i just caught up to wind breaker manga (the satoru nii one) and i desperately need to rant abt it

let's start from the fact that i'm not a fan of this genre of manga. the only other delinquent series i've actually read was t*kyo r*vengers but we shall not speak about this one and it certainly didn't leave a good impression of this type of manga on me. so imagine my surprise when i tuned in to the first episode of wind breaker and i found myself tearing up by the end of it, let's just say that it was quite unexpected.

the thing that surprised me the most about this series is the heart that it has. yes it's cheesy, yes it's cringe at times, yes the premise of the town and the school is so silly it might just fall apart if you start looking at it too closely. but the series manages to build the sense of community within this place so fast and so well that i never actually found myself questioning any of that.

another thing that was a really nice surprise was how kind the series is, both with its characters and with the themes it builds itself on. the main one of course being opening yourself up and learning how to trust others. every time we see a character struggle with that it tugs at my heartstrings so much i end up barely able to read the chapter cause my eyes water immediately, especially when it's about sakura himself.

sakura, oh my dear sakura. i could sing him praises for hours i fear so i'll try to keep it short. he's just incredible. he's truly the heart of the story in every sense of the word. he's so kind! he's such a good person, even if he doesn't believe it or doesn't know how to properly express his care for others! he's so lovable from the start, even before you see him grow into the person he is at the current stage of the manga. and he keeps growing and changing and becoming the person he probably never thought he could ever become before he came to furin. and it's all because of the people around him that accept him and let him grow at his pace, even if he makes mistakes or doesn't do things exactly right immediately.

i love the slightly more recent imagery of comparing him to a plant that started to grow since he joined furin. it started in the stretch between the keel arc and the red lights district arc when he decided that furin is the place that he belongs in and we saw a little sprout, but i feel like it's gonna come to full fruition in this arc. it's pretty clear to me considering that endo literally compares him to a flower and his whole thing is to try and set sakura on fire (metaphorically of course... i hope). it's probably gonna be contrasted to umemiya who's literally a gardener and under whose care and leadership, directly or not, sakura was finally able to grow because he was nurtured by those around him. in this case the main person who allowed that to happen would be umemiya as he's the one who made furin into what it is now. also, i've seen quite a lot of people be worried (?) about sakura potentially going with endo to protect furin but idk man i don't think that would happen. the angst potential is incredible but he was literally calling out that girl in the red lights arc (i'm sorry i forgot her name, it slipped my mind cause i've read like 90% of this manga in two days) for... basically doing just that. giving herself up so that others could be safe without thinking about their feelings. i feel like he's probably gonna take that lesson and apply it here.

speaking of which, i love this whole theme of passing down knowledge and advice on how to handle things that are new to you. first it's kotoha telling sakura that he needs allies to be at the top of furin, that he should start facing people that want to be there for him and even the small things like telling him to just say "leave it to me" when someone asks for help. and then, in the keel arc, he uses the same advice he was given before and gives it to someone else who's also struggling with quite similiar things to him. then there's him learning how to rely on other boys in his class and going to kaji for advice, who's very clearly meant to be kind of a parallel to sakura. kaji's went to somewhat similiar things, he's just further down the path of figuring out who he is, what he can and can't do that sakura is (or at least that was the case when they talked). so he gives sakura advice, one that was given to him before by hiragi when he was struggling as a newly made grade captain who felt like he was wholly undeserving of the trust that people placed in him and felt like he's gonna dissapoint them. he knows exactly what sakura is struggling with so he can help him the way he was helped before, the same way that sakura helped nagato before.

i have a lot more thoughts about this series but they are not sorted out in my brain in any way yet so i'm not gonna say anything more cause this on its own is messy as hell

Sacrifices and parallels

This au is so niche the audience is literally just me anyway Life Series but make it Marble Hornets

(version w/o the static effect under the cut)

cult of the lamb has some really cool visuals and the accent color is my fave so i really wanted to do some post-game designs and doodles to get out of an art slump

If Jason had been written to have atleast somewhat of a jealousy streak of Percy, then it would have made him more human tbh. Ironically I feel like the fandom would've been much more empathetic to his character, if he acknowledged that he envied Percy a little and then came to terms with it. We know that Jason's fear of being 2nd best is a very integral part of his character, I mean, Gaia taunting him with that in his nightmares was enough to reduce him into tears. and that's the ONLY time we've even remotely seen him cry. Percy had so many things Jason didn't have, a loving mom, a loving girlfriend who took a knife for him and never broke his heart, a loving camp that looked for him endlessly after he went missing, people ACTUALLY wanting him to survive because they care about him not because they need him for glory, etc. and if im being honest Poseidon wasn't even that bad of a father (for a big three god, atleast) tbh he still came to percy's 15th birthday, invited him to fishing, genuinely loved sally, she was probably the only mortal he fell in love with and it stayed that way, he was never rude to percy and stuck up for him etc. not tryna say percy had it easy or anything ofc he didnt, but there is no point in denying that he had a MUCH better support system than jason ever had.

The fact that Jason despite having none of these things was not even remotely envious of Percy made him appear like a bland robot with no emotional baggage

Compare this to Nico, who was rightfully a little jealous/idolizing Percy while simultaneously having a crush on him, also a little jealous of Jason because he was "the golden boy" who everyone respected, it made him have SO much depth and the fandom loves him (rightfully so)

also, leo. He was resentful of Percy up until blood of Olympus because of how everyone loved him, how Calypso fell for him almost immediately, etc. it's very realistic.Jason feeling a little resentful of Percy and then later talking it out would've made his character much less of a shallow stereotypical nice guy that ppl dislike.

maybe Rick could've expanded on Jason's jealousy of how quickly camp Jupiter accepted Percy and how quickly Reyna made him praetor, when jason himself had dedicated his whole life to it and was only made praetor in the last couple months, how camp Jupiter and his supposed friends never held a memorial for him even after they thought he was dead, etc. Also how Percy spent more time with thalia than jason ever did, we know he did feel a little envious since he mentioned how much he wished thalia looked for him the way she was looking for percy

I would've loved to see Jason being a little cold to Reyna too because of this and then they later talk it out, since it's VERY realistic, I was surprised with how quickly jason shrugged the whole Percy- being- a -praetor thing off, I thought he'd have felt a little betrayed by Reyna considering that they were childhood friends, and reyna never really sent a search party or something after him like annabeth did, gods, the amount of angst potential this man had i love him ugh

current abnormal obsession is the trolls trilogy (TRILOGY!!!) and broppy☹️

no left eye gang 💪

“For years I didn't even have a clue. [...] Good for you. I didn't expect that you would be my downfall. Claiming you don't know anything. What a great strategy. No wonder that you could hide behind the scene for so many years. Sorry that you have been treated unfairly.”

Have- have you seen Naruto abridge?!??

IRUKA SOUNDS LIKE MEOWTH I CANNOT IM DIEING NARUTO SOUNDS WELL HE IS A SMOKEr QOJDKSLSKEHEIK.

Link if ya want it.

https://youtube.com/watch?v=vPzxHWre4M8&list=PLW33CQ4PbByesTyIpP2IVQysNVn-Slk3x&index=1

OK listen. I was not into naruto as a kid but I watched the ninjabridge series so many times I could recite the lines verbatim. So SO many quotes from that series just repeat in my head for no reason. Especially Iruka’s lines.

noah, whelk, and adele

hunting for dead welsh kings before it was cool (and decidedly made it stay uncool because one of them. Um. Yeah )

The Risen/Fallen chapter lineup so far...

Inspiration hit me like a fucking truck today, so I might have Chapter 2 up tomorrow or the next day, much more quickly than I anticipated for a brand-new chapter!

Anyway, my plotting document for this series revival is an absolute monster right now. I'll share the current list of chapters I have planned out. New chapters with new content are bolded.

How Narinder Takes His Tea (posted on Tuesday)

Crown

Ray

Not Quite Paradise

Daydreamer

How to Be a God For Dummies

The Apple Murder Case

Satisfying ASMR: Cat Purring to Help You Fall Asleep

A Friend and a Catnap

I'm Jelly Baby

Shine

Ordinary Happiness Is Not Enough

Dice-Roll Observation

Until You Wake Up

With You

To the Endless Blue Sky

Coloring

Break

Scars

Our Love Song

I'm pretty sure I'll keep it to twenty, but with a plethora of details/character interactions/a couple subplots I want to add, we'll see. Once I have a chapter posted, how quickly I post the next chapter will heavily depend on whether or not it's a rewrite of a chapter I wrote for the first publication of this series. Newer chapters will obviously take more time. Though there's much more I want to add to existing chapters, the rewritten ones will probably come out more quickly.

vegas and his sexuality is a very interesting topic for me.

so far, from what we’ve seen, vegas uses sex and his own sexuality as a ploy, as a way to feel in control — hence his dominance. we know little about his “relationship” with tawan, but it’s a safe bet to say he used sex as a way to manipulate him. he clearly didn’t enjoy tawan’s touch, looked almost disgusted by it and tawan himself. all this while tawan seemed to be head over heels in love with him, ready to risk everything, ready to risk his life for vegas.

except he didn’t see vegas. because vegas put on a mask, he hid himself behind it and tawan, while claiming that he loved vegas, loved an entirely different person who doesn’t even exist. they fucked, but it was never intimate the way it’s supposed to be, because vegas was never really himself.

enter pete, who’s seen the monster behind the mask and the vulnerable, sad person hiding behind the monster. he sees sides of vegas possibly no one ever has. vegas was intimate with pete even before they had sex. he’d let his guard down enough to show this broken, starved for love man who has to put on a show to please everyone. because that’s how he thinks he’ll find happiness and acceptance.

but pete doesn’t seem to require that, the mask and the show. quite the contrary, pete understands the parts of vegas that he, himself, deems the most unlovable. they have a connection that vegas has been desperate for his entire life, a form of intimacy he’s never experienced before.

pete, in one way or another, seems to trust him, despite seeing the worst parts of him. he trusts him by kissing him first, by giving him the rope himself. vegas seems baffled, once he falls next to him when they finish, when pete smiles. pete is smiling at him. because of him. because vegas showed him yet another side of himself. because vegas didn’t just fuck him, they were intimate in a way that’s new for both of them.

while it’s safe to assume that this might have been pete’s first time having sex this way, the first time he embraced this side of his sexuality, it’s also a first for vegas — the first time he felt comfortable enough with someone to be vulnerable during sex.

and then there’s the part of vegas that uses sex as escapism, as a coping mechanism. he’s not a man of words and clearly, not many would be willing to listen to him, so he resorts to using his body to express himself and to let out what he’s feeling. he let pete in but when vegas hit himself in front of him, he felt himself slipping to a place he didn’t feel ready to show, that he doesn’t know how to cope with except with violence or sex. and he didn’t want to hurt pete, so he chose sex.

eras that have irreparably damaged my psyche:

post beatles ringo

okay like i DO think there is something significant in wat liking indie movies (esp international ones) while akk and kan said they fall asleep during them and just dont understand them and then having wat be like actually aye kinda rules guys and ready to volunteer to help aye as well as him being the one to make their friends stick to their personal rule of talking things out and taking the time to think about it from both akk and aye's perspectives rather than just siding with one of his best friends or from the person who was more directly trying to help him.

not to be like mass movies are the devil and you need to consume content that makes you think but like...exactly that. just kinda an interesting way to show the level of connection even of them have with the ideals of the school, kinda like how kan is willing to get in physical fights over homophobia, at least for thua. but with the movies, it's in a much broader sense since kan's actions are something that happens directly in his life, while through movies wat is given a greater range of possibility for disconnecting and critical thinking away from what's being enforced bc it is not all directly tied to him personally.

also like. the movie wat wants to go see, while i do not think it is an actual existing movie but i also only looked for abt 30 minutes, is definitely a gay movie bc both the people on the movie poster are men and it is called moments of love lol. so like Okay wat i see you. but yeah anyways i think it just offers some insight to him and how he's definitely like, a lot farther along in ways of forward thinking or however you'd want to say that. i have a lot of thoughts about it.

I must ask: what's your favorite Precure series (or Precure character), and why?

ah! you see the thing is, I’ve only ever finished star twinkle hehe. but i have seen a few episodes of tropical rouge and the 2020 miracle leap movie too! im also planning to watch the new all stars F movie when i can!! [hopefully soon ahh]. So yeah I don’t have much to say about any other season

but!! I have a lot to say abt star twinkle! like a lot. I watched star twinkle because I saw Yuni's wiki page, got interested, and proceeded to stay up till 4am watching it all. So yeah! I really enjoyed it, I don’t even know where to start

yuni is my favorite character if it wasnt obvious lol, she is literally like. the perfect character from personality to design. shes an antagonist aligned shapeshifting phantom thief catgirl with a blue/yellow/rainbow color scheme who struggles with self perception and relationships in general and gets found-familied by the narrative [whether she likes it or not]. [[this sentence is meant to all be said in one continuous breath]] TLDR she could not be any more perfect, she scores a 10/10 for character of all time. i could say a lot abt yuni!! but ill hold myself back for now since i feel that could be a whole essay of its own. hikaru is also a character that's growing on me a lot. im not sure how to put it into words, but! shes really really interesting to me, which surprised me since i dont typically lean towards her character type. maybe i can find the words to talk abt her one day, bc i see way too much slander directed at her, she does not deserve all that

ok but star twinkle itself! i adore its themes of friendship, forgiveness, and learning what it means to grow up and grow apart. typical for a show of its demographic. what really got me was how it expanded on all of that, it introduced the concept of figuring out your place in the world, and learning how to continue living happily even if the people you care about most aren't here with you. it kinda hit really close to home for me. its so obvious how much the whole cast cares for each other, and i could see them building up to a finale where they would all have to say goodbye to each other forever. i wasnt sure if theyd actually commit all the way but!! they sure did!!!! watching them get separated at the end like that really hurt!!! like a lot!!!!!! im such a baby when it comes to cast separations but. man. star twinkle did it really well.

also also its ost is really really good??! this is aside from the intro and outro themes, im focusing on the instrumental backing tracks that play throughout the episodes. i was surprised to find them on youtube, and found myself blown away by how emotional they were. its got such a strong central motif that plays throughout the tracks, and obliterates you at the end when it shows back up to deliver an extremely emotional farewell song. i have cried several time listening to it, i dont think any ost has ever done that to me [aside from a few select songs from various medias. and undertale lol]. but yeah. listen to the star twinkle ost if you havent it will make you feel things.

i could also add that the movie kills me every time. watch the star twinkle movie if ur at all interested in anything ive said. its a good starting point if u want to see some action and get the vibe of the characters

on the topic of movies, final little note! im really interested in the new all stars F movie and prim, or cure supreme. literally know nothing about them but!! im staring so hard, they look exactly like my type of character. also the songs that have released are really really good ahhh scratching at the walls i hope it releases somewhere soon so i can see them in action. hopefully itll get me interested in checking out other seasons as well :]

WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT BOILING POINT EPISODE TWO???

LIKE WHAT THE FUCK /POS ACTUALLY WHAT

SILENTLY SCREAMING THE ENITRE TIME THAT WAS SUCH AN INTENSE EPISODE WHAT.