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fitemilk · 1 year

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long post so settle in

when i was at the nail tech school tour, the owner (director, i think is her official title?) asked me why i wanted to be a nail tech. this is something my therapist prepared me for!

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one of the goals i had for therapy was gaining enough confidence to career switch. i was unemployed for the longest time, had a brief but unsuccessful stint at a local game store, and have been unemployed since. i refused to go back to retail and needed to switch.

my therapist would always notice my nails during a session. they are well-manicured and the color was always different each session. they are also my natural nails.

after a couple of unsuccessful tries at finding something out there for me, she asked to see my nails up close. she got me talking. since we communicate using telehealth, i showed her the nail polish collection i’ve amassed for 18 years, neatly organized in an ikea file cabinet.

she was impressed. nearly every color has its own drawer. she remarked, “i think this is what you were meant to do, patton. i think you should pursue this.”

i told her a story. it goes like this:

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when i was a little kid, my mom would do my nails. my mom had a modest polish collection, stored in a small wooden box. they were older polishes, based on what i currently know. not from the 90s, when i was little, but earlier. some of them probably dated back to the 70s, but they were still good. back then, the range of colors was nowhere near as wide as it is now. it was pinks and reds, maybe a plum purple. my mom would paint my nails pink.

then in 1995 (i don’t know why i remember that year, but i do), the game changed. revlon had just put out its street wear line. finally! more than just pinks and reds and maybe that purple. there were blues, greens, yellows, even a black! i went gaga. my first one was a dark blue.

my auntie got me a markwins polish set for christmas when i was 13. it was HUGE. i think it was a 30-polish set. while everything else in the house may have been an absolute clusterfuck of a hoarder mess, i held on to my polishes.

when i moved out and out-of-state, i had three polishes in my possession — a frosty blue from mary kate & ashley (yeah, those twins), a orange from wild n’ crazy, and a sheer sky blue from revlon called bright sky. i still have the latter two! and i did my nails with bright sky last week!

i began to amass my collection once more. my mom was diagnosed with cancer shortly after i left home, and by 2009, my mom was dying. she signed a dnr (do not resuscitate) order, and by late summer/early fall, the time had come. my mom was in too much pain to continue. she was in at-home hospice care, in a hospital bed, hooked up to a morphine drip. i made my final visit. i was spending what little time i had left with my mom, watching tv, getting out any final stories we wanted to share.

my mom wanted me to do her nails one last time. she knew i brought polish with me, i always did any time i traveled. she picked out two colors — korean fruit and flower stand by carolyn new york for her hands (a light peachy coral crème) and cherry glaze by sally hansen salon for her feet (a slightly jelly neutral red)

it came around full circle.

my therapist was right. i was meant to do this.

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when the director asked me why i wanted to be nail tech, i simply said, “my mom would paint my nails when i was a little kid. when i was older, i would paint hers. it’s something that i’ve always loved.”

she loved it. when i was leaving, she said, “i thing you’re going to do well here. you’ve got style, your pink hair is very nice!”

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and that’s my long-winded non-linear story

#patton.txt #y’know that bubble that keeps on popping up before i tag something is super annoying #where’s the long post command when i need it #rip long post command #i have a story to tell damn you #parent death cw #long post

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diorsbrando · 23 hours

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y’all . . . . . .

#ʬʬ.sosa speaks.com #why he gotta stare like that 😩#it’s his NOSSSEEEEE #it’s his nose for me #idk i really really like it on his face #it suits him #and so does does the downward slanted eyes #and the way his green eyes pop against his skin and black hair #oh oh oh and his hair !! damn near looks like a mullet i like the short braid in the back #and his design is so COOOOOL so so cool to me #he seems kinda mysterious which i like; i really love when characters have layers #or how they act isn’t what it seems to be like like it’s nkt surface level stuff #not***#his va ate that up too #can you tell i like him 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😂😂#he’s one of those characters that will always be my favorite even if he isn’t relevant to the story anymore #wind breaker #jo togame

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coconut530 · 5 months

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RELIGIOUS TRAUMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#Nevermore #Nevermore Webtoon #Webtoon #ACTUALLY LIKE. ONE OF THE BEST EPISODES EVER #LIKE YES MONTY STILL IS A BAD PERSON FOR ALL THE THINGS HE’S DONE #BUT HE IS AN AMAZING VEHICLE TO TELL THIS STORY WITH LIKE GOD👏🏻DAMN👏🏻#LIKE THE HANDS BURNING HIM AND LIKE PUTTING THEIR DIRT ON HIM TO MAKE THEMSELVES CLEAN WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #ALL THE ADJECTIVES #“SO WHAT IF I AM!?” GOD. WHAT THE FRICK #NEED YOU FOR WHAT MONTY!?! OH CRAP IS THAT HIS MOM #WHY ARE YOUR EYES COVERED AND YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE IN RED #I MEAN YEAH MONTY WHAT YOU DID IN LIFE DIDN’T SOUND VERY GOOD YOU MAY HAVE EARNED THIS #MAKING HIM PRAY LIKE WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT #ACK GOAT EYES AND OHHHHHHH JEEEEEEZZZ CREEPYYYYYYY #ALTHOUGH RED N FLYNN LIKE REALLY POPPING OFF TODAY #ACK GOAT CREATURE #THE CANDLES THE CIRCLE THE CREATURE THE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #THE LORD’S PRAYER IN THE LIKE FLAMES THE HANDS THE CREATURE SACRIFICING A PERSON LIKE WHAT THE TIDES HAVE CHANGED #AND MONTY’S LAUGH TAKING US OUT #OH HI ANNABEL AND OOP PROSPERO AND EULALIE AND BERENICE AND MORELLA HI WHAT’RE Y’ALL DOING HERE ODD COMBO OF PEOPLE #PROSPERO COVERING HIMSELF FROM THE AIR #“Goodness…” UH NO DUH LIKE WHAT IS GOING ON!?#DUKE HAS MADE ADA TAKE THIS TO THE EXTREME AND HE CAN’T TURN HER OFF AND HER EYE PARTICLES ARE ALL OVER THE LITTLE ALCOVE #WILL’S GETTING THE LIFE CHOKED OUT OF HIM BY MONTY STILL UNDER THE ADA INFLUENCE #LENORE TRYING TO STOP HIM (??) WITH PLUTO HOLDING HER BACK #WHAT’S HAPPENINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

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lorepossum · 2 months

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….y’all do realize that GBA isn’t just going to tell you how Bastards vs Zombies is going to go right?

Like…?

Theory crafting is one thing (but also you don’t need Geeb to confirm/deny your theory for it to have legitimacy and be fun for you), but some of y’all are just straight up asking him to spoil so much of the intrigue of a series with only 3 parts so far.

Become comfortable in having questions. It is by design that we don’t have answers yet. We’ve barely even started this story.

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solacedeer · 3 months

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and if i said they’re my ot3 then what

#them in that damn story talking like they’re both dating her and in the end its suddenly competitive like #why can’t this be like a 3 way thing???#alter would fucking hate it though 💀💀💀#he tolerates keith because thats his homie licht is a whole other guy 💀#keith howell #licht klien #ikepri emma #ikepri #but they are so cute lciht is like a new man- Him and yves shocked me in kther routes after doing keiths route like 5 times straight #as you can tell ive been thinking hard about this. I have lots to say

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puhpandas · 2 months

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Tony Becker is one of the only times that I've seen that a character has actually been doomed by the plot when people say he is

#i probably just am not interested in enough other things to see it more often #but he genuinely fucking is #like how does it feel to dig yourself in a hole you cant come back from as a result of your own actions #and your life going downhill and everything that could go wrong going wrong #and you isolate yourself more and more from your friends and family without even realizing and are so sure of uourse #that you run into everything headfirst not ever thinking that you could ever get hurt even though your dad warned you #and you died from your best friend because of ir #that you were considering ditching everyone else for #like dude.#ggy genuinely is such a good book tony as a character is so well written #its such a tragic story in every sense of the word #every part of that book and all its characters are tragic #tony especially is because gregory beinf mind controlled is off screen #but tony is just. wow ur kinda a shitty person but wholly unaware of it #but the people on your life kinda failed you alongside you failing yourself #so he never even got the time of day to be wrong and aware of it and learn from it #nobody ever cared or was able to tell him that so he could start improving #nope. he died and his family and his best friend have to live with that not ever knowing what happened to him #and ellis' two best friends probably go missing at the same time and he just has to move on #like damn its such a good story #pandas.txt #tony #ggy #thoughts

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bl-inded · 4 months

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The most heartbreaking part about the MohkDay break up, is that once again Mohk is all alone. And this time, he didn't make that choice. He wanted to stay, he wanted Day to be by his side. And he was still left alone

After Rung especially, we know that our boy has severe abandonment issues. And even though we can't be certain her death was preventable by him picking up the call, he blames himself for it. The fact that Day and Mohk have only ever spoken about Rung in surface-level conversations (hell I don't think they really ever spoke about Mohk a lot at all), it hurts sooo much more that Day broke up with him after Mohk laid his heart out in front of the whole family.

I saw a bunch of people talking about how Day refuses to do any emotional labour, and I see where they're coming from. But, i gotta disagree. He did not break up with Mohk because of his trauma. He broke up with Mohk because Mohk was willfully destroying his life to stay with Day. I don't want to say his heart was in the right place, but it was in the right area code at least. I genuinely believe that the "you also pity me" was an excuse because he didn't want to hold Mohk back. I want to believe that he didn't have the time to understand the implications of what Mohk meant when he talked about Rung and he regretted it later.

(I will live in that lie till I'm told otherwise)

But Mohk has never been a fighter for himself. He'll fight in a heartbeat for what Day or Porjai need. He'll put himself in harm's way to protect those he love. But the moment he has to fight for himself, he'll back out. I don't know if this is a post-ep1 flashback thing, but that is what the show has established for us. And so as gut wrenching as his "if that's what you want" is, it's very in character for him.

But just to be clear, now that I've been a rational adult about this analysis of this show and characters. FUCK ALL OF THIS. Like straight up wtf? Who asked for an ep11 conflict huh? Who? P'Aof?? I love you, but WHYYY. My absolute green flag of a man does not deserve this nonsense after everything he's done. So FIX THIS RIGHT NOW.

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sanjiswetcigarettes0 · 4 months

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I can’t get enough of this shi and it is crazy.

This mfng song literally screams that “zoro vs mihawk” wasn’t just about Zoro failing on defeating Mihawk and in return gaining a huge cut on his chest that he’ll carry his whole life and luffy going crazy internally and worrying sick about his man; this song screams and bleeds pride and given promises, a meaning and an ending / beginning of a life. This song is the moment zoro decided to trust himself wholly for %100 for the first time and stood in front of Mihawk even tho he knew he could die while bleeding all his blood out. This was the very moment zoro felt for the first time/ finally realised that he was a half and the rest of him was a big missing, that he wasn’t enough no matter how hard he tries and needed that seventeen years old mf kid who’s been following him around like a lost puppy as his captain & a leader to follow, because his instincts already were screaming about this at the very beginning of their first time together. Luffy was the most powerful man he’s ever seen, he learned that for the first time at that moment. And he was right. This song is the end and a beginning of a life.

Opla songs should be talked about more often because these damn songs literally feels like what happens in whole One Piece.

Please read the tags !🏷️

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hamable · 8 months

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Need low stakes DLC Psychonauts 2 levels in, at this point, anyone’s mind. Fuck shit up and kick ass in the interns brains? Hell yeah. Otto? Sasha round 2? Milla round 2? ANY Aquato? I’d eat it up om nom nom. I’m begging. As a treat for me please.

#psychonauts 2 #psychonauts #double fine #and listen. fucking. it gets more and more obvious that Otto has Something going on with every playthrough #first play through I was thinking about literally anything else and I didn’t catch it #but going back and doing all the dialogue and keeping an eye on him?#Otto was sus as HELL #Like fully unresolved I think canonically he’s still up to some shit #he didnt mind wipe a family to stop a genocide a la putting tape over a cracking dam #but he’s still shady #and I think they kinda wrote him as a red herring #which is wild bc I did not give a fuck about Otto my first time through I was trying to connect so many other puzzle pieces #but yeah DLC content would be good but also… Psychonauts three???#it’s be too surface level for it to be just straight plot line Otto is the big bad tho so idk.#psychonauts 1+2 tells such a tight well thought out story that’s been cooking for two decades. I wouldn’t want a third game if it didn’t #lovingly expand the world and characters and story. but damn I got questions.#hence: low stakes dlc please and thank you have a good day 👍

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aletterinthenameofsanity · 2 months

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Does anyone here remember when I decided to grab three randomass characters from two different seasons of Power Rangers, NONE OF WHICH HAD EVER APPEARED ONSCREEN TOGETHER, and went, hey, I wonder what the hell would happen if we shipped them together? Just for shits and giggles? And wrote a coherent 6k oneshot that actually made their character arcs deeper and make more sense than the show's? Now that was a proper crackship!

(Anyway, I was putting together the last of the playlists for this series and stumbled upon my Matt Griffin/Heckyl/Levi Watson fic. And remembered how batshit insane I could be back in the day. Because I don't remember how I thought of this concept, just that it worked out weirdly well. Also led to some of the funniest scenes in the series when Chase/Ivan found out that Heckyl was not only Riley's brother's Soulmate, but that Heckyl and Matt had another gold ranger as a Soulmate. I'm still tempted to write the world's funniest family dinner ft. Heckyl, Matt, Chase, Ivan, Brody, Levi, and Preston.)

#levi watson #aiden romero #heckyl #matt griffin #chase randall #ivan of zandar #riley griffin #power rangers #power rangers dino charge #power rangers ninja steel #soulmate au #now THIS is a proper crackship #at least most of my other polyships had SOME basis in canon (i.e. SPD OT5 RPM OT5 even ivan/chase/riley) but this one? not a damn thing #also reminds me of the crack potential of kendall/emily/mack but that's another story for another day #yet another ship i converted people to #if there's one thing i'm learning with this playlist series is that I have more fans than i thought i did #this week is REALLY good for my serotonin levels lemme tell you #my fics #aletterinthenameofsanity

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storm-of-feathers · 7 months

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damn why did i stop being an alcoholic being drunk rules actually i dont feel a single OUNCE of my burdens. i just feel the wine. and its pink.

#this post is mostly a joke OBVIOUSLY i dont wanrt to be a True Alcoholic again #ive been sober #(in the definition that i dont consider myself addicted - not in the definition of complete abstinence)#since 2018. and its been very good for me obviously #but damn i gotta remember that alcohol exists and i have some if i ever truly need to unwind #bc like. yk. i have a lot of trouble unwinding #i used to have this uhh #one of my grandmothers brothers. idk the word.#he always said that the world was so bright and loud and sharp. except for when he drank.#dgmw. i do think autism runs on my dads side #(and thats cool!! bc it proves autism isnt just a white thing!!!!! something thats unfortunately a popular belief :/)#but i think there was def a genetic susceptibility to it on my moms side too #like ofc i was going to be autistic!! look at my family!!!#which is interesting bc as far as anyone can tell my only biological sibling isnt autistic #i have two Additional siblings but thats a longer story. but i love them both just as much as my biological sib #i love having lots of siblings by choice #so many of my younger friends have said im like an older brother they need #and i love that tbh. i love that i get to be something i desperately needed when i was a terrified teenager #n e ways. if u read this far thank you its just wine drunk ramblings.#WHO want to run in the forest naked with me

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demaparbat-hp · 1 year

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Just what exactly is coming?

#*Giggles and blushes* So there's this comic I'm working on...#Ahem #Sorry about that #So I've got all sketches (like this one) done already and I'm moving on to the actual beast.#I have no idea of when (or if) I'm going to finish it. My bet's a year.#It's based on something I wrote a while ago. It's one of a few short scenes so I can try to make some comics outta those too. Eventually.#harry potter #(Yes that's my baby boy. Just realised the comic can also be considered an original since I don't use any names from HP... Damn.)#Actually let's do something.#You tell me if you'd like for it to be an original story or clearly HP related #hp #harry potter art #harry potter fanart #hp fanart #hp art #harry james potter #Sketches #harry potter comic #Memento #hjp #God this is going to murder me in cold blood isn't it #I just hope the vibes are okay. And by 'okay' I mean in symphony with what I want to tell here.#The original text is... eerie #This is one of my most favorite panels in existence.#Though to be fair I'm in love with half the panels of this. Which is quite impressive if I may say so #I mean only two out of six pages I feel are okay (not great like the other four mind you. Just okay). And that just never happens.#Well I think it's safe to say the tags got out of hand

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ultfan · 9 days

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sigh. was watching a let’s player go through komaeda’s FTEs and they said he was using his diagnosis as an excuse for his actions. “oh, i’m dying and insane so everything i do is justified” like — agH stfu!!! i’ll never claim komaeda’s actions to be good, and yeah i joke about his “insane”ness a lot, but at the end of the day you genuinely can’t hold him accountable. he is not in control of his facilities — FTD specifically targets your personality/behaviors — he is not in a right state of mind and is completely unaware he is in the wrong. he CANNOT COMPREHEND that. he’s just genuinely unable to!!! i’ll never claim he isn’t a bad person, or that he isn’t an antagonist, but at the end of the day he is someone who needs not help necessarily, but to be taken care of/looked after. he doesn’t belong in a prison, he belongs in a mental facility. where he can have trained professionals who can keep watch over him and actually work with him and keep him in check. — in any canon related verse he’ll never actually get that, esp given the state of the world, but it’s true that’s what he needs more than anything else.

and people really do tend to overlook just how much bvFTD truly fits komaeda as a diagnosis. especially in ways that aren’t touched upon by the vaaaaast majority of people. a while back i read a research paper about hyper-religiousity in patients with FTD; which could very easily be applied to the way he views hope. first clinging to it as a coping mechanism and that being exaggerated through the deterioration to become a blind faith that he is obsessed over which leads every action he takes.

anyway i just think it’s ridiculous to call a disease like FTD an “excuse.” there are people who use their mental illness as excuses for their actions to justify themselves, yes. but this isn’t a mental illness — it’s a degenerative brain disease. it’s an entirely different category. this isn’t a case of an illness making it difficult to control his actions and act reasonably, it’s a case of a disease making it IMPOSSIBLE to control his actions and act reasonably. it just really upsets me to see people brush that off because that is one of the main things that makes komaeda actually sympathetic.

#dementia tw #ftd tw #can you guys tell i have a special interest in mental illnesses/diseases and things that effect human behaviors #no?#damn.#— i could pop off about toko too but this blog ain’t about her #komaeda also fascinates me bc typically when i see any form of dementia in media it is like… the point of the character #it’s some tragedy— they become their illness— and the story is about people dealing with it #but komaeda… you may never even find out he has ftd #he’s just a fascinating character on his own #his story isn’t defined by his ftd but it is the thing behind so many of his behaviors #idk if i’m making sense it’s 4am but #god #i’m so passionate about this #♡₊˚ 🍀・₊✧ » ooc : post ─ 𝘏𝘖𝘓𝘋𝘌𝘙 𝘖𝘍 𝘒𝘖𝘔𝘈𝘌𝘋𝘈 𝘏𝘖𝘛 𝘛𝘈𝘒𝘌𝘚. ❞

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scaredgirlsilly · 8 months

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a lil short story i wrote. under the cut cause its kinda long. about love, devotion, isolation, and the ocean. maybe a lil yuri too.

Her Love

"You know, everyone else says im crazy."

The sound of the waves fill the night air, the beach solely illuminated by the full moon bouncing off the water.

"They say... They say I need help. They say that *they* are gonna help me. Pfft. Fat fuckin chance. Like they ever cared about me."

A young woman sits on the shore with her legs drawn into her chest, the waves lapping at the sand only a few feet away. Her eyes are filled with tears. Salty. Just like her love.

"They... They never fucking cared. No one ever called or- or texted, no contact for months. Months! As soon as I say that I'm gonna... They make a huge fuckin deal about it. But- But when have they ever cared?! Never! Not fuckin once."

The waves have finally reached her feet, and she relaxes as it brushes against her. She looks at the ocean, and a faint smile crosses her face.

"I'm doing this for me. They can all.. I don't know... Cry at the funeral. But this... This will be the first time I make a decision for me. For us."

The ocean has reached ankle depth, and she feels the pull of the tides as it goes back out to sea. Her lover is calling for her, beckoning for their consummation.

"I... heh... I think I'm scared. I... I don't know whats on the other side. I mean... I know you'll be there for me, like you always have, but it's... it's alot I guess..."

She wipes away her tears and snot, and holds her hand out to her lover. The pull of the waves feels like a welcome home she never got to experience. Finally, someone who actually *wants* her. Someone who, no matter what, wants to be with her. Forever.

"Well... It's now or never I suppose... I- I love you."

The waves surge as if in response. A call of love back. But she knows better.

She gets up, the tide now at her shins, the pull of the waves making it hard to stand. Butterflies fill her stomach. Just the feeling of the waves pulling her, no one has ever wanted her like her lover wants her now. That thought fills her mind with all kinds of feelings. Anger that those around her only used her, sadness that she could not live a life with her peers, but also a deep sense of content. Finally, someone, *anyone*, wants her. *Needs her*. Someone finally loves her as much as she loves them.

She steps into the waves, wading into the freezing ocean. Her teeth chatter, her legs are numb, and her smile is beaming. Her tears have stopped, and all she is thinking about is her lover.

As she walks farther, she gets to the point where she cant walk anymore. She starts to swim, about another 10 to 15 feet. There, it can finally happen. They can be one.

As she gets to where she wanted to be, she giggles as the waves try to push her under. Like a partner playfully pulling her to bed, she must remind her lover that she will do it when shes ready.

"Be patient silly," she giggles to her lover.

Finally. It's time. The freezing waters of her lover numb her body. Its hard to tell where her body ends, and where her lover begins. Exactly how she wanted it.

She dives under the waves, tring to go as far down as she can, to have as much of her lover around her as possible. Her lungs ache, her limbs sting from the cold, and her heart is full with a love she has never experienced. Finally, her time has come. To show her love exactly how much she wants to be together. Together forever.

There, in the dark water of her lover, the only light from the moon overhead, she takes a moment to steel herself. To fight back thousands of years of evolution, for one solitary moment of devotion. To the only one who ever truly loved her.

She opens her mouth, whispers a silent "I love you", and breathes in.

The water fills her lungs instantly, like it was all it ever wanted to do. It burns like no pain has before, as she flails under the water uselessly. The light of the moon grows dimmer, the cold of the water seems farther away than ever, and the smile on her face has never been wider.

Finally. She is one with her lover. And it couldn't have been any better.

#my stories #ive had serious creative block for like a month now and it fuckin sucks #this helped a bit. honestly im just glad i can still make stuff i like #idk tell me what you think. it always does kinda suck when i show people my art and all they say is “wow thats cool!”#like they dont have anythung else to say about it. like damn is it that boring kfhskdhsjd #idk whatevs

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100percentdirtball · 1 year

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maybe it’s because i’m a faggy little writer and not a woman of faith, but i really really thought the point of the story about isaac and abraham was just to make you really live inside a man who spent three days walking with his son knowing that at the end he would die, and waking up every morning for the rest of his life and looking his son in the eyes and knowing that he was willing to kill him. how is this not a horror story.

#like i am being told that maybe the point of the story is #to have faith in god because god has a plan for you #and in his love for you would not induce you to do murder #but i just can't stop thinking about the sorrow in abraham's eyes #how the angel appearing must not have come as any relief #how when the angel says do not lay a hand on your son how abraham must still have felt himself damned #since he knew himself now to be a man that would lie to his son #tell him god will provide a lamb but knowing that god already has #that god has given abraham but a single lamb #an only son who he loved so dearly #i cant stop thinking about the walk back down the mountain towards the land that suddenly the lord has promised to abraham and to isaac #and how cold comfort it must have been

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sylvies-kablooie · 4 months

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having been a youth on the internet i have witnessed firsthand the scorn that gets tossed upon people above the age of 17 in fandom spaces. but have you considered that it's actually cool as hell that people from all sorts of walks of life enjoy something so much they want to post about it. that it is a microcosm of the human experience tied back to blorbo from your shows. that you love this sopping wet guy from a movie and it brings you into contact with people you never would have met otherwise.

i see people on here posting about their favorite fictional fellows and then i get occasional updates on their lives. they got a new pet. they work at a university. someone got married. someone wrote a book. someone baked a really tasty looking loaf of bread. i have mutuals in countries i will never set foot in and we talk to each other behind pixels on the screen. some person who is about to graduate high school hides behind a url like bizzare-eelcuddler and makes the most beautiful art you've ever seen of a show that was cancelled 6 years ago. is there not beauty in that, in the diversity of the human experience yet the way we can be unified?

#this post was prompted by me getting emotional when reading a fic and the author noted they were busy with their child #and i was like damn. the profound nature of the human experience hit me upside the head.#we are really just people connecting over story telling. and you wove this fanfic for the world.#i have been so busy studying that taking time to do things just for funsies provokes an emotional response #there's a thesis in here but i'm too busy being emo to untie that knot #fandom #fandom culture

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