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trashlie · 1 year

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Alyssa Cho: Sexuality and Fitting In

It’s been six months since we finished the Shinlyssa Flashback arc, can you believe that? And it’s taken me all these months to finally start putting together this post lol.

During the flashback arc, one of the hotly contested theories was: Did Alyssa have a crush on Shinae? It’s easy to think we’re reading into things, especially in a story like ILY where we can’t always, in the moment, see something for what it is, or rather what it will become. It’s easy to overthink things, and sometimes we get focused on things that are red herrings. But, in this case, I think it’s not far from the truth at all. In fact, I think the possibility of Alyssa’s sexuality is a part of why she is so desperate to fit in at all. Especially in middle school, society isn’t always kind to lgbtq folks, and there’s a couple hints that it might be something her family is against, as well.

Now I want to make it clear from the start: I don’t think we can specifically speculate on what Alyssa’s sexuality is, firstly because there’s a good chance even she isn’t sure and secondly because sexuality is certainly a part of a spectrum and it isn’t something that necessarily stays unwavering. I will also up front state that while my suspicions are that Alyssa leans more towards lesbian, that doesn’t negate the possibility of bi/pan/something less specific. But what I DO want to speculate is how her relationship with her possible sexuality, and thus her relationship with Shinae, heavily factors into her need to conform and fit in.

I think the beginning of the flashback arc is where we see Alyssa at her happiest, and perhaps her most honest. She has a great time in math club with Alyssa, the teacher gets her excited about the math competitions and the chance to prove herself. But it also is where everything starts to go downhill.

It doesn’t really need reiterated, because the story has made it very clear, but Alyssa is very driven by attention and praise. But I don’t think it’s blind praise she wants, because she often refutes it from Alyssa. It’s not anything special to her that she can play instruments because anyone can do that; writing music though? That’s special. Alyssa talks about wanting to be liked and popular, but what I suspect she really want is acceptance for who she is, and she quickly learns that it won’t be found here unless she starts faking it.

She’s an intellectual girl, advanced beyond probably most of her peers, who has no favor for kpop and much prefers the classics, is heavily invested in STEM with a favor for bio engineering. It’s made immediately apparent to her that all of her interests will make her a target. It’s not simply that she won’t fit in - it’s that she sticks out in a way that will make people think her weird and outcast her, and it’s really clear that being ostracized is something she fears. I think it’s important to emphasize that this is a fear; it’s not simply being a preteen and wanting to be liked because you don’t know how to be alone but a fear that drives her to do really rash things and lash out. This fear is compounded by her anxiety. When confronted about the missing science project, when it gets out of her hand before she has a chance to stop it, when confrontation comes to a head, Alyssa goes home, feeling sick and miserable.

She simply could not handle the confrontation or the ramifications it yielded.

For Alyssa, fitting in a necessity.

Early in, Alyssa admits to Shinae that she begged her parents to let her go to public school because she wanted to make friends her own age. I imagine she must have been lonely. I don’t think she was homeschooled with other kids - just her sister, and from the sounds of it, she probably didn’t have friends in her dance lessons. I’m willing to bet they were personal, one-on-one lessons, or else maybe she would have been more focused on making friends with the kids in her class rather than dancing? As it is, dance sounds like it was a passing interest of hers that she didn’t really come to love but was stuck continuing, because the alternative was to tell her parents and that doesn’t seem something she’s capable of. But she also admits to Shinae that she has seen what happens to kids who are outcast and ostracized. She doesn’t want that; it goes against the whole reason she came to public school! Why would she endure that if she could just go back to homeschooling and her loneliness?

Another thing Alyssa notes, though, is this.

It doesn’t seem like much, in the moment. Alyssa has already talked about how overbearing her parents are, how she expresses interest in something and they shower in it, even it was just a fleeting idea. She seems to feel overwhelmed by them and wants an escape from them, lest they take another thing that interests her and put her through it in a way that makes her lose any fancy she possessed for it.

But it’s a mantra that comes up again, later.

For a while during the flashback, I waffled a lot on Alyssa’s sexuality. Was it, I wondered, just a red herring, meant to make us THINK Alyssa had a crush, but it was really more about her internal conflict with her feelings about hurting Shinae and trying to do what she wants? Alyssa (much like Nol does) struggled a lot with her relationship with Shinae vs what she wanted more than anything. She tried to make it worked - tried to find a way to be both Shinae’s friend AND to be popular and well-liked, and when it miserably back-fired on her, she made a choice.

It was here, though, that I began believe that yes, Alyssa probably did have a crush on Shinae, that Alyssa may, in fact, like girls.

Alyssa has a secret so deep that she doesn’t want anyone to know, not even Shinae. (Also, note the way she says she didn’t want anyone to find out, not even you, as if maybe, Shinae could have been separate person, who maybe she could tell her OTHER secrets to, if they ever got so far.) She especially doesn’t want the teachers involved, because that will get her parents involved - and they won’t be happy, because they’ll ask things and they won’t like what she has to say. That is, the truth was something that would upset them.

It’s really important, too, to reiterate that Alyssa’s home life is far from perfect, too. We’ve seen just enough to start to wonder about them. Alyssa’s response to her dad was the most telling - the way she completely changed her whole personality and mood in response to him coming home speaks volumes.

Shinae doesn’t seem to register what she overheard, but the jagged speech bubbles suggest yelling, Meg and her dad probably arguing loudly. We don’t see anything, so it’s hard to completely read the body language - is Meg just covering hear ear because her father is yelling? Is she holding her hand up because he slapped the side of her face?

Moreso, when Shinae asks if everything is good at home, and finally brings up the complete 180 change of Alyssa’s, she lashes out again.

Hiding an angry, controlling, potentially abusive father is probably first nature to Alyssa. She’s learning - she knows what kinds of things will ostracize you, what will make you weird to the others. Isn’t it better to not let them see that side of you? But honestly, further? It reads even more like she’s just not allowed to bring kids around, period, because of him. When Shinae called to check up on Alyssa after checking on her, she asked if she could go over and visit Alyssa again, and her mom told her that she couldn’t. Whether her dad is actually strict about people coming over or Alyssa is just using it as a line to not allow anyone else (and frankly, it feels more like the latter, since she’s still feeling out what is “normal”), the point is: they’re hiding something.

So Alyssa has a secret she’s so desperate to keep, that she absolutely does not want anyone, not even Shinae, and especially not her parents to find out.

The other thing that made me start to feel more confidently about this possibility was the language used by the boys bullying Alyssa. It’s language that is very pointedly anti-gay.

It’s not just simple bullying - it’s not (completely) about the stolen project, it’s not about who she hangs out with or her socio-economic status or who her paents are, or anything like Shinae is bullied for.

“You’re really cute, you know that? Such a shame it’s going to waste though... Nasty.”

What else could they mean by “going to waste” if not that it’s a shame that she, a cute girl, would never date them/some guy, that it’s “wasted” on her going “against the natural order of things” or something equally gross.

“You know they say people like you have brains that are damaged, right? That’s why you’re the way you are.”

Homosexuality being written off as a mental illness, as something wrong with the brain, as something that can be converted out of them, as though it’s a defect still remains an argument even in this day and age. Anti-gay hate speech still tries to convince queer folk and especially those who hate or fear them that there is something wrong with them, that they’re defective, that it goes against all that is natural (a man should only lie with a woman).

These boys are echoing explicit hate speech, and I think it must be tied to the notes in Alyssa’s locker. If they were the same things Shinae is being bullied for, why would she refused so adamantly to tell her about it? If they were bullying her about the same thing, wouldn’t she maybe instead just blame Shinae? But instead, she doubles down on it, because this thing, this thing she’s hiding that she doesn’t want anyone to know about, would ruin everything. Her parents would hate her, and if she were forced to tell them the truth about it, perhaps she’d face even worse consequences with her family.

Alyssa reiterates that she just wanted to be liked and to fit in. And now, there’s no easy way out of her current situation. She’s conflicted about the choice she has to make. She doesn’t tell Shinae what she’s conflicted about - but I think it’s pretty easy to guess what it is.

Alyssa’s conflict is: does she remain friends with Shinae who has been nice to her and has treated her so well and probably made her feel special, but also whose relationship has brought Alyssa strife and made others think she might be a weirdo thief in association; or does she do what she set out to and forsake Shinae in favor of the other kids’ approval, to fit in and blend in just the way she wanted?

We know what choice she made, but despite how things go, I don’t think it was the easiest choice, either. When Shinae calls out Alyssa on things like ignoring her, Alyssa deflects, though not well, and she looks nervous or anxious. When the awful girls are messing with Shinae’s belongings, Alyssa (unsuccessfully) tries to stop them. The whole altercation leading up to Alyssa recoiling and accidentally pushing Shinae out the window seems very much like a battle for Alyssa of what she wants and what she knows is right.

Shinae had a big impact on Alyssa! She was Alyssa’s first friend, and probably one of the only real, true friends she ever had. Shinae liked Alyssa completely for who she was - for her love for math and science, for her cool trips to cool exhibits, for her ability to play so many instruments. The things that made Alyssa weird to people, Shinae accepted her for. Most importantly, Shinae was a bright beam in her life. She was radiant and seemed so confident and strong and tough - things that Alyssa admired but did not herself possess.

Sure, it could have just been admiration. After all, when Alyssa began blushing with Shinae, it came off the back of compliments, right?

Alyssa seems so taken aback by Shinae’s very earnest compliment, by the idea of impressing someone with one of her skills, with the idea of being able to play something for her. But if it was simply about compliments, wouldn’t all compliments make her flush?

Minhyuk’s compliment doesn’t get much of a reaction from Alyssa. If anyone, she looks a little wary, a little put on the spot. But when Shinae backs him up and reiterates it, she’s back to being flustered, mumbling something Shinae doesn’t catch.

Something I think is worth mentioning is that quimchee definitely differentiates these kinds of reactions. Blushes are colored red and usually use the lines, but there’s a LOT more cases of the lines being used without a blush. I’ve always thought of that as being flustered - similar to when you embarrass, but perhaps not to the same degree.

We’ve seen it many times between Shinae with Dieter (compared to Dieter very often going red with the lines). We saw it when Shinae pointed out that Nol’s face had healed by getting very close to him and he got flustered, and even far earlier in the story, when Shinae ran into him in the Hirahara Corp. lobby and he fell out of the chair he was spinning in.

We even see a small version of the lines on Shinae’s face when she watches Minhyuk at taekwondo and she finds him really cool.

Now, I’m not trying to say red blush = romantic feelings, although I do think they tend to trend that way. I just want to reiterate that when the red color enters, it feels like more of a flush, a deeply blushing, than just flustered. Blushing can be embarrassment - but we also see it often with the lines (see Nol) or sometimes a sweatdrop. Perhaps quimchee does have a more specific set of rules about this that we’ll one day hear about, but it’s something I try to keep in mind.

That said, Alyssa blushing A LOT in a black and white flashback where her sexuality has come in to play feels very, very pointed. The flashback has selective color, so Alyssa’s flush stands out. I think it’s meant to. I think we’re meant to infer this.

Her blushing isn’t simply limited to Shinae praising her, either.

When Alyssa finds out Shinae was bullied at her old school, she apologizes, and tells her she never would have guessed, asks how she can be so strong. Shinae is nothing but honest, but it’s her brilliant smile that sways Alyssa.

I think there’s something even more specific about this blush, too. The close up on her face, how we don’t see it all, her eyes withheld, her mouth quivering. Alyssa is so affected by this. It’s not Shinae paying her compliments or praising her. It’s Shinae. Her warmth and radiance and strength and positivity and the way she just shines.

And that smile GETS to Alyssa!

Alyssa can’t run away this time, so she looks away, but the blush still happens. Shinae’s smile just seems to be so disarming to Alyssa!

For a while, when I was trying to decide if I thought this was a crush or a red herring, I considered: maybe every time Shinae is so bright and positive, she feels bad because she’s lying to Shinae. She feels bad because she knows Shinae is a better friend than she is. And sure, I suppose that could be. Alyssa doesn’t like when she looks like she’s in the wrong. But given the context of the explicit things the boys said, the bullying that Alyssa wouldn’t open up about, the thing that she absolutely adamantly does not want anyone to know about, that she can’t speak of?

It feels like it’s exactly what it looks like: Alyssa has a crush on the nice, tough, confident, weird, boisterous girl who is so nice to her and sees something in her.

Alyssa is so affected by Shinae’s concern, by her expression of actual care. Telling her she misses her, going all the way to her place to check on her, her relief that she’s okay. Alyssa is so touched by the effort Shinae puts forth, so moved to be on the receiving end of it. She just can’t reconcile herself with it.

Because Shinae represents the thing Alyssa is hiding, that she wants to run away from. She knows the other students think Shinae is weird, and that association with her only pulls down her own reputation. She’s in conflict over what she wants (popularity, so many friends, people to like her to) vs what her heart wants - Shinae’s affection and unabashed confidence and the way she looks in Shinae’s eyes.

But she can’t admit this to herself. She can’t let her heart, her feelings, rule this conflict.

I think Shinae hit the nail right on the head - just not in a way she realizes. I think Alyssa IS lying to herself. I think she IS in denial. I think her sexuality is something she’s yet to reconcile, that at this point in time she cannot make peace with. Because people think it’s weird, because they think it’s unnatural, because it’s “wrong”, because they think people like her perverts are monsters. There’s a part of her that she recognizes is not “normal”, in that it doesn’t suit the status quo, what society generally believes to be true, so she hides it. She stuffs it deep down and tries to repress it, to pretend it’s not there, pretend that’s not her, pretend she’s the very picture of “normal” middle school girl.

She pretends to like the things other “normal” kids do. She starts to feel uncomfortable about the things she DOES like. She’s not embarrassed about math club - she’s just self-conscious. Because being weird makes you stick out. It makes people look differently at you. If you’re “weird” enough, it makes them bully you, ostracize you.

Alyssa is so lonely and she just wants to fill that void. She thinks fitting in will make it better. She thinks fitting in will protect her. Look how quickly the bully girls change their beliefs about Alyssa, as soon as she pushes all suspicion from her. No longer is she the weird one, suddenly they wall want to be her friend, they think she’s so cool. Just like that.

Fitting in will afford her protection, because if she’s “normal” enough, no one will suspect her, no one will find her weird, and no one will find out about her darkest secret. It will keep her safe.

Obviously, this is a naïve belief. Especially in middle school, kids will turn on you for whatever reason. Alyssa is clearly rich, eager to please, and wants to fit in. She’s sold one project and suddenly kids wanted her to do all their work, to benefit from her. It wasn’t real friendship - they just liked her for what she could do to them. But Alyssa is convinced that popularity - that being surrounded by people, by being liked, will protect her. She’ll fit in. She’ll have friends. That aching loneliness that has eaten her up won’t be a problem.

Except none of it is real. The real friendship was Shinae. Shinae was the one who liked her for who she is, not just what she can do for her. Shinae was the one she didn’t have to fake it for, who saw her at her worst and still tried to be her friend. It was the price she paid to protect herself, and her secret.

But for Alyssa, who may see a part of herself as “wrong” because it won’t be accepted, who is so lonely and just wanted to be liked and to make friends, maybe she hopes that being liked will make up for that “wrongness”. Maybe, if enough people like her, it will make her feel loved in the way she wants, but won’t allow. If she thinks something is wrong with her, couldn’t the love and adoration of the masses, make her feel like it’s not true, cover it up, make it feel like it doesn’t matter?

I think even now, in the present, it’s possible that Alyssa’s sexuality may be a thing she hasn’t reconciled with. Is she still hiding from it? Is she still fighting to be seen as “normal”? Who was she, before Yui made an idol of her, when she was friends with Nol, Dieter, and Soushi. Did she crave that faux normalcy even then?

I’ve considered, too, that perhaps Nol provides another benefit he’s unaware of. Again, as I’ve said, we can only speculate on Alyssa’s sexuality, so it doesn’t rule out that she could also like men. But could it be that Nol provides her the protection that she needn’t deal with her sexuality? She has a boyfriend, case closed. It doesn’t matter then, who she’s interested in. It doesn’t matter, because who is going to question anything?

(Also, tangential, but fake-dating someone who so-very-much resembles young Shinae, with that bright, radiant smile that had a way of always undoing Alyssa? Listen. You can’t tell me that’s a coincidence. Even if she’s never had feelings for Nol, I still think she was drawn to him because of how Yeonggi reminded her of Shinae, how he was like an echo of the only real friendship she’d had, and I think that was a big part of the draw. Shinae had such an impact on her that years later, she was shaken to her core by someone whose smile was just as radiant as hers.)

I don’t think this is the last we’ve seen of Alyssa’s sexuality, either. It wouldn’t have been repeated so many episodes if not. I always thought that Alyssa’s career will fail at some point, because the whole point of her character is that she is constantly trying to chase love and affection in places she won’t find it, and her fans’ love for her is only conditional. It used to be I thought that bullying allegations would arise and that would cause her call. Claims that Alyssa was involved with a girl who got pushed out of her school window, that she turned on her. It’s so easy to take the truth and twist it up a little. Shinae saw her first bully again when she was buying comics. Who’s to say Sarah Lee won’t show up again to bring down Alyssa. As a former trainee, wouldn’t Sarah have the most jealousy towards Alyssa? But now I do worry that it could be rumors of her sexuality that could be her undoing. After all, how did the boys targeting Alyssa know what they did? Where did they glean the information they used against her?

I know Alyssa isn’t a popular character with a lot of the choices she has made. But I do think it’s worth acknowledging how her potential sexuality ties into those choices she made, and the kind of pressure she felt to fit in, to be seen as “normal”. A lonely girl who wanted nothing more than to have lots of friends, who probably felt so empty despite her parents’ overbearing interest in her, but who also knew that there was something about her that is considered Not Right, and that it was something that could threaten the very thing she covets - being adored. Idk, I think in that context, her choices make sense. They’re still selfish, she still can’t face conflict, she still doesn’t get that being loved is not about a role but who you are. But I think if she could feel that part of her accepted, if she didn’t fear what her parents would think, if she knew she’d be supported no matter what, maybe she wouldn’t have made those choices.

Like everyone in ILY, Alyssa has to contend with who she really is and she really wants. Now that she’s an idol, she’s come to realize that even this love is conditional. That it doesn’t fill that lonely void, that it doesn’t replace whatever it is she’s seeking - it just makes it worse.

#I Love Yoo #ILY Brainrot #Alyssa Cho #Shinae Yoo #I KNOW FANDOM HAS FEELINGS ABOUT HER BUT #idk i've come to love Alyssa lmaoooooooooo #I don't like her choices but i get it #she is a mess and i really hope we get to see her try to clean up those messes one day because it's the least the people she's hurt deserve #but once again just like everyone in ILY lmao i think Alyssa is a victim of her circumstances #or rather in her case i think she has felt for her whole life boxed into a corner #i think she's probably been heavily at war with herself #supposing it's true and she isn't completely straight then she has lived with something that scares her for so long #i think it absolutely compounds her need to be liked #i don't think that the latter is caused by the former as much it just exacerbates it #whether or not she likes girls she still wants to be popular and well liked by the masses #but liking girls means it's more important it's more of a NEED than a want #and it's not something she could come out and tell Shinae because i don't think it's something she can admit to herself #at least not comfortably anyway. not with pride. not without feeling like a mistake

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cannibalovers · 2 months

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"...you smoked me in thyme."

"Smoked, glazed, served on a sugar cane quill."

#hannibal quotes out of context #FUCKING GIRLBOSS HONESTLY LMAOOOOOOOOOO #JUST HAD TO PUSH IT INTO HIS FACE EVEN MORE #hannibal #nbc hannibal #hannibal lecter #abel gideon #bitter sassy cannibal once said #<<<hashtag ill start using for when hes bitter or sassy cuz there's a lot LMAOOOOOO its another quote that inspired it tho

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cornerihaunt · 27 days

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god my mind is going a thousand miles an hour it’s insane. i’ve read for… seven straight hours i think (i took a dinner break and a tumblr break but still.)

#i am sooooo re reading aftg once i’m done with tsc #rambles #also. goodnight for real tho #i do have class tomorrow LMAOOOOOOOOOO

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crsentfairy · 1 year

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nothing breaks out a fight between lloyd and ximena faster than the dreaded game, mercy.

#crsent.sims #txt #oc #lloyd miles #ximena pratt #one would hit the other too hard and now it turns into a contest of who can survive each other's barrage of hard punches #once they start to play and shove each other a *little* too much hugo is already yelling at them to cut it out LMAOOOOOOOOOO

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galacticdrift · 9 months

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Oh, Epic, honey, that's not at all how ANY of this works, but you're cute for trying.

#epic games #I grabbed this screenshot for 1.5 because the idea of a company thinking they can REVOKE your right to create fan content is absurd #but then I read through 1.3 and CACKLED #'must not be obscene or sexually explicit' LMAOOOOOOOOOO #have you. have you ever been on the internet. even once.

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starbuck · 2 years

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was marveling at how many new species i’ve added for my patch this year and thinking “that’s weird… i hammered it just as hard in past years…” only to check ebird and realize the most times i’d ever gone in a previous year was 38 and i’ve been 62 times so far this year and it’s only October 😂😂

#like. lmaoooooooooo #part of that is because i went throughout the summer this time and i didn’t add any new species then #so i feel like luck and skill STILL play a pretty significant part here #but like. Damn. lol…#i wonder if ANY other person in this state can say they’ve been to one spot 62 times this year…#truly getting into patch birding was the best thing i’ve EVER done #i’m OBSESSED with this place while simultaneously knowing that it doesn’t actually matter at all #i’m literally ONLY in competition with myself here #and meanwhile i’ve put this place on the map and have a whole gaggle of new friends now bc i’ve attracted them there with my reports #it’s insane #literally nearly 25% of ALL the checklists for this place are mine 😂😂#i love it so much #the real question is: how many more new species can i add by the end of the year?#optimistically i’d say there’s potential for five or so depending on how much hawkwatching i’m able to get in #but 1-3 is probably more likely #WE SHALL SEE!!!!!!!!!!#i’ve already broken my record for ‘most new species added in one year’ as of today!!#which is impressive considering the fact that once i add a species - i can’t add it again - so repeats don’t count #i’ve just had some REALLY good luck this year istg…#but i’m proud of myself #and i’ve gained the respect of a bunch of the old-timers which is also fantastic

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custer-mp3 · 2 years

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YEAAAAAH BABY THAT’S THE STUFF

#anyway. about to try a new brace but it's gonna be 97 degrees here all week & i already feel like i'm being hit with a bat repeatedly #like all my injuries are all ON at FULL BLAST on top of the swelling pain and whatever my feet are doing #i'm getting nerve shocks in my hands too #ON TOP OF MY ENTIRE RIGHT HAND FEELING LIKE A BALL OF CHEWED MEAT DUE TO AN INJURY SUSTAINED IN 2018 #my fkn BINGO WINGS hurt and i have never even injured those #i am going to have a 🙂 full scale 🙂 mental 🙂 breakdown by wednesday at the latest #truly be lucky if i make it through the next 48 hrs without landing in the ER as a hazard to myself cuz everything hurts just too damn much #i'm already at the 'scared to sleep' portion of the festivities cuz for DAYS i have been TRYING to sleep and not actually been able to sleep #cuz it's already too hot (moderate 80s) and hurts too bad #thursday night i slept in 15 minute increments #friday night was a little better i got like. an hour to an hour and a half at a time.#then yesterday i slept all day in 20-50 minute bursts and when i went to bed i once again slept in 15-30 minute increments #it's too hot i'm in too much pain there is no comfortable position nothing that can be done with the pillows. nothing #so lmaoooooooooo i'm scared to even TRY to sleep tonight cuz i know if it doesn't work i'm gonna SNAP but i'm already so so tired so like #truly have no choice #WORKED OPEN TO CLOSE TODAY 🌈 GONNA DO THE SAME THING TOMORROW 🌈 THEN HAVE 2 DAYS OFF WHEREIN I TRY TO REST BUT JUST LAY HERE & SWEAT & GR #OAN IN PAIN 🌈🌈🌈🌈#I LOVE BEING ALIVE EXISTENCE IS IN NO WAY A BURDEN #thanks domestic violence!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🌈

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total-drama-takes-the-squeakquel · 3 months

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his character sucks, his design sucks, his voice sucks everything about him sucks. I don't get why people like him, he's a selfish bitch who cares for himself. Randomly beefing with people for no reason, Brick tried to be nice to him multiple times on the show but he didn't give a shit and still tried to hurt him. Then when we get the merge he's basically treating lightning and Cameron like shit.

In episode 1 he was already beefing with people the second he appeared om screen. Scott wad just minding his own business then all of a sudden jo of course had something to say "stay of my way If you value your kiwis🤓" girl wtf are you talking about, scott didn't do anything to you. After chris McLean crahes the boat he's basically drowning people so he could get 1st place. Then when he arrives 1st he keeps bringing up he's a girl like who give a fuck. Yes we can all see your an girl.

Episode 2 and he's still a bitch. I wish he got voted off instead of staci. At the start of episode 2 him and brick was both running then suddenly they both crash into each othim 😱😱 and then yet again jo starts beefing and being a bitch in general for no reason like stfu for once your so annoying and then in the trivia game he's basically forcing Cameron and brick to embarrass themselves and even before the challenge he was being rude to Cameron saying he had a giant head while him chin is just as large.

Yet again in Episode 3 he was still annoying, at the start of the episode he basically racing with brick for the 29292 time and then he nearly chocked him and then omg 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱 jo is actually nice to someone he actually "compliments" svetlana and then for the rest of the episode he's breaks bricks arm and is being annoying to anne maria. Istg If I was anne maria I would've beaten the shit of him.

Don't even get me started on episode 4 omg, in this episode he was just being a selfish annoying jerk. The whole episode he was bullying brick for passing his pants acting like he don't work out naked. Anne maria and Mike had the right to insult his attitude. he needs to get his attitude problem fixed istg. The more I talk about him in this episode the more my blood boils so let's just get to episode 5.

Episode 5 this bitch starts complaining about how no one can do shit on their tteam like oh my god shut the fuck up no one made you team leader. anne maria shouldve let that bitch fucking drown. if i were him i wouldve cheered zoey on for stepping on the air hose because then it wouldve gotten rid of the worst contestant of all time. then jo almost kills cameron like how much of a stupid fucking bitch can you be??????? no wonder no one likes you oh my god you asshole. and after brick basically took a bomb for the team all he has for him is a "nice job kid!" and a thumbs up????? what the fuck??????? hes a heartless asshole. can we also talk about how fucked up him back is????? why does he look like that??? girl looks like a humpback whale. fucking big ass feet as well. he needs to join the rates. no wonder lightning thought you were a man look at you. big ass chin.

then in episode 6 the only thing they do with him is talk about how hairy and ugly that bitch is. "ill pass on the frilly girly hair care thank you" WE GET IT YOURE NOT LIKE OThim GIRLS. CAN YOU SHUT UP YOU ANNOYING ASSHOLE. i wish anne marias hairspray killed him on the spot. no wonder anne maria and zoey looked so disgusting at jo shaving whatever he was doing in that scene because id be disgusting at that ugly ass bitch too. then the only othim thing he does is say hes hairy like ugh we get it nobody asked. girls out hime acting embarrassed like "Omg silly me did everyone hear me mention my pit hair? xoxoxoxoxo ahahaha i hope no one heard that" fucker has a beard. and normally i wouldnt care if girls have body hair but this bitch dont need to be acting like this and getting all embarrassed that someone heard him mention him beard. then chester fucks up him makeup lmaoooooooooo good on him. everyone shouldve laugehd at him harder, if anything that ugly ass makeup made him look even better. then he cruhes bricks hand like "welcome to my team" who tf r uu go away ur knew.

Then in episode 7 he has to mention he works out naked like um????? weirdo???? fym "finally work out like the ancient olympians" like ew thats actually disgusting. have you been WAITING to do this? kys. then he makes that dumb alliance with lightning for some reason although brick is a giant simp and will do whatever he says and it wouldve been a better strategy to keep him around because he constantly rides him dick. hes so fucking stupid for that move. then he has him whole "and ive never kissed a guy" moment ugh shut the fuck up youre not a gay twink. "ermm im not a dude!!!!!" WE KNOWWW hes the reason i hope gay marriage gets criminalized in every country in north america. then hes all like "brickkkkk abandon ur code for me!!!!!" like you just wanted zoey mike and cam to die?????? hes actuallly so fucking twisted. how awful of a person can you be. then he voted out brick even tho he didnt even vote for him so if he voted out lightning he couldve kept him around and manioulated brick. but he voted brick anyway. you know why? because jo sucks.

Episode 8 he doesnt even do jackshit he just wakes lightning up from his sleep and starts yelling at him with those corny ass nicknames like please shut your face no one ever wants to hear you talk you sue sylvester wannabe. since sues a republican i bet joes a republican too. fucking trump voter. i cant even remember what he does this episode becauses hes so useles?????? and then he beats lightning with a metal sign for no reason. like girl thats your only ally why dont you kill yourself while youre at it. god i hate republicans.

Then in episode 9 he pushes lightning into a shark like stoppppppppp thats ur ally you dumb fuck. whyd you just abandon him while everyone else hates you. lmao. i really wish scott eliminated joe that episode because then he wouldt have made it to the final 4 but nooooo scotts also stupid. s4 wouldve been SOOOO much better if joe wasnt in it. then she wants to be spoiled and pampered by lightning like stop itttt

Finally she gets eliminated in 10 but the entire time shes like "why is lightning mad at me?? i only pushed him into a shark ahahaha teehehheeh im so sillyyy" please sotp it you look liek you have xy chromsomes!!!! thens he bullies cameron for no reason??? and acts like a 90s school bully like ahahahah do my homework for me NERD!!!!!!!!!!!!! you dipshit i hope you kill yourself lmao look at meeeee. then she acts all surprised when everyone votes her off loolllll love it when he gets his karma. no wonder lightning misgendered you when you have a full beard that you cant shave off jackass

Even in the finale he cant shut up "im not rooting for cam or lightning ://// look at me guys im so different ahahhaha im one of the boys lmao!!!! im not like other girls!!! XDDDDD" nobody asked. :/

anyway jo dick riders dont come after me its just my opinion and im correct xoxo. dont come at me with all bis issues r just internalized misogyny !!!!!! bc i dont care i hope he joins the rates!!!!glad he didnt make it far in AS bc if he did i think i wouldve shot somebody lollll okay goodnight

#long post #total drama #character hate #jater

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were watching princezam season 2 rn in vc and there a part of your video where you mention having started a hitman business thats so funny thats so funny this minutetech kid thinks hes you

LMAOOOOOOOOOO I FORGOT I DID THAT yeah I was blood thirsty in season 2 and wanted excuses to kill people since I felt bad doing it at random. Unfortunately nobody used my service even once except for Parrot on Spoke for literally no reason he never says he did that in any of his videos or anything it was just because he was mad at him outside of content LMAOOOOO funny ass memories

#hello it is me princezam #thanks for bringing this up #hilarious

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honeyworks fans are a ✨special✨ kind of degenerate: the exhibition

#shoddily cropped pics are ✨shoddily cropped✨—#i lost it when i saw *that* part of to family as the most replayed part lmaoooooooo #though i can’t believe the viewers yeeted the ariken out of the ariken mvs lmaoooooooooo #shibakentucky fried chicken #染BODY ONCE TOLD ME—#fedora throttle4

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on that note KAZUIS LEG STAYS UP LMAOOOOOOOOOO he has not let that thing down once

#rambles #milgram #kazui mukuhara

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hi!!! what are your thoughts on hedric? and what could be a logical continuation of their possible relationship had cedric survived??

Omg, a Hedric anon! 🥺 I never get to talk about Hedric on here, so thank you!!!

I love them. I have shipped them from the moment Baby Imp read the line in GOF where Cedric is like "you need to take a bath with the egg" lmaoooooooooo. I so badly wanted Cedric to join Harry in that bath ;)

First of all, if Cedric had survived, so would Sirius. Harry would have taken Kreacher at his word and run off to the DOM to save Sirius if not for Cedric. Cedric goes "Harry, my loveable dumbass of a boyfriend, please use your mirror to double-check what Kreacher told you," and that's how Harry discovers that Sirius is just fine at Grimmauld.

I like to think that Cedric continues on as a professional Quidditch player after school, and Harry is his hot house husband. I don't think Harry picks up a "real" job after school. He's certainly not an Auror! He travels. He picks up a bunch of different hobbies. He helps out Remus at his bookstore or Sirius at his mechanic shop. He takes care of the household. He bullies the Ministry into passing a bunch of progressive legislation. He adopts a bunch of snakes. Once Cedric retires from Quidditch, he becomes a coach. They live in a lovely house in the country and nothing bad happens ever again, the end.

#imp speaks #cedric diggory #harry potter #hedric

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TW: Blood, Max being a little unhinged feral gremlin

(Context shit ig is that The Trio derps all got captured by shadowdemons or some shit anddddd yeah…So our scene's basically Max in a cell of some sort, restrained and he overhears some fuckin shadowdemon convo.)

Guard 1:(amused)I thought the girl one wasn't ever gonna shut up…You think any of em can get out if they have no weapons or anything? Cuz these kids are apparently pretty crafty according to Queen Meforia…

Guard 2:(Nonchalant)I doubt it…Cept maybe the shark one…And i feel like if he gets out, he'll probably try and eat some of us…Sharks and shit, yknow…As long as he doesn't get you entirely, you'd probably be fine…

Guard 1:(thinking)………You really think he could do that??? Like rip somebody apart and eat em??

Max:(tired, looks ragid as fuck and pissed as shit, not happy in any regard)…….He fucking won't actually dumbfuck but i promise you…If i get out…I WILL…I will fucking rip you to shreds and eat whatever the fuck i can get since you bastards have been fucking with us for days now…Haven't had a good amount of food in a bit so i fucking will…Without hesitation…

(Both guards look at the disshelved dog teenager and laugh before talking and walking off…We see Max death glaring…) ------------------------- (Cut to a bit later, Max does find a way out cuz clever little shit and he keeps his word, mauling like the first shadowdemon he sees…Max actually rips them apart enough to where the shadowdemon is tempdead…Max's face is coated in blood and he stands up tiredly as he comes back more to himself)

Max:(to himself)…………Tasted like fucking shit…But least you died in fucking agony…Got at least a couple scraplings of something…Fuckers…(His ears twitch, he hears a shrill voice, probably Kristy, becomes more mission orriented)……..Right, right, goddamnit, gotta get em, gotta find em!!! (darts off to help his comrades) ---------------------

(So this is whenever Max manages to find Kristy…My guess is the shrill voice was Kristy in pain or something so my guess is a guard was not treating her very nicely…Max is more himself at this point thanks to the few bites he got so he just cracks this shadowdemons neck or something, kills them quicker or whatever…Max grabs the keys off their pocket and starts unlocking Kristy's cell and Kristy sees Max bloodcoated face)

Kristy:(Terrified by that)MAX, WHAT THE HELL IS ON YOUR FACE???? IS THAT BLOOD???? WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU?????

Max:(distracted, opens the cell, looks up at her)Huh? (realizes, wipes some off his face)Oh thisssssss…Ah, ok, that…Uh, was more uhhhhh what i did to them…

Kristy:(taking that in, very confused but scared all the same)…What…Did you do to them?

Max:(smirks, blood on his teeth)Mighta had a little snack…Not alot though…Shadowdemon i snagged tasted like shit…But also wasn't alot there honestly…Inner wolf came out, eh, what can i say?

Kristy:(terrified still, takes that in)………………………………….Jesus christ Max…

Max:(amused, wiping his mouth some more)Yeahhhhhh, and they always think Sharky's the dangerous one out of us…It's a fuckin laugh riot honestly…Anything bad Sharky could do would be pure mercy compared to anything i'd do…So uhhhh yknow…ANYWAY, speaking of Sharky, we should probably find him!!! Any clue where they're keeping his fishy ass or???

Kristy:(moreso used to Max being an unhinged little shit and not seeing what she could even do about that, she nods, refocusing herself)I think so!!! I think i heard him yelling a bit ago!!! Cmon!!!! (runs out of the cell with Max by his arm and they both start running)

-------------------------------------- Once again, Max ain't the one to fuck with...This dogboi unhinged as shit, he got some shit actually wrong with him fdjkhfdhsjfsdhjsfdhjfdhjfd little feral ass gremlin child, i adore him lol...and again, the Campsite is LUCKY AS FUCK Max is on their side lmaoooooooooo

Max legit the thing people fear Sharky is, like...goddamn lol A reminder too, shadowdemons reform lol, only way to kill em entirely is with fire so Max mauling one? Yeah, not a permakill, only a tempkill lol

#kidnappedseries #kidnappedseries dialog stuff #max #sharky #kristy

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It's that time again: thoughts on The Man Who Stopped Laughing #5!

Spoilers below, of course, and a reference to suicide and some definite body horror.

If there was one thing I didn't expect this issue to start with, it's Joker emulating his boyfrenemy.

The implied bat pun. The exposed midriff. … I def saw fan art like this once.

So it's been a few days since Joker escaped the hospital, and his getup indicates he's been investigating who his imposter is (if he is an imposter). And now he's in one of his old hideouts wondering why the Mad Hatter has set up shop there.

And of course since the Mad Hatter is usually relegated to Creepy Weirdo, there are some unfortunate kids here. Joker isn't worried about their welfare, but I'm pretty sure Jervis soon won't be in a state to do them any harm.

Jervis says he got the key from Other Joker, who is back in town, and Jason's own investigation on where his clown quarry soon leads him to the same information, after ruining Killer Moth's night.

So the Joker who ran off to LA is still seen as the real one, and word has spread there's an imposter running around.

Uh oh! Whatever Jervis told Joker, it's leading him to a trap! But what helpful information for Ja—

LOL Poor Moth.

Over in the trap, we see some fun effects with the speech bubble.

That's no reason for me to think Protag Joker is the real one but I do, okay, I'll take any hint

It's not a subtle trap, is it?

Joker looking at himself like 😍

And then…

Lmaoooooooooo of course he did. Joker smelled a trap, of course, and even got a lock to keep the other Joker inside so they could burn together. He says he doesn't want to die but boy does Joker always have doubtful ways of showing it.

There's an interlude with Jason and Stephanie, in which she talks about Bruce like he's in the city.

So I guess this takes place before the current Batman storyline. Or after. Or in some amorphous space. Maybe concurrently with the Punchline comic? Does DC actually give a crap about continuity?

Meanwhile back at the fire, the Other Joker's dialogue gets a little suspect.

Protag Joker's had a water gun this whole time, and I thought it had gasoline in it, but…

Well, acid works fine, and it gets him out of the cage. Though I assume he's not gonna jump out the new hole in the wall.

Back at the coffee meetup, we learn Bruce doesn't think Protag Joker is the real deal. :(

Which implies that Bruce is aware of the Joker situation and just left Other Joker to do his thing in LA?? That raises questions that I sure hope get answered, because huh??

The fire gets big enough for Jason and Stephanie to notice it, as Joker walks out of the building and tracks his double down an open grate.

I like the detail that Joker slides down the ladder. :)

And alright, here we go! Time to get some answers!

DAMMIT, JASON

Yeah, sure, Joker got run over by a train. See you next issue, buddy.

Well, I'm glad Jason got to shoot a Joker copy in a good comic.

Oh whoa WHOA! The answer! Other Joker has been Clayface all the long! Well, that's a little overdone, but I've been wanting to know—

DAMMIT, ROSENBERG! Why must you taunt me!

But we end on this amazing beachside image:

Okay, I forgive you, Rosenberg. The speedo, the flowy robe, the hat, the muscled manservant with the fruity drink… Di Giandomenico, I love you.

So apparently Other Joker is going back to Gotham for real now, but the end-title implies we won't see a real Joker-to-Joker confrontation next month. :( But I can deal so long as I'm still having a fun time.

Alright, backer time: we have yet another woman Joker is trying to woo, and yet another strange way to produce Joker copies.

Here the uninterested woman is Giganta, and my interest in this trope is waning, not helped by this joke:

Joker's been pursuing women in most of these backers, and I've been able to set that aside because they're so ridiculous, but it makes it hard to see this pun as unconsequential. I'm gonna stare at that last panel in the main story to feel better.

There's no mpreg to be found in this backer, just Joker working regular jobs to convince Giganta he's not evil. And when that doesn't work…

He calls up Etrigan, who doesn't think making a clown not evil is a good use of his time.

Lol Etrigan's unfinished rhyme

The demon gets his revenge, though, when he tricks Joker into reading the wrong spell.

I put this into Google translate and got:

"that his hands, head, and feet may be destroyed by worms, cancer, and vermin, and his medulous members may be destroyed"

Which sorta tracks with what happens, which is that Joker grows as big as Giganta, and then we get some body horror!!

Giganta, uh, remains uninterested and leaves with Etrigan.

I guess we can look at it as all of Joker's evil squeezing out of him like popped zits. 😬 But the marks are still left behind and so are all the little vermin. But at least they're supportive?

I have a feeling Fox News won't be interested in this one.

#the man who stopped laughing #joker #my jibber-jabber #spoilers #body horror

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