*squints at time*

*squints at my nearly empty notes*

Yea, okay, I cannot do it like this, where is that soju again?

How to Ride a Werewolf

Now remember, a lady rides sidesaddle, NOT astride. Your mother would be in hysterics at the very idea that a daughter of hers would ride a werewolf astride! Why, next you’ll be showing ankle…

Blog aesthetics. Mainly the profile picture. An example of this is my blog, ihatedtoadmit. I match with Sona there :)

Me: *randomly checking stuff, my mutual list included*

The mutual I was matching with: *is deactivated*

Me: huh

Me: anyone else wants to match with me next?

Actually, I'm saving these.

This delusional user wants to read fluffy fanfics but is nowhere near good enough to write her own. Sigh.

So if anybody comes across this ask, can you please tag me if you are kind enough to write the following SKZ plots?

1) BTS x SKZ crossover with you as the main character. One of them is your best friend, the other is your brother, and the others are the supporting cast. Go with the flow, as you wish.

2) You are gorgeous, intelligent, and the light in everyone's life. Except that you were brought up with the idea that curvy can never be pretty (toxic family 'ideals' and the likes), so your self-confidence is all pretence because you never give yourself enough credit. You grow up in the shadow of your perfect baby brother (one of the SKZ members, of course), the only one who believes in you, is immensely proud of you and whom you love to the ends of the earth despite the toxic environment you two were brought up in. Said baby brother just wants you to heal, to love and be loved, and to have faith in yourself. Enter, [insert SKZ member - haven't decided whom yet, TBH] and a fluffy, angsty, heartwarming love story ensues.

3) I've always loved the idea of an overprotective younger brother who just wants his beloved sister to be happy and loved (I'm an only child, can you tell?), to stop being that stereotypical selfless noona who sacrifices her happiness for him just so he can be a success story. Maybe her happiness ends up being one of his members, and who cares if he's younger? It'd be an interesting direction, this oneshot or series.

4) What would SKZ be as an overprotective baby brother to his naive older sister?

5) SKZ being overprotective brothers of a member's noona, who's always looking out for them and whom they love like she's their own. The main plot being said noona's abusive ex-boyfriend harassing after he had the audacity to cheat on her. It can be a romance trope or just a platonic story, but I'd love for it to be SKZ as SKZ without it being an alternate universe (although an A/U might also work if the storyline is in that direction).

6) Been listening to 'Wow' by 3Racha on repeat and imagining the Noona they refer to is Y/N. Imagine this, you're the new manager that JYP had decided to add on to SKZ's entourage but SKZ don't know it yet. The boys saw you one morning at the nearby cafe and many mornings thereafter, just before you were officially onboarded. There was something about you that caught their attention that Han came up with this song about. Oooh, just imagine the chaos when you're finally introduced to them?! It'd be such a juicy story to read!

7) Am I the only one who's thinking of the backstory of Silent Cry? It's such a beautiful song and I've thought of some that will make a great fiction. My favourite is the one where, in an alternative idol world, you are Han's elder cousin whose family took you in after your parents' death - you're successful in your corporate job, beautiful, curvy and married to your childhood sweetheart; it seemed like you have everything on the surface. But you hide a secret, even from your doting cousin (who's like a baby brother to you) and his members (who love you like their own sister) - your husband is a manipulative, abusive man who had successfully hidden his dark side until a year into your marriage. Your once-natural confidence and bubbly self is now a facade, stripped away as soon as you're home alone; a facade so good, even Han never suspected until the boys dropped by unannounced at your hotel room while you're on a business trip, with the intention of surprising you for your birthday. You were sporting a fading black eye and bruises to your arm, which you tried to hide behind tinted glasses and a bathrobe you'd hastily pulled over your sleeveless top. The events that happened after - Han and the rest of SKZ finding out then working hard to bring you to your senses (in the midst of it, the song Silent Cry was born), finally peeling off society's toxic mindset and stigma of divorce, and liberating you from 2 years of hell. I've had variations where this is a platonic trope, a romantic one with one of the members, or even something in-between that is suggestive of a possible romance between you and one of SKZ. I would be so in-love with this series, I think I'll keep reading and re-reading this; I'm a sucker for sibling love (only child problems) and rescue stories involving a victim who'd usually be so strong (because it shows that anyone can be a victim, so we shouldn't be so complacent of those around us). Anyone willing to take this on?

8) On the way back to your car after a particularly gruelling night shift, you come across a horribly injured man in the back alley. You're a doctor with a strong belief in helping people in need, no matter who they are, and an equally strong belief in doctor-patient confidentiality. Which works well for the injured man because, unbeknownst to you, he's a member of a deadly underground group - the SKZs. He refused help at the hospital you work in, nor at any other hospital, so you made the decision to bring him home to treat his injuries. He's gone 24 hours later with a cryptic'I owe you my life, thank you' note, and that was the end of it. Or so you thought. Since then however, your very normal - very repititive - life has been a series of interesting incidents, including making the acquaintance of your mysterious new neighbour who, for some reason, seems familiar to you.

9) Your younger brother is one of the members of SKZ, and you get along fabulously with him and his group. He may be younger than you but, having lost your parents as teenagers, he has taken it upon himself to be your protector - sometimes even shadowing you on your dates without your knowledge (at the protest of his members because they felt it was a little too much - "Let your sister have some breathing space, for goodness sake, she's not a child!"). You sing really well but have never been interested in the music industry, finding passion in the law and are a successful lawyer. You have been featured in some SKZ and 2PM songs though, the uncredited female voice in some of their popular songs (let's pretend there are such songs). One day, you're pushed to the limelight after the firm you work in successfully saved an orphanage from losing its home (which was donated to them by an anonymous millionaire). You were, of course, the lead lawyer in that case. With that case being in the news constantly, your connection to the music industry (i.e. your brother) and singing talents are revealed. Fellow writers, take this forward however you see fit.

Me: *randomly checking stuff, my mutual list included*

The mutual I was matching with: *is deactivated*

Me: huh

Me: anyone else wants to match with me next?

If I do end up writing and posting this one drabble I have in my mind to my reader blog, no I didn't. You saw nothing. I am not feral.

Nothing

If I do end up writing and posting this one drabble I have in my mind to my reader blog, no I didn't. You saw nothing. I am not feral.

No one:

Tumblr when my WiFi is connected and working perfectly:

MOTHERFU-

If I do end up writing and posting this one drabble I have in my mind to my reader blog, no I didn't. You saw nothing. I am not feral.

If I do end up writing and posting this one drabble I have in my mind to my reader blog, no I didn't. You saw nothing. I am not feral.

...

Excuse me for a moment, this took me completely off-guard ohmygod-

You're one of those amazing writers in my surroundings (actually you might be the first SKZ content creator I ever followed here, so I am a bit shocked, sorry!). What I'm trying to say is that your words have a certain weight to them, even though I am well aware that one must not idolise fellow content creators, no matter how wonderful their works are.

Thank you. It means a lot, to know I'm not alone in this. To be called a writer, by someone who inspired me no less. Really, I mean it.

I am not cut out to be a writer, never was. I don't have a consistent schedule, and the weight of wanting to provide for those few who enjoy my writing crushes me eventually.

I don't know why I decided to be one.

Why the fuck do you see this immediately, girl, you scare me-

If I do end up writing and posting this one drabble I have in my mind to my reader blog, no I didn't. You saw nothing. I am not feral.

If I do end up writing and posting this one drabble I have in my mind to my reader blog, no I didn't. You saw nothing. I am not feral.

No, but it sure as hell helps to build a community. And yes, breaks are vital, but I've been on one since... lemme see. Ah, yes. December 26 :)

Don't get me wrong dear, I know it's only me who can change that fact. Whining about it doesn't help, which wasn't my goal here. It just gets hard to believe I am a good writer when I'm surrounded by amazing authors.

I am not cut out to be a writer, never was. I don't have a consistent schedule, and the weight of wanting to provide for those few who enjoy my writing crushes me eventually.

I don't know why I decided to be one.

my phd supervisor is notoriously lax on fieldwork safety but he’s also 6’7 so it’s like yeah dude no wonder you’ve never had to worry about bears they see you coming and are like oh fuck it’s the slenderman

Minho: See you in hell. Jisung: Uh, are you asking me out on a date? I accept.

- found wanting