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mlobsters · 10 months

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supernatural s7e16 out with the old (w. jenny klein, bob singer)

goofy ass way to kill someone (i guess the red shoes reference?), but i'll take actual ballet dancers dancing in media any day :) and tchaikovsky's swan lake is one of my all time favorite pieces of classical music

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did you know swan lake has a happy ending in some productions? this abt version has them yeeting themselves off a cliff to die together and reunite in heaven but some they kill off the baddie and everyone is together and happy. anyway i totally cried again watching that finale clip lol

moving on

the pristine unworn pointe shoes to the side of the gore made me laugh. so dumb

why won't they let them wear actual cold winter appropriate clothing?? they must have been freezing in their little light fall jackets.

SAM Yeah, well, every time I close my eyes, Lucifer is yelling into my head. It's like I let him in once, now I can't get rid of him. DEAN You know he's not actually... SAM Yeah. Yeah, no. I know. Uh, try telling that to the volume control inside my brain. DEAN Well, did you try the hand thing? SAM Yeah.

💔 but even i can't resist suggesting that maybe dean could help you with more pain

black vintage firebird yes please and thank you. there was a trans am in 5.13 the song remains the same too, wrote about a boy who had one in my high school lol

oh god the poor girl in the pointe shoes. laughing and cringing. i was thinking she's young but maybe she just looks really young, i started pointe at 11 (which was too early most likely). anyway thankfully they didn't have her visibly doing much of anything. whew

DEAN Getting the strong urge to Prince Siegfried myself into oblivion? Yes. SAM You really did see "Black Swan."

yes swan lake reference!! i finally watched black swan here not long ago, i'll watch anything with ballet but it was a little too scary for what i could tolerate in my headspace there for a good while.

SAM Geez! You okay there, Baryshnikov? DEAN Yeah. Yeah, I'm "pas de done."

(you know male ballet dancers generally don't wear pointe shoes, right) baryshnikov is my fave and i actually got to see him perform - sadly not classical ballet, but with the white oak dance project back in early 2000s.

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this has other dances doing the same variation, but baryshnikov is first and this is one of my favorite things (i have this performance on vhs). it is perfect for his acting and obviously his technique and power is jaw dropping. the gasps and cheers from the audience with that first big jump, seriously💯

cursed kitchen object does not give me joy. me: why is sam so impatient, he keeps snapping at everyone. oh right, no sleep, satan-vision screaming

DEAN You know, I wonder how old porn kills you. SAM Pretty sure you don't want to know.

oh, sam. you can't power through sleep deprivation

JOYCE We have a chain of command here, George. You see a Winchester, you don't eat him. You tell me, and I eat him.

again with the awful photoshop job on dick. and i dunno what program he's supposed to be using there with an excel like sum button

sammy saving the day. wonder if he kept the sword

apparently this is the third episode with bad moon rising in it,

via wiki: also played in 1.22 Devil's Trap and 2.01 In My Time of Dying. this sadly did not making the streaming rights so it's some knockoff on netflix (on the radio during the semi crashing into the impala). i already figured it meant bad news this time around, doubly so.

i know a vague plot point for s8 i think but i don't know what happens with sam's head (i don't think, at least) our how we get to what i know from s8. but misery scale is tipping heavier as we approach the end of the season soo. i am so looking forward to the end of the leviathan plotline. i could not care less

it was nice seeing them in an environment with snow. like dirty gray winter weather kind of snow, not just the pretty stuff

#supernatural #spnwatch #spn 7x17 #firebird #ballet #swan lake #mikhail baryshnikov #gore #Youtube #jenny klein #bad moon rising #robert singer

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yourroleplayfinder · 1 year

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Hi, hello! My name is Kit, they/them; I'm 30+ and am looking for 18+ roleplay partners! (Preferably 20+ but that's not as important.) I'm looking for RP in two fandoms, Keroro Gunso/Sgt. Frog (primarily anime but with manga knowledge and probably some details!) and The Last Halloween (the webcomic). 🐸 For Keroro Gunso/Sgt. Frog, I'm looking for someone to play either Kururu Souchou/Saburo Mutsumi or Kururu Souchou/Dororo Heichou with me! I have a slight preference for playing Mutsumi or Dororo, but am open to playing Kururu in either pairing as well. (I am also open to Dororo/Kururu/Mutsumi, either in a 1x1 or with three of us playing it.) 🎃 For The Last Halloween, I'm looking for someone to play Dr. Fugue/Robert with me; in this case, I would be playing Robert, so I'm looking for a Fugue roleplayer! I have a few vague plot ideas/possibilities in mind, but I'm happy to chat with potential roleplay partners to figure out what we both wanna do! I can usually reply at least once per day, often more, but of course real life comes first for both of us! I can write anything between a line or two and like 5+ paragraphs, but won't almost never write more than 300 words in a single post; I like to take my cue from my RP partner when it comes to this but also just in general what's best and necessary for any particular reply. I RP in third person only and am fine with past or present tense; I'm also fine with prose or an "action brackets" type of RP. I prefer to play over Discord or Dreamwidth, but would be open to RPing on Tumblr or even over email or Google Docs; if you have another preference just bring it up! Open to 🌶️ but it's not necessary. (With Fugue/Robert it might be, uh, difficult.) Open to trans headcanons but they're not necessary. PM me and I'll give you my Discord~ Or if you like this post, I'll reach out to you! (If you reblog it I'll just assume you're reblogging it for visibility or something and thank you, lol.)

#mun 30+#search 18+#search 20+#keroro gunso rp #the last halloween rp

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supertransural · 3 years

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supernatural made me realize a bunch of shit about myself, specifically identity and it’s part of the reasons why i think it’s an inherently queer story.

allow me to clarify. once upon a time, 6 years ago, i found supernatural. back then i was mostly in the closet, even to myself. i’d gotten to that point of “hah wouldn’t it be nice to be like guys on tv and kiss the pretty girls” but not much further than that, because in most of the movies i had watched with my parents, the personality of the guy wasn’t really explored in the way supernatural (mostly unintentionally ngl) does with its characters.

so picture a teen, finding my first tv show to watch alone, being able to think my very own comments about it and not fear any repercussions from those thoughts because hey, i’m alone in my room i can think what i like about what i’m seeing. and feeling.

and here enters dean. complicated, comes from a rough childhood, parental expectations weighing so heavy on him it’s bleeding through his smiles, has a brother he feels is his duty to protect, is stuck in a loop of denial repression depression sublimation denial repression depression sublimation den-

you get the gist. i related to that guy. and then here he goes getting bi-coded (didn’t know what that was at the time but looking back, i could sure as hell feel it) and then kissing girls on screen, despite his wavering self-confidence. little ol’ gay me was like “yoooo i relate to this character on most of his character points, do i also relate to like..... wanting to do what he does??? do i wanna kiss other girls????”. fast forward one season and i’ve already figured out i was maybe bi. literally thanks to season 1 dean.

so, having figured out this “minor” aspect of myself, i went on youtube to find some other people like me and try to see if i was right to be homophobic towards myself or not. figured out, hey uh, definitely not. so you can also add “it ended up making me try to put a stop to my internalized homophobia” on the list of things that shitpost of a show helped me with.

i went back to the show for another season, relating even more to dean, and “blah blah blah queer coded character blah blah blah gay me could feel it before i knew what it was blah blah blah happy gay stuff”. several seasons passed by before anything new came up on my “hm this show rly out here bringing out all the queer aspects of myself huh” journey, but anyways i was still slowly but surely thinking holy shit i wanna be this goddamn man i want to be dean.

then comes season 4, walzing into my questioning little heart. oof ok, this season hit ALL the right spots for me. because i could feel what was going on between cas and dean and even though everything was still blurry as fuck, the parallel between sam/ruby and dean/cas was clear as day. and i was like “oh so you’re saying there’s a love here and it’s like that tarnished love between sam and ruby and it’s forbidden so that’s why we’re not seeing it and it’s like... gay”. so it made me realize “holy shit, i wanna see more gay content, and it’s ok to want that.”

then cas became another extremely relatable character, because i just kept thinking “he doesn’t really have a gender the same way other humans do” and i shit you not, he started me questioning my own gender. because again, a relatable character that you somewhat identify with that makes you ask questions about their identity INEVITABLY makes you ask questions about yourself. queue me going on youtube yet again to understand this shit a little better. i went through a few months of thinking “maybe i’m nb”, joined a few more gay communities on the internet, started learning about lgbtq+ things, watched a few more gay shows, and basically just grew a little more into my queerness.

fasforward several seasons, a couple gap years where i stopped watching it, and you’ll get to me a year ago. i thought i was a gay woman, fairly happy in that mental space and identity. but then. the whole “i wanna be dean” thing came up a lot again. because he just kept on being more and more visibly queer coded as i kept on learning more about this shit.

lo and behold, i jumped straight into the idea i was trans. and wouldya look at dat, i was right. quarantine happened, so i had to get even more of my interactions through online platforms, and quite obviously hovered around the gayer ones, or at least the lgbtq+ sides of them. and as i kept watching the show on and off, binging the first seasons for the 4th time, i kept learning more and more about myself. and those acts of gay frenzy were always started by seeing something relatable or strange in that show and looking it up. like, legitimately every time.

i found this community on tumblr a few weeks ago because i was tired of having my own little hypotheticals in my head and not knowing if anyone agreed, and the more i’ve been here the more i’ve learned about myself. the more i’ve let go of a lot of internalized hatred. the more i’ve been really ok with myself, as a trans guy. BUT ITS NOT FINISHED YET.

because, as we all know, it is common understanding here that dean is bi. WELL, i’ve been re-binging the show with that mindset finally clear in my head, and the “haha dean relatable lol” thing came up again, except it was really a “haha dean (who is bi) super relatable lol” thing now. so i paused, yet again, to think about that a little more. AND FIGURED OUT I WASNT STRAIGHT, IM BI AS FUCK.

that happened 1 month ago. i thought i’d grown fully into my queer self, that i’d gone through enough realizations and coming outs (to friends only, god forbid i come out to my parents (unfortunately quite literally god forbid lmao) before i’m out of here) for a lifetime. but apparently not. AND IT WAS STILL BECAUSE OF SUPERNATURAL. destiel and trans!dean fics helped with my internalized transphobia and homophobia, they helped with acceptance of those parts of myself. something that helped was also seeing the fact that shipping two guys in a tv show wasn’t just “being greedy with my grubby little gay hands” and wanting to think of a character as trans wasn’t just “being delusional and ridiculous”. and reading fics wasn’t cringy, it was nice and comforting.

so to try and sum up this unhinged gay rant, what i meant by my initial statement is this.

looking back on this entire self-discovery journey that i went on, it really felt like i was in the impala with the boys, except i was on a different kind of route (just picture this giant road painted in rainbow colors with baby driving at 80mph on it, that’s what it felt like). i grew with those characters, but most importantly i grew THANKS to those characters. their story was queer enough to make me, a fairly homophobic, traditional, conservative kid into a lib trans bi dude. and not in a “i got converted by the fandoms” way. i found the fandom waaaaayyyyyyyy later. i stumbled upon the fandoms looking for answers about this gayass goddamn show that i could FEEL was like me but couldn’t verbalize yet.

their story felt like a queer self discovery story and i could already see that before i went on it myself. no other shows have ever done that for me, and i’ve watched shows that had lgbtq+ characters in them, scripted gay scenes, not just subtext but text. and they still didn’t do that for me.

so this is why this show is so meaningful to be, and incidentally so very gay. like genuinely.

#jesus christ this was long #i’m sorry for this fucking rant but needed to get it out #it’s just so gay and it made me see my own gay #and i just needed to share that #like destiel literally helped with my life but also my queer identity #anyways imma shut up now #spn #supernatural #destiel #cas #dean #deancas #bidean #lgbtq #rant #vent

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inktog · 3 years

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yo! just commenting to say I really loved your latest fic on Ao3, it was so good! From a technical level it was just well written, super in character and just very tightly put together. you write such a convincing relationship between Luz and Amity, and I really dug every part of it!

On the more mature side of things, I can't believe this was your first attempt at writing smut! shit was cute AND hot at the same time! I think there could have been more description of the climax given the buildup of the story, but all in all it was very well done. Also Ed and Em! Bad! Bad Siblings! I like how you're willing to show the nastier parts of their personalities a lot of people overlook when writing them (they were pretty cruel in Lost in Language), even if they don't directly have malicious intent.

So yeah! A+ fic, really liked the story and am looking forwards to whatever you write next! As an aside - trans Amity? 200iq idea that I can't believe I hadn't seen until this point, and the way you wrote her here was just 🥺. I would love to see more works with the concept in the future, everything about it is just good.

Sorry for the wall of text, thanks for reading this far!

-Onon

Hello! First of all please don’t apologize because this is one of the nicest comments I've ever gotten.

This isn’t exactly my first attempt—I have written one (1) original fiction smut, although it belonged to an extremely different wheelhouse and I’m also not sure it was any good. (And if we’re counting euphemistic M-rated fics…) But uh, yeah! I’m really happy you enjoyed it. Feedback noted and appreciated, although I admit I don’t know whether you mean the story’s climax or Amity’s.

I love Edric and Emira’s canon characterization. I love that Lost in Language frames them as unequivocally in the wrong—both in their actions and in their rationalizations—without painting them as intrinsically horrible or any less multifaceted. I’m not sure where I got the idea for the ending, but once it came to me, I knew I just had to write it.

Since you mentioned future projects: you may be interested in Opposite Day, if you haven’t already read it. The twins aren’t the main focus, but they show up in a few scenes and act Not Great to their sister (although not nearly as extreme as in By the Fire). It’s also, on a similar note, something of a pushback against the fanon characterization of Uncomplicatedly Good Mom Eda. (Not that there’s anything wrong with writing Good Mom Eda or Good Siblings Ed & Em, of course; it’s just not where my taste or interests lie.) My next major project is a Willow-centric sequel that will dig into the uglier parts of her history with Amity; I can’t say when it will be published (hopefully sometime this year, lol), but I’m chipping away at it.

But yeah! Trans Amity! I’m kind of surprised it’s not a more popular headcanon, because seriously…you look me in the eye and tell me this girl is cisgender.

[image: The original design for Amity Blight, drawn by Dana Terrace. Her teal hair with brown roots is a little longer and messier than in canon, like a lion’s mane; a small lock of it is bound in a black hair tie. She wears a pink dress, its white frilly hem just past her waist; black tights or leggings; pink shoes; a black bracelet with spikes on her right wrist; a few black hair ties on her left; a thin, tight black necklace around her neck, and a black studded earring in her one visible ear. Her body faces the viewer, but her head is turned to her left in a profile view, looking immensely smug. Her left arm is folded at her side, and her right hand is held out to her side in a finger-gun position, summoning an orange flame nearly as large as her head.]

I can’t promise I’ll write too much on the topic; I’m not terribly interested in Stories About Being Trans, and it only came up here on account of the smut. But trans!Amity is very much a headcanon that I always keep in mind when writing her, even if it’s not explicitly mentioned.

Admittedly, it creates a weird dynamic for canon-compliant and canon-adjacent stuff vis a vis her parents.

[image: The “I can excuse racism” meme from Community, edited to say: I can accept that my youngest child is a girl because she says so but I draw the line at letting her make literally any other decisions about her life or body.]

But hey, “the Boiling Isles doesn’t have any heteronormativity” is a fairly popular headcanon—why not throw out transphobia and cisnormativity as well?

Anyway, tl;dr thank you so much for this lovely comment. It absolutely made my morning <3

#ask #onon #the owl house #nsfpc

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