i'm outside of my house

UNGA BUNGA ME RELOAD

I started to smell smoke and hear screams from upstairs. I ran upstairs, and when I got there, the house was just a burned frame.

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a secret is revealed!

Master Levels for DOOM II (1995)

an ordinary doom mod, a loved one's house.

first time i've been commissioned to draw my own character (at least design wise even though daisy is literally just a normal bunny in real doom) BUT YEAH LOOK IT'S DAISY OMG!?!?!?

Miss you, Tom...

Sometimes the protagonists of a devastating romantic tragedy are just some guys.

i'm working on a BIONICLE mod for DOOM 2!

it's in the early stages still, but i already have enemy replacements, custom weapons, and custom music by the talented KDNX!

and with your help, we could achieve even more! if you're interested in playtesting or contributing to the mod, fill out this form and i'll gladly have you aboard and send you the alphas when they're ready!

god. uh. myhouse.wad, huh? I have, frankly, way too many thoughts about this entire mod. Please bear with me as I try to ramble my way through them, I ended up going off under the read more.

I’m going to be honest, this game felt like an extended, emotional fetch quest for me until this point. Don’t get me wrong, I knew that all the items had emotional and memorial impact, but...this one got to me. This moment hit me like a fucking truck.

For those of you who don’t play Dungeon and Dragons, sessions get long. On average they can run anywhere between 4-6 hours, but I myself have played longer, with the longest taking the cake at almost a half day, or roughly 11 hours. A lot can happen in a session, and most of it is just...joking around. The phrase “roll for intercourse” is a reference to an age-old running gag of players trying to seduce an NPC for whatever reason. It’s funny. It happens so often it’s a meme.

But finding it here...it really hit me. This isn’t just a reference to a well-known meme. Tom and Steve sat down and played D&D together, spending multiple hours in a day to play sessions, likely with other players but always with each other. And this phrase? It stuck out, it’s a moment that stuck with Steve for one reason or another, and my only guess is to say it’s because it‘d become an inside joke. And...you can’t help but wonder what it was. If Steve had been DMing, or if he’d been the one trying to seduce the NPC much to Tom’s chagrin, or...what.

And that at the core is the devastating part of myhouse.wad. The more I sit and think about it, the more I think about it, the more I realize this map is chock full of inside jokes, and we as players will never understand them. Because it’s not meant for us. These are things we’ll never have context for because one of the people involved is gone now. And the more I think about it, the more the realization hit that this entire map is not a game and really, truly is a memorial.

Do you remember when we played with Legos together? Do you remember when we played video games? Drinking milkshakes in the basement, sharing a pop? Our inside jokes? Roll for intercourse. Pumpkin Rick. Shrek chasing after you. Do you remember when we got married? I do. The house does. The house loves you. I love you. I miss you.

This map reads like a conversation, someone reaching out to someone else. You can’t help but wonder who is reaching out to who, though.

You know, I was talking to some friends on Discord about this map, and one of them brought up something interesting that I agree with. myhouse.wad draws clear inspiration from House of Leaves, but there’s a distinct difference between them. They both have heavy themes of grief and closure, but where House of Leaves is mysterious because of the layers and layers of unreliable narrators, myhouse.wad is mysterious because of you’re only ever hearing one side of the conversation. House of Leaves makes me feel like I’m intruding on something that no human should ever know. myhouse.wad makes me feel like I’m hearing part of a conversation through a wall.

Either way, there is one thing that both works share: This is not for you. It never was.

You know, I kind of wonder what their D&D campaign was about, if this moment was enough to stick out as an inside joke. I wonder what their sessions were like. I hope they had fun.

Enigmatic Worlds demo is out on Itch,io! I shall have it out on Steam as soon as I can, but for now, here ya go! Feedback, bug reports and support 'n whatnot greatly appreciated!!

i asked for a fucking CHODE not that stickman-lookin pencil-type shit. i need it lookin like that blue bastard is deepthroating that shit. like fucking spy tf2 gentlemen. that blunt needs to be fucking WIDE.

- the guy who requested that blue balled son of a fuck

My apologies like this?

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