A girl who craved for attention so much

That when she got it from evil and monsters

She accepted it and played along.

A girl who always keep waiting for her knight in armour to save her has changed into the villian of her own story.

A girl whose dreams were crushed by the crucial reality

Anyway nothing matters literally nothing matters literally nothing matters literally nothing matters no matter how much or how long you love someone you will never be happy because YOU are the problem and no one can change that 🙃🙃🙃

Im

Literally also love someone that I can be feral with 💕

Legit if you’re ever stuck for ideas for those two I am incoherently feral for both of them

(I would literally let either of them desecrate me in the most unholy of ways)

-🐌

I have so many requests! Most are Carlos. If you ever want more Leon and want to see me write something specific please go ahead and send it!

Also I am writing a Leon request right now and absolutely losing my shit over it! I am reading my own writing like I am shocked I could write something like that ahahahaha.

why do people do it? i ask, referring to something i’ve done countless times to countless others but now when i’m at the receiving end i can’t puzzle it out at all. why talk about how much you wanted me and then not want me at all? why message me first but never back? but then i’m guilty too. guiltier than most. so why did i do it? i could say - my feelings changed. i was holding out for something more. i was lonely and bored and they were there. i wanted to know if i could. i wanted to know if i wanted to. i didn’t see you as a person that could get hurt bc i didn’t think you cared: because i didn’t care. i try to apply my own heartlessness to others and i come away thinking : no, it’s not possible. how could anyone be so cruel?

i definitely could've fought this thing better, but I genuinely feel very upset that I lost this run! i played pretty well the entire time and just lost bc i got bad luck at the final cultist encounter :/

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

see 0 note flop posts aren't that bad when they're personal but 0 note fandom posts feel literally so bad. like if you don't wanna play toys with me anymore just say that. i'll pack up my super cool awesome things and go and i'll sit on the other side of the playground by myself and i won't even look at you. fuck

(after misunderstanding what someone said and embarrassing myself) oh great now they hate me and want to kill me with rocks

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FORTY THOUSAND NOTES OLIVE OSTROVSKY????

When you’re trynta be cool with your crush but she’s a freaking smokeshow 😩🪦

does anyone have like an anti aesthetic. like something you look at and can recognize as a complete fashion/interior design/artistic movement and understand it but it makes you shudder seeing it. i am not talking like “its morally bad” “its poorly structured” like just sheerly devoid of joy for you actually invites a repulse response.

Accessibility tip:

If you want to automate your home a bit, but you don't want any "smart" tech, you can just buy remote controlled power sockets instead

They are a lot cheaper and easier to set up and use than some home automation smart tech nonsense

They don't need an app (but some models come with optional apps and there are apps that are compatible with most of these)

Many of them use the 433mhz frequency to communicate, which makes most models compatible with each other, even if they are from different manufacturers

The tech has been around for a long time and will be around for a long time to come

You don't have to put any fucking corporate listening devices like an amazon echo in your home

Models for outdoors exist as well

for anyone too young to know this: watching The Truman Show is a vastly different experience now, compared to how it was before youtube and social media influencers became normal

before it was like, "what a horrifying thing to do to a human being! to take away their autonomy and privacy, all for the sake of profits! to create fake scenarios for them to react to, just to retain viewership! to ruin their happiness just so some corporate entity could harvest money from their very humanity! how could anyone do something so evil?"

and now it's like, "ah, yeah. this is still deeply fucked up, but it's pretty much what every influencer has been doing to their kids for a decade now. probably bad that we've normalized this experience"

The butch lesbian/trans man "funky printed button down" stereotype is true but you must understand that the men's section of so many clothing stores is a bleak and miserable place. Clothing manufacturers are simply convinced that no one who wears men's clothes wants anything besides the most boring outfits possible. Often stripes are the most exciting it gets. If you want to wear clothing designed for men but happen to like "color" and "joy" in your life then often the funky printed button down or the hawaiian shirt are simply your only options, especially off the clearance rack.