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He had no business looking this hot from the back 😮💨
creds to @unicornspwnall
#he can break my back tho#hmm?#aquapapi#im w word only for namor#black panther#black panther wakanda forever#black panther 2#tenoch huerta#namor#talokan#kukulkan#namor x reader#namor imagines#tenoch
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Okay now where's the Seb teddy bear so I can make them kiss each other!?
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#okay btw you can credit the last frame to suzuki#bcs she brought up the pig stuffed animal that seb kept as a good luck charm when he was karting#and suggested the same with fernando's bear :DDD#also feeling weirdly sappy abt the fact that theres pics of fernando in the ferrari garage w an almost identical pig like ??????#anyways please yes have this random vettonso comic 🥰🥰#im working on a bigger vettonso drawing rn so i made this quick in the meantime!#icl i saw the fernando teddy bear. and i made the eyebrow post and whatever#but there was also just this image in the back haunting me of him gifting one to seb#I AM DELUSIONAL!!!#its just so cute to imagine it as like 'heres a memento of me to keep you company' 🥺🥺🥺🥺#funny tho cause i had the same exact imagine for my ocs and i never drew a comic version for them yet drew this real quick#the power of vettonso takes hold of me sometimes.....#tfw you take a break from your vettonso painting youve been working on for a wk+ to go draw a vettonso comic#i have a problem.#ANYWAYS THIS IS SO CUTE WAAAHHHH#drew it as cope bcs in trying to restrain myself from buying the fernando teddy bear#if i cant have it ill make seb have it yknow 🤭🤭🤭#wah this reminded i should draw more little comics theyre not too hard tbh#f1#formula 1#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#vettonso#catie.art
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He’s 13 and he knows where Dick Grayson lives ☺️
#Tim Drake#Robin#even tho he’s not in his Robin era yet#my art#Tim breaking into dick’s apartment trying to figure out where he is so he can beg him to go back to being Robin#was unhinged behavior and I love that for him
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my favorite cringefail son ⚡✨
#HES THE MOST CHARACTER EVER- EVERYONE ELSE CAN PACK THEIR BAGS AND HEAD HOME- KAIDOU IS FUCKING PERFECT#I LOVE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH#the way i have so so so many untouched WIPs of him tho....#the disastrous life of saiki k#tdlosk#kaidou shun#i have a 3h long playlist just for him <333#also WHY THE FUCK isnt his theme on spotify.... or the whole OST in general..... I NEED ITTTTTTTTT#fanart#my art#this one was a blast except i took a break for ep9 of bd in the middle of it and was nearly crying when i went back to finish it
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Death At The Hands Of A God
Warnings: general sagau, imposter au, light descriptions of violence/gore, you die/are killed (by Venti), angst
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It seemed as if the rain was particularly heavy, almost unusually so as it fell in sheets, occasionally catching the light of the moon, making it look no different than strands of silver.
That should have been a sign, the rain, the fog, the agitation of the weather. Mondstadt hadn't faced a storm this bad since before their current Archon, even the winds of Dvalin paled in comparison.
Venti was so ignorant not to pick up on the clues laid out before him by his own nation as he trudged through heavy rain, his bow at the ready and a sinking feeling in his chest.
He would never say he disliked the rain, despite what unpleasant memories linger in the back of his mind from those times. But everything carried a harsher weight when was faced with his current task, one assigned to him by no other than his creator.
Venti stopped to rest a moment, leaning against a tree for partial coverage, though it did little to shield his already soaked clothes. He felt something heavy and unpleasant in his chest as he reflected on the situation, an unshakable sense of wrongness, one that clouded his mind and dulled his senses. You were what he was after, you who posed a threat to the divine order simply because of your face.
He thought back on his creators’ honeyed words, a sickeningly sweet tone that he had never heard them use before, not that they very commonly addressed him at all, which made this particular summons out of place, a mixture of excitement and worry bubbling in his chest as he walked through their temple. To kill someone impersonating them, that is what they ordered him, hinting at the possible consequences his nation may face if he didn't comply with the utmost enthusiasm, the threat of which rang particularly loud when faced with what they had done to other nations in fits of anger.
He knew deep within him that this wasn't remotely justified, that he might as well be punished alongside you if the crime was simply stealing a face. If only you chose to look like another human, or even an Archon, he would have taken your mimicry of him as a complementary. But alas. Those feelings were pushed down and covered by the vow he made to his nation, one born of nothing but love and a promise for a brighter future.
Venti had considered alternatives, confronting you with your motive, begging you to make yourself scarce, making his own judgement on your reasons and framing his response accordingly, but those were all fleeting thoughts, quickly pushed away as soon as they arose. He couldn't get attached, he couldn't afford to think of you as human, and he certainly couldn't afford it getting back to his creator that he failed them.
He had heard about your existence from other sources, apparently being so bold as to walk directly into Mondstadt. You weren't met with pitchforks and torches, his people were more civilized than that, but the hostility was as sharp as a knife. You had left of your own accord after having no luck obtaining food or a place to stay, he had only heard after the fact from gossipers drinking late into the night, the faces of which were forced into his mind as he once again thought of his creators’ threat.
Venti was pulled from his thoughts due to a subtle noise, one almost unnoticeable through the heavy onset of rain, but it was there. A branch and a pile of leaves, something big enough to break them, and no one in their right mind would be out in this weather, except...
He swallowed what little apprehension he’d not already buried, reverting his mindset to something it had been five hundred years ago with the quick draw of his bow. The Archon saw you in the distance, just as soaked as he was, clothes tattered and foreign, scared. A quick death was the least you deserved, one free from suffering, and maybe your next life would be more forgiving.
He aimed for your head, a clear shot even now, but it seemed the moonlight that glinting off his bow caught your attention as you quickly turned your body to face him in a defensive stance, eyes wide, fearful, as if you could see what was about to come to fruition.
Your mouth moved, only fragments of the noise it produced were carried to him, broken syllables and muffled notes the very wind urged him to listen to.
You had said his name.
Venti faltered before the arrow released, for the first time in centuries, its' path no longer as steady or sure as it had been.
It hit your throat.
Venti's legs were moving before he consciously realized, forcing his body to where you fell, as if collapsing in on yourself, until he could finally see you clearly, drenched in rain and golden liquid, mixing together indiscriminately as they soak into the ground below.
There was a feeling of shock, which developed in his throat first, spreading evenly throughout the rest of his body, as if it were in his bloodstream. He looked at your terrified expression, a pained and now lifeless one, holding only fragments of the fear you felt.
What had he done.
Venti felt himself fall to his knees, hands immediately going to where his arrow lay firmly lodged, feeling for a pulse in an act he knew to be worthless.
"No. No, n-no— no. Please!" His voice cracked as his mind caught up with what his eyes were forcing him to behold.
You were the divine creator, Teyvat's one true God, and he had—
No. He couldn't even think it, the word that was on the tip of his mind carried nothing but pain, anguish and insufferable heartache, the likes of which he hadn't felt, well since...
Without thinking, Venti wrapped his arms around you, laid his head on your stomach, forced his eyes closed, and prayed. For your return, for forgiveness, and if not for any of that, then simply for a form of retribution.
He hadn't realized he'd started crying, tears and rain alike falling from his face onto your form, pooling at his eyes until the world around him became harder and harder to see.
The position you both rested in was not unlike that day long ago, forever etched in his memory and resurfaced through reflections.
Was this simple his fate? To find himself holding in his arms the corpse of someone he loved so dearly, over and over again. Was it written in his very being that all good things would be torn violently from him with little care to how it left him shattered, scrambling for the pieces of what little piece of mind he had left.
There was no coming back from this, no form of atonement. He could feel the shackles encasing his wrists, invisibly tying him to this moment, to where you had stood alive moments prior. His days of living freely died with you, forever encased in the space between where your souls had briefly met, and it was no more than he deserved.
It was only a moment later that your body was gone, dissolved into the stardust it was born from, slipping through his arms and carried by the wind that no longer obeyed him. That didn't stop him from reaching desperately, gasping and clawing at the air for what remained, heart in his throat as he begged for mercy, for anything but you depriving him of your vessel even after death.
You couldn't really be gone, not fully, you who so powerfully morphed this world from willpower alone, who disappeared for an infinite stretch of time only to descend again. Even if your vessel may have been no stronger than human, your soul was as old and powerful as existence itself, it would linger on in whatever form it had existed before, watching, waiting.
He would be ready for when you decided to give this world a second chance, he would wait an eternity and more to see your face again and repent a thousand times over, bear any hardships in the time between only to fall to his knees in complete acceptance at whatever you deem an acceptable punishment when faced with your light again.
But first...
It seemed as if there was a loose end to tie up, a deceiver bearing the ultimate sin, one much more deserving of his arrow, and one that would suffer a fate worse than death in your name.
Venti roughly brushed the tears from his face, eyes darkening as he shakily pulled himself from his knees, feeling as if his body couldn't decide between flying or collapsing.
His ‘creator’ would soon face all the fear and pain that was forced upon you, the wrath of a god who had lost everything for the second time, a goal he planned to pursue till his dying breath.
#genshin impact#sagau#genshin venti#sagau impostor au#genshin angst#my attempt at imposter au cause why not#I didn't realize there was like no dialogue until editing whoops#kind of set up so that I can do a part 2 where you come back and we get that fun dynamic#don't know if i will tho#also hi#it's been a minute#how you guys doing#school sucks that's how I'm doing#despite that I'll probably be posting another oneshot tomorrow#not as sad thankfully#anyway yeah this was more just a self challenge to see if i could do imposter au without breaking the characterization I've got going rn#luckily he's just so full of trama that i can make constant references to that to help tie things together#anyway lantern rite how we feeling
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okay this might flop but reblog this + put in tags whats something your blorbo does that annoys you, even playfully or cutely ! like there’s gotta be something they do + you’re like “why do you do this?”
#ʚ・◞📎 — em entry.#᩠ ❥ ࿐ seishiro!#i really just wanna see people talk more about their selfships#nagi literally takes all of my stuff#like my slippers / headphones he takes them#MY ROBE#if i cant find them it’s because he has them#also uses my shampoo and doesn’t tell me when it’s finished#and my skincare#LMAO HELPAJAJAKAK#i love him tho i swear#i will literally call him while he’s out a run to ask where my headphones are so i can go to the gym#and he will pick up from my headphones like ‘eh#gives me them back w like 5% charge#steals my phone charger when his breaks DOESNT TELL ME
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hit 10k in changing states btw <3
#IT'S LITERALLYYYY NOT A SHORT STORY ANYMORE LMAOO#I KNEWWW THIS WAS GOING TO HAPPEN#tbh the intention was for CS to be a novella but like I was too scared to make that goal upfront <3#so now it's just in the form it was supposed to be in LOL#which actually technically this and HB are more like novelettes#tho the definitions of these things is kind of arbitrary anyway I just count them as novellas LOL#I think I'm almost done CS though it's a really strange feeling I get when I know I'm arriving to the end of a project#like it truly DOES feel like an arrival#like how you know you're turning onto your street after a long car ride as a kid even though your eyes are closed#just an instinct lol so I think I probably have about 5-6k left of this#can't wait to dig into the jeremiah halloween birthday a little bit more cuz rn he's like "I NEED TO GO BACK TO LAS VEGAS NOW#“SO I CAN DECORATE MY APARTMENT FOR HALLOWEEN”#and it's like bbygirl sorry to break it to you but rachel needs you in maryland for halloween so <3
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Pivotal bright spot (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Helix#ZEX#The Captain#Hhhhhh <3#I am once again ''Who am I without you'' - ZEX relies on Zelnick to affirm who he himself is! His Captain is a huge comfort!#It's the codependency for me <3#The way Zelnick comforts him is so sweet ;; He can be quite attentive! When he chooses to be hehe#He's hesitant and concerned but overcomes it to give ZEX what he needs in the moment ahh he's deserving of being a leader ♥#Like covering his eye for him - and repeating back his greeting! ;;;; How many times has ZEX introduced himself that now it's repeated back#How many times has he said those exact words so confidently that Zelnick can repeat it back to him#So confident in his identity until it's all brought into question - too many pieces that align Just So to know one way or anything!#How would his human love know so many details - but such specific details are concerning as well! What's real and what's not!#What's experienced and what's mentally real - or false! There's so many tricky mental traps set agh it's so good <3#It's so interesting how their character flaws interact with their self-assuredness hehe <3 Zelnick is brash and bold!#ZEX is careful and prideful - so which takes a harder hit in matters of the mind? ZEX is at a disadvantage in Max's body of course#Hghh there's so much about this scene that's so good tho ah#ZEX's worries of his own level of self-delusion bleeding out into accidentally telling lies - he's quite honest! Mostly ♪#But here it's all just deep concern - not of Trying to manipulate but being so far gone that he can't Help but do so! Being out of control!#Of course that would be very scary for him :( And of lying to himself? The kind of thing that's wholly repulsive to him </3#Ughhh this scene breaks my heart because they really love each other and ZEX wants him and needs him but I know what will happen ;;#At least they're able to give each other a bit of comfort in the moment - whether it's true or not (it is true haha) the contrast helps#Even in Max's body and even unsure of himself getting to hold his human - this human - feels real and right <3#He's still worried afterwards of course - takes something convincing to pull him out of it! - and Zelnick continues to comfort him <3#I love palm kisses as well ugh they're so sweet ;; <3 What a lovely way to show his solidarity! Hehe ♥
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#personal#im like so happy rn. but also terrified#bc like. uh. gotta go back to the real world of having a job after bein in school for 3 years DNDNJDNDNDNDN#and also like. my boy problem. like NDJFJDJDJJDJDJDJD#big transitions oml#i can only do 1 thing at once and like so sorry to me but the job search thing is kinda taking a back seat NFNDDJFN#OH I HATE TO SAY IT. AS LIKE. A USUALLY CAREER DRIVEN PERSON BUT..................#JDJDJDJDJDJDDDJDNDNDNDNDND I CANT EVEN SAY IT............#but rn ya. my priorities.... im ashamed NDNNDNDNDNDNDNDNDNNDDNDND#but.... HHHHHHHHHHH its the more fun thing so !!!!!!!!!#but gah..... i also am like takin a break bc its like christmas n who the fuck is looking to hire rn lmao#the time between xmas n new years isnt real so !!!!#and also !!! i think i deserve a break after 4 months of non stop work !!!!!!!!!!#also like the faster i resolve my boy problem the easier itll be to focus#on job searching ?????#or like god i guess i could do both. my mom keeps being like.... youre both looking for jobs... why dont you ask him to do it together NDN#um.... 1. hes my competition LMAO. we literally had the same gpa down to the decimal#(tho this may no longer be the case bc we got our grades for the semester n mine went up. idk the state of his. would be fuckin funny if it#was still the same tho JDJDJFJDJ)#and 2..... LOL ID RATHER DO LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE WITH HIM........#god idk where this post is going. but 1. i wished him merry christmas and he answered back with a 'merry christmas 😄' which !!!@@@#from a reserved/grumpyish guy...... im just kind of like NDNNDNDNDNDND IDK. IDKKKKK. LIKE IM HAPPY ???? BUT IM ALSO LIKE FREAKED OUT ??????#i dont think i'll be able to deal if he actually likes me back#and 2. i like have a draft message of like. asking him to hang out JJDJDJDNDNDM#if youve been following these posts.. maybe u remember me askin him if he wants to keep in touch with me n our mutual friend and he said#he would. so that friend is like. going away for a month and like ok lets be real. if i have to wait until feb to see him i'll um Die JDJJD#so i have a message planned. IDK WHEN IM GONNA SEND IT. BUT IT WILLLL GET SENT. I JUST.... HHHHHHH I HAVE TO GET THE NERVE....#but .... ya idk i hope he says yes but i'll also get if he says no. may be awks just the two of us. maybe we're not ready LMAO IDK. ive bee#alone with him maybe like. 30 mins max. and like the convo keeps going but there are pauses. IDK. maybe i should stop thinking and go to be
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oh i wish feelings would go away
#p#need to unregister from the class we signed up for together lol#unless i need it in that case he can leave#i do care about him but he was just exhausting me constantly#just being immature and not to my standards. which like fine i have high standards for ppl whatever#but just not being realistic at all. then has the gall to call me immature and call this 'tv ahh shi'#genuinely burst out laughing at that one#he loves me sure.#i realized i kept dreading calls or trying to ignore his texts and avoid him essentially#didn't see him for a month and we kissed day after eid and there was nothing honestly#none of the spark or the feeling that was there before#alhamdullilah. i came to my senses even tho 3 weeks late#he says he doesn't hate me. 'you're the only one who can break my heart'. direct words#he's upset no doubt. blocked him on everything#i think he thinks i'll come back i mean i came back twice#but khalas. sneaking around and lying and the excuses i keep giving to my family. it's exhausting#on top of me being already iffy about him. i'm 18 man i have so long to find someone#he was a lousy boyfriend a lot of the time. didn't make up for the things he said he'd make up for#he did get better but im not entirely sure since we didn't see each other for a month#all i need to do is look at the bright side of it all. i have so much freetime now. i can do what i want. i don't have to apologize for#every little thing. i feel more relaxed. i don't have to check my phone as often. i don't need to make excuses for someone else#alhamdullilah alhamdullilah alhamdullilah
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Gil warm up
the 2ndest pretty boy on the isle~
@felonytaxevasion
#disney descendants#gil descendants#art#my art#can you see the s3 references in this one?#hint#only two items that Gil is wearing are his#lolololol#(tho according to Uma's wicked guide book for villain kids#harry and gil have the same shoe size#jus a wee fun fact#didnt give him headgear for this one since hes constantly seen with it in both movies he appears in#the only time we dont is in break this down#and even then his hair is tied back#gave him a free flowing style for this one with a cute braid~
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— leviticus 20:13 on ao3
#i may or may not be working on a new typeset#saying no would be a lie. and lying is a sin.#like oh my god just take me out back and shoot me#what makes this extra ironic#but still when he wants to kiss tetsurou he cannot help but think of sin and trying to convince himself it's okay to ask for what he wants#by saying it would be a sin to lie and that's why it's okay#even tho he doesn't believe in god!!! even tho there's literally no one around that will smite him down or judge him or tell him off#he still impulsively rationalises his choices in terms of what is and isn't a sin#god it's just so painfully catholic#for the record i do not think like this anymore#and i did always think the concept of not sinning because it went against god was a bit ridiculous even as a child that didn't sit right w/#but this is still relatable#and i think all catholics and ex-catholics can relate to the impulse to always moralise our actions breaking out of the need to constantly#justify TO YOURSELF why you do what you do or want what you want#god it's so exhaustinggggg#anyways this is exhibit a million why this kei in particular hits me quite hard#tsukki <3#kurotsuki#haikyuu#also re my post a few days ago about the importance of tsukki being the one to confess first... prime example right here
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reading book? too much effort. sitting down and writing replies?? can't focus.
youtube rabbit hole of in-depth Barbie history and architectural design of dream houses and playsets? i got all da focus in da world baybeee!
#barbie has always been an Interest especially in adult years since i more or less refrained from being#a hardcore barbie enjoyer because ykno not to gender talk on a tues but i rejected just about everything typically femme because i did not#want to be seen as femme or fully femme from a young age#so even if i really liked barbies i distanced myself from them pretty fast :'(#so now i think im compensating by like. instead of buying them for myself because i dont really want to collect. i just like lmao#obsessively info dive and watch commercial compilations and shit kdjfgdg#anyway did you know barbie has two younger siblings besides her main three that were actually her youngest ones#tutti and todd and they havent been seen since the late 90s? like theyre recognized in terms of history but in terms of#barbie lore and canon theyve been completely retconned out cuz theyve never shown up in sets or movies or anything#did you also know they were made of a bendable soft plastic as opposed to hard and the wires were prone to poking through and stabbing kids#and that the plastic stored like shit and if you put them (soft plastic) on your other dolls (hard) they would literally#melt into each other?? :)#barbie also has lots of cousins just got mentioned briefly and then annihilated from technical canon lol#oooh and then there's also Blaine who is an ex bf of barbie that was made specifically to date her briefly during a sort of campaign#barbie broke up with ken and got with blaine but ofc she got back with ken and after that blaine was never seen nor mentioned again. he deA#anyway happy tuesday im gonna eat my soup and try and break out of this info consuming trance so i can wrITE#oHOH and last silly trivia being barbie has lots of canon relatives that havent been retconned or anything BUT they've also never been made#into dolls. off the top of my head i think some of these include like uhhh her mom and dad and some aunts and shit#tho i think these are either just mentioned in passing or from the barbie movies or some in books
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the thing is i'm hyperaware of the fact that i'm Weird About Andrew Dabb but it comes from a place of me realizing back in fall 2021 that i wanted to identify why exactly i didn't like him and deciding to do a close watch of his spn eps. and when i realized i was enjoying parts of it, i decided to see what i could turn up any of his non-spn work. (this is something i've always tended to do with creatives: tracking down older stuff for a more holistic view of their work.)
i was so stuck on how much i hated some parts of his writing (s7 dabb-loflin is horrendous) and couldn't get past that... then i found out independently that he was showrunning the upcoming netflix resi show (a franchise i both love and have complicated feelings about) which filled me with dread that the guy who co-wrote 07x22 would helm a show with a predominantly black cast -- especially with the ultimate villain, albert wesker, played by a black man (RIP lance reddick, you are dearly missed). i wanted to be optimistic but i was ready to be infuriated and was so nervous that i'd hate something i'd been looking forward to as some camp horror tv.
but then. oh. OH. it was everything i ever wanted from resi and never thought i could have. i could not conceive of a resi like this. a resi where women and poc are treated with empathy and as nuanced characters with interiority. where they are the central characters. the video games have their own issues but the movies are truly egregious when it comes to black characters. so to have a predominantly black cast (and a black female protag, no less!) and have them treated respectfully was amazing. this was a show that had heart and a somewhat diverse writer's room and bts crew (not saying it was perfect) and you could see that difference in how characters were treated and how the plot and direction was handled. (i think having female directors and producers in particular helped a lot.)
for those who have not seen the anderson/jovovich movies: there is always a token black character and they will always die by the halfway mark bc they make stupid decisions. it's non-stop tits and ass shots of jovovich (which feels super weird when the director is her husband). alice (jovovich) is an Action Girl who is frequently subjected to sexualized violence but unfortunately, i love the camp horror of it. it's complicated. the video games have their own issues with the portrayal of women and ada wong being DLC feels really shitty when she's so pivotal. women are largely either helpless or Strong Sexy Action Women.
like i really cannot express just how much 8 episodes of tv so wholly changed my opinion of a writer/showrunner bc it showed such growth. a showrunner is only one piece of the puzzle of a tv show but they are the ones guiding it and the ones who have substantial influence in the hiring and development/direction of the story.
it's like. i don't forgive dabb for 07x22 and the shit he wrote with loflin (or solo, tho he improved a lot without loflin), but to see how resi turned out and to read/watch interviews with him and the bts crew is like. oh, okay. i think this person gets it now. i don't think i can forgive and forget bc s7 makes my blood boil, but i can accept that growth has happened here and that's what we should want from people.
also i'm gonna say that when i look at how i am Weird About Dabb and take a step back, i can see that i'm about as weird about him as some folks are about other writers and actors from spn (and willing to acknowledge his faults). i just chose a weird writer to be Weird about.
sorry but i just have a lot of feelings about resi.
#it really breaks my heart that in interviews with the bts folks they talked about how this was *supposed* to be a diff take on the franchise#that both worked with canon but didn't require the viewer to have 20 years of plot stored in their brains#to see these ppl who were so passionate and clearly loved the franchise and wanted it to grow and change and then have it cancelled#then there's the interview with dabb where they asked him about casting reddick to play a historically white character#with his answer basically being 'he expressed interest. you don't turn down lance fucking reddick. we adjusted the part accordingly.'#'if you watch the show you'll understand the changes to wesker and why he's alive even tho he died in the games'#the answer was just 'this wesker is a clone' with zero acknowledgment of the race change. it was amazing.#i'm so so so SO sad that we lost this show after one season and i've cried over it but i'm glad we at least got one season#it was so 'this is everything i ever wanted and didn't know i could have' that idk if i can go back to the main franchise#resi
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got un depressed enough to take the dog on a walk immediately got re depressed and had to lay down after letting mom know she didn’t have to walk her tonight
#personal#oh okay thanks mom i frequently flash back to moments with dad at a worrying rate#came home crying yesterday#i’m losing more and more hair in the shower and i’m trying to tell myself it’s not what i think it is even tho getting worse with my ed#am considering just never reaching out to my eldest brother again bc he 180ed during dads thing or like just showed who is he is under#pressure my jobs awful my car is breaking down the dog needs a tooth pulled and my dad is dead#and my mom can’t just keep it straight on if she likes or hates me#or if i’m selfish or not#and ignores me but not cruelly which is worse actually#like my mom stone walling me bc she’s upset or something? okay#it’s so hard to describe like. she cares but she doesn’t#she’ll bring me food or ask how my day is going#but i try holding a conversation or anything and she can’t acknowledge me or turn away from the tv#not even bc she’s mad!! she’s just. not? interested?#i don’t know how to describe it#and im upset she said i was selfish during dads death but she’s a acting like we’re fine now#how are we good. if you genuinely resent me and how i acted during that period how are we good#i can barely talk to you without getting super angry or really desperately wanting you to just. i don’t know not be you? be normal ?
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well it took a few days longer than intended, but as promised, Hot Karkat Summer is upon us. @callmearcturus please accept this humble offering, and thank you as usual for the inspiration. in the words of one Dave Strider, “ Paramilitary Wet Dream Chic never went out of style, apparently.”
#homestuck#karkat vantas#hot karkat summer#you get both shirted and shirtless versions bc i drew the shirt first and got attached#even tho i think it looks better w/o it#anyways YEESH this took me back. last (and only other) time i drew karkat i was still in highschool#can you believe it? wild how time flies#anyways there isnt any like. specific fic/scene this is from i just wanted to draw hot buff karkat w his sickles but needed some kind of bg#so no. i dont know why hes posing in front of a dimly lit brick wall. dont worry about it. the wall is metaphorical or smthg. idk#also i havent decided if his sickles are like. laser or just glowy or what i just thought it looked cool#and kept them visible bc otherwise they kinda just disappear into the bg#ANYWAYS once again thank you archie for your excellent taste and ideas#hot karkat summer is a great ideaand everyone should participate#daria draws#fakdhfgkdjf tumblr i am going to Bite You stop breaking the pings in my gd posts!#if yall saw me post this like 5 miutes ago no you didnt. i didnt just remake this entire post to ensure the tagging worked properly.#if this one doesnt work im gonna start biting for real
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