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phoneycam · 9 months

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Codywan but Hanahaki disease

I just remembered that i challenged myself to write shit and the randomiser just made me angstie with this one.

Y’all know how the disease work right? If not, here is the fanlore page to explain a little.

Resume: Obi-Wan is painfully remainded that he loves too much... in multiple ocasions.

1. Quinlan Vos

2. Satine

3. Cody

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So!

There is this disease that is just kinda normalized by the galaxie. It’s normal to fall in love with someone you shouldn’t, everyone is beautiful and gorgeous in their own way you know? So there are clinics, doctors, specialized post-surgery treatments and things like that.

But for the Jedi it’s a delicate topic. For a jedi to have the hanahaki disease is rare and not always well recived. It’s a bit of a taboo subject let’s say.

A good amount of people think that they are incapable of getting this disease. Those who know are divided. Some think it shouldn’t be treated any different than any other medical condition, other that it’s a test from the force to prove padawans or to redirect them to the light side, and the most extreme think it’s a sign of the force that they are not destined to be part of the order.

So imagine the shitshow that unfolded when Obi-Wan, not even a padawan yet, was rushed to the healing halls after spitting a flower mide training.

This unruly and loud 11 year old youngling was having a harsh time with some rather rude bullies when he got to know a chaotic young padawan that kicked their asses. Quinlan Vos was with who he would get like house on fire. It didn’t took long for both of them to become an inseparable and terrifying duo.

Obi-Wan was a goner before even knowing what that meant. So after some time, Quinlan is gone on a mission with his master and Obi is missing him crazy while trying to train (and failing) and in one of his moments of like, recalibrating his breathing he hears some classmate.

“Surely he’s missing his boyfriend”

And it is like a whiplash of emotion just colliding. The frustration from the failing training session, shock from realizing something he didn’t wanted, shame and the rage directed to the other younglings, homesickness from Quinlans absense and just plain and suffocating fear.

He felt horrible, like he’d being punched in the stomach multiple times...

He wanted to vomit...

and he did.

It would take time for everything to go back to normal. After the surgery, Obi-Wan would start being more quiet and fearful, but when everybody kept avoiding him and yet the looks and whispers still followed him, that fearfullness became anger. Anger he would lash out at anyone who was close enough to make him snap and then escape.

He wouldn’t even get close to Quinlan for years. Only when he was back from certain kriffed up planet overbeaten by a useless civil-war did he brakedown to finally get a hug from a friend.

((I will explain Qui-Gon later if someone is interested ùwu7))

The second time it happens he was 16 and in another war infested planet.

Satine was insufferable. After getting separeted from his master, Obi-Wan was condemned to protect this blonde girl that seemed to enjoy getting in his nerves at any given moment, even when they were on a clear danger scene, calling him by several... innovative names, laughing when he tripped or just hitting him when she thought he said or did something stupid.

He was honestly starting to question if this misssion was worth his sanity when a bad encounter gets them to bond while hiding. They where both badly hurt and without any other option, were forced to truly depend on each other.

Over the rest of the year it would grow to become something more, but it wasn’t the time nor the place to let it flourish.

They had become important for the other in that certain way that would meet the needs of both of them at the moment. But they never got to become friends in the first place. So when the moment to split came, they both knew it wasn’t meant no matter how much it hurt. And it hurt.

Qui-Gon was silent during all the farewell. He wasn’t stupid, he knew something was up as soon as they had been reunited, so he wasn’t too surprised when the flowers came. They had barely left land when the cough started and by the time they where hitting lightspeed, Obi-Wan got send to the back of the ship where his master performed a highly clandestine surgery with the help of the medical droid.

When he wakes up after the surgery, Obi-Wan proceeds to pass the 5 stages of grief. Qui-Gon is nothing but patient through the hole process.

When his padawan tries to play dumb to himself, he just remaind him of the flowers. When he gets defensive, he just projects calm and serenity through the force. When the anxiety grows to much to the point to ask to please not to tell to the counsil about it, Qui-Gon promises to never tell a soul and when the inevitable brakedown comes in, he comms Quinlan to wait for them in the landing pad.

the fifth stage would take a long time to come. In fact, Qui-Gon wouldn’t even be alive to see it happen. It would be almost two decades and it would come in the form of a person.

It would be the start of the second year of war. Obi-Wan was putting an unhealthy amount of sugar on a cup of caff when he stopped himself at a realization. He didn’t like sugar on his caff, hell, he didn’t even licked caff! So why in the name of the force did he had it in his personal space??

“General?”

His commanders voice startles him. He turns around to be comfronted with a familiar sight. Cody was only using the bottom part of his armor, one hand resting on the bed he was currently sitting on and the other holding the datapad he was previusly compiling. A worried look acompagning his slowly not so relaxed position.

“Is everything ok sir?”

Oh.

Oh dear...

The realization would come... peacefully. Of course it would be Cody. His wonderfull commander had crowled into his heart slowly and deliberately without knowing. With the reasuring presence, strategic mind and dry humor, it was just logical that Obi-Wan would fall for him... Also because he couldn’t do anything about it. They are at war, he is his superior and he had a duty to fulfil.

The jedi took a deep breath when the familiar sensation starts to fill in, only this time, he doesn’t panic and run to the madical hall. No, this time is different. This time he isn’t overcome with anything if not acceptance.

This is his commander, who he loves dearly and can’t do anything about it.

So, with a reassuring tone and adoring smile, he responds.

“It’s nothing my dear, just questioning myself about the amount of sugar I see you consume”

Cody watches him closely for a couple seconds before smirking. They both know he is lying but this is not the time to talk about it.

“Sure sir, don’t you worry about it. It’s what keeps my sweet personality alive, other wise it would be crush by tha amount of useless paperwork we are given”

Obi-Wan just chuckles covering a discrete cough and turns to finish their drinks.

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bugsbunnydragqueen · 8 days

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i should probably stop drawing omori fanart for class projects because if my art teacher googles the game i'm fucked

#omori #omori fanart #omori kel #omori something #omori hero #omori boss hero #omori bossman hero #bossman hero #boss hero #markers #ink drawing #ink sketch #sketchbook #i never claimed to be good at art ok #don't judge me too hard #i may be cringe but i am free

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himitsy-chan · 2 years

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ok, so I got sick, and also bored, so I tried doing an edit of basically the whole season's byler

#byler #will byers #mike wheeler #st4 #stranger things #stranger things 4 #don't judge me too hard #it's like my third edit ever #fan edit #mitski has THE byler songs #argue with a wall

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lady-of-the-spirit · 1 year

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What if I made a silly little ship edit for Melissa and Simon from A Christmas Prince?? What then???

#bc it's christmas and i'm totally normal about the netflix christmas cinematic universe and they're the best ship in the trilogy #i'm saying stuff #a christmas prince #melissa x simon #simon x Melissa #don't judge me too hard

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guardingoath · 9 months

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𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑

𝐅𝐎𝐑 🡺 @calamitosi

"Well, this is certainly a strange turn of events..." and by strange he means, entirely predicted, but mildly amusing nonetheless.

#i can't believe this is the first ic post i am writing in public space #doN'T JUDGE ME TOO HARD #PLS I JUST LOVE HIM #calamitosi

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rosenkranz-does-things · 7 months

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coughs up some Fionna and Cake sketches what a show, huh

#these are really quick so pls don't judge me too hard #fionna and cake #adventure time #fionna and cake spoilers #artists on tumblr

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captaindamianos · 4 months

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#captive prince #my art #laurent of vere #artists on tumblr #fun with markers #pls don't judge me too hard i was sick while doing most of this #I'm trying to improve

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silvermizuki · 1 year

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I was gonna wait to post this until I ended up editing the errors I made in my writing but its been like two? weeks so I don’t think its happening lMAO

ANYWAYS this is a scene that got stuck in my head from the blurb I wrote on ao3

#moondrop #x reader #y/n #fnaf #don't judge me too hard ok i'm a baby writer and I posted it without editing #doodles

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crows-of-buckets · 3 months

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Edelgard was 18.

Edelgard was 18 and held the entirety of her future in her hands. She was 18 and alone, 18 and scared, 18 and angry.

Edelgard was 18 sitting at a desk. Her desk. The walls of her room at the officers academy felt just as much protection as they did a cage at that moment. The wooden floors creaked under the weight of her chair.

Tomorrow things would change. Her and Hubert would walk alone, and together they would face down former friends turned foes as they carved their bloody path.

They would face the professor.

Edelgard leaned back, tears blurring her vision. She was doing her homework. Why was she doing her homework? Tomorrow in the holy tomb she would plunge Fodlan into a war the likes of which no one had seen in centuries. Homework was the least of her concerns.

She would have to face the professor.

Byleth, the stone faced mercenary who threw herself in front of Edelgard with no hesitation. Byleth, who spent hours carefully guiding her students to their fullest potential. Byleth, who sometimes got pale in battle after a particularly rough fight. Not because she feared her own safety, but because she feared that any of her students had received more than a scratch. Byleth, who patiently let Edelgard explain her nightmares. Byleth, who watched her be crowned Emperor of Adrestia.

The first person in a long time that Edelgard truly cared about.

She had tried so hard to avoid harboring any affection for her professor - for any of the residents at garreg mach. And yet the ashen demon had carved a place into her heart, dragging her students to reside there alongside her. Edelgard felt her throat tighten at the thought of raising her blade at Dorothea- at Ferdinand, at Caspar, at Linhardt, at Bernadetta, at Petra. Over the past few months their antics had grown on her, and now guilt lumped in her throat. She would turn her blades onto them, her kind and slightly stupid classmates. They would follow Byleth, and Byleth would follow the Church.

It made her feel sick.

Long past the point of caring about her homework, Edelgard walked over to her dresser. Flowers- mostly from the professor- were starting to shrivel in their vases. How poetic, she thought that they too shall die the last night I am an ally to those I hold dear. She plucked a flower from the vase- a single rose- and sat on the bed.

There was no point in trying to sleep. Anticipation and anxiety coursed through her. Tomorrow she would have to be a different woman. No longer Edelgard, the imperial princess of Adrestia. No longer Edelgard, the flame emperor, or Edelgard, house leader of the black eagles.

Tomorrow, she would be Edelgard, Emperor of Adrestia, the woman who tore the land from it's fragile peace for the sake of her own ideals.

She pulled her legs up, laying her head on her knees.

There would be no sleep tonight. For Edelgard was 18, and she had a world to change.

Whether it be by herself, or with allies at her back, the Emperor of Adrestia had work to do.

#edelgard #edelgard von hresvelg #fuck it im posting this #fe3h #edelgard fire emblem #fire emblem edelgard #fire emblem 3h #fire emblem three houses #black eagles fe3h #black eagles #please dont judge too hard okay i don't write a lot #i also wrote this when i was doing horrible mentally #being 18 fucked with me so hard i felt like an awful person for exsisting #im doing better now but like. this is not just a character study i was throwing myself onto the page lmao

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russquez · 7 months

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marc's journey with honda

#marc marquez #motogp #i'm coping so well i'm being so normal i'm gonna jump off a roof if someone doesn't stop me #i did this in five minutes just to make mysef feel worse pls don't judge it too hard #web weaving #edit

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curestardust · 2 months

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i want you all to know that i won the official reverse 1999 blackout poetry event with my verneider poem

#dusty adventures #reverse 1999 #*r #i chose to do a Tanka format. i've never done that OR a blackout poem before so don't judge me too hard kkkkk #anyw... yeah.... verneider is truly THE ship of all time

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science-lings · 3 months

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AU where Phoenix is just slightly more spiritually sensitive so instead of just being able to hear Mia's ghost, he gets to hang out with his great great (x?) grandfather Ryuunosuke who imprinted on him the moment he decided to become a defense attorney for gay reasons.

Also if anyone could magically be there for Pheonix while Edgeworth is fake-dead it would be Ryuunosuke.

I'm also a staunch believer in both Phoenix and Ryuu having rough/distant relationships with their family so it's funny to think that the only biological family member you can stand is the one that haunts you and looks exactly like you if you time traveled and cut your hair unevenly with safety scissors.

#i do think that ryunosuke judges pheonix so hard for his taste in men #oh you want a condescending european man with gray middle-parted hair and vampire fashion? oh you're defending him in court?#falling into the gaa/dgs side of aa #some of my favorite things about phoenix are mirrored in ryuu and it's making me so happy #oh you seem to be really open about your emotions but you push down all the messed up stuff so no one notices? you can't stand being alone?#I love them i love seeing them go through mental anguish #i like how phoenix is the crybaby one and ryuu is the one with severe baby face disorder #they're so pathetic but will absolutely destroy the legal world in any place they step foot in #whoops accidentally unveiled decades of corruption and government conspiracies bc I was being too nice to a stranger #ryunosuke naruhodo #phoenix wright #naruhodo ryuichi #ace attorney #going crazy stupid over here don't mind me

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befishproductions · 4 months

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