RIGHT. A LITTLE LIFE

there's nowhere near enough people going feral about a little life right now

the book. the play. the acting !!!

Hanya Yanagihara is a genius. this book - the story, the characters - have a very special place in my heart. this book continually breaks you and terrorises you, yet leaves you wanting more. it has you so invested in the characters' lives. absolutely life changing.

Ivan Van Hove. also a genius. James Norton ! *chef's kiss* the entire cast, OUTSTANDING. people sobbing in the cinema. beautiful.

Just to clarify my thoughts (since I've had a number of people ask me about it) re: Job and cursing God. There's a big difference between cursing God as used in Scripture and how we generally would think of cursing at God today.

Cursing someone, in the Bible, has a lot of depth to it. It's not just saying "screw you " in anger, it's got a sense of forsakenness to it. It's the opposite of a blessing, a removal of blessing. If the blessing is presence, your face shining on the person you're blessing, then a curse is absence. In some translations, Job's wife tells him to "renounce God and die," which I honestly think makes a lot more sense to modern ears.

Job says a lot of unpleasant things to and about God in his anger and grief. So do the Psalmists. A number of the Prophets. So can we. God can take it if we come to him with honest expressions of our emotion, including those not-so-nice ones directed at him. I don't think there's anything wrong with getting mad at God and saying, "How dare you, you bastard" when you suffer unjustly. You can say much worse, I think, without sinning, though I don't feel particularly inclined to give examples. But as long as it's an honest expression of your heart, I think you're doing exactly what prayer is for. You're presenting him your heart with an open hand. He can use that. Opposite of love is not hate but indifference, etc.

Job doesn't renounce God. Neither should we. But I think when you're truly suffering, you're gonna have those feelings toward God either way. He'd rather you address them with him directly than try to avoid them. Cursing at God in the modern sense is actually a great way to keep the relationship strong and not end up cursing/renouncing him in the Biblical sense.

the level at which people are misusing the term "Never Again" in the far left absolutely infuriates me.

"Never Again" doesn't refer to the idea of no more genocides -- unfortunately people are evil and corrupt and seek scapegoats and destruction, there were genocides in the years following the Holocaust, there were genocides 10 years ago, there are multiple genocides going on as we speak

"Never Again" means we as Jews will pay attention to the warning signs, will not mindlessly allow antisemitism to fester and take over our communities, we will fight back. it means we will be proud. it means we will not let you hate us without a word of refusal.

"Never Again" is a warning for us, it is a reminder that what happened then can happen now -- is happening now. The Far Left doesn't get to use it against us. You don't get to turn our tragedies into hate-speech and antisemitic rhetoric.

Am Yisrael Chai

Form of art.

Fully of the belief that Miko is only seen as an annoying character because of the dynamic between her and Jack.

Miko in isolation isn’t an annoying character. She’s reckless, and unwise, and has to be bailed out of trouble every five seconds, but this isn’t really an issue for any of the bots because as far as they’re concerned, this is Normal Human Behaviour™. They are constantly having to work with and around humans or bail them out of trouble.

Bulkhead adores Miko. He is exasperated by her like a parent is of their toddler, sure, but I wouldn’t say he is annoyed by her in any way. Her interaction with wheeljack is another example. When she exists with the bots by herself, she doesn’t come across as burdensome. She’s just limited, as every human is, by the curse of being small.

It’s only through her interactions with Jack, and his continuous challenging and calling out on her behaviour, that Miko becomes an annoying character. Frankly, it’s the tension between them which annoys the audience. We can only watch the same cyclical bickering between children before it gets old.

I have noticed that there actually are a lot of people who do like Miko, and find Jack super annoying instead. It seems like people pick one or the other depending on how you interpret which one is causing the tension. When I watched tfp as a kid, I loved Miko and hated Jack. Like, hated hated him. Because I saw Miko as a fun punk rock kid and Jack as the one needlessly calling her out. Upon rewatching tfp as an adult (who works with kids a lot) I related far more to Jack, and so the situation flipped; I saw Miko’s actions as more frustrating to watch.

The writers did eventually try to fix this, with the one heart-to-heart scene between Miko and Jack. But it was kind of rushed, and didn’t leave any lasting change to their dynamic. They went right back to arguing.

Tldr: Miko and Jack are annoying together. Fans usually pick one of em as the cause to be annoyed at but honestly, they are both fine on their own. Children bickering is annoying even in a fictional cartoon lmao

Spent so much time making sushi for dinner and was so excited to have a funky little sushi roll and eat it like a burrito but then my nori ripped apart mid roll and I had to eat it as a salad and apparently my brain doesn’t like the texture of imitation crab + seaweed and rice rn :(

Apotheosis

ok so we're all in agreement that the way the show is handling trixie and matthew's storyline is complete shite right?

my roman empire is that bllk actually has a fandom inside the bllk universe (yk with bllk tv and all), do you think they do the same shit we do? like fanarts, fanfics? do you think the members watch velocity edits of themselves? is there a josh hutcherson edit equivalent of a bllk member? you think one of them said smth that became an online meme and has become a sound on tiktok? you think fans debate online on who shouldve gotten eliminated the way kpop survival show fans do? you think one of them has gotten canceled for the most miniscule things meanwhile shidou does the absolute most yet people brush past it?

triple threat end card but with the honkai inpact trio. and also bald TT.

⚠️⚠️⚠️SUPER ULTRA MAJOR SPOILERS AND CRYING AND MOURNING ABOUT TODAY’S EPISODE OF THE SUN AND MOON SHOW BELOW THE CUT!!!😭😭😭

WAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH SOLAR’S FCKING DEAAAAAADDDDD NOOOOOOO MY BOY MY BLORBO MY MAN NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *crying intensifies*

So now that that’s out of the way, I am legit typing this while crying ToT

Soooo, Solar’s dead, now, huh? I am so FCKING sad right now you can’t even imagine it. Moon was so sad and he was crying and omfg his last few words/sentences

“I think this is it”

NOOOOOOOO don’t say that!! That is the part where I started to cryyy (I was walking home from school at the time with my friend @punypappy) I was so defeated inside omfg and

“I’m proud of you, both of you.”

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHSDKJCNASJKVNIJVANOVKJNVEAIJ WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO USSSSSSSSSSS?! HE HASN’T EVEN BEEN AROUND FOR THAT LONG NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lunar’s going to be so saaaaaaaaaaddddd. Solar was the first version of his brother he actually came to love, omfg now that he’s gone…… Naaaaaaauuurrr

I swear to got if he doesn’t dome back with all his memories (because I KNOW Moon wouldn’t just let him stay dead) I will die of sadness, and I’m sure all you Solar lovers/enjoyer out there are dying just as much as me :( we feel pain together in this fandom

SOLAR DIDN’T DESERVE TO DIE AT ALL, WHAT DO YALL THINK *explodes* *goes to heaven with Solar*

ALSO I predicted this, isn’t that weird??? Why did I have to predict it, I never wanted solar to go into the light TnT

(i7 pt 5 spoilers)

Incomplete Rulers was a duet that HAD to be sung by Riku and Tenn together as a culmination of the relationship between the performers and the audience, which is to say that a performance is only made possible when there is a giver (Tenn) and a taker (Riku). Furthermore, them singing together on stage as mirrors, the taker (audience stand in) coming up to save the giver (the performer), and the two singers being fraternal twins is an illustration of how the roles of giver/taker are interchangeable even if the performer/audience roles stay the same AND that, in the end, the performer and the audience are not so different after all yet STILL are different. So here is how i will dissect the symbolism of twins, fraternal ones especially, and the roles of performer/audience in this essay - *gets dragged offstage*

I am not cut out to be a writer, never was. I don't have a consistent schedule, and the weight of wanting to provide for those few who enjoy my writing crushes me eventually.

I don't know why I decided to be one.

the worst part about finding more and more about totk that i dont like is that ... it seems like one of my biggest fears is going to become true; all of my previous hyperfixations died because a new thing of the franchise came out and i didnt like it, turned that strange, perhaps unhealthy, love and attachment into disappointment and sadness and im afraid thats happening to zelda right now, the one hyperfixation i hoped could last or at the very least i would just grow slowly away from in a good way if it was just totk that i didnt like, tho its hard to see all the love people have for it and just ... feel the opposite about it, it would be fine (heck i really disliked links awakening but ultimately i just regret spending so much money on it, it didnt impact my feelings about the rest of the franchise) but because it diminishes everything about botw too .. a game that i still love deeply, its not fine aside from me not liking anything they did with the zonau, it basically steamrolled botw too, damn near ignoring it ever happened, cramming in zonau stuff where it wasnt before just so its literally everywhere, taking its mysterious and answerign them in boring ways, implying that stuff i loved so much about botw was yet just another zonau thing (the three dragons possibly having been zonau ..........the ancient hero mystery being .. that.......) people basically claiming as fact that its somehow slammed into the old timeline despite it making no sense nor has any evidence aside from some names that happened to be used once before or them saying whats the point of ever looking at botw again bc totk does everything "better" ...

you cant ignore it really, even if i try to ignore what i dont like, i know whats revealed in totk, and others know it too.

and in turn it all makes me go back to that strange self hatred i thought i had finally left behind, the why do i care so much, its stupid to care so much about a piece of media i have no control about anyway, whats the point of caring so much, you have wasted so much time and effort and thought and tears about something like this, why are you so weird, why cant you just be like everyone else and love it all, why are you like this, stop being like this.

knowing i cant stop being like this, fearing from the start it might happen just like it has so many times, that i fall in love with a piece of media so much that when it gets a new thing that i dont like but affects every aspect of it it all flips into anger first, then disappointment and sadness and in end into wishing i wasnt weird like this, knowing i cant change it ... and it turning out true

setting off for a long journey

Just finished the trials of Apollo and I NEED TO TALK ABOUT IT

These books were so different to me because they directly revolved around a topic Rick clearly wanted to touch - abuse. Specifically, familial abuse. Personally I think he’d done it gracefully in a way that really sinks in for me now, but I’m not a victim of abuse and don’t pretend to understand the subject.

Regardless, I think the way Rick wrote Apollo, Lester, was absolute perfection. There’s an art to writing a literal god in first person perspective, and have him be one of the most human characters in the entire franchise.

Lester STRUGGLES. And he’s not perfect at all, he doesn’t even begin to understand everything at the start - not the world, not consequences, not the stakes and not the people around him. But fuck he learns, he learns the hard way, the only way, by doing. And it’s not a linear journey either - between book 1 and his more or less lucid identity in book 5, he goes back and forth between learning, and relapsing to his old ways, and learning again, and trusting and understand and rising victorious in all the confusion. He doesn’t shy away from his emotions - he cries a lot, and gets frustrated, and laughs. He learns to feel for other people. But he also learns to heal himself. And he does it by helping others heal, too.

To me, this red thread tying the books together by a common serious subject, made the reading somehow more whole. I can’t explain it, but Apollo slowly verbalising (well, thinking), realising there are similarities between his relationship with Zeus to Meg’s relationship with Nero, was so satisfying. Although I feel like “satisfying” might be a bit of a harsh word. Mostly I felt proud of him. I /felt/ for him, so very much, for so long. He’s likeable because he’s so human, and that includes both his silly and tragic sides, because these coexist within all of us. And I think he as a character encompassed that beautifully.

Reading that last book, expecting a showdown of sorts between Apollo and his father, and receiving a short conversation, an understanding, instead, was amazing. Because that’s Rick’s way of showing us what’s important. No use trying to fix what we can’t, what isn’t our responsibility to fix, what makes us miserable. Humans have this natural ability to rise from their own disasters and forge out of them their own paths in life. And Apollo did just that. It took him time, but that’s how it goes for all of us. And instead of fighting Zeus, he chose happiness. He chose focusing on what’s important, his old hobbies, his friends.

In a way, I’m bittersweet- I wish he didn’t have to stay at Olympus. I wish he could spend as much time as he’d like on earth. But the thing is, a god is what he /is/. But now, he understands for the first time that he gets to pick what kind of god he should be.

And he chose the human kind.