RIP Andre Braugher, we will miss you dearly

FUCKING OFFSCREENED?? ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? THE DISREPECT??

Y’all…. I’m at episode 50 of Rusty Quil Gaming, and like

The narrative Alex has created that effortlessly blends fantasy and real life elements, the discussion of morality and what a soul really is, and the inter-party conflict are all so delicious and equal parts harrowing and heartbreaking

Alexander J. Newman is fucking nasty, this man wrote some EXCELLENT body horror. 10/10 freak and I love him

ggGODDD i just finished sonic prime season two and I am LOSING MY MIND !!!!!

more under the cut yall im going crazy. none of this is coherent.

ok right off the bat get the shippy stuff out of the way. sondread divorce. rip all yall who shipped them </3

on the other hand though, MORE SONADOW as well as some quality knuxouge moments. THEYRE DOING THIS ON PURPOSE I SWEAR TO GODDD.... literally no straight explanation for this

(pardon me using someone elses' screenshot, i do not know how to get screengrabs off netflix just yet.)

also sonknux crumbs. they're in love guys i swear.

okay im done being gay it's time for the plot. IM SO FUCKING DEVESTATED ABOUT THE SONIC AND NINE ANGST,,,,, i knew it was coming but still ugh :'[[ my heart. i just want them to be happy sega PLEASE.

the high five and the hug TOOK ME OUT. i literally crumpled they are brothers your honor.

tbh i was so hyped when chaos sonic (i believe that's what they're calling him?) showed up, but overall i was just more annoyed by him than anything (which is likely the whole point!!) i was honestly just too eager to get back to the rebels and dread, to be honest. ill probably like him more upon rewatch.

RUSTY AND BLACK ROSE BROTP I DIDNT KNOW I NEEDED THUS UNTIL NOW....... rusty learning to value herself through her bestie,, :'] i hope they both beat the fuck out of dread.

honestly im still a tad disappointed that shadow cant enter the shatterspaces, tho. i would've KILLED to see him and sonic go through them together. the fights, the character interactions, THE POTENTIAL. all lost, im afraid.

this is all so chaotic but just. in conclusion i hope nine and sonic can find a middle ground not just for the sake of the universe, but my heart :[ i cant wait for more shadow, as well, and crossovers between the different shatterverses. this has all been a massive step up from season 1 (which was already super solid) and i just cant wait to see what happens next !! i wonder if the grim is really as empty as nine believes.....

season 3 could NOT come out sooner !!!!

Why am I actually devested?? Like they were the favorites to win it all, how did they choke so badly?? And tbh this was probably their last real shot at the cup for a while

it is okay to be upset, devastated, and it’s okay to be mad! we appreciate the season they gave us and the memories made, we will be in the history books forever and there will never be another team like this

we faced a lot of adversity both at the start of the season, and in this playoff series mainly in regards to injuries and illness. it’s almost like they wanted it so bad they lost themselves and what made us so successful all year in the process

i’m going to choose to believe in more opportunities for them, we have a formidable core and incredible leadership. even though it may not feel like it now, everything will be okay and the team and fans will get through this

HELP HELP HELP

OKay so yall i went to delete a side blog turns out it was my main. NEWAYS  if you were following   @till-the-moon-calls-me-home

 then please please PLEASE know that I AM SO SORRY AND I AM SO DEVESTATED ABOUT THIS. 

if you were following any of my writing. just know that like FUCK i hate this and i had so many drafts and i wanna die. especially if you were following tripple frontier, Peaky Blinders or my Batman series YO IM CRYING. ANYWAYS...UHM I dunno im feeling lost and like throwin myself off a bridge tbh.  

SO if you were following any of those stories, uhm thank you so much for reading my writing and bearing with me through rewrites and stuff. I never thought this would or could happen but it did. I love you guys so much. 

hi soph

how devestated will i be 30 mins into this bc it’s coming out at 10 am my time if ur still planning for 8 and i have a ballet class at 10:30

Tbh probably not gonna be out by 8 But I feel like the first half is pretty sweet? Idk that might be incorrect I mean it's also sad But sweet?

i know you wrote it a while ago but im OBSESSED with the idea of a chainsaw man tlt au please grace us with that marvel

aaahhhaha thank you!! i have somewhat abandoned those doodles due to insecurity over my own drawing ability but i am SO happy that someone else likes the idea!

sorry for the late response i just had to sit on this and then very messily type up all my current thoughts (spoilers for both part 1 of csm and general tlt spoilers)

John Gaius as some sort of Makima role, obviously. manipulative, groomer, the whole nine yards. etc etc. harrow should get to eat him.

Gideon makes a contract with Harrow, at some point, when both their backs are against a wall. "ill give you my heart, in exchange come find me and remind me of who i was" anyway i think Harrow in every universe needs to be beset by the trauma of Gideon sacrificing herself for her. this could be a fun way to integrate Kiriona Gaia into it. Harrow goes to hell to find Gideon and remind her of who she was.

as much as I love Denji and Gideon parallels, i do see Gideon as a fiend in this AU. partly bc i really think Gideon needs to devestate harrow/save her life with a contract. but also bc weird golden eyes, check. weird head, also check (dunks on readheads sorry dslkjdlsk). maybe the dead body she's posessing knew Harrow briefly as kids back before she died, and then they meet again way later when they get teamed up. Gideon remembers Harrow briefly through her body's memories.

I see Harrow as a devil hunter in the kind of Deji role of uh getting massivly taken advantage of by John :(.

her whole family has a contract with the Bones devil or something like that but in SECRET that's like mostly a cover for how they also have a contract with some Unpeakable, Horrific, etc devil that they allow to posess them to prevent it from running amok or something. Harrow halucinates The Body as per usual

when harrow was 10 her parents killed themselves because Harrow got too close to the Unspeakable Horror they have a contract with. Harrow had to make another contract with another terrible devil to make it seem like her parents are alive, or something

idk i just think *slaps harrow* this bitch can fit so many contracts in her and all of them are terrible for her, but like, none of them fatal. she's just very juicy to devils. like how the future devil just wanted to live in aki's eye, some devils are just down to Be Around Her bc her life sucks and they think it's entertaining. so maybe that's why she's such a wet rat of a person i.e. she gave her physical strength and vitality in exchange for something or w/e.

ianthe and corona are pulling the same con as always. maybe corona is the opposite of juicy to devils and they just Dont want to make contracts with her. so ianthe does it all. everyone else is like "why doesnt the fox devil let corona use his head? she's hot?" but in reality ianthe is the one w the contract and the fox devil does not think she is hot. so she gets a foot. maybe babs is a fiend they somehow convinced to do everything fotr them? idk. it would be funny.

jeannemary and issac have to die tragically. sorry it's just their narrative role.

dulcinea/anyone from the 7th house made a contract with some sort of sickness devil that they let live in them and infect them in exchange for using the devil's powers. it's like, a family thing so dulcie didn't get much of a choice in the matter.

haven’t thought a bunch about the others but i think judith and marta both have fox devil contracts. marta gets the head. judith has a foot or something. camilla is contracted with the knives devil or something.

maybe the lyctors are like the weapon devils? hmm. have not thought in depth abt that tbh

palamades ghost devil contract or something like that

this is basically an exercise is like, how can i make all the tlt characters who die in canon, die very tragically in my au. it’s abt themes

the resurrection beasts are like the darkness devil. still in hell because they’ve never once been killed etc. 

Putting this under the cut as its kind of Rebirth spoilers? But...maybe not? Since everyone's already seen the scene in Remake I suppose. I dunno, just to cover my ass I'm sticking it under a cut. There is a lot of talk about real person death, so if that's not for you, don't read.

So in Rebirth we get the 'joy' of reliving Ifalna's death scene. So, there I am, playing the game, enjoying myself and having a good ol' time when bam! I get to remember that I also no longer have a mother. So...fun times. People say that crying is healthy blah blah but seriously, it gets boring and I hate it. I do not enjoy feeling like shit lol. Grief is awful and I don't reccomend it. Does it ever go away? Probably not, its been years since my mum died and its still there. I know Cloud's mum dies too, but it doesn't bother as much as Ifalna's, I think maybe thats because of the context surrounding it tbh, you're so taken up with the burning of Nibelheim, its not as impactful as a small child sobbing over her mum's corpse. It probably also doesn't help that Mother's day wasn't that long ago and neither was the anniversary of my mum's death? Makes it that much closer I suppose. And my mum's birthday is due soon...just genrally a bad time of year for it lol. On the subject of parent deaths in Rebirth: Nanaki's dad...now I cried so hard in the OG during that scene. When all you hear is the soft music and that mournful howl, its devestating but Rebirth was eh about it. They could, and should, have done that better tbh. Og's version was way better, the lack of voices was way more impactful.

I decided

I'm taking a gap year to take a break from literally everything in my life that I have going on. I want to stay off socials but I'll probably fail because i'm gonna keep checking my dms in the hopes that she's gonna talk to me again. I'm gonna work, maybe travel and visit Mikey in Canada, work on myself, I want to experience life a little after all i've been through. Just wished it was her i'd be visiting instead of Mikey tbh

I got a job offer from my friend, i'm definitely taking that.

She won't talk to me, vanished without a trace, which for some reason hurts me even more than my breakup with my abusive ex. I'm so stupid that if she would hit me up even after a few months i'd probably just let her back in without a doubt. What did I do for her to straight up disappear after she said she'd work on communicating, and then poof gone. I never really cared about the fact that someone dropped me but she truly made me feel a connection, and reassured me there was one. She said we started talking for a reason after 6 years of not doing so, and that makes it hurt even more because it feels so empty. I never let my happiness depend on someone else but she truly made me believe it was worth it.

I don't know what i'm gonna do yet, and I don't know how it's gonna work out, but I need to start healing from everything that's happened the past 10 years.

As stupid as it sounds, I don't even think I want to talk to any girl but her. I hope it's just her trying to sort her feelings out and telling me how she feels after that, but my anxiety is not allowing me to think that's gonna happen because who am I even? I don't even think i'm worth it, why would anyone else think so. The universe is giving me signs that my stay is short, maybe I should listen to it since everything else in my life is starting to crumble away

Failing school, dropping out for a year, my music career was a fucking flop, my friends are dying around me, the friends I do still have probably feel like i'm a bummer now when they don't know I had a suicide attempt that changed me, but look at me feeling like I'm unworthy because she hasn't talked to me in 2 weeks.

If she would have told me she didn't want to talk to me for any reason it would have been easier for me to let go of it. I might have been devestated but at least I'd know, but now it feels so unresolved. Does she really not like me anymore? Even if she wanted to just stay friends i'd be okay with that but shit, now i'm just hurt from all my insecurities seemingly being proven right.

Again, I really have to work on myself. Maybe one day i'll deserve her, but it seems highly unlikely because what do I deserve?

My meds aren't working because it seems like i've been spiraling even more, which isn't even surprising given that the past 3 weeks have literally been hell for me with everything going wrong in everything I do.

I hope my gap year is going to help me, I really do.. Because I just feel so lost. The one thing I don't feel lost about is how I feel about her, but everything else around me right now just has me on the verge of breaking down. It's like the universe is testing my patience and it's a losing game

"It felt like fiction"

Well boy howdy phil do I have a startling revelation for you! You see it all starts with drugs-

sjkhfkjdhsf okay gonna answer these below the cut so spoilers for son of the ashes

chommmmmy :( he is just a little guy he has no idea that his dad just came back from destroying an empire

bit and main and kill I agree and support you

tehe :]

yesss I was so excited to write his breakdown cry old man cry!!! too little too late but EHEHHEH

well. now who am I without my angst

ahhh you've regressed, phil's regressed :D lets put him in a paint shaker and see if some emotions come out

you did it! you broke son of the ashes down to its bare essentials sjfghf so true I love this

whoops lemme just *makes sota!phil a little more messed up as a treat*

now now....

okay well in actuality I did try to like hint that this has happened before and is a thing but tbh its pretty rare so like. wilbur is one of like 46 jesus-es

:D ahhh devestation the ideal emotion to come out of a fic with

wilbur my wilbur he's a little dumb but he's also just a little guy and who deserved none of this oohhhhh

losing it over your phil paragraph sdklgj I will shake him just for you <3

chommmyy and rnabbbb they're just little guys do you think they would have been friends in any other world

sneeg and techno are having the best time at the bar. they're a little confused when they get back to world to find wilbur decidedly not dead but its fine

also so glad rao's hot vibes translated well enough. her and phil's dynamic should be read as wet pathetic little man and hot egotistical big woman

:] I'm really glad you liked it ember!!

Well. I have the worst luck in the world and this weekend is a fucking write off. I just got scammed when trying to get a travel visa sorted and what should have cost me 15 bucks they charged me 99 and there's nothing I can do about it sadly and I've had such a stressful and frustrating week that I really just want to cry tbh. Everything sucks.

Hhnng. Wooow is dawn of a doom keeping me on the edge of my seat

Looked at the tags, since you mentioned them a few asks ago and now with this new chapter, i am *seething* with rage at local POS anakin. Just the way you are describing the sheer innecessity of that slaughter is devestating

Also, ugh sure Granta. You dont care aboit the lil jedi at ALL. Thats surely why you accomodate her at every sec lol. From headscarf, to being glad she doesnt see the body at the end, very unattached there buddy

And speaking of Barris, shes such a sweetheart. I love the way youre writing her here :)

Granta is basically just going "I am doing this for SELFISH purposes, all of this is in the name of my OWN GOALS" very loudly and making aggressive eye contact with the people around him as he wraps Barriss up in his own coat and makes her tea. Tbh I think it's one of my favorite platonic relationships I've written, because it's just - it all starts because Barriss is kind to someone she has no reason to be kind to, and it's just. good.

Y'know, I can understand wanting season 1!Chloé to be humiliated and brought down a peg.

I do not understand why anyone would want Chloé to be alone and unloved after watching the Queen's Battle Trilogy.

I am frankly disturbed by people who want this canonically FOURTEEN YEAR OLD CHILD to continue suffering under her abusive mother because "Reconciling with her abuser wasn't enough for her to clean up her act" not realizing that, y'know, she was TOLD not to clean up her act because "Hey, you NEED to be mean and spiteful if you want your mom to love you! Your class's 'everyday Ladybug' even ENCOURAGED you to continue emulating your abuser's behavior so she'd stop abusing you!"

...

In hindsight, she basically gave Chloé the equivalent of the "High Road" advice so many people want to burn Adrien at the stake over, and yet she doesn't get anywhere NEAR as much hate for it. Strange, isn't it?

Oh I have ABSOLUTELY gone off before on how Salters write Adrien as some kind of victim blaming abuse apologist by twisting his words to their extremes while Marinette has CANONICALLY done that shit(and worse considering she berated Chloé for going back to being mean).

I do attribute this to Marinette being naive instead of malicious, of course. But that's a different discussion.

But yeah. Season 1 Chloé is definitly the typical mean girl who needs to be taken down a peg.

But even then we got scenes of her being vunerable! Chloé helping Adrien get to go to school in the first place in Origins, her Akumatization and genuinely fixing things with Sabrina in Antibug, her being devestated in Volpina when Gabriel takes Adrien out of class.

Season 2 gave us even more! And I'm not just talking about the Queen's Battle!

Despair Bear showed that she did genuinely care about Adrien, but also that she clearly has no idea /how/ to be nice. Zombizou had her own up to her mistakes and apologize, while also forshadowing Audrey's awfulness.

And then yeah we get The Queen's Battle Trilogy!!!

Seeing the emotional abuse from Audrey. Chloé having a whole ass breakdown. Chloé having a second break down in Malediktator and trying to leave. People bash Adrien for not being happy during the party but he has a fucking point about "she's clearly hurt enough to leave ths country I'm worried about her". And Chloé becomes a Hero for real! Then does it again in Catalyst/Mayura.

And also! In Catalyst/Mayura, what was it that got Chloé Akumatized into Scarlet!Queen Wasp? Her family being hurt and Akumatized by Hawkmoth.

Season 3, barring Miracle Queen, also gave us great moments. Miraculer was wild!! Chloé was the first person to fight of Akumatization once she'd already been infected, and talked back to Hawkmoth! And she accepted being benched with grace!

Startrain had her take control of the situation as the most qualified person! All without a Miraculous!

But then MQ and Season 4 happened.

But tbh??? Even in Season 4, Chloé is a traumatized 14 year old!! Yes, she needs someone to tell her that what she's doing isn't okay. But some people just get.... Awful!!

Tbh I feel the same about all the kids even Lila. I mean, yeah I've written fics where Lila is arrested for the shit she pulls but she's also just sent to juvie and given a therapist. Not like. Murdered or ruined for life.

Bigger version up on dA because Tumblr made me squash this a couple times

OKAY SO I've actually had this done for *checks timestamp* two months and I've just been too lazy/nervous/weird to actually upload it even though I'm more proud of it than anything I've done in a long time. and it was a SLOG. I did the initial drawing and inking on some special fancy paper that's supposed to be specifically for markers and brags about how ink does bleed through, only to find out the reason ink doesn't bleed through is that it doesnt soak IN to the paper at all but just sits ON TOP and so trying to blend on it literally Did Not Work. I was gd DEVESTATED and then my friend was an absolute angel and bought me a little light table thing so I could trace the sketch on to heckin normal paper and actually color it, but the sketch was Slightly Larger than average paper size so I had to get BIG PAPER. So I actually get it done, and I love it, and I'm more proud than I've been in a long time because I actually produced a Full Illustration. A Full Illustration that is Slightly Too Large to fit into my scanner. SO this is actually me having to scan the darned thing twice and merge the two images. A N Y WAYS; Yes I know The Magnus Archives just had their grand finale , and here I am celebrating with art of season 3. (TBH I havent finished s5 yet, pandemic downer vibes, waiting to be in a better headspace ect ect) In my defense in spirit I am still back in s3 with the manic pixie dream mannequin who stole my heart. Nikola is flawless and, no, I will not be taking questions at this time. Nikola Orsinov (+Sarah Baldwin, Breekon + Hope, The Anglerfish, the choir, NotThem) from The Magnus Archives

Oooh! Can I get your opinion on my signs? I’m a Leo sun, a Libra moon, and a Scorpio rising!

Yeah, of course~~ ;-) Oh, the leo sun and scorpio rising must be an interesting twist! Initially I thought ‘omg, I wonder how it works together’. Also, I am very excited to comment on a libra moon! Hmm, it’s like the confidence of a leo can make you really arrogant but tbh I see that as a good thing, it’s like ‘I’m the best’ and if you believe it then you surely are! I imagine you are naturally dominant like with taking roles or initiative when you need to, that’s the addition of the scorpio onto an already powerful leo. You’re really unpredictable and your actions may seem unexpected to those who don’t know you well. 2nd also, you don’t share your emotions easily, do you? I really am amazed at how well the leo and scorpio combo must work for you, you can easily convince people that you are right because of your enthusiam and ability to believe in yourself! You do not shy away from conflicts and are able to entertain those around you really well. You know yourself really well, it's only a given since you're so in touch with your emotions! With your libra moon, I have to ask, are you indecisive? I feel like a libra’s ability to see both sides of a situation can cause them a lot of confusion. You’re also really compassionate, people are naturally drawn to you because of how sweet a libra’s love is. You’re easy-going and have a clear head for thinking. Libras, in my experience, are happiest with a partner but seperation from that partner can be very devestating for them. However, I think with your independence and confidence you’ll be okay </3