Being frozen in time definitely does something to you. Physically it cages you. Mentally it throws you into the longest dream you could ever have. It's not comfortable-- far from it in fact-- but you've grown to look forwards to it, when you loose. It's better than being mashed to dark paste at least.
You're frozen right now, in fact. Waiting in silence for time to loop back. Stuck with your thoughts and a vauge feeling of a dream. The house is around you and you're moving through it. Empty rooms and endless hallways, curling and twisting in ways that make them feel alive despite the lack of any living thing that isn't you. No sad monsters, no frozen bodies, no dark stains. There doesn't seem to be an exit.
The dreams you have when frozen seem to correlate to how you're doing emotionally. Most of them have been lost to time, like most things in your life now. Dreams, wounds, emotional bonds; everything is turning back with you, and that’s started to do something to you, because now you can predict the actions of those around you with quite a bit of accuracy. You can recall little bits of things, but the further back you go is just static. There was a bunch of dumb things that you can’t piece back together anymore, there were times with those you love, there was endless rage flowing through your very being, and there was this. The desperation. The empty halls of the very House you’ve worked so hard to protect.
You want out.
You've kept count of how many times you've been frozen. How many times you've died. How many loops. 61 is the counter and it's far, far too many times to relive the same day over again. You grew tired of the monotony by the tenth go around. Twenty five felt like a stab wound. Forty, like you were being split in two. Big 6-0 felt like drowning. You don't feel real anymore.
But that's fine! You can still see the good in this, if you stretch your imagination like taffy, as far as it'll go. It's better to be just you, just one person, than everyone else! You can live with the weight of the country on your shoulders for a bit longer, if only to keep it off of Euphrasie's. You’re doing this for her! For everyone. You can do it for a bit longer. You just need to find the King’s weakness, or something. Make a more powerful potion, or scrap together the materials to make a second craft bomb, or, or something! You’ll find it soon enough. You’re smart! You can do this!
You have to.
You turn down the hallway. Find yourself on an entirely different floor. Just as much of a ghost town. Just ice and cold and tiredness, your breath forming clouds in the air. That’s fine. This is just a dream or something, anyway. You’ll wake back up at your desk any time, with the looming vials of all sorts of toxic stuff you keep drinking that you crabbing neglected to put away because you didn’t think time would crabbing loop, because realistically, WHY would you assume that would happen? Preposterous! Ignore the burning feeling in your throat and the smell of sugar and push on. Wait for it to start all over again.
Because it has to be you, doesn’t it? You wished for this, or something. You don’t remember. It was a long time ago. It has to be you, because only you have the power. It HAS to be you, because who else would it be? Euphie? She’s already got enough on her hands. Mirabelle? You’d rather die. It’s better you do this than the ones you love.
It has to be you.
it has to be you it has to be you it has to be you it has to be you it has to be you it has to be you it has to be you it has to be
It's sucks, having to be the one to do it. Your limit was a long time ago.
You can't do this forever.
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Attempting to make adas polo and realizing a few important lessons
I don’t know how to parboil rice
If a recipe calls for 3 C of rice…use 3C rice
Big vibes of “this is intermediate, I’m a beginner”
I am a coward (see image below)
[ALT ID: A screenshot of a recipe that reads “Test by licking your finger and quickly tapping near the base of the pot.”]
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Hey y'all! My brother and I have both been experimenting with cooking new things and could use some advice.
Right now I'm mostly looking for savory spice mixes that include nutmeg, but if you have other spice combos you like to use together when cooking savory foods I'd love to hear them!
I have my go-to handful of spices I like to use together for like desserts, but not so much for savory? I'm mostly just following recipes, and I'd like to know some more spice combos that work well together for when I want to improvise or expand on recipes
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holy shit i think i just cooked one of the worst pastas of my life. it's so wet and sloppy and i underestimated how much i put in the pot so i'll have to eat this sad beige slop for like a week until it's over
on the other hand: i also cooked the best minced meat i have ever put my hands upon. i feel like god itself guided my hands in the preparation of this dish. so i think they balance each other out at least
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my roommate cooking: follows the recipe to the letter, goes out of the way to get the exact ingredients a recipe needs, can easily deal with two different things cooking in two different pots
me cooking: using 5 different substitions, "eh I can eyeball it", in a constant state of panic as I desperately try to prevent my food from burning
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I posit cooking dinner at home for people as some sort of quaint tender thing....really i just can't afford to go out. I'd rather share and feed all of us for a few dollars than go blow $20 on one fucking chipotle bowl in this stupid baka economy
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Fact the 1st- Lance is at his most competent when the train is going completely off the rails. He is adaptable, creative, flexible, and easily fits into any role he is given. If anything or everything goes sideways you can 100% depend on him to carry through. He is jack of all trades and is at his best under pressure
Fact the 2nd- Lance fucks up the most when he is trying to impress someone. All his braincells as well as any eye-to-hand coordination fucking die when he is around someone whom he really wants to be proud of him. He's the "This one is to end racism" vine guy. The higher the pedestal the person is put on, the more likely he is to screw up.
Conclusion- Lance and Shiro have tried cooking together once which ended in such a disaester that the kitchen was practically unusable for weeks. Shiro is convinced Lance cannot cook at all, while Hunk who has seen Lance prepare a 3 course meal on a $10 budget is convinced that the disaester was Shiro's fault thus quietly banning him from the kitchen since.
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v/m/s siblings... something something vanya is a mob boss and he + milo use the business front as their base and sasja cooks.......... it should be a fake front restaurant instead, real mob style. you go in theres no menus the chef comes out and yells at you before asking about allergens and then fucking off. fifteen minutes later yoire eating the best meal of your life. the cook brings out a take out box of dessert and tells you to fuck off and not come back
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