“A love story with a psychological interest … a rather doubtful experiment with a public who expects a certain style from an author."

— Lucy Maud Montgomery, the Selected Journals of, on the subject of 'Kilmeny of the Orchard'

spills a bunch of ns on the floor

The las vegas gp schedule is absolutely bonkers. I mean, asking people to drive at 300+ kmph but allowing them only like minutes to sleep and rest for it because #PR

How did FIA allow this?

insane to think that the new dean at my uni is already under investigation for making up things for his cv and he JUST won the election

also another reason i play picc despite it causing my migraines is because i can use it to win arguments. Like any other instrument you have no right to complain about piccolo being "too high" when i am playing it and it gives ME migraines. like. ok coward. what do u even have to complain about

DAMNIT INTER MIAMI. I'M TRYING TO CATCH UP ON THE GAME BUT EVERY TIME I FINISH SEEING THE REPLAY OF THE LAST GOAL YOU GUYS SCORE A NEW ONE.

STOP BEING SO GOOD.

i def understand and am willing to accept the critiques of what people say about. like. access in a proletarian future. what does a worker’s dictatorship mean for people who cannot work. i think it is absolutely necessary for, within any worker’s programme, to provide with as full resources as possible for people who can’t/don’t work (which, at some point — be that short periods or the totality — will include everyone, hence the specific concern to workers as a class)

but i only ever see rejections of suggested programs (the one that i think everyone’s talking about being something a stated non-expert suggested off the dome comes to mind) and not, like. proposals that 1. look past capitalism and talk about what could be possible in a dotp and 2. take into account scarcity, including/especially labour scarcity, and the issue of labour desertion.

there is so much work to be done to make the world accessible — who is going to be doing this work? who decides? this is a decision too, and a meaningful one, because dotp isn’t, like, what communists want based on the principle of Kindness and Moral Virtue. it’s a class whose interest is to subsume all other classes into itself, which happens to benefit the vast majority of the planet as part of that class. what does that mean, if disability is itself a unique class position (as i’ve seen referenced in a lot of the posts — not saying it is or it’s not, i literally do not know enough to say)

not saying all of this for the sake of self-satisfied pontification — if anyone has any recommendations for readings on these questions or that explore disability (especially from an ml perspective) i would be very much appreciative

lmaooooo i think i need to quit teaching forever and also bury myself in a hole. lol

So I'm really diving head first into this whole itch game jam thing. It's super neat. Anyways. Another longer one, two weeks, just started tonight and it's the overall theme is narrative focused stories with the specific prompt just revealed to beeeee :

Doomsday!

Hahaha, of course the one i JUST made in three days is about the end of the world and had I had two weeks to make it, it woulda been beautiful. Not that I can't still work on it obvs but. Ya know. For the jam. It's just so ironic that this prompt and theme of jam is so so so so perfect for the thing I just already made and therefore in no way can use 😂😂

ANNYWAYS I'm brainstorming an idea that is kinda emotionally similar to that one level of What Remains of Edith Finch? Her brother, near the very end who worked at the fish factory...

I want something where there's a dual story happening. One of a normal person at their normal day but with heavy themes of depression and hopelessness etc etc. This build up of, like, everything around them falling apart. The apartment is busted. Bad day at work. Bills piling up. Angry family. An expensive accident. Normal depressed poor people relatable problems. (too close to home anyone? haha jfc) And then when they go to bed there's this other story playing out. A big fantasy adventure and it's (at first) subtly affected by the choices you make as the mc. You choose X in the real world and Y happens in the fantasy world. For it to be slowly unfurled that this is like an escapist dream for the mc. Maybe I'll have it happen during the work day instead of at night, to drive home the theme of escapist fantasy.

Anyways I want it to be SUPER dark, cuz ya know, Doomsday prompt. So TW for bad mental health stuff going forward but.

I want it to be this slow reveal that no matter what you do, everything is falling apart and the persons "bad luck" is bleeding into the perfect fantasy world. So much so it's no longer an escape for them, it's another burden. Building to the end which is the doomsday event for the fantasy world... the death of the person. Super dark. But... ya know. Hopefully poignant.

I told this to my mom, just chattin as you do. And she literally was like "that's way too dark, jeez Chevie. You don't have to be all doom and gloom" and I'm like LITERALLY the prompt is DOOMsday. DOOM. HAHAHA. Like what are the odds that's the literal word she chooses just to describe the idea haha. Jeez. But yeah. Just an idea.

When I grow up

when I was a young child.i had various dreams I wanted to be a teacher ,pilot ,doctor funnily even an astronaut.

However when I grew, it seemed my dreams were null and void they become some shit I used to belive in when I was a child .

My agemates could ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up and I didn't have an answer .

In a way I just want to be something that lets me survive . But why ?

Wasn't the world at my feet ? Wasn't the sky the only limit ?or should I live like a hyena always happy eating the leftover.

it’s not any of my business what my second gen dad identified as, but damnit if he had learned tagalog with the rest of his siblings and taught it to his kids, both me and my brother would already have one of our top three target languages mastered.

at least now i can keep it a secret from my lola until I know enough to surprise her with a tagalog-only phone call?

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I have this short story drafted the first third of which is… ehhh… not great, but the other two thirds always hit me right in the feels and I need that first third to fix itself stat so I can actually send it to my CP lol

I need the world to suffer with me a bit with how melancholy this thing is

Writes 444 words.

Takes a 6 hour break.

Deletes 12 words.

Man, I sure do love writing! The thing I’m doing so well!

Been waiting for my washing machine to release my warm blankie for half an hour because the machine is A LIYING LIAR WHO LIES and whose timer has been on 1 minute for AT LEAST 30 minutes

i think i finally have a concept to replace one of my old OC concepts and believe it or not it actually came in a dream