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NO CAUSE LITERALLY HELIA IS ANYTHING BUT THE POET
I know it would be really easy to assume that Helia is a poet, most obviously due to him actually being a literal poet and yknow. writing poems. Add on that he is genuinely good with his words and it's like! Duh! BUT NO!! A huge part of his character is that he wants to be the poet but he isn't. Helia acts like a poet. He makes a great first impression, he watches people carefully and responds in whatever way will move the situation best, he can be bitterly truthful and secretive all at once. But while that is still part of him, it's also so, so small in comparison to how he feels inside and how he actually acts.
While I have pondered Helia being the soldier, I gravitate much more toward the King. The king archetype is all about the responsibility that you don't want, that you don't deserve, but still feeling so loyal to it that you can't get away. No matter what they truly want in life, the kings will always go back to that responsibility because it's become them, and leaving literally feels like part of them is gone. They believe they have an intense duty to that responsibility and that leaving would make them the worst person in the world. And like,,, anyone with Helia Brain knows that this is him!! It's everything he feels about Red Fountain!!
Being the poet is all about embracing freedom and that's the one thing Helia refuses to do. He can't do it. He feels so intensely loyal to Red Fountain, and now to his friends, that any other option feels like betrayal to him. His own freedom feels like a betrayal. And that's just such a sad king move,,,
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remember that post I made a while back about trying to get a refund bc my sister's kid accidentally made me spend $67.83 back on January 22nd? well Microsoft still hasn't acknowledged it beyond "your refund request was approved :)" and the content (new zones, quests, mounts, pets, outfit styles, etc.) is still in my game.
my question for y'all is, do you think I could still play the game and just not interact with that content? i miss the game and i haven't opened since then other than to check if the content was removed yet but i'm afraid of them being like "well, you've already used it, so no you can't have your money back :/"
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re: last reblog, that's why I hated the n52 midnighter, he would never ever even consider leaving apollo for a break and to discover himself. those two unhinged bastards looked at each other and decided to be It forever and ever and get attached to an unhealthy degree to one another. midnighter doesn't give a shit about others or seeing more or whatever, he's got what he want already
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literally aki is not like those other edgy type anime deuteragonists HE WONT HATE FUCK YOU!!!
it just bothers me a lot when i see people do like perv!aki or yandere!aki a lot like his whole character arc is about how he wants a family and love. please project these ideas onto.... (vaguely gestures towards any edgy anime boy) them.
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I’m so fucking desperate to feel that love again!! that safety!! I don’t want to associate TF characters with the person who betrayed me anymore!! I want to associate them with all of that love I felt for years and I have no idea how to get back to that feeling. my god I’ll do anything. I don’t care how long it takes, I’m so scared and I just want it back. I cannot tell you how exhausting it is to have anxiety gripping onto your brain 24/7, to be constantly on the verge of a panic attack, to feel unsafe and on edge because your personal information was searched for relentlessly by someone on the internet. I cried so much at work today because the phone was ringing and the caller ID showed my ex-friend’s state, and I was so scared it was her. It was most likely spam, like always, but I didn’t pick up the phone. I shouldn’t have to feel scared like that.
I couldn’t get any work done, I didn’t finish one single thing. I had five hours to complete my tasks and I got absolutely nothing done because I kept crying and having anxiety attacks every 20 minutes. I had to lock the door and put up the “be back in 5 minutes” sign and go into the storage closet and crouch on the floor to try to catch my breath because I couldn’t calm down and I was scared of a customer or a manager seeing me like that. I’m a fucking mess!!! I was so tempted to just walk out into traffic, just get it over with, I’m so sick of feeling so bad. I’m not okay! fighting off the suicidal urges is so hard when I don’t have F/Os, and the last thing I need right now is this firm belief that my F/Os actually want harm done to me. I need them more than ever and I’ve been conditioned to feel scared of them. I don’t know what to do. I’m so scared I’ll never recover, I’ve never felt this way before and it’s been nonstop for almost a whole year. I don’t want to be stuck like this. what if I never get them back?? I see gifsets of Starscream and I’m like “god I love him so much” but then I end up crying because I don’t think he loves me, I think he would stab me if my ex-friend ordered it. i think he’d rip me apart just to make her happy. I never used to doubt his love for me, now it’s like I don’t remember that safe feeling at all. i’d do anything to get him back. i hate feeling like this i can’t fucking function like a person anymore. I hate feeling unsafe in my own workplace I hate feeling unsafe in my room I hate flinching every time my phone goes off even though I know she can’t contact me anymore
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