And the third was — elegant. It was not the right word for him, but it was close. He was fine boned and a little fragile looking, with blue eyes pretty enough for a girl.

LIVES WERE CHANGED. Thank you, Blue.

YouTube doesn’t keep playing in a little box in the corner when u leave the app with a video playing anymore??

Applying to SaaS jobs in order to create the world's most unhireable resume. (rn it's: library. nonprofit (religious). nonprofit (human trafficking). nonprofit (religious again). and next...??) i hope when i have to submit a cv for grad school at some point, the admissions counselor has to call me and ask for clarification.

WIP of this one dude.

Yeah, that’s right. That’s not a typo. I said it was fucking niche.

shadows of a bloody legacy

but what if both of them were ashnard's sons. what if that was why almedha so desperately clung to pelleas — protecting the one of her twin sons she could recover, even to the point of madness. what if.

your khdr poll has got me Violently wanting to draw the upperclassmen again …. i think i have some sketches lying around somewhere from when the finale dropped. i forgot that I had a Bunch of hcs for them..

yes… hahahaha…. YES

homophobia sucks

Ok, in a previous ask about corlys and laenor you said "you can't disinherit someone just because you don't like them or don't want to"

I want to know where the Samwell/Randyll Tarly thing falls? Randyll Tarly basically threatened Sam and coerced him into joining the Night's Watch so that Sam would be removing himself from the line of inheritance. So what Randyll did was legal, because technically Sam "chose" to disinherit himself? It does support what you're saying because Randyll wouldn't have resort to threatening Sam into taking the black if he could just pick and choose which son he wanted to be Lord of Horn Hill.

(Sorry if my rambling doesn't make sense, this clarification is more for my own sake, trying to make sure I understood what you said)

Hello, friend. Yes, exactly. Randyll Tarly forced his son to join the Night's Watch because otherwise he couldn't legally pass him over to ensure Dickon gets Horn Hill. Of course that in our modern legal system coercion is illegal and perhaps technically it would be in Westeros, as well, but it would be very hard to prove in a court of law and I doubt anyone would care enough to go to such lengths to defend Sam's rights. I suppose? he could have petitioned his liege lord, Mace Tyrell, or, failing that, King Robert, but would they really have anything to gain by angering Randyll Tarly, a seasoned military commander and useful as an ally, for this random boy? There's also the practical obstacle of the "hunting accident", so Sam has to either comply or stage some kind of escape and live as a runaway.

I don't know to explain that endless doubt shapes the most nontraumatic pathological parts of my existence while also being the thing that keeps me alive, that shapes who I am, my curiosity, my ambition, my love. you dig deep in my and it's a powerful mechanisms of thought and cycles and that ends up with me disordered. but it also keeps me alive, and it also makes me who I am.

Zeon/Kite/Juniper thoughts:

Kite is, on the one hand, still struggling a little bit with Juniper being Agnian, from another colony and also good old-fashioned ???? gender???? b/c that's the text, babeyyy and on the other feeling guilty and like he's betraying Zeon all over for being so interested in Juniper and getting close to them

and meanwhile Zeon and Juniper are like "Friend?" "Friend!" "Friend!" *do a little dance like Furbies and then hold hands* and talk about how both of them are worried that Kite is once again trying too hard on his own and they wish he'd just talk to them :C

i am staring at the ask box and starting to think about how to tackle it again, there’s still a backlog of about 25-30 that ideally i would like to get through before the end of the year.

i have this anxiety sometimes that i spend lots of effort on some and little on others, either because of a lack of time or patience or a shift in my art style or whatever reason, but I should just lean into whatever i’m feeling and not worry too much about doing something very polished. the blog is, as always, a work in progress that i’m doing for free out of my own energy and i need to be okay with contradictions and inconsistencies, including in the quality and effort put into my responses. 

I can always revisit ones I’m not satisfied with later, and I hope no one will take it personally if I don’t answer their particular ask as a multi panel full colour comic with an added bibliography if I can’t for whatever reason. likewise- current event asks are fine and dandy but they will range wildly from “sat on them for a year and forgot” to “answered in 5 minutes in ballpoint pen” and I just gotta be okay with that.

since i have basically lost my previous job that i was lucky enough to be able to draw during, sitting at my desk all day at my current job now actually requires my full attention / a lot of mental effort, and it means the first thing i do when i’m done work is go for a walk or do chores, so my ability to put effort and focus into my art is changing and I just need to roll with the punches at this point.

thanks for your patience with me, and please fill out the survey in the pinned post if you haven’t yet! :3 it will help me lots!

i've been watching heartstopper, haven't finished yet but i wanted to say-

MAN. those scenes, those shots, depicting nick's genuine confusion and struggle with his identity & figuring out his sexual orientation? god man i am aroace, not bi, but that hits so close to home.

him realising he likes a dude as well sends him into a confusion about his hetero identity. and my confusion was around if i have even experienced a crush before, confusing aesthetic and platonic attraction and being genuinely confused!

and i didn't really know what asexual meant, so i spent some time half knowing i wasn't straight but not knowing what i was then. i had a moment thinking i was bi or pan cuz i felt equally the same to everyone

either way, heteronormativity, amatonormativity and all that has instilled expectations in all of us to the point that when something diverges from the norms. it's confusion time- like how can something i've grown up believing not be true? but identity is so much more fluid than that and those norms harms everyone

you gotta accept and love yourself no matter what, you gotta back yourself up or who else will? gotta remember that it's okay to have these feelings.

just figuring out and navigating and accepting your feelings... a whole 'nother journey

I hope you all are ready for more writing.

guys uhhh not to be the bearer of bad news but. i woke up with a sore throat AGAIN

I played a lot of The Division 2 this past weekend and I’m actually very pleased to say I’m having a great time. I mean it’s just tacticool destiny and while I’m no where near anything resembling endgame, seeing the build variety is very exciting.

It’s also making me reckon with the fact that…maybe I actually really LIKE Ubisoft games. Not love, just like. I had a blast with Far Cry 2-5. I loved Watch Dogs 2. The first 2 and now last 3 AC games were a lot of fun.

I think getting older has drastically changed what I look for in a game. I know what to expect from Ubi. Great world building. Solid gun play. Some light rpg elements. A lot of exploration. Outsposts, Storngholds, blah, blah, etc, etc. All things I genuinely enjoy.

I can find new experiences in indie games when I want something fresh. Idk im just vibing. Getting worked up over video games is such a teen/20s thing to do. Im too old for it. I just wanna play silly games and not think about how awful things are.

I love working at university. We all think we’re losers. Just overheard this conversation outside my office:

“How much time do I have for my presentation? 30 minutes?” “Yes. You can do it! I know you can.” “The only thing I’m capable of, like in general, is standing around and stammering.” “Don’t forget that you’re a professor. And our dean!” “That doesn’t mean anything.”