Uhhhh...ANYWAYS

Your hcs are so on point! good job op!! could you do a real world hc with the main six playing the arcana? mc being the fictional one, and they caught our reversed ending 😭

Hi! Thanks for requesting I appreciate it! Hopefully this is what you wanted!

Request R open!

Main Six playing the arcana and getting a bad ending!

Also fun fact when I first started playing the arcana stanned asra, hard, and then somehow managed to get his bad ending first, (probably because of my stubbornness) and I never felt more disappointed in my life, so I’m basing these off the pain I felt that one faithfull night.

Asra

He first downloaded the game as a joke, thinking it would be like one of those weird dating simulators (you know the ones) and is pleasntly surprised when he finds out that it isn’t. He’s even more surprised when he starts to get invested in the game, like really invested

He falls in love with your character as soon as he sees it, you’re everything he wants in a relationship, everything he’s dreamed of, he even goes out of his way to buy your charms, and merch, (Muriel makes fun of him for it, but asra feels no shame)

The day finally comes, he’s finally on the last chapter, and he’s almost certain he’s got your good ending, but something feels off. There’s a weird dark undertone that he can’t really shake, but there’s no way he got the reversed ending, he did everything right! Right?

When the reversed ending screen shows up, his heart drops, he goes into a panicked mode trying to figure out where he went wrong, looking up guides and cheats, time traveling to get more keys so he can get a redo, he’ll do anything. Luckily Muriel is there to calm him down and remind him it’s just a game, but that doesn’t stop him from feeling guilty about it, like he did something wrong.

Nadia

Asra somehow managed to convinced her to play it for the story, it catches her off guard when she starts to fall for a fictional character. Very off guard...It takes her a while to admit that she likes your character, so it’s hard to pinpoint where exactly she started to catch feelings, but when she does, finally admit to it, she still tries to push them waaaaay down.

She doesn’t tell anyone, about the game, or about that one character that she really likes, not even Asra, who is the one who got her into this game, everytime he asks how she’s liking it, she’ll simply say “it’s decent” but they both know she’s lying. She’s also too scared to buy merch I case some one were to find it, so she doesn’t but has a deep need too.

She gets very excited when it’s time to get her ending, (a little more excited then she thought she would get,) she’s not too overly confident, she thinks she made one or two wrong choices, but in the end she thinks she made a majority good, right? Right???

Within five minutes of playing the ending, she knows it’s a bad one, there’s no way your LI turning themselves into the devil is a good ending...but then again... she’s not overly disappointed, just a little, shes also not too mad about the bad ending she got.... but all in all she goes back to redo her choices and gets the good eneding. (She found the reverse ending to be more intresting but hey, Beggars can’t be choosers,)

Julian

Portia just wouldn’t shut up about this game, so he decides to give it a go, besides who doesn’t love a cheesy romance story, but then he finds out the story is heavily based on witch craft and Magick and almost deletes the app. Portia some how manages to convince him to keep the app, he falls in love with your character by like the third or fourth chapter.

He thinks your unique, intriguing, he wants to know more about your character so does as much research as he can, and now has a lot of random knowledge about your character. I don’t think he’s the type to buy merch of your character, but he definitely finds it cute.

He’s overalls anxious while playing the game, as soon as it was announced/he found out that there were bad endings, so when it comes time for the ending he is practically sweating, and feels him self on the verge of an anxiety attack for a character of a dating simulator aimed at teenagers and young adults. (Granted Julian should be in his mid thirties atleast)

When he gets your Reversed he feels his heart crush, how could he do this too you, his bad choices got you turned into a damn bird, (or any animal of your choosing) he feels so bad that he catches him self apologizing. Apologizing. He ends up deleting the game because it ended up giving him a lot of stress and anxiety and he can’t mentally go through that again, even if it means getting your upright . (He does go back to get it three months later, because he feels bad and the guilt is eating him alive, then uninstalls it for good.)

Portia

This isn’t her first rodeo. I feel like playing dating simulators is a small guilty pleasure of hers, on the topic she’s lost countless hours of sleep playing mystic messenger, her favorites are yoosung, and jahee, (zen and seven remind her too much of diffrent versions of her brother, jumin grosses her our, and she can’t afford another story.)

She thinks your character is adorable! She falls in love in like the first chapter, you’re just so cute! She most definitely has atleast one charm of you that’s official, the rest of the merch she has of you is from artist from the fandom! (Portia supports small artist the most out of the main six, Asra’s close behind)

She is very confident that she got your upright ending. How could she not? She did every thing the (outdated) guide on Wikipedia said, but when she’s playing your ending something doesn’t feel right...Maybe she read the guide wrong....but those choices felt right....

Gasps, very loudly when she sees the reversed ending screen. She had a feeling, but it still hurt a little bit, it always does, espically when you like a character so much that you go to the wiki to double check your choices. But she tries again anyways and gets your upright ending, (without the wiki) and is very proud of her self

Muriel

Why. He does not see the appeal at all. Why would you dedicate days, weeks, to a fictional character who doesn’t exist and is programmed to fall in love with you. Asra has to bribe him with smoked eel for him to even download it, but when he does indulge in playing it, he starts to see the apeal.

It feels nice to be loved, to be wanted, even if it’s not real, and he likes that about your character, he likes your character a lot. Asra has often caught him smiling stupidly at his phone while he plays the game, he doesn’t like the overly romantic scenes, but the cute cheesy ones are okay. He’s also too ashamed to buy official art, so he draws his own, but doesn’t show it to anyone

Poor man didn’t even know there were bad endings, until asra told him. That’s when things started to go downhill. He went back through the game, replaying old chapters,second guessing his choices, picking the opposite of what he feels is right, because there’s no way what he thinks is right could actually be it, right?

When he gets your reversed ending he feels his heart drop into his stomach, his eyes even start to water, he gets so upset and frustrated that he uninstalls the app, and never reinstalls it. But It’d be bold of you to assume that stops him from drawing fan art.

Lucio

So like, the devs confirmed during one of the “ask the arcana’s” that lucio would be a loud let’s play YouTuber, so It’s bold of you to assume that he wouldn’t play this on his obnoxious YouTube channel because one (1) person requested it on his only fans

He starts out by making fun of the game, very obnoxiously, but suddenly stops making fun of your character, he claims that your character is to “well written” to make fun of, to seem cool, but everyone watching knows that he has a thing for you. His fans even send him official merch or fan art that they made of you’re character because they know how much he likes you. (He keeps all of it but never says thank you)

When it’s time for the endings he is very overly confident, claiming that he knows for a fact that he got the upright ending, that he is 100% sure that he made all the right choices. But in reality he’s just saying that I’m order to convince himself, he’s actually not too sure,

When he gets the reverse ending, he kind of just stares at his phone like a deer In the headlights for a couple seconds, then his twitch stream gets banned from the string of curses he’s letting out because the game is “obviously rigged” and there’s “no way” he deserved to get a bad ending. (He tries to replay the entire route and gets the bad ending again, then just gives up.)

Thanks for reading I hope you liked it!

Next Headcanon: Main six reacting to an Mc with really long hair! (5/19)

Request Are Open! :-)

How do you make your song GIFs?? They are amazing and 10/10 - I have so many ideas but literally no idea how to even start making them

Also all your content is amazing thank youuuuuu

hello ily i am sorry for the late reply but i was like. in love with this msg and re-reading it to make me feel inner joy 🥺

okay i feel like lyric sets are my WEAKEST point of like. making shit. (hence the JOY in reading this msg) but like, i will TRY and remember and tell u what helped me!!

first off all. have IDEAS! which u have, so that's literally amazing and basically the KEY to what u need. just some good solid fucking ideas.

have decided to actually make another lyric set as i type this to jog my memory and hopefully actually help you okay so

1. have your idea!

pick your song!!! pick out the specific lyric(s) that you feel would fit best!!! float through the scenes in your head from the show that you feel would maybe like. match it? or pair well with those lyrics? just like, have an idea that you can VAGUELY visualise!!!

i think i've mentioned it before and talked about it with other lovely billy stans but, sometimes we hear a happy/hopeful song that we wanna slap over some shots of them but like. billy's constantly either in pain or suffering or BOTH? and slapping some tswift lyrics over that just doesn't really work a lot :(

im personally gonna go with almost had me - Iights cos i've been vibing the fuck out of Iights lately

2. pick your scenes!

this is the bit where i either come completely undone and contemplate uninstalling photoshop OR i'm like wow this fits perfectly this is gonna be incredible i'm amazing.

depending on how technical and/or complicated your Vision is, this can be relatively quick or it can be very time consuming. some very talented people out there can do like. the blending and the insane crazy good colouring and the 5 gifs in one canvas etc etc but like. maybe keep it simple for the first couple sets you make until you're happy with your results!!!! just some big gifs with some lyrics over top will look great!!!

i'm technically only gonna use 4 lines from the chorus, not the entire thing, but i'm gonna import like. more than 4 gifs. becos i know myself and sometimes at the end after i've been staring at them for a Very Long Time, i'm like well shit i wanna see what it would look like over THAT scene instead of THIS scene. so usually i import just any scene that i think will work and that way i can play around with it!!

3. cut/colour/sharpen/edit your gifs!!!

i'm assuming that since your asking about lyric sets specifically and not gifs in general, that you already know how to make gifs? if you don't, that's completely okay!!!! there are so so SO many tutorials out there and lots of people willing to help you learn!! between tumblr and youtube, you have a LOT of options <3 i am more than happy to answer any questions you have or make that tutorial for you and technically have a tutorial basically ready to go that i made for a friend a few months ago, but also. as we can see. my tutorials are all over the place, so if you want links to tutorials that are more in depth, i can definitely hunt some down for you!!! here is Gif Making Tutorial but i personally do not do it that way and it seems mildly complicated omg

4. slap those lyrics over top!

okay the heading made it sound simple but it's NOT. becos now, you have to choose FONTS. and fonts, in my personal opinion, are SO hard. literally my weakest point. the amount of lyric sets i have not made simply becos i did not want to deal with Font Dilemmas. luckily, we have masterposts and tutorials from other gifted content makers to help out, thanku to those heroes

talented tumblr users fave fonts list

guide to font pairing masterpost

another talented tumblr users fav fonts

some fonts

more fonts

clubgifs typography tag!

literally just download any font that you even think looks good and before you know it, you'll have plenty to choose from. i have a word document that's just the same lyric repeated over and over and over again but in every single font that i've ever downloaded so that i can see what they all look like and it's easier to choose from when we get to this stage of the gif making process!

you can then play around with colouring and shadowing and strokes and gradients for your text, but like i said before, starting off simple is usually best! and then when you feeling better about it, theres a heap of tutorials out there to help <3

i, myself, decided to experiment with doing the white outline text thing (tutorial!) with unfortunately a not quite detailed tutorial at first and suffered through trying to make that work for like. an hour and a half. before giving up. then after checking for a different tutorial and thankfully finding one that was a LOT clearer, actually got it to work, so that's fucking exciting for me lmao

5. save and post!

you've got your gifs, you've slapped on the text, you've cut and coloured, you're good to go!

Actually I’m not finished I forgot to mention Twitter. I never really had Twitter from the start but I got it back in 2017 to vote for bts at the BBMAs and it’s crazy to see how much they’ve grown since then. But it’s also scary. Cuz their Twitter following has this very sheep like attitude. And to see so many people hop on the same bandwagon and follow bts blindly is too much. The fan wars get so ugly sometimes and no one can handle any criticism towards their faves for some reason. If a kpop idol so much as breathes near another idol, all sorts of shipping starts. I sometimes see old videos of kpop idols interacting with one another like the old ISACs and the atmosphere was so much better. And people do all sorts of things to chase clout. The whole stan culture is really toxic like it is your duty to stream, vote and like everything they do or you’re not a real fan. Is it really a flex to say that you stayed up 12 hours a day for 2 days to watch old concerts?? Or that you bought so and so merch and now you’re broke? I dunno man it’s just horrifying to see that. I’m not saying all but a lot of these fans are quite young still, and as one of the younger generations, we feel entitled of the fact that we’re more aware of social issues and that we’re more ‘woke’. But from a distance, all I see is people following each other blindly, thinking they’re doing something good, which some of them probably do, but its just a hot mess. I imagined bts getting big around 2018 so I wasn’t actually surprised when they kind of exploded globally. Bighit was doing everything right and they were releasing good catchy music again and again - they had the momentum. But I never realised the consequences. I remember once in 2016 I said to my friend, I don’t want them to become mainstream. And this guy on my table (xenophobic as hell and hated bts) starts teasing me about how I want to be quirky and don’t want to listen to mainstream music. But really I was afraid of what’s happening today. And it’s scary to see it come true. But then again some good did come out of it. It was amazing to see how armys have helped several causes and used bts as role models in a positive light. But I don’t think I can take it anymore. I just want to leave but it’s like my brain is hoping for something to change. I also feel this guilt for leaving with bighit/ Hybe & bts always promoting this army forever message. My brain acknowledges that it’s being manipulated into feeling this but it still gets attached. Stupid brain.

i actually have developed a theory on why bts blew up when they did and the factors are all there and i'm almost 90% sure this combination is the only reason they became as big as they are. not saying they don't deserve it but out of all the groups and all the artists globally i kinda feel like they were the ones that got it for some very simple reasons.... we will never know for sure though. it's true what people say, hitting the fame jackpot is about 10% talent and 90% sheer luck. bts were very lucky and very blessed and i'm sure they don't take that luck for granted ever.

also i'm sorry to hear you feel this way and it's clear to me you should take a step back and distance yourself from bts because it's not something you're enjoying anymore. you're not a fake fan or disloyal for walking away from this. kpop stanning IS exhausting. it has a lot of disadvantages specially to people who (for lack of a better term) have nothing better to do.... it fills up a void where there should be a sense of personal accomplishments. the parasocial aspect of stanning is a really big part of this whole thing so you should do whatever you feel is right for you deep in your heart, even if it's hard. something as easy as uninstalling an app or deactivating an account helps tons. you can still like bts and enjoy their music without investing such a big part of your life on it AND being unhappy on top of it.

me personally i am actually happy when i criticize stuff lmao that's how my mind works and that's how i enjoy and engage in fandoms so i'm satisfied with the way i stan bts for now. but if it ever becomes too much i'm out of here life is too short to feel like you owe anyone and specially men who don't know you something

#julianablogs

It has been a very long while.

I must say that this has been one of my safe personal space online. Somewhere I can find peace and calm. A place where i can pour out my feelings and what I think, look back when I feel like it and when I actually need some words to hear. 

My other blogs has been a great help to me. It reminds me of what I told myself months before when I feel down, powerful, happy and contented. Of how far I have been.

Today marks my fifth day of having a social media detox. Almost a week without the constant social media apps I always visit, the ones that takes my time and scars me. I just want to get rid of the toxicity it brought me. Since the pandemic, I relied on social media to entertain myself. I watched Korean dramas, finished a couple of Grey’s Anatomy seasons, and watch YouTube videos. 

but because I was in need of entertainment, I was not able to see how much it affects me. How it takes away my confidence, made me insecure and pitied myself, how it took away my peace of mind even more.

For nine straight whole months, I haven’t gotten my peace of mind back. And I unconsciously thought I got it back and it slowly fades away again. So it’ll be hard to say but:

I have come this far, but I am starting again.

I am restarting my life. 

I started my detox after BTS released the newest album and even if I am not in social media, I am still supporting them. I guess it’s that time where i am jealous of those people who can buy what they want. It’s normal to feel that way, but three are those days that no matter how many times you tell yourself that one day you can buy those things once you work hard and earn money, it doesn’t work.

So, I began by unfollowing people on my Twitter Stan account and Instagram account. Then I uninstalled those apps. Second, I unfriended people on my Facebook account, left groups and unlike pages that doesn’t really helps me or makes sense at all. There was a lot of digital decluttering. I deleted unnecessary pictures on my gallery and backed them up. 

I am one of those people who takes screenshots a lot. All my favorite quotes from movies or series I watched, I got them layout and I placed them in my google drive. 

I watched a lot of grey’s anatomy and by today, i have finished until the latest  uploaded episode of season 17.Whenever I feel down about my dreams. Of doubting if I am still sure if I want to be a doctor because it sure is a vv long way, I watch grey’s anatomy or any medical dramas that will ignite the fire inside me. to make sure the dream is still there. 

I have made covers for my first ever series that will be called: Pirates Series. It’s a trilogy entitled Captain of the Sky, Sail to the Moon and Steady as she Goes, respectively.

Apparently, it appears that my insecurity that I have been battling for years is still present in my writing. I keep on doubting my works and been focused on the numbers, I want it to grow too much that I forgot how writing actually feels like. How having a genuine reader is more important than the numbers. 

I am trying to take it back, my peace for writing. 

This will be a never-ending battle of hustling and unwinding. The important things is to know when to take a break. Sometimes we tend to turn a blind eye about all these feelings we have just because we have work to do. But this time, I would not lose myself in the process. 

I will take back what’s mine. 

Or if not, if the time come that I cannot take it back. 

God, will renew my peace of mind. That I am sure of. 

Another reminder, Ila.

Top 10 Things You Shouldn’t Do If You Want to Finish Your Thesis On Time

It’s my entry for September! I’ve been busy in consuming new music, films, and kvariety episodes in my effort to catch up on everything. So, I decided to post monthly to fulfill my oversharing Tumblr needs and to exercise my skills in writing in English and putting thoughts into coherent words.

TL;DR of this: things I’ve done instead of doing my thesis for the past year and a half. I’m not romanticizing my not doing thesis self for the past 21 months, but I’m also not dissuading you from doing other stuff besides thesis because god knows, you will need something.

1. Got a part-time job. This was the first new thing I’ve done that really took my time and effectively gave me no time to do thesis. And yet, this was the most rewarding thing as I learned how to get my TIN, accomplish my deliverables, answer to my superiors etc. Looking back, I wasn’t the best employee and I deserved no job offers on the same company after. But still, it was a stepping stone in the right direction. Adulting-wise, anyway.

2.  Discover the art of creating.

Journal spreads. I bought a 2019 planner and I couldn’t fill it up, so I decided to turn it into a journal-planner. The art materials I used for to design pages are from old supplies bought back when I was in high school or stickers from the fandom-related events I attended. I didn’t spend money and I was given a chance to be creative.

Sew doll clothes. In K-pop, dolls that look like your idol exists. It usually comes with one set of clothes to dress it. As a “doll mother”, I wanted to dress them with new clothes but buying clothes was expensive. So, I just sewed clothes for them. I made clothes from scrap fabrics or clothes no one wears in our household. I’ve been barely successful, but it’s one of the things that keep me happy and make me feel like I’ve succeeded in one measly part of my life.

3. Purged my online files.

From my high school files. Nostalgia has been one of my coping mechanisms. I was able to be provided by lots of it when I discovered that I didn’t lose my high school files and it was on my mom’s laptop all along. Being able to relive memories while organizing my files was the best hours of that day.

To my external hard drives. Since 2016, I have been a hoarder of online files for so long that I have two EHDs to prove it. This time though, I was able to delete content that was either repetitive or uninteresting anymore. I was able to shave off some of my data bytes and am now able to save new interesting content available online (if I ever find one).

4. Realigned my priorities and consumption of K-pop as a stan and as a person by:

Selling 3/4 of my merch. Unlearning the pride that comes with owning K-pop merch was difficult, but overtime, I have been proud of myself for not falling to the traps of capitalism—at least in K-pop. Also! I was able to buy my own concert tickets with the stuff I sold so it is a win!

Joining giveaways instead. No matter how I can avoid the urge to buy K-pop merch, I still can’t help but want to own them. This is where I discovered how joining giveaways was my next best option. It takes a lot of effort and screenshots to win these things. However, if and when you win, it really feels like winning against the odds. You get free merch too!

Actually spent hours to vote and stream. In relation to the last point, since the main requirement in giveaways I’ve joined are voting/streaming proofs, I have been one of those people who collects points on voting apps or has a playlist of music videos that should be streamed. After collecting and/or streaming, I take screenshots, put watermarks there, and tags mutuals if needed. It’s relatively hard work but there’s a feeling of pride when your idol wins the poll or an MV reaches a certain amount of views and you know you participated in making that happen.

5. Rediscover Youtube. Channels like the vlogbrothers and their associates (Crash Course, Pemberley Digital among others), Buzzfeed’s shows (The Try Guys, Ladylike, Buzzfeed Unsolved) were a delight to watch after being out of the Youtube loop for so long. The platform also offered new niches of content and I allowed myself to be sucked in it. From Simply Nailogical to Ask A Mortician to amazing pop culture video essays like Lindsay Ellis and Jenny Nicholson, Youtube has all it for you! Learning something new every day is one of my favorite things and I get to do it with this website.

6. Rediscover my love of writing. (As if I’ve written anything for my thesis but here.)

Made drabbles. There is a weekly activity on my fandom where we write < 500 word drabbles on any pairings. I have been joining when I can, and through the support of the (small) community (back then), I gained confidence to write one. I’ve written at least four now and I’ve not done yet because I’ve been on a slump lately. But I’ll get back to it soon!

Short story. The same account that brought the drabble challenge created a festival where we write a pairing and write a short story with it. I decided to join the event! Not going to lie, my entry was shit, It was the first draft, it needed a lot of revisions and more constructive criticism and yet, I am still proud of it. It was the first creative fiction I wrote since 2019 and I did it in a day. And, I believe it has potential, so I’m going to review and revise the hell out of it someday.

7. Reclaim my college days.

Reconnected with orgmates. Visiting Elbi for registration and consultation purposes are brightened up by the fact that I get to do this. My first four years of college were not kind to me. I’ve forgotten a lot of things because of trauma and deep sadness that I still have until this day, and when I remember good things, they’re few and far in between. The numbered days I was in Elbi during 2019 were also few and far in between, but they were infinitely better than my academic years from 2015 to 2017. I was able to do the things I wasn’t able to do before (mostly attending Happy Ts and eating in newly-opened food places there) and I get to do it with people I love.

Made friends. One of the drawbacks of being a slot-driven student with no care of my coursemates’ schedules: I didn’t get to establish a friend group. So I didn’t get to make friends. During this time, I’ve accepted that I didn’t have any friends outside my organizations. But this time, instead of a feeling of dread of being that cliché orgmate, I feel relief and happiness because now, I realize that I do have friends from college, unlike the 2015-2017 who didn’t have anyone in college to rely on her darkest times.

8. Appreciated my friends more. For the past few years, I was the shitty friend. I agreed to go on hangouts only to message them that I’m backing out the last minute—sometimes I even straight up ghosted them. I really took my friends for granted. I have been slowly making it up to them by always attending when there’s an invite! I sometimes initiate the invite and it’s always a fun and healing time for me (it was a literal healing time for me as I was depressed during that time). I love them and I’m always thankful for them—and more so now than before.

 9. Unlearning things like:

Realizing that a priv (a private account meant to be seen by your mutuals you trust; usually contains unpopular opinions and hot takes on stan twitter) only encourages negative emotions and I must not do it again.

No matter how I tried rationalizing my hate for Jennie when the JenKai dating news happened, I was one of those K-pop stans who hated her because she dated my idol. (I have moved on past that and have started liking her and Rose.)

Knowing that attacking people for what they say won’t make them unlearn their wrong opinions. Not talking down at them and educating with patience is the key, always.

There are still so much more I unlearned and learned where those came from. My main takeaway is: it’s complicated.  Sometimes our opinion needs a more nuanced perspective and sometimes it needs to scrapped entirely because it was just wrong. But it is essential so we, as people, won’t be stuck with outdated views of the world.

10.   Learning something new like:

Practicing how to do Tzuyu’s helicopter hands until I realized it wasn’t meant for me.

Utilizing Omegle to look for potential quaranflings.

Installing Telegram and uninstalling to ghost quaranflings.

How to do laundry in compliance with my mother’s preferences.

Doing two things at once.

Enough patience to take time and read the laws our government makes every day to know what I’m fighting against.

Optimizing my Twitter lists and now I can keep up with current affairs (that takes a toll on my mental health) then scroll through a fic fest-centric list the next (that helps me forget the stress from reading news).

Learning something new every day has become one of my life goals. Knowing that the world always has something new to offer to me, a speck in this universe, warms me up and keeps me going. And you’ll never know where the new tidbits will lead you. Maybe it’ll help you reconnect with something you’ve known before, maybe it’ll change how you see things, or maybe it’s something new that once explored, it will contribute something new to the community. It may seem small and unimportant but with a tweak in perspective, it might be something worth doing and pursuing.

Looking back at my list, I can finally see how if I didn’t do all these things, I would have probably finished my thesis by now and probably working a full-time job, able to provide the financial needs for my family. There will always be regret that I am still not done until now. But stressing over my current predicament in this time when the world is in its most stressful state yet won’t help me. So, we soldier on and hopefully, hopefully get back to the thesis I’ve been meaning to do.

 Let’s get it.

I'm curious. What drew you to Oliver?

AH! I love this question. I was going to write out this long ass, 10 paged thesis on how/why/when. But, I will keep it simple-ish.

(I wanted to preface this with, I have a weak spot for being loved by someone who hates everyone else. Like… irl and in fantasy. It hits me hard in the feels bruh. It makes me feel so special!)

I hate prologues of otome games with a seething passion. I just want to start the game and not sit there for 45 mins reading about a bunch of people I don’t know. lol ANYWHO. I actually read Ikerevs prologue (for some reason), and I was falling into the story. It’s pretty damn good for a prologue, and then something happened. A mf runs in and SAVES ME from these weirdos that wanna lock me up. Oliver starts to drag MC away, but she stops and asks questions. I was rolling my eyes, and he goes “Shut up and run.” I was like YASS!!!! Who is this man??? The MC was annoying me with her questions, like hunny….. your running away from people that want to imprison you and he said he was going to get you out of here. Just go! He’s taking you out of danger as we speak! Shes like “Omg he’s so rude!” I’m like…. get over it and run awayyyyy to safety. lol

Then I get to the “Choose your route” screen. Mind you, I never played a Cybird game in my life until this point. I had no friends in this fandom, and I knew nothing if Ikesen. Imagine my surprise when I saw Oliver’s route wasn’t out. I literally almost uninstalled the game XD, but I was thinking “It may be released soon, so I’ll just wait.”

At random, I picked Fenrir. He seemed like the most fun right off the bat and, in hindsight, was the best route to choose for more Oliver content XD. Fenrir was FUN! I really love his route. Dare I say it’s my favorite story so far. But… Oliver stole the show at a particular part. (Now, during this time I was crushing on Luka. And I would later write my first fic about Luka,,,, but I digress.)

The part that made me a stan for life waving “Oliver is the #1″ + “Mad Hatter” flags in the street, was where Fenrir is on the bridge, and they just got back from Oliver’s house getting materials. We see Oliver’s personality shine as a workaholic that prides himself in his work, even if the request is off the wall. He likes to tease but also pushes people away with crass behavior. (I was wondering about this for a while, but I’m sure he’s got a good back story as to why.)

Fenrir tells Alice. “Sorry, Oliver can be boring because he doesn’t talk much. He’s not the best company because of that.” (not a direct quote, but I will find screenshots!)

Alice is confused and states. “Are you sure? Because he was talking to me nonstop.”

Fenrir smiles knowingly and goes. “I guess that little pipsqueak does care about something after all.”

I lost it. I dropped my phone, and my mind lit up with serotonin. Oliver made me feel special. He ticked all my check mark boxes of things that draw me to someone.

I stopped Fenrir’s story and went right to the gacha. The splash of love was going on, and I did it. BOOM I got Oliver’s card on my first try. I literally giggled like a school girl and took it as a sign. Oliver and I are soulmatesssssss.

Downsides to Oliver, his ever-changing body. I really don’t want to date a child or someone that appears as a young child. BUT you have to admit; it does make him vastly more interesting. It’s a big story arch that I’m DYING to learn! His biggest secret. He is not a child though, and we do have to keep that in mind. (Even thought he reminds us constantly.) Even when he appears as a small boy, he is still in his twenties age wise.

ANYWHO thanks for letting me rant about my man. I appreciate the ask!