All of my Dark World Deltarune models in one pic! 🃏

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Wanted to make a group render since I've translated most of the cast in 3D!

I'm really happy with how these turned out even though some of these kinda differ in quality as I've made them over the course of a bunch of months/years. These were super fun to make and an amazing learning experience (Light World Render coming soon!). Who's your fave?

murder drones doodles

Is there a 300 page essay about Murderbot's armor (specifically the opaque helmet) as a not-so-subtle metaphor for masking in a clearly neurodivergent character already? Because I need it.

The way Murderbot is unvoluntarily without its opaque armor in All System Red in front of the crew (i.e. unmasking) and appears surprised at its own strong facial expressions and other people's reaction to it? The vulnerability that comes with that and how Murderbot spends pretty much the rest of the book wearing or actively missing its armor which keeps it safe from the mortifying ordeal of being known (yet sometimes other characters suggest it might help for it to not opacify the helmet in order for others to see it as a person and to trust it (and in the end idk if it would have achieved the rewards of being loved by its humans and have had its needs met if it hadn't unmasked in this relatively safe environment sometimes)).

Also there's the whole avoiding-looking-directly-at-people-and-using-drones-instead thing which Murderbot usually hides using the opaque helmet, but whenever it doesn't have that people notice it and many react negatively/confused. I think that's a whole neurodivergent-applicable situation in and of itself? Like damn

And then Mensah encourages Murderbot not to wear armor on Preservation station since it would not need it there, Murderbot is hesitant but ends up not wearing any (like 4 books later when we finally get to that bridge) (going for the comfortable clothes it chose for itself instead, with very strong feelings about the whole being able to make choices thing that I cannot go into further at this point because I would absolutely end up BITING SOMETHING OR SOMEONE).

And I'm not going to advocate for unmasking all the time in any setting because hell no, sometimes it absolutely sucks and people are irritated by Murderbot's now visible quirks and are afraid of what they don't know, but many GET TO KNOW Murderbot better and because there are other people that make sure Murderbot is safe and respected and are willing to get people fired for it if they disrespect it (Pin-Lee my beloved) Murderbot can experiment with this situation without being exiled to some abonded part of a planet and other people are forced to spend enough time around ot to learn to respect it and even like it. I just....... It must be so scary and Murderbot is handling so much at once and in this essay I will

PS sorry this is a disorganized mess but so am I and I have so many Thoughts and even more Emotions and so little patience.

Baking baby Guinness cupcakes to cope with finishing Life With Althaar on that crazy cliffhanger only to realise there isn't any more yet 😭

who up sinning their fest

HHHHHSHAHHHHHHHHHHHH. HHHHhhhhhhhhhhh Nnnnnn

Okay, I'm not done sharing my naive takes on watching Young Royals for the first time.

I can't help but compare to Heartstopper, of course, and there is such an interesting juxtaposition between the two First Kiss scenes.

Heartstopper's core emotion is joy, and the kiss is a moment of fear and uncertainty on a path to joy and self-discovery.

The first kiss in Young Royals felt like it had a core emotion of fear, and this kind of unstoppable force of feeling cracks through that fear and restraint against all odds.

Also Heartstopper is all about communication and Young Royals so far is all about not saying anything true, ever.

Buut based on the memes they are going to figure out how to be honest (I hope!)

[I haven't really read any meta proper on YR and I'm super duper new to the fandom, unless you count a constant osmosis of YR gifs as a side effect of being in the Heartstopper fandom for the last however many months. So if I'm just saying things that have already been said, sorry!]

i've changed my disney profile pic to hiro.

ITS TOO LATE FOR ME SAVE YOURSELVES

What's the storyline for your ocs?

nerdy straight A middle school student katherine quin and her pals realize that their government sucks ass and b/c they are impassioned naive youth, entangle themselves in a state of affairs that will stay w/them for the rest of their lives

more under the cut b/c i wrote a lot more than i thought i would kasfjksdfjksfj (i have big feelings abt this story)

i (officially) made the story when i was 14! all the characters are based off me and my experience 2 some extent (especially katherine i mean i made her bi, biracial, gave her a mole, made her like indie games etc). originally the story was going 2 have a happy ending, but as ive grown i have more of an appreciation for....well endings that are not so happy. im thinking i change it. it would make sense w/what happens in it anyway (the story of revolution is not as happy and triumphant as 11 year old me imagined when i first acted this out w/my brother. honestly like ive changed the story entirely 2 be my own but i still gotta thank my bro cuz the orig storyline that inspired it when we played legos 2gether was a conjoined effort and i borrowed many of the characters)! as im drafting it now, the story is not particularly happy lol

the story tells a sort of generational loop that katherine goes thru? if that makes sense? i wont go too much in depth b/c spoilers but its a story of history repeating itself again and again and the endless loops pain and suffering cause and how people are scared/too comfortable/too angry to change the cycle. i think that katherine being a history nerd in the midst of watching history unfold again before her very eyes grants her a certain point of view other characters dont have (except a few who have lived experiences). although this awareness will come later in the story when she's older

it will also touch on something young folks feel 2day where ppl frequently ask, "why is this happening today? havent we progressed?" and katherine will ponder that herself (although the situations that happen in the story are strictly to the story ajsfsjfd i cant talk abt and link real life tragedies it would be too much for me). and i think that as she gets older in the story and gains knowledge and wisdom from what she goes thru, she'll hafta bear this horrifying knowledge that the sands of time dont just erode the past, but the present and future as well.

i was not expecting 2 write this much KJSFKJSDJFKSJDF

anyway! i care this story a lot. its like my childhood and has grown with me as ive aged. im really compelled to make it the best it can be and i get a lot of imposter syndrome b/c i know the ideas i have and the story itself as a whole is good, but im worried my execution will fall flat. idk its kept me from moving forward w/it or talking abt it for years.

tldr; two can basically be summed up by this image:

are things going 2 get better? can they get better? questions i think about as i write and think thru this story.

This is a Blue Eye Samurai fan blog now sorry not sorry I'm obsessed

I wanna make a bdubs and/or etho cosplay so bad but idek where to start

hit tag limit on the last post cos i started talking about roller coasters again 😔

I'm probably spending farrr too much on this website.... but ive finished school and now have no purpose in life (/j) and so It Is Fine

of all things, seeing goro and sumi interact makes me wanna work on the next ladue chapter more than anything else the past like 2 weeks

Wild

in the mental illness induced haze ive been in for the past like week i deadass forgot i was diying the blacklight journal

guys my newest coping method is just,,, method acting ??