Can we pretty please get a Grian and Xelqua meet-up?? I love how you draw Xelqua and Grian and I just need to see what they would do if they meet......for science of course
wait hold on.. goes crazy .. I donāt have a design for Xelqua, that was just Grian earlier, butā¦. I think itād go well
I think Xelqua is his patron, so heād be excited to meet him !
but I was also playing with the idea that Little Grian here is a reincarnated version of Xelqua, but still looks up to him, prays to him, would want to be picked up and hugged by him, the safety of it. (How can he be reincarnated and still have a form here ? Well the divine can be a bit finicky)
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some thoughts about astarion because i'm tired of the internet reducing him to one thing
when bg3 came out in early access, astarion was always seen as the extremely flirty, confident guy who enjoyed sex (or so we thought) and spoke about it like it was his favourite thing. he was also kinda marketed as the āsexy vampireā, so you can understand why many people saw him that way based on the little amount of content we had. even while playing act 1 and act 2, many players still might think of him like that because he does have a very charismatic personality and he asks to sleep with you very early on, so it just automatically makes you think heās genuinely happy doing that and being totally serious.
BUT!!!!!!! we end up finding out later on thatās NOT the case and it was all part of a plan to seduce us in order for him to gain protection. he opens up about his past and his trauma and how he was forced to use his body to lure people back to cazador. he struggles with intimacy and relationships in general because of this. thatās why i really hope that people stop reducing him to āhot sexy vampire that loves flirting and having sex with everyoneā when that is not who he is, heās literally traumatised because of sex due to being forced into it and heās slowly trying to heal. heās also so much more than just āthe hot vampireā, ya know? if you actually put in the effort to get to know him, you will see who he truly is underneath and he has many loveable traits to appreciate.
you may not see the āsoftā side of him very often because he hides it, but itās there!! one thing i noticed that really stood out to me was that when i gave food to an orphan in act 3 and he approved. back when you first met him, he probably wouldāve done the opposite or had no reaction at all. i also saw a clip of someone trying to romance karlach and astarion and he literally told tav to choose karlach over him because he can see that karlach loves her. he said normally an arrangement would work for him but after everything karlach has been through, he doesnāt want to get in the way or see her hurt. letting tav go is also hard for him as well but he still thought about someone else. he couldāve whined or been possessive or jealous but he didnāt do that at all. where are all those people who reduce astarion to āthe guy that flirts and sleeps with everyoneā now? seriously. thatās not what he does, and when he was forced into it by cazador, he was trying to survive, he didnāt do it for his own pleasure. itās not a āhotā personality trait of his, itās literally trauma. and because he did it so much, he got used to it, and that resulted in him disassociating and feeling empty.
apparently if you ask him to join you and sleep with the drows at the brothel (something i will never make him do in my playthroughs), he only says yes because he struggles to say no. but he disassociates. and if youāre in a high approval relationship with him and he loves you, he will feel safe enough to express his feelings and say heās not comfortable. this happens before you fight cazador. iām not sure if he gives the same response after, but either way, if he joins in, he will always disassociate and itās not something he wants to do despite what he may say.
that being said, itās obviously still okay to appreciate his beauty and attractiveness, because he is very beautiful. he appreciates it and even likes being called beautiful. calling him āhotā and āsexyā isnāt a bad thing either, we know he can be and i'm sure he knows it too! itās just annoying when people act like thatās ALL he is and they donāt even mention anything else about his character. the love scenes are beautifully done too (i personally prefer the second one after youāve stopped him from doing the ritual, because thatās the one where he decided he truly wanted it and felt safe and comfortable because he genuinely loves you), and i actually wouldāve been fine if they didnāt have any scenes like that at all because itās totally understandable and valid if he didnāt feel comfortable, but i just hope that people donāt take things too far and over-sexualise him just because of how he appeared to be in the first half of the game and the way heās often marketed on social media. and yes i know heās fictional and nothing on the internet is going to hurt his feelings!!!! itās more about the fact that he canonically has sexual trauma and many people still say really disturbing stuff even AFTER they find out about that, and it just makes me uncomfortable to think that people are okay with treating someone like a sexual object especially when they've said they're traumatised and it makes them uncomfortable. idk if this makes sense š
but yeah he doesn't want to flirt and sleep with everyone as i've seen people claim. and if in an alternate universe he did, and he did it on his OWN terms, and the other people he had relationships with enjoyed it too, then good for them! absolutely nothing wrong with that if there's consent, respect and honesty. however, that's not the case with what happened with astarion, because 1. he was forced into using his body WHEN HE DID NOT WANT TO and 2. he misled people and lured them to a miserable fate. it's so horrible and devastating for everyone involved. sex was never something fun for him, and it certainly isn't a "personality trait" of his. it was a survival tactic. he was forced to. he didnāt want to.
obviously when he becomes more comfortable, then it's totally understandable to get excited when he flirts and shows physical affection. he can be so charming, funny, sweet and romantic and i love that. itās so beautiful to see him heal, genuinely find comfort in someone for the first time and experience intimacy that he feels ready and comfortable for. he deserves to love and be loved on his own terms instead of being forced. but again, he is so much more than the guy we were introduced to at the beginning. the internet just sees one thing and sticks with it but i really hope people start to actually appreciate him for who he is and the complexity of his character.
aaaaand i just had to leave this here <3
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Your pastimes consisted of the strange
And twisted and deranged
And I love that little game you had calledĀ "Crying Lightning"
detail + musings below
I haven't been able to stop thinking about that trailer! I'm so unbelievably hyped for this and Kojima's next espionage game (MGS 3 is one of my all time fave games! ahhhh! ā¤ļø)
I miss the old Higgs' design, it was very strong but maybe this clown will grow on me, who knows lol. I can't believe I actually wanted to draw those equations on his forehead (I used to find it tedious. I took them for granted š)
something cool I noticed when drawing this: the makeup below his eyes appear to be inspired by the stripes you see on Nemes - the striped headcloths worn by pharaohs.
unrelated to DS but about the song I chose: it's one of my fave Arctic Monkeys songs, I heard it live and I haven't been the same since - it gives me Higgs vibes! one of the interpretations on Genius suggested that "crying lightning" refers to the streaks that form on someone's face when their mascara runs.
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bro your pepperman and peppino comic hasnāt left my brain since i saw it. i just love the dynamic of a ginormous freak and peppino being both intimidated and flustered.. bro i wish there was more of those two
I should draw them some more bc i really like the dynamic ive written for them š For u anon, i will share some minor (silly) thoughts ive had about them
-Pepperman absolutely has a little baby crush on this man. TEENY TINY. The kind of crush that means nothing- hes a little š
š¾ and hes an artist like ur gonna be a little gay w all of the friends you make; thats just the way it goes š Like Peppino is sooooo handsome and soooo strong and he can cook and hes smart and he doesnt stand down when confronted (he LOVES this the most). So people in Peppermans Rich Friend circle notice the complete 180 his personality does when Peppino is invited to outings. Its not that Pepperman is being weird and shallow or fake, its that Peppino is probably his First Friend that wasnt rich and snobbish in anyway. Some part of him really REALLY wants to impress Peppino and it makes him act a little āfoolishā heehee š
-Following up on this, Pepperman visits the pizzeria out of the blue like MONTHS after he first invites Peppino out for the art sessions and like okay maybe they are friends MAYBEā¦but like he is still kind of anxious bc the last time he came here he almost got his skinned so part of him is like āmaybe hes only amicable bc feels obligated to cooperate within the walls of my studioā¦ā BUT he shuffles awkwardly into the shop and Peppino not only waves but SMILES at him while hes attending to a customer and Pepperman is like āHEEEHEEUHEEHOOOā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦.ā
-Peppermans art is worth a fortune; he is very well respected in the art world and any pieces hes made (including self portraits) are absolutely stunning. His abstract art is as beautiful as his realism; auctioning them off and doing occasional commission work is how hes acquired most of his wealth. Because of this, it is a MASSIVE show of good faith and comradery that Pepperman will often gift art to Peppino. Unfortunately, Peppino will not accept statues or huge marble sculptures BUT Pepperman is delighted to see Peppino accept paintings and mini sculptures, even if he LOOKS a bit confused about it š
-SOā¦ when Pepperman comes by the shop some weeks later, he is overwhelmingly excited to see one of his pieces hung up on the walls. The feeling of having his art fawned over in an art exhibit does not even BEGIN to compare to the excitement of seeing his art being displayed in this common mans shop. Its a portrait of Peppino, stylized, w some funky lookin colors. Nothing fancy or particularly evocative. Just. Peppino! Looking a bit wistful with colors winding around him.
Even Peppino is like (snrk) āDont you have your fancy arts in a museum or something? Dont see the big deal ābout āa this.ā But its HUGE its likeā¦suddenly it is not just his muse entertaining his artistic visionā¦his muse VALUES his artistic visionā¦ā¦ā¦..it makes him SO happy. He thinks about it for days. Its like; he had no idea that this is what it felt like to haveā¦inspiration and motivation from an Outside source. His art, while breathtaking, felt like it lacked somethingā¦Rich. Years and years of self reflection and introspection and Never expanding his horizons, never realizing he was Capable of expanding his horizons until nowā¦he is just a lucky little pepper š«š¶āØ
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OK hear me out Hugo and Aiden LOOOOVE musicals but Varian doesn't really get them. Also do you think Aiden can sing bc I feel like Hugo would not be that great of a singer and it would be funny in a vat7k show bc Hugo would be like "I can't sing" and three minutes ago he sang his I want song with the voice of an angel
(ignoring temporarily that singing is in human nature and no one is 'bad at it' because it's singing if you're doing it your doing it right) don't mind me just rambling in your inbox lmao anyway AIRIGO
I LOVE HAVING YOU RAMBLING IN MY ASKBOX even more when its about airigo :3c you will always be welcomed
"I can't sing" *proceeds to sing flawlessly* xD love that for Hugo. I also think Hugo would not be that great of a singer but he'd have a good sense of rythm so it's not half bad. Also I think his singing voice would sound different from his talking voice- Idk why-
I don't think Aiden is a huge singer, but they hum a lot during work. (Witches have plenty of lullabies and short songs they recite as good luck charms, since their words carry magic.) So Aiden's singing voice wouldn't be strong and it would probably break if they tried to sing dificult notes loudly. It's fine, she always prefered dancing over singing-
I have so many thoughts and questions popping up now. Since Varian isn't a huge musical fan do you think he prefers classical music? Maybe anything without lyrics so listening to it won't mess his focus on whatever he is working on.? Is Hugo a big musical fan or just anything theater? I like to think Hugo really likes theater and songs because he learnt how to read rather late so it was his only way to have stories accessible to him for a while.
ALSO. Hear me out. A musical version of the Tales of Flynnigan Ryder. (In universe). That would be hilarious, maybe that's why Varian isn't fan of musicals, because, in his opinion, the adaptation isn't fateful enough to the books and he holds a grudge against musicals since-
On a sidenote. Varian and Hugo fighting over which is best, the musical or the book. And its not at all an objective debate lol
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