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thedreadvampy · 5 months

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My housemate is moving out in January

She told us this a week or two ago, when she sat down and, after sitting with us watching TV for over an hour, said "hey so I bought a house and I'm moving out. We agreed on 2 months notice so I won't move until the end of January."

The last time she talked in the immediate terms about buying a house was in 2021, when the sale she was working on fell though and she was unemployed so it was a "when I'm back in a position to look I'll start looking again." Since then I've occasionally asked her how she's doing on the house buying front and she's been like "oh I'm getting there financially" but hasn't mentioned anything concrete.

She didn't tell us she was looking at places. She didn't tell us she had put in an offer. She told us when the offer was finalised. A week AFTER she emailed the letting agent about getting out of her part of the lease. And, it increasingly feels like, only because the letting agent's response was that we had to agree to change the lease.

The letting agent's response (which our housemate obviously didn't copy us into; we had to follow up separately and they copied us into the email chain) also includes that when we change the lease, they're empowered to change the rent, quote, "no cap". Rent was already going up in January - there's no possibility of Sam and I paying her share of the rent.

The really fucking upsetting thing is we're not strangers. This isn't a casual "housemate we found on flatshare" thing. She and Sam have lived together literally their entire adult lives. Me and her have known each other well over a decade. I lived in her and Sam's flat when I was homeless. We were the first people she came out to as trans. We're not super close but I thought we were fucking friends. And she's literally gone out of her way to not talk to us about this for what must have been months while the sale completed - which means she's lied to my face at least once cause I've asked her about her finances in that time (cause she's in a job she hates that she only took to get the house money, so it's like. when we've been commiserating about work stuff I'm often asking 'are you almost free?'). she literally went out of her way to talk to the letting agents before talking to us about putting us in a situation where we could lose our fucking home.

And she keeps. trying. to pretend nothing's happened. Every time I've seen her since then she's not mentioned anything or apologised or anything, she just keeps chatting away and offering hugs and fistbumps like nothing's happened. Like we're still fucking friends.

All it would take for us to still be friends and to be happy for her would have been one fucking sentence in the groupchat like "hey, just put an offer in on a house" or "I'm looking at properties, just so you know, that might happen in the next few months". Like nobody begrudges her for buying a house! It's very cool for her! She's 31 she's worked really hard to get the money I would love to be happy for her! Unfortunately she decided avoiding conflict is more important than giving the people she fucking LIVES WITH (who btw fronted her a month on the rent here while she was unemployed and agreed to take on a larger proportion of the move-in cost back in 2021, if we're still holding ourselves to shit we said 2.5 years ago), so no, you are not entitled to our friendship or to going back to normal.

like if she'd been honest with us it would have been something to process but we'd have had time to figure out our next steps. instead she's left us in a position where we have to find a new roommate before she gives her one month notice, which means finding someone by the end of December, which oh look that's the middle of the fucking Christmas holidays. and she didn't tell us anything until the START of December, or copy us into her conversation with the letting agent, meaning we still don't know what the rent on that space will be so we aren't yet in a position to advertise it. Has she offered to help find a roommate? Has she fuck. Has she offered to help out by moving her move-out date? Nah, she's moving as soon as she gets the keys because, quote, "that means her finances won't have to change". SOUNDS LOVELY. NOT HAVING YOUR FINANCES SUDDENLY CHANGE. I THINK THAT SOUNDS LIKE A REALLY REASONABLE FUCKING GOAL.

Thirteen fucking years she's lived with Sam. Four fucking weeks over Christmas she's left us to figure out a way to not turbofuck our living situation. And she's got the fucking nerve to try and pretend we should be interacting like nothing's changed. Jesus Christ. What a fucking unhinged way to treat...anybody, honestly. never mind the friends-your-entire-adult-life part. literally cannot imagine a scenario in which I would buy a house without telling the people I lived with.

(haha actually this is what my parents divorced over so apparently it's not unusual. although at least my dad had the decency to tell the woman he shared finances with at the point he put in an offer not the point the fucking sale went through.)

Like we'll be fine. It's a huge city centre flat with decent rent and queer housemates, hopefully even when the rent goes up it'll be an easy sell in a city with a huge housing shortage and big queer community. We've got a couple of people interested already, sight unseen - worst case scenario we have to live with someone we don't get on with. And it's given Sam and me a push to look at our own finances and as of today, we've got a mortgage decision in principle and can start looking at flats in the area - mind, we'll be transparent upfront and tell any prospective housemates that yeah, we're looking to buy and move out in the next 6-12 months, and we'll tell them if we put an offer in, because we're decent fucking people who aren't going to spring that on someone out of the blue.

But it's been I think 2 weeks and I'm so fucking angry I could spit. It's such a fucking betrayal. And frankly you know selfishly like. I just had a breakup a couple of months ago, I'm in the middle of moving jobs, both me and Sam have a history of housing instability and this has been the first decent, stable, safe, not-mouldy not-freezing home I think any of us have had, and this is so fucking triggering and upscuttling I could just start biting. like I was talking to my friend about it last week and it's just like. Can I have One Fucking Thing of the three main tentpoles of survival - home, work, relationships - that are fucking stable right now? because shit has been In Flux lately. and at least the work and relationship stuff has changed because of my decisions. going through all that work to make myself short-term unstable to gain long-term stability has been really hard and draining and then just as I was reaching the crisis point with work stuff BOOM, IT'S HOUSING INSTABILITY WITH A STEEL CHAIR. fuck. seriously fuck this and fuck her. we're going to make something good come of it but what a deeply, unbelievably shitty thing to do.

#red said #the other thing that bugs me about it is. ok and again this is old shit dredged back to 2021 when we moved in together #but i had my housemate. and Sam had her. and each of us were really close pairs who'd lived together a long time #and we tried looking for flats as a four but a) a flat with 4 good sized bedrooms in Edinburgh is hens teeth #and b) my housemate was pretty happy to live with me and Sam but increasingly felt like a 4 man flat was going to be a lot for him #and so in the end we talked about it. and through a combination of that and same housemate being in a pretty #unfavorable position housing wise. cause she was unemployed and had shit credit at that moment.#we agreed she'd move with us and Joe went and found a one bed #and in the end that's been really great for him tbh he's a lot happier and more confident and we were pretty sick of each other by then #and so we get on much better now #but at the time it was a real heartache i felt like I'd let Joe down i felt like our friendship was over #and honestly I have never been a huge fan of living with our current housemate. even before we lived here #like when i was staying with her and Sam too. she's incredibly messy and takes up a lot of space in conversations #I've always liked her as a person but she's exhausting and often unpleasant to share space with #and there's a bit of me that's like. we bent over backwards to accommodate you when you were precarious.#like it would have been WAY easier for us to look for a 2-bed during 2021. and if it was a 3-bed I'd have rather stayed with Joe.#but we moved with her for her sake. and she left Sam to clean up their old place (and there were Literal Rats)#and she got really pissy about driving the moving van even though a) that was her idea and b) she's the only person with a license #and c) i walked all MY shit over by hand anyway and the only reason she hired the van was to move her tv #me and Sam found all the core furniture. me and Sam sorted out all the viewings. me and Sam did all the planning. Sam set up all the bills.#we spotted her for rent!we took a bigger share of the costs! because we fucking cared about her and wanted her to have a fucking home!#and she can't even do us the courtesy you'd offer a fucking lodger you found on fucking gumtree

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ironfloret · 3 months

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i found the strength to do a little mortydoodle from memory and i nailed it except i drew his scarf pin upside-down. 😔 i was probably thinking of the ghost-type icon from pokemas where the ghost's little tail is trailing under it. anyway i think i drew him so so cutes actually.

#funny thing with drawing is that i have never been happier with my art style- and skill-wise.#you would think this would make me want to draw more. no. completely the opposite for some reason. ok!#at least on the rare occasions that i can make myself draw i'm generally quite pleased with what i can come up with haha.......#txt #my art

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just-rogi · 6 months

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Diagram of me rn (eleven blankets btw if u even care..six pillows too)

#if I hear any of you bitches being like wahhh it’s too hot that’s too many #ok??? Kys #I live in New England and it’s chillly #I also do have a medical condition that makes me extra chilly #and I’m soooo comfeee #comfedlflffeee #mmmm #comfeeeee #my best friend gave me that Dino plush btw #and she doesn’t know I sleep with it every night #but I do #in fact there have been exactly three nights since she gave it to me #where I haven’t slept with it #and all three were when I was sleeping right next to her #literally insane how loved I am #I’ve never been happier

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ilikeshitposting · 6 months

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I'm just going to rant a bit here but-

it's so terrible and annoying that there's so much censorship in chinese media when it comes to lgbtq+ stuff 😭

i haven't at all read any manhuas or watched many donghuas but i recently started watching the founder of diabolism by mxtx after watching heaven official's blessing, with, for some reason, full expectation that i could watch wei wuxian and lan zhan fall in love (i did know that they fall in love and marry in the novel ), but i forgot about chinese censorship laws and had to google after binging most of the series, trying to sense any progression in their relationship in a romantic direction. i thought the series was bl and kept wondering "but where is all the bl? 😭"

now, i don't know much about chinese censorship laws really and I'm very sure that many people have already made some really detailed, better-informed and nuanced posts on this (if you know any then please lmk, I'd love to read them) but personally, as a new fan of queer stuff/ donghuas and manhuas, it's very disheartening to see increasing censorship of queerness in media, especially when it comes to stories i love. even in the donghua with all the censoring it is very obvious that they really do love each other, but censorship means i can't get to see that love grow. even though i really, really do love queer subtext and think that it's also a very legitimate and interesting way of portraying queer stories and characters, in this case knowing that it could've been so much more, that the original source showcases an explicit gay relationship but we can't see it because ✨️censorship✨️, is very saddening to me.

I'd be happy however this donghua ends up portraying their relationship, but if it ends with them not even (subtextually, wink wink) acknowledging that there's something between them or showing them getting into other straight relationships then-- I haven't finished watching it yet, fingers crossed :]

at the end of the day, this is just my personal feeling about the media i like and the lgbtq+ rep in them. but i think everyone can agree that censorship sucks. i know it's not just china and there are probably some really good donghuas/ manhuas/ chinese media out there with good lgbtq+ rep (and if you know some recs please) , and I'm probably completely out of my depth here and talking out of my ass so please take everything i say with a grain of salt :) but this is just my personal opinion,.

fuck censorship.

#edit: ok i finished watching the donghua now #and i have never been more happier to eat my own. words #and the headband can only be untied/played around with by your “fated one”-#EXCUSE ME IT IS officially canon they are married #the only thing missing from their love is a verbal confession of it and physical touch (which we see PLENTY of because lz keeps touching ww #to everyone involved with this show- mad respect. i love you guys #they also said “fuck censorship” huh #this was literal bl. so beautiful.#founder of diabolism donghua #mxtx #donghua #mdzs donghua

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pansyfemme · 1 year

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the version of my body that exists now , post t and surgery is entirely different from the idea i have of what my cis male body would look like and at some point i just have to accept that both are good and affirming

#ive spent so many late nights imagining myself as a cis guy and i’m never gonna get there and thats ok #i know what every aspect of myself could have been in my head but i dont really know that any of it would be real #what i have now is realer although its not everything i want #i think its a total lie when people act like not loving every change medical transition has made means your not trans #because i am. and i like my body a lot more now than i did before #its so much more comfortable #but im not gonna lie and say that im 100% happy with my surgery results. i might even get it redone in the future #and im not gonna say every change with t has been welcome #im happier this way sure but it doesnt have to be everything i wanted #i think the whole rhetoric of being disapointed in some changes meaning that transition wasnt worth it #bc its way more complicated than that #still the best decision i ever made but i dont know ill ever get to a point where my body is everythinng i want #bc i cant pick and choose. the transition medicine we have now is what it is #i will never get everything i want and i kinda just have to make do with what i have for the time being

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theinfinitedivides · 1 year

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*chants* F*CK HIM UP F*CK HIM UP F*CK HIM UP F*CK HIM UP—

#tv: oasis (2023)#kbs oasis #kbs2 oasis #oasis #jang dong yoon #choo young woo #kdrama #local gay watches k-dramas.txt #it is ep 15 everything is about to go to sh*t and Doo Hak's claws are finally out #bitch said i'm done with being second place i'm not going to lose to you intentionally anymore and that for me personally?#that's hot. Jung Shin knew and that's why she picked him #Cheol Woong is a sad mf*cker who is still delusional up to this point. it looks like there will be no redemption arc for this man #and i have never been happier to have skipped the SLS this time around in my life #i need all of y'all to choke. literally just go off somewhere i do not give a f*ck #not Team Leader Oh tho. he's my precious meow meow and the lack of him in the latter half of this ep so far is scaring me #i know you're evil but where have you gone :(#edit: ok no tell me that Oh is not in the state i think he is #either way this is f*cking with me bc uh. remember how Cheol Woong asked him how long he thought the Deputy Director #was going to be his umbrella. remember how he asked him that in return. Oh literally told the Director that Cheol Woong #wasn't his biological son and after all of that he still chose the latter over him. he chose to be his umbrella i am unwell

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hellfireeddiemunson · 1 year

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I need to get someone who comes and wakes me up from my naps before they get too long bc what the h

#what the h stolen from Grace thanks grace #no but like why do I never take naps that are under two hours😐#I just woke up from a 5 hour nap. it shouldn’t have been that loooooongbugh #I try setting alarms and I just don’t wake up to them if I’m napping??????#but if I go to bed and set an alarm to wake up in the morning then I wake up to it????? and only need ONEEEEEE alarm but I set 3+ for naps #and I’m just like nah don’t hear it sorry bye #that’s why I need a person to wake me up even though I get a little grumpy sometimes when ppl wake me up #I’m only grumpy bc I just hate being woken up but I’m not grumpy at the person waking me up if I told them to wake me up yknow?#I just get disoriented when ppl wake me up I’m always like ?!??!??!?!?!?!?#maybe if it was someone I’m dating I’d be better and happier to wake up to someone waking me up tho…..#ok yeah I’m not thinking too much into that thought tho bc I’ll get sad I’m lonely 👍🏻#ANYWAYS gonna shut up now

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winxys · 2 years

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shitting on 8d online isn't enough i need a gun

#i'm so sick so so annoyed and angry #they've done so much against their own artists #i hate ittttttt #i hate that they're stuck in this garbage company #i hate that they got away w kicking out love and then continued to sabotage the group and no one could do anything to stop them #it's so vile.. everything they've done is so so vile #it rlly goes to show their resilience and talent to be doing well in a crap company that does not care even in the slightest for them #they've been put through hell not only by the media but by their own company it's so messed up i just want PEACE #i want love back and for them to be silly and happy again #things have never been the same.. every time i feel like things r ok again i rewatch an old video and MAN..#they were so much happier........#even during libido when the media was tearing them apart they were SO HAPPY #ok i'm done i'm logging off #park love come home idk where u r but i hope u r ok and healthy i love u #and i hate u 8d i hope u burn to the ground #m.text

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be-good-to-bugs · 8 days

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perhaps i could be prettier if i had a little more tummy maybe

#the bin #i gained more weight and i have more tummy than i used to. still not much but i used to be nearly concave and now im not #its been a long time since i didnt have a flat stomach. i used to be really scared of this happening but i think im ok with it #maybe. i mean. i dont know. i look at my tummy and i feel fine with it but other parts of me have also obviously gotten bigger too and im #less ok with that. it needs to happen. the qay my body is now isnt healthy. im not supposed to be this thin. my body is like this because o #years of starving it. but i feel bad about it still. i hope one day that will change.#ed mention #ed tw #tw ed mention #the prettiest me is the healthiest and happiest me and no matter how much my brain tried to say ill be happier if im a twig i know thats no #true and it never will be. it has literally never made me happy. yknow what would make me happy is feeling physically better and not having #to deal with this ed bullshit ever again.#one day i will have more tummy because thats whats healthiest for my body and when that happens it will be a good thing and i wont be upset!

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marioyuri · 1 month

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Augh frankly i dont want to talk to anyone ever again i just want to go in the woods and fight people until i cant feel the pain from the cold

#i try too hard just to feel disappointed #maybe its bc i used to fist fight too much as a kid #idk maybe its some kind of withdrawal #instead i have to be some fag that draws bullshit #i should join a boxing club or something #its not the same thing man #i just need someone willing to fight for fun #maybe watching fight club is not helping im gonna be so for real #watching this movie as a kid could have done something to me #now its just making me so fucking irritated in a way #its a good movie but ive already experienced these epiphanies so its just wasted on me #theres just so many radicalising media you can experience before you grow numb to it #like yeup what else is new #bleh #man i never realised how much i used to fucking duke it out with people #well people. heh #the details are irrelevant #too many new people talking to me and it makes me realise i genuinely dont like bothering figuring out who i am #i dont like it i dont care it doesnt even matter man #i dont care…….. dont force me to think about it OK!#i literalt just say the first thing that comes to mind and then act like yeah sure thats my opinion on the matter FUCKDO I KNOW IF THATS IT #I DONT KNOW? I DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT ANYTHING???????????????????? YEAH SURE ☝️#fucking byllshit leave me alone #dude ive been dealing with like 6 dms at once every day idk what personality im using for who anymore #i care about the wrong people theres some people who are fine with me being lame i should care more about my friends i already have too #why am i so annoying to myself . i dont even care about other peoples opinions i think whats really bothering me is myself #i already know everybody fucking loves me i fucking love myself too or at least i think i do!!!!!!!!!!!!#what i do is that if you lie to yourself enough you end up believing it. thats been my philosophy for being happier being myself #but lately im starting to think maybe i just made it worse for myself in some twisted way #did i ruin myself man did i lie to myself so bad i cant even trust myself to be right about how i feel anymore. i dont know. i dont know man

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woofety · 5 months

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Wow, thank fuck that I thought I wasn't particularly invested in the Davis Cup 🤪

#tennis #davis cup #I'm losing years of life 🙃#also my voice #all this while I'm trying to do some bijoux #my attention is frenzy atm #I'm stressed af but at least it's good distraction #since it's been another complicated two weeks #😩#anyway let's try to focus on this - matteo please 🥺#you can do it gdi #says me who thought that italy would never have played today #since I took for granted that serbia would have won #(I was almost happier about the fact that djokovic lost more than we won lol take that novak)#ok let's focus COME ON MATTEO

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dr-gaytorius · 8 months

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so when i was a teen i was like, very alt, very punk, like eyeball-deep in the local music scene (this would continue for the next decade), i was NOT a scholar by any stretch and quite frankly hated academics. and my friend introduced me to this band and it ended up being one of my favorites for years.

well i was talking to my friend who's into a bad that was big back in that day and i was like ahhh yes.... i remember those days.... neon and crust and studded leather.... and i listed off some bands, and remembered that one i had liked for so long. i went and looked it up and spotted the album i remembered the most, and gave it a listen and well

it would seem ive always been this way. apparently

#the older i get the more i realize that my life has been this strange paradoxical orobouros of self #one day i decided i would stop moulding myself to other's likings bc dulling my edges only helped those ppl hurt me #thus re-embracing a part of myself i'd learned to be ashamed of. and it was incredibly liberating #and then i realized it was my destiny to be a mortician #and i was sooooooooo afraid to tell ppl bc i was sure they'd be weirded out #but every person i told was like OHHHHH ok yes that makes complete sense. that's perfect #and the more i thought about it the more i was astonished it had taken me so long to figure that out lol #and realizing that i really am by nature a scientist has been really liberating too. i hate that my class bracket prevented me from #discovering that bc i was working all the time for a decade and had no time to explore myself or my interests or anything #and i honestly always thought i was stupid.... because of other people lol #and once i let go of other people's treatment of me as the lens through which i view myself #i realized #oh.... i'm a scary and smart little freak. huh #and i started living true-to-myself and it's been super fun and rewarding and ive never been happier #but like... i kept thinking. wow who could have ever seen this coming! this must seem like such a stark turn for the outside eye #like now that i finally recognize myself... others probably dont #and then i revisited this band and went #ah #no #im just oblivious #ive literally always been like that. even when i didn't know what it was or what it was like. just completely blind to a destiny that is no #SO crystal clear that it's changed how i see the world and myself and the way i live #crazy

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mementoasts · 8 months

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in my fic writing era i love writing it's my new passion friendship ended with drawing i'm never drawing ever again

#trying to get back into randomly talking to myself on my blog bc i've been too quiet these past few months oops #i've also been in this slump for probably the same length of time. hm. anyway #since i haven't been drawrin i somehow ended up starting an actual multichapter fic for the first time since like. 2012. and WOW i'm excite #i posted the first two chapters already and the third is like halfway done and it's not MUCH and it's SILLY but i'm having FUN #perhaps it feels a smidge more special when ppl like my writing (compared to drawings) bc i'm so *bad* with words i think #THAT ISN'T TO SAY I DONT GET ALL MUSHY EVERY SINGLE TIME SOMEONE SAYS SMTHN SWEET ABT MY ART THO DONT GET ME WRONG #it's just i'm still not rly used to uhhh talking about my interests or ideas and headcanons... i never rly get to discuss things so--#i get especially self conscious abt writing bc it's like aaaaa it's ALL coming outta my head and idk if ppl will like it or get it or AAAA #i might post it here when it's done bc it's not any of shay's usual fandoms sdfghjmjnhbgfdc #WHEN i DO finish it-- i swear i'll be happier than i've been with any drawing i've made all year. i'm NOT good at writing or finishing fics #ok that's all i'm gonna go eat some overly sweet cake #the void screaming

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a-hazbin-reader · 3 months

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OK ANOTHER IDEA

OK SO WE KNOW THAT ALASTOR IS A MAMAS BOY AND HAS AN AMAZING RELATIONSHIP WITH HER

SO WHAT IF ALASTOR HAD A FEM S/O BUT SHE HAS A TERRIBLE RELATIONSHIP WITH HER MOM, ITS JUST SO EMOTIONALLY TOXIC (especially with reader being an older sibling)

reader never tells him though because alastors relationship with his mom is good and she doesn’t wanna make him feel bad whenever he talks about her and one day readers mom comes to the hotel and reader DREADS it and becomes snappy but readers mom wins everyone over (of course alastor too). So when reader explains that she doesn’t want her mom around alastor can’t understand why and reader feels betrayed its only later when readers mom shows her true colors towards reader. And reader of course bites back (or at least tries too)

So basically angst to fluff and SORRY IF THATS SO MUCH😭😭

👀 Mommy issues??? 👀

Alastor X Reader Headcanons

✅️Romantic

❌️Platonic

TW: Emotionally Abusive mother, Reader suffering, Reader gets grabbed a few times, Ambiguous ending for mama

Description: ☝️⬆️

When it comes to mothers, it's safe to say you and Alastor had very different experiences

His mother was full of warmth and kindness towards him, doing her best to build him up into a great man

She loved him greatly and it shows whenever he talks about her

But your mother?? Your mother saw you as fucking competition and always found ways to put you down, to make herself better than you

Well maybe she should be the one who was cooking the meals, getting your younger siblings off to school on time or making sure everyone had clean clothes

Just the thought of her made your stomach flip and your legs shake

She would put you down all your life while claiming it was so that you could be a great woman just like her, but not too great, you have to remember who the better woman is

Well now you're both in hell so-

You put as much distance between her and yourself as you could, living your afterlife without her influence

You even got yourself a handsome powerful overlord boyfriend and new friends to share your life with

Even though you're supposed to be in hell, you couldn't be happier

At least you were until your mother showed up at the hotel, her face full of faux worry and tears

"Oh my precious girl! This is where you've been hiding? I was so worried!!"

Before Charlie can even shut the door, your mother has already shoved her way inside and literally dug her claws into you, hugging you

It's all you can do not to throw up, smothered by her familiar scent and grip, hearing her voice again after all this time

"Now let Mommy take a look at you-oh!!! And here I was worried that you were starving! Good to know you've put some weight on those bones!"

And it's already starting-

And now she's crying and rocking you in her arms, cooing about how much she's missed you and how she's never letting you go again

Charlie and the others are just staring at the two of you, completely enraptured by your mother, like everyone always is

She loved being the center of attention

When you finally come to your senses you push her away and create some distance, disturbed by the worried looks everyone is giving her

"Mom, why are you here?"

Oh don't everyone look at you like you're the bad guy!! She's the one who's only here because she wants something!!

"Maybe I wouldn't have to come track you down if you would just visit your poor mother every once in a while...she never even calls me, you know!"

And now she's crying again, Charlie immediately going to comfort her while Vaggie gives you a dirty look

Fucking mommy issues much? Don't fall for this crap

"I don't want to visit you, so just leave-"

"Well now, who is this~?"

Alastor! Yes! He can make her leave! You turn to give your boyfriend a pleading look but your mother catches his attention first

"Oh don't worry about who I am.. just a poor lonely mother who came to see her daughter...but I guess I'll show myself out.."

Alastor doesn't have to guess who she's talking about, even in death you always looked like your mother

His smile gets surprisingly warm and soft, taking your mother's hand in his own in a disgusting display of affection that used to only be for you

"You're Y/N's mother? My my, I should've guessed! You must have so many stories of her from her life! I simply must insist that you say."

ALASTOR NO

You feel sick but nobody notices, your mother already soaking up their attention and winning their hearts

So you turn and leave the hotel, unable to stand being in her presence any longer, you don't miss the smug look she gives you on your way out

You spend all day trying to avoid going back to the hotel until you're sure your mother is gone

You're more than disappointed to find her drinking tea with Alastor, the two of them laughing, her placing her hand on top of his

She always used to try and go after your boyfriends and that hasn't changed either

She hasn't changed

"Oh darling~! We hadn't realized you left! Alastor and I were simply having a moment~"

Alastor lights up when he sees you, only to be visibly confused by your troubled expression

"Y/N! Your mother was just telling me about her life before you! She was quite a wildcard back then!"

Your mother is practically drooling over him, rubbing his hand and winking

"I'm still wild if you ever care to find out!"

You've had it

You tug your mother's hand off of Alastor, forcing her to stand up and look you in the eyes

"You need to leave! Right now!"

And here come the waterworks again

"Y/N..! Darling, what did I do wrong? I'm your mother please don't throw me out like this!"

You just start pushing her towards the door and you slam it shut behind her, sighing in relief

That is until you look at Alastor's face, his smile seeming strained

"Y/N! You can't just throw her out like that, not only is that bad manners but that's no way to treat the woman who raised you!"

Raised you? You raised yourself!!

"Alastor, you don't know what you're talking about so please just stay out of it. You don't know what she's like-"

You're trying to stay calm-

"She's your mother, it's not like she's some evil creature-"

"SHE'S IN HELL OF COURSE SHE'S EVIL-"

"So are you and I, my dear."

You try to put your foot down, tell him that you don't want her here but he's already opening the door for her and letting her back in

She looks so pleased with herself

He invites her to stay the night because of course he does, he would do it for his own mother so why not yours

You try not to give her the satisfaction of seeing you cry but your eyes are already hot and watery

"I-I'm going to bed..!"

Alastor calls for you, trying to resolve things then and there but the only response he gets is your door slamming shut

He goes to go after you but your mother stops him with a gentle hand to the shoulder

"Now now...let her cool off for a bit then I'll go make sure she's alright, a mother always knows how to cheer up her child~"

It feels like you spend hours crying in your bed, feeling so hurt that Alastor took her side over yours

Your mom isn't like his, she doesn't nurture, she just takes from you and bullies you

Later, just when you've about cried yourself to sleep, you hear the bedroom door open

"Alastor..?"

"Not a chance, pet."

Now what does she want

"Why are you even here?"

Suddenly she pounces on you, grabbing your wrists tightly, eyes wild with fury she must've been containing this whole time

You don't even know why she's so mad at you, you haven't seen her in years-

"You think you're better than me now, is that it? Now that you're on your own, living in some fancy hotel, got some powerful boytoy, hiding behind hell's princess?"

As a kid, she seemed so strong but now you easily rip out of her grasp and manage to create some distance between you two

"I'm not hiding behind anyone! I'm just trying to get away from you!"

"Oh no no no, that's not how this works! I am your mother! If I have to be miserable and live in filth then so do you!"

"Why are you even here!?"

"Because it's not fair! I deserve to be here! Not some ungrateful little bitch who just happened to fall out of me!"

She lunges at you and you try to dodge her but she manages to grab you by your hair, yanking you back

You're about to start swinging when Alastor is suddenly there, watching the two of you in bewilderment

Then that bewilderment melts away into understanding, then anger

The radio sounds in the room are suddenly deafening, your mother letting go of you so she can cover her ears

You take the chance to kick her away, watching as she tumbles and loses consciousness from the impact

Alastor kneels beside you but you flinch away from him, still feeling hurt

"Y/N...I'm so sorry..." He does look properly ashamed, his smile a little watery

"Why didn't you just tell me that she was like this..?"

How could you even begin to start?? That you didn't want to somehow sour his opinion of mothers by telling him about your own?

That you didn't want him to feel guilty for having a mother who loved him while you grew up having to be a mother to your siblings because your own mom had none to give??

It's just word vomit at this point, but Alastor simply gathers you into his arms, tutting as he checks your scalp and fixes your hair

When he gets to your wrists where your mother grabbed than his smile turns positively venomous, giving your mother a deadly look

"What do you want me to do with her? Anything you ask..."

You're a little irritated that he brought her up, having been too relaxed by the feeling of his lips against your palm

"I just want her out of here..."

And that's all it takes, Alastor calls for Niffty and has her take out the trash, her scuttling out gleefully while dragging your mother

Niffty doesn't even care, she's just happy to have a new toy

You didn't realize how stressed out you were until it was just the two of you, Alastor rubbing your back soothingly

You don't know when you fall asleep but when you wake up Alastor is kissing the side of your face, looking as apologetic as he can be

You manage to convince him to apologize in morning snuggles and by the time you two come downstairs everyone else is awake

"Where is Y/N's mom?"

Not Niffty giggling and running out of the room

Alastor simply shakes his head and wraps an arm around your waist to hold you closer

"She is gone and won't ever be visiting again, I would like to ask that nobody brings her up again~"

Something about the way he says it manages to shut everyone up

Alastor takes you out to eat your favorite breakfast and spends the day spoiling you

He doesn't bring up the events of last night until the two of you are in bed, entangled in each other's arms

"You didn't ruin my opinion of mothers, you know."

"I didn't?"

"No, in fact, it sounds like you were quite the mother back in your day~"

Not his hand rubbing your belly

OH MAMA THIS ONE TOOK ALL DAY! I hope you liked it!!

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A gay bar is the last place Steve ever thought he'd be, yet here he sits.

He keeps looking over to Robin- not too much, just enough to keep an eye on her. Make sure she's still having fun. Although, he's sure he doesn't need to be worrying.

The girl who'd caught Robins eye is small, feminine. She looks like a sweetheart and she keeps getting Robin flustered. They're cute together, clearly into eachother, and Steve couldn't be happier.

Even sat alone, feeling completely out of place and a little uncomfortable, seeing Robin able to flirt with someone so openly is… he just feels relieved.

He should have thought to bring her here sooner.

"Hey there." The man smiles when Steve flinches. It's a soft smile, kind. "You wanna dance?"

"Oh, uh, I don't- I mean, uh-"

"Woah, don't panic. It's just a dance, right? You look uncomfortable is all and seeing you sat alone with your big fucking puppy dog eyes is just sad." He gently nudges Steves chin up when he tries to look down, feeling awkward. His finger lingers a little, brushing along his jaw. "You don't wanna have a fun night out? I won't be offended if you say no."

And, ok, Steve's a little tipsy. He's sure he'd never agree if he were sober- it wouldn't have felt fair. The guy is clearly attracted to him, not even trying to hide the way he's eyeing him.

But Steve's buzz is more annoying than pleasant and dancing does sound fun. So he agrees, accepts the hand offered and lets the guy pull him into the crowd.

The guy keeps his distance. Anytime the crowd jolts Steve toward him, he steps back the same amount, keeping a solid foot between them. But he's grinning, yelling jokes over the music, unabashedly dancing like an idiot.

It's great, it's fun. Steve can't stop grinning, stomach starting to ache with how much he's been laughing.

Eventually, a slower song comes on, stronger sexual undertones. The guy (Eddie, he'd leant in to tell Steve when asked, explaining that he knew Steve because they used to be in the same year as in Hawkins) shrugs, pulling an exaggerated face that screams 'what-can-you-do'. He's turning away.

But Steve grabs his wrist, Eddie looking back with raised eyebrows.

"This alright then, pretty boy?" He asks after stepping in close. His hands rest low on his hips.

Steve nods, flushing. He automatically puts his hands on his shoulders, letting Eddie lead him through a weirdly intimate sort of slow dance. And Steve is suprised to find himself… into it? He's not sure.

He feels less tipsy, so he can't blame the easy blushes or the way his stomach flips on the alcohol. There's no excuse for how he's started looking at Eddie either, paying a little too much attention to the way he moves, how his hands feel when they slowly start to wonder.

He gently brushes Eddies hair out the way without thinking, tucking it behind his ear so he can see the tattoo on his neck. Eddie tilts his head slightly, baring his neck a little more. When he glances up, Eddie is watching him, curiously.

"Hate to sound pressumptious," he drawls, taking a small step forward so their chests are pressed together, "but it feels like you're making moves on me, big boy."

"What if I am? What happens then?"

"Maybe I'd ask if you're sober enough to drive or if we need to call a cab." He leans back a little when Steve moves to kiss him. He hums, smirking. "Or maybe I'd ask for your number. I'm a classy lady, Harrington; what if I don't put out on the first date?"

"I've never said no to a challange."

Eddie barks out a laugh, loud enough to startle some of the people swaying beside them. "As if."

"What? You're like... pretty."

"Pretty," he repeats, rolling his eyes. "People know I'm a fag, Steve. Even being seen with me like we're 'just friends' would fucking ruin you."

"Your point?"

"You wouldn't dare."

"Wanna put money on that?"

Eddie eyes him for a second, his derision melting into curiosity. "You want to make a bet on whether you'll date me or not?"

"Why not? One of us wins money in a bet, we both score a date, and-"

"I thought you were straight."

"Yeah, me too. But I don't think straight guys think about you like I am, right now."

Eddie steps back, considering. It's a long, tense, moment before he finally sticks his hand out. Steve quickly shakes his hand, grinning.

"You've got yourself a deal."

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