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#I PLANNED TO LOSE#MY ALGORITHM IS GONE NOW#FUCKKKKKK#shes soooooo sexy tho hehe#i have 14 rainbow roses its joever#caspian plays: genshin impact !!
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Okay sorry if this is an insane request. But does anyone have any actual sources for if the cosplayer who served as the inspiration for Betsumon ever consented to her likeliness being used for the creation process. I found one blogpost which CLAIMS she was fine with it but there was no source for it attached I saw and I cant seem to find anything on my own just by looking it up
#digimon#betsumon#tailmon betsu#dinu yells into the void#dinu yells in the void#please. help me out with this one chat.#i know this is an insane request because most people dont like betsumon because they think the design is creepy or weird#i actually dont mind betsumon as a digimon purely from a design standpoint my hang up is that like#i feel Bad. over the idea of liking betsumon as a digimon because of the origin and because i have no idea if the cosplayer consented#in my opinion its way more important to me to know if the cosplayer agreed to having a joke digimon created based off her#its an entirely different situation if betsumon was created essentially as a mockery of a cosplayer who was just doing her job#and having fun#especially because in the original betsumon design it could be read as extremely transmisogynistic as well#sorry again i know literally no one else on planet earth cares about this BUT I DO!!!!!!!#ive never been able to personally reconcile like. Enjoying designs that are meant to be meanspirited mockeries#of whatever thing person etc. like it makes Me specifically feel bad#and again I think it’s more important to examine the origins of a design like this and Why it is the way it is. then just blanket#‘oh well its ugly to me so its bad and evil and gross’. do i make sense does any of this make sense.#fuckkkkkk i should go get dinner this just kept me up all night thinking about it#like obviously if the cosplayer was fine with it and she was like finding it funny or charming then my hang up is gone#because like Shes the main person affected in all of this. hence why i wanna know. you know?
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yesterday I was annoyed people don’t treat his gr!ef seriously and today I’m fighting tears in meetings so this is fun
#drrbt talks#I won’t start but fuckkkkkk youve gone and given mark survivors guilt fuckkkkkk#< its an interesting thing i appreciate it btw im just emo yk
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AS IF MY WEEK COULDN'T GET WORSE oh my god
#im so so so so close to just ending it all seriously what the fuck#so i have the new samsung flip phone right and ive had it for almost two months#and suddenly . today the screen in the crease bit has a black line#and the top half of the screen just simply isnt working#and apparently samsung doesnt cover this under the warranty#I DIDNT EVEN GET THIS ON A PLAN I PAID $1500 FOR IT IM KILLING MYSELFFFFF#i was on campus w a friend my loml and it was literally fine we were looking ah dumb tweets about the enlistment 😭#and then like a second later i go to type something in the search bar and the top half JUST ISNT WORKING 😭😭😭😭#i cant do assignments im severely depressed all white men suck the one lil source of escapism i have will be gone till 2025#ITS LIKEEEEEE WHAT IF I JUST KILL MYSELF#it doesnt sound like a big deal BUT IT WAS SO EXPENSIVE NOW I HAVE TO PAY HUNDREDS TO GET IT FIXED AND IVE NOT EVEN HAD IT FOR TWO MONTHS#its just . im already so so sad and tired and on the verge of like death could this not have waited till next week FUCKKKKKK
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HI BABYGIRL HAI HAI HAIIIIII
hope you’re having a splendid weekend<333<33 took the wknd off from work and am rotting accordingly lols… annnnyyywas it’s 3am for me currently rn// fucking daylight savings omfg it was literally just 1:59 two seconds ago BRUH///////. and I’m plagued with minhos thighs . the power of a .1 second clip of this man literally just sitting ??????
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Cy9NhZ9NAcZ/?igsh=cWtiOTZueDl5ZjFq
i need to touch grass or find god orSIT ON HIS LAP or delete social media or or orrrrrrrrr💆🏽♀️💆🏽♀️💆🏽♀️ ALSO LOOK AT THIS FUCKING JI EDIT THIS OKW KILLED ME BRO
like what the FUCKKKKKK DUDE DO NOME OF YALL WANR ME TO BE SANE BC ITS FUCKING WORKIFNGGGSGSGSGSHSHS
PLEASE I AM SO GLAD I WASNT THE ONLY ONE WHO COMPLETELY FORGOT IT WAS DAYLIGHT SAVINGS ?????? I was so confused I thought I was just that bad at keeping track of time 😭😭 luckily I was awake to catch the Hyuniminibinnie live AND the nct127 live so I might’ve gone to sleep at like 7am but it was worth it 😋☝️
ALSO STOPPDPCDODKD THE WAY I ALREADY HAVE THAT MINHO VIDEO SAVED PLEAAASKKWWKEJDN HIS MANSPREADING IS SO FUCKINT SEXYYJSJDJD I NEED TO SIT ON HIS LAP…… AND RHE FUCKINF JISUNG EDIT OH YALL WANT ME DEADDDDD 😀😀😀😀 I just know facial hair Jisung eats pussy like a full time job
ILY ANGEL I HOPE YOU’RE DOING WELL RAHHH WE’RE HUGGING RN 💓🩷💕🫶
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My liveblog reaction post for JRWI Riptide 114! :3 SPOILERS AHEAD if that wasn’t obvious.
I completely forgot. About the bastion/stronghold. IF THEY LEAVE THE SHIP THEY LOSE THE TELEPORTER.
Haha! Ha. Wowie this is extremely stressful to start a session Jesus Christ. Pls get good perception AGGG. The laughter but it’s so stress LMAOOO AAAA
If anyone dies this episode! Haha.
How is this all 10 mins into the episode it’s just a terrible chase scene I am so. Aughhh
THANK GOD TBEY GOT TO THE DOCKS. BUT IS THE SHIP OKAY. if the ship fucking denigrates they lose their teleporter man they need that to get home if anything haha! Aggghghsh
The fucking. Fish shoes. Also PORTABLE HOLE LMAOOO
Gryffon :( my boy protect the ship my guy ily
Godddd because of the title I’m so fucking sure there’s stuff about Jay’s family here. I’m so sure there’s lots of things here but it’s so not safe.
Darkness lets gooo… oh.. that audio… ohhhhggg ahhdnjs oh goddddd
“Hello..?” *unimaginable horror response in a roar*
HOW HAS IT ONLY BEEN 25 MINS THERE ARE UNIMAGINABLE HORRORS THIS IS TERRIFYING
Portable holeeeee that’s a smart play, but that’s terrifying to think bout the helmet
“GUYS YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS” “what is it gill?” “Stairs!” “… that’s a ladder gill-“ I love them so much
More unimaginable horror sounds! Oh boy! This is. It’s been 30 fucking minutes.
Oh yucky.. skin… Jesus.. oh noooogghdjhdns
ITS GONE?!?!? WHERE THE FUCK DID IT GO.
THIS IS NOT THE FUCKING TIME TO BE ARGUINGGGG AAAAGGGG
I hate this so fucking much actually
The bit shoes.. Charlie please
We have made it 40 mins in let’s goooo haha. Ha!
A GLHYPHHJDHHSHS JAY NO WHAT HEY. FIREEE????? 37 POINTS HOLYYYY FUCKKKKK
HAHSJFHSJAIDJSUHWKS CREATURES THEYRE HERE AND THEYRE ANGRY
Haha it’s all fine now. Also the fucking bones aren’t real??? What. HAHAHAHAJGSIW UH OH BIZLY PLEASSEE
LMAOOO HAHAGGGSHDA THE PARANOIA IS SO FUCKING REAL
HAHSHSHSHA THE FUCKING MICROCHIPS IN THE WATER NOO STOP FUCKIN WITH GILL LMAO
Almost an hour in!! Woooooo! No ones dead thank fucking god
Thank god Chip please make sure no one dies thank u skelly man <3
Floor threeeee baybeee surely nothing happens here. :)
There’s someone waiting for themmmmm hahaha
“Jay can you do me a flavor right now?”
AHAHSHSHSHA WHATTTT WDYMMMM EVERYTHING GULLIOKFNXUSHSO GILLION NOOOOOO WHAT THE FUCKSHAIABA also the last quote being Gillion’s last words man. Yikes
Where is my boy where is my boy where is my boy. IS THAT HIS FUCKING SKIN
ITS HIS FUCKING SKINH IM SO MOT OKAY WHWRE IS MY BOY WHEFE IS HE. GIVE HIM BACK THEY JUST GOT HIM VACK
Haha. I’m fine :) I’m gonna ignore that for now haha cause why. Would that be an issue :)
I’m so worried about him actually. Bring him back
THEY WERE FUCKING EXPERIMENTING ON THE ICHOR. I KNEW IT BUT GOD THE CONFIRMATION IS. UGHHHGHDJSK yea this is such a navy thing to do. Yuck
Oh my god they didn’t see what skin the trition in the ground was. What if that was Edyn. Oh I’m so unwell.
GODDD THEYRE USING THE LEVIATHAN AND THE FUCKING ICHOR AS A SUPER WEAPON. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE NAVY.
NOT EVEN HALFWAY THROUGH THE EPISODE YET WHAT THE FUCKKKKKK
Chip is so me I would totally. Grab bone pieces. EWWWW WHY MORE SKIN GROSS HOW MANY PEOPLE DID THEY FUCKING KILL
DEATHWARD SAVED THIS MAN PLEASE STAY MY GUY I LOVE YOU. this man is being crucified.. oh my god,,
Holy shit.. Kuba kenta :o is that u bitch
ITS HIMMMM HOLYYYY SHITTYTTT HAHSHSHSHAHA he’s such a bastard but also such a good villain… godddddd he’s just a fluffy guy :3
Mmmmmm machineeeeee
Giving me The Core from Amphibia vibes. This is fucking TERRIFYING. I MEAN I WAS RIGHT HERE CAUSE GILLION WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU. PLEASE. GILLION WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT. WHY DID YOU SIT IN THE CHAIR
WHWIDUDISHWJDJEIEJAIWHDIRJE GILLION. WHAT THE FUCK. Oh
Oh my god. 0 initiative. Oh my god Gillion please
“I would like to touch myself… and say- there’s more wait” PLEASEEE CHARLIEEE LMAOOOO
AWAAA RUN GILLION RUNNNNNN
“Oh my god, Gillion’s not fast.” HES RUNNING FOR HIS LIFE RIGHT NOW SO MAYBE HE IS??
It’s totally him right. YEA it’s Gilly :) why hasn’t he told them about Kuba Kenta.
Aughhhhghhfjskb CONDI?!??? LMAOOOO
Why. Are you. I. I despise them so much.
FIREWALL AUGHHGH NOT AGAIN
“CHEEBO” the rest of chips skin is fucking burnt off Jesus Christ
.. oh fuck. There’s more people going in????? It better not be the rest of the crew. INVISIBLITY WENT DOWN IGHDHDHSJS
Bones… gill I’m so sorry man :(
CHIP STOP BEING LIKE THAT YOU LOVE THEM. You love them. They you’re besties.
NATURAL 1 BUT IGS A FUCKING 23 WHAT THE HELLLLLL
Aughhhhhhhh paijnnnm pleaseeee surely nothing goes wrong mannnn what the hell
… conch shell time haha uh oh surelyyyy this will be fine
Jay my beloved <3 you got this girl
AAAA Grandma Ferin… SHES FUCKING CRAZY HOLY SHIT. Vault… time.. oh no. Woahhhh wonder. If that’s the true prophecy in there
CONDI DEAFENED AUGSJHSJGA WHATTT NO BRING HIM BACK OH FUCK
Haha they’re trapping themselves in this room. Uh oh.
OH. GILLION. OH NO. OH NOOO WHAT. HELLO. HEY. Uh oh. Hey. WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKK WHAT IS GOING ON
WHERE IS MY FISH MAN WHERE IS HE WHERE IS HE
THE HORRORS ARE THERE THE HORRORS. THATS WBY HE DIDNT TELL ABLUT KUBA KENTA OH MY GOD
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The sword. Thank god.
PELASEEEE DONT LET ANY OF TJEM DIE OM GONIFNIBSJA GILLIONS GOING GO SAVE HIS FRIEND HES FOINF AS FAST AS HE VAN
JAY PLEASE GO HELP PLEASE FUCKKKK ING HELL
Ichor creature. Godddddd
I don’t even have words this is just combat that’s terrible and I hate it
Aughhdhxhsishdjsn man. People have been so right about how this episode is Bad bad. Like. Wow.
2 and half hours in. Pain and suffering. Please don’t let Chip die again. Charlie did really fucking good playing his doppelgänger without breaking that’s insane.
Gillion’s yelling at each other would be so much funnier if it wasn’t. A life or death situation
CHARLIE SALUTING IM SO UPSET PLEASSESS LET THEM LIVE
YEAHAHAHAHDHDHS GET HIS ASS JAY
HAHA HEY.
HOW ARE THEY TYING IM GONNA CRYYYY
HE WCJDJDSHS HE DID IT HE FUCKING DID IT OM GONAN THROW UP OHHHHGG MU GOD
GILLIONS STUFF FUCKKKKING WAITAAGGG
HAHAHDHSGWGE KUBA KENTA MENTION.
Oh. He’s. Opening. Kubas cage. Gillion. Hey.
Haha they have to go back UP?!? Well. Riptide pirates, it was nice knowing you.
Chip. Can’t be healed I am so upset. Also I feel like the creatures are just going to escape. And Kuba Kenta is going to be Right There.
Dopplegilly you bitch ass mother fucker give my boy back his stuff
WHDIXHSIDHS THEY PUT HIM IN THE HOLE??? Well. I mean. Go off
I hope they don’t fucking fall into the lava. Like seriously after all that.
Well. Gillion. Please let this man get his stuff. WALL OF WATER THANK GODDDD
How is there a half hour left.
HE HAS MISTY STEP. CHARLIE WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU
I am so. AUEGUESHS THE LIFE DEBT OF DOPPELGILLY GOINF BACK INTK THE HOLE PLEASE LMAOOOO WHAT IS THIS
Please get out of here please just get the ship off the island oh my god
So much murderrr please go n get them and get out im so ahdichdiebz
oh . The fucking. Turrets. LMFAO COUNTER SPELL THE FUCKING ASS TURRETS JDDIDBKS
THE FUCKCONF DECK IM GONNA LOSE IT PLEASE. DONT LET HIM DO THAT PLEASE
WHY NOT JUST FUCKING THROW THE DECK OF CARDS UP. WHY. I’m gonna.
THE IDIOT CARD. OH MY GODDD HAHAHDJDHAUA 3 INTELLIGENCE IM SOGONGNDHSBA
THE VOID. LMAOOOO HES FUCKING GONE THANK GOD. Anyways the TURRETS.
THEY FUCKING DID IT LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOO
Well. That was. An episode. Well. I can see why everyone was freaking out about it LMAO THEYRE ALIVE THOUGH LETS GOOOO RIPTIDE PIRATES
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⚠️SPOILERS SPOILERS SPOILERS ⚠️
First of all that Hobi moment in the car… “ It was always her” has me in a chokehold. Like to see the ice between the mc and Hobi melt is like the sickly sweet slow burn love that I adore!
Now on too Jimin… maybe I’m just a blind mc supporter but for jimin to question her love an motives kind of mad me sad/mad. The image of the mc in my head would never try and buy and manipulate the packs love. If anything her talk of keeping those properties even though they are soaked in trauma and pain for the pack benefit says it all. In my head she simply wants to take this blood money and bad memories and give those she truly loves all they deserve. I feel like him questioning her actions and motives is purely Jimin’s paranoia. I’m excited to see where this reveal takes mc and Jimin’s love. Because it adds this layer of dose he really love me or is he putting on this show because he doesn’t want to reveal who he really is for the mc and for Jimin its this weary distrust and caution.
Last my question is.. is this secret the reason the mc and Jimin haven’t taken their relationship to the next level? Because she been with everyone but Hobi and Jimni at this point right? Can they really love each other fully if this stands in between?
Ps. I’ve been a silent reader till now and I just want to give you the praise you deserve for this chapter and entire work of art! I mean the secret reveal build up and how you showed the subtle hints throughout was absolutely amazing. Im so deeply invested in this story and the characters you’ve created and I can’t wait to see what you do next. You should seriously be a published author!! Remember to take care of yourself, stay warm and drink lots of water ✨💛
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I KNOW the hobi mc parts are so fucking soft to me, especially the banter tooooo like- can you just imagine the pack's looks when he says "she always gets the front seat in this car" not only because she gave it to him but because it's /her/ spot to him 🥺 yoongi might get a little jelly of her cuz before it was yoongi and hobi that went on midnight drives.
i keep thinking of all his other little moments "you have to be more careful" and "don't look at the food look at me, i'll set you up" like fuckkkkkk 😩 he's so gone for her and he doesn't even know it yet <3
i agree with you in some ways, the m/c is like- genuinely a good person who has been forced into doing bad things...kinda similar to jimin in a way. if she has any negative tendencies it's only because she feels like she has too! but yeah- it is mostly jimin's paranoia, he's gotta be a little bit paranoid all the time tbh because of his job like- he's always looking over his shoulder both for the people he guards and when he's killin'
i happen to think that this means their love can be more honest. i don't think this is why jimin and the m/c haven't been intimate it's a bit more complicated though- because of the timeline of jimin and tae's relationship- jimin's never been with a girl before (besides tae technically) but you get my point. jimin is also keenly aware of the m/c's trauma and doesn't want to trigger her by making it in any way transactional....
however, jimin is a little bit desperate to at least make sure that the romance side of his and tae's relationship is still alive, and the single best person to teach jimin how to fuck a woman is another woman...and yet, jimin doesn't want to make the m/c think he only wants her for that reason. he's trying to wait until she comes to him....which she might have inadvertently been trying with the underwear scene...just a little... but it's gonna happen in a super sweet way, very slow and very loving! very much not burdened by the secret at all.
thank you for all your compliments too 🥺 i think that trying to get published is going to be the next step for me after bily, i don't know if it's going to be this story but wouldn't that be fantastic if i could manage it? i think so many people have loved the story- with a little help i could really make it into something even more enjoyable. it's my dream to become an author!
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HELLO!!!! HAIR ANON HERE!!!!! A A A A A A A A A H H H H H. !!!!!!!!!!!! (that’s it that’s the whole message)
(JOKING it wouldn’t be a message from me if it wasn’t a ten page essay lmao) THIS CHAPTER!!! FUXK!!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!!!! Sorry for yelling a lot but this chapter FUCKED me up. idk what i was expecting from a chapter that was half kazuma but FUCKKKKKK NOT THIS!!!!! HIS BACKSTORY!!!!!!!! MORE TALKING WITH ICHIKA!!!!!!!! (SIDE NOTE!!!!!!! I MIGHT BE IN LOVE WITH HER!!!!!!!!!) P I A N D A O R E A L I Z I N G !!!!!! HAHA FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I was flapping so aggressively while reading this part that I had to physically calm myself so I wouldn’t hurt either of my wrists or alarm my gf from the other room lmaooooo) anyways HaHa Very Excited For Developments On That Front! (I mean this genuinely because I need to know what happens when iroh eventually finds out So Bad I start shaking like an overly-excited chihuahua when I think about it for too long but also I’m Sure This Will Resolve Smoothly And With Minimal Pain Haha :)))))))))
ohoho and that’s not even getting INTO shen’s part of the chapter. Guo finding out about zuko being the blue spirit and a firebender made me lose my shit. SHEN made me lose my shit. (The line, “‘Hi,’ the little rat bastard said” REALLY made me lose my shit.) (also the line referring to Zuko getting mad at spark rocks, throwing one at the mountain, and then having it bounce back and hit him square between the eyes made me howl. I think a like a lot of people in the fandom don’t fully get Zuko’s character/personality, but literally just that single line demonstrates that you understand it perfectly lmao. Suki’s reaction to and sokka’s role in the rock-throwing are both examples of your understandings of their characters too 🫡 I remain In Awe of your flawless characterization of both the canon characters and your ocs 🫡) I’m worried about Suki and the rest of the Kyoshi Warriors and I’m REALLY worried about Haoyu though. I need him to be conscious enough to realize who the blue spirit is 😭😭😭😭
anyways!!!! Thank you so much as always for sharing!!!!!!! I hope things have been well with you :) I want to apologize for not sending an anon last chapter because I’m pretty sure I didn’t but honestly the weeks since you last updated have been so busy I’m not even sure 😭 but I’m pretty sure I didn’t so I’m very sorry!!! I similarly enjoyed your last chapter and it made me feel similar amounts of shaking-like-a-chihuahua excitement. You put so much love and effort into your writing and these chapters, please know that I see it and appreciate it and think about it ALL THE TIME :) thank you so so so much again!!!! I’m going to be very patiently and VERY excitedly waiting for the next chapter (read: fighting the urge to gnaw on pillows out of excitement). I hope you’re having a wonderful day and/or night 💖💕✨💫🌕
Hello!
When you said you started shaking like an over excited chihuahua the visual made me literally laugh out loud, so thank you for that 😂
Its always so nice to hear when people like my characterisation, because I often wonder if i have gone to far into my head and am just writing nonsense 😬
And quite a few people have said they might be in love with Ichika, which I approve of, because she and Kazuma have turned out to be So Much Fun to write!
Thank you once again for your ask - as always I have enjoyed every word of it (although please don't worry if you miss one or stop!)
I hope you are having a great week so far!
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Dr.Tumblr Mindfuckery, The Therapist: so, how are ya doin?
Me: running on fast depleting reserves of energy because I have no idea how others do it and why the fuck does this have to be so difficult?
Dr.Tumblr Mindfuckery, The Therapist: when was the last time you took a breather?
Me: I don't fuckin know, I don't remember...ok I see what you're implying but there is no way law school will be less cruel to me
Dr.Tumblr Mindfuckery, The Therapist: I notice you have the eyes of imminent burnout and forceful productivity
Me: I see you're talking about irrelevant things
Dr.Tumblr Mindfuckery, The Therapist: why?
Me: ok lookie here thought technician, I worked my ass off for a classical dance performance on the 74th Republic day of India, while totally wrecking my body cause my glutes ached for days with all the half-sitting/squatting positions and brutal practice... I got barely 5 days of rest most of which I spent worrying about how the fuck I was gonna complete all the research papers I have been assigned. now our dance contingent is participating in a fest and obviously, I couldn't not go there because its an opportunity for a professional competition, and the dancer in me is hungry for some fucking recognition even if my brain engine is running on sleep deprivation and SSRI meds. I still just had to fucking go cause that's what members do for their team. with all the dance practices till 5 PM, I reach home one and half hour later at 6:30 PM, taking into account the time I take to freshen up in the space of an hour, I have no space to breathe. I am already freaking out about the amount of research I have to get done and the 1500 word essays I have to write. here i am ranting on tumblr about said pressure and stress of managing a hundred things simultaneously, instead of completing what I can. I have gone as far as to bring my laptop to class and read research papers in class while trying to blink my eyes into submission after staring at the screen for too fucking long...*panting*
Dr.Tumblr Mindfuckery, The Therapist: (...)
Dr.Tumblr Mindfuckery, The Therapist: (.......)
Me: *still panting*
Dr.Tumblr Mindfuckery, The Therapist: wow, that's a......
Me: I know what you're gonna say, don't say it, don't you fucking say-
Dr.Tumblr Mindfuckery, The Therapist: ...a lot.
Me: FUCKKKKKK I KNOOOOOOOOOW *lets out a bloodcurdling scream*
Dr.Tumblr Mindfuckery, The Therapist: *looks visibly petrified*
Me: *sighs* that felt better, now that you're on the same page, what the fuck do I do.
Dr.Tumblr Mindfuckery, The Therapist:(awkwardly) do what you can...?
Me: no shit, doc.
Dr.Tumblr Mindfuckery, The Therapist: *clears throat* look, i know it seems like a shitty thing to say, but really, you ARE doing the best you fucking can with the energy and will you currently have. you have a lot on your plate and that is clearly exhausting, it is totally understandable that at the end of the day you are physically and mentally exhausted. it makes sense that you have little to no energy left to cater to the projects that were assigned to you. you cannot run on empty smoke, human bodies get tired, need alone time, to recharge and replenish energy reserves. human bodies need rest to do better at whatever they can't seem to do after pulling an allnighter. even though juggling things simultaneously is fucking hard, i know you're still standing. you are surviving and moving forward, slowly and surely. take a breath, reprioritize, and focus on doing what you think is possible right now, not on perfecting everything you do. you may not be able to achieve the quality you envisioned, but that quality of research comes from at least weeks of research and enough time to comb through them. you have neither the time nor the energy reserve to do that right now. you have to execute what is currently feasible, not what is clearly unrealistic, such expecting to be able to contribute 100% to dance for 3+ hours, attending classes for hal, travel, study and writing assignments....
Do what you can.
#spilled thoughts#spilled ink#cute quotes#spilled journal#book quotes#inspirational quotes#motivational quotes#life quotes#mental health#quote#mental health awareness#positive mental attitude#mental illness#actually mentally ill#mental#therapy
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okkayyyyyy we're starting off the chapter STRONG. icb they're going at it like rabbits but then again this is hoonyn we're talking about 🤕🤕 LOVE LOVE LOVE YN FOR FINALLY PUTTING HERSELF FIRST?.!:!/! YOU GO BABY GIRL!!!! get that D 😋 & ofc they arent following the rules they set 🤣🤣 wbk tho they're too down bad for eo to actually follow their rules & hoon constantly saying words of affirmation and basically just showering yn w love 🥰 oh we love to see that!
ugh theyre just so cute 🥹 why did have to keep her feelings in check 🤕 went out for dinner 3 nights ago? THAT WAS 3 NIGHTS AGO BBGIRL in fact you should hang out w hoon everyday 🥰🥰 24/7 🤍🤍 FUCK FUCK FUCK SHE ASKED HIM IF HE WANTED TO GO TO HER AWARD CEREMONY FUCKKKKKK WE CHEERED!:!/'sbs I SCREAMED 😝😝😝😝😝 and he REALLY SAID FK HIS PLANS he's going to her award ceremony instead GET U A MAN LIKE THATTT and then he KISSED HER AND THANKED HER FOR LETTING HIM BE A PART OF HER LIFE?!;!:!/ FAWKKK SOMEONE HOLDME I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH THEY R EVERYTHING TO ME!!!!! 😫😫😫😫😫 they r so soft so attached so astronomically down bad for each other i love that for them i want need them to always be this happy together 🙏🏻🙏🏻 and ofc she's gna give him a blowjob 😋
HER CONTACT NAME FOR HOON OMFG?:!/!/! not rina seeing right through them the moment she sees them interact ☠️☠️☠️ no bc mp!hoon is a literal DREAM guy like he may not be the biggest fan of rina bc of that incident but he's willing to set it aside and be at least neutral w her for yn? that is something not everyone can do and what more that hoonyn arent even tgt tgt 🫣 HE SAVED ADDRESSES ASSOCIATED W HER IN HIS GPS?:!:!/ yeap im gone. u lost me. this is my 192837293 time screaming abt them but how can i not when theyre literally that in love w each other 😭😭😭
everytime minhee becomes the sweetest & most caring older brother for yn i get why she tries to keep some distance w hoon and why she feels guilty but i also wish she'd just fk it for once and live HER life 🥺
i love it whenever hoon calls yn baby and esp sweets it rly cld be just me but its the sweetest thing ever 🥹 HE'S SO ENDEARING CHEERING FOR HER LIKE THAT UGH I LOVE THEM SO MUCH (as ive already said for the 1937263783 time 🤕) STOP FIRST THEY TAKE THE CUTEST PHOTOS TOGETHER AND THEN THEY SAID F THE NO LABELS?:!:!: i used to PRAY for moments like this THEYRE FINALLY TGT TGT 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 though its hush hush but a win is still a WIN 🏆
the "are you gonna stare or are you gonna fuck your girlfriend" is a crazy ass thing to say & hoon is stronger than me bc if i were a guy and i were hoon id nut right then and there. sorry not sorry 🤕 AND THEN SHE PROCEEDS TO LET HIM HIT HER RAW TO FURTHER THEIR CONNECTION?/!:&/ when ure in a which couple is most in love with each other competition and hoonyn r ur competitors. theyre immediately taking the crown soz i dont make the rules 🏆🏆🏆🏆 & then their confession to each other after everything >>>>
aj i get what u mean now this chapter is my favourite as well omfg. I JUST LOVE HOW U PORTRAY HOONYN LIKE 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍 they fit each other perfectly like puzzle pieces 🧩 literally made for each other 😫😫😫 I LOVE HOW U GAVE US AN ENTIRE CHAPTER OF JUST HOONYN FLUFF AND SMUT LIKE THANK YOU FOR UR SERVICE <33333 i really love melting point sososososoooo much i feel like i can never thank u enough for sharing this masterpiece with us all i always look forward to fridays so i can catch the new update 😆😆 but im also lowkey scared for the upcoming chapters bc idk how minhee will react when he finds out? or when yn confesses? but i know hoon will be w her no matter what so its all good 😫🙏🏻
happy weekend <3 sorry if i yap too much i get excited whenever i read a fic that is long and HITS HARD
starting off the chapter with a sex scene was a risk i was willing to take icl. if i was yn i would also be fucking hoon any chance i got, i think it's realistic lmao.
sunghoon is the standard now when it comes to men bc he literally lays the world at her feet and i'll accept nothing less now 😮💨 i'm so happy they're finally together like i felt like it came around so fast but also not fast enough.
thank you so much for reading and coming to talk to me about it! i love when i can see people truly enjoying the fic, i'm super glad you are! ilysm and i cant wait for you to resd next week <3
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no literally its not FAIR that i had period symptoms for a week before i get my period and the day i start bleeding my bloating goes down and my depression is gone but now my skin is in tatters and my cramps are killing me! FUCKKKKKK
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FUCKK my dreams have been so much and so intense
So long and insane. I know i need to write them but i am truly so lazy this is gonna be a chore but like ???
Okay so during the day yesterday. I had this fucking weird ass dream, that basically this large scale....like idk if it was country wide or worldwide. But it was a large scale environmental.....scandal?? trial? Its so goddamn confusing.
Basically there were two sides who were viciously against eachother. We were separated by extreme political party sides. Like the other side was the type of republican right wing thats just the WORST. Like full trumpie, rich, scared of diversity making them the minority, racist, homophobic, misogynistic. Just like the absolute WORST.
And they were versus. My family?? Somehow my family was in the position as the people to face them in this trial. By my family I mean florida and the 5 of us. I don’t know if we had anything to do with the original issue since it was so governmental but apparently we were opposing them.
The squads were pretty balanced. Like thing of the intelligent, prestigious debaters in our family. (The attorneys, the judges, the pharmacists, the shady business dealers, and the politically obsessed). Plus like me, erikka, dalvin, even some kids were in there. And then there were some moderators.
Also i guess this was unintentional but they were all white, and we were all black. These people made me so angry, they were arrogant and rude, and entitled and sooooo incorrect like the most frustrating thing to go back and forth with, and try to make people understand basic human rights and such.
Again, i dont know much about the cause of trial or how we got here. But it was an environment issue. Like they wanted to do some sort of elaborate construction that would damage the earth really bad and have a super negative affect on people. We were trying to prevent them from doing that.
But we grasped at all types of straws to invalidate the others claims and get the judge? or moderator? to sway in our favor. There were powerpoints, testimonies. All sorts of back and forth. It was also a several day thing. Every day for like a week we had to go into this building and into this conference room and do this trial.
I remember thinking how the white people seemed souless. Like not just as an insult but genuinely i had this feeling that they signed a deal with the devil to get their wealth but their souls were gone?? They were just walking redflags when it came to being spiritually sensitive. I mean they were the devils agents.
So both sides kept digging things up on the other to invalidate our cases, but the stuff they were trying to get out of us was just irrelevant and invasive. Like one point we brought up was that they hid the records from government water testing bc they had been using it to dump dead children/child remains (allegedly). Which is morbid, but in a case about environmental issues is extremely relevant if true.
They had people that would like come up to us at lunch breaks and try to get stuff. And one of them said to me “yea that guy, who you’re linked to....Liam? DOesnt he have a bunch of serious medical conditions, and has been to the hospital, passes out all the time?” maybe as if to say......any information that i acquired from him or any use of him as an alibi was invalid??
And i had to be like what the fuck?? And eloquently explain that like....there are explainable causes to his health issues that arent in his control and he’s extremely intelligent, and athletic, etc..... to defend LIAM like what the fuckkkkkk. Being absolutely grilled.
Swipe up for part 2
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I AM NOT STRONG I AM ABSOLTELY NOT STRONG
I DID CRY
FUCKKKKKK. here are some quotes of me to my friend while reading
“Oh my baby, you’ve gone insane. You can’t handle the rejection from him so you’re blaming it on me and now my family too.”
❄️: “NAUR NOT THE GASLIGHTING”
friend: “not so girlboss”
❄️: “oh fuck its goin down” ““youre mine” STFU”
friend: oh nooo
You swallow down the ball of terror that occludes your throat. “I want to go to my room.” You request shakily, “Please.”
❄️: “shes scared-“ “this is not girlboss at all” “Omg we got a letter from the taehyun” “YUHHH IT FINALLY CAME THROUGH” “a maid smuggled it in”
friend: “LOVE THAT MAID”
❄️: “PERIODDD”
my reaction to reader wearing a slutty outfit:
❄️: “WE ARE GIRLBOSSING” “DRESSED LIKE A SLUT” “AAAAS WE SHOULD”
me reaction to soobin being scared off by beomgyu:
❄️: “so much for making friends🥲”
“I can do what I want.” You seethe, “You wanted me to be a whore so bad. Why are you mad now when I act like it?”
❄️: “OHOHOHOHO” “PERIOOODD YUHH”
reaction to beomgyu saying the princess wont ever take y/ns place:
❄️: “EW THE SWITCH UP” and the most german reaction ever “IGITT” which means ew but worse “WE DONT FEEL NEGLECTED WE WANT YOU TO FUCK OFF” me @.beomgyu
him being all nice in town and helping the commoners
❄️: “hes being nice rn” “i dont wanna forgive” “remember ❄️ hes a dick” “NO BC IM A SUCKER FOR PPL WHO DO NICE THINGS” “also a sucker for manipulators so…well”
“You attack your father over that whore?” The king spits, slapping the prince across the face. “I have half a mind to let the guards take her right here in front of you so you’ll realize what she truly is.”
❄️: “mom please pick me up im scared😀😀😀😀😀” no srsly i was abt to shit my pants the part with the king scared the f outta me
your eyes fly open in apprehension to see him holding a dagger.
❄️: “BRO FOR A SECOND I THOUGHT HE WAS GONNA FUCKING CUT Y/N” like carve his name into her or smth- I TOTALLY WOULDVE EXPECTED HIM TO DO THAT “this was traumatising” “fucking dickhead” “i wanna hug y/n and tell her everything will be okey ☹️”
ALL OF THIS LIVE REACTIONS OF MINE
i am now traumatized for life and miss tae and want him to safe and accept us more than ever but he also sounded sus in his letters so IDK ANYMORE
beomgyu has absoltely lost it tho and the fact EVERYONE in the castle was in on it???? WHAT THE FUCK
this broke not only y/n but also me FUCKKKKKKK
one thing this goes to y/n if she was real and i could talk to her
baby virginity is a social construct, no man will EVER be able to take something from you and make you be worth-less NEVER is anyone gonna do that, he took you forcefully which means if virginity means something to you… you are still a virgin, if something gets stolen from you its still yours. baby i love you do NOT let him break you
i am so done this was amazingly written seriously you have such a way of getting me immersed? into the story the way you write is amazing and this def was a emotional roller coster
ill out myself by saying i read loser lover many times and also the latest ch. of yamqn probably 3-4 times… and yeah i can see myself reading this ch again as well and then crying some more😭😭😭😭
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not you traumatizing your friend with my story 😂
i love the live reaction! i sometimes write lines and think "ohh i wonder what my readers will think of this" lol thanks for the german lesson could always use a more powerful form of ew 😂
sometimes the people who appear the most charitable can be the most evil ✊🏼😔
ngl the king scared me too lol imagine being oc in that moment
ahaha a repeat of iyym felix nooo
tyun does sound a bit sus. it's the hint for his flaw so good on ya for picking up on that
and yes all you said about virginity. unfortunately in a society like where yamqn takes place virginity is a real currency. men won't take her as a wife now that she's "ruined" 🤢
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wow i feel so fucking alone
#this is probably just a stupid past midnight depression spiral like usual so ignore me#not only physically. because im Literally Across The Globe from all my friends#but i have so many secrets and theyre killing me#theyre not even BAD its just i gotta respect my family. i guess#my dad hasnt had a job for so long and he still hasnt told anyone so i havent either#we have barely any source of income and i havent gone to even the doctors for several years#i dont trust to invite anyone over because the last (and only) time i did my sister and my mom were fighting and had a screaming match#while my friends were still there#and the trans thing is so lonely there is no one irl that knows except one and she moved#like i wish i could just fit in!! into like! one gender and feel valid!! but im nb and thats ‘new’ and made fun of and Lonely#i guess i am enbyphobic towards myself#fuckkkkkk sorry#wish i could just. find myself a ride or die and lay on a rooftop romantically and get all that shit Out There#and feel a little less sorry that human beings are essentially forever alone in their brains#my rambles#edit; just realized i cant watch spiderman ffh either until months!! this is homophobic and transphobic absolutely unbelievable
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Teachers Pet-chapter 18: legilimens
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chapter 17
It had been a few days now since my last encounter with Snape except in potions class, but we didn't really speak then, I assumed it was because he didn't wanna seem human in front of the other students. It was Monday and I was headed to the Gryffindor common room to meet up with Hermione as usual, I needed to talk to her about my situation.
I leaned against the wall waiting for her to emerge from the doors. I closed my eyes for a minute thinking about a certain someone, its funny how when you develop these kinds of feelings, that person really does just habitat your brain all day long, I was thinking about Thursday, when our arms brushed, it was like something out of a movie, when the nerd girl drops her books and the popular boy helps her and their hands touch. Except I was a nerd student and he was, Severus. And had no intention of wanting me like I him. I felt so guilty thinking of him this way, but he was just so handsome and strong looking. Like he could just pin me to the wall and run his large rough hands u- "Hey Y/n you ready?" I was snapped out of my daydream, thank merlin, by Hermione. "Hmm yup" I said as we headed to the Great hall. I needed to ask her some advice, but I didn't want anyone overhearing, meaning the boys. "Hermione, I need to talk to you about some things. Can we skip breakfast and go to the library to talk?" I said looking around for any teachers. "Um ok yeah sure, what about?" She said confused as we switched direction to the library. "Well, it's a couple of things, but remember the questions I was asking you about Ron?" I mumbled quietly to her. "Yes, wait, I was right wasn't I? You like someone!" She said a tad too loud for my liking "oh my merlin shhhhh" I said nudging her. "Who?" she whispered as we approached the library. "I'll get to that in a minute." I said as I dragged her to the farthest corner of the Library and we sat down between the aisles of books. "Ok so I asked you those things, because I may...fancy someone." I said mumbling the last part. "Ok who?" she asked excitedly. I rolled my eyes not sure if this was a good idea, I know she's trustworthy, and she's a very good friend, but what if she's repulsed? I let out a breath, "Ok but if I tell you, you swear not to tell anyone and you wont judge me for it?" I said with a worried look on my face. "Oh merlin it's not Neville is it?" she said a almost disgusted look on her face, "Hey I could do a,lot worse than Neville Longbottom!" I said laughing, "but no, it's not Neville.." I looked down fiddling with my fingers. "It's snp" I said, murmuring the last part to where she could barely understand me. "What did you say?" she said looking at me with confused eyes just wanting me to spit it out, "Snerp" I said still not looking at her. "For merlin's sake who is it Y/n!" she practically yelled, "Its Snape!" I said raising my voice a bit and cupping my mouth for saying louder than expected. She looked taken aback and her mouth was open a tad, "You don't mean Professor Snape?" she said whispering. I just looked away in shame. "Wow" she added. "I know it's horrible isn't it? I'm disgusting, kill me now, spare the world of my wretchedness." I said putting my face in my hands. "Well I'm sure people have liked worse, I mean some girls flirt with Lockhart sometimes, so it's not that bad" she said with an apologetic grin on her face. "Yes that is true" I said looking out the window next to us. "I just, ugh I feel awful, I haven't liked someone in years, and it was just an attraction, but this is like an actual crush, like real feelings. I didnt think it was real at first, but now i've gone full schoolgirl fantasy for him." I said sighing "Ew don't put it that way, But I mean I guess it makes sense" she said shrugging "really?" I asked looking at her, "i mean yeah if you look at it, you spend a lot of time with him and i'm sure those lessons helped you guys grow more comfortable with each other."
I thought for a moment she was definitely right about that, this probably never would have happened if I was good at potions. "Also the other night I went to the astronomy tower at night to..think, and he showed up and he didn't yell or take me back to my dormitory, he stayed and comforted me and talked to me" I said smiling remembering his scent and his kind words.''Well there you go, it definitely makes sense as to why you fancy him, I mean it's still strange he's a teacher and all, but your feelings are invalid." she said, putting a hand on my shoulder. "Thanks to Hermione, that certainly makes me feel better about it. I think the worst part about it though is that, id never get to have him, and that thought sucks, I mean you liked ron and now you guys are able to be together, but Snapes just a friends." I frowned at the thought, this really was very shitty. "Yeah that does suck, but hey, these things usually work themselves out and before long you probably won't even give him a second thought." I nodded my head in agreement and pondered on that thought for a moment. "Ms. Granger! what are you doing-" a deep voice bellowed from around the corner, I froze and Snape looked just as shocked to see me being the one talking with her. I looked up at him with a worried face and then back at Hermione. "You two should be in the great hall right now!" he added, still using his stern voice, I internally panicked but pulled it together, "Sorry Professor, we were just studying for Potions!" I said lying to hopefully get him to just leave us be. "With no books?" he questioned lifting his brow. "We were trying to list the recipe for Amortentia off the tops of our heads!" Hermione quickly added. He wasn't buying it and looked at us suspiciously, I made eye contact with him and his face softened a tad as I pleaded at him with my eyes, "Yes well, don't let this happen again, and do not be late to first period!" He stated and turned and walked away briskly, his cape flowing behind. Once he was out of sight I let out a groan "Oh my- Holy Fuckkkkkk'' I said face palming myself. "What if he heard ussssss!" I moaned out. "I'm sure he didn- oh wait.." she said looking at me with worried eyes.I looked at her and my face grew pale "What? what is it?" I said looking around the corner, "There's something I should mention that Harry told me..." she said in a tone that did not lead me to believe it was something good. "What?" I said scared. "Snape is a Legilimens.." she said with furrowed brows. I felt my heart drop and my throat get very dry. "He's a w h a t " I began having a minor episode, freaking out over this newly acquired information, "So you mean to tell me not only did he possible read our minds and hear this whole conversation, but he has also been knowing what goes through my mind when I'm with him in lessons and in class. AND in the astronomy tower?!" I began to breathe faster, "Well the good thing is most of the time you would know if he was in your head, at least that what harry said, but since Snape is a very skilled legilimens, that might not always be the case.." I couldn't believe what I was hearing, I mean what if he knows, and he's known this whole time, and that's why he wasn't the same after the night in the tower.
I learned all about Legilimency and Occlumency but I had never practiced either of them before. This just meant I was gonna have too. The bell rang and we both looked up, "Well we better get going." she said and I nodded. "I'll see you at lunch" I said speeding off to my first period. I couldn't focus in any of my classes. All I could think of was the idea that Severus was aware of my feelings and was going to resent me because of them. Before I knew it it was lunch, but I had decided, I was gonna learn Occlumency and Legilimency, and I was gonna learn from the best. I hurried to the great hall to grab a sandwich and then headed to Snape's classroom. I took a bite of my sandwich thinking of the best way to approach this, I needed to act the part, like i'm really capable of this and not the tiniest bit afraid, I kept my head high and knocked on his door, it wasn't a day for our lessons, but this couldn't wait. There was no answer, but I knew he wasn't in the great hall. I knocked again still nothing, I waited a few more minutes and decided to just walk in, I mean we were friends-ish so it couldn't be that big of a deal. I slowly turned the knob and peeked my head in, he wasn't in here, I went and sat my things down and looked around the room. I walked over to the storage closet and sure enough I saw the potions professor collecting vials. I wonder why he didn't answer when I knocked, or when I walked in. "Professor?" I said lightly to not frighten him. "Ms. L/n what makes you think that you can just waltz into any room of your choosing when someone does not answer your knocks?" he said not turning around. Keep your game face on Y/n. "Well I needed to ask you something and I was prepared to wait." I said crossing my arms. "What is it this time Y/n?" he asked in a dreadful tone turning to look at me and walk out of the closet, setting the vials down on a table in the front of the room, most likely preparing to brew Amortentia in our classes. "Well a little bird told me that you happen to be a very skilled Legilimens, and I would like you to teach me Legilimency and Occlumency." I said with confidence and a hand on my hip, letting him know I didn't come to play.
"Would this little bird happen to be named Granger" he said giving me a look. "Classified, but will you do it?" I said looking at him in the eyes trying to be as convincing as possible. "No" he said with no hesitation. "What!? Why not?" I said frowning, my hands dropping to my sides. "Because you don't need such skills." he said, not paying me any attention focusing on setting up still. I walked over and put my hand on the table in his way of setting the vial down. He looked down at me with an annoyed face. "What if I come across a death eater or something and I need to defend my thoughts!" I said looking up in his eyes. "Do you have knowledge a death eater may need Ms. L/n?" he said raising his brow, I looked to the side for a minute, "Well, no, but what about in the future say I run into The dark lord himself , and he takes me because i'm the headmasters goddaughter and he thinks I have information and I have no way to protect myself." I said my begging e/c eyes looking into his, now angry, black ones. "You are such a petulant child" he said moving my hand from the spot on the table. I felt a shock run through my hand and butterflies swarmed my stomach, I looked at his hand holding mine and smiled a tad. His felt just as I imagined and was so large compared to mine, I thought back to my day dreaming this morning, til he dropped mine to put the vial in its place. "Please please please! If you say no i'll just keep asking!" I said in a begging motion. "I'll do anything please Sir" I said, giving him my best act. He let out a deep sigh and rolled his eyes, "You relentless little girl are going to be what kills me." he said in an annoyed and sarcastic tone. "Is that a yessss" I said wiggling my brows. "Fine but you must return my book to its place at once." he said and I froze up eyes wide and mouth agape. "How did you.." he smirked "Like you said Y/n Im a very skilled Legilimens." "Professor, I just wanted to read it and I was gonna ask you about it anyways I'm so sorry" I said not looking at him. "That's alright but hand it over" he said holding his hand out, I went to my bag and grabbed the book handing it to him, "Oh wait," I said grabbing it from him and tapping my wand to it, muttering the translation spell back to Latin, and handing it back to him. "You know if you had just asked I would have translated it for you." he said using his wand to put it back in its place on the shelf. "I did want to ask, do you know who left the flower in it and who wrote in it?" I said looking back at him.
He paused for a moment thinking as if he didn't realize they were left in there, "Some boy many years ago I believe, no ones picked it up since" he said turning to shuffle some papers on his desk, I guess he thinks i'm completely clueless, but I wasn't going to make an accusations after he just agreed to give me more lessons on top of the potions ones. "So when should we meet for these lessons?" I said walking to his desk and smiling at him. "Hows after dinner Monday, Wednesday, and Fridays?" I wanted to get as much time in with him as possible, but now I had to really watch what I thought around him, which was gonna be hard, how does one stop thinking? "I cant Wednesdays I have staff meetings but fine." he said really not happy I was basically forcing him to do this. "Great! Sounds splendid. I can't wait! Thanks so much again Professor, I will leave you to it and see you in class!" I said grabbing my things and practically skipping off to my next class. I hoped this would go well, but I needed it too, not only was I going to get to spend more time with him, but I was gonna be able to learn to keep him from my thoughts and feelings, that just meant i'd need to be extra careful around him about what I think, I mean I don't know for sure if he's invaded the certain parts of my mind that would reveal my feelings, but I didn't want to take chances.
#snape x reader#snape imagine#severusnape#professor snape#snape#severus snape#severusimagine#severus x reader#severus snape x reader#Snape slowburn#slytherin#hogwarts
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THREE CHEERS FOR SWEET REVENGE
(concept album, it’s about these lovers called the “demolition lovers” and the girl died and the guy kind of makes a deal with the devil and the devils tells him to bring him the corpses of a thousand evil men”)
Helena: it’s about Gerard and Mikey’s grandma who died and Gerard basically says that its this “angry letter to himself” cos he didn’t do enough for her. My favorite part is the bridge into the final chorus and you should also watch the MV its actually Art.
I’m Not Okay (I promise): its very angry and loud cos the narrator is basically saying yeah I know you got problems but fOr FUCKS SAKE I HAVE PROBLEMS TOO YOURE NOT SPECIAL. My favorite bit is the bridge again. Especially the trust me. Watch the MV its designed like a movie trailer.
Cemetery Drive: this is my favorite song on the album and probably one of my favorites of all time cos the LYRICS DUDE “singing songs that make you slit your wrists” and it’s Literally about how the band had to go on this really long road trip I hate this stupid band
Ghost of you: not the BEST song but the MV IS ACTUALLY ART LIKE ITS ACTUAL ART. its just a sad song
Thank You for the Venom: fuck me this is another one of my favorites. This is straight rock right in the veins. The adrenaline will KILL YOU. Apparently this was a diss at the bands critics. The fucking guitar solo makes me ASCEND. Also tHE LYRICS AGAIN.
You Know What They Do to Guys Like Us in Prison: hehehheehhehehe gay sex song. It’s literally about gay sex.
THE BLACK PARADE.
Okay fuck this is genuinely genuinely one of the greatest albums of all time. And I would say this even if I wasn’t such a slut for them. Literally everything is perfect and once again its a concept album. They wrote this in the paramour mansion too lol. I’m not joking this is an ACTUAL masterpiece musically and lyrically cos it deFINED genres. Its about this “patient” who dies and joins the black parade and his story of how he died and everything. You have to listen in chronological order.
The End: basically the dudes dead. He did fuck all with his life and he’s dead. He gives No fucks about peoples opinions. The FUCKING LYRICS IN THIS DUDE. “If you look in the mirror and don’t like what you see you can find out firsthand what its like to be me” “when I grow up I want to be nothing at all”
Dead!: the transition to this makes me actually ascend. Basically about how the dude wasn’t important in his life and did absolutely nothing. I love it cos it takes this perspective instead of the one thats like “oh you’ll always matter”
This is How I Disappear: bloody hell THIS SONG DUDE THE LITTLE DETAILS. Basically about reaching out to a loved one. The BRIDGE IN THIS HOLY FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
The Sharpest Lives: probably one of my favorites on the album. Its basically about living the wild life. The fucking lyrics again. “A light to burn all the empires, so bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be” “the sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead” “so you can leave like the sane abandoned me” FUCK THE GUITAR TOO.
Welcome to the Black Parade: idk how to explain this but say its an anthem. Its the Bohemian Rhapsody for the emos. Brian May himself agrees cos he played this live with them. This fucking song has so many layers fuck. Its about the dude dying but the LYRICS AGAIN. My favorite part is the post chorus and that has my favorite lyrics in it.
I Don’t Love You: its a ballad, and a weird one cos its basically saying you’re a bitch and I hate you. Its a very salty angry song and I love it cos its Not the normal thing to do. The bit where he goes “would you have the GUTS to say” is SO SO SO SO SO ANGRY like you can TELL he HATES her
House of Wolves: another one of my favorites. Another adrenaline buster. Its about the dudes arrival in hell and hes thinking about how he sinned and everything. The LYRICS and the FUCKING GUITARTRRRR makes me wanna BUST A NUT. Basically the band said hell looks like a fiery jazz club with demons and sinners lol.
Cancer: the Sad Song. The one that makes me wanna sob. Its about how the dudes dying and he’s saying goodbye to everyone. The LYRICS AGAINNNN.
Mama: good lord this song. Fuck. Its a masterpiece. I have No Words ar ALL. Its told in the perspective of a soldier who’s gonna die. And fuckkkk dude the lyricsssss and the GUITARTRRRRREDNEJSJJSSJJS FUCK THIS SONG IS SO GOOD god I wish I could hear this again for the first time
Sleep: this album just does Not Miss. its basically about how the dudes resigned to the fact that he is a bad person and nothing he does will ever change that. The words at the beginning are a recording of gerard way from the paramour mansion when he got sleep paralysis and night terrors. Its such a sad sad sad song cos he’s ACCEPTED his fate and at the end you can hear him scream “wake up” but you can BARELY hear it but its THERE and the dude is trying to wake up but he CANT-
Teenagers: this is just so MESSY and BEAUTIFUL it’s literally about how gerard saw a bunch of teenagers and thought they were scary lol. Again the LYRICS AND THE GUITAR SOLOOOOO
Famous Last Words: ah yes. The song that very literally saved my fucking life lol. The lyrics are so fucking powerful fuckkkkkk. Also YET ANOTHER GUITAR SOLO.
DANGER DAYS: THE TRUE LIVES OF THE FABULOUS KILLJOYS.
yet another concept album are we surprised. This ones hard to explain but basically its about this comic gerard wrote set in 2019 (this was released in 2011) and the worlds gone to shit an apocalypse happened and the world being ruled by this tyrannical corporation (sound familiar?) the Killjoys are a gang of rebels who go round being anarchists and rebels basically. Its very topical I think.
Na na na na na: makes me want to burn down the government. And commit arson and kill the rich. The lyrics are literally about that. A whole BANGER
Planetary Go: its a party song about life being too short basically
Destroya: hehehhehehe sex song again. DONT play this out loud. But fr this is another rebellion ANTHEM. Its all about fighting. And its amazing.
Kids from yesterday: makes me wanna cry. It’s about how far the boys have come. Again lyrics “ you only hear the music when you’re heart begins to break”
Vampire Money: this is the funniest fucking song in the world. So basically Stephenie Meyer wrote Twilight with Gerard as Edward cos she was a massive fan. And she asked him to play edward too but he refused and finally she begged them to do the soundtrack but they refused again and instead put out a diss track for twilight lmfaooo i fucking love them.
Desolation Row: its a cover but its better than the og and the music video is my sexuality.
Light Behind Your Eyes: saddest fucking song oh my god it was written to a fan who was dying
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