it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time
I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world
And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with
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Martyrs of the Sky — Jasta 11 line-up
new and improved 2023 designs for the webcomic :]
L - R; Schäfer, Allmenröder, Festner, Wolff, von Hafke (that one's mine if you're new here), MvR, LvR, Voss.
Would love to make a needlessly long post explaining my design process for all of them, lmk if thats something that would interest you!
Buuut the gist of it is;
Struggled to find good sources for the uniforms, mostly went off of photographs, struggled still cause they were monochrome. creative liberties were taken in the end. esp w/ flight uniforms
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Im actually crying 1 week…omfg…
FRISK WHY YOU LITTLE MF OXBSKZBALA
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OH MY FUCKING GOD I HATE THIS PLATFORM WITH A BURNING PASSION. I CAN’T FIGURE ANYTHING OUT AND HALF OF THE PEOPLE HERE ARE HOMESTUCKS I SWEAR TO GOD TUMBLR CARRIED THE EARLY 2010S FANDOMS. WHY DOES MY IPAD HAVE TO OBTAIN A PENIS LOOKING APPENDAGE FROM THE CHARGER HOLE WHENEVER I NEED MY APPLE PENCIL CHARGED. I’M JUST TRYING TO DRAW I DON’T NEED ANY FUCKING TECHNOLOGICAL PORN I SAW ENOUGH OF THAT BEING IN THE INANIMATE INSAINITY FANDOM WHAT THE FUCK ARE TAGS.
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TUMBLR. ME LIKING POSTS ABOUT TRANS POSITIVITY. ITS NOT A CUE FOR SHOWING ME TRANSPHOBIC POSTS. WAKE UP
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Don't mind me, just here to give Sunny the smooch he deserves 💗
SOBBING OH MY GOD, BELOVED THIS IS THE CUTEST SHIT I'VE EVER SEEN
LOOK AT THAT SMOOCH, AT THAT GRIN, OH MY GOD I FUCKING ADORE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS
THANK YOU BELOVED THIS IS AMAZING!!! I'M- *HOLDS IT SO GENTLE*
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#bestie i have spent the past week or so puzzling over what the fuck <2 meant and now i'm inspired
oh i follow an aro who used <2 as an alternative to <3 in an "i'm aro and my heart/love is funky" way and i thought that was cool so i adopted it
That is super cool and I'm totally stealing it. /pos /pos
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