself when he says the Scottish redcoats are betraying their own people. Just kill me with feels, Fergus. The Scots *are* your people, lil buddy. I have feelings.

“Dinna be feart. Fergus, laddie. I watched milady do this many times.” OMG JAMIE USING CLAIRE TO BOTH SAVE HIM AND COMFORT HIM. I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS RIGHT NOW.

Did we really have to pan over to the hand? No. But it’s this show so of course they panned over to the hand.

And Jamie def had a dead rabbit when he ran down to save Fergus and now I’m annoyed that I’m noticing these damn rabbits and birds and shit. Like I doubt whatever payoff is coming from them is going to be worth being taken out of the moment whenever one is on screen.

But Jamie collapsing here and finally hitting rock bottom is where I actually started taking this episode seriously. Because Fergus could have died. And Jamie was powerless to help him. And the redcoats threatened Jenny. And Jamie was powerless to help her. And Ian keeps getting taken away. And Jamie was powerless to help him. Jamie loves his family and would do anything for them. It’s like one of his defining traits. And he’s lost the family who matter most to him, and his mere existence near the family he has left is now what’s putting them in danger and he literally cannot stand it anymore and it breaks him and why is my face wet.

In an episode that keeps just rushing from one thing to the next, I’m glad that they let this scene with Fergus and Jamie slow down and breathe a little. “You remind me I have something to fight for.” Gah, Da!Jamie hits me where I’m weak. And Fergus keeping on his brave face and making jokes about whisky and wine. This poor kid, I want to hug him.

Ok but when Jamie says “you can trust me to keep that bargain” he’s like basically saying goodbye to Fergus, right? Because he pretty much knows he’s going to give himself up, right? Because that’s the best way he can take care of his family because they’re all that matters to him and after wanting to die so badly and then spending six years not dying, if he dies now and it keeps them safe then it’s still as worth it to Jamie as if he had died at Culloden? This scene makes me feel things, guys.

I love this scene with Ian too. So fucking much. “Feeling a pain in a part of ye that’s lost…and that’s just a hand. Claire was yer heart.” Gah, Ian. Right in the feels. He’s so much better at this than Jenny.

I’m really, really glad they made it so Jenny was the person who turns in Jamie rather than some rando. And Ian with the fun fact about not hanging them anymore. I do think Jamie was ready to die though.

“Jamie, have ye not seen the inside of enough prisons for one lifetime?” “Little difference to the prison I live in now.” And he’s not talking about the cave, Jenny. I love how Ian *gets* it. Jenny? I’m torn with how much she gets it and just doesn’t want to accept it vs. how much she just has a different outlook on things… But all things considered, I really do not like her in this episode and I really don’t like how she just pulls a Frank at every turn. It’s not about you, Jenny. It’s about Jamie. This is the best choice there is so just fucking support him in his decision.

Ok I love that Mary makes him look (and feel) like a person again and I like that he recognizes and respects what she did with the redcoats. Like the bit of respect between them makes a scene I already love even better.

But for real, I know I’ve been silly about the ridic hair, but the hair was ridic and now that it’s gone you can finally see all the emotion on Jamie’s face and it makes me sad that this was pretty much hidden for the rest of the episode by that terrible wig.

The actual scene with Mary is basically exactly like how it was in the book but omg it’s awkward and sweet and perfect and I love it so fucking much.

“You can look at me if you’d like.” “Ye’re a bonnie lass. It’s just something I always do.” No, Mary, he can’t look at you. Because they needed that parallel with Claire. But what they inadvertently also did was have him tell you that he keeps his eyes closed while he jacks off in the cave. Wilson keeps his eyes closed too.

Ok so obvi Jamie and Jenny are acting until she gets to “Ye gave me no choice, brother! And I’ll never forgive you.” I think she really means that in the moment. And seriously, Jenny? I get that you have issues with Jamie’s choice, but there’s a chance you’re never going to see him again and you have to send him off knowing that? I’m so over Jenny in this episode. Especially compared to Ian, she’s just not working for me.

Ending on Scotland the Brave playing over Jamie’s face as he’s being carted away is a tad on the nose, show.

Boston

So glad they’re showing Claire masturbating. She’s a sexual person, and after basically completely losing her agency last week, it’s nice to see her taking care of herself and that that part of her is still there.

Also is it bad that I kind of wish Frank heard her? Like after all of his “but what about meeee” bullshit last week and what Claire needed being completely disregarded, I kind of wish he could hear her not needing him while not thinking about him. Fuck you, Frank.

Also you can def see Sam’s fingers between his legs as he grabs his junk before he squats down and I can’t stop lol’ing over it.

So Bree has a toy bunny? Because Jamie’s thing is a bunny this season? Or whatever? Idk, who cares. I feel like the show wants me to have feelings about this, but I don’t.

Oh look, Claire’s still reading the Globe despite Dean Ubermisogynist’s opinions. Because of course she is. Because why the fuck wouldn’t you keep reading the damn paper. Dean Ubermisogynist means nothing. But you’re trying way too hard to be cute with the story being about Ireland, show.

Ok but her face there with Frank is like, “Hmm, I don’t want *you*, but you have a penis. And one of those could come in handy when my fingers get tired.”

Ok but I literally started lol’ing just at the shot of her staring at Frank. Like hi, “I miss my husband.” No, not you. Jamie. I miss Jamie. You know, my husband who I love and fantasize about while you sleep and will never get over no matter how much of a dick to me you are about him? You’re basically a sentient dildo. Now just lay there while I get off thinking of a glorious ginger. I’m on top. Obviously.

It reminds me of the pilot. “When the war ended, we both thought things would return to the way they once were, but they hadn’t. … Sex was our bridge back to one another. The one place where we always met. Whatever obstacles presented themselves during the day or night, we could seek out and find each other again in bed. As long as we had that, I had faith everything would work out.” So yeah, five years apart during a war and things were not getting back to how they used to be. So clearly after three additional years during which Claire fell in love with someone else and had their kid, it’s totally a good idea to stay together… Right. *eye roll* Anywho… The main point of bringing that line up is that sorry, Frank, but the magic sex bridge was demolished. You see, Wilson needed the parts to help maintain his structural integrity while hiding all that luscious, ginger hair. Oh wait, what? Wilson isn’t hiding anything? Oh right. THE SEX BRIDGE PROBS NEVER WOULD HAVE WORKED EVEN IF CLAIRE DIDN’T GO THROUGH THE STONES BECAUSE SEX DOESN’T CHANGE THE FACT THAT FRANK WANTED AN ACCESSORY, NOT AN EQUAL. AND IT SURE AS SHIT ISN’T WORKING NOW BECAUSE CLAIRE DOESN’T LOVE YOU, FRANK, AND SHE WAS STRAIGHT WITH YOU FROM THE JUMP AND YOU JUST COULDN’T FUCKING ACCEPT THAT. SO YOU WANTED PHYSICAL CONTACT? THIS IS THE PHYSICAL CONTACT YOU GET. Good on you, Claire, for taking what you need, how you need it, on your terms.

For real though, after two seasons of Frank being a fucking piece of shit and reducing what Jamie and Claire had to just fucking, it’s nice to see him *actually* getting just fucking. Like you serve no real purpose here, Frank. She just needs your dick to hold still for a few minutes while she does her thing and then you can go.

Oh we’re doing this again? I mean, ok. You do you, Claire.

“Claire, look at me. Claire, open your eyes.” “I’m sorry, what part of sentient dildo did you not understand? Why have you stopped?” “Y-you–you never used to close your eyes when we made love.” “It doesn’t mean anything. Just that I don’t love you and I’m literally just using you for your penis because I like sex a lot, just not with you but you’re what I have so kindly shut up and let me finish. Seriously. ‘Sentient. Dildo.’ I don’t know how much clearer I can make your role here.”

“I’m enjoying this.” “Are you?” “Of course. But less and less by the moment. You really can’t just take the win, can you. You’re getting laid. Yes, it’s because I wanted to fantasize about someone else, but really you were a literal beggar so now you can’t be a chooser.” “Then why can’t you look at me?” “Christ, Frank, why the fuck do you think? If you’re not in the mood, you just had to say and I’ll gladly go upstairs and take care of business myself. Geez, you are useless.”

I am *so here* for her reducing Frank to what he keeps accusing Jamie of being to her. Fuck you, Frank.

“When I’m with you, I’m with you. But you’re with him.” No shit, Frank, and she hasn’t made a secret of the fact that she loves him more than you. I still have a very hard time accepting that she stayed with your sorry ass. But you know that ultimatum from last week? Well it works both ways. If you don’t want to be a human sex toy, fucking leave. But it’s all good. She’ll have purpose in her life again soon and won’t have to bother you. And then you’ll die. And we can be one step closer to the good stuff.

Ok so I love that the line from the book about loving Jamie and being part of something more was included, and it definitely works to be like oh look, Claire’s gonna do something meaningful for her damn self. And I’m actually glad that we just jumped right to med school? Instead of like having a fight with Frank about it? Because fuck Frank? Who gives a flying fuck about Frank or his opinions? This is Claire’s life and her choice and fuck yeah, Claire, go be a surgeon.

HAI JOE, CLAIRE REALLY NEEDS A FRIEND. YOU TWO SHOULD BE FRIENDS AND I CAN’T WAIT TO WATCH YOU BE FRIENDS. YAY FOR FRIENDS WHO RESPECT EACH OTHER AS EQUALS.

Idgaf about Bree’s bunny being wedged behind the bed. Why did I have to read the thing about birds and bunnies…

YAAAS separate beds. Sorry, Frank. Since you were so opposed to your sentient dildo duties, Claire went off and found her true purpose in life and now she doesn’t need you at all. Her little smile right before she rolls away from him is my everything. Bye, Felicia.

And yes, I did try to use the words “sentient dildo” as many times as possible in this dumpster fire of a recap. Sorry not sorry. #SentientDildo

I’m gonna go ahead and take Claire giving the piper money as a bit of a fuck you to Frank and her entire existence back in the 20th century up until this point. Plus a fuck yeah she’s going to go to med school. And fuck yeah she’s going to reach her full potential in the profession she was born for. And fuck yeah she doesn’t need Frank and she’s done playing his bullshit mindgames. And fuck yeah she’ll take a minute and remember Scotland and everything it means to her any damn time she pleases.

This still doesn’t make up for the rage I felt about how she was treated last week. Jamie got two episodes about him processing his grief and loss on his own terms and Claire definitely got shortchanged. Le sigh. Whatever.

#*#drunj!der yells about outlander #outlander starz #outlander 3x02

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