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GIVE ME MORE VIKTOR X READER ANGST!!!! 😭 YOU WRITE IT SO WELL!! can I get something where he's being cold and distant to his s/o and not spending time with them at all even tho they are trying to do things with him, and then BOOM one day he notices another person trying to warm up his s/o and get to them ?? Perhaps a happy ending happens after a few misunderstandings and viktor finally being soft and spending time with them PLLEASEE AND THANK YOU

The Green Eyed Demon

Summary: After so long in your relationship trying to bite your tongue, it takes a green eyed demon to finally get the two of you to talk about the things you needed to.

Word Count : 4.5 K

From the start, your relationship with the inventor was anything but normal. Dating wasn’t really something that the two of you did, mostly spending time with each other when it had something to do with your shared interests.

Seminars on recent scientific discoveries, workshops on how to use new equipment, and the almost daily coffee breaks were the closest things to ‘dates’ you would imagine.

And it had been perfect, well perfectly acceptable. Yes, you were a romantic at heart and you had hoped that maybe Viktor would have spent a little bit of time when it came to holidays. However, after not doing anything with you on the first couple of them that came around during your time together, you were just going to have to swallow the fact that Viktor did not view them the same way you did.

So you dealt with it, watched as couples would exchange gifts and chocolate, how some would surprise their lovers with flowers or little treats. All the while Viktor never really seemed to want any of those things. Even when you yourself had tried to be the one to give him gifts, you found that it had only been a bother.

You had spent far longer at the flower shop than you had wanted to, but after allowing the store owner to explain that the flowers had certain meanings you had wanted to create a bouquet that would tell the man of your feelings correctly.

The flowers were to try and brighten his workspace, knowing that he had been working like crazy to finish before a deadline. Since you knew that your time together wouldn’t be possible, you had hoped that maybe seeing something that both reminded him of you and your belief in him would help.

So you had gotten hydrangeas for good luck, chamomile for patience in adversity, clematis for mental beauty, goldenrod for encouragement and finally a single red rose for love.

You knew that he probably wouldn’t know a single thing about flowers, but it was a secret message for you to know about. So as you slipped into the lab, finding him hunched over his desk, you softly placed the vase on a free part in the corner.

“Why are you putting that nonsense on my workstation?”

Well, that wasn’t what you were expecting to be his greeting. The tiredness was clear from his voice but that didn’t help you keep the hurt from creeping in. He was just blunt when he was tired, he wasn’t really meaning that your actions were nonsense.

“Ah, well, I wanted to brighten up your lab. I know we can’t spend much time together-”

“So you interrupt to have this conversation on flowers?” He interrupted, still not having looked up from the paper that he was quickly scribbling on. “I do believe I told you about the deadline and that I wouldn’t have time for your distractions.”

“...you said we wouldn’t have time for dates…not distractions..” You mumbled softly, Viktor’s eyes snapping up to yours with irritation at the sass that you had responded with. Instantly, you wanted to crawl under the desk and hide, it not being often that you earned his ire.

“So you’ve come not only to disrupt my work, to waste space on my desk with useless plants, but now you also want to start an argument over the specifics of wording?” There was a heavy sigh, his hand coming up to rub at his temple. “Just get out, before you make things worse, just go”

And so you had. With your metaphorical tail between your legs, you headed for the door. Glancing back, you wondered if Viktor could glance your way, but your heart broke instead. He was up, carrying the flowers to the trash bin only a few feet away from him before returning to his desk. His eyes not even flicking your way for a moment as you stood in the doorway watching.

So from then on, you hadn’t wasted your time on trying to be romantic. And as much as it killed you every time to see couples across campus doing the things that you wished you could do yourself, you continued to tell yourself that you were happy.

Once the deadline for the project had passed, Viktor had been so sweet and kind. He had apologized for his harshness and had made an effort to make it up to you for the weeks after. However, he also quickly would fall back into his old patterns.

Every time there was a project deadline, founders day, an important presentation, everytime he would become distant and harsh. At first it was only a few times a year, around the time that everyone was a little hostile as they dealt with finals. However, as soon as he got into working with Hextech and Jayce, he almost always had a project that he was working on.

Instead of having weeks of the Viktor you had fallen in love with, you would get days…if that.

Slowly, it had started to feel like you were dating in name alone. It just felt weird to say that you were Viktor’s partner at the galas he would bring you too, having not even remembered the last time the two of you had spent time alone together.

Everyone had found it adorable that the two of you had come to the party with your colors matching, you being the only one to know that it was because Viktor had sent you to the store with his money and instructions to have the two of you match. It wasn’t romantic like they seemed to believe, and even though you had wished to have these moments…it didn’t feel the same knowing that he was simply doing it so Jayce would get off his back.

As the gala went on, you found yourself silently watching the dancers as you stood alone. Just like every gala before.

It was always the same, the four of you would arrive. Jayce with Mel, and you with Viktor. The two men would go off and talk to investors and patrons, before Jayce would go enjoy the party with Mel and Viktor snuck off to head back to the lab.

As you sipped from your champagne, you watched as Jayce and Mel danced, smiling at each other with clear affection that you couldn’t remember the last time feeling. Quickly downing the glass, you had been about to just call it a night and head home alone as you always did. However, as you went to turn, you found yourself nearly running into someone who had been moments away from speaking to you.

“Oh, I’m so sorry”

The man hastily maneuvered the two drinks he had been holding out of the way, making sure that the little drops of liquid that escaped wouldn’t end up on your dress. And as he looked over you to make sure that he hadn’t spilled any, you couldn’t help but look him over as well.

Soft brunette hair, freckles painted across his cheeks, and bright green eyes. There were aspects of him that reminded you of the man who had abandoned you that evening, but of the version that you had met at the beginning of your relationship. The nervous energy he had as he held out the drink to you, not seeming to really know what to say at first. It was so similar to how Viktor used to approach you all those years ago.

“I..I uh, I saw that you were almost done with your glass.” He mumbled, gesturing towards the empty one you were holding. It was then that he seemed to remember that he had never introduced himself, giving a hasty bow before clearing his throat.

“Apologies, I am Philip Ferros, it is a pleasure to finally speak with you” As he bowed, you couldn’t help feeling a little nervous as well from the last name. Anyone in Piltover knew about the higher families, so to have one of them speaking with you was a little nerve wracking.

“The pleasure is all mine” Introducing yourself, you couldn’t help the heat that rose to your cheeks as he repeated it with a smile. When was the last time that you’d blushed?

As the two of you stood to the side, you quickly found your nervousness melt away to a friendly conversation. Finding that when you went home that night, that the small bit of kindness that was shared with you was enough to hold back the pain of finding your bed empty once more.

Every few months when there was another gala, the two of you would meet. The conversations were light, mostly to allow the two of you to be doing something other than just silently standing and watching. But over time even he had noticed how you always came together with Viktor to only end up leaving alone.

“So, who is the fellow you come here with, the one with the cane?” He had asked suddenly, nearly causing you to choke on the drink that you had been sipping from.

“W-What? Oh, that would be Viktor. He…well, I am sure you know of Hextech” You asked, seeing him nod. “Well, he is the other half of the partnership and isn't the best with large crowds.” You had started before smiling a little as Philip simply allowed you the space to speak what you wished.

“But you wouldn’t believe how smart he is. I’ve never seen anyone able to work as hard as he does, to be so dedicated to his work, to helping people. I’ve known him for years and even back then it was clear he would do big things.”

There was a soft hum from the man beside you, seeing how you lit up the moment the conversation was about the man.

“And yet, you always leave alone?”

Even if his words had been said in a soft way, they didn’t hurt any less, something that he must have realized as he continued.

“Not that it is any of my business, you don’t need to answer that if you don’t want to. I apologize”

“No…no” You started, not wanting him to feel bad about speaking a simple fact. “You have nothing to apologize for”

Silently, the two of you watched the dancing, it not being till three songs later that you finally spoke.

“Viktor has always been rather single minded. When he is dedicated to something, that thing is the only thing on his mind till he completes it.” You knew that Philip was looking at you now, but you couldn’t get yourself to meet his gaze, knowing that if you did you might just start to cry.

“In the beginning of our relationship, there were days I felt what it was like to be the thing in his mind. He would make little gadgets to brighten my day or bring me lunch from my favorite cafe. Which, since he has the cane, made it all the more special as walking is not really something he likes to do.”

You chuckled at the memory, thinking back to how he had been so nervous about the food being cold since he had needed to take breaks on his way back. How Viktor had needed to sit down for a while after he had gotten there as his leg was throbbing in pain. It had been one of the sweetest things he had ever done for you.

“But he doesn’t do those things anymore, does he?”

Once again, his question cut through your like a knife through butter. This time, the tears you had been keeping inside for months now finally breaking free. Not even explaining yourself or wishing the man a good evening, you were out the door to return home.

After that, you had made sure to avoid going to the galas. You would feign sick whenever they would come. Viktor had noticed, but hadn’t voiced any concern about it, always just wishing that you felt better before heading out for the evening.

You didn’t want to hear anymore from Philip about your relationship. You had been trying your hardest to not allow Viktor’s complete disregard for you to heart. However, you knew that if Philip brought it up, it would just shatter what was left of your heart.

Though as the next founders day was coming up, Viktor had asked specifically if you could do your best to attend. Because of this, you couldn’t bring yourself to fake being sick again, heading to the event with nervousness.

Everything seemed to be going the same, the inventions being presented, Viktor and Jayce heading off to talk to the people they needed too. However, when you suddenly found a hand slip around your waist, you nearly screamed as you turned to find Viktor.

“Ah, apologies. I didn’t mean to frighten you” The man softly spoke, giving a lopsided smile before placing a kiss on your temple.

It was a little jarring to have him there, but in a good way. And as you leaned into his touch, you finally felt at home. This was what you had been missing for so long and as you soaked in his affection, he only pulled you closer.

“I’ve missed you…so much, Solnyshko.”

“Oh, so this must be the ever absent Viktor?”

Philip’s voice sent dread through your spine, normally at this point of the party, the two of you would meet to idly chat, but for once Viktor hadn’t slipped away like he normally did. Like always, two glasses were in Philip’s hands, having been about to hand you one of them before Viktor reached out to snatch it first.

“And you must not be relevant enough to mention as they have never spoken about you” As he spoke, he placed the glass on one of the trays a server was carrying, effectively getting rid of the offending offering.

“It’s no doubt you haven’t heard about me.” Philip muttered, taking a sip from his drink as his eyes narrowed. “That would have required talking with them, a thing they’ve said hasn’t really happened all that often.”

You could feel Viktor’s hand on your waist tense up, his eyes flickering to you as Philip downed the rest of his own glass.

“But no matter, Philip Ferros, I would say it is a pleasure to meet you but I’ve found it rather rude to lie” You watched as Viktor’s jaw tightened with anger, no doubt debating on just how much he would be willing to ruin Hextech’s future by insulting someone from a prominent family.

“Philip…that’s enough..” Your words fell on deaf ears, the man only smiling as he gestured towards you.

“It has been a great honor to have spent the previous events with your partner. When they stopped coming I couldn’t help but grow worried for my friend, which I am sure you are aware of”

There seemed to be so much information that the two of them were aware of that you hadn’t the clue about. But from what Philip was saying, something clicked in Viktor’s mind.

“So, that was why Jayce had been so insistent..” He mumbled softly to himself, his grip on your waist tightening as he pulled you closer to himself.

“I asked my father to put in a request to Mr.Talis for them to be present and it seems like that request was honored. After all, he does donate a great deal to your work.”

Philip’s words chilled you to the bone, reminding you of just who you had been talking to when you had divulged your worries and concerns. You wished to end this conversation, not liking the tone that the man was directing towards your lover.

“However, now that you are present as well, I can finally ask if it would be agreeable for your partner and I to have a dance”

It seemed that was the final bit of pushing that Viktor just wasn’t going to take. To hell with the money that they were receiving, he wouldn’t take a single coin if that meant having to stand aside.

“It is not agreeable and you will not be dancing with them” He hissed, his hand moving from your waist down to your hand, already moving to lead you away from the man.

“Then I guess they will never be able to dance at one of these events, seeing as you never will. Chem-stunted gutter rat”

You had been about to turn and snap at the man, whatever friendship the two of you had shared was ruined by the disrespect being shown. However, instead of responding like you had expected, Viktor only smiled over at you, letting go of your hand to hold out his arm for you to take instead.

“Would you do the honor of dancing with me?”

You were a blushing mess as you allowed yourself to be led out onto the dance floor. Even seeing Jayce look over at the two of you with a look of excitement.

As the music started, you were surprised to find how well Viktor was at the steps, leaving you feeling like you were floating around the room as he carefully led you. It had felt like a dream until you caught sight of Philip, your anger returning.

“Don’t pay any mind to him.”

“And why shouldn’t I? After what he said to you”

“Because he is inconsequential. Many won’t like me, that doesn’t change anything for me…unless it does for you?” He asked softly, throwing you for a loop as to why he was asking that.

“Why would that change anything for me?”

“Come now, I know of your….involvement with him. You didn’t really try to hide it, though before you think I am upset, I trusted you to know where the line was between friendship and something inappropriate. I never once was worried about your actions, it was his that were, well, unpredictable.” As the song ended, you had expected him to lead the two of you off the dance floor, only for him to give you a small smile as he led you into the next dance.

“When he put in the request for you to partake, using his influence in the hopes of you being here, I felt I needed to step in”

Sighing, you finally answered his question from before, resting your head on his shoulder as the two of you danced slowly to the song being played.

“Then, yes, it did bother me. I thought we could have been friends, I enjoyed having someone to talk with when here…I know you hate these events so I didn’t want to make you feel bad for leaving early”

There was a soft hum from the man, it only being once the song was about over that he asked the question he had been slowly stewing on.

“How often do you push down your feelings and desires in the hopes of not bothering me?”

Pulling away to look up at him. You only saw kindness and love on his face when you had expected to see him upset. And even though you had been about to deny it, as you felt a kiss being placed to your forehead you couldn’t find it in you to lie to him.

“...everyday…”

Even though the song was still going, dancers all around you both, Viktor came to a sudden halt as he took in exactly what that meant.

“E-Everyday?”

His tone was panicked, even if he also had a look like when he had a breakthrough when dealing with his own inventions.

“I’m sorry to cut tonight short, darling” He whispered, already starting to lead you out and away from any prying eyes and ears that might want to snoop into the conversation you would about to have.

It was only once you two had returned home, once the door was locked behind you both that the man broke.

“Why didn’t you say anything?! For weeks, no, months I have been thinking that you were slowly growing out of love for me! You hardly come to the lab anymore and if you do you never seem to truly be happy to be there!”

You watched as he was soon pacing back and forth, his voice raising not because he was yelling at you but because of the onslaught of emotions that he was going through. However, it was almost funny to hear how he thought you were falling out of love with him when he had been the one pulling away for so long.

“And why would I have been happy to be at your lab, hearing how often I was in the way or that the gifts I brought to you were annoyances.” At your words he paused, able to name all the times you had come in excited with something for him only for him to disregard it…or even complain about it.

“I invited you multiple times on dates and every time you shot them down. So I stopped asking, I tried to do things for the holidays and you always had a reason as to why my idea was silly, a waste of time. So I stopped.” You could feel the tears building, trying as hard as you could to keep them down.

“I have wanted so much from you, yet every time I hinted at it, you would push me away. So I stopped asking, I stopped hoping…”

The tears ended up slipping free anyway, unable to see just how distraught Viktor looked as he watched you break in front of him.

“I know you love me. I do. When you have the time and energy to spend with me, you are nothing but perfect and sweet. You are the most giving in bed and I feel safest when I am in your arms…but those moments are so rare. I knew getting with you that you would be busy, you have always been busy. I just…” You sniffed, hand coming up to try and soak up the tears spilling from your eyes.

“I just wish I didn’t want so much. If I could just be fine with what you were offering me, we would be perfectly happy…”

“Stop that, don’t you dare blame yourself for this” Viktor cut in. You felt the gentle touch of warm cloth against your cheeks. Peering through your tears, you saw that Viktor had pulled out the handkerchief from his breast pocket and was trying to help with your tears.

“Your needs are not something to be apologizing for. Yes, I wish you had told me sooner…but I am at fault for not being able to take care of your emotional needs.” As he helped clean your face, he gave you such a sad smile. This was why you hadn’t wanted to tell him what he was doing wasn’t enough, Viktor always felt like he wasn’t enough and now you were just making his assumption correct. And damn it, did it break your heart.

“A fine lover I turned out to be, my partner not ever feeling able to tell me that they're unhappy…”

“I didn’t tell you because I knew you would blame yourself”

“So instead of us talking about it, figuring out a system that would make us both happy, you decided to be miserable all by yourself?!”

The tears that had been slowly stopping on hit once more, this time actually having Viktor yelling at you.

“...I-I’m sorry…I just didn’t know what else to do. I didn’t tell you at first because it was the beginning of our relationship and I didn’t want you to break up with me for being needy…and then as time went on…I couldn’t tell you, since that was how things had always been”

Gently shushing you, the inventor pulled you in, wrapping his arms tightly around you. He wasn’t going to say a word, not until you were a bit calming so that he wasn’t triggering you again.

“Alright, so dates? Holidays…and what else was it?” He asked softly, leaning over slightly so that he could look you in the eyes.

“....I’m not asking you to change, you don’t need t-…”

“I wasn’t asking if I needed too, I am asking what else you need from me. And you aren’t asking, I’m offering.”

Slowly, with constant reassurances, Viktor was able to pull out all the things that you had been wanting from him. Some of which, you came to discover he had wanted to do but had been too nervous that you wouldn’t like it.

Dates between the two of you became a weekly scheduled thing, Jayce still finding it entertaining to hear Viktor saying that he had to leave early for ‘date night’. He made an effort to be as friendly and welcoming when you visited, even when he was exhausted, and above all, he never left any of the events early anymore.

However, on the morning of your birthday you found that he wasn’t in bed like you had expected. As you glanced around the room, you couldn’t help the disappointment that ate away at you as it was clear that Viktor hadn’t done anything.

Slowly you got ready, opting to skip breakfast as you just didn’t think you could keep it down with the sick feeling you were experiencing.

The walk to your job was slow, truly not wanting to go through another birthday where your co-workers would ask what Viktor had done…only for you to have to make up some lie so that they didn’t worry about your relationship.

As you entered, you found the whole place dark, confused as to why you were there before anyone else. And as you turned on the lights, you were met with the one person you were not expecting to see.

In the middle of the room, holding a cake that clearly looked like it had been made by the man who was holding it…seeing as his clothes had cake batter and icing in places and…was that icing in his hair?

“H-Happy Birthday” He stuttered, looking second away from dropping the cake in his hands from sheer nerves as he stood there. “I wasn’t sure if this was…well…good enough. I have gifts, mostly ones that I made…but I didn’t think that would sufficient”

In a few quick strides you nearly sprinted the space between the two of you, taking the cake and setting it down on the nearest table so that you could kiss the living daylights out of this adorable man.

As you pulled away, finding him looking completely dazed, a soft chuckle bubbled forth as it had indeed been frosting in his hair.

“Viktor, this was perfect. You are perfect"

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