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transjudas · 5 months

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The second he realizes Donna is upset and panicking because they were suddenly taken away from Rose and god knows where in the universe, he took her and kissed her hand and held it against his hearts as he looked into her eyes and promised to get her home. He is comforting her and grounding her. Fourteen really is able to show so much more physical affection and vulnerability. So much more of the love he has in him. He's able to be there for Donna as a friend in a way the Doctor has struggled to do all his life. (x)

#THEY CAN'T KEEP GETTING AWAY WITH THISSSSS #dw spoilers #wild blue yonder #doctor who #dwedit #doctorwhoedit #dwgifs #timelordgifs #fourteenth doctor #donna noble #userlauren #usereena #i am trembliiiing #the way he immediately goes to her.#reaches out for her #holds her hand and kisses it and looks into her eyes #holds her hand against his chest #horrible i'm doing so bad

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ruubesz-draws · 2 years

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Please I-

WHY?!?!??

*DO NOT REPOST MY ART*

#sonic #sonic the hedgehog #sonic movie 2 #sonic prime #ugly sonic #chip n dale 2022 #incorrect quotes #oH GOD HE'S BACK!!!#WWWHHHYYYY?????#He's horrible I hate it thanks #like it's so bad that it's hilarious #i'm sobbing #he's actually real #please #why??#i'm scared to watch the movie #hhhhhh #do not repost #my art

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somegrumpynerd · 27 days

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Putting my special little guy through it

#UTDR #UTMV #My Art #Killer my beloved (puts him in a horrible situation)#It's okay he's gonna be okay I promise #It won't be silly but he will be okay #Also if this comes out near to how I want it he won't be alone #I should really be sleeping for work tomorrow but I just have ONE more picture to do outlines for for this #So I'm gonna ignore my common sense and do it first #I'm hoping I'll have this finished this week but we'll see how bad the work situation is

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qrevo · 4 months

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what if i started a Darkest Dungeon save and named every character after a moot. making you all go through The Horrors

#this game is very hard so if i end up doing this: spoiler! they are all going to die horrible deaths :3 #qrevo.txt #qrevo.darkestdungeonsaga #been in the vibes to play horror games recently #replayed amnesia the dark descent; very very good game #played amnesia a machine for pigs for the first time; very very mid game #i gotta enjoy horror games while i'm in vacation; playing Stressful/Scary Games during Stressful/Scary Times is a Very Bad Idea

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iguessigotta · 1 year

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Eddie gluskin with a pregnant darling maybe

you know what's funny about Eddie Gluskin being one of my faves? i am terrified of pregnancy just headcanons for now - this ended up being more an exploration of the inherent horror of this situation than anything shippy, whoops. also kind of an au where Waylon does not survive his encounter with Eddie 18+ just in case CW: injuries, noncon, hostage, pregnancy, suicide mention cannibalism(?) probably more i missed. (no r*** - it is alluded to tho) i mean it's Eddie. the man is a walking billboard for "dead dove do not eat" ok lmao

being Eddie’s darling wife was a living nightmare

you’d been one of the few employees allowed near Eddie, and he’d developed a….thing…for you. well, not you, really, more the idea of you

and when the Mount Massive asylum fell into chaos, you were one of the unlucky people trapped inside

when Eddie found you he was quick to make his image of you your new reality

whether you wanted it or not

you’d initially fought him at every turn. unfortunately, Eddie had a temper, and was prone to snapping with no warning

you’d learned that lesson the hard way - your forearm was still in a makeshift splint, a dull ache where he’d fractured the bone in a fit of anger. or had he broken it? you weren’t sure. all you knew is it hurt like hell and made it nearly impossible for you to fight back

after that incident, you thought keeping your head down and quietly obeying him was the smart choice. that you’d be safe enough to ride out this mess until someone arrived to help

you had to believe that someone was coming. you told yourself you’d be rescued within the week, that there was no way a facility as large as Mount Massive could go down in flames like this without someone noticing

days turned into weeks, weeks into months (how many had it been? 3? 4?)

every night you sat, ankles bound to your chair at the end of some wobbly, bloodstained table, Eddie at the opposite end, a makeshift dinner spread between the two of you

occasionally there would be some sort of meat among the sawdust-flavored rations - Eddie was always vague when you asked him what kind of meat it was

you resisted for the first month, but your resolve broke a week into the second, the hunger pains driving you to tears and forcing you to make a choice

so you ate. and you tried not to think about where he got it from

it was like the two of you playing some sick game of house

Eddie kept a close eye on you when he was around, restraining you when he wasn’t

you’d be tied to a chair. strapped down on your back atop some bloodstained hospital mattress. arms bound behind you, tied to a support beam and forced to sit on the cold concrete floor

all of it was miserable

Eddie said it was for your safety, but you knew better. especially after he’d found you with a knife you’d managed to get your hands on. he’d stopped you from trying to slash your own throat, spewing some bullshit about his darling preferring death over a blissful life as the proud mother of his many, many children

he wasn’t going to let you leave him in any way

some part of you thought about pleading with Eddie to “think of the baby” and untie you - but that only reminded you that you were, in fact, pregnant

and it was starting to show

whatever mental energy you could spare went to trying (and failing) to block that fact out of your mind

you felt like you were trapped in two horror stories simultaneously - one, enduring whatever Eddie decided to do to you on a daily basis, and two, the unwanted life growing inside you against your will

not to mention the mental anguish of what to do after the…birth. would you even survive that? would you want to?

should you try to raise and protect it? or would it be more merciful if you…

it was a horrifying decision to make, one that you flinched away from whenever you found yourself thinking about it

every day you wondered if it would be better to piss him off, have him kill you in a fit of rage. it wouldn't be hard to do, but for some reason the knowledge that you were pregnant stopped you

well, you told yourself, at least you got to skip Eddie’s “operation table”. all the men who came before you weren’t so lucky, if the video on that camera you found was to be believed….

#dead dove do not eat #reader beware #eddie gluskin x reader #yandere eddie gluskin x reader #this is straight up horror reader is having a bad time #in so many ways!#eddie gluskin headcanons #outlast x reader #kinda sorta tempted to write a short fic exploring this absolute nightmare but idk #we'll see idk #no beta we die like men #no kids allowed #sorry if this isn't what you were looking for anon i just had ✨ideas✨ and ✨thoughts✨ in my little head #anyway Eddie Gluskin is horrible and I love him everyone look at my nasty blorbo he's awful <3 #requests #inbox is open and I'm in the mood for horror so #eyes emoji

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transmascutena · 2 months

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thinking about how akio sees his younger self in utena and wondering if there's any fondness there. doesn't change the horror of what he does to her obviously but i do wonder

#akio and utena #m #long ramble in the tags sorry:#the thing about akio is that he's so evil bit he's also so human #he has feelings. i just don't know what they are (if anything) toward his victims #he loves anthy at the very least i'm sure of that. even if he hates her too. just like she loves and hates him. the lines are blurry.#and i just. i have to wonder whether any of that extends to utena at all. we know anthy at times feels similarly about utena and dios #(and akio by extension.) the simultanious love and resentment. so it's not too unlikely i think.#like. even though he never had anything but bad intentions in getting close to her #i'm not sure it's possible to do everything he did and feel nothing #not that he has any meaningful amount of guilt or remorse for it. i don't think that.#and i obviously don't think he “loved” her in any of the ways she might have thought he did #but did he not care at all? did he not feel any kind of fondness or sympathy or just. idk. pity? for her?#whatever the case it wasn't enough to reconsider having her killed so you know. how much does that actually matter anyway #idk. i think about it a lot. how abusers are rarely entirely indifferent toward their victims #the role he's playing in her life is so fucked up but it IS a role he's playing and i wonder how much he you know... internalizes it?#how much does he believe the illusion of family that he invites her into? because akio DOES often buy into his own illusions.#(similarly i think it's possible that akio is fond of touga too. their mentor-protégé relationship is horrible and abusive #but that doesn't make it less real. you know? maybe real is the wrong word.)#when he talks in episode 25 about wanting utena and anthy closer that's obviously so he can continue to groom her #but is there something genuine there too? i don't know.#again. it obviously does not make anything he does better or even different. but it is interesting to think about to me.#on the other side of that coin does seeing his own past youth and naivete and desire to do good that he (maybe) once had #reflected back at him through her mean anything?#is there resentment there? that she is what he couldn't be? or more likely he just thinks that idealism is stupid.#either way it's something he wants to take from her. anyway ramble over.#i talk a lot about utena's feelings toward akio (familial vs romantic love and the way the two are intertwined in fucked up ways)#but not much the other way around. probably because utena is actually a sympathetic character whose feelings the show very clearly #wants you to analyze and think about.#which is... less true for akio i think. though he's still a complex character with complex motives. he's just harder to get a grasp on.

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uncanny-tranny · 8 months

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I think another aspect of conservative thought people need to understand is the idea that it's all about dominance.

The reason why sayings like "we don't want to trans your kids, we want trans kids to live" is because, in the conservative mind, you are replacing their dominance with your own. It can never be about what is best for others, it is always about expressing absolute power and control.

Natural selection, at its ideal, will weed out the people who "shouldn't live." If their existence is a threat to the already-established hierarchy, then it's obvious that they shouldn't exist in order to challenge hierarchy.

While this certainly isn't a "conservative-only" mindset, it's a trend I have noticed more in conservative spaces. This is why I don't always think it's helpful to go on about how, "Oh, we don't want to threaten your worldview. We just want people to live 😊". You will fundamentally be threatening their power in their minds. Therefore, nothing you say can truly take away from the anxiety, fear, and anger at losing control that may be instilled.

#politics #transphobia #transphobia tw #used the whole 'we want trans kids to live' because i personally think it's a good example..#...but isn't the sole example of such...#...take for instance the gay marriage debates from the early 2010s...#...'if we legalize gay marriage it's ONE STEP CLOSER to them taking OVER america and legalizing [horrible thing]!'...#...that is the anxiety of Losing Control and Losing The Divine Hierarchical Power Bestowed To You Personally By Gd Himself...#...i'm not saying all of this to dissuade people from educating people. but i want people to be aware of this dynamic...#...and to decide if they can (or should) personally go up to bat for others to educate people...#...i don't think you will go very far if you try to educate people without understanding on SOME level how their thought process will be...#...because it is likely that you are educating somebody who is going to see the world VERY differently...#...and they will often interpret what you are saying VERY differently than how you intended it to be interpreted...#...again while this isn't solely a conservative issue (believe me i KNOW) i notice it much more in those spaces...#...and since i am in spaces that WANT to educate people about this i think it is apt...#...it isn't a bad thing to want to educate. but again it's not helpful to just assume others are going to interpret you the way you want...#...it's definitely why i stopped making so many posts about educating others. i just don't think i can do it well...#...or at least in a way that doesn't Feel Threatening (even if it Isn't A Threat)

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blueskittlesart · 8 months

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also to everyone contacting me about the tiktok--I have seen it, the reposter did not contact me before posting on tiktok but has since contacted me on instagram and they obeyed my repost credit policy so i'm tentatively ok with it!

#im so conflicted about reposts lmao bc on the one hand i have like concrete proof espc with this tiktok that it draws more people towards me #bc several people have specifically told me they found me via that tiktok. which is cool obv i love getting more engagement #but on the other hand it does remove a certain level of my autonomy over my work yknow #like when i post on my self-run social media i have the ultimate control over my audience--who sees it who comments what is being said etc #and when it's reposted even with credit it removes some of that control. which is like. not HORRIBLY bad in the context of fanart #but i know also that i am a person with polarizing opinions and given how much of ME is tied up in my art i am sort of conflicted about #allowing people to remove me from my own content. yknow #like from personal experience whenever i get a popular credited repost on instagram i do get a ton of new followers #but i also usually get a huge surge of transphobic comments. so. yknow. 2 sides of the coin ig #anyway as for this specific repost they didn't violate my policy and i'm not going to change my policy just yet so were good #thank u all for pointing it out to me tho!#personal

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avatarofwar · 3 months

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What's the matter, stray? Nothing left to lose?

#spreading my anti-owl propaganda but it's literally just horrible shit he's done canonically #normal things to say to an orphan. right after a very normal reaction of fucking injuring said child #because that's the logical thing to do when stumbling upon someone orphaned by war. who could not do shit to harm you #not to mention all the shit after. I'm gonna stop myself before I go on a tag rant abt him #anyway owl sucks so bad <3 #but also ougoghguohg child wolf looks so fucking cute in the intro cutscene I'm gonna explode #wolf #owl #sekiro #sekiro: shadows die twice #sekiroedit #gamingedit #dailygaming #gamingnetwork #gameplaydaily #dailyvideogames #videogameedit #m*ne

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ternterntern0 · 29 days

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gagagabababa i have another doodle page :3

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worstloki · 10 months

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something very horrifying about the concept of Thor but not Loki being told that Loki is Jotun when the brothers are old enough to understand the importance of the secret

#so he gets to watch Loki be unfavoured or try to do things and HE KNOWS WHY #but Thor can't SAY anything about it bc he's not supposed to #and Thor obviously has no way to reconcile that Loki is Jotun which means Jotun can't possibly be plain monsters #so Thor and Loki both keep badmouthing the frost giants #Thor gets to watch Loki hate on the frost giants while knowing Loki is one and idk something about that doesn't sit right with him #Thor basically gets to watch Loki fail at things and to Thor it's like 'oh yeah of course he's not as good or doesn't fit in'#he gets to watch and learn bad war stories and that's just how they learn about how horrible the Jotnar are #and i think occasionally Thor would stop to really process that fact #but most of the time Thor is just like. yeah that's a thing but it's not like it matters #even tho Loki being Jotun totally IS an important thing #he's just used to ignoring that it's not since he'd been told pretty far back #and it was apparently never relevant to their parents to inform Loki so *shrug*#ALSO ALSO Loki finding out so long after and being devastated and ''they told you of my parentage did they not?''#but make it Thor 1 #make it happen when Loki goes to Earth to visit Thor too hjsvfdsh #Loki: I have reason to believe I'm not related to any of you by blood.#Thor: uh well that'd be a little hard wouldn't it #Loki finds out that Thor knew he was adopted/Jotun before him too #lets get that breakdown moving along

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cloudsrust · 8 months

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Tfw you have to crawl out of artblock and fatigue because your new fave doesn't have enough content (I have to feed the fixation on my own.)

#the cloud can speak oh boi #good omens #doodle #so the good news is that I'm finally drawing again- the bad is that anxiety is still kicking my ass and posting is still horribly difficult #so I meme the pain away #also at this point I'm using him as my support demon #my favorite demon.. the sulfur <3 #<- me actually calling him Sulfur half the time and giving “Aziraphalala” vibes #No but why did I have to get attached to Furfur? I was doing so well with just caring about the main ones;; I was just swimming in content!#But nooo- lets get attached to the demon who has what? 30 mins of screen time in total? *Ugly sobbing*#I love his character so much though ougghh the costume design in GO is already something else but him? Idk I just want to frame him on wall

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drawbauchery · 7 months

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I'm sorry if that made you uncomfortable I really should have specified and I'm sorry I'm used to seeing the term proship being used as some sort of p3d0 kind of thing and I really wanted to make sure that you didn't ALSO mean that. I'm soso sorry, I really should have specified. I won't ask that kind of stuff again. I was just making sure cause I didn't want to have to block you if you did happen to be alluding to what I actually meant, that stuff is gross afterall and I'd hate for my favorite blogger to be like that.

i have no problem drawing anything if it's purely fictional

drawing/writing does not and will never equal endorsement or something i'm "into". that is such an ugly, terrifying conservative mindset.

keep. away. from. me. if you think like this

#fetuseatingactivities #asks #i don't believe in hurting people #i do believe in hurting cartoon characters #asker i feel horrible if you feel like you can't be around here #i'm not sure how old you are #you've probably been fed so much terrifying misinfo about this subject #i loved the colors you did for me and i like talking to you #i'm not comfortable if you treat cartoons as real people #or if that means you think i'm some kind of horrible creep #but i don't think you're a bad person so #antis who know better need to stay away from me #people who are learning i'm more lenient with #discourse

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smile-files · 3 months

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oh yeah i watched the new ii and it was pretty wack. my only two thoughts are

i love cabby

they had to neutralize clover?????? hello?????????

#melonposting #ii spoilers #clover continues to be one of the only good people here. like hello thank you for saying that cabby didn't do anything wrong #(though at this point ae's probably just kinda backpedalling after the ableism allegations so. yeah. anyway it's really the bare minimum)#also it made me so angry to see nickel again. nooooo we just got rid of him!!!!!!!!!! boo tomato tomato tomato #i did find it funny that they were gonna have the dumb fantube-bot family thing and then blueberry interrupted it. ha ha ha. ha #yeah about the other thing. now i'm worried that any victory cabby gets out of this will only be a result of ae backpedalling #it's already pretty weird that the show's general perception of cabby did a complete 180 out of nowhere #i dunno. everyone ganging up on mephone was kinda strange #like okay springy and walkie talkie have their beef with him. but the cameras? zoetrope??#forgive me if i'm being dumb but i can't remember anything so horrible mephone did to them to warrant (gesturing vaguely) all of this #i dunno it's just kind of silly to have the big-bad be 'all of these random guys mephone kinda annoyed'#like huh. huh?#idk i'll see where they'll go with this. hopefully cabby doesn't get screwed over <3 that's really all i'm hoping for haha

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nerevar-quote-and-star · 3 months

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Skyrim Romance Mod

#the amount of mental damage this video gave me is UNREAL #I need a deep cleanse #like you think the current version of the sim is bad? this is so horrible I think I'm dying #i found this because i was looking for the old version where cael was in the cage rather than by the dibella shrine #cael by the dibella shrine? my sorta weird friend. cael in the cage? another creepy sycophant #i need to go and rethink my life i am legit going to cry #WHERE IS MARTIN I NEED HIM TO WHISPER IN SWEET SEAN BEANISMS INTO MY EAR #OR SEHT I WILL TAKE IS DISMAL DIATRIBES ANY DAY AND EVERY DAY #gosh i want my real tes blorbos this this isn't romantic this is pain this is torture #skyrim romance mod #videos #i had to watch this so y'all do too #thems the rules #the elder scrolls #tes #skyrim #mod post

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juney-blues · 2 days

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it's really funny to me seeing handwringing over fictional explorations of kinks rooted in deep societal taboos. 'Cause like, murder is universally agreed to be one of the most heinous things you can do and yet we're fine with action movies

#juney.txt #like I don't think sex is uniquely impure #there are a lot of fucked up things glorified in fictional works that would obviously be really bad irl #so it's okay for me to get hyped as hell watching a dozen guys get dismembered and killed in a big fight scene like in kill Bill #or on the edge of my seat watching a mass murderer narrowly avoid getting caught in a tense drama #but if the emotion I'm feeling over fictional events that would obviously be horrible in real life is ''horny''#then that's a bridge too far for some reason #if I can suspend my disbelief and anarchist morals. and be a monarchist for the several hours it takes to watch LOTR #then I don't see why I can't do the same for the duration of my jerk-off session

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