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#i forgot how much i liked raz. fucked up
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digging deep into grims ocland. raz info 😏⁉️
jesus christ that IS digging deep. i haven’t thought about raz since high school it feels like. i remember so little of his lore but i can do my best to piece it together lmfao. i wish i had any kind of ref image for him but uh he is an oc from so long ago and most of those old ocs have been collecting dust for yeaaaars except the few i’m really attached to
anyway here goes?
okay so i hunted down my original ramble about him just now and i forgot how much i liked this concept lol. i’m realizing i still really like my old ocs
anyway! raz is a magicverse sorcerer. he’s genderfluid and bisexual. he’s one of the most famous models in the western magic world and frequently ends up in the few magazines/newspapers that exist in sorcerer society (usually only widespread in bigger cities/places with high concentrations of sorcerers). he’s also kind of a porn star on the side, though he takes that a bit less seriously. anyway, he’s considered very handsome in a traditionally masculine way, which causes one of his major conflicts, in that he can’t be out as genderfluid or try to present in a more feminine way without risking his job(s). he defaults to using he/him because it’s easier but likes any pronouns :)
his magic type is air. he can harden air into a sword or shield (for example, but he can make just about anything), and can also animate it into familiars, though unlike other notable sorcerers he can’t keep them around forever because he has to spread his power quite thin to do so. he’s quite powerful, which makes him even more popular in sorcerer society, though he’s not exactly the biggest fan of his status!
he’s a big sweetheart really, though you wouldn’t know it from his photoshoots (they often make him appear more masculine than he really is). he has a pet rat (that i can’t remember the name of) that he keeps with him all the time, generally hidden away in a pocket or kept in his hoodie hood. it’s very well trained and he’s obsessed with rats in general.
as previously mentioned, he’s very handsome but he’s kind of embarrassed about it in day-to-day life and tries to brush it off as much as he can. he doesn’t like the amount of attention it gets him. outside of work he wants to be left alone most of the time LOL. also he’s very physically strong and can lift pretty heavy stuff, though he rarely utilizes that strength because. well. he’s a big softie. (he does pick up his girlfriend though. he’s not a fucking coward)
anyway he’s also kind of secretly a huge nerd. he’s really interested in human video games/media and other parts of human culture and if you ask him about it he’ll ramble for a LONG time. he wears leather/denim jackets a lot but he’ll wear nerdy ass graphic tees under them because it makes him happy
also his girlfriend is ayame, a demon who’s seb’s oc :3 i won’t get into her lore because 1. i only partially remember and 2. she belongs to seb, but she’s the first one to actively encourage raz presenting in a more feminine way. they’re this image (with ayame doing raz’s makeup obviously)
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oh also, i forgot to do a physical description because i usually have art or screenshots or something. raz is tall and has tan/olive skin, with dark curly hair and freckles and a slightly hooked nose. he’s, uh, pretty obviously jewish. intentionally on my part (i was really into projecting my jewishness as much as possible onto my ocs when i was in high school). he also has a lot of dark body hair and he’s extremely sexy for that <3
erm if there’s anything else, i probably don’t remember ✌️ know that raz loves his girlfriend so much and lets her peg him til he can’t walk i mean what who said that. it’s 5:30 am i’m done bye
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Bunk Mates, Chapter 16
Word Count:  3.8k
Warnings:  manipulation, mean pranks, hazing, smut, unprotected sex, fighting/arguing, mentions of an accident, mentions of a character getting punched. 
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Alex's POV
"Aww shit, hide your mirrors, here comes the C team," I heard Granny yell, “man they’re all a bunch of jerks.”
Tad chuckled and Shorty joined in, "oh A shift. They are slobs."
"Hey, I'm with one of those slobs," I said, jokingly elbowing shorty. The guys laughed and we met up with A shift, face to face, “nice words, please!”
"Those guys are the worst," Lucy groaned, "no offense Ike."
"Look who it is," Tad smiled as we stopped right in front of them, "It's the little guys."
"Hey uhh, any chance you guys heard about my vacation day last week?" Shorty asked. The guys shrugged him off with 'nopes,' as Shorty began flexing, "cap said I could chalk it up to FLEX TIME."
"I actually went to a bar this weekend" Ike said, "and curled it."
"Was it a candy bar?"
The guys began joking about A shift, and I looked at Ike, "I did really like their wine bar though."
"Oh, it was great," he smiled, thinking about our date night where we’d gone to a nice little wine bar that had just opened up, "and those entrees…perfect pairing choices, baby."
"Amazing choice yourself," you teased, “you picked out the food…I just matched it.”
"Really?" Andy asked, "where was it?"
"The one downtown that just opened.  You really need to try it."
"Hey guys," Delilah said, coming up, "uhh captain, you forgot your bag."
"Nope, no Delilah, I didn't. I just didn't feel like carrying it."
"That's your job," JD said, knocking it out of her grasp. We all began razzing Delilah, kicking the bag around, “come on probie, get it.”
"Come on guys," Ike said, "Alex, really?"
"Gotta raz the probie," I said with a shrug. We all began laughing again, and Ike gave me a look, which I really felt guilty for. JD wrapped an arm around me, “hey we all doing breakfast.”
"Don't look back, sweetie," he said confidently as we walked away towards our cars, “I’ll make sure we get extra chocolate chips in our pancakes.”
Shorty tossed the rubber axe back to cap, and he tossed it off to Delilah. I heard her yell something about 'breakfast being on her.'
"Think she'll really buy breakfast?" I asked.
"Shorty shrugged, "who knows...but we're gonna make McConkey feel bad about messing with her.  You don’t fuck people around like that.  She loved her old station."
"Yeah, it was kinda shitty," I agreed. "How far you think we can take it?"
"Oh, I'm making her get a tattoo," Delilah said, joining up with us, "she pulled me away from my dream life."
"I'm sorry about that."
"No," she said, getting into my car as we loaded up, "don't be. I'm so glad you were open with me about that. I get that chief apologized, but for Lucy to just hide behind her dad like that. That's really shady."
"If it makes you feel any better, I don't really hang around her that much either," I admitted, "but that's just because I get along with guys way more."
"Speaking about guys," she sighed, as we got into my car, "sorry about hitting on Ike when I first got to the station."
"It's okay," I said waving her off, "I know Ike's a catch. We talked about it the very first night he found that post it note. We have a very understanding relationship. That's why I talked to you about it."
"I'm really glad though that you really took me under your wing," she began, "you guys have all been so amazing to me. It almost makes being ripped away from station 27 worth it. And meeting your brother..."
"Oh god, I don't want to hear about you and my brother banging," I laughed, shaking my head, "I know you two are dating...but I do not want the details."
"Well thank you," she laughed, "Dave is great."
"I got you, Delilah.  Honestly, I’m just happy you have him reigned in.  He seems happy with you," I replied, "now let's get some breakfast. We gotta be back at the station in two hours to get working on the PSA's."
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"You're gonna have to be meaner to your boyfriend," Tad said as we took a break. I looked at Delilah, JD, and Shorty. All three of them nodded, "you constantly being a white light for the A shift to be nice is making it hard to believe that you wouldn't make us be nice to Delilah."
"I don't want to upset Ike."
"I'm sure if you explained it to him afterwards, he'd be fine with it," Delilah said, taking my hands in her own, "You know I wouldn't ask this if it didn't matter. But everyone on all three shifts knows how Lucy had me pulled here, and they all know how unfair it was...please. Just this one time."
"Okay," I sighed, "but only because we're getting back at Lucy."
A knock on the bunk room door interrupted us from our thoughts. It was Andy, "hey, we're gonna get started again."
"We're gonna get started again," I said in a mocking tone, "I'm Mya-wahhh-ni and I just barge in because I'm A-shift."
He looked shocked. "Well, that was really rude, I was just letting you know that we're ready to talk ideas again."
"We're ready to talk again," Shorty said as if he were a robot, "I'm an A shifter."
"Guys we probably shouldn't keep them wa-"
"Delilah did anyone say you could talk?" Tad asked, "Shorty? Jan Damme? Alex?"
Andy looked uncomfortable and backed out. Delilah ran up to me and hugged me once she had seen that he was gone, "thank you so much Alex."
"We got your back," I smiled, "you're a C shifter. Right guys?"
The guys nodded and joined in on our little family hug.
"We really should get back to the conference room though," JD announced. I agreed with him as we headed back in, “I want to get these things done so we can relax.”
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"What about spaying and neutering your cats?" Ike asked.
We all began shaking our heads and gave it the thumbs down.
"Hey, hey, breast cancer awareness!" Lucy exclaimed.
"Ugh," Tad commented. JD began to fake throwing up, “No.”
"Delilah where are the skittles?" I asked. She hurriedly poured some in a bowl and put them in front of Shorty, "You really want to do a PSA on that?"
"What's wrong with breast cancer awareness?" she asked, "you're a woman."
"I don't want to hear about sick people!" I groaned, "that's disgusting."
"Alex!"
I looked at my boyfriend. He looked confused.
"What Ike?" I asked, "you want to hear about some diseased woman's breasts?"
"I got it!" Tad commented, "tapestries on lamps."
JD and I fist bumped, "that's a great idea cap."
"What does that even mean?"
"Come on," he said, gesturing to me, "like you and your girl haven't done that before? "
"What?"
"Sometimes my love making goes on so long that the curtains have caught on fire."
"I've seen him do it!" JD smiled.
"You watched him do that?" Ike asked disgustedly.
"Delilah, what is this?" Shorty asked, "you know I don't eat the green apple ones?"
"And I only eat the green apple!" I groaned, "What are you doing?"
"Delilah," JD yelled, "Come on."
The two men pushed the bowl past JD and into my seat. I backed away from it as if it were diseased, "fix it."
"They're making him angry!" JD commented, "come on. Get it out of here. "
"Don't pick them out," I groaned, "oh my god, Delilah, you're touching them. Now they all need washed."
"Alright guys we're losing focus here," Granny said, trying to bring the conversation back to something salvageable, "how about a PSA video on the new trend of fisting? "
"HARD PASS!"
"Who made you the director?" Ike asked.
"I guess I just did," Tad announced, "first of all. I'm the captain."
"Oh, I know."
"No no no," he laughed, " I could make you pick lint out of my belly button if I wanted to. Second, Granny's little body cam videos don't inspire much confidence."
"Guys honestly," Ike said, pointing at him, "Granny's our guy so he's going to direct."
"We're doing public service announcements," Tad commanded, "not fisting porn."
"You know what," Granny said in a low voice, "I'm directing. That's the end of it."
Cap began to laugh and turned to him, "I guess there's only gonna be one way we solve this."
"Bays. Five minutes."
"Oh, it's on."
The guys began clearing out, and I followed, Delilah close behind me. We went straight to the bathroom. The guys said they'd meet us downstairs. Once behind closed doors, Delilah hugged me, "oh my god you were so good in there. Lucy looked like she really thinks you guys make my life hell."
"I'm glad I could help you out."
"You really are amazing, Alex...thank you."
"No problem," I sighed, "I'm gonna be a second. Can you tell the guys?"
"Yeah," she nodded. She hurried out of the bathroom. As I was standing there, looking at myself in the mirror, I heard the door slam behind me. I could see Ike looking very upset with me in the reflection.
"Yeah," he said in a low tone as he stared me down, "if I was treating someone like that, I'd have a hard time looking at myself too."
"Ike-"
"No." he said as I turned around. He held his hand out as if to signal that I shouldn't come up to him, "no. Who was that woman in the conference room, Alex? That's not you. I've never seen that side of you."
"It's not wh-"
"I'm not done," he said, cutting me off, "when we met, I thought you were the most amazing woman ever. You stuck up for me when I was upset, because Lucy was playing that prank on me. But you are so much meaner to Delilah than she ever was to me. Is that why you didn't take the open spot on the A shift? Cap and Chief both told me about how they tried to get you to come to our shift, but you said no. Is this why?  Because that is the real you?  Is all of this an act?"
"Ike, will you let me explain?"
"What is there to explain?" he asked, "you're being so mean to that woman. Is it because I told you how she gave me her number when she first got here? Are you jealous of her or something? I don't get it."
"Ike it's a prank...a poorly planned one, but a prank that Delilah wanted to do," I all but yelled. I walked past him, locked the door, and then took a few steps towards him. I put my hands on his chest. He tensed up. I looked him dead in the eye, "Ike. Delilah wanted to prank Lucy for fucking her over. She's become one of my best friends. Hell, I even set her up with Davey last month. But when we found out that we were going to be doing the PSA's with you guys, she broke down."
"What?"
"Delilah was upset, and she told us," I sighed, "Lucy had her uprooted from 27 because she wanted another girl on A shift. She has a half hour drive every shift. She hardly gets to see her mom. Her house that she bought this year was literally right next to her old station. Lucy really fucked her over and all because she was bored. Delilah just wanted to be a good firefighter. She was hurt that Lucy never apologized to her and acted like nothing was her fault. So, she asked us to help prank her. We didn't even question it. We said yes."
"Well, what's the prank?"
"I don't know," I admitted, "she just wants us to pretend to be mean to her so that Lucy feels bad. She may try to trick her into getting a tattoo...but they asked me to live up to the classical c-shift stereotype that you guys have of us."
"Alex," he sighed, wrapping his arms around me, "why didn't you tell me?"
"They asked me not to, Ike." I replied. He pulled me to his chest and rested his head on top of my own, “Delilah wanted it to be a secret until it was done…and I just-I felt so bad for how Lucy treated her…it reminded me of that day when she had you nearly in tears over that Dalmatian story…but she took it way too far with Delilah…I just…I couldn’t let her get away with it.”
"I'm not mad at you," he said after a moment, "but we can't have any secrets from one another moving on...you're my girlfriend...and I'm your boyfriend. I want a future with you...so any time you're taking part in a prank or vice versa, can we let one another know?"
I nodded against his chest.  
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Ike’s POV
"Ugh," Lucy groaned, "you're still gonna go talk to your girlfriend?"
"Yeah," I said slowly, "why wouldn't I?"
"I don't know if you noticed but your girlfriend is being kind of mean," Andy said as if it were the most obvious thing in the world, "she's being really mean to Delilah. And all of us."
"Yeah!" Lucy agreed.
I shook my head. I didn't want to give the prank away, "she's different around me, guys. Maybe the C shift is making her act like that."
"All I'm saying is, if a group of guys is making your girlfriend be a completely different person, then maybe you need to take a look at that relationship, because she's faking it somewhere," Lucy said quickly, "I wouldn't act any different around you guys if I had a boyfriend."
I didn’t respond.  And soon enough, things tapered off as we hit the bunk room. Tad, Jan Damme, and Shorty were all getting changed.
"Did you need something?"
Lucy and Andy grabbed their uniforms and turned to me, "you coming?"
"In a minute."
They both looked at me hesitantly but walked away. I walked up to the door, closed, and locked it.
"What are you doing?" Jan Damme asked.
"You know, don't you?" Tad asked, eyeing me up and down.
"Yeah," I admitted, “I do.”
"Alex!"
The bathroom door opened, and Alex came out, still in her bikini. Shorty cocked his head to the side, "did you really tell him?"
"He's my boyfriend," she said guiltily. I smiled at how innocent she was acting, but the guys weren't buying it. She sighed, "I had to tell him after we pulled that stunt in the conference room. We almost fought."
"So, you knew during the game?"
I nodded.
Tad smiled, "you're alright Crystal."
"You guys mind if I steal my girlfriend away while you guys break for lunch?"
"Why certainly," Jan Damme smiled, bowing as he and the other gentlemen left the room. I looked at Alex. She bit her lip and took a few light steps towards me.
"Well, you look dapper."
"Yeah?"
She nodded. I put my hands on her hips, and pulled her body towards mine so that the gap between us was gone, "is it bad that I think you look extremely sexy all dressed up like that?"
"Oh really?" I asked.
"Yeah."
"Well do you know how sexy I think you look in a bikini in the middle of the fire station?"
"Maybe you should tell me," she giggled. Her hand slid under the suit jacket and undid it. Her fingers played with the buttons as she pulled me in for a kiss. My hands slid lower on her waist, then down to her ass. She moaned as I grabbed it.
"Ike," she whispered, breaking away from our kiss, "the door?"
I nodded, going back to the door, and locking it. Then she rushed me. Our lips reattached in a flash, and before I could recognize it, my jacket and waistcoat were on the floor. She had unbuttoned my button up, and that was quickly sliding off my shoulders. I pulled off her bikini bottoms, and lifted her off the ground, pushing her between myself and the door.
Her legs wrapped around me, as we both fought for my pants to come off. Her hair cascaded around the both of us, and I was wrapped up in her scent. She began moving away from my lips, and down to my neck. I moaned and braced myself against the wall as she found the sensitive spot right on my collarbone. "Alex."
I felt her thighs shift, and her hands pushed my pants down. I stepped out of them and made my way to our bed. Our breathing heavy. I felt a pressure on my hips as I laid us down on the bed.
"You look so beautiful."
I tucked her hair behind her ears and kissed her passionately as I lined myself up with her entrance. When she deepened the kiss, I entered her. I felt her tightening up around me and that was enough to force me to close my eyes.
Fuck.
"Fuck!"
She playfully bit my lip, and I thrusted deeply into her. She let go and moaned, my name a single syllable off her lips. I continued my pace, going as deep as I could, until I felt the all too familiar tightening in my lower stomach.
"Don't stop," she begged as my thrusts became more erratic. I could hear it in her pleas, she was right on the edge, same as me, "Ike."
"Alex," moaned, letting go. I gave one final, heavy thrust, and I felt her clenching down on me. She was milking me for everything I was worth. She threw her head back against the mattress and rode her orgasm out. I smiled, watching her euphoric high. As I pulled out, I rolled into the bed next to her. She cuddled up against my chest, and absentmindedly began drawing out random patterns.
I gave a contented sigh, stroking her hair.
"I love you so fucking much," she whispered, kissing my chest. She yawned and cozied up to me, "so fucking much." 
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Alex’s POV
"Alright, we need to talk."
I looked at chief McConkey and Captain Penisi, "what's up guys?"
"We're transferring you."
"What?" I asked.
"We're transferring you," Captain Penisi repeated. He looked at chief, "did I stutter the first time, or mumble or something?"
"Where am I getting transferred to?"
"Oh," Terry laughed, "you aren't leaving the station. We lost two guys, so now we have less people than both B and C shift. We need to even it out and we don't have it in the budget to hire a new person until next year."
"Okay?" I asked, "so why me?"
"You have the least seniority," Chief McConkey said quickly, "aside from Delilah, but that's still a sore situation. So, it's been a long time coming, but you're going to be on the A shift as of August the first. That gives you a few more weeks with C shift to tie up any loose ends and get adjusted."
"Can't I petition this or something?" I asked, "I don't want to leave the C shift."
"Oh, come on," Captain Penisi smiled, "we're great on the A shift. It's perfect for you. And you'll get to spend more time with Ike. He's been telling us lately that he's sad he doesn't get to spend as much time with you."
"We live together," I laughed, "I doubt he says that. If anything, he probably complains about the fact that there is more room than his apartment and he can't find his keys."
"Okay I made that up," Eddie admitted, "But it will come with a pay raise."
"I don't care about a pay raise."
"Well, you're also going to be in a different position," Chief McConkey sighed, "that was the real reason I needed to meet up with you and discuss this. You'll still technically be a firefighter, but Olson is the straw that's breaking the camels back. You know how I've been having you help out Captains Penisi and Tad with their paperwork and filing?"
"Yeah?"
"That's because Olson is planning on retiring. He's going to be finished and we need to replace him. You'll essentially be a firefighter and an office administrator. And if I'm being honest, you're the only one at the station on any of the shifts that I actually trust to be doing this job."
"Really Terry?" Captain Penisi asked, "after I agreed to come in and help you talk to her!"
"I've already informed Tad. While he is upset about the situation he does understand and is letting you go."
"Well, it sounds like none of us really have a choice."
"Your kind of don't, "Captain Penisi shrugged, "but hey, welcome to A shift kiddo."
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"Oh my god, Ike, are you okay?"
"Yeah," he laughed, putting his bag down in the entryway. I leapt onto him, wrapping my arms around him, "why wouldn't I be?"
"I just, I heard that there was an accident, but no one was telling us what happened," I gasped, pulling him even closer, "I was worried you got hurt."
"Babe, I'm fine." He pulled away from me but stopped laughing when he looked in my eyes. I had been worrying all day about it, "hey, hey...I'm okay. See? Still in one piece."
"I was just worried. You didn't answer your phone at all."
"Yeah, I'm sorry about that," he sighed, "we were waiting to see what was going on with Lucy. She got decked by some guy in the throat. So while Granny took her, cap kept me and Andy busy with chores. You're right though, I should have answered so you knew I was okay. Are you alright?"
I nodded, and he shook his head, wrapping his arms around me again. I felt him kissing the top of my head, "you don't seem like you are alright. You seem really shaken up."
"I mean I know that we are firefighters, and accidents happen," I admitted, "but I guess I didn't really think about an accident happening to either one of us...so yeah, when I heard someone from the A shift was hurt, I guess it made me scared...really scared."
"Like I said," he laughed, "I'm fine."
"Yeah, yeah yeah," I laughed, jokingly pushing him away from me. I turned to walk away, and felt his arms slip around my waist. We both walked to the living room before he pulled me onto the couch. We snuggled up, and Creatine nipped at our feet before jumping up too.
Ike laid light kisses along the back of my neck and shoulders. I lifted his hands up to my face and kissed the backs of them, "I'm glad you are okay."
"Nothing can take me out," he chuckled, "you're stuck with me, Boykins." 
Chapter 17
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Surprisingly Familiar Ch 1
The first chapter of the sequel to Summoning Family. I'm going to be working on my scattered au fic more, but you might still see some chapters of this scattered around
@petrichormeraki made the hermit!Tommy au, and @helleborusangel did amazing rambles for the chapters of Summoning Family.
Now, Let's see how things have gone since the ending of Summoning Family.
It had been eleven days since Grum’s birthday and now it was Jrum’s. He was excited by the party, playing games and trying to scam people of their diamonds. Cake was nice, his mask getting a special cake of his own with diamonds since Grum had gotten the same. And then it came to presents.
Jrum was especially happy at any toys he got and glad if he was just getting diamonds. Kokatori had also managed to get another ribbon around its neck and try to be a present again. Jrum wasn’t the most pleased about that since he was still coping with everything that happened with the egg, but he still took the present before handing them off to Grum.
Just as the presents were just about all gone, two more were placed on the table, each one with a different label. Jrum went to grab the last present when he saw the new ones being placed, so he looked up at who was putting them down, surprised to see an unfamiliar face. “Um, who are you?”
The question made everyone look over, most people looking confused, but three people had different reactions. Phil looked surprised, recognizing the man. Grian was also surprised, but also awestruck. Lastly, in Grum’s arms, Kokatori hissed.
“What the heck are you doing here? Who even let you in?” Phil asked, walking over to the man.
“I let myself in. I mean, I sort of already had permission to be here, just never used it. Building big was never really my thing.”
“Who are you then?” It was Scar who spoke up. The person looked at a few of the hermits who seemed to also look as confused as Scar sounded.
“I think the beard is messing with them.” Phil said, elbowing the man, who then ran a hand through his beard.
“Right, spend a month on an abandoned island and then get captured by pirates and you can’t really do much for that. Anyone got a raz...or…” he trailed off as Jrum pulled out some special shears. He was stunned by the bot having such a thing, but took them with a thank you and stepped out of the room.
After a few minutes, he stepped back in, and immediately some of the hermits were no longer confused. “Oh my god, it’s been so long!” Bdubs was the first to say, going over to the man. “What have you been up to!”
“Eh, mainly family. You’ve been working with someone named Scar?” Bdubs nodded and gestured to the mayor. “Got it. Nice to meet you.” He moved over to Doc. “And how about you? How’s the family life?”
“Eh, some days are always better than others, I haven’t been around here as often because of it. What about you?”
“Well, the kids are all grown up at this point, I’ve got more time on my hands so I’ve gone back to filming.”
Doc nodded. “Sounds good to me. I’ve got to tell you more about what we did last season.”
“I’m sure you do.” The man chuckled, moving over to Keralis. “Hey, can’t wait to see your city. The pictures seemed crazy enough. I can’t believe you built all that.”
“Why spank you, but I have had help with designs.”
“Yeah. And you said you own it with someone named Cleo now?”
“Yes, in fact, she’s got a relative that is in Bub’s troop last I checked.”
Cleo spoke up at this point. “Yep! Got an order in for popcorn just the other day.”
“Nice to hear. By the way, Etho’s behind me, isn’t he?” The hermits unfamiliar with the man were surprised by that comment, as Etho was indeed behind him. Pretty much no one could tell when Etho was sneaking around, so this new person doing it was very shocking. “I’ll be asking everyone about your shops so I can stay awake from them.”
“Oh come on, some of them would be fun for a survivor like you. In fact we could get Tango to open up decked out for a session for you.”
“Right, sure Etho. Now is Beef around?”
“No actually. He had something really important come up.” Etho answered, another hermit nodding to agree with the statement.
“Ah, that’s too bad. Well, I guess the only person left to greet is ol’ rap battle over here.”
Wels suddenly looked embarrassed. “Oh that’s why you look familiar. You’re the OBP leader.”
“Yeah.” The man nodded. “You know green wasn’t really your c-”
“Please don’t bring that up again.”
The man laughed. “Alright, I won’t.” He then looked at the rest of the hermits. “Well, I think I know a few of you from the letters I’ve gotten from these guys.” And he gestured to the hermits he had been talking to. “Like I know Scar and Cleo now, then TFC and Xisuma I’m familiar with, also Zedaph.”
“Yeah, so who are you exactly?” Mumbo spoke up. “While I’m glad you’ve come to celebrate Jrum’s birthday, I’m not familiar with you.”
“Right, forgot to give my name I guess.” The man started to say. “I’m-”
Grian cut him off. “You’re the Soarvivor Paul! I remember watching your shows when I was in highschool! I had some friends at my school in England who went to an event of yours!”
“Wait, this is Paul?” Scar spoke up. “I’ve heard a lot of stories about him from Doc and Bdubs.”
Paul smiled at that. “Yep, that would be me.”
Grian took over the conversation again. “So wait, you said you were recording again, are you making MvM again?”
Instead of answering happily like Paul had to everyone else, he just gave Grian a bit of a nod before giving him the cold shoulder.
“Wait, are you that uncle Phil’s always talking about?” Tommy asked. He had stayed out of the conversation when he had no clue what was going on, but now that he recognized the name, he had some things to say. “The one he always complains always uses letters instead of a phone call or texting.”
Paul nodded. “Yeah, that would be me. Letters are the most reliable when you’ve got a job like mine.”
“Then stick to a comm then Paul.” Doc said, resting his arm on Paul's shoulder. “I’ve offered to make you a special one who knows how many times. I’m sure your kids wouldn’t mind it either.”
“Why do I feel like I’m still missing something?” Tommy spoke up again, Doc explaining for him.
“A number of us hung out with Paul in the past. Most of us he knows from the old Minecrack worlds, but he met Keralis on some other worlds.”
“Yeah, and met Wels when we were dealing with an apocalypse world. Beef was there too.” Paul sighed. “So Phil, what’s your family been getting up to other than the obvious?”
“Well, Tommy’s actually living in hermitcraft now.” Phil answered. “Wilbur’s getting through some things, and Techno’s trying to keep up his hardened warrior mask, but Grian’s kid is making that hard.”
“Well, this group seems to have that effect on people.” Paul nodded. “And how’ve they been doing with Xelqua?” Paul jabbed a finger on Grian’s direction.
“Right, shit, forgot to say that part. Grian is Xelqua.” Phil quickly explained, Paul’s mouth turning to a small ‘o’.
“Ah, I guess that explains that war and the hippies I heard about in letters. At least It’s a little tamer in a world like this.” Most of the people in the room were confused, and at first Grian was one of them, but then he made a connection and his legs were suddenly struggling to keep him up. “He has told you about Tokyo, right?”
Before anyone could answer, Kokatori was hissing in Grum’s arms again, drawing Paul’s attention. He pulled out a stone sword and immediately the hermits that knew Paul were holding him back. “No! Hey! Paul, that is a kid’s pet!” Bdubs said. “I know you don’t like them but that’s like the one chicken you’re not allowed to kill!”
“Just get him a pet other than a chicken! You can’t trust a chicken! They’re spies, killers and thieves.”
“Killer chickens?” Wels, who wasn’t holding Paul back, asked.
“Oh no, he’s telling the truth about that.” Doc answered. “I saw it for myself.”
“How do you get killed by a fucking chicken?” Tommy asked.
“You forget to kill it first.” Paul answered, finally putting his sword away. “Well, you said that kid’s one of Xel’s.”
“One of Grian’s.” Phil corrected. “And yes. That’s Grumbot, or Grum, the older of the two. His birthday was a week and a half ago.”
“Well, figures they’d just try causing more problems.”
Phil rolled his eyes and then grabbed Paul’s arm. “Alright, you and I. Talk. Now.”
When Phil and Paul had left the room, Grian finally allowed himself to go to the floor. The hermits that knew Paul were immediately apologizing for him, not sure why he was acting that way. But Grian knew. And Mumbo helped Grian up, pretty sure he knew too. “I’m going to help Grian lie down. Grum, maybe I should take Kokatori with me so they don’t cause more problems.”
Grum nodded and handed the chicken over, it being very upset about being moved and pecking at Mumbo’s arms. But he was too worried about Grian to let that stop him. So soon they had left the room too.
For a while, everything was silent. But then Jrum spoke up. “Well, for my birthday, I want to eavesdrop! And no one can stop me!” And he ran off to listen into Phil and Paul’s conversation, leaving the rest of the party members confused on what to do.
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jestlingnest · 3 years
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you should totally tell me all abt psychonauts since i still havent gotten into it im v busy but spill 👀
Well, spoilers ahead! But I would really, really recommend watching a lets play or all cutscene compilation of the games, one of the most fun parts is piecing together the story when you don't know everything. And maybe if you happen to be in my discord server, I can get another server playthrough to happen depending on if anyone who can stream it wants to play.
So spoilers under the cut.
I don't even know where to start!!!! This game has so, so much. The first and the second! I just finished watching Snapcube play through Bob's Bottles. Happy(?) to report that I still tear up. It's such a good level!!!
Like I know that everyone loves this level, but it's for a good reason! There's so many layers! The bottles not only match the whole island theme (and it's an island because of how alone Bob is) but also it's because he's an alcoholic but ALSO it's because he bottles up his feelings and memories.
And the Sensorium... oh I still have wonderful memories of playing that for the first time. My friend Reven and I were staying up super late to play Psychonauts 2, and the only things I knew about it was the brain in a jar level, so as soon as I heard about getting Nick a brain, I was on my way to Otto's lab asap. I didn't even get the gadgets from Otto, I was too distracted! I missed a lot of dialogue. But anyway, when I went into that level, I really did have no idea who it was. I was just wandering around with my little buddy Psi King, taking in all the beautiful sights. Eventually I was convinced that this brain belonged to "that guy with the beard from the psychic 7" because of all the figments of him. And that he seemed to match the aesthetic the place had going on.
So I was very surprised when Psi King started to sing and then turned into Helmut. I grabbed my friend's arm and went "it's the viking guy!!! it's the viking guy!!". I didn't expect to like that character, but as soon as I saw him it was favorite character at first sight. I fell in love instantly. His design is so good. It was like. 4 am. When we got to his memories, it took me so, so long to figure out that the senses were his friends. Even when Dr. Touch directly got called Otto. It did click when he was talking about Bob though. To quote Reven, "the only reason they didn't kiss was because he's a fucking ear". We went to bed around 6 am and I could not stop thinking about Helmut Fullbear.
I can't think about Helmut and Bob for too long without getting sad, or angry. Both of their lives were ruined because Ford was like "whoopsie!! I fucked up and forgot!". I don't forgive him for what he did, but he is still my friend. Bob and Helmut lost so much time together. Twenty years... (or thirty years. I know they say 20 but it makes a lot more sense if it was 30 years). And when Helmut gets back? Bob is old, and he's been drinking for years. How much time does he have left? Ten years? Twenty years? And with Helmut, did the hyperice stop him from aging? Maybe, but would it still be like he had aged normally? Like he still looks the same, but physically he's in his 60s. Is it better to lose twenty years of your life and die "early", or is it better to still have those years but you're living them without your husband? These two make me sad. And it didn't have to happen if Ford had just not forgotten. Or labeled the jar. Or Otto investigated this random brain he found more. If Ford had just TOLD PEOPLE. Ok now I'm angry at Ford again haha. He fucked up. Didn't even say "I'm sorry." I mean at least he knows he fucked up and he regrets it and he tells Raz this, but come on. At least say I'm sorry.
Now I'm just going off on hypothetical scenarios, but if Ford apologizes to Bob, Bob would get angry and yell at him. But that doesn't make anything better. It doesn't even make Bob feel better. Having someone to direct his anger at should have helped, right? Part of him wanted Ford to argue back, to stop standing there quietly, but that was selfish of him to think. There was nothing left to be done. Ford knew he had done something wrong. He knew it was his fault. And he had apologized. Yelling at him wouldn't change anything.
I was gonna talk about all of Psychonauts but I ended up just talking about Bob and Helmut again. Whoops! I really, really like them. I wish I could replay the Sensorium right now. Ok but to talk about something other than those two!!! My top five favorite characters are Helmut, Bob, Cassie, Lizzie, and Mirtala. Yes, I know Mirtala does like. nothing. I don't care. I think she's neat. I also think Cassie is neat. She still wants things to go back to how they were before. I mean, who doesn't? But that won't happen. However, that isn't going to stop her from trying to trying to spend time with her friends again!
I've found myself talking about Helmut again. He is my friend. I mean, he does call Raz his friend as the Mote of Light, which I think is nice. And now, Raz is kind of like a nephew to him! Also I love the idea of him mentoring Frazie when she becomes an intern. I think that's really good.
I don't know how to end things so um. Ending! Yeah. Now I kinda want to write something about Psychonauts. I have ideas, I just don't really know where to start. Maybe one day...
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y'know i think its about time ive refurbished my psychonauts headcanons/theories
what??? me??? rewriting my psychonauts headcanons in a more comprehensible and informed way???
ye
alright, i think everyone knows what im talking about, by headcanons i mean headcanon as in singular, and as singular, i mean my "raz is somewhere on the spectrum of adhd".
so lets just get into it:
what is adhd actually?
adhd by definition stands for attention deficit hyperactive/hyperfocus disorder (yes, let me get into the details in just a sec). it is a nerodevelopmental disorder that is almost completely reliant on genetic factors, however conditions during pregnancy can sometimes contribute to certain aspects of how adhd manifests itself.
long story short, people with adhd have a smaller frontal lobe, and therefore less dopamine in general (even though yes, it is more complicated than that).
theres also a little bit of "chicken or the egg first" goin on here, certain behaviors or personality tendencies can also affect how adhd is presented in one individual to the next, however its still not clear if that is because it is an accommodating for a certain thought process or if someones experiences and personality shape their symptoms of adhd entirely. its a very blurry line, and the answer is different for everybody.
hyperactive type
hyperactive type is probably the closest to most stereotypical depictions of adhd, think the 5 year old whos parents brush off their child’s hyperactivity as something that will “go with age”. however, this isn’t only present in children, adults with adhd have to deal with a constant need for stimuli to make up for the lack of dopamine their current activity is providing them. this results in someone fidgeting frequently in repetitive or predictable motions, unable to hold attention to a specific task for long periods of time, or many other of the symptoms associated with adhd.(i sadly cannot provide more information in this area, i am not knowledgeable enough to...)
hyperfocus type
hyperfocus type is a tricky one, it can look like the complete opposite of adhd in theory. hyperfocus can look similar to special interests or hyperfixation, a great deal of time and knowledge dedicated to a very particular thing (although it is important to note that even though hyperfixations and special interests are incredibly similar, special interests is a term more typically used within autistic-circles, and isnt really the best word to use if you happen to be neurotypical). Think of maybe that kid who knows all the cool animal facts and won’t shut up about them. Its because certain trains of thought or activities might release more dopamine then others, so to get more of that dopamine, someone of hyperfocus type will be mentally unable to stop thinking or doing a very specific task or topic. this results in someone seemingly always spacing out, unable to change subjects or changing subjects too fast or with little to no correlation, or being completely unable to have enough motivation to do simple things.
personally i tend to fall under the category of hyperfocus myself rather than hyperactive, however the two are not mutually exclusive, its more common to find people with both types rather than just one. even myself, i might exhibit more tendencies to place me under the label of hyperfocus, but that doesn’t mean i don’t have any symptoms of the hyperactive type. its my personality that affects my mannerisms, which then makes certain aspects of my symptoms more or less apparent. Thats because im an INTP-T, i just tend to be more to myself and constantly in a state of thinking abstractly. I have trouble communicating and even sometimes recognizing my needs, and get to a point where im unable to do the simplest of things without feeling emotionally drained. Thats just my experience though, everybodys different. 
so what the fuck does this have to do with raz then?
well lets think about it, rather than have it just be me projecting myself onto a comfort character:
raz finds issue with connecting to kids his age
lets be honest. none of the campers really like raz that much. or at least some do the bare minimum to be try and be polite. it doesn’t seem like any of the other campers besides dogen, whos also socially outcasted, are really fond of raz. lili might like him, but that can definitely be interpreted as curiosity in someone new and different from the norm. It might not be that the kids despise him, but nobodys opinionated enough to care whether he is around or not.
social isolation is one of the most damning things i had to experience from an early age and still feel even today. there is a sense of feeling that you are different among your peers, whether that is a good thing or bad thing. it feels difficult to interact with other people you are not familiar with, and can really stunt you emotionally and socially. from a really early age, theres somethin in you that knows something is very different between the experiences of your peers compared to your own, and it can feel incredibly isolating.
raz and his borderline stupidity
time to get real again. raz is a fucking idiot. at least in the sense that sometimes his decisions seem incredibly spontaneous and not really thought through. he runs from home to attend a summer camp, not really thinking about the logistics of how he will get there, how the staff will react, how long its gonna take for his parent to find him, and so on. it doesn’t seem like he over or underestimates his abilities, he just goes for it without considering. that doesnt seem like the smartest thing to do, even though we know hes incredibly intelligent when it comes to larger, abstract situations. its the little details that he misses, small minuet things that seem unimportant that he overlooks, which can sometimes make things harder for him in the end.
i think its obvious that impulsivity is one symptom of adhd. however i cannot stress how difficult it is to think at supersonic speed and still feel incredibly stupid. i mean, thinking faster doesn’t inherently mean you will have better ideas, you can always be stupider faster, but being able to realize stupid mistakes or inconsistencies in your own thought process is annoying as hell. it feels like every time you try to recognize the issue, fix it, and move forward, you only end up not paying attention to another issue that gets bigger and more annoying than the first. Its always two steps forward, one step back, constantly making the same mistakes even though you try everything in your power to avoid them or grow as a person. The simplest of facts, ideas, or just things to remember end up being forgotten, and once youre reminded of them you remember them and feel like an idiot. however, arbitrary things and complex issues are much easier to digest and remember for me, things like history and the whole blame game charade of it all, biology and how every minuet thing has a greater impact on others and intertwines with every single factor of its environment, philosophy and theorizing why we think the way we do and what can be changed. but oh shit, im a dumbass i forgot to do my laundry. shit. god fuckin dammit.
empathy over sympathy
one of the basic themes of psychonauts is empathy. simple as that. raz goes around into other peoples brains, and tries to help them as much as he can, even if his efforts are not always successful in the way he intended. he never demonizes anyone to the point of unredeemability, and can empathize and understand other peoples perspectives. hes open to new ideas and
although some studies out there theorize that empathy is impaired due to adhd, from my perspective i feel like that is simply not true. if anything, i would say the sensitivity that comes with adhd (hypersensitivity) only enhances that empathy. i could definitely see social disconnection being one of the reasons it might appear that someone with adhd is less empathetic, however i would doubt that adhd would impair a persons empathy. adhd tends to also entail heightened emotions, this doesn’t necessarily mean a more outwardly emotional person, however it definitely shifts a persons perspective of their own emotions as well as others. the concept of hypersensitivity also completely contradicts the idea of people with adhd be less empathetic.
miscommunication and disconnect
sigh, the dad thing. yup. raz has that very iffy relationship with his dad at the beginning of the game which is eventually resolved. very abruptly, might i add. but thats not what this is about, thats a topic for another day. miscommunication seemed to be the root of the issue, however we only get razs side of the story. not to mention the severity of his claims and willingness to seemingly drop everything afterwards. kinda sus, ngl.
alright this ones a doosey. this, i feel, cements my theory pretty well. like i mentioned before, social disconnect and hypersensitivity are side effects of the symptoms of adhd.  this means people with adhd are highly more likely to either misinterpret someones words or actions if those in question are not completely transparent, its because they tend to overthink and interpenetrate responses with too much thinkin n such. the social disconnect makes a whole lot of it worse, it can just pile on top of already established feelings of inadequacy and isolation. and oversharing as a poor coping mechanism isnt an exclusively adhd related thing, it tends to be shared within similar neruodevelopmental disorders such as autism or even ptsd. i find it incredibly easy to disconnect myself from my own emotions at times and think critically at what i feel and how it affects me. which is a bad thing. if i dont acknowledge my emotions like they are my own for too long, everything falls apart. its not fun. but, that disconnect can make talking about certain more traumatic experiences or instances that had deep personal effects on my life and development as a person much easier to just share. and not always in an appropriate manner, comedic opportunity can be   v  e  r  y   enticing. this also explains why raz might have been able to drop everything about his dad after he apologized. he didn’t really, he probably still suffers just as much afterwards as he did before. but he probably wont realize that for awhile, since logically, the issue has been resolved. long story short, he has not had the time to cope, and to put that off he detaches himself from those feelings. w a c k
of course i have other reasons why i feel like raz could potentially have adhd, or at least be accurately represented in headcanon with adhd, some minor mentions being:
he uses his camp map as a journal to track his in-game progress, list of goals, and notes/snip-its of information. writing down information on some form of notepad or book is a common tool used by kids and even adults with adhd to help them keep track of minuet, individual tasks. its just using a planner, but with a bit more information. 
just from my personal perspective, the lengths raz goes to pursue his dream of being a psychonaut feel more like a special interest/hyper fixation sort of thing. he can jump between having genuine conversations with his fellow campers and just exploring the campground, to investing himself entirely in obtaining his goal, even when it seems almost impossible. thats some serious dedication to one very specific thing, y’know?
this one isnt as solid as the other but: m̶̖̰̯̫̍͝o̵̦͖̟͈̹̤̥̝͐̿̄̀̀̎̓ņ̶̛̭̠̐̊̆̍͝ķ̸̝͈̺̙̰̊e̶͉͚̼̅̔͗̂͐̍̕͝͝y̶̦̖̼͖̪͎̝̖̠̐̑͋̾̔̑́͐͘ ̵̢̲̘͎͉̔̀͒̄͌͊̀͌̀m̴̲̫̮̪̖̍̐͆̕͜͝ͅả̶͙͚͗n̶̗̳̩̙̘̼̦̦͇͝ ̷̡̨̡͔̗͕̘͍̥̑͒̎̐̃g̴͔̔̈̅̐̏́̌̔̈́́o̶̥̱̽̆̂͌̀͗ ̶̝̩͙͕͛́s̴̛͓̥̲̜͓͚̣̠̆̓̌͌p̶̜̹̯̦̫̯̣̎͐̽̉̾ḙ̴͇̬͑̈́̐̈́͘͠ͅȅ̶̡̗̞̩͔̫̪͈͑̓͗d̵̠͇͎̜͔͇͒̈́́̀̅̈́̒͘y̸̡̦̠̻̖̥̿ͅ. yeah, its the most generalizing reason but look, hes moving nonstop the entire game, climbing and running around the entire goddamn place wrecking havoc. a bit of imp can be found in most people with adhd if you look hard enough.
so thanks for reading this far i guess? im oversharing even right now with this, like an i d i o t but yknow what i dont want to read the great gatsby rn, so ive got nothin better to do. who knows, maybe the second game will give us more info to either support/discredit this theory? gotta wait for pn2 i guess
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1983
The Sunset Strip, what a wonderful place it was; filled with beautiful women with barely any clothes on and filled with drunk and dosed Rockstar's and common men. It was the place to go when your heart desired was to party and enjoy the view of women, hoping to be lucky and go home with one of them.  
And right now, nothing sounded better to Y/N than that; she knew how to get there, she´d seen some of band mates go in a few times, her legs felt like jelly and her body tricked her into thinking she was melting with every step she took now that the mdma had officially taken over her system, but once she walked into the club, eyes wide and a big smiled plastered over her face from all the women inside, she forgot about how she was melting just a few seconds before. 
But her heart jumped in her ears when she heard Razzle's´ laugh in the club, it was pure coincidence that she had found him there, and pure luck the fact that she heard him over the music, she scanned the room and spotted the blackhead quickly, he was sitting with some other men you couldn’t care to identify, so you made your way towards him.
When you were close enough, he spotted you walking by, and drunkenly he rose his hands up, like a child, when he´s excited over something and yelled your name which only made her chest feel heavy with joy,your senses too heightened so all the joy you usually felt when you saw Raz just became a thousand times more intense, everything was.
¨Darling come sit with us! I´ll introduce you to Motley fucking Crue! ¨ he yelled, by now everyone in the table was looking at you. The boys were all drunk or high, or both, but not even that took the shock from them when they saw you, all smiley and clearly high off something, since you were unable to stay still and on your forehead and arms a thin layer of sweat shined; still you looked just like in the magazines.  
You modelled on and off, it was never really your thing but you record label loved to make money off you, and although your main job was music, they liked to profit from your looks as much as they liked profiting from your voice. And although they were silent as you embraced Raz and pressed a kiss on his lips, they were all thinking the same thing how the fuck does Razzle know you.
You were everyone's dream girl, your career was at its highest point, everyone knew you and either wanted to be with you or be you, your music videos and interviews played through all MTV, your name was always on the papers and magazines along with photos, your music was on the radio; you were what the industry was all about.  
¨This is Y/N! Dear love of mine, this is Motley Crue, Mick, Vince, Tommy and Nikki¨ Raz introduced everyone and then sat down, leaving you space to join them at the table, and once settled you didn’t waste no time in excitingly saying hi to all of them, babbling on how you’ve seen them live a few times at the Whiskey and how you had a friend who was obsessed with them.  
¨You know what I'm curious to hear, the story of how you out of anyone stumbled into a strip club at this time at night¨ Nikki said to everyone, ¨Hopefully is not one of those stories in which you were just looking for you boyfriend here¨ he added drinking from his bottle of Jack.  
To which you laughed and explained, ¨Oh no, no. It was all casualty that Raz was here with you guys, by the way, we are not dating, but I was partying at another club and decided I wanted to come down to sunset strip and see some girls dance, the plans just changed when I saw you guys when I walked in¨  
¨You wanted to see girls dance? ¨ Vince jumped in, ¨Let´s go see some girls dance! ¨ he offered, ¨We never meant to ruin your plans anyway¨ Tommy said, everyone seemed to like the idea since they were all standing from his seats already, grabbing onto their drinks and cigs as they called for a girl to come along. So, you followed, naturally all the exciting washing over your body like waves.  
On a private room, all of you sat until a dancer came around and started playing some music, your leg was bouncing unable to stay still from the anxiousness it caused you to be there, but not the bad kind of anxiety, the excited-I-can´t-wait-for-this-to-happen one. Once the dancer began doing her thing, your eyes were glued to her, she moved and looked like a goddess, and although it was the extasy running through you, you wanted her, and she was quick to notice your lusty staring with your dilated pupils and she went in for a show.
Making her way to you until she was eventually straddling you, everyone's eyes were on you too, no one expected this to happen, but they were not angry about it, and all the boys were too high and drunk to even bother to talk.  
The dancer unclasped her bra and slid it down her shoulders, revealing her breasts to everyone, then she started to play with the hem of your shirt until eventually she took your top off, leaving you in a bra, she never stopped dancing to the music while she did that, her hips were moving and she pulled your hands to her breasts, and you wasted to time in grouping her, eventually not caring about the boys in the room and kissing and sucking on her nipples.
¨Raz man, if she isn´t your girlfriend then you wouldn't mind us joining in on her fun, right? ¨ Nikki asked, ¨She surely isn't my girlfriend mate, she's my wife, but I don’t think she would want anyone to join in her fun right now¨ Razzle laughed, quickly glancing at Nikki as he spoke.  
¨You´re married? How is this not public? ¨ Mick asked, he had completely zoned out of your and the dancer, and just as the topic was beginning to get the attention of everyone, including you, the dancer finished up her routine, picked her tips and left.  
¨My manager doesn´t want the story to go public, since we got drunk married in Vegas¨ you explained, ¨Pretty much, and getting it annulled would bring unwanted attention on the subject¨ Razzle added.  
¨So you guys are together? ¨ Nikki asked trying to get the story straight.  
To which you and Raz shrugged, ¨I wouldn’t say we´re together¨ he explained.  
¨Yeah, we´re not strictly together, but we do go out sometimes¨ you said
¨So you have and open marriage? ¨ Mick asked, trying to put it in simple words,  
You and Raz and looked at each and nodded, truth was you guys never really talked about what your relationship was all about, surely you felt something for Raz, he has showed you love and support like no one, and you felt the same way towards him, but you were too young to commit, he was two years older than you, and you had just turned 21 a few weeks ago, exactly why you had decided to celebrate with Hanoi Rocks in Vegas.
You’ve met Hanoi Rocks when your manager introduced you to them, they had just arrived from Finland and your label was helping them breakthrough in America, and you all clicked as soon as you started speaking. So, on the weekend of your birthday you surprised with tickets and reservations for Vegas to celebrate, and they were all in.  
However, things did get a little out of hand, and although it was not your first-time drinking, you all got a little too carried away and lost control in the middle of the partying, and somehow you went from strangers buying you and the guys drinks at a bar to someone's penthouse getting body shots from beautiful women and having everyone on Hanoi Rocks do coke on your ass.
And with a few lines and drinks on your system you grew a little closer to Razzle, his hands were on your body the whole night, dancing and drinking, kissing your everywhere, and things escaladed quickly, it was in a matter of hours that you two were in one of the bedrooms, tearing each other's clothing off, touching and rubbing on each other, making love promises.
And it was at that moment when Raz thought about marriage, and so he asked you to marry him, all while kissing down your body while you were under him, looking at you in between your thighs, your panties were long gone, and you said yes, you assured him you wanted to marry him; and suggested how all the partying you were doing was now your joined bachelor party.
And it took no time for him to attach his lips to your aching core, already dripping from all the foreplay you had done before hand, his tongue was all over your clit, sucking and flickering, while his hands were skilled on your core, sliding in and out, waves of pleasure coming through you as you melted under his touch, your hands were tight on his hair pushing closer to you as you moaned out his name, begging for him not to stop as you felt yourself about to finish all over his face, which you did shortly after, and he licked you clean, you were quick to want more from him, ready to get him inside of you when he stopped you.  
¨This can wait sugar, I just wanted to show you a preview of our wedding night¨ he kissed you, ¨Then what are we waiting for Raz? let's go get married! ¨ you said getting off him, ¨get dressed! Let's go to a chapel! You said, to which he listened, quickly getting his clothes on.  
The ceremony was short and fun, some guy dressed as Elvis married you two while his band was his best men and some girl you found at the party agreed to be you maid of honor. And in your vows, you promised to love and care for each other until the day came one of you part into another life.  
Once you came back to California with the band, and the drugs and booze had worn down, you and Raz were kind of freaking about you and him being married, you had both agreed on the fact that most of what was said was all under the influence and although he was clear on the fact that he did find you fascinating, maybe marriage was a little too soon for you both, to which you agreed, you guys needed to get to know each other a little more, and just as you and him were talking about getting your marriage annulled, your manager heard you talk and he almost lost his shit.
He couldn’t have your reputation be questioned after a weekend of hard drugs and a marriage where you were the bride! So, he brought Hanoi Rocks manager, and it was quickly decided that to keep the bad press away, you were to stay married until they found a way to annul it without it been a big story so both you and is band would be free of any drama and bad reputation.  
Once you and Raz had told the boys the story of what happened between you two, they understood your relationship a little more, although a lot of questions came from it.  
¨So if he fucks another girl you wouldn’t care? ¨  
¨No Tommy¨
¨What about if he gets another girlfriend? Would you be angry then? ¨
¨No Tommy, I just want to see Raz happy¨
¨Raz and would you care if she fucked some other dude? ¨
¨As long as she is into it, I'm good Nikki¨
Soon enough you were all crashing at Motleys two-bedroom apartment, it was one of those weird night in which all the boys came home together, not leaving early with some chick or crashing at someone else's house instead of theirs.
The sunlight was starting to shine through the city since you decided to walk to their apartment, and once in, everyone kind of just scattered around, they offered some of their clothes for you to sleep in with, and by the time you came out of the bathroom in Nicki's shirt and Mick´s boxer everyone was already passed out, so you followed their lead and walked around looking for somewhere comfortable to pass out too, and ended up finding Nikki asleep in a bed with plenty of space for the two to sleep in.  
The only thing he managed to take off was his shirt, his boots and pants were still on, so carefully you took his shoes off, and you made your way to the other side of the bed. You didn´t want to wake him up, not that you thought was possible though, the nights drinking and drug using was enough to tire anyone, and they were already in the club when you arrived, god knows since when they had been sitting in that table. You laid next to him; he was on top of the covers so you were hoping on it not being a cold morning so you could sleep peacefully.  
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dyke-a-saur · 3 years
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Platonic HanaRaz: Last Of The Real Ones
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Summer nights were the worst. 
Turning and tossing in the great bed, beneath the weighted duvet used to keep Hana from kicking, Homraz once again found it hard to sleep. Dhurgan’s left arm was tossed over him as usual, while Hana caged him with her right leg. It was like he was trapped between two space heaters and slowly melting.The three had previously agreed they’d sleep like that during assignments to prevent being targeted in their sleep. Since the orc and oni wake up at the faintest scent of a stranger, it’d be impossible for an intruder to surprise them. And while the half-orc was secretly touched that the two wanted to protect him like that, he also appreciated not being roasted alive.
‘I’ve had enough of this,’ he thought in sweaty exasperation, as a particularly loud snore jolted him out of his thought process. 
Wrestling the muscled limbs off of him, the omega trudged over to the kitchen to pour himself a cold glass of water. As he sipped on the beverage, Homraz looked fondly at the photos on the fridge. 
In the three years he’d known the orc and oni, they’d built a pretty nice life together. Before them, all he’d ever known was bitterness, fear, and hate. He hadn’t even entertained the idea of a true friend, preferring not to get attached, lest life snatch it from him again.
Then those two arrived. 
Most likely trapped by circumstance into that life, Dhurgan and Hana had brought laughter, fun, and hope into his. The thrill of fighting, victory, and adrenaline bound the three of them together before long and led to a more than amazing relationship. And the half-orc couldn’t deny that he’d suddenly felt something even stronger with the alpha particularly six months in. More physical. 
After nearly dying twice in one fateful mission, he thought he was delirious when the orc and oni asked him to be theirs. But once he’d healed from all the injuries, he’d quickly accepted, much to the joy of both Dhurgan and Hana. Homraz had convinced the company to let them live away from corporate property after a heated argument with Lady Bindu herself. A neat little studio a good distance from the tower had been their home of choice, just out the way for no one to bother them. Taking a glance at the photos on the fridge, he could hardly believe how much time had passed. It seemed like just yesterday, he was berating the pair of meatheads for not knowing how to garrote a target. Now the half-orc was in a kitchen the three shared, drinking a glass of water to escape the summer furnace of their two sleeping forms.
Lost in his thoughts, the omega didn’t notice the oni behind him.
“Whatcha thinkin’ about?” yawned Hana.
“Eivrak!” shrieked Homraz, scared out of his wits. “For fuck’s sake, Hana! You gotta stop that!”
“Sorry, Raz,” she chuckled sleepily, ruffling the small male’s hair. “Forgot. You okay?”
“If by okay you mean tired of being squashed by you two, then yes I’m peachy.”
“Aw, lighten up. Anyway, she woke up. Wants to know if you’re coming back to bed.”
“I dunno,” he answered honestly. “It just seems like one of those nights.”“You want Ganny to fix that?” Hana laughed.
Homraz blushed slightly at the word “fix”. Last time the alpha tried to fix a sleepless night, he’d ended up unable to walk for half a day.
“No,” he snickered. “Knowing that knothead, she’ll probably try to put me in a coma.”
“Ain’t that the truth?” giggled the oni. “How about a gym run instead?”
Nodding in agreement, the omega put his glass in the sink and followed Hana back to the room to get dressed.
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cruecifymesixx · 5 years
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Love and Leather /part nineteen/
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A/N: I’m so fucking sorry it’s long, I got carried away, But enjoy it! Feedback is always extremely appreciated💛 also s/o to @electradestiny for always editing my jumbled mess and making sure everything is in tip top shape because my eyes stop seeing the errors after a while.
Warnings: language, angst, a little smutty (by little, I mean a lot)
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“Thanks for coming, see you next time!” I cheerfully spoke to the customers as they left, handing me a twenty dollar tip with a kind smile.
I smiled, waving them off as they left. My smile quickly dropped when Tommy and Nikki walked in, a red head attached to Nikki’s arm and a blonde holding hands with Tommy.
“Van! You haven’t been working the last few times we came in.” Tommy said, reaching over the counter, giving me a kiss on the cheek.
I gave him a weak smile, “I’ve been sick.” My voice was hoarse and crackly. My eyes quickly glanced to Nikki, who in return looked away from me.
“Too good to say hi to me now?” I teased him, “Maybe return my phone calls and I will.” He snapped back at me. “Maybe apologize to me and I’ll answer your calls.” My wit was just as fast as his, which he hated so much. “Maybe if you gave me the time of day I could apologize.” I smirked, shaking my head with an eye roll, “Nikki, I’m hungry.” The red headed girl with a nasally voice whines out, Nikki looking at her and nods.
“Booth or table?” I asked Tommy, “Booth please!” He joyfully responded, trying to make light of mine and Nikki’s bickering. I had them follow me to a corner booth, handing them all menus.
“Can I start you with any drinks?” I asked, holding my pad and paper in hand, “Jack and Coke...actually just give me the Jack, I got the coke.” Nikki told me, and it took everything I had in me not to laugh, and he knew it by the smile he had on his lips.
“What are you doing after work? Come hang out with me.” Tommy said, giving me puppy dog eyes, I shook my head softly, an amused grin playing on my lips.
“I need to tell you about this idea I have, it keeps coming to me in a dream...I wanna play the drums upside down and in a cage, that spins over the crowd!” He was overjoyed,his hands waving in a circular motion as he spoke.
“That sounds dumb.” The red head that was attached at Nikki’s hip spoke up. “Shut up, no it doesn’t.” Tommy snapped at her, “It sounds rad T-bone, you’ll have to tell me more later...now how about drinks?”
I came back shortly after, handing a milkshake to Tommy and his female companion of the night, a water to the red head that was all over Nikki, and then a shooter of JD to him.
“Oh Van, this is Heather.” Tommy smiled, pointing to the blonde that was sitting next to him, “Vanity Blackwood..” I introduced myself sticking my hand out, “Heather Locklear.” She replied, shaking my hand,
“Wait...you’re in that show, right?” I asked her and she smiled, “Not the Fall guy.” Tommy said with a chuckle. “No I know that, Dynasty right?” I asked her and she nodded. “My roommates and I watch it whenever it’s on, how did you guys meet?” I asked, confused.
“The party.” Tommy said, then had an awkward chuckle, “After you and Nikki...ya know, disappeared.” Tommy said, wiggling his eyebrows. “Don’t remind me.” I joked, looking at Nikki who was glaring at me.
Tommy motioned me to come closer, so I did as he cupped his hand around my ear, “I think I’m in love.” He whispered, I smiled at him, gently putting my hand on his head and ruffling his hair.
“What can I get to eat for everyone?” I asked, “I’ll take the cheeseburger deluxe with extra fries.” Tommy told me, I nodded. I looked at Nikki and he shook his head, “I’m fine.”
“Ladies?” I asked them, “Just a small salad for me.” Heather said, and I nodded, “You?” I questioned the redhead, “I think I’ll just skip to dessert.” She said, eyeing me while kissing the side of Nikki’s neck, a smirk on his lips as her lipstick left a print on his skin.
A part of me felt a deep rooted fit of jealousy when I saw her lips on him, the same exact spot I had left my mark on him a week ago.
“Your food will be out shortly.” I said, before walking away, clutching the pen so hard I thought the ink was going to burst out.
“Did you see that Tommy and Nikki are here?” Tonya said, taking off her jacket as she had just gotten back from her lunch, “Yes! Of course I saw they were here, with girls too!” I shouted while turning around to face her.
“Uh whoa, what’s your problem?” She asked, tying the apron around her waist, “Nothing, I’m fine. It’s all good.” I told her, sarcastically of course.
“Has he apologized yet?” She asked, I side eyed her, “I’ll take that as a no.” She said, walking out of the kitchen and. going to the floor, walking up to a customer to take more orders.
“Orders ready.” Rubio told me, as he placed the tray of food on the window seal, “Thank you.” I grabbed the tray, while walking it over to them,
“Here you go, T-bone.” I put his plate down in front of him, then Heathers in front of her.
“So you’ve known Julian for a while?” I froze when Nikki asked me that. Has Julian already called? What did he say to them? Did he say something about me?
“Uh...he’s..” I stuttered, pausing my words as Nikki looked at me, “Van? Hello? I asked you a question.” Nikki said, snapping his fingers in my face, “He’s a friend...someone I use to know.” I spat out quickly,
“Have you talked to him?” I asked Nikki, pushing Tommy’s shoulder softly so he could scoot over, “Only over the phone, he’s flying out here in a few days.” Nikki replied, my eyes going wide. “He seems like a nice dude.” Tommy said, mouthful of food. My eyes darted to him when he said that, “What?” Tommy said in a confused manner.
“He said he’s known you since you were a teen.” Nikki said, taking a sip of JD. “That’s all he said?” I asked, trying to clarify. “No, he also mentioned that you dated him for a long time...oh, and engaged too.” Nikki replied, more aggression in his voice as he went on. “Forgot to mention that one Vanity.” He snapped, leaning back into the booth while wrapping his arm around the back of it.
“You seem to hide a lot of secrets from me. You forgot to mention you are filthy rich and forgot to mention you were engaged, what else are you lying about?” Nikki questioned, his eyebrow slightly raising.
“I haven’t lied about anything.” I told him, my voice getting a tad louder.
“Guys...” Tommy said, slyly nodding his head toward Heather.
“I have to get back to work.” I said standing up, “Vanity, we are not done talking.” Nikki said, standing up and following me. “Go back to your red headed groupie, she’s waiting for you.” I said as I kept walking away from him.
“Vanity.” He said, grabbing my wrist. “Nikki, I’m at work! Let go of me!” I whisper-shouted as he dragged me down the side hallway and led me to the bathroom, closing the door and locking it.
“So you thought hiring your ex-fiancé would make things better for Vince? I told you to stay out of it!” He whisper-shouted back, causing my eyes to roll as my arms crossed my against my chest.
“Vince called me! He called asking for help because your manager doesn’t know what the fuck he’s doing!” I said, unfolding my arms and jabbed my finger into his chest. “I am helping Vince! Your lead singer, and you don’t seem to care!” I yelled, continuing to poke my finger into his chest, knowing it is more than likely pushing his buttons.
“So yeah! I called Julian! Did I want too? No of course not! I absolutely hate him with every ounce of fiber in my body! In fact, I wish he was fucking dead.” I yelled at him, his eyes going wide when I said that.
“So I did this for Vince, I did this for the band, and I did it for you! Even though you don’t give a shit about me!” I continued to berate him. His hand slowly reached up, grabbing mine and removing it from his chest and gently rubbing his thumb across it, causing me to calm down as he continues.
“I never said I didn’t care.” I rolled my eyes, “You might as well have.” He sighed, giving me a stern look, “Would you just fucking listen to me!” Raising his voice, he took his hand away from mine, “I said fucked up shit to you and you didn’t deserve it, I am sorry for that. I was just angry, upset at the whole situation. I didn’t mean a single word I said.” He spoke softly, resting his hand under my chin to make me look at him.
“Then why would you say that Nikki? I felt worthless to you, like I was just another random girl you put your dick in.” He closed his eyes and exhaled through his nose, “Doll, I care about you so much, and I never want to make you feel like that. You were just the first person that crossed my path, and that is fucked up. I know you were just trying to make sure I was alright.” He said, my eyebrows scrunched together as I stepped away from his hand.
“So you just decide to be an asshole?! All because I was trying to check on you? I didn’t even fucking know yet that Raz had died or Vince was on his way to jail! They are my friends too Nikki!” I shout, causing me to become worked up once again.
“Van...Vanity...just calm down.” Nikki said, placing his hands on my shoulders but I smacked his hands off of me, I could tell he was also getting frustrated with me.
“Don’t tell me to calm down! You fucked me and then you treated me like shit! And I’m not gonna let you use the ‘oh I was angry and I didn’t mean it’ excuse!” I yelled, mocking his voice.
“How do you think I felt? I needed you and you didn’t answer my fucking calls! I tried coming over with Tommy, but Lucia and Tonya wouldn’t let me in because they said you had been too upset & crying that afternoon! I tried to apologize to you, I fucking needed you! My friend died and my brother almost fucking died and now he’s in jail! They told me you were crying and it fucking hurt! I care about you and us more then you fucking think, Vanity!” He shouted. I was taken back, I gawked at him as I took a step back. Us? There’s an us?
“Us?”” Nikki rolled his eyes, “Yes, us! There’s an us!” He shouted in frustration, “What? No there isn’t.” I was skeptical about what he was saying.
“Yes there fucking is, and don’t you tell me there isn’t! You always flirt with me! You’re always touching me, always trying to lean your head on me, or hold my hand or hold my arm! You are there for me when you shouldn’t be! There is an us, Vanity! We have a thing! A confusing, fucked up thing!”
My lips parted as I watched him pace around the bathroom, “Why do you think I get pissed off when you’re flirting with someone else? And yeah, you can say all day long that you aren’t flirting with them, but you are. Why do you think I won’t let the other guys have you, if we didn’t have a thing I would’ve already passed you around the band!” He yelled at me,
“It’s not like you’re my boyfriend.” I told him, his eyes instantly locked on mine. He took one stride over to me, as he placed his hands on the side of my face.
“I know I’m not your boyfriend, I’m not saying I want to be. But you and I have a thing going on whether you’d like to admit it or not Vanity. You are mine and everyone around us knows that. I always make it a point to let any guy I introduce you to know that, so they know to back off.” His eyes were dark, but his lips looked so tempting at the moment.
“Then how come if I’m yours you still go out of your way to fuck multiple girls a night, if I’m yours then you’re mine, Sixx.” He smirked, slowly taking his hands away from my cheeks.
“And that’s why we can’t be together. I don’t want a girlfriend, I couldn’t be faithful to you.” He said with a smile which made me laugh, “At least you’re honest.” I told him, while rolling my eyes.
“Can’t we just fuck? And nothing else cause jesus christ Vanity, why was that engagement broken off anyways? Julian couldn’t keep it up, huh?” Nikki said jokingly, I forced a laugh out of me.
“I want more of what I got from you...so can we? Just hook up and nothing else? Would you be okay with that?” He questioned, putting his hand on my lower back, slowly making its way to my ass.
I looked up at him, silently deciding for a moment. “Okay...but you can’t get mad when I fuck someone else.” I teased him, “Same goes to you.” He replied, “And you can’t get attached to me.” I added on, “Doll, you’ll be the one doing the attachment...not me.” I smirked, nodding, “I have to get back to work,my shift is almost over.” I said, looking down at my watch.
“Not so fast.” He said, putting his hand on the back of my neck, pulling me into a rough kiss. I groaned into his lips, as his tongue found its way to mine. He slowly backed me up to the counter, lifting me up so I can sit on it.
His hands trailed down my sides, while peeling my shirt off. His lips slid down to my jaw, then to my neck leaving a wet kiss before leaving yet another hickey on my neck, “Shouldn’t you get back to your chick of the night?” I asked, putting my hands under his shirt, trying to take it off. He stopped kissing my neck and rested his forehead on my shoulder, sighing in frustration, “You sure now how to ruin a moment, don’t you?” He asked, finally looking at me and giving me another kiss.
“Fuck her.” He said, while unbuckling his belt, then fumbling with the button and zipper “Isn’t that the point?” I smirked, while hopping off the counter. I put my hand on his chest, backing him up so he was leaning against the wall. I watched him as I dropped to my knees in front of him, “Fuck, don’t look at me like that.” He breathed out, as i tugged his pants down, “Like what, Nikki?” I asked, pulling out his hard member as he tilted his head back.
I gripped his hard cock before slowly taking him into my mouth, moaning when I did so. I began to move my head up and down, then placed a kiss on the tip. I started pumping his shaft, quickly going back to giving him what he wants.
My tongue swirled around the tip of his dick as I kept working my way further down the shaft, “Fuck.” He dragged out his favorite word, while putting his hand on the back of my head, entangling his fingers into my hair, making me take more of him into my mouth.
I looked up at him, giving him a wink, “Jesus Christ, Van.” He moaned, looking down at me and taking his bottom lip in between his teeth. “You look so fucking pretty with my cock in your mouth.” Nikki groaned, pushing the stragglers of hair out of my face, my face going hot as a crimson shade scatters my cheeks.
I continued as his moans started echoing through the bathroom, almost forgetting I was in my work of employment. I closed my eyes, Nikki’s hand gripped itself around my arm, “Come here.” He said, pulling me up off my knees and turning me around so I was bent over the sink.
Nikki lifted up my skirt, while pulling down my underwear, letting his fingers run against me, before slowly putting one inside of me as his thumb gently brushed against my clit, his finger pumping in and out slowly, “Nikki, common.” I whispered my pleas, noticing a smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth through the mirror.
I heard the crinkle of the condom wrapper as he quickly slid it onto his shaft. His hands came up to my hips, and in one swift motion I felt his cock tease my entrance. Biting my lip, I pushed my self back onto him, “Impatient, are we?” He chuckled to himself as he eased himself into me, causing a loud moan to escape my lips, quickly putting my hand over my mouth.
Nikki’s pace started picking up as he kept hitting the same spot over and over. He put his hands on my hips again as he rhythmically gave it to me harder. I tried holding back my whimpers as I kept hearing people walk past the bathroom door, “C’mon Doll, be loud for me, who cares if they can hear.” Nikki groaned, removing my hand from my mouth, holding it behind my back.
I felt the familiar pit form deep inside of me as Nikki fucked me harder, “God, Nikki!” I moaned out as I gripped the counter.
My eyes almost popped out of my head when I heard Tonya’s voice, “Vanity! Are you in there!” Tonya banged on the bathroom door, “I’ll be right out!” I yelled, my voice was shaky.
I closed my eyes, trying to focus on how Nikki was making me feel, “You gonna cum for me?” Nikki whispered into my ear, his teeth grazing against it as he sent shivers down my spine. I couldn’t form a sentence, only a head nod. I saw his smile that made me melt into his rugged hands.
“Vanity come on! I want to go home!” Tonya yelled, banging on the door once more. “Coming!!” I yelled as soon as I felt my release, my legs almost buckling underneath me, but he kept me in place.
“She can wait, I’m almost-“ “Have you seen Nikki?” We both heard Tommy’s voice, “Always wanting to ruin it.” Nikki said through gritted teeth, as he dug his fingertips into my hips and beginning to thrust into me faster, trying to get closer to his orgasm.
“Ah fuck...” Nikki moaned as his thrusts started to slow down. He kept himself inside of me as he rode out his release. He rested his head on the back of my shoulder, kissing it before leaving a soft bite.
He took himself out of me and I quickly pulled up my panties, pulling my skirt back down. “Here.” Nikki said handing me my shirt, I took it and slipped it over my shoulders, “What is that?” Nikki stopped me, my shirt half on as his finger touched my back.
“That’s one gnarly fucking scar, how’d you get that?” He asked curiously, “Don’t worry about it.” I told him, before grabbing his jaw and kissing his lips. I waited until he was decent too, before opening the door, only to run into both Tommy and Tonya.
“Oh hi guys.” I said, slamming the door, holding the door knob behind my back so Nikki couldn’t open it. “What were you doing in there?” Tonya asked me, her arms across her chest, “Have you seen Nikki? That chick left.” Tommy questioned, “Uh no...haven’t seen him.” I told them, but Nikki forcefully opened the door, making it bang against the wall.
“Oh, hey.” Nikki said as he stood behind me, continuing to adjust his shirt. “Nice, man.” Tommy said sticking his hand up for a high five, I glared at him and he put his arm back at his side.
“Now that your activities are over...I want to go home, I counted out for you.” Tonya told me, I nodded without making eye contact. I followed her as the boys followed behind us.
“At her job, that’s fucking sleazy.” Tommy whispered but not quiet enough for me not to hear him, “Shut up, T-bone.” Nikki replied with a laugh in his voice.
I grabbed my belongings from the coat rack. I watched as Tommy walked over to Heather, giving her his leather jacket. “Sorry about your girl.” I told Nikki, he rolled his eyes, “They come a dime a dozen.” He said with a shrug of his shoulders, I shook my head and laughed.
Nikki walked me to my car around back where Tonya was waiting impatiently for me, “Our tour is getting held back because of everything with Vince.” He explained, “So you’ll be home for a while?” I asked, which only got a nod in return. “Well...I’ll be seeing more of you then.” I said while biting my lip and looking at him.
“And I’ll be seeing a lot more of you too.” He said, his eyes looking me up and down. He put his hand on the side of my face, bending down to give me a kiss but I turned my head, “Not in front of them.” I warned him, motioning to Tonya behind me and to Tommy and Heather who were waiting at their car for Nikki.
“Oh fuck them, they already know we fucked.” He growled while forcing his lips onto mine, as his hands reached down to my ass and squeezing it. “Easy, Sixx.” I teased him as I broke the kiss, backing away from him and walking to my car.
“Goodnight Vanity.” I turned around, giving him another glance and a smile. “Bye, Nikki.” I told him as I opened the car door, sitting down in the drivers seat.
“You gonna tell me what all that is about?” Tonya questioned me, I looked over at her while turning the key in the ignition. “It’s nothing.” I said, but I knew I had a cheesy grin on my face. “Doesn’t seem like nothing to me.” I laughed, “I swear, it’s nothing.” I replied as I started to drive out of the parking lot.
“You’re blushing like a school girl.” She pointed out, while poking my cheeks, “I am not!” I said covering my cheeks, “Someone has a crush.” I rolled my eyes, shaking my head in disapproval.
“God, what are we, like twelve again?” I asked her, making her laugh, “No! But it’s nice to see you feel this way about someone.” She said, I looked over at her, “I don’t feel anything towards him.” She gave me a glare, “What I’m serious? He’s hot and he’s a great fucking lay, and he doesn’t want the relationship part which is perfect for me.” I explained to her.
“Don’t fuck around and get your feelings hurt, Van. I would hate to see your guys friendship get ruined.” She playfully warned me, I looked over at her, “I know better than that, it’s just a fun little thing.” I said, she nodded, not continuing to give me her opinion of my new found relationship with Nikki.
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cutesuki--bakugou · 5 years
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You make some great ocs. I really, really like Koge! I started making a bnha oc, she’s got a design, a quirk, a first name... but she’s missing clothes. How tf do you design a villain’s clothes?? So for now I just have a great drawing of a character I made and she’s just. Naked. So that’s fun. Sorry I don’t know why I’m sending this to you so randomly but I know you like bnha ocs, or at least your own, and I felt like telling someone about how useless I am at designing outfits lol
Aahh, thank you so much ;;;u;;; My OCs are my babies, I love making them and working with them so much, so it makes me happy that you enjoy them! And I love talking about other peoples OCs too. I just love OCs period.
Y’know, clothes can always be hard. I struggle with quirks myself, but I’ve found that making an outfit for BNHA is much easier than other series I’ve been into that are in more of a fantasy setting. Just modern clothes like we wear every day, sometimes with just a bit more flare. I usually go off of personality and hobbies, and try to think of a style from there. Also what they wear could be affected by their quirk, depending on what it is, of course. 
Nene and Otoha (Mother/Daughter) are both very artsy, bubbly and eccentric characters with innocent and sweet dispositions. So I try to go for lighter, frilly, fun fashion for them. Nene often suffers from fashion blindness, but doesn’t really care, and that rubbed off on Otoha.
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Mimiyuki and Natsuki (lovers) are mostly designed to be complete opposites in fashion just because I’m a sucker for that trope in a relationship lol. Mimiyuki is a performer, so she always tends to dress high end and stylish. Natsuki is a bit rough around the edges and she wants to look intimidating, so she tends to dress in a very bold ‘don’t fuck with me’ look. She also loves to show off her legs lol.
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Koge and Atsuki (mother / son) both have a very calm disposition and prefer to be as comfortable as possible. Sporty, over sized clothing is usually their preference, though Koge likes over size shirts while Atsuki prefers baggy sweatpants. Both of them have some specific preferences, such as Koge likes croptops because she’s proud of her stomach where Atsuki just loves to wear beanies. The only thing Atsuki tends to go all out on is his shoes, which sometimes won’t even match his outfit and he could care less.
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Seijirou and Dokuji (lovers) are another opposites couple. Seijirou is very fashion forward, classy and straight up over the top. He dresses nice to literally go anywhere and do anything, how he looks to the public is something very important to him. He’s quite eccentric and a bit stuck up, also a huge germophobe so he’s usually wearing gloves but as I type this I realize I forgot to draw them. With an outfit like this, he’d wear short leather gloves. Dokuji is just an artsy, angsty punk who loves piercings, graphic t-shirts and never ties his shoes. 
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Matsuki and Raz (no relation what-so-ever) are also complete opposites when it comes to how they dress. Matsuki is has a more quiet, gentle personality and often puts comfort over how he looks. He loves sweaters, jackets and the like, often trying to cover up the fact that he is actually quite fit. He tends to avoid color as well, as to bring as little attention to himself as possible. Raz (my first villainous OC but not part of the LoV) tends to dress around his quirk as it affects his physical body. Punkish, baggy clothing is what he gravitates towards. He’s the definition of a charismatic asshole. 
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Hopefully this helped you some, to find a bit of direction in how you’d want to go ^^ I know it inspired me to do this for my OCs, which I hadn’t really done yet, but it was nice to! 
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Psychonauts is a funny thing
So, I got recommended the game on Steam after playing A Hat in Time because the games are uncannily similar (and Hat in Time definitely, 100% took some things from the game, I’m absolutely sure of it) and I just sort of passively cared about it for a while. I watched one of those compilations of the boss battles in the game, and it did look pretty cool to me. Then, the trailer for the sequel came out, and I watched it, had no idea what was going on, and reasoned I could probably play the original between then and the time it came out. The sequel looked pretty visually interesting, and if a sequel looks interesting surely the original has to be too. And, after a few months of sporadic playing, I finally finished it a few seconds ago. Basically, I’d recommend playing it.
But, I don’t think I’ve ever gotten this mad at a game before. It’s an odd feeling, being mad.
First of all, I bought the game on a Steam sale where it was literally only 99 cents. It was soon after the sequel trailer released, so surely it was there to draw people like me in. But, the issue was that the game wouldn’t even start when I first downloaded it. It played the intro, but it instantly minimized itself whenever I tried to pull it up. So, I put that off for a few weeks, and sure enough with no rhyme or reason it started working as intended again. Great. Surely this wouldn’t be representative of the future, right?
Well, sort of. There were a ton of glitches in the game. Most of them involving sketchy platforming, where I should’ve landed or grabbed onto a ledge but didn’t somehow, but only one legitimately stopped me from progressing. Not exactly spoilery, but I confused the first knife thrower you meat (no joke that was unintentional, but I’m keeping it) in the last (second to last?) level, and that made him completely stop doing anything, so I had to reset there. Not very fun. 
But, before that, there was a glitch that actually was relatively cool. During the Den Mother boss fight, I used clairvoyance as intended, but after the first time it glitched (but I didn’t realize it) and the platform when completely invisible, but I could still see Raz’s body, so I just reasoned that it was just a progression of the difficulty of the fight. I could still piece together where I had to go to hit the boss, it was just going to be harder. Then, I died, and it started working as intended. It was a little lame, to be honest. Nothing changed from that point. I was obviously having trouble, though, so I wasn’t going to complain.
Then, an issue on my side of things was that I very often was stuck on what to do, and basically just ran around confused for 30+ minutes. I’m a pussy when it comes to video games, to be honest. I genuinely appreciate direction when I play, even if too much of it is obviously a bad thing. It’s usually because of how many Nintendo games I play. They usually give pretty clear hints where to go. I swear, if I couldn’t call on Cruller to help me, I would’ve never made it. 
The funny thing is that, most of the time my confusion was a result of me just forgetting about the floating power. I would jump, fall, try again, and stare at the ledge until something magically appeared. Once I looked up the answer to my first problem online (where the old meat’s stench was the thing you had to float up on) I realized it, but still got stuck on later instances where you had to use it. I don’t know why that one mechanic constantly slipped my mind. I play video games. I should know updraft = you can float on it. That, and wood = burnable.
I do wish they forced you to get an item/power that you needed to get before you progressed BEFORE you actually got to the point where you needed it. Mainly when it came to the cobweb duster, at least. That thing was hella expensive, but I avoided it because I thought it was just one of those things for collectathon-ers who wanted to 100% the game. But, turns out, there’s only like one or two points where cobwebs are actually blocking your path, so I had to stop all progress and farm arrowheads to get that. Even worse, I bought other stuff with the arrowheads I got up until that point, so I had to farm a lot more. 
But, apart from more specific stuff, that’s basically all the negative things I have to say about the game. Even though I did actually, legitimately get mad at multiple points, looking back on it all with a sound mind, it’s actually a really good, interesting game.
Honestly, the overall concept of the game is the best part. It has such insane potential, probably more so than any other concept I’ve heard of. The idea that you can go inside a person’s mind and interact with it in the form of a physical world/level is so cool. Really, there’s no better form of characterization. The serious contrast between the minds of someone like Milla, who’s clearly a partier, and Sasha, who’s clearly straight out of the Matrix, is such fun to experience. Obviously anyone would have a metaphorical, sprawling land as their mind, but how Sasha can control all of that and pull it out at will is really cool. On the other hand, Fred barely has a world to explore. He cares so much about the game that he only exists in a room, and the game is represented in the larger land, with all the different types of people. Then, Boyd the conspiracy theorist is trying to connect everything with winding pathways that flip over and cross with each other. Apart from the obvious ““normal”” neighborhood that’s constantly spying on him.
That level has to be my favorite in the entire game, even though it’s one of the ones that I got stuck on. A lot of that definitely came down to how the G-Men clearly inspired the C.A.W. Agents in A Hat in Time, who were really well done in both games. I noticed it instantly, and that made it so much more fun. Plus, that level introduced Clairvoyance, which might be the must useless yet the most interesting power in the game. They put so much effort into how you appear in the eyes of other characters (even the NPCs and enemies) that it’s kind of shocking. You really only use it for a part or two of that level and the boss fight (which made really good use of it), and then it just becomes a device for Easter eggs. Considering each of the other campers were mostly seemed like occasional throwaway jokes or funny images, they really thought about who they were and what they wanted. 
Obviously, I’d be remiss to not talk about the character designs. This is essentially The Nightmare Before Christmas on steroids when it comes to character models. Some were obvious references to other things, like Sasha looking like Neo, or Cruller looking like Einstein, but even then they felt like their own characters. Overall, they’re a little too crazy to be at the top of my tastes, but they’re perfect for the atmosphere. I especially loved the Butcher’s design for some reason, even though it’s pretty standard for an over-exaggerated butcher character. He just looked really cool. The only design I was kinda iffy about was the Censors, who were awesome in concept, but looked a little too mortal-looking for something present in pretty much everyone’s mind. Maybe people just associate censoring with Cog-esque business people, and that’s why they always look like that. I do like the idea of them progressing into the giant Judges you see in the sequel trailer, though. 
Then, the unsung hero of them all: The little bubble bug you always see in everyone’s psyches. I don’t think I ever actually used him, but he was adorable. Apparently his name is Oatmeal too? That’s adorable. I love him. 
Back to the Butcher, though, with spoilers if you care: I liked the idea that both Oleander and Raz were embellishing their parents’ impressions of them and who they themselves actually were. It made sense, because children are so much more impressionable. They’d think that their dads are monsters, and carry that into adulthood (or, just later childhood in Raz’s case). Although, I do understand why Oly would be scarred by his father, but I don’t think we really got confirmation as to why Raz thought his father was so against his Psychic powers. Maybe that’ll be explained in the sequel? Maybe there’s some backstory I forgot about/didn’t know about? Probably. I doubt the writers just forgot about it. 
Worth the 99 cents? Fuck yeah man. It sold me on the sequel, so they’re gonna get my money one way or another.
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sappho-skies · 6 years
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@lietpolsecretsanta 
So sorry this is late! I couldn't get access to my computer for a while.
This is my secret Santa for @lithuanias ! one of their prompts was ‘End of the cold war’ so this story takes place right after Lithuania gained independence from Russia in March of 1991. I really hope you enjoy this, your writing is amazing and has been a major inspiration to me!
Eliška: Aph Czech
Michal: Aph Slovakia  
“Holy shit.” Shivered Elizabeta, Rubbing her frozen hands together. “I forgot how fucking cold it gets at your place.”
I grinned and mumbled a half-assed apology, offering her a latte I had gotten from across the street. It was March 27th,1990, and revolution ran fresh through our veins, and the stench of gunpowder still lingered on our clothes. I looked upon the streets of Łódź, ignited with shimmering lights combating the violet sky. It was a city that had seen golden age after golden age, recession after recession, and had never been more proud to call it mine, and mine alone.
“I had almost forgotten how beautiful your cities looked at night, Lengyelország.” she sighed, lighting up a cigarette. She claimed to have quit in the 1950s, but I knew her well enough to know that wasn't the case.
“ I almost forgot myself, if I’m being honest.” I breathed sadly. “It really was hard to walk through these streets, knowing that they...they weren't mine,y'know?”
Elizabeta wrapped her arm around me, sympathy and sadness shone through her eyes. “But You made it. You stood against the odds, and now you can look at your streets knowing that they will, and will always be, polish.”
I smiled, Elizabeta always had a way with her words.
We stood in silence, the sound of the streets somber and peaceful.
“Bratr!” a chipper voice called from behind us.I turned my head to see Eliška, my sister, cheeks flushed the slightest crimson from the crisp, cold air. We raced over to each other and embraced tightly. I kissed her cheek.
“How have you been? Hows Michal?” I asked, pulling away from the hug.
“ Things could be better, but they also could be much worse,” She sighed. “So…Things have been...good.”
That seemed to be the answer everybody gave. Things were strained, difficult, and irritating at times, but still, 1941 was but a distant memory, and I couldn't be more grateful.
“Where’s Michal?” I asked, looking around.
“He… wasn't feeling good so he stayed back at our hotel.” She answered with uncertainty.
“Oh, I see.”I could tell that she was lying, but I didn't want to press her any further. The relationship between my sibling had become more strained than ever at this point, both politically and emotionally, and I wasn't in the mood for it.
“Holy shit.”
I look over to see Elizabeta, who had turned a ghostly white, eyes widened in surprise as if she had seen a ghost. I look across the street, and my heart threatens to give way. There, standing at the bus station, was a head of chestnut hair I thought I would never see again. “Liet…” I breathed heavily.
He looked the same as he always did, it was as if the past two centuries had never existed. He was leaning against a building, beautiful, deep green eyes lost in thought. He had a dreamlike Arora around him, he almost seemed to be transparent. His face looked worn out from constant stress and worry, but also had a melancholy, somber feel.
Without even thinking, I raced across the street, blissfully unaware of the curses and horn blaring coming from cars. When my feet it the sidewalk, Toris’s eyes met mine, and the entire world seemed to shatter around him. Green eyes held green eyes as we both stood frozen in place, both of us in fear of waking up from this wonderful dream, The distance between us seeming to grow longer and longer with each passing second.
Liet's eyes began to water.“Hey, Po.”
I don't recall who moved first, the next thing I know my arms were tightly gripping his black coat as I cried into his warm chest, whispering apologies through my sobs. He nuzzled his tear-streaked face into my blonde hair and kissed the top of my head, whispering apologies of his own.
We finally pulled away after what felt like an eternity, yet, too soon. We exchanged a smile through our tear stained eyes. “ I missed you,” I said, finally.
He shook his head as tears threatened to spill all over again. “Yeah, me too.”
I wanted to ask him so many things. How his independence was going, how his brothers were doing, how his people were fairing, what he was feeling, How he wanted me to kill Russia, and if he still loved me as he did all those years ago. I had so much I wanted to tell him, so many apologies I wanted to say, so Many stories to tell him. Yet, I couldn't find the words.
Just above us, a radio begins to play the somber tune of Nie płacz Ewka. Toris, somber grin on his face, outstretched his hand to me, asking to dance. We stumbled awkwardly at first, it was as if we had never danced before. Toris stepped on my foot multiple times, and I seemed to trip with every step, but it was the best dance I had ever had. When the chorus came, he started to sing with his beautiful voice.
Żegnam was, już wiem
Nie załatwię wszystkich pilnych spraw
Idę sam, właśnie tam
Gdzie czekają mnie
Tam przyjaciół kilku mam, od lat
Dla nich zawsze śpiewam, dla nich gram
Jeszcze raz żegnam was
Nie spotkamy się
Tears began to spring from my eyes. Our Foreheads touched as we danced, as we swayed back and forth to the rhythm of the song.Whether we were crying, laughing, or a mixture of both I can't recall. We received so many questioning looks from strangers, but I couldn't seem to care less, all I could see was the glow of Toris’s eyes, and all I could hear was the sound of his voice and the taping of our feet.
When the song came to a close, his lips met my own for the first time in over a century. I felt like I was falling in love all over again.
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Lineup Lamentations - GW12
Our Transfers, Captains, and Starting 11s for the week!
No guest slacker this week sorry I forgot to do it yesterday.. fuckin’ Friday deadlines...
And if you missed it for subscribers Friday My Life episode came out last night!
WALSH
TRANSFERS:
OUT: CHO
IN: Hayden
Passive cuck mode has been engaged and I'm floating my other transfer instead of hitting Vardy in.
I was quite close to fucking the world and bringing in Ozil and Wilf, but as I lay in bed looking at my team with these two beauties in it, I remembered that while fun is fun, getting green arrows is really the most fun. And so I'm going to trust the process, be disciplined like a good little boy, and try to make pod partner proud.
GK:
Pope (WHU)
Pope....again....blech.
Short leash for this poopyhead. Couple good fixtures but who knows if that even matters at this point. Praying..and biding time to turn him into Hendo or Gaz.
DEF:
Alexander-Arnold & Robertson (avl)
Trent and R0bbo with a rough one this Sunday but as we know always shouts for attacking returns. Feels good to have held them throughout the season as they've been quietly trickling in and the law of averages demand cleans are near.
Lundstram (tot)
Pointstram has a rough on paper fixture but he seems still like an ok start. Spurs struggle against buses so who knows what will come.
Rico (new)
Starting Rico for the first time in last couple gameweeks with his cleans stuck first spot on my bench...so we all know how that goes. 1 pointer incoming up the geordies.
MID:
Salah (MCI) and Sterling and De Bruyne (liv)
Sticking with the big lads Mo, Raz and Kevin. Dunno what will come to pass in this tie of giants but generally speaking I am going to hold the City guys and see where the chips fall.
Mount (CRY)
Mount remains with the somewhat good signs to his recovery and starting this weekend against Palace. It will be his byebye game in my team while he turns into a bag of coin to fund Vardy next week.
FWD:
Abraham (CRY)
Tammy has been a good lad since getting him in not much to see there. Seems like a pretty steady hold for a while as long as he's fit.
Pukki (WAT)
I can't even believe I have to type his name again..but I still have Pukki. I hope he just avoids a yellow and gets me 2 points. Kill for it.
CAP:
Salah (MCI)
Back to Mo. Time for Mo to cometh and dongeth.
I'm going to probably stick cap on him for a little spell here after the IB as well with their good fixtures. Don't really have a good feel for this game but with Mo on pens and Bravo in goal idk whatever the fuck.
Get in Mo.
ALON
TRANSFERS:
OUT: N/A
IN: N/A
Saving because I’m being indecisive and scared and passive and don’t really know what to do?
The moves that have sounded best in a week of tinkering involve turning Kelly and probably Lowton into Trent/Robbo but I wouldn’t want to do that this week anyway with City rolling up so maybe that’s where I’ll start going next week.
TBD.
I had an extremely hard time figuring out my 11 this week and like Walsh kept reminding me on the pod and on Friday My Life and over text - I will bench points this week 100% so I guess whatever yolo here we go.
GK:
Gazzaniga (SHU)
Gaz in a good clean fixture this really should be a clean for Spurs even though they’re kind of bad they’ve been tight at home.
And for as good as SHU have been they’re still a mostly pretty conservative and bad attacking side. 
DEF:
Lundstram (tot)
I went on my rant on the pod on how good Lundy’s attacking stats are and all that shit and then add in SHU’s defensive fortitude and this guy is just never getting benched by me again this season.
0-0 would serve me well with Gaz.
Tomori (CRY)
Legitimately a clean banker but also I don’t trust Chelsea to make it easy.
Palace will have at least a couple of big chances through probably errors from Zouma/Tomori/Kepa/Azpi and I just have to hope that they don’t convert’em.
Söyüncü (ARS)
Leicester are still putting up absolutely fantastic defensive numbers and listen, Arsenal will not be an easy clean, but there’s also the chance that Brodge just plays like four defensive midfielders who park and in those matches where he’s done that they’ve been very tough to breakdown.
And Arsenal aren’t exactly lighting the world on fire.
A clean seems totally possible to me.
MID:
Salah (MCI)
Obvs fit Mo gets in there.
Sterling and De Bruyne (liv)
Obvs the fit city guys get in there.
Hudson-Odoi (CRY)
Last second change bringing in CHO for Lowton. Lambs change. Felt it while typing out why I’m starting Lowton and changed it.
It’s a complete gut feel here but fuck man we know Palace are gonna be parked, we know the minutes in Willian’s legs and Puli’s legs, and we know that CHO isn’t gonna be completely bombed out... It’s time for a CHO start against the bus, he’s the perfect player to be dancing and taking people on in the box to break down Palace... Come on Frank!!!
Chelsea supporters seems pretty 50/50 split on whether he starts or not but really I don’t expect a Lowton clean anyway so the floor difference in points is nothing while on the other side of things if CHO starts the ceiling is absolutely in the double digits... Going with the gut feel and the ceiling play here.
Praying for the CHO start so fucking hard.
FWD:
Vardy (ARS)
Glad to have the key man in Vards for the long haul.
Don’t expect a ton of goals flying in at home to Arsenal but he’ll get his one or two chances and honestly probably convert at least one.
Abraham (CRY)
Tammy still putting up elite striker numbers as he has done basically all season. What a guy. Love him.
Palace are tough to break down but I back this Chelsea team to put up good attacking numbers week in week out and Tammy is at the center of it all.
Pukki (WAT)
Hey at least it’s a home match? An absolute piss take that we’re both still owning and starting Pukki but life is hard... ok?
Watford have been keeping it tight lately but also they have to begin to try and pickup points at some point in the season or they’ll be relegated by January... Norwich similarly should be going for this one at home and while Pukki and Norwich are complete garbage I actually think he might get a goal... Lol at me...
Woke up this morning with a text from Walsh that said, “There is nothing that would make me happier in life today than if Pukki got an assist. One time Finnish cunt,” and so yeah that’s where we’re both at at this point in our lives. Fuck.
CAP:
Abraham (CRY)
Been on him all week, haven’t really wavered at all. Do not like the Vardy cap nearly as much but I guess I’m alone there?
As Walsh has been saying all season there are more 4-0s and 5-0s to come for this Palace side and I’m hoping that this week is one of those... Chelsea and Tammy and CHO for a festival of dongs come on boys let’s go.
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eludum-a · 7 years
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500 follower follow forever!
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it happened. god knows why so many of you are here, but apparently you like what i do, so... well, thank you! to everyone! but this is a very informal follow forever meant specifically for people i speak to regularly/people i consider my friends/people i feel i owe something to. i haven’t done anything like this since the 100 follower mark, so please bear with me. 
i felt like i needed to do this because, in the wise words of taako the wizard, “it doesn’t always have to be goof goof dildo. i’m traveling around with the boner squad and i never get to say... what i’m feeling! i have emotions!”
if you’re not here, please don’t feel like i don’t appreciate you! i only have the energy for so much love here in my body. if you’ve been inactive/are on hiatus, i might have missed you, and if we haven’t really talked a lot ooc, same thing applies.
(i have been working on this on and off for weeks. im so tired pls just let me be finished with it)
anyway, call outs below the cut!
@unsuspicious: cou, you send me so many baffling and strange images at all hours of the day. i had to lead up with this because where do you even get all those. anyway, you’re definitely the person i talk to the most every day, and it’s weird as shit to think that the last thing in tumblr messenger was me sending you the link to the discord channel. you’re a fantastic roleplayer when you actually roleplay and you’re fun to have around!
@hismalice: raz you are one of my favorite people on this god forsaken hell site and don’t ever forget that. if you need a reminder you can come back here and look at this and see this seal of approval, and also the mental image of me saying “no, fuck you” to your negative thoughts and then punching them in the face heaven slaying dragon fist style. if you ever wanna talk you know where to find me and it’s also ok if you don’t want to!! i’ll still be here regardless.
@cantalazarus: god bless the hinatatas, may they grow strong and powerful this year. amen. on a more real note: this is my official notice that i really appreciate you just... in general, as a person, even if im an asshole who has trouble with, like, Feelings and shit. so there’s that. same as with raz above, you obviously know where to find me whenever you wanna talk. and take as long as you need to recharge your batteries!! no rush
@mxssias: ALEX MY MAN... BOY... GUY! DUDE, PAL, WHATEVER. your naegi is LIT. i love the good good egg boy so much and you do him justice!! you don’t just focus on the lighter aspects of his character, but you recognize his various struggles as well! you’re also just a fun person to talk to and i’d love to do more naenami in the future of COURSE
@ayatsurii the sparkliest of cats! yo, sparkle, thank u for turning me on to pekonami because it’s so good and pure, and thank you also for trying to keep things from burning down in the chat when we get too rowdy (even if you’re not successful... we can’t be tamed). i look forward to future pekonami interactions!
@snappshot: sarah is wonderful at everything she does, sorry i dont make the rules. you’ve been around this blog for what feels like forever now?? first as mahiru (and your mahiru rly captured my heart) but also sayaka and kaede and your persona muses are equally wonderful! idk what i’d have done if you weren’t there to reassure me i was doing a good job. god bless sarah
@anemoia-avenoir / @ongakuvoices: rrrrrrrrIO! you’re lovely and you should know it. i know we don’t really talk much ooc but you definitely deserved a spot in here! your passion for your muses is incredible! your love for them shows in the details of your writing, and i know it can be frustrating sometimes to feel like you’re not good enough (believe me... i have been there many times), but believe me... you’re gonna do amazing things, i just know it.
@malchancevilain YOU STILL OWE ME 15 DOLLARS AND I AIM TO COLLECT, GREG GRIMALDIS. NO MATTER WHERE IN THE MULTIVERSE YOU ARE. ahem. we share a lot of common interests, watchy, and i really do love your luckgami, like, a lot. i love how different his background is without changing who he is fundamentally as a person, aka a snob
@shpionaz: *insert obligatory ‘like a boss’ joke here* ok now that we’ve gotten that over with,,, im so grateful i got a chance to play out the oumanami brotp interactions with you because that was on my wishlist almost as soon as i found out about their sprite similarities and we didn’t even have to try, it just happened. you’re first ouma in my heart forever and i can’t wait to do some things with your oc too!!
@gambogeish: it’s kind of ironic how i didn’t finish twewy until we became friends, when it was first gifted to me by my boyfriend... it’s probably just the difference in maturity/gaming ability from then to now, but ANYWAY: i am so glad to have met you. you’re one of the first people in the community i’ve really connected with, and you’re an awesome person who i’d love to roleplay with regardless of muse. i’ve got a virtual high five right here waiting for you. o/
@pseudxcode syd, god bless your chihiro, honestly. he’s such a sweet little guy and i love his interactions with chiaki! of course i’ve always been a fan of these two together (even when she’s NOT an AI created by him), because their talents complement each other so well! they’re good for each other. i’d love to see more chiaki & chihiro action, especially if it involves chiaki encouraging him and reassuring him that he’s not as weak as he thinks he is.
@kibcu / @krclowa we only recently started talking but you’re such a welcome addition to thotchat, liz! take that as you will. this one’s probably gonna be a bit short but im looking forward to platonic naenami interactions and ur sonia too! aunty nanami’s gonna babysit the hell out of those naegi kids (aka give them all smartphones and sit back and relax)
@synthxsizxr GOOD IDOL, BEST SISTER, AKI LOVES HER HARU even if she really doesnt understand the idol lifestyle like, at all. chi, you yourself are very sweet and kind, it’s wonderful having you here in this community! i hope you’re having a lot of fun with your talentswap chiaki and i hope 
@relixum / @lxckyclovers: i hope you two don’t mind that i put you together here. i know you’ve been busy with school lately (good luck with that, by the way!!) but i didn’t want you to think i forgot about you! you guys make a mom/dad/parental unit so proud. you’re wonderful writers and i hope you find happiness wherever you go. *bob belcher voice* you’re my family and i love you but you’re terrible, you’re all terrible.
@tcndcrloins levi you’re the other constant presence in thotchat and you’re such a fun person to have around. you’re so welcoming and comfortable in a sense that i never feel like i’m bothering you, and thats a pretty incredibly accomplishment considering how often i convince myself im annoying. get those drafts done, i believe in you!!
@delinqueon avery, you were probably the first person within the community i talked to one on one, and thank god you approached me because at that point i never would have had the courage to speak up! your leon is such a delight to interact with and so are your other characters. one day you’ll get me back for making you read the bee movie script out loud for fifteen minutes.... one day
@betraycd last but not least, first i have to thank fin for my current editing software that i still have yet to figure out even 10% of ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) but i’ll get there! fin, i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again: i absolutely adore your souda, all of the time and effort you’ve put into his characterization and how you don’t ignore the uglier parts of his personality. he’s a lovely flawed boy and you really do him justice!
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like any community with more than a few people, there have been ups and downs in the path few months. i wanted to add here as a general shout out that i have never felt so welcome and loved in a community that i originally would have thought would be more disjointed than what you might find on a forum. like, i’ve changed a lot thanks to you guys! i’ve been able to get over some of the hurdles of my social anxiety (i didnt jump over them so much as drag myself across the ground and painfully crawl over them) and i just... i feel good? i feel like people like me? there are still times where my anxiety insists i’m nothing but a useless burden, but i actually... feel like people enjoy having me around? holy shit!
i made some really cool new friends and got to know a different kind of roleplay community. im overall incredibly grateful for this wild and weird journey i’ve been on, and the journey certainly isn’t over by any means! i hope to keep seeing you guys around!
these words really arent even enough to express my gratitude. i havent been to some really dark places, but there for a while i felt like i was almost completely alone. i simply wasn’t connecting with other people like i wanted to. about 3-4 years ago i lost contact with (long story) my roleplay partners of 4 years and it wasn’t an easy thing to recover from, but i’m here now and it’s just... really good! incredible, even!
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Lineup Lamentations - GW7
Our Transfers, Captains, and Starting 11s for the week!
WALSH
TRANSFERS:
OUT: McGinn
IN: Mount
Okay fam, I fucked up this week.
Hands in the air this one is on me but I fucked myself by not moving on Wednesday before price changes where both Tammy and Mount went up so I am 0.1 away now from doing the double swap.
Was waiting for all the cup games to end and then was planning on getting Tammy in before his rise...totally forgot... Mount rose as well and so fuck me. Vacation mode throwing me properly off over here so what can I do? I am but a flawed human and I will live with the consequences of my dumbassedry.
Ultimately I am feeling that removing McGinn is better than removing Haller especially with this news that Lanzini has been training and is back. I just don't think Villa look very good in general and will continue to seriously struggle for goals even though McGinn has good underlying numbers and shit I think he's just a bit meh.
Haller has been bad but looks incredible irl eye test and so who knows the fixture is pretty good from an attacking sense maybe I get really lucky here but I will not tell you all any lies... it feels fucking bad to not have Tamela in this moment. I did contemplate a hit to get Tam in but ultimately felt like it had more of a chance to blow up in my face than work out gangbusters so I'm going to just do the one move...float...and check out what is what next gameweek with two frees after UCL and shit. Seems okay...
Who am I kidding? complete nightmare disaster I'm dumb and I hate myself.
GK:
Pope (avl)
Pope remains from GW1 after popping back into the good graces with a clean last week. Still great fixtures and he's great so an easy hold set and forget type of lad. Good boy Pope.
DEF:
Three at the back for me this gameweek in an unusual turn of events for my squadron.
Alexander-Arnold & Robertson (shu)
Trent and R0bbo go to Sheffield United in what should be a clean banker. If Sheffu can only muster two shots against Everton then not expecting fireworks here against Livp. Granted they are home...but still..come on. Get it done here boys...time for another clean.
Otamendi (eve)
Third guy is NicoOta who somehow just threw up a ridiculous haul last game. Maybe the answer is just Dinho in and they'll keep cleaning like we thought they would. Who knows. I don't and I still think (read: know) Ota is a nightmare but at the moment the price is right and the nail is on.
At Everton suddenly seems like a dreamland fixture as they drag their feet until their manager gets the sack lunch. Get in.
MID:
Salah (shu) & Sterling & De Bruyne (eve)
Still on the three big boppers Mo, Raz, and Kevin.
All three great guys, I’m happy to see people selling Raz hope he drops 1m in price he is going nowhere from my team little razzy baby will come back with a vengeance to punish the non believing heathens.
Mo looked really bad and off it last game so hopefully his touch is back and he can do something this weekend.
Mount (BHA)
New boy Mount goes for me and it feels nice to be part of the mounted cavalry division. Nice little fixture run and still a good price. I really want to get in Maddo soon but Mount seems basically the same thing with a bit lower price no knock and better fixtures at least for right now.
Not sure why I'm talking about Maddo here but I am so that's cool.
Cantwell (cry)
Finally, Todd goes to Selhurst in what should be a who knows what the fuck it will be kind of a game. I could see anything from 0-0 snoozefest worst thing of life to a 4-2 barn burner. Either way, I believe in Todd and I love Todd so I'm going to throw him out in the XI for the near term and see how he rolls.
FWD:
Pukki (cry)
Pukki still in of course..good guy still is good.
Haller (bou)
Haller still in as well...yikes. Pretty massively and utterly terrified of not owning Tammy even more so typing this out now so just gotta hope I get away with it. Eek.
CAP:
Sterling (eve)
Raz gets the armband again.
Was chatting about it in Slack just before typing up lambs and the honest truth of the matter is if I twist off Raz cap after all these weeks of mental anguish to see him spike this game at Goodison I would just be completely beside myself with grief.
I don't want that, so I'm going to just stay with the boy and hope he wakes up on the right side of the bed tomorrow and destroys Everton.
ALON
TRANSFERS:
OUT: Diop
IN: Tomori
I wavered back and forth on this one because Diop and West Ham have kept three cleans in a row and have really good home bankers coming up and all that good shit.... BUTTTTTTTT... they’re still bad at defending. They really are. The cleans have been nice but felt pretty lucky. They had Manchester United which is arguably best cleansheet fixture in the league and I got my points and so now I’m bailing.
Tomori has almost identical home fixtures to Diop coming up and I’m taking a swing that with Kante back (and Rudiger soon) they are a better team and better defense then West Ham... So in the equal home fixtures I prefer Tomori and then in the aways I feel like West Ham have relatively no chance at a clean (for example this week away to Bournemouth I see them conceding two or three) whereas Tomori and Chelsea away Southampton and away Burnley and away Watford coming up I’m like yeah I could see it, maybe clean one of those if I’m lucky clean two of those? That seems not farfetched to me.
It’s fucking weird buying a defender for a team with no cleans but comparatively to West Ham I think I’m getting in a step ahead here and hopefully it pays me back :)... Come on you Fikayo.
GK:
Gunn (tot)
Spurs are kind of shit but also this is like a 1% chance of a clean for Gunn.
My biggest mistake on Wildcard was not finding the 0.1 somewhere (SEE: MARTIN KELLY) and going Pope over Gunn but honestly I’m just gonna stick by Angus “Gunn to my head” Gunn through these difficult fixtures and just hope he racks up some saves and bones and the odd clean here and there and then their fixtures turn in GW12 and maybe it’ll all be fine.
Maybe.
DEF:
Tomori (BHA)
Good cleanable fixture. Not AMAZING but a solidly good clean shout at home. Come on lad.
Lowton (avl)
Another solid clean shout here.
Away is obviously tougher but Aston Villa struggle to create big chances and with how deep Burnley set up it will be tough to get behind them and counter them... I feel like a defensive howler from Mee or Tarko will be Villa’s best chance of the game. Hopefully it comes clean for me.
Söyüncü (NEW)
The fucking kid. I love Soy so much.
This should be a very straight forward clean. Hopefully Soy doesn’t do something absolutely insane and concede a penno for no reason and it’s just an easy job with bones and shit. Come on SoyyyyyBoyyyyyLadddddd.
MID:
Salah (shu), Sterling & De Bruyne (eve)
Lottttt of aways this week for me which does not feel terrific at all.
Salah is easiest hold ever despite a bit of a slow start underlying numbers.
Raz had his 0 minutes played early doors and should be back in there firing on all cylinders and Kevin requires no words. If ya didn’t jump immediately on Kevin after GW1 or GW2 then we haven’t been watching the same shit and you clearly don’t listen to a word that Walsh and I say so fuck you anyways.
Cantwell (cry)
The aways just keep coming and I don’t like it...
Palace are tough to break down but they’re also WAY worse at home and love nothing more but conceding possession... This will be a really really interesting game to see how Norwich do when they have ~65% of the ball and have to break down the Woy bus factory.
I expect good things but I’m a little nervous.
FWD:
Agüero (eve)
Kun is real good.
Pukki (cry)
Check what I said above about Todd and apply the same down here to Teemu.
Abraham (BHA)
Tammy is putting up gigantic elite numbers and I see no reason why that won’t continue. Outside of Man City Tammy has the best non-penalty expected goals per 90 in the entire league. Ya love to see it.
The one caveat that I have is that Brighton are pretty good.
BHA have middle of the pack defensive numbers despite facing Man City already this season and they just seem solidly like a mid-table maybe top 10 team.
Potter is great and has completely transformed how they set up and play and they’re just good. People thinking that this will be a Chelsea easy walk in the park 4-0 ass fucking I think are very misguided and relying too much on the color of the fixture on the FPL site and not using data, team stats, brains, etc...
CAP:
Agüero (eve)
This did not take me long to sort out. Kun is on fire, City are the best attacking team in the world as usual, and Everton aren’t great. Hopefully Kun hauls in a loss then I’m in dreamland ;)...
It’s a bummer that it’s away but he’s still Kun and can score a hat trick vs. any non-Liverpool opponent away from home. You might call me not a home/away splits believer.
Come on Kun do it baby boy, Everton are ripe for a destruction... And if City score early the fucking pitchforks will be out at Goodison and Silva and the Everton players should crumble under the immense negativity and booing and horribleness.
NOT RANDOM SLACKER: DEREK
Fresh off of IRL pod we assigned Lambs this week to the one and only Derek.
TRANSFERS:
OUT: Coleman
IN: Otamendi
Mentioned on the pod, easy transfer: defender on terrible looking Everton team for an attacking City defender with a great fixture run for the same price.
Seamus got me a couple cleans early and had some great chances for a dong but at this moment cannot be more thrilled to take him out of my team.
This was my plan since before last GW.. sucks I missed Ota's absurd game vs. Twatford but regardless, I'm very happy with this pick.
GK:
Pope (avl)
New friend to the team last week brought me a clean sheet. Hoping for the same this week with Villa away.
Burnley has a nice run coming so expecting some cleans from him.
DEF:
Otamendi (eve)
New transfer in.
I don't love him as a defender and we all know he's struggled at times this year but with Dinho seemingly slotted to the LCB position I’m hoping City can stay relatively tight and keep some cleans on this run.
And with Kevin's super precise set piece deliveries so far this year (and all the time when he is healthy and right), I'm expecting Ota to continue to find his head on some of these balls for some more dongs.
Robertson and van Dijk (shu)
Two lads who have been on my team since GW1.
At this point, cleans haven't been plentiful like how I imagined but a goal and two assists from them is still solid and I expect Liverpool to improve on the defensive front. Sheffield should be staying pretty tight in the back at home so this fixture feels very cleanable.
MID:
Sterling and De Bruyne (eve)
Just two guys on the most potent, explosive attacking team in the league. It's time tor Raz to get some returns for the first time since GW3. Yikes.
Salah (shu)
Mo will be Mo and continue to do Mo things AKA return return return. Even having a shitty ass game like last week, he still got me an assist.
Mount (BHA)
I've had the Fat Frank loving youngster since GW3 and he's price risen 6 times since then which is wild but still think he's a great value pick for those who do not have him.
On the year he has 3 goals in 6, constantly finds himself in the box with good chances, and with this great fixture run coming up, I expect him to continue to tick.
FWD:
Pukki (cry)
Palace away doesn't feel great, but Pukki has proven he can score in any fixture so hoping he delivers me one here.
Abraham (BHA)
Coming off a late push at Stamford Bridge last week versus the league leaders, Chelsea should continue with their offensive prowess vs Brighton back at home.  Although I don't expect Tammy's absurd finishing efficiency to continue at this rate, his physicality and quickness in the box is here to stay which will continue to yield him good opportunities and big chances.
Plus with up-and-down-the-wing god Marcos A. slotted in at left back with Emerson out, Tammy should be getting some great service in the air.  Love having two offensive players from the same team cause the dreams and realization of an assist-dong combo is just the best actual feeling in all of FPL.
Greenwood (ARS)
Taking a chance here going with my other Mason: the 17 year old United striker..feels especially risky with him playing 90' midweek in the cup match.
He has yet to start in a league game this year, but has started in both games outside of the league and has a goal in each of them. With Rashford's groin injury and Martial seemingly dead for eternity (I won't believe he's healthy til I see him on the team sheet), OGS has limited options up top so realllly hoping he gives the kid a chance this week at Old Trafford for his first league start.
From the little I've seen from Greenwood, seems like he is not shy to shoot and with Paul hopefully back maybe the team can progress the ball better and develop some offensive threat again..we shall see.
CAP:
Sterling (eve)
I'm going with Raz for the fifth GW in a row.
We all know what he's capable of..sitting the whole 90' on the bench or scoring a hatty. Hoping for the latter in the away fixture at Goodison cause I think City are gonna have their way with the Toffees. I'd be lying if I said I'm not scared captaining Raz considering he played 70+ minutes midweek in the cup and UCL coming up next week but fuck it.
Weird to see him drop in price two times in a week and seeing some captain polls, kinda feels like a slight differential captain.  Vice will be on Mo.
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