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adakechi · 1 year

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thank you @deathclassic for the tag <3

i cant put a read more on tumblr ipad what the fuck

1. Do you post on Ao3? If so, how many works do you have on AO3? If not, where do you post?

i dont post art there, but i do post fic.

2. What is your total art count?

I have been drawing digitally since I was 8 (traditionally even longer), it's well into the thousands. Maybe even tens of thousands.

3. What are your top 5 pieces by likes/kudos?

I have no idea, I just know my most liked piece is a tie between a P5 valentines day comic and a really old Buzzfeed Unsolved shitpost.

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try, but I'm not great at it. ADHD brain.

5. What is your current fandom, and what was the first fandom you drew for?

I'm all over the fucking place rn, mostly Star Wars, Scott the Woz, Umbrella Academy, Adventure Time. My first was Sonic the Hedgehog. :)

6. Have you ever received hate on any art?

Bestie I had THREE separate hate accounts dedicated to me on instagram back in the day.

7. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t drawn for yet but want to?

Stonathan from Stranger Things, do more Adventure Time stuff, uhhhhhh,,, honestly idk.

8. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Shuake/Akeshu.

9. Do you draw outside of fandom?

Not as much as I'd like, but I'm working on an original horror graphic novel so.

10. What’s the an art piece you’ve drawn that came out completely differently than you expected?

Hmmmmm. This one changed like eight times.

11. Do you draw smut?

Not as often now, but sometimes.

12. Have you ever had any of your art stolen or copied?

A lot more in the past, not so much nowadays. I don't mind tracing or reposting anyway, so I don't really keep track.

13. Have you ever collaborated on a piece?

A long long time ago!

14. What’s an idea you have that you have yet to draw?

I have about 636372 STW ideas rattling in my skull right now.

15. What are your drawing strengths?

Honestly? I don't think I have many. I dislike my art a lot and think I struggle far too much. I guess I'm okay with hands, if I HAD to pick.

16. What are your drawing weaknesses?

Faces, perspective, light source, legs, proportions, fluidity, environments, consistency, line weight.

17. What’s your favorite art piece you’ve drawn?

This is the only thing I think I've drawn in the past 2 years that I didn't just like but loved.

18. What is one thing you’d like to tell people about your art that they might not know?

I don't know what I'm doing, ever. I went to college for this and really I'm still just winging it.

19. What inspires or motivates you to create for fandom?

As fucked up as you may see this, honestly, a big reason is I like the attention. I like interacting with people who find something in my work, it's nice and I like the validation, sue me.

20. And finally, can you describe your process a little? Do you have a favourite place to draw? Do you play something in the background? Do you do research or just go for it? Give us a little insight:

I like to draw on the couch, or in bed. I used to draw in the most uncomfortable position ever, which was on my fucking stomach with a pillow under my jaw. Pre-iPad, I drew at my desk with my Wacom Bamboo tablet. And it depends! Sometimes I'll listen to music, other times I'll put on a YouTube essay or something. Beforehand, I work out a few thumbnails, then open Safari or Pinterest for references. :P

If you're an artist, feel free to do this if you'd like!

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majormeilani · 9 months

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Hey, just wondering; do OC asks count as requests (i.e., the 6/10 in your bio)? I want to send you an ask but I'm not sure. Also, which OCs are you interested in at the moment? I don't want to bother you with OC asks for OCs you don't really like anymore (I was thinking about sending an ask for your Sunshine characters but IDK if you're wanting to talk about them).

oc asks are always open!!! the requests thing in my bio is just for these drawing requests i was taking a while back as both a reminder for myself to do them and also how many of the ones i was taking got fulfilled thus far. they got a bit pushed back in priority due to irl stuff or other things going on 😔😔😓 (i had art trades and artfight happened as well as shifting interest, lack of time, motivation, my health and other stuff. i like doing requests but typically i prefer being given payment or doing art trades stuff over just drawing for free tho sometimes depending on stuff i do take them ??? but usually only if i REALLY want to draw something or it's oc related cjhxjccjhxcj tho once i find the chance i hope to finish those requests but i have a lot on my plate rn......)

but i'm open to any questions about any of my characters! rn my main focus is on my hattytime ocs but i'm okay with questions about literally any of my other ocs too!!!

with sunshine, i do like to talk about those characters but any super in depth questions i may not answer if they're plot related but i appreciate inquiries about them and such! there is a lot that i can share about them that is rather general though but for the time being i'm keeping most plot+lore under some wraps.

but that doesn't mean i don't welcome any curiosity regarding them or their characters! i still like all my other oc stories too (salem, ale, jer, ect) even if i don't talk about them as much. part of me doesn't often just because most don't seem all that interested in them and also my personal hyperfixation often shifts. but just bc i'm not as fixated on them doesn't mean i don't like em or anything! just my adhd brain likes to focus on certain things more but if ppl want to hear stuff about a character or something i'm always happy to share.....

#answered asks #anon #a roundabout way for me to say that i'm okay with ppl asking about any of them

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thegracelessfaceless · 3 years

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Hi love bug! Thank you so much in advance. Seeing your stuff in my ask box always makes me super happy.

So, I’m Elsie, she/her/hers, and bi (but I lean heavily towards men rn). I’m a Virgo sun, Scorpio rising and Aquarius moon. I’m also an introvert, but I love being around other people! I just get,,,,, tired easily.

I’m East Asian + Southeast Asian (Chinese and Vietnamese). I’m barely 5’0 tall! Long, black hair that reached my upper thighs and dark brown eyes that you can’t even see the pupil lmfao. I always have painted nails, usually red. I’m pretty athletic and I also like to think I have nice thighs—most of my workouts include building up my legs lol. I wear big gold hoop earrings. I also wear round Harry Potter glasses. My body isn’t very curvy, in fact I’m pretty flat but I am COVERED in stretch marks. I also have acne flare ups from time to time but it’s usually nothing noticeable anymore.

I’d like to think I’m a pretty chill person, likes to go with the flow and stuff like that. My friends say I’m often their therapist or their mom, which is kinda funny because that’s what I’m in uni for, to be a therapist. I’m a pretty determined and motivated person? I like to push myself pretty hard ngl but I also like to just hang out and take it slow. I also like to do stupid things like exploring abandoned buildings at 2am. I’m also big into intersectional feminism. I’ve also been told I’m really approachable and friendly, but bro I am so shy and quiet in public unless I get to know you.

I can get pretty stubborn tbh, it depends once again on what the topic is but once I’ve set my mind to it, that’s how it’s going to be. I also have low self esteem and my depression sometimes makes it hard for me to even get out of bed at times. I usually don’t know when to stop giving myself to other people, which means I get pretty exhausted and fast. I’m also prone to overthinking which stresses me out. And when I’m stressed, I can honestly get a little bitey.

I apologize to inanimate objects if I’ve bumped into them, and I also have a tendency to talk to myself? I also am a witch! I’m currently elbows deep in some deity work and ngl my energy is all over the place. I also have a weird habit of waving to security cameras I see in public because I like to think the people watching those cameras get a kick out of it lol.

I really like coffee, tea, singing with my ukulele, playing piano, drawing and art in general. I haven’t been able to draw as much as I’d like recently but I do have some animatics in my head. I also really like Victoria’s Secret perfumes, specifically strawberry pound cake—it’s what I always smell like lol. Crystals are super fun imo. I live next to a huge lake and it’s honestly one of my favorite places to be. Ocean animals are my favorite! I also really like car rides with like, one other person and just exploring the world and talking. The music I listen to is a lot of classic rap, lofi-hip hop, modern rap, some pop artists and Ella Fitzgerald, Gloria Gaynor, HaroinFather, KYLE, and ofc Hollywood Undead.

I cannot stand centipedes those things horrify me. I also don’t like rude people, bigots, people who purposely start drama or hypocrites. People who put other people down aren’t cool either. I don’t really like parties or being around lots of people, they make me anxious and kinda suffocated. People who try to force me to do stuff aren’t cool in my books either. I also think red meat is kinda gross, but that’s just because it makes me exhausted.

Eeeee I am so sorry if this is too much, but thank you so much in advance. Nothing but love to you, and all your future writing and everything you’ve done so far. 💕

Heyy! I almost hit the roof when your follow came in 😅.

So I told myself that Brian and Hoody are disqualified because of obvious bias, but, damn you make it hard!

So, Brian aside, I match you with...

The Puppeteer/Jonathan Blake

I know, I know, odd choice right?

But you came under his attention, and just when he thought you were getting ready to bend to his will, you'd rally. He found it... Refreshing that you keep fighting, no matter how low you feel.

Of course, he had to be persistent in gaining your trust. You weren't falling for his smooth talking ways. He tried not to use any information gained from his psychic gifts... but if they helped him know something you've really been wanting or something that's bothering him, that's a different story. It took him years to gain your trust and that was only after he slipped and let some of his old self, from before he became The Puppeteer, out. You seemed to prefer that side of him, so he revealed it more frequently.

Jonathan is an introvert too, and like you, being around other people can tire him out. He prefers nights in or long car rides with you with some good but soft music playing.

Jonathan finds it ironic that you want to be a therapist while his main method of feeding is by intensifying depression symptoms. In ways, you've softened him. He'll spare those who seem to have the drive to live. But he views it as a friendly competition of sorts. Like a married couple of lawyers, but one works for the prosecution and the other works for the defense. How many souls can you save verses how many he can take?

Jonathan will listen to every crystal fact you have, and want to know more about your witchiness. He's like a sponge. Throw information at him and he's soaking it up.

Let's gloss over the fact that he can control golden threads from his fingers. I'm sure it'll come up in #just chatting.

Jonathan is a caffeine addict, that and cigarettes are what fueled him when he first went to college. He loves drawing with you over a hot cup of coffee.

Eat what you want, Jonathan doesn't really care. He might take a bite of something every now and then, but he doesn't really need it. This makes it so he finds your scent... Intoxicating.

#creepypasta #creepypasta matchups #the puppeteer #the puppeteer x reader

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loafbud · 3 years

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I've reached a point where I'm just tired and just willing to keep living in stagnation 'til I reach a breaking point or somethin'. Or once I snap from within and go "enough is enough".

I knooow it's like... im well aware that in order to see change or improvement in my life, I have to be the change I want to see in my inner world and the outer world.

But I ain't gon lie, I'm too tired to take initiative. Will I allow ppl to cross my boundaries and be a whole-ass walkover? No. But I'm in that mental headspace where I feel much better off closing myself out and away from any form of communication or making new connections.

I'm in a very "I don't need anybody" zone. I'm finding a lot more joy just listening to music and making art and stuff while isolating myself from any outside connections and ik closing myself off to that extreme ain't that great, but idk dawg, I feel conflicted 🤔🤔

And I get I gotta heal and shit coz I'm still hanging on to old beliefs I've formed about myself internally, and like this is me needing to heal from past shit. Healing isn't a linear process and I get it takes time [I've seen some improvement within myself overtime; I wasn't the same person that I was 2 years ago].

But yeah– I have no fckn idea of what I'm feeling 😂😭

I just feel so lazy and don't feel like doing self-care shit, I just feel like drawing and drawing with the energy of a freakin' freight train or whatever them joints called.

I have no energy to take initiative and be the change i want to see in my life. Ion feel like picking my head up or reading motivational quotes rn - like I feel so numb to everything I receive, just downright apathetic mode rn

Aight. Just wanted to ramble tonight. I woke up from a loudass dream that gave me a headache to add to the self-defeat junctions.

But yeah, im done. Im just gonna keep stagnating around in my life til im sick of the same old same old. I lack motivation for life in general – seems like the only thing giving me some sense of drive is my art.

OK I SAID I WAS DONE SO LET ME END THIS POST BEFORE I MAKE IT LONGER

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another-koopa-fan · 3 years

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(OLD PINNED POST)

☆Welcome to this blog!☆

As you read above, this is a place where we appreciate the Koopa family. How? By sharing fanart made by amazing people! (As long as it's SFW, obviously)

You can find (sometimes) news about videogames featuring the Koopa Family. I usually don't spend too much time on social media, since I'm busy with other stuff, mainly school, so please don't expect me to post about said news quickly.

So, now that you know about this blog, I'll tell you the few rules.

Rules

Absolutely not NSFW asks or submissions, please. With this I mean p*rn or fetishes. Consider that not everyone here is above eighteen

No swearing in an excesive amount. I might let one word slip every now and then, but that's it xD

Tags

As for the posts, every single of them will be tagged depending on which characters are in said posts.

For short: Pictures will be tagged with the name of the characters featured in said pictures.

However there will be some tags that you should know about (and you will definitely want to avoid, I'm sure).

# this fan plays... : All of my pictures (videogame related) will be under this tag, including the ones that are requested.

# trash koopa fan draws: My drawings (if I ever decide to post more here) will go under this tag from now on. This includes art requests. Probably would post 10% of my works, lmao. Previously tagged "my art"

# blog owner's OCS: Some of you know I have OCs, so if you're not interested in them, drawings featuring them will be under this tag. This is, if I ever do more art, as I have lost motivation to talk about them. Previously tagged "my ocs"

# Super Mario Saturday post: Since this is a Super Mario blog, I though it would be a good idea to reblog other Mario characters fanart. I would share two drawings every two weeks on Saturdays.

# non koopa Sunday post: You should mute this tag in case you are following this blog only for Koopa family drawings/pictures. Posts that aren't Super Mario related will be under this tag. These posts will be related to any other of my interests. I would reblog one every two weeks on Sunday. And no worries, most of them (like 95%) will be Nintendo related! Previously tagged "((Not koopa related I know -w-))"*

*IMPORTANT: I would like to hear your opinions regarding this tag, because I'm still not sure if I will use it. Please, send an ask telling me your opinion about this, it's super important. I won't get mad if you disagree with posts under this tag.

Other notes:

You can also find me on Twitter. ALL of my drawings will be posted there (Koopaling related or not). Just one thing: Please do not expect me to follow back as soon as you start following me. It's mostly Super Mario stuff, but I also retweet things related to my other interests, so keep that in mind!

The most important thing: This is NOT an ask blog for the Koopalings, Bowser or Junior. Any asks sent for them will be deleted, sorry. And don't DM me just for roleplaying, especially if I don't know you, otherwise I'll have to block you.

I'll probably edit this post if I ever come up with something else, but for now, that's all! If you have any questions, let me know, please!

I really hope you enjoy your stay!

(Leave a like to let me know you read the whole thing!)

#don't rb #new pinned post is ready!

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butterbeb · 4 years

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Can you please give me some art tips? I love your art and mine needs as much help as it can get 😂

If you’re trying to find a style:

study from other artists. you can attempt to draw things in their style (don’t claim the style as your own though, this is just for you to see which aspects of their style you like the most so you can incorporate it into your own)

if you’re not comfortable in the style you draw in, it’s prob not for you

References!:

Watch animatics to study dynamic poses.

Watch speedpaints to see different drawing processes.

If you’re having trouble finding a reference for a specific pose, take a photo of yourself doing that pose

I mainly use Pinterest and Google for references

Having trouble drawing the other eye? Draw both at the same time, step by step. (not sure if this one makes sense lol)

Shading:

Go very lightly with your pencil and layer it.

kneadable erasers are very useful for when you shade something too darkly and need to lighten it. (if you don’t have one, use a regular eraser and press it gently against the paper. rubbing the eraser will cause it to erase completely/heavily)

P r a c t i c e:

You’re prob rolling your eyes at this one, and tbh I don’t blame you. I used to hate this advice so much, but if you compare my more recent art to stuff I drew in January (when I first started drawing six fanart), there’s noticeable improvement.

Draw stuff you like to keep yourself motivated (Six is prob the reason why I improved in my art, cuz I was constantly drawing fanart for it)

How to make your art pop/more appealing:

incorporate colour! if you’re like me and hate colouring with pencil crayons, use mediums like markers and paint (I mainly use watercolour paints and alcohol markers are easier to blend)

if you’re using watercolour, do the lineart with India ink (most India ink is waterproof when it’s dry)

you can use pens to do a colourful outline (like what I do for some of my art)

or you can do place a shape of colour behind your subject like this:

also p l e a s e erase your guidelines (unless you genuinely think it looks good, then go ahead) (this is just my personal opinion, but I think drawings look better when the guidelines aren’t so prominent) example:

because the guidelines are so prominent, it distracts you from what the actual drawing is supposed to be. it also makes it look incomplete.

this is all I can think of rn, but I hope I helped in some way! :)

#oh wow this is so long #not art #drawing tips #i wasnt sure what tips you wanted specifically so i just put in a little bit of everything oops #art tips with calpi

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ooops-i-arted · 4 years

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2020 Art Goals

Good riddance 2019, welcome 2020, let’s do the annual art goals post.

Checking back with last year I can see that:

I am so much better with reference images now. So much better. I’ve made it a habit to check up (so for example whenever I draw Mando I google him to try and get the armor right).

I did do a few more comics!

I sewed a bit more. Palpatine costume turned out pretty awesome.

I tried sculpting a bit! Something new for me as I have very little previous experience.

I kept drawing, even when I was lacking inspiration/motivation/whatever.

Failed miserably at the 30 Days of Domestic Fluff thing but I still want to finish it. I still love Avei and Corso but Mando and friends have all my attention rn.

So looking ahead to 2020:

Keep using reference images! I am determined to stay on this!

Faces still make no sense to me even with reference images so. Keep working on that too. I can do hands now, someday I will do faces too!

I’ve been lazy with detailing and shading for the past year so I’m determined to step up my game. Sketchy style works for some silly comics that need looser lineart, and I do simplify complicated details when I need to repeat them a lot (i.e. Mando’s bandolier detailing) but otherwise I need to stop being lazy and put the time and effort in to detailing.

Color more! @pomrania you have inspired me, and it’s been a long time since I colored my own stuff, so I wanna break out the colored pencils and give it another shot.

Maybe this year will be the year I finally start making clothes I can wear every day instead of costumes lmao

Write and actually post it. I’ve written a metric fuckton of SWTOR fic for the last three years but I never post any of it because I’m so self-conscious about my writing. But I’ve enjoyed writing fic for The Mandalorian and I am starting to feel a little more confident, so maybe I’ll share my OCs some more. Maybe. I’ll wave my drawings in people’s faces but making myself share my writing is like pulling teeth. (You can find me on AO3 now though. I will probably mostly post writing there, and only cross post if I am exceptionally proud of it.)

Self-care. Because I’ve had more time off with the holidays, and thus more time to draw/game/waste time on phone, I’ve found it’s still very easy to make the tendonitis flare up. So I’m trying to be good and taking breaks and wear my brace regularly and etc.

The only other thing I wanna mention is that I’ve decided to keep requests closed until further notice. Because I work full time and my drawing time is limited + lots of stress irl + tendonitis still acting up, I’d rather stick with drawing what I want for a while. Sorry if this is a disappointment to anyone.

Hope everyone had a great New Year’s Day and I wish you a great 2020 going forward!

#2020 #art goals

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lalunangel · 5 years

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Things about me that are similar to you... that i want to erase.

I have a scar on my tummy from baking while i was (mostly) naked in my apartment because my roommate wasn’t going to be home and i had just gotten out the shower.. and it didn’t hurt but it’s right where your scar is from that surgery you had.

My eye look like yours. not the shape but the color. His eyes were so dark they were almost black and yours were so light almost honey but when you got mad they turned black as well. i look at my eyes now that i’m on my meds to see if i can see myself but all i see are your diolated scary eyes staring back. i’ve been so happy lately they stay light.

my hands look like yours. i haven’t worked at a job for 10+ years. actually after a year i normally switch out my jobs because i get so stressed and bothered by the people around me bc they act like fools. so i change it and i stick to my two weeks notice but i could never go back to those jobs. i like the one i’m at rn and i can see myself being here for a long time bc i love kids so much.

my art style is a lot like yours. it used to be blocky because my eyes see everything in basic shapes but everything i do draw now is swirling and messy and the colors blend and greens and yellows dance together and my art looks like yours and i guess that bugs me sometimes but other times it makes me happy bc when you were good you were great and we used to make up stories... and i just.. idk.. i do that now for all the bug like creatures i draw now.

they way my face looks when i sing.. this one was pointed out to me recently because i got turnt to a song 👀 and i haven’t been going off like i used to with music but i did and Cc bee sent me a video of me singing and dancing and i look like you..

the way i dress. I look like you in every aspect even when i try to switch it up.

my eyeliner. i be trying to be all cute and do cateye eyeliner but then i notice i look so much like you that i wipe it off and i’ve started to do this weird droopy eyeliner thing that leaves no wing and i don’t look like you as much.

lipstick. you like bright reds and pinks and i AVOID those colors so much but today i put on a dark lipstick just to fool around and I LOOKED LIKE YOU IN YOUR CHOLA PHASE AND I WAS SHOOK!

Things about me that aren’t similar to you.

My taste in music. Sorry girl i get turnt to everything. And you be like “oh i love all music” but you won’t listen to spanish music or get turnt to songs in french 👀 you also don’t like music from the 50’s up. you don’t really like anything past SPM and Linkin Park up girl. If it ain’t that then you don’t vibe and you’re weird for it.

You draw but you don’t do any other art and you criticize other people for the arts they do bc you don’t give it a time of day to understand it.

you don’t read and you act like you do but you don’t talk about stuff until the movies come out.

Your green thumb is shit. I have one i just have to be consistent with myself and stop pretending i’m too depressed to do things.

that’s another difference. i can mostly motivate myself to do stuff.

you like sweets but don’t bake bc you’re lazy. but we opposite on that because i hate sweets now (rip my sweet tooth you died at 14) and i bake hella just fit experience.

you act like a victim after abandoning your two daughters multiple times and blame me... but even after the counselor told me i had “mommy and daddy issues” i never blamed you.. not until you told me i should’ve died when i was in middle school... and then again with the semi..

you don’t collect anything.. out of pure joy... because you told me that everything in life is pointless and worthless... and the more i grew up... that mindset died... because i see so much worth in everything... that it’s hard to believe i was anything like you..

i’m not going to sit here and knock you down because i hate you... but i want to tell you that thanks to your example and your constant hateful behavior i’ve learned a lot about myself. i made a lot of mistakes this year. i feel bad for all of them. But the major difference between you and i is i didn’t let this life kill my kindness. with every evil action you held towards me and harsh word... i’ve grown softer... and i did a big bad not even a few weeks ago. one you were proud of. but unlike you. i will never in my entire life let it happen again.

So i’m sorry. I’m sorry that you see whatever happened to you as a validation for being so awful to everyone you meet and birth. I’m sorry you feel like such a victim all the time.. but counselors say to find new outlets. and i guess i’ve written a lot of letters to you in that ugly green diary i keep that says “letters to mom” i plan on burning it soon.. so the awful feelings you’ve given me can burn in hell... like everyone says you will when you answer to God... i’m tired of hearing you’ll go to hell... but i’ve never known you to be kind... truly kind... to anyone in your entire life. i’ve never known you to apologize... all i see you as is hard working and mean... but i’m still sorry... i pray often now because i still don’t understand why i’m so hurt by what you did to me and why i’m only hurt now about all of it... but i pray you go to heaven and see your sister and your lost kids.. and i hope dad hugs you.. and i hope you are forgiven for everything you’ve ever done.. and i hope with all that forgiving... i too learn to forgive you. but for now. our relationship is completely over. I have a new mom now. she adopted me and she’s loved me so loudly that i almost forgot she wasn’t my real mom. i hope you can forgive me for replacing you... i can’t stand saying you’re my mom anymore.

also that ugly as fuck name you gave me is canceled. I’m getting rid of the I and one of the M’s. And i’m putting something else entirely for my middle name. My name is the last official tie i have to you. and i’m ready for it to be gone! I hate the mf name.

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gingerweed-man · 6 years

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Tag Game

Tagged by a Jojo meme: @ohgayassu

Rules: Answer 30 questions. Tag ?? blogs you want to get to know better.

Nickname(s): Fuck sake, where do I start? Tom, Bruce, Jesus, THOT, Ham, Sabu, Saboobie, DarkNerd, Gingerweed Man, Nerd, Dark, Capn, Capn Wayne, etc. etc., so on and so forth. None of these are my birth names btw nor even related to it. I only gave myself the DarkNerd and Capn Wayne related ones.

Gender: Cismale but idrc whatever you call me

Sign: Fish

Height: 5'4"

Current time: 1:20AM

Favourite band(s): MCR, Gorillaz

The edgy bands I usually listen to (mostly while drawing or animating): MCR

Sweeter bands: Gorillaz I guess? Ludo maybe too.

The bands that I’ve been a fan of for so long that I have listen to all their albums at least a billion time: MCR

Also all the bands Ohgayassu listed: I mean Ive heard Artic Monkeys, Mindless Self Imdulgence, Twenty One Pilots, and maybe the Neighborhood? Obv, I love Paramore, Panic! At the Disco, Fall Out Boy, Daft Punk, and Gorillaz.

Favourite solo artist(s): Gorillaz technically

Song stuck in my head: CAUSE IT'S NINE IN THE AFTERNOON

Some In my head rn are: YOUR EYES ARE THE SIZE OF THE MOON

Last movie I saw: Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom

Last show I watched: uh... the last show I actually sat down and watched was Hinamatsuri, the first anime (and show) I've watched since Samurai Jack Season 5 ended.

When did I create my blog: Oh shit, July 2014, happy 4 year anniversary me

What do I post: Hamtaro, Animal Crossing, and stuff that helps me not want to kill myself usually

Last thing I googled: Before Googling how to see my tumblr's first post, it was "LLC meaning"

Do I have any other blogs: YEP

There's @achhd-fashionproject , where I suffer and upload QRs I made in ACHHD or on the rare occasion, one that someone else made.

@sabu-pigeon-fucker is my Hamtaro blog but Idk if I wanna have a seperate blog for hamtaro or keep it on my main so it's dead for the moment.

Yall should check out @teh-nubcakezorz which is my art blog. I try to upload consistently is what I would say if I were a liar.

I have a Pokeaskblog, @whenever-ribombee but it's also dead atm. I just cant find much motivation for it.

My rarely updated bc personal family issues body positivity blog is @phat-thottie because of course I had to get that url

A secret project blog.

And these last two:

My Semi-NSFW/Gore blog. There's no actual nsfw, minus the gore, but it's content that I feel might make someone uncomfortable goes there. Ask and maybe I'll give it to you.

I have a vent blog also.

Do I get asks: Rarely, but they're almost always wonderful to see.

Why did I choose my URL: the Gingerweed Man is the greatest film character in all history and my lad

Following: uh... 2262 blogs... oh boi

Followed by: 1068 blogs. I just need one more, that's all I ask for now.

Average hours of sleep: Average? They're all outliers.

Lucky number: 69 and 420

Instruments: Accordion, Trumpet, Tuba, I suck at all 3

What am I wearing: Black tank top and navy and white shorts

Dream job: Figure designer/sculptor

Favourite food: Cheesecake Factory Rice Jambalaya

Nationality: Latino

Favourite song: MCR - House of Wolves, MCR - Black Parade, or Lemon Demon - Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny (of which I still have all the lyrics engraves in my memory)

Last book I read: Hamtaro Handbook

Top 3 fictional universes I wanna join: Uh... let's see...

#3 Pokemon. I can finally have my twin tank tortoise, edgy furry mongoose, adorable sonic ninja cicada, and my swag sweet bee. Counter point: Beedrill is real. So is Houndoom, and it can give me literally unending pain.

#2 Hamtaro. I am given my government assigned hamster with 1 primary personality trait and can fuck off and do whatever while my ham goes on adventures in another dimension made of fucking candy or fights actual Hamster Satan. Alternatively, I am said hamster going on adventures which is still rad.

#1 Animal Crossing. No more money problems, I have a home and can pay my debts off with actual no deadline. Or just not pay them. Plus free fruit. And a toaster with endless supply of toast.

I’ll tag some swaglords:

@peigeom @nukekioh @boxyguy @namonaki-und-friends @lalala-sushi @spiral-phantoms @mafurachan @robo-joe @magentmagent @dawnb1ade @princess-leslie

#tag game #long post

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jillflame · 3 years

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so... updates on my animatics:

buckle up for a long rant... O.O

BNHA animatic: this one’s depressing guys. My laptop has been having issues storing my files for photoshop, and even though I had it set to autosave if it reset itself, it failed to save a TON of progress I made ONCE AGAIN, and legit weeks of work was lost to the void. Some of the work that I was proudest of was lost. Work that I ACTUALLY felt proud of, is just... gone. I’m sharing that loss with losing an actual friend to suiside just earlier this week. I want to be honest with you guys- normally, when something like this happens, I sink into a really deep feeling of hopelessness involving a lot of self-hate and self-harm. But after losing my friend, I’m shockingly finding it easier to tell myself to not fall into that this time round. It’s not what she would have wanted for me, and it puts losing the work into actual an actual perspective that, yes, it sucks, but it’s not a person. It can start over again. It won’t be the same, and it will take time, but it has a second chance. People don’t get that with their lives. So I’m not giving up on it, but it’s not going to have that quick update like I’ve been hoping to give you guys.

ROTG animatic: I want to end on a happier note. I’m finding more motivation to work on this one recently. Rotg always seems to come back into my life when I need hope and something to believe in, and rn is a good time for that. This one’s art style is really complicated (thanks past-me -_-), which is the main reason for the looooong update. That, AND I’ve had to re-work some OCs that join the party, simply because I keep coming up with new designs and ideas for them as the story in my head progresses. :P I’m working on this one on my desktop computer with a drawing pad (a bit harder to use then my laptop, which I can draw right on the screen with, but I’m getting better with it) to prevent any file damage from my laptop.

Other WIPs: I have a couple things in mind... :) Because I’ve been grieving my friend, my mind hasn’t really been too much in the ‘fandom-zone’, but I’d like to start posting other art and stuff for fun when I start to get back into it. Mostly bnha stuff but hey, hyperfocus wants what hyperfocus wants. ADHD always finds a way to pull me in a million different directions O.o So keep an eye out for the future-

#animatic update #going through a bit of a rough patch #but a benefit of adhd is that it's really good in emergency situations #so it ends up being good for protecting me and those around me during bad times #so im finding strength to keep pushing forward #suiside mention #self-harm mention #depression #i've never had a place to vent to before either #so im glad that i have this private little space on my blog #thank you for stopping by

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hi babe ! its snowing so much here today i’ve been cold all day :( but i got some chai latte and made snow angels so i’m feeling a bit better,.. <3

i wish there was a way to trade objects or send them away!! ik it would spiral into hacking, scamming and would probably defeat the purpose of the game by making it much easier but still :( it would be nice to help out friends with some objects.. :(

actually the most annoying thing about mobile is the camera. it sometimes glitches especially during battle and i find myself stuck facing a mountain bc the camera. so i see why people might complain. also sadly NO :( i wish!! i have an old laptop i thought of using but idk if it can handle it. i think i wanna try it out though. do you use a laptop or pc?

that’s true. i wish we could like... unable easy mode and just chill LMAO hsjshdhdk. but combat does get more fun the more you progress, i’ve started to really enjoy it. now i get why you started to like dragonspine.... i think.... i’m still iffy about that place... 🤔 fuck the cold.

dude. they’re sooo good. i love how they just.. angrily reassure each other constantly. kageyama’s just ARGH *literally smacks sense into hinata’s head* and hinata’s just EEE *takes the compliments and spikes like a mf*

i actually didn’t know much about voltron when i first started watching. i only knew about shiro because an acquaintance had posted about his gay announcement but i never checked it out. i actually got into it in a funny way... i was on yt one day and i saw a video titled ‘are keith and lance gay?’ and i was like who the fuck are keith and lance? then because i’m such a gay person myself i decided to check it out and i saw keith and was like... wow that’s a cute boy... then i saw their dynamic and said WOAH. and well... i just started watching and got hooked and i thought everything was neat and fun so i watched up until season 3 without engaging in any fan activities so i had no idea what people were saying...,, then i did and i was greeted with the shit storm. and the rest is history. but i can imagine it must’ve been so fun... the excitement of not knowing where the story will go and getting new content and being in the fandom while it was alive despite everything.... ahhh how did you find out about the show?

dude YEAH!!! do you feel like university affects the way you handle your fandoms? we talked a bit about hobbies and stuff but what about fandoms?

(MAKES A SECOND REROLL ACCOUNT JUST FOR THIS.... 🥺 omgggg imagine how cute that would be wait omg i’m actually like ahhhh.. we could go on dates at liyue... or watch the sunset at cape oath.... or have picnics at any mountain top... 😳 YEAH PLS that would be so nice... help is anyway nice to have and you’re such a op now you’d just murder the villains in a second... 😳 oo. although i checked earlier and my server is in america for some reason? i really hope they do the cross-server thing life would be SO good. i’d ask you on a date in a heartbeat. 😳 which characters would we use on this co-op date?)

KOSMO!!! BEST PART OF VOLTRON???? kosmo... come back to us please.. please. ok maybe second best part after keith in the bom suit..... god keith in purple just sits so right <3333 sooo right <3333 I VOTE FOR KEITH BECAUSE HE’S HALF-GALRA SO I GUESS THAT MAKES HIM THE FUTURE *LOVE-SICK SMILE* yeah... hahaha fucking fools. ‘rewrite where lance was looking for keith to confess to him bc they were going back to space’ CRIESSSSSSSSSSSS... CLUNAAAA... 🥺👉🏽👈🏽 hi.. 🥺 now i’m just gonna think about this all night and clutch my heart. thank you for that. btw how would you feel about a voltron movie ?

(i love how our topics just jump from genshin to voltron to genshin to voltron again lmao)

lots of kisses from your m.a. <3333

(okay this ended up being very long bc i combined your second ask too and talked a lot so i hope it’s okay i put it under a read more fkdsjhfks)

omg snow!!! is it all pretty and fluffy 🥺🥺 also ‘chai latte’ and ‘snow angels’ in the same sentence when you said you were cold made me fhfksfjs but i’m happy you’re feeling better! muwah 🥰

yeah same!! i said that to my brother when i first started playing i was like ‘i wish you could trade characters’ and he just gave me a deadpan look and was like.. why would they allow that FHDSFKHD sigh but it would be fun!

ah yikes no! sometimes the camera fucks up even on pc so I can’t imagine what it’s like on mobile in the pivotal moments fhdkfjsd. and i use a laptop! i don’t have a pc ahaha. ahhh i hope you somehow manage to find a laptop/pc to try it out thoo

AHAHAH come on m.a. give dragonspine another shot 🤪🤪 but yeah the challenge is fun sometimes! tho i tried to do a domain like 3 times today and kept failing so... it’s also not fun. (i also tried to find some vids about how to build my characters and got overwhelemd fkhsdfks i feel like i’m going about it all in the wrong way ahhhhhhhhhhhh)

FSHDFKJSDHFKSDHJF THAT DESCRIPTION OF KAGEHINA YES 💯💯💯💯 the accuracy omg.. they’re such chaotic idiots i love them!!!!

!!! what a story that is ahah omg it’s like fate... icb you got that vid recommended to you lolol iconic... and i found out about it from my dash!! someone reblogged a screenshot and i was like “legend of korra?” FHSKFJHSKF so basically i thought it was a korra comic or something bc the art style was so similar fhskdfjd. and then i went searching and gave it a shot! and fell down the rabbit hole..

ooo wdym by handle my fandoms? i do know that last year when uni got overwhelming i locked my twitter and made a priv to vent and just. didn’t really go on social media if that’s what you meant FHSKJSDHKF but yeahhhhhhh uni fkn sucks. sucks out all the motivation i have for anything... i type so many words for lectures that i don’t have the energy to write fic :// FJKDSHKSDHFKSHF don’t meant to get so negative but yeahh lol. hbu?

(all those options got my heart going doki doki 😩 who needs real life dating when you can date in the gorgeous atmosphere that is genshin? AHAH. and oh? america??? maybe they just did that as default hm. as for which characters.... i don’t know that we have any that make up the popular ships fhdskjfj (xingqiu/chongyun, zhongli/childe, beidou/ningguang).. tho i see xiao/aether and xiao/venti on the rise so when the time comes ... AHAH you can be the venti to my xiao <3 LOL)

!!!!!!!!! okay i’ll list that down as the fic idea.. but no promises once again sdjfhksdf but i’m also very 👀👀👀 at the concept so! will def keep it in the back burner.

hm. i honestly don’t know if i would even pay any attention to it hfksdhfjds like voltron left such a sour taste in my mouth i don’t even know that i could consume any canon content ever again. but it’ll also depend on what the plot would be? lol. would you be okay with it?

(lmaooo we be balancing many convos at once look at us 🤪)

ALSO!!! i’m watching spirited away rn and omg. i love haku sm. i love no face too!!! (at least in the beginning when he (?????) was helping sen <33) all the characters are really good as well tho and ofc the art and music!! i really wanna draw something for it now...... and it makes me very excited to watch howl’s moving castle!!

‘I saw the person my younger self had been enraptured by. I saw someone who took my breath away. And when I blinked, I saw the present you. A soul which, slowly but surely, I’d started to fall in love with.’

UMMMMMMMM CLUNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! explain yourself right now.........., what is this goddamn beauty you hide ? why is that so beautiful..,,, i take it the last klance fic is a multiverse fic???? literally everything good in one????? i saw hints of royal au as well? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 you do us so good i literally love you sm just reading those small snippets just Ahhhhhh..... i love them they sound amazing i just wanna exist in them yk... 😭😭😭😭😭😭

FHDSKJFHDSFKJ IF YOU THINK THAT IS GOOD JUST WAIT UNTIL YOU READ THE LAST SECTION!!!!!!!!! but at the same time i’m surprised by myself too... me @ past me you ain’t bad! shdfkds I legit have no recollection or writing the snippet you sent but i’m glad you like it 😩😩 and thank you for being so kind always ilysm too 😭❣💓💖💫💞💘❣💖

oh and to answer your question (oops almost forgot) yes it’s a multiverse fic!! that’s why i thought it’d be good for the last one ehehe. just shoved in everything i loved and made klance in love in them!!

hope you’re treating yourself!! loveeeeeee your c.r. <3

#since it's under a read more.. it can be like those 'open for a surprise' things HAHAH #marriage anon #wowclunaanswers #long post

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myhalloweendreams · 6 years

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gtkm 🌙

tagged by the lovely @honeyedmilks <3

(sorry it took me so long to answer ... I suck)

how tall are you: 5′6 ? i think ? (i converted it but i don’t really get how it works so i’m not sure if it’s right or not !! but 171cm)

what colour are your eyes: I have boring brown eyes.... I wish i had black eyes they’re awesome or blue they are beautiful

do you wear contacts and/or glasses: glasses ... I suck at putting contacts so I only use them when going out for free and spontaneous peer pressure

do you wear braces: nope, never had to... but I still have a milk-tooth that I had to cover

what is your fashion style: i don’t have money enough to buy nice things style + my mom is very controlling and will vet things and if you buy it anyway she will throw it out of the window style - but I normally dress like: I don’t like to show skin, I don’t fell comfortable in dresses or skirts and I don’t use bright colors or patterns or anything that draws attention to me... so you’ll find mostly in black jeans and plain or simple stamp dark shirt (probably black) bonus points if it’s long enough to end under my butt and something over it (like a sweater or jacket or something ....probably has something to do with my need of not showing skin) and my favorite short boots. There isn’t much for my mom complain and it doesn’t show skin and mostly is comfortable (when it isn’t too hot... i suffer a little when it’s) so it’s what I normally go with

when were you born: may 28th

how old are you: old !! how i say since i was little kid(and i’m talking about my five years old self) i was born a 60 years old person and i’m just growing older from there (I don’t only was a kid who had an easier time communicating with adults, but I never wanted to play with the other kids, I have back problems, I would take everything serious and be responsible, I nagged even the adults about wrong and right and so on... I was born old)

do you have any siblings: hm yes . one brother (younger) ...he’s awful ... next question

what school/ college do you go went to: interior design

what kind of student are you: I have always been a good student, but I talked a lot in class... but now that I think about it I had to teach myself everything because I couldn’t concentrate enough, but I was always an overachiever and the teacher’s favorite, but never the best student (I made a conscious effort to not be the best - second is always better than first as it’s be the second in command in any group, never the leader... you’re good enough to be heard but the attention is not on you... I can’t handle attention).... I was always the one to assemble the power points and group’s essays, because that way I would know that it would be done(I’m always freaking out so I couldn’t handle not know if the others weren’t doing their part or if it wasn’t going to be finished) and I would always research everyone’s part so I knew that it wouldn’t lack one part if that person didn’t do its part, but I would always include the information they researched in the essay, but in that way I at least would know that I wasn’t writing nonsense on the essay when they gave me their part and it would be a tool to help the ones that had a hard time finding their part (I liked to be prepared and I liked to be able to help who needed and I liked to know all the subject being researched, normally a lot more profoundly than needed to do the essay ... as I said overachiever)

what are your favorite subjects: arts, math, statistics and I do love history, but not the school subject (I had a mix of bad and not interested teachers in this one)

what are your favorite movies: i have no idea !! you ask my favorite movie and all movies that I ever watched just vanishes from my mind. I can try to think in a few that I like (but probably not my favorite) I guess...

The Mummy 1 & 2 (that Sofia cited)

Zombie ones (like Dawn of the Dead, Shaun of the Dead, World War Z, Train to Busan, etc)

i love animated movies (some of them: Shrek 2, Coco, How to Train Your Dragon, Coraline, Mulan, Anastasia, The Nightmare Before Christmas... I could keep citing animated movies for a long time here)

Grinch

The Covenant

Pride and Prejudice

The A-Team

Hero movies (even the bad ones)

Rom-coms (but I can’t think in any rn)

Silly comedies (i’m saying silly like the mummy ones and not over-sexual and stupid like american pie... i hate that kind of movie)

That’s all that I can think of rn :X

what are your favorite pastimes: I live from one distraction to another... Sooo, there’s a few...

I listen to music, a lot, while doing everything (I shouldn’t be let alone with my thoughts... ever); I read as much as my concentration and motivation let me; I watch stuff (like tv shows, dramas, movies and not so often: youtube videos); I draw sometimes when my motivation let me(... can I still say that after all this time? there is probably more than a year that I don’t draw anything), I blog and scroll down in the blue hell a lot; I look through and save pins on my Pinterest; I do some diy projects, i really like it but it’s linked to my motivation too so I do less and less stuff as the time passes; there were a time where I would play on my phone but it’s memory it’s too small and I can’t have games anymore; I used to play videogame too but I kind of linked it to my father so I don’t do that anymore; I create stupid stories or scenarios in my head; I really like to play around with photoshop; and I like to learn new things or tricks in things that I already know how to use/do

so you have any regrets: I have only regrets

what is your dream job: i dunno... you have to want to have a future for want to do something in the future i guess

would you like to get married: nope

do you want kids? how many if so: nope... i love kids but nope. Pregnancy is a terrifying thing and everyone painting it as a beautiful full of flowers and rainbows experience is lying. But even if it (pregnancy) wasn’t a problem put another person in this world would not only hypocrite of me, but a really mean thing to do. The world sucks every day more and bring an innocent life to this hell would be mean. Well, if I ever find any will to live I could adopt I guess... the kid is already here and I could at least love her/him, protect and give them the best I can, i guess.... No, I’m too afraid to become my mom, I don’t think I can do that. :(

how many countries have you visited: i can’t even say that i have visited mine... i know like three cities of it. I wish I had ever went to another country.

what was your scariest dream: i dunno... maybe the one where i was in this big ass house that i don’t know and i was running away and i could feel something hunting me and keep entering in different rooms or not being able to open doors and never finding a way out, and i started to run slower and i was terrified and then a very graphic version of the hunter of the left 4 dead that my brain created jumped in front of me and then in my face. Maybe not the worse since I have had several nightmares through my life but pretty terrifying and I remember it know..... and what kind of question is that?! who wants to think about that D:

do you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend/ significant other: nope... i’m asexual

put your playlist on shuffle and without skipping the first 15 songs:

almost gave myself a heart attack since I forgot to check the volume~

(I got my old ipod for the last five of the list, because I still listen to it... but it haven’t see a new music for like seven years)

Perfect Man - BTS (cover)

Ciao Adios - Anne-Marie

Often - The Weeknd (i didn’t even knew i was listening to a remix)

Play Hard - Krewella

The Edge - Tonight Alive

I Hate Everything About You - Three Days Grace

Pocketful Of Sunshine - Natasha Bedingfield

Fight Song - Rachel Platten

Now I'm That Bitch - Livvi Franc ft. Pitbull

The Outsider - Black Veil Brides

Tea Party - Kerli

Call Me When You’re Sober - Evanescence

C’est Moi - Marie-Mai

Papa Don’t Preach - Kelly Osbourne (cover)

Blue Suede Shoes - Elvis Presley

Bonus: Until the Day I Die - Story of the Year (because I forgot its existence until it start as the next in this shuffled list)

#tagged #gtkm #gtkm tag #honeyedmilks #long post

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shaddy-bee · 7 years

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I KNOW ITS BEEN LIKE 300 YEARS BUT-

5 things you’ll find in my bag

Right now theres uhh Notebooks, both school and 1 art. Drink mix ins, with such great flavors as sour apple jolly rancher and crush pineapple (tm) Two packs of cards, one of which steam punk themed and the other your regular ol bicycle. A calculator. Its a shitty old one but its for tests, i have google and shit for anything i need myself.

5 things you’ll find in my bedroom

A roommate. Idk if he is gay or what but he isnt straight, name’s will. Chill dude. Sleepin rn, what a fella MY SICK ASS COMPUTER IM MISSING OUT ON BECAUSE MY ROOMMATE IS ASLEEP AAAAAAAAAAAAAA I WANNA PLAY ROCKET LEAGUE WITHOUT LAGGING TO HELL also programming my mods. Need to upload that shit. Shit what number we on, 3? Okay cool. A bed. Wow really a bed in your bedrooM? yeah its pretty fuckin spectacular i know. I dont have posters n shit so like i gotta be creative you feel. A microfridge. Now i know what youre thinking, “ah a small fridge whats the big deal?” but no you dont understand, its a microwave fucking bolted onto the top of a fridge. They gave zero fucks attaching these two together and apparently the name is the same way, WHY NOT A FRIDGEWAVE EVEN LIKE MICROFRIDGE JUST SOUNDS LIKE A SMALL FRI- Last but not least, im tempted to just say my wallet here tbh, cuz its old but like, youd EXPECT that now would you? Something boring and mundane for me to fill out the word count with making everything super exciting so nah man, fuck it. Theres air in my bedroom. Fight me.

5 things I’ve always wanted to do in my life

Make a videogame. Like okay, a lot of stuff on this list is jokes and stuff, and I know im going into too much detail and my followers will probably murder me in cold blood for this shit, but im serious about this one like - i have some ideas, but i never have the motivation alone to like work whole-heartedly and finish one but like, at some point in the future id love to sit down and just go at it and make a game. Doesnt matter if its popular or big or small just i wanna make something that i love ya feel? I wanna like, go to newark, delaware. I know, its delaware and all, no one lives there, but ive met a bunch of cool people there and i was promised a donut run sometime, so lookin forward to that. Yknow that post awhile back that was like “i dont wanna be rich and like buy shit, i just wanna have enough money to throw at kickstarters whenever i want without having to strain on my food and rent costs” thats me. 100% Like i wanna have just enough money to be able to donate to cool people and watch them do cool shit - it wont always work out but thats fine, I just love shit. I wanna be able to donate like the high prize and fly out to meet these game studios for coffee and shit and just talk with em and see their passion and ideas. I love it. Im not actually really sure besides those. Like idk. I think itd be cool to enter a game tournament with my brother and win, but i doubt thatll happen and its not super like on my desires just itd be cool cuz we named ourselves Sora and Shiro after NGNL and to see that like, have us win would be great. Yeah. Ill make my fifth to think of a fifth one.

5 things on my to do list

FLOPPY DICKS i mean disks. Floppy disks. I do binding of isaac ab+ modding shit, and im currently working (its mostly done for what i want it to do) which adds a new consumable called floppy disks, effects are based on viruses, bugs, and just computer based shit. Like BSOD for instance, which makes the screen literately bluescreen. Or atleast look like it. Cant wait to watch people play with it. I gotta work on the programming class project too but honestly i dont waannnaaa. Like its cool as shit. Recreate a card game using c++ code. But man, i just love Apocrypha and Floppies so much more. Eat today???? Please. Dining hall opens in 3 hours. Its goddamn 4 am. I want my food. Dunno if ill get it - if ill stay awake till then. But i want it. Probably draw some stuff? Like i posted one drawing already (check it out if u wanna ;) kay?) but like theres wacom tablets here i can just kinda use whenever???? its great. I love being able to just draw stuff on em. Even if i suck at drawing, even if it took 10 hours to make the one i posted here, still love. Probably play more rocket league. Sleep first, soon as i get that food im CRASHIN BOI IM OUTTIE HA but uhh, rocket league has a halloween thing rn and i like playing it. Was playing earlier today and i matchd with a dude in 2v2 that had the same car, skin, AND colors set up as mine. Totaly random. We kicked some major ass together. I kept thinking of the same hat comic the entire time. (also my card was superior because it had furry ears on it ;))

5 things that make me happy

Getting an idea for a thing and working at said thing until like boom it went from this abstract idea to now it has a physical form and it works! And its fun and its great and i can share it with other people and they can have fun too!!!! that feeling is wonderful. Obviously friends man. Just doing shit with people can be so great sometimes - like not all the time sure but like man. Its nice to talk to people and share experiences and just smile and tell bad jokes and have them groan but like it anyway like thats the shit. Going out at 2 am and walking to a nearby run down schoolyard and swinging on the swingsets and watching shooting stars burn up. Thats the good shit. Getting tents and setting em up in your friends back yard when your friend from far away comes up for a few days, and playing ridiculous games in a group like kick the can or fuckin zombie screaming your lungs out in the dark to freak em out, or just talkin around a fire about fuckin life man. The people make life great. Shits worth living for. I realize that last answer covered a LOT of shit but like, im just gonna add here videogames. Would be amiss if i didnt mention that, considering the rocket league rant above lmao. Yeah i better not make this category any longer.

5 things I’m (currently) into

Isaac modding, probably will be for awhile. Its good shit. As a suggestion from one of the people I work with (we also fuck around its a good time) i have started watching space dandy. Its a slow progress through lol like an episode or two a day but god man like its pretty ridiculous and the main character is pretty much everything i was expecting from seeing him everywhere. Rocket league again. It comes and goes with various different games to tide me over, give me a break from working. Bout 2 months ago or so said relaxing time was dominated by anime - i suddenly went on like a massive streak of watching shit. By that i mean, i watched all of hunter x hunter in like 2 weeks, among other shows prior to it. But yeah. Fuck man HXH I LOVED THE KING WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. I have too many emotions about that. I wrote a rant to the Groupchat (tm) about the fucking battle and how everything is in slow motion but it fucking like makes it like foreshadowed and have so much of an impact and still so much fucking happens even while everything runs at super slow mo just GOD KLASFJBHUGHASFIUHIPJASK anyway. Yeah. Music, as always im listening to like constantly. Wireless headphones are a wonder for this, but uhh....i cant say im especially into any specific thing rn right? Like a bit ago i was super into joywave and then that faded out and now im just listening to whatever random shit, yknow? But I am into music in general. Its good. Art! A lot of times i dont do shit like for drawing right, like especially not in like pencil in notebooks but like, i sorta started doing a lot more art stuff? Like i had a period awhile back last year where i stopped using pencils and used only pens and i just loved the aesthetic of the ink like how it looked (funny how im doing the opposite of the fucking inktober though, huh?) but yeah im back into using pencils to draw shit occasionally. Im still terrible at drawing people (which is what i see mostly everyone drawing on tumblr lmao RIP) but its fun to sketch stuff out and just let my thoughts run and bounce to some music and shit right? Also the tablets. Especially with the tablets.

5 things people may not know about me (at least on tumblr)

I basically constantly wear sweatshirts, and they all have like earbuds where the strings go. All the earbud shits are broken pretty much, like occasionally they work (the one i have rn does) but like, i dont ever really use them? i have wireless headphones for my phone and a headset (because i need the mic for my computer) for said computer so like, idk. But yeah. I rarely take em off when im not home, and sometimes even when i am i just kinda keep em anyway? (also just now i realized i talked in the section for room shit about all the stuff in my current dorm, my room at home has all KINDS of wierd fucking shit in it. Really missed an opportunity there.) Like many people i like to stay hydrated and shit, but drinking water all the time seemed like a chore more than anything so i got like drink mix ins and shit, mio’s or whatever offbrand version you can find at your local SUPERSTORE CONGLOMERATE. I drink em like all the time pretty much so atleast im health in one way :P. Also gummy vitamins. I dont excercise but you can only ask for so much. Idk, its hard to think of things for this section because tumblr knows so little about me yknow? Like i never make my own posts or shit like its SUPER rare so im pretty much just tryna find random facts but that might not be interesting? Like i have a bad habbit of like talking way too loud when im excited about something right? Not quite yelling but like getting there and like idk. See? Thats not super interesting but it is something no one online would be able to really know ya feel? Idk. I mean physically im kinda fat as you do, but im also like wierdly strong? Like for someone who never works out i sure do have arm strength if nothing else lmao. My endurance is shit tho. Honestly? I can only blame it on osu and groceries. Osu is just a game i like where you mash buttons to the beat of weaboo shit tier music. The groceries is just because like, well, my policy is Least Trips Possible which means carrying in 13 bags at a time if need be it, fuck it milk too? And a watermellon? Bring it.

Who am I tagging? Idk man. Just for shits and stuff tho i do wanna tag @theoriginalyami just to see what all’s changed in teh long time since i actually went to fill it out :P Dont feel like you have to add as much as me tho omg @milkchocolateowl because honestly? love you. Think about you a lot, just like glad im mutuals with that ray of sunshine. Good. @fantaledfish <3 (this is the friend i mentioned earlier, runs a QUALITY blog i guarantee it, better than mine for sure) @dragonfucker-supreme always top in my notes, a silent bond, like two guards assigned to watch back to back in the early dawn. Birds gather round. I can only tag so many people (i set myself a limit of 5 because...idk why i just mentally it felt right) so for my last trick gotta go with @ask-oncies-jizz like cmon man name changes for the win, also has quality icons and quality shitposts tbh, supreme top meme. Have fun yall.

#god im #sorry #this is long #i hope its atleast somewhat enjoyable though yknow?#<3 #shaddy-online

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sanguinesprout · 7 years

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Therapy/Counselling Diary #7 (plus some small but heartening accomplishments and a few other little frustrations)

Hmm... hmm... it’s hard to say how I’m feeling right now, a strange cocktail of refreshing see sawing determination with a little kick of spicy proudness mingled in with the usual bitterness of overhanging doubt and the chill of all those nerve-wracking fears. Tastes pretty terrible, probably an acquired taste, but unique non the less. I’m no expert at all, but I’ll give it a generous 2.3 stars overall.

Last week was... it was not so bad actually (or maybe that’s just cause I’ve forgotten a lot of it already lol). I pushed myself to try harder to do some of the things my counsellor wanted me to do, what I myself wanted to do and le gasp, it happened..! I guess her hard talk really did stir something good in me after all. To put it real brief right here for now, I went out a lot more than I usually would (just mundane stuff like shopping and supermarkets tho) and I did the phone orders thing!!!1! Not once but multiple times over three days! Yaaay! But this week I need to continue it and even one up it... boooo-- uh, I mean go me!! @w@

There were times I totally copped out though and it feels bad man as usual, but I at least tried and I was able to prove some of my presumptions and preconceived thoughts mostly wrong! It’s something! It’s a big step, an accomplishment for me, don’t downplay it silly me! *pats self on back and proceeds to go in hiding again- no no!* This week is already feeling a little bleak but I just have to toast it up a little, let myself get cosy in this newer environment by just being there and exposing myself to it more. C’mon, I can do it! ^^

Okay onto the actual counselling session, which was yesterday. I literally only just made it on time, phew haha. I was a little anxious going up to the room cause there were some other people around in the corridor but w/e no1currs really and that goes for every other situation everywhere else. When you’re absorbed and focused in what you’re doing like other people are and not constantly looking around and assuming people give a damn (which they don’t) then it’s all good!

Um, anyways she did the typical ‘how are you/have you been’ and I gave her my weekly self scoring sheet but also I told her I forgot to give her that self esteem sheet and presented that too. I told her of my achievements last week and she congratulated me, told me I needed to pat myself on the back more and that she’s glad last week actually helped get me off my butt (she said she felt kinda bad about it too, but not so much now that she saw it had a good effect kind of thing too ^^). I agree last week did help, though I definitely wouldn’t wanna go through that again though lol.

We went over the cycle from before real briefly just as a reminder that actually doing things is the best way to break it and to progress and I have this homework sheet consisting of a table with columns for my preconceived thoughts of a situation (which I am to score with a percentage I believe it), my emotions and feelings that arise, and my uhh re-scores and feelings after actually facing and going through the situation. I haven’t actually looked at the sheet since yesterday so I totally winged the explanation just then lol but it’s about linking thoughts and emotions and that’s pretty much the gist of it. I’m kinda nervous about filling it in and I’m leaving it to the end of the week to do it, which is bad, but I’ll at least know what to put in it better by then hopefully.

We went over some of the things I wrote on the self esteem sheet, some of my examples for the unhelpful negative behaviours and we discussed them for a while but only got through a few. She said she’d go over the other ones next time, we agreed I should continue to do what I did last week but maybe try even harder. (There’s lots of small details in the discussions which I can’t remember properly or can’t place in the right time slot rn oh welp ><”)

Then the session ended there (15 mins early) idk why though. But now that I think about it, maybe there was nothing else left to say or not much plan or other things needed to discuss in particular for the last 3 sessions so maybe just try and stretch what content we have on hand to discuss kind of thing? Or maybe she needed to go somewhere like the toilet? lol who knows xD

I was feeling the session felt pretty short (my explanation also), but wasn’t all that bothered about it tbh, I’m not paying for it or anything and it gave me a little time to do other stuff before meeting with my sis. I plucked up the courage to go to a shop on my own again, I had a few things in mind that I actually wanted to look for which like the counsellor has said before will make it easier to motivate and immerse myself into doing things. I think I might write about this experience on the feelings-thoughts sheet.

So, I went in, a little uneasy at first, but not as much as if it would have been a place I’ve never stepped foot into before. I perused at my leisure and tried my hardest not to be overly conscious of other people around, which I noted to myself do actually going about their own stuff and don’t pay you any mind at all which lessened the nerves a lot. I found some things I wanted, and this was another relief as I always get that niggling feeling that if I leave without buying they’ll think I stole something (but looking around the internets randomly, I came to know that this is a super common feeling which is comforting and I shouldn’t worry about it too much because so what if I didn’t buy anything, I just couldn’t find anything I wanted and that is totally fine!).

Partway in the last leg of my perusing, my sis phoned me and told me to hurry up and all that stuff and it kinda made me feel real antsy. I continued looking though at a slightly faster pace but she ended up calling outside and told me to hurry up even more and was waiting for me outside so I cut my browsing short and hurried to pay and felt pretty down about it. When paying I queued up behind a group of guys and felt self-conscious but well, they no care really and I got over it and ignored the thought.

I went to the self serve till (the only kind open, so I wasn’t avoiding or anything) and proceeded to pay and I’m so glad I know how to use them as we use them most of the time my sis goes to the supermarket with me lol but I still was feeling pretty self-conscious and the ‘unexpected item in bagging area’ still gives me nerves and it happened twice to me but the assistant came over and fixed it straight away without me saying anything (which was a relief because I was feeling a little cowardly by then, but I would’ve been a little prouder of myself for actually asking).

I went with my sis to some other shops after that, I voiced that she was being quite mean on the phone and later she apologised, she was in a pretty bad mood in general and also the car park time wasn’t much and most of the bad feeling was dissolved. We then went to some other other shops with my mum in addition and I went off on my own to peruse which was nice though I couldn’t find anything I wanted, but it’s best not to waste monies on things I don’t need anyways. I got kind of sickly on the way home which wasn’t great but the general day was pretty alright.

There was somewhere else I wanted to go and me and my sis planned to go soon after but it was delayed and later I just kind of chickened out and took a nap instead :/ I was really tired and still sickly feeling though. I hope to get this sorted out this week still though, maybe I’ll tag along with my parents this time round, it’ll be okay! ^^

I also went to see a specialist doctor, I got a phone call for the appointment two days before the actual day (probably someone else cancelled) and I took it. I could’ve said no and waited even longer, but I didn’t, because health is important and should be dealt with asap! I wish I could bring myself to apply this to some of my other worries, but I’ll get there. Anyways it went alright, the typical general treatment route, but at least it’s something, now I’m waiting on my regular doc for the next steps.

The kind of funny thing is though (in reference to my last post or maybe the one before it), is that I have been recommended to take anti-depressants (BUT not for depression) they happen to help with migraines and oversensitivity which affects me all the time pretty much. A lot of medicines help with other conditions they were not primarily made for, I only realised this in the recent years lol. I’m a little wary and I’m hoping that it’ll help, maybe even kill two birds with one stone, but if it doesn’t then oh welp and onto the next thing they recommend. I want to get better every way I can and there’s no harm trying (except maybe side effects ugh) it’s just the stigma thing again, it’s... complicated .__. But it’ll be okay!

In terms of my own art and online dabblings, I actually spent two of the days I did phone orders doodling and editing stuff a little. I wasn’t really going to draw anything seriously but my non serious doodle started off pretty alright and I continued it and finished it, which I kind of felt proud of as usually I start things and never finish them because I get scared to mess it up or think it’s not good enough. It has its flaws of course, I’m such a nit picky person and I know I need to improve, but looking past these things, I really like what I did and am glad I persevered and completed it.

I also tried posting something online, not on here, but I actually did it for once at least! It was nothing amazing, in fact it was really really lame, just a scrawl from another time but I still like it and that’s all that matters, right? Right! I was really struggling over what to write in the descriptions (much like how I spend ages agonising over writing comments) and still keep feeling iffy about what I wrote but it’s actually all fine, so I should stop worrying about it! Hear that silly me? Don’t fret and don’t regret, it’s fine so keep going! :D

Some people (very few) even liked my picture and one person even commented some thumbs up emojis. It’s really nice of them ;w; I don’t think they were bots and I looked at their pages too. The person that commented has a page full of beautiful art and idk I just felt like omg ahhhh they’re so much more amazing then me and super intimidated and wasn’t sure what to do about the comment and still haven’t done anything and it’s been a few days .__.

They probably like loads of peoples stuff though, and also there’s no obligation to have to like their stuff back (though I have a feeling that’s probably why they liked my awful doodle in the first place, to draw attention to their own page, but I shouldn’t assume, that’s bad, maybe they really thought my doodle was okay and kindly wanted to encourage, who knows). I think maybe I’ll like the comment at least, I don’t want to be rude >< I’m just scared that if I do go and like their stuff, I’ll feel obligated to always do it kind of thing, I’m still just so scared of interacting with people (also this person doesn’t speak english it seems and language barriers are my death, but this person didn’t mind it, so uh uh wait I’m being such a baby again ;____;)

I’m seriously overthinking things way too much again!! I get this feeling when I think of people that may have taken their time to read my posts or even the few people that have liked a post or two. I’m seriously very very grateful and would hug you if I could but I don’t know what to do from then and it just keeps swirling and nagging me inside and I’m so sorry >< Overthinking and social awkwardness will surely be the death of me. I need to stop all the uncertainty and what ifs and silly assumptions and just do what I feel! Why is it so hard..? ;^;

I actually got so scared I didn’t post the next small doodle I wanted to, but I need to get over it and just get it done and continue and post the things I’ve really really been wanting to post for months. No one actually cares about all the silly things I think they do, I can’t read minds and I can’t go one thinking that I can. The same for just people in general irl. I was actually a little proud that I was so self-conscious out in public as much recently, that I noticed people are too busy in their own world and that I’m silly for thinking they would expend the brain energy to linger on me negatively. Another mantra sort of thing I’ve been thinking is ‘IDGAF (and no one else does)’ lolol for reals, but it seems to be pretty effective so imma keep it! :>

Losing motivation and becoming disheartened is so easy. I’m going to continue small and simple and build up from there in every aspect and it’ll get easier and I’m gonna keep my grip real tight on that motivation and determination and soak in all my accomplishments no matter how small or insignificant they seem and convert them into even more positive energy! Imma do things!! Imma do lots of things and not get mad at myself even if I don’t manage to do some of them! Baby steps is the way to go! c:

Like always I get a bit apprehensive when writing these or even thinking of doing so, but they are actually very useful! I can sift through and explore my thoughts better now and I can help re-motivate and re-direction myself with them and I even think my writing and expression in general has gotten better! It’s a good thing, it’s an achievement! Be happy silly self! ^^

Worry just makes the world seem all the more scary. Break the cycle, break the cycle, snap it to pieces, crush it into dust and let it fly away in the wind and never return! >< Keep going, reach higher, climb further (without forgetting to take rest stops in between and continue onwards with renewed vigour) past the sky and the stars, you can do it! Moar fancy fancy motivation!! x3

I guess I’ll stop here, I think I’ve got most of the stuff down and there’s stuff I wanna do now that I’ve pieced my motivation back together some ^^ When I go to my drafts to write, I see the to do/dream list I wrote last time and it reminds me of all the things I could do, it definitely needs to be tidied up but it’s nice seeing it! I’m pumped! :3

I hope things go well for myself and everyone out there, go go!

Have a great evening! C:

#therapy #avpd #anxiety #social anxiety #depression #thoughts #feelings #*pats self on back*#feels good man #keep going #break the cycle #don't give a damn about the irrational #do it all for yourself #never regret #no obligations #baby steps #try your best!#onwards to victory!

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Menta! A few weeks ago I got my first wacom tablet! I decided to stop throwing all my art immediately into the garbage and to just keep making art until it doesn't suck so much anymore. You're one of my favorite artists on tumblr. Do you have any tips or advice for brand new baby artists?

whoa okay this is. kinda late i’m super sorry!!! i hope i didn’t make you wait too long aaaaa

ALSO THANK YOU VERY MUCH

AND CONGRATS ON YOUR NEW TABLET !!!!! i’m so happy for you :))

okay back to business. let’s see. this is kind of a hard question but i’ll do my best to answer. if any other artist out there has something to add feel free to do so cause i’m probably not the best teacher but

to begin, i’d say find joy in art.

oookay you’ve probably already accomplished this step XD but let me elaborate. art takes a lot of practice. and by a lot, i mean a lot. like, draw until your fingers fall off, then draw some more. so, try and find fun in even the most mundane pencil exercises. for instance– fall in love with the way you draw lines. get lost in the value and shading. put music on in the background that inspires you. draw things that are so fun that you could easily spend a few hours on the picture and not even notice the evening shadows lengthening and the temperature dropping. because art takes so much dedication and discipline, i think it’s easier to continue with it when you’re enjoying the absolute heck out of it.

of course, there are gonna be areas that you kinda have to train yourself to tackle, even when you don’t want to. take hands, for example. before i understood how to draw them, they were a bane. now, though, i’m a tad more comfortable with them– and i find them to actually be kind of fun. step outside your comfort zone. it’s gonna be super uncomfy at first, but over time, it’ll get easier i promise. and when you’ve gotten to a point where you’re comfortable with it, find something else you’re iffy on and delve headfirst into it. i think that’s the quickest way to improve.

i think now’s a good time to mention references. look at references. etch them into your mind. eat, breathe, and digest them. references will help you a lot. you’ve probably heard this from every artist out there that ever lived, but draw from real life. it may be dull or uninteresting at first, but it will absolutely help expand your skills. i like to refer to this as eating your artist veggies XD not super fun at first, but once you’ve grown huge artist muscles, you’re gonna appreciate that you did it.ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ

i also like to think that in all stages of your art journey, learning from other artists is a good thing. find art styles that capture your heart and take inspiration from those. during my very first years as an artist, the way disney drew soft, round faces for the disney princesses was my main artistic inspiration. afterwards, in my anime phase, i discovered speedpaints done by fantastic artists on youtube and found that my artistic motivation practically tripled in size. because of those artists, i literally shook with excitement as i busted out my colored pencils– and eventually my digital tablet!! so yeah, feel free to learn from those artists. just be aware of the line between “learning from” and “copying”. many artists are very sensitive about this so yeah be careful. ask them before you post a redraw of their piece that you did, and whatnot.

on a small note, making full use of tutorials. they’re gonna be very useful to you. and, as i mentioned before, speedpaints. speedpaints allow you to see exactly what an artist does to achieve their final results– and you might pick up a thing or two along the way!!

it’s also very important to remember to be patient with yourself. art is not a race, and it’s not a competition– but it’s kind of easy to fall into that mindset. there are gonna be people who are going to be more skilled than you, so it’s in your best interest not to compare yourself to them. in my experience, i find that this stunts art and motivation very easily. i’ve fallen into this mindset years ago, and even now i look at artwork done by my peers and feel horrible about the stuff that i’ve drawn. sadly, it’s the biggest thing holding me back right now. comparing yourself to others is not fun, and, i think, only slows down your artistic journey. so, do your best do avoid it.

and finally, this is just something i noticed as i grew as an artist and i have no idea how many artists this actually applies to but. try to understand the things you’re drawing, i guess? haha idk how to explain it but i’ll try my best. for instance, when i first started out drawing faces, in my mindset i was sketching lines that would eventually become a face. as i drew more faces, though, i developed a better understanding of their structure, of how they worked. i understood things like how eye sockets cast a lot of shadow over eyes, and that the length of the philtrum (that’s the area between the nose and the upper lips if you were wondering!!!) determines where the mouth goes. i understood that a stretched-out hand is a little smaller than a face, and that shoulders begin where clavicles end.

this understanding of how objects work applies to many things. water is gloopy– when drawing droplets, it’s best to draw gloops. clouds are puffy, but they have shape– so the fundamentals of shading applies to them. tree tops and foliage are jagged, but those jags are leaves, so i gotta draw them in the most leafy way that i can.

i’m sure i’m going off on a tangent laughs. what i’m trying to get at, though, is that in my opinion artists have this understanding of how the world works around them. buckle in your seat belt cause im gonna go off on a long list of examples once again (≧ω≦)

to me, artists know the visual difference between copper and silver cause they have to apply those differences to their drawings. they know how muscles work, and what hands are shaped like, and where facial features are placed because the more they understand it, the more their artistic skills benefit. those who draw a lot of machinery need to know the different parts of a car cause the more they know, the better their drawings will be. just like how an artist who draws people would find it very useful to know the human body’s muscle structure by heart. just… yeah. try and understand the things you’re drawing. i think it would help a lot.

i think that’s everything i’ve got to say. i hope you were able to find something useful from this large jumble of random tips.

art is hard, so attack it with everything you’ve got. cause with every drawing, you can only get better and better. if you ever have any doubts, or mental hurdles, or art blocks, remember this–

i believe in you. like, a lot. here, have 5 gallons of good wishes!! you got this, so now… go. be great

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#pikasuz #long post #haha i rambled XD #but!!!!! i hope this was helpful to you in some way #good luck friend #you absolutely can do this <33

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