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disappointhin · 1 year

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listening to pinkpantheress's discography while scrolling tumblr at night>>>>>>

#im so sad #havent slept in years

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rudeboimonster · 8 months

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~help your local rat get stable housing~

edit post nov 2023: I GOT THE HELP I NEEDED THANK YOU SOSOOSO MUCH

dramatically sprawled out on the floor

so i gotta move for the third time in that many years. unfortunately between health problems and the General State of The Economy, I have been unable to find work to be able to save any money. i have no choice but to leave the entire state. i thankfully have somewhere to go, however I need help getting there. i've been trying to do the math to get what I need to its lowest amount possible, but even that is still at least $2.5k.

after this move, i should be able to get things more stable and I might even have a couple job prospects lined up in that area, but right now I'm really scraping the bottom of the barrel funds wise and desperately need help.

if you're able to spare anything, i've set up a goal through kofi so i can track it publicly. i have trouble asking for help but i really need what help i can get. thank you, so so so much.

#mutual aid #fundraiser #help #god i dont know what to tag this im just kinda ripping off the bandage bc ive been anxious about posting about this since i got asked to #leave. head in hands. please help by spreading the word if you cant spare any cash i completely understand.#i dont know what i can offer. my ability to do art has been really really low and with my sleeping/living arrangements my wrists shoulders #back have been in fucking wretches states so its hard for me to do much #if youre wonder about the other fundraiser i did a few years ago #the person i replaced in a renting situation ended up fucking me over and got basically evicted into the 2nd week of college and i had 3 da #to leave that situation or more people wouldve gotten fucked over. and ive been basically couch surfing since trying to find work #anyways i havent slept in a bed for more than a weekend since october 2021 my back is turbo fucked please help

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hugh-lauries-bald-spot · 4 months

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they call them baggins cause they baggin hoes (sam and thorin respectively)

#yeah i havent slept in days #im not funny #happy new year #samfro #bagginshield #frodo baggins #samwise gamgee #thorin oakenshield #bilbo baggins #lotr #the hobbit

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sgdlr · 10 months

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now hang on a second....

#link click #shiguang daili ren #shi guang dai li ren #lu guang #cheng xiaoshi #link click s2 spoilers #the arts from 5 million followers on weibo #from like. TWO YEARS AGO.#im sure this means nothing but also means something. Somehow.#i havent slept can you tell

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revvywevvy · 4 months

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oh hey, someone dropped lesbians in my bowl of cringe! (ref for s/i under the cut)

soooo... this is cherylle. shes a loser. but shes bittergiggles loser. i dont have much lore for her but im trying for babygirls sake. for now all ive got is girlie got drunk, stumbled into the hellzone that is that abandoned freakass kindergarten, and it was over from there lol

#913's art #ok to rb #cw suicide mention #digital art #clip studio paint #medibang paint pro #bittergiggle #self ship art #self insert #self insert community #wlw self ship #//yes i he/him lesbianed bittergiggle. fight me <3 #//he is my failwife and i love him to bits #//anyways yeah im not tagging everyone here and im sure as hell not tagging the main game.#//as for her lore. its a bit more convoluted than what i wrote there but explaining it would take too long and its 8am and i havent slept.#//OH ALSO B4 I GO TO BED happy new year <3

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year

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2023 Australian Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso(ft. Max Verstappen & Lewis Hamilton)(my personal post-race highlights)

#i seriously think this race took like 10 years off my life #i think i aged about 50 yrs during it and had about 5 mental breakdowns #i dont think i can sum up all my thoughts: just look at my liveblogs and youll see my emotional rollarcoaster #to quote will buxton: “its been a long day.” AND I HAVENT EVEN SLEPT YET WAHHHHH #anyways absolutely wild race but yknow what im glad i experienced it and ty to you all for being here with me #when else am i gonna experience such fuckery #apologies to everyone affected by my yelling and screaming i think i lost my mind about 10 times #props to nando for his consistency #not only has he gotten p3 3 races in a row #but he also lost and regained his p3 twice in a very confusing way(i think i was abt to have an emotional breakdown at the third restart)#okay but things that make me squeal: THE WAY FERNANDO LOVES HIS TEAM AND THE WAY THEY LOVE HIM and THE WAY MAX TAPS HIM ON THE BACK HEHEHE #fernando alonso #max verstappen #lewis hamilton #2023 australian gp #fa14 #mv1 #lh44 #we do a little bit of f1 #f1 #formula one #formula 1 #(2023: 3/23 races watched)

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bunnighost · 1 year

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#vent edit #actuallymentallyill #depression #sleepless nights #insomnia #i havent slept normally since november last year #since i was 14 my sleep has been bad and i feel like havent been able to really rest for years #but prior to this one thing i could actually fall asleep and then sleep for 8hrs straight #but not for several months it's so hard to fall asleep #and even if i do i wake up between 5-6 times during 7 hrs in bed #and it never ever feels restful #bc my entire body hurts and my neck is so stiff andi alwatys have a headache #going to bed is awful and i dread it the entire day #i just wanna lie down and sleep and rest but i cant

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bugieeeee · 2 days

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Damn who want me forreal

#fable rambles #tfb #i do look confused all the time #and ive looked like i havent slept in years since the second grade so #this is dumb sorry

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slutdge · 27 days

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i gotta be honest living under the constant threat that the cops can just show up and kidnap me and likely use excessive force to do so anytime they want like they have many times before for the crime of mental illness is not really helping my mental health all that much. one might say its even making it worse. hypothetically.

#hypothetically (i havent slept in days because of the paranoia)#yeah and its not helping to have 2 people that are physically violent in my life either #and every time i try to get away from them THEY CALL THE COPS AND LIE ABOUT ME HAVING A PLAN TO KILL MYSELF LOL #im working hard to get away but like im about to turn 25. its been almost 25 years. i want it to pay off now.#not in fucking 2 years or whatever i cant stand it for another second #im running on empty. i want things to be better now.#ptsd #apologies again for using this blog as a void to scream into about mental illness but i dont have anywhere else to do it lol #im trying not to drink anymore but idk maybe life should take its fucking boot off my neck for 5 seconds perhaps

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feathers-feathers · 8 months

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Bug Fables' deep lore is engaging in open warfare with my mental helath i swear to GOD I CAnt figure this tHE FUCK OUT IM GOING INSANE

Context: I'm trying to make a timeline. Bug fables took this personally.

The big question here that got me to break is what the fuck is the deal with Flower Gods? So I was writing an essay of sorts to try and figure it out as I go, then clean it up and post it when I came to a few satisfying conclusions, and maybe make a poll to see what others would prefer.

I have now lost at least a decade of my lifespan, and will be seeking reparations in the court of law. I'll post what I wrote below the cut, just be aware that it's not finished, will not be finished if I have a gun to my head, and jumps places every now and then because that's just how I roll in the drafting stage.

I hope to all the gods above that some of you can find sense where I have failed.

Beware: Here be dragons. (Also, it's quite long.)

BEGIN

Currently doing timeline shenanigans with Bug Fables. I learned something in the lore that will have a major impact in how that timeline manifests. The problem is that this lore detail isn't exactly straight-forward, and has multiple interpretations. I'd like to see some other thoughts on this matter before I make a decision. The lore in question is regarding the creation of the Flower Gods.

A reminder: There is a secret room in Snakemouth Den that displays information regarding the 3 Flower Gods. Prior to seeing this room, most I think didn't even know there were 3 - only knowing of Venus at the time. The other two are Mars and Pluto. These displays tell us a few things. Some information on the gods themselves: Venus is

Guardian: M-001 "Mars" Age: 361 Status: Stable

Guardian: V-012 "Venus" Age: 358 Status: Stable

Guardian: P-183 "Pluto" Age: 34 Status: Stable

This secret asks a whole bunch of questions and answers exactly none of them.

The first thought I see many people go to is that this, of course, confirms that the Roaches created them. However, there is dialogue from Venus herself stating "Ah, it still feels like it was yesterday when they were scurrying around the land trying to get stuff together!" Which doesn't say much, but sort of implies that she was around while the Roaches were still figuring things out.

But what about those designations, what do they mean? For something like this - and considering they all start with the first letter of the Guardian's name - I think it's, like, a version number.

If they were all created by the Roaches, then… wtf? So with Mars, they got it right on their very first try - congratulations, a fucking GOD is born - but their next Guardian took 12 attempts? What? And then Pluto took 183 attempts. And the time discrepancy is just…. weird. Wtf does this mean? The Roaches started off as the best scientists ever, getting everything correct on their first go, then suddenly dropping the ball off the face of the Earth and getting nothing right? For centuries? And after all of that, they consider the Sapling to be their greatest creation. Not any of the Actual Deities they supposedly made. And then they place two of these gods in… just… entirely different territories. Mars is in the Eastern lands. Lord knows where Pluto is, but not Bugaria, that's for sure. I do find this rather unpalatable.

If they weren't created by the Roaches - they were just studying them, trying to replicate their power - I think that fits some of this better. Especially that above quote by Venus. If she was around before the Roaches developed what they have now - the Roaches being the first bugs to awaken - then did she awaken before even them? If she - and, perhaps, Mars - were the first to awaken, then was the Day of Awakening only around 370 years ago? That would probably be the best case scenario for developing a timeline. It'd be the only True Date that can be nailed down, and make it a lot easier to place other dates around it by comparison.

But still… what's the deal with the version numbers? Perhaps the Guardians do not have true immortality, but ressurrective immortality? That would sort imply that Pluto might in fact be the first, and he's on his 183'd life. It would also mean that Mars would actually be the youngest of the gods. Despite being the oldest current version, he is still only on his First version - no deaths, no resurrections. This would also mean that Pluto died around the time the Roaches vanished. But also - if Pluto died 182 times prior to his current iteration… what the fuck kind of life is this guy living? Is he stuck in a death loop, wtf?

This is honestly just another discrepancy, to me. Lets be as conservative as possible and say that most of Pluto's lives were all around 30 years in length. This is so conservative as to be ridiculous, but let's just ignore that. 183 x 30 = 5490. That's Fucking Old - and I'm gonna say, just as ridiculous. Why, then, would the other two gods only have a few years of an age gap? This feels like a strong point towards the idea that the Roaches created them??? that the designations are version numbers before deployment and not ressurrective iterations???

Oh My God. What the fuck am I supposed to believe?

BREAK

This is where I officially gave up. I hate all of these ideas none of them are satisfactory. Bug Fables why do you hate me so muchae dsafsafgfghrdsgrdfeignbreoiatghnbfrabgifrhdfhdfghdfsghdfizghsregtbdfsgfcuigh

#bug fables #dear god help me figure this out #i havent slept for weeks #i missed so many calls #what year is it?#is silksong out yet?#long post #unfinished essay

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cxndyfxre · 2 months

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Hello lgbtq+ Community

#cxndyrambles #its 430 am #i havent slept #or used tumblr #in like half a year #good morning

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katabasiss · 1 year

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ohhhh the tantalising allure of calling in sick for work

#havent slept more than 3-4 hours a night in a week and a half 😭#would LOVE a day to do nothing 🤡 especially before im set to work new years 😭#oh the temptation is sooo strong #also just got my schedule for next week and its vile 🤢🤢

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colinprovolone · 22 days

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this .blend file got hands

#i've spent sooo long on this lol #i started it 8 pm last night. its nearly noon. i havent slept #its fun though #im getting significantly better at shortcuts #having to completely redo the face texture cause tex paint doesn't save with the rest of the file took years off my life though #3d stuff #i'll probably clean this up and rig him sometime #i absolutely am gonna model fig eventually too that'll be fun

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c-kiddo · 10 months

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how old would you say cadeuces is in dfy?

like 20. basically a wee babby

#he has a winter (january maybe) birthday though (in the au) so idk if he's started the year at 20 or 19 or not.#idk i havent decided #kiddo say #also i think hes just like. one of those people where u rly cant tell what age he is lmao. like looks like a teenager sometimes but has #eyebags like he hasnt slept in 100 yrs and acts like a grandpa #so hes confusing

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quiveringdeer · 3 months

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love thinkin I'm over being sick then feeling like passing out while trying to wash my hair

#nat talks #this flu really took it out of me yall #it was probs mostly the fact i havent had an appetite so i havent eaten anything today #not even snacks are appealing #iv been cravin some spicy crispy chicken since last night but slept most of the day #and the closest place to get some is bojangles and i just knew id be disappointed with it :(#fast food really hasnt been hittin like it used to this past year

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dykemerrilll · 3 months

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i think i have played skyrim for probably a total of five hours in about five years but for some reason whenever i’m feeling particularly fragile it is the thing to calm me. there must just be something inherently soothing about it because it’s not as if i have any particular nostalgia for it. jeremy soule what did you put in this soundtrack

#ais.log #i think specifically when i havent slept #when i had horrible insomnia + ocd spirals last year during my masters i would listen to those #no-aggro walks through skyrim #i didnt sleep well last night either (because of my dog this time though not stress lol) and once again #i want to watch a guy roam around skyrim doing literally nothing

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