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Hey guys did you know that I've been in so much pain that it forced me to recontextualize not only my definition of being okay but also my judgement and avoidance of that pain and now I'll never go back to the understanding I had before this? :3 me neither (until recently)!

Hello everybody this is an emergency!!! Pls buy my commissions!!!!

Pls reblog if able to, im begging, this is the best I can do

So, as some of you know I am a 15 year old living in San Diego, California and prices here are impossible unless you are rich or have family to back you up. So, we don’t have that actually.

My mother quit her job awhile ago but recently got back into another job, she didn’t have a go-to job after quitting her other one which made us 6 weeks behind rent/payment, making us loose over 40k, I am not able to get a job yet so for now, i must do comms.

In just 6 days, we might loose cable, electricity, water, anything! If we dont do something, something has been eating our bank and we need over 4k and right now we have.. $1.36 in total in bank.

Hopefully, i might be able to get started on commissions, please if you’re able to, we might loose something in less than a week if we dont do anything, if you arent able to buy and rb—please just atleast try to reblog, i am panicking right now and I have no idea if this is an exaggeration or not, we NEED money!!

I am only using Venmo:

@Goobiestarstar

Please pm me here on tumblr or on discord (Goobiestar⛱#6188) if interested

(I am so sorry these prices are high, if able to i would really appreciate tipping)

sighing and putting my head in my hands and crying and throwing up as i think about stanley uris and how he was the most terrified loser.

how he was deathly scared of being dirty, of not knowing where he was, of not being able to predict the world around him. how he was more scared of his world order being offended than anything else. how knowing that pennywise is real sent him down this spiral of 'what else can be real' and it broke him. but he STILL was the one who cut everyone's hand and made the oath. how bill constantly reminds him of his bird book and how it saved him. how he is more mentally fragile than eddie. how he's one of the only Losers who ever says "i can't do this", but he still gets to his feet and makes jokes right after he cries. stan uris, who, after Mike is like, "i just saw a killer bird!" goes, "what kind of bird?"

thinking about how we really don't know how his death went down so we don't know what he was thinking in those last moments. how he threw away his whole picturesque life because of a promise he made, and because he couldn't honor it. how he's such a private person, a quiet one, but he's so so so sharp and graceful. i wish they showed more of his fear in the movies, how much it fucked him up in the end.

stanley uris i think about you a lot.

puter, how do I know if I like men or if I am afraid of them and just crave male validation? quickest route, no comphet explanations

puter, do you hear me?

mmm fucking with my gender bc who cares!

SORRY NOT SORRY

I understand the reasoning behind Hunter's doubts...but come on!! DAMN IT HUNTER! NOT AGAIN!

trying to get better at everyone's shapes :> Also drawing profiles is fun

(top right to bottom left: Kalagna Brosca, Var'renan Mahariel, Liam Hawke, June Trevelyan)

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I think I should just go to sleep. I've got until the 16th to have this project finished. There's no logical reason to finish it right now... but...

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Playdate AU

Doodling some doodles I never thought I would continue, but I am in a trainwreck so I did. [1]

[Little version them is cute, so I have decided to finish this one.]

[I miss pure chibi artstyle and everything new in this drawing.]

Bonus: Additional doodles I did under 10 minutes way months ago(because I do not have a life).

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playing the fun game of “is this alter an age regressor who just acts super differently when not regressed or are there two of this guy but one is a little over a decade older than the other?”

happy hate myself monday friday

Literallyyyyy brought to my knees. What am i to do? What do i even want.

I'm afraid captain!

Be not so. I know.

Stop it Mitten. I'm frustrated and afraid. What do you know? Telling me is making it worse. You STUPId hoe.

Poetry or rant or vent. Fucking idk.

But what do i have and when is it not? What makes it pop and what's gonna make it rot?

Maybe not. Maybe not. Gonna bite someone. Please god im brought to my knees this capitalist hellscape is bringing me no rest. I want to smoke. My body is fighting me every step of the way. Pulling back like a dog on a leash. My collar is up around my ears and the blood is pumping until they're ringing. Even if i stop pulling, i can't breathe. Im in limbo!

This is about everything. And i still dont have a car. But mitten says im not that far. Do i trust her? What is climaxing in February and please stop responding "me, hopefully" if you know something. Strangers will scroll past like. Huh? Lovers will know.

I don't. I don't know. I'm the exception. But I'm definitely still a lover, as lovers often go.