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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 8 months

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going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!!#because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that!#it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs!#so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't.#when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation.#and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job)#because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme*#and yes. walking out isn't always possible.#but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap.#stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

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floccinaucinihilipilificationa · 11 months

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#selfie bee #good evening friends!! how are you doing! C:#I'm very very sleepy I got a new ikea office chair and I build it all myself #I think it went okay! I don't think I pulled the back screw tight enough and now the back is a bit loose #I can probably fix it but I can also ignore it for the next 18 years #thats how long the old chair held up!! in germany it could now drink vodka and drive a car!!#not at the same time that is illegal! not at the same time!! (❁´▽`❁)*✲ﾟ*#but the day is not over yet my uncle asked me for a big art quest and I do not want to disappoint #he wants a muppet tattoo and asked me to draw it #my uncle has started to get tattoos a few months ago #as far as I know he has now gotten 3 note clefs 3 stars a flower and multiple birds #he also started getting piercings but so far I managed not to know exactly where #I think tattoos are super cool (´｡･v･｡｀) I wish I had a good idea for a tattoo but the last time I was very sure about getting a tattoo #it was heath ledgers face as the joker #at that point I was 12 and would not see the actual movie for two more years #a muppet tattoo is a way better idea!! he asked for the count van count! that is also one of my top 3 muppets ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡#I always thought I knew a lot about muppet lore but since I started looking up muppet pictures I think there are still a lot of secrets #can the muppets from the Sesame Street actually leave the Sesame Street?#I think Kermit is both on the Muppet Show and on Sesame Street but he is also like the boss muppet #he might have special abilities #I hope you're having a good day friends!! C:#I think I'll post a Sherlock comic later this week #miss you!! ♥♥♥

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dazais-crab-addiction · 9 months

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Tonight I learned that my 20 yr old partner has never played chess and doesn't know how to play chess. This is mind boggling to me. They claim its not weird for people to not know anything about chess so I. I need to see. Please.

Okay so, I made a mistake in not elaborating the meaning of the options. You do not have to be good or know what you are doing in the slightest to pick that you have played before. The middle three options are for your understanding of the game having never played it at all. The reason there's a percentage on the last option is because my partner made a tumblr so they could pick it because they think they are hilarious.

#crab says words #chess #tumblr polls #i learned how to play in elementary school and so did all my siblings #i use to play chess with random people constantly in highschool #im really bad at chess but its still fun to play ya know #i just am so shocked they literally knew nothing other than “the horses can move in an L shape”#i taught them how to play and made then play with me so dont worry i fixed the situation 😌#pls reblog this 🥺#i take it back!! my notifications will never recover!!! pls stop reblogging this!!!!!!

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sacredxnight · 3 months

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So I've been rewatching some Seinfeld recently

#the moment I saw this scene #I knew how to fix my artblock #sorry for the rushed quality #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #fe3h #fan art #fire emblem #there's so much black in his design I should have probably outlined his hands #night art

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caiabresebun · 10 months

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miles morales, spiderman 🌻

#miles morales #spiderman #across the spiderverse #atsv #pavitr prabhakar #miguel ohara #hobie brown #gwen stacy #meows morales #peter b parker #jessica drew #hands on knees wheezing #THE INSANE CANVAS TWIRLING AND COMP FIXING ON THIS AHH #i love miles he is my babyboy forever #need to draw more miguels rahh <- the disease is kickin in #i didnt care about spiderman at all and knew no lore etc til itsv so miles is my first spiderman to me <3 i love you miles

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bet-on-me-13 · 6 months

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Dr Leslie Thompkins has some interesting references

So! The Batfam in in Dr Thompkins' Clinic for the usual Vigilante Related Injuries, and the Good Dr seems to be distracted.

One of them asks why she is so nervous and she reveals that her old teacher is coming over to visit, and she is worried that the state of her Clinic and the fact that she never managed to find a good job in a Hospital despite his teachings will upset him.

She is worried that she will disappoint him, because he has done so much for her in the past. He is the entire reason she ever managed to become a certified Doctor in the first place.

The others are curious as to what kind of person would illicit this level of concern from the Stric Doctor they knew?

There is a Knock on the Door, and she goes to Answer it.

In steps an 8 Ft Fall Glowing Yeti with an Arm made of Ice.

Frostbite smiles warmly at his former student, "Leslie! It's been too long!"

#Dpxdc #Dp x dc #Dcxdp #Dc x dp #Danny Phantom #Dc #Dcu #Dr Thompkins #Dr Leslie Thompkins #Dr Leslie was trained by Frostbite #I don't know how it happened but it did #Leslie is scared that Frostbite will be disappointed that she is stuck in such a small and run down clinic #In fact Frostbite is extremely proud of her for sticking in the slums and giving affordable medical care for the less fortunate #The Bat Family is extremely confused #How does their resident Doctor know this Giant Glowing Yeti Man?#(At least now they know how Leslie knew how to fix Jason's Pit Madness all that time ago)

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heilos · 1 month

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I already promised some more MSA sketches in the future for my watchers, but I figured ya'll deserved at least one cleaned up sketch right now since I haven't posted any art of the gang in awhile. Purely for fun as I've always wanted to draw the gang in more alternate outfits. :D

#mystery skulls #mystery skulls animated #msa #msa lewis #msa alive lewis #flowers #dahlia #my art #i love reds and pinks #a very happy and very alive Lewis for you guys :)#Edit: call out post to myself I fucked up something on the skin tone layer in my file and didn't notice until a day later I am so dumb #it's now fixed x_x extremely embarrassing on my part I knew something looked wrong ugh he now has his melanin back sorry Lew boy

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i-like-media · 1 month

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That's how it went, right

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temptxtionmxgic · 2 years

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#me when i block ppl i knew once bc idk what happened my brain self destructed its 4am #but also bc #im SOOO different from how i used to be and #thats both good and bad #and i like posting my stupid brain shit in tags likethis bc it helps me #and on the off chance they ever DO read them esp my most recent ones id feel like #so weird abt it idk #or maybe im being dramatic but its itching my brain in a bad way so this is the only way #i knew to fix it #:(#ill still like the memories tho but man ppl rlly do change mostly ME

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cowardlykrow · 3 months

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Despite herself, the Emma is wooed

#an anon wanted Paul and or Emma so here’s both!#just don’t look at the arms don’t do it stop it oh my god #alt captions: Getcha cup of autistic rizz #//Art request #this was the kinda piece where I knew it was going wrong but I was too stubborn to pause and fix it ✨#Paulkins #that’s the ship name right?#Paul matthews #Emma Perkins #Oh PS. all artist and non artist: Make sure to go to your visibility settings and turn on Prevent third party sharing!#will it help? who knows but at least you’ll have some proof you did not agree to the AI bs #starkid #hatchetfield #tgwdlm #Jon has such…. such a face! I don’t think I can ever do it properly #the guy who didn’t like musicals #@staff 👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎

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weevmo · 8 months

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I just hope this melancholy ends and you come back to me~! (WIP!)

#remember the OG drawing of this?#i've since fixed them up!#Im working on this again yayyyy #welcome home #wally darling #barnaby b beagle #I started this before I really knew much about WH so some is very noncanon hah

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yesokayiknow · 4 months

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seeing as how amy can remember differing timelines do you think one day she wakes up and hears rory say mavity and is like hey what the fuck

#doctor who #amy pond #14's rereading his first edition of summer falls when he notices that there's an extra line to the dedication that just says #'mavity? raggedy man you better fix that.'#and he's like oh shit i knew i was forgetting something

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mr-president · 1 year

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if o’saa has a million fans i am one of them if o’saa has ten fans i am one of them if o’saa has only one fan that is me if o’saa has no fans i am no longer if the world is against o’saa i am against the world

#i knew i was in artblock and i drew him n was fixed #fear and hunger #fear and hunger termina #o’saa #olivia haas #kida tanaka #my art

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vixentrickz · 7 months

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