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complete-in-ix · 1 year

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Mirage of a Desert Rose (Untouchable, but Smells So Sweet

Rated: M Warning(s): Suggestive

Description: Lee Eunsang has never had the best luck with love. His heart ached all through Produce X 101, and now a certain Myung Eunho is leading him through a desert of confusion and longing only to vanish as soon as Eunsang wants to talk about his feelings. That is, until the night Eunho decides to approach him first…

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Eunsang leans against the kitchen counter, softly sipping at his tea. The dorm is quiet, the other members deciding to stay at their own dorns tonight and Sion having gone to bed nearly an hour ago. Eunsang is content to bask in the silence—a welcome change from the bustle and noise of the day. As much as he loves being an idol, the job still tires him out even on his best days sometimes. Then again, hearing Youniz’s cheers and seeing how his members light up upon hearing them… Just the memory of their smiles is enough to make him almost completely forget his exhaustion. One smile in particular stands out in his memory, for no particular reason other than his fondness towards the person it belongs to.

He hasn’t had much time to talk to Eunho about their relationship. They—and the rest of the group, really—both know that what they have crosses well over the line of mere co-leaders and close friends. Eunsang tries to tell himself that he doesn’t mind the ambiguity and would prefer things to just progress naturally without any big announcements, but he knows in his heart that it isn’t true. Perhaps Eunho would, but if the way his eyes drop to Eunsang’s lips when he thinks he won’t notice and the way his hands always linger whenever they make any sort of contact, that’s doubtful. Those actions themselves don’t offer much in terms of clarity, but surely if Eunho wanted to let their relationship go wherever they take it, he would have made a move and taken it somewhere by now, right?

Eunsang sighs into his now-empty cup. He shouldn’t try to get his hopes too high again. His luck with love has never been the best, with him losing to someone else not once, but twice; once during Produce X 101, and another in the short-lived flight that was X1. He’s mostly over them both by now, but some memories still make his heart ache.

His phone lights up with a text right as he’s putting his cup away in the sink. Upon checking who it is, all his previous melancholy melts away.

Little Demon hyung Are you still awake? I have something for you

Eunsang’s heart stutters once the last sentence processes in his mind. What could that mean, exactly? He had just been telling himself not to hope for too much, yet he still finds those familiar wings starting to flutter in his chest again. He types out a reply and sends it before he can start to overthink.

Eunsang Yes, I’m still up! What is it?

Before his message has even been read, Eunsang is already rushing to his room to get changed into something a little more presentable. He and Eunho have already caught little glimpses of each other in their less-than-flattering moments without any issue, but there’s something different about tonight that makes him really want to make an impression. He’s gone through two different pairs of pants, three different jackets, and is in the middle of deciding whether or not to put on his favourite rose perfume when Eunho’s reply comes in.

Little Demon hyung It’s a surprise. Meet me behind the dorms ;)

Eunsang has to bite his lip to contain his excitement. Eunho has always been the more direct one between them, but this is on a whole other level! It’s settled, he has to put the perfume on now.

After five minutes of checking and rechecking himself in the mirror and sneaking down the long way to make sure he isn’t seen, Eunsang opens the back door of the dorm building to see Eunho leaning against the wall. It seems like he and Eunsang had the same idea to get dolled up a little. From here, Eunsang can see a silver chain in Eunho’s hair glinting in the light of the streetlamp shining down into the alley. He remembers telling Eunho that he liked it while on set for Bad Cupid, and then being confused at the scheming smile Eunho had given him in return. Now he understands. Little devil. Then again, Eunsang isn't innocent of stealing from sets either. This jacket is from his Kcon Mirage stage.

"Good evening, handsome. Come here often?" Eunho asks upon catching his eye.

"It's almost one in the morning," Eunsang replies, determined not to let his racing heart show. Eunho is always this flirty behind closed doors, especially towards Eunsang. Still, he can't help but be wary. Does he really mean it or is this just his way of bonding as a group? He pushes those thoughts away for later. "What do you have for me?"

"Still a surprise." Eunsang has gotten close enough that Eunho has to look up at him now, that ever-so-charming smile never wavering even as Eunsang's shadow falls over him. He flicks a hand up between them before their proximity can get suffocating, something jangling around his fingers. Keys.

"You stole the manager's van? Where are we going, should I be worried for myself?" Despite his words, Eunsang isn’t worried at all. Eunho has always been safe for him.

“I got my brother to leave his car here for us, we won’t go anywhere sketchy with it.” Eunho pulls Eunsang down by the back of the neck, close enough that he can feel Eunho’s lips brushing against his ear. “The managers don’t know anything~”

Eunho steps away before Eunsang's nerves can crash on him, keys jangling at his side. They had been so close… Dazed, he can only follow Eunho to the car, silently agonizing over what might have happened if he had turned his head just so… God, he wants to kiss Eunho so badly. Would he give in under his lips, soft and pliant? Would he take charge, rough and demanding? He nearly hits his head on the roof of the car getting in—would have if it weren’t for Eunho’s hand cushioning the blow.

“Careful, Sangie. I wouldn't want you to get hurt on our first date."

First date?!

Eunho closes the door behind him right as his words process in Eunsang's head. He only has seconds before Eunho gets to the other side of the car and gets in, what should he say to him when he does?!

By the time Eunho has gotten in and started the car, Eunsang has exactly nothing. What can he say, when the one he’s been pining over since their debut together has pretty much confirmed that he returns his affection? Still, he doesn’t want to get his hopes up…

“I can hear you thinking from here. What’s on your mind?”

Eunho’s voice calls him back out of his head. They’re on the road now (was Eunsang really zoned out for that long!?), soft yellow streetlights passing by in pleasant smudges of colour. It’s hard to get a proper look at Eunho’s face as he drives them through the city, light and shadow forming an effective mask for him. Would now be a good time to tell him? Eunho’s tone had been light, but the atmosphere in the car is strangely heavy this time, confusion and something else hanging above their heads, just out of sight. Eunsang decides to skirt around it for now.

“Lots of things. Nothing important enough to really talk about though.” A half-lie. His feelings for Eunho threaten to tear themselves through his chest and out his throat, kept down only by his confusion and past experience.

“Are you sure? You know you can talk to me about anything, right?” There’s that tone again, that sweet and soft tone that Eunsang has only ever heard directed towards him. He resolutely stares out the window. They both know that if Eunsang looks at him now, he’ll break.

“I’m sure. Besides, you seem to have more on your mind than me if you’re sneaking me out of the dorms this late at night.” Eunsang dares to glance at Eunho’s reflection in the window and catches only the furrow of his brow before his gaze is back on the road. Had he been frustrated? Worried, perhaps? Eunsang forces himself not to think about it too much. His mind instead wanders to the words they had exchanged before taking off. Eunho has something for him, something that they have to leave the dorms for. Something not even the managers can know about, because it’s a surprise for their first date. Eunho could have been joking, of course, but if he hadn’t been…

It’s not much of a secret among the group that they both like men. Eunsang doesn’t remember who brought it up or why, but everyone had already clocked him by the time the company had put him with them. He wasn’t exactly as subtle as he thought he was on Produce X 101, after all. Everyone had been okay with it, thankfully. He remembers Eunho’s gaze lingering on him while the other asked him questions, and Eunho talking to him in private once that conversation had moved on. He remembers asking Eunho which way he swings, just because it felt natural to ask. Eunho’s response had been just as forward as he always is.

“Haven’t had much time to really explore. Not just girls though, I know that much.”

While that had comforted Eunsang greatly, that still raised more questions. Would he ever have a chance? Considering his track record with love, surely not…

“You’re right.” Eunho speaks again, sudden but slowly. “There’s something I want to tell you that only you can know. Nowhere in the dorms seemed like the right place, so.” Eunho shrugs. “I found a spot.”

Eunsang startles slightly when Eunho pulls the car over. He hadn’t even noticed that they had left the city, now stopping at a viewpoint on the side of a hill far above it. The lights below form urban constellations, their glow shining up to illuminate the clouds above. For just a moment, Eunsang’s worries are taken away by the view.

Rain starts tapping insistently on the roof and windows as soon as Eunho parks the car. Unfazed, Eunho just turns on the radio to drown it out. He plugs the aux into his phone, and Eunsang would recognize the sound of glass clinking to cue in those synths anywhere.

"Mirage? You like my songs that much?" He can’t help the teasing smile that spreads across his face as his debut b-side starts playing, smooth and sensual. “Is this your way of telling me you’re my fan?” Eunsang’s voice is light, as is his expression when he turns to look Eunho in the eye. Much to his surprise, none of that teasing is reflected in the older man’s eyes, only an almost solemn stare. Fear shines in those pretty eyes, contrasting greatly to the set of his jaw. “... Hyung?”

Eunho heaves a short sigh, resigning himself to whatever he’s about to say. A dark part of Eunsang’s mind is reminded of a scene in a book he had read as a child, one where the main character had confessed a secret that sentenced them to death. The name of the book has long since left his memory, but those few pages had stuck. Something in the way Eunho resolutely keeps their eyes locked together and reaches for his hand makes him feel as if he’s reliving that scene—this time as the executioner.

“It’s more than just me being your fan, Eunsang. I think you know by now that I’ve fallen for you, right?”

The confession doesn’t crash over Eunsang in a great wave, instead hitting him gradually, drop by drop like the rain on the car roof.

“I didn’t.” Eunsang takes Eunho’s hand, a little too tightly like he’ll disappear if Eunsang lets go. “All this time, I thought I was the only one who wanted more…” The weight of his own emotions prove too much for the clouds of his confusion, and they come in a torrential downpour as the words leave his mouth. His parched heart almost wants to reject him, not yet acclimated to the flood of reciprocated feelings. “Please don’t play with me, I can’t take it if you do,” he says instead. He hates how much his voice shakes on those words, how delicate he still is after he thought he had fully recovered.

“I promise you, I’m not.” Eunho reaches up with his free hand to wipe Eunsang’s tears away, tears Eunsang hadn’t even noticed had spilled from his eyes. “Let hyung prove it to you, yeah? Don’t cry, come here.” Weak to Eunho’s warmth, Eunsang melts into his touch. They’re so close now, both leaning over the gearshift just inches apart.

“Can I kiss you?” Eunho asks, at the same time Eunsang whispers: “Please kiss me.”

Eunho meets him first, pulling Eunsang in until they meet. He’s heartbreakingly tender, kissing Eunsang as if he’ll break. Eunsang is the opposite, the rush of his feelings flooding out of him and onto Eunho’s lips. He takes it in stride, tangling his free hand in Eunsang’s hair to pull him closer. Up until a few minutes ago, this had been something Eunsang thought would be forever out of his reach, but now that he has it, has Eunho, all he wants is more, more, more.

All too soon, Eunsang has to pull away for air. How cruel of the universe, to give him the need to love this deeply yet deny his body the ability to do so properly. He wants to entwine their very souls, to be embraced by Eunho so tightly that he can no longer tell where he ends and Eunho begins, oh he wants. His whimper when Eunho pulls away is utterly broken, something that Eunho rushes to soothe with another kiss to the corner of his mouth.

“It’s okay, it’s okay. I’m not going far,” Eunho assures him. “Move your seat back a little, I’m coming over to that side.” Eunsang obeys almost numbly, only half aware of what he’s doing. His craving for Eunho’s touch encompasses his entire being, and he feels himself starting to shake apart while Eunho crawls over the gearshift to settle onto his lap.

“Hyung, can I… Touch you?” Eunsang asks, perfectly in time with his own voice playing from the radio. (“Looks like I can almost grab it”) His hands hover over Eunho’s body, so desperately craving the warmth that’s so close to him. Eunho huffs out a fond sigh, guiding Eunsang’s hands around his shoulders.

“Why do you think I came over to this side, silly?” Eunho murmurs in the minute space between them. “We’ve held back for long enough. This is real, Sangie.” He cups Eunsang’s face—not to pull him in, just to ground him—and waits for him to make the first move this time.

Eunsang closes the distance between them without a second thought, determined to kiss all his love into Eunho until it’s imbedded in his skin. Eunho matches his fervor easily, slotting against him like he was meant to be there.

It gets far too hot far too quickly for Eunsang’s liking, the thrum of his desire fogging up the windows and suffocating him until he has to shrug off his jacket. Eunho unbuttons the top half of his shirt to match him before diving right back in, drawing a moan from Eunsang that matches his voice playing from the speakers. He had always known he can sound sexy, but with the way Eunho’s body shivers with every little whine that leaves his lips, he truly understands.

“Fuck, Eunsang, I almost want to bite you,” Eunho groans against his neck. Eunsang nearly mewls at the confession.

“What’s stopping you?”

“Schedules.”

Ah, right. That pesky little thing called a career that looms over them both, that inevitably will call them back home to more endless practices and shows that cut into the time they can spend truly together… Eunsang has half a mind to tell Eunho to just do it anyway, schedules be damned. Thankfully, he still has enough of a head to resist.

“I know a better mark for us,” Eunsang whispers, kiss-swollen lips barely brushing against Eunho’s ear. “Since it’s so hot, my perfume has probably gotten on you. You’re going to smell like me until tomorrow night~” Eunho’s next breath is shaky against Eunsang’s neck, and his pupils are blown wide when he pulls back to kiss Eunsang again.

“I like that. You’re making me yours,” he murmurs between kisses. Eunsang can’t help but smile against his lips, eagerly drinking in his desire.

“And the others won’t know a thing,” Eunsang adds. He knows exactly how much to put on so that only those who get very close to him will smell it. For this, for him to be the only one to know that Eunho carries his scent… His head starts to spin, his blood rushing down to somewhere else at the thought. Something dangerous rears its head deep inside Eunsang, a deep-seated hunger starting to take root within his body. It would be too much for tonight, no matter how much he wants, so they should probably—

“Fuck, you’re going to kill me,” Eunho moans against his lips. Much to Eunsang’s simultaneous dismay and relief, he pushes himself away, keeping his hand on Eunsang’s chest to reinforce their distance. “I almost forgot this is my brother’s car, what have you done to me?”

Right, that too.

“We can do more back home, let’s hurry,” Eunsang whines, pouting up at Eunho. He looks so good looming over him like this, a great contrast to their usual dynamic. Eunsang craves him.

“We should be resting at home,” Eunho chides. “Tomorrow is going to be busy.” He glances behind himself at the car's dashboard for the time, Eunsang following his gaze. 3:25 AM. Eunho's birthday, Eunsang's lovesick mind supplies.

“I don’t care about tomorrow, I want you now.” Eunsang punctuates his words by running his hand up Eunho’s shirt. Deep down, he knows Eunho is right. He had already been tired when Eunho first messaged him, and now that the heat of his kisses is dissipating, exhaustion has come creeping in to replace his desire.

“You have me now,” Eunho assures. “Now and forever.” Forever… That sounds nice. Eunsang gives in, letting Eunho go with one last deep kiss.

The drive back home is a bit of a blur, the only clear memories being Eunho’s hand on his thigh and his own singing lulling him to sleep.

When he wakes the next morning, there are three texts from Eunho waiting for him.

Little Demon hyung Last night was way hotter than I thought Hyunseung thinks I borrowed your perfume, the scent is so strong Little does he know ;)

Eunsang can’t help the smile that spreads across his face. Perhaps they’ll tell the members eventually, but for now… This love will be their sweet little secret.

#mirage of a desert rose (untouchable but smells so sweet)#younite #2eun #canon compliant #annual #wrote this for a friend who doesn't have ao3 or tumblr #sent it to her on the first night of hanukkah (she's jewish)#and was like 'idk if this is an appropriate gift but here you go' 😭#she loved it tho so that's good!

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jellyoungs · 4 years

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Strawberry — Kang Minhee

Promenade with Kang Minhee

summary: Minhee is well known for his goofy and savage attitude. But when it comes to you, he just becomes the shy little strawberry boy he truly is.

a/n: My prom night has been bothering me this past few days and it suddenly gave me an idea of writing how would minhee be before, during and after prom because my prom was like a roller coaster ride lol. I also mentioned some of x1 and cravity members :))

BEFORE PROM:

let’s be honest

prom is a huge thing for girls

it’s like a once in a lifetime princess hours for every girl

but when prom was announced in your school, you were shockingly uninterested

you don’t even know why

maybe it’s because a saturday night in front of netflix and a bucket of chicken wings sounds better?

but of course, your friends are going crazy about you not attending the most awaited event

so they did their best to encourage you to come

to the point that minhee has received the news

and since the two of you are close friends

and he just happened to not have a date as well

he messaged you about this

mini: heyyyyy are you attending prom?

you: idk lol

you: how bout you??

mini: i will

mini: but heyyy

mini: will you go to prom with me

you: yea sure HAHAHAHA

to be honest you had mix emotions with that text message

you are 40% confused and 60% disappointed

disappointed bcs a lot of people have been posting and sharing stories abt how great their promposals were

and then for you.... it was just a text message

but either way, you are thankful and now you have a reason to attend prom

so you tell your friends abt this, even the littlest detail

in short, one of your friends told minhee abt you being a little bit disappointed with how he asked you for prom

so minhee made this small plan to ask you out once again

but this time it doesn’t involve text messages, instead it’s your favorite food

strawberries

anyways, it was a normal afternoon for you

and you were planning to head straight home so you could catch up with the netflix series you are currently watching

but junho, eunsang and taeyoung just had to stop you from leaving

“heyyy, we were asked by our art teacher to tell you to go to the art room,” eunsang said with a huge smile.

honestly, it was a sketchy smile and you were a little bit nervous

but you didn’t ask more and just headed for the art room

and when once you open the door you are greeted by a gorgeous boy

i mean cake

no i actually really meant the boy

there stood minhee in the middle of the room holding a burnt strawberry cheesecake

you just couldn’t help but giggle at the sight

minhee’s hair was a little bit messy and his face and clothes have a little bit of flour

cute

“what’s this for?”

minhee just shrug, trying to act cool

but you can actually see how red his ears were

“sooo... i made this cake for you but it’s kinda burnt. so here’s some strawberries instead” he said before giving you a bowl of strawberries

“thanks mini but what’s with the cake?”

minhee just smiled sheepishly at you, “will you be my prom date?” he asked with his cheeks getting red just like the strawberries he gave

“didn’t i say yes already?”

“i mean yeah but i heard you were a little bit disappointed and i’m also disappointed with myself because what i did was lame”

you couldn’t but giggle once again

you just shook your head and took out a hankie and wiped some of the flour he has in his face

“you didn’t have to ask me again, you know. plus being your date is much more important to me than the promposal”

he just shrugged before taking a good strawberry from the burnt cake and feeding it to you

“damn prom is going to be great with you and me together,” he said before you fed him some strawberries to shut him up

DURING PROM:

at the day itself i believe minhee would be so nervous

so serim, seungwoo and wooseok had to create a corsage for him

but anyways he would tell you that he would be waiting for you at the hotel lobby

and when you arrive, you couldn’t help but blush

because minhee just happened to look like an actual disney prince

but of course, you couldn’t help but laugh at how nervous he looks

to the point he would forget about getting you a corsage

you could see him fidgeting and his ears being red once again

and then he finally notices you and his mouth slowly opened

and it just goes wider as you walk towards him

he would instantly compliment you

“i thought you were a disney princess for a moment”

“well i thought you were a disney prince for a moment as well”

cue minhee’s cheeks getting red along with his ears

as the night sky grows darker, minhee still hasn’t left your side

you were growing conscious because a lot of girls were staring at the both you already

also, his friends were teasing the both of you

like just a minute ago jungmo and wonjin came towards the both of you and started chanting prom king and queen to the both of you

not gonna lie, you were kinda embarrassed

and thankfully minhee noticed this

“why won’t we go out in the garden for some fresh air?”

while the two of you were sitting silently at the hotel’s empty garden

you couldn’t help but shiver with the cold air tickling you

and minhee noticed this once again

so he took his suit blazer off and placed it on top of your shoulders

you also noticed how red his ears are

“you know, i’m actually really having fun” he confessed

“same, to be honest, i thought you were going to leave at some point of the night. but you just stood beside me as if we are glued with one another” you joked making his cheeks turn into the shade of pink

“i actually wanna ask if you wanna....” he trailed off

you were about to ask him what he wanted to ask when he shook his head

“do you wanna dance again?”

you just giggled at him before taking his hand that he was holding out for you

while you guys are dancing at the garden with only a few fairy lights and the bright moon lighting the both of you, you couldn’t help but fall in love with your date

he just looks so amazing with the moonlight shining on him

you shifted yourself and placed both of your arms around his neck

minhee instantly froze with the shortened distance between the both of you

but he recovered easily as he placed both of his hands on your waist

even pulling you closer and swaying the both of you slowly

as you stared at him, he hums a familiar song

“are you humming lover by taylor swift?”

“yeah, i heard from dongpyo that you love the song”

you couldn’t help but smile at him

you placed your head on his chest near his heart, as he chuckles softly

“god i’m so thankful i asked you out for prom”

AFTER PROM:

after prom, you thought your night was over

minhee also suddenly disappeared from your sight

so you just chucked at yourself and was about to go down to the lobby when someone stopped you

“you’re leaving? let me take you home instead”

he said with his gorgeous smile

you just smiled also before shrugging

after all your parents were picking you up

so instead of taking you home, minhee just stood beside you waiting at the lobby for your parents

he insisted that he wanted to stay with you and make sure that you get home safely

sweet

so the two of you just casually chatted

when he suddenly brought up a topic

“about what i wanted to ask you awhile ago at the garden...” he said

you just look at him as he fidgets

"i actually wanna ask you... if you wanna go on a date after school on monday?”

you were of course baffled with his question

but you find yourself smiling at him sweetly

before kissing his left cheek

“i would love to go on a date with you”

he just stood there smiling at you widely

before taking your left picky and hooking it up with his right pinky

“i want to hold your hands but i’m too shy”

you couldn’t help but laugh with what he has said

you just nodded while smiling as you hold tightly in his pinky

“gosh i really like you and your strawberry cheeks and ears,” you said as minhee turn even redder

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