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crwn-nrth · 5 months

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I don't know if this is just my academic brain but sometimes I want to write way more than the required amount in my university projects. Why does the research paper on the niche interest I could talk about for hours have to be only 5 pages, huh? why can't I go on a tangent about everything I read? I'm required to read a bijilion sources, have an opinion on it, and then explain everything I read in only 5 pages?

#i just want to brain dump #i might actually make a website or something for all my hyperfixations #that would be so cool #i just need to figure out how #research #university #research papers

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story-thief · 10 months

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This is probably a bit random.. but you know what really hurts and feels really isolating?? Not being able to tell your friends about what makes you the happiest.. like no, I’m not trying to make you feel single or brag.. this boy just makes me the happiest I’ve ever been and I really want to share that with you and express my excitement.. but every time I try to talk about him, people get bristly and upset and tell me to stop..

it just really hurts to be trying to share something that makes you so dang happy and means so much to you but you feel like you can’t, and if you do, you’re doing something wrong or being inconsiderate…

I just- I feel like it’s really hurting my relationships with these people and it’s really frustrating… I really just want to openly love this boy without being shunned or guilted for it..

And I know some of these people have had/are having their own struggles with finding significant others and I’m not trying to rub that in or remind them of it- i just want to share with them what makes me happy!! And them not being there hurts.. maybe it’s selfish.. and if so I’m sorry, but- it still just really hurts..

I don’t know.. I’m trying to figure it out..

#tw vent #vent #personal post #sorry to make this y’all’s problem #I just feel like I need to get this out of my head and out somewhere… I don’t really know who I can talk to about this other than my bf #I probably will try talking to my friends about it tho…#I just need to figure out how #My thoughts #Yeah..

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paranorahjones · 1 year

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I'm finding that the hardest thing about writing my new l&co fanfic is deciding what POV to write it in.

I enjoyed and got pretty good reception from writing my other two in Lucy's POV, so naturally I would love to do that again. But as this fic is an AU, I feel like I might miss out on the chance to explore a lot with Lockwood's character if I don't write it in third person POV.

Both have their merits and I can't FREAKING DECIDE

#now that i've finished the books i HAVE to get this idea out #i just need to figure out how

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johnpallo · 2 years

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I am going to play a Sonic game

#i just need to figure out how

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soapywankenopy · 24 days

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this month i'm going to learn how to play chess

#smart girls play chess #and i will be a smart girl #i just need to figure out how

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shanxy180 · 5 months

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what if i make one of those dash simulators

#i just need to figure out how #shanxsaysthings

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salty-puppy · 8 months

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Y'all remember when this in the files for the Ryan's World racing game?

Thought that was weird.

#stuff like this motivates me to look into files for many games lol #i just need to figure out how #salty yapping

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cruelsister-moved2 · 2 years

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for real! (from kadji amin)

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What I've realized is that I believe that the matter of gender is practical and relational. It's not about who you are inside, it's more about how you would feel most comfortable in the world. It's not 'Who are you?' but 'How do you want to live?'

Had that been the discourse when I was coming up, I would have breathed a sigh of relief. I don't have to figure out who I am on the inside, I just have to figure out how I want to live.

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#and I kind of felt really sad when they were talking about how like they feel in some ways figuring yourself out is way harder now #bc there is this pressure to like figure out who u Really Are Inside #and instead of being like well maybe my identity goes far beyond gender and like i don't need to find some microlabel #in order to like define who is Me #it's become very fixated on like categorising ur gender rejection in a way that ends up just. making even more genders to constrain u #it's hard to summarise it was like v wordy but I thought this part was so true #for sexuality as well not to tack it on but we have really gotten into the same mindset w sexuality now as well #THANK U @VAKAVANHASAATANA for the ID it wont let me @ you in the text </33

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inkskinned · 1 year

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there are a lot of posts out there that are positive and healthy coping mechanisms for handling the holidays. this is not one of them :)

i think there's like. going to be times in your life you will be stuck in a social situation that you cannot escape from gracefully. i do not know why the internet doesn't believe these times exist. it's not always just that your physical safety is at risk - sometimes it's legit like "i just don't currently have the energy or time to put in the effort of responding to this." sometimes it's a coworker you hate so much. sometimes it's just like, fine, you know? like you know you can handle your aunt when she's cheerily horrible, but if you actually set a boundary around her, it's going to be weeks of fallout with your father.

i don't know why people think the answer is always just "cut them out!" or "don't let them get away with that!" because ... the real world is tricky and complicated. i think kind of a lot of us have an internal "radiation poisoning" meter for certain people. like - i'm talking about the ones who are absolutely giving you gradual ick damage. like, you can handle them, but you'll be exhausted.

and yes. you absolutely should listen to your therapist and the good posts about handling others and set good boundaries and take care of yourself. prioritize peace.

HOWEVER :) ...... since im often in a situation with a Gradual Sense of Ick person i cannot just "cut out" of my life (without losing someone else precious to me) - i have sort of developed the most. maladaptive form of mischief possible. because like, if i'm going to have to listen to this shit again, i like to have a little bit of private fun with it.

now! again, i am physically safe, just mentally drained by this man. you should only do this with people you are not in danger with. which leads me to my suggestions for when your Unfortunate Acquaintance shows up and says oh everyone pay attention to me.

my favorite word is "maybe!" said as brightly and happily as possible. whenever the Horrible Person starts in on a topic you do not want to go further with, particularly if they make a claim that you know to be inaccurate, do not respond to it. you and i have both tried to actually argue with this person, and it hasn't gone well, because this person just wants the drama of an argument. however, "maybe!" gives them literally nothing to go on. it is incredibly disarming. they are used to people having some response. they know they can't prove what they're saying, and maybe! treats them like the child they are. it dismisses them in the politest way possible.

i like to say maybe! and then, in their stunned silence, immediately change the subject. this is because i have adhd and i will have something unrelated to talk about, but if you can't think of topics fast enough, i recommend just pointing to something and saying, "isn't that lovely?" because fuck you let's bring in some positivity.

by the way. that second trick - of pointing to something and stating an opinion about it? - that just works on its own, like, 70% of the time. i picked it up from teaching preschoolers. it's an intentional "redirect". it stops children crying and it also stops grown adults from finishing their explanation on why women belong in kitchens. dual wielding!

keep it silly for yourself. i absolutely do not care if people think i'm fucking stupid (it's more fun if they do) and as a result i will purposefully misunderstand things just to see how long it takes them to realize i've completely removed them from the subject at hand. when they say "women aren't funny" i get to be like. "which women." "all women." "all women in america?" "no in the world." "like the mole people? the people in the world?" "what? no. like, alive." "oh are we not counting the mole people?" "what the fuck are you talking about." "you don't believe in the mole people?"

similarly, i play a personal game called "one up me." my Evil Acquaintance literally knows this game exists (my family & friends caught onto it and now also play it) and it always fucking gets him. i don't know why. you have to be willing to be a little free-spirited on this one, though. the trick is that when they make one of those horrible little bigoted or annoying comments they are always making, you need to go one unit weirder. not more intense, mind you - just more weird. "you don't look good in that dress." "yeah, actually, my other dress was covered in squid ink due to a mishap at the soup store." "you shouldn't wear such revealing clothes." "wait, what? oh shit. sorry, your son tears off strips when no one is looking and eats them. i swear it was longer before we left the building."

the point of "one up me" is to completely upend this person's narrative. we both know this person likes setting up situations where you cannot "win" and then they really like telling other people how badly you handled it. in a usual situation, if you respond "please don't say something that rude", you're a bitch. but if you let it happen, you're letting yourself be debased. they are not usually expecting door number three: unflappably odd. because what are they going to say when they're telling everyone how badly you behaved? "she said my son eats her dresses" ".... okay?"

if you can, form an allyship with someone whomst you can tagteam with. where they can pick up on your weird "soup store" story and run with it.

the following phrase is amazing and can be deployed for any situation: "oh, be nice :) it's the holidays!" i do not know why this works as often as it does. i'll say it for the most random shit. i think this is bc most of the time these people know they're being impolite, they just like to fight.

godbless. when in doubt, remember that you could always start stealing their pens.

the whole point of this is - if you can't escape. maybe see how long you can just be. like. a horrible little menace.

#this is objectively bad advice #don't listen to it protect yourself and do real work on yourself find one of the good posts i've made about this #but also. u know. if u want to have fun while u do the work of setting boundaries #.... it IS fun #i will say that my fear of him went SO down after i just started. fucking with him.#bc i used to get SO fucking upset #i'd spend WEEKS arguing with him. tearing my hair out. sick with anxiety and dread and anger about all of it #and now i just LITERALLY do not engage #instead i'm like '' haha :) mole people" and get the HELL out of any tense conversation #i kind of think some of these people are literally addicted to drama as a form of connection #they like the rush they get from arguing #but those arguments are incredibly damaging for me #so like..... i am in the process of literally rehabilitating this person to figure out how to find connection thru #NORMAL CONVERSATION #he doesn't get it yet #i also do talk to them like they're preschool kids lmafo . ''are you using a safe and kind voice right now?''#'' do you need a snackie? you sound a little upset. let's have some hummus and come back to playtime when we feel ready''

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meru90 · 1 year

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#just practice i swear!!!#rent free in my mind ....#genhsin impact #al haitham #fanart #genshin alhaitham #hes SO???????#i am just glad i can draw him now #i always need to figure out how to draw the hair when i do new charas

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captainjonnitkessler · 1 year

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I truly, TRULY do not know how to say this, because the fact that I have to say it makes me feel like I am losing my grip on reality. But no, in the post-capitalistic anarchist utopia, I will not be relying on “autistic minecraft girlies” to be building inspectors because - and this may shock you - one of those occupations takes years of education in how to read and interpret hundreds of thousands of lines of regulations based on complicated math and physics that were the result of decades of tragedy and death, and the other one involves playing a children’s video game.

#i am begging this website. BEGGING it. to stop acting like building codes are state oppression #and please stop reducing blue collar jobs to 'so easy any handyman could do it with a youtube video'#that's how people fucking die #i didn't spend five years learning how to do my job safely to watch people online tell me it could've just been a course in high school #i know that this is like. a minority minority opinion and not really worth getting worked up over #but it's so annoying to see supposed leftists denigrating blue collar jobs like this #same poster also opined that we won't need garbagemen #because 'if the trash is bothering people they'll figure out a way to clean it without having to pick it up'#like what??? does that even fucking mean????#construction

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catmask · 1 month

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okay. say i were to have a hand drawn frame animation. and a background i wanted to animate via tweening. and i wanted to composite that all together into one scene on one program. i already have the assets drawn but i need to put it all together in a very specific what.

What Fucking Program is that because ive been crashing my photoshop trying to do it in there and i KNOW i can make smoother animations than what its tweening feature allows. also it doesnt have timeline layers which is annoying asfuck

#btw i dont need anyone to do this for me i just need to figure out how to do it Myself but i dont know where to do it #like i have a very. specific idea of what i need. i NEED one of those youtube warrior cats animation bitches to HELP ME #i see the work you people do i KNOW what im trying to do is possible #scratchpost

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obsob · 4 months

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