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ok, if you can stomach absurd amounts of gore, horror, death, i think i should say gore twice, body horror, religious trauma, implied s/a and post apocalypse i need you to go read hell followed with us rn. best book i have read in fucking years. i literally just got it last night and finished it that night. here are the pros:
what if body horror was related to the trans experience. what then.
the gore is described so naturally. cant describe it perfectly but god the gore feels as natural as weeds sticking up between cracks in the sidewalk.
this is also a case where imo body horror is used properly and it isnt just "what if.. deformities!! ooh spooky!!" its the horror of being changed against your will and the horror of pain and the horror of loosing yourself and the hope of taking that back.
two seperate characters who use neo pronouns!!!
erin, trans girl!!!! love her
love interest is autistic and shows symptoms of autism and thats ok and good, actually.
RAGE!!! RAGE IS GOOD AND YOU ARE ALLOWED TO BE FUCKING ANGRY!!
they represent the feeling of being loved/worshipped in a way thats too much so so so good it made me physically sick. having them who you dont know grab at you, like you are so beautiful they can only plea to touch you, to have you. looking at you like you are the most beautiful cattle.
set in future but politics feels.. chillingly similar to what were experiencing rn. genuinely thought some quotes were real or this was based off a real group for a moment till i saw the date 2025. only difference is that its more ecofascist.
the body horror never makes anyone inherently unloveable. even with flesh tearing and teeth nashing and too many eyes and blood where organs once were you can be human. you can be loved.
terrifying but hopeful. they are dead but we are alive.
HYSTERICAL insults to kalvin garrah in this shit. make an entire character to say fuck him.
the inherently disabled horror of having your body and mind fail on you against your will and the hope of never being the same but surviving.
also the disabled horror of having your body taken from you and changed and twisted for others betterment. to be a martyr by sake of suffering.
#hell followed with us#gore#tw gore#gore tw#body horror#body horror tw#tw body horror#death#tw death#death tw#sa#tw sa#sa tw#religous trauma#tw religious trauma#religious trauma tw#nox text posts
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okay i need to yell about the current charlos worldstate because im thinking so many insane and beautiful things rn but basically
okay okay rambling under the cut
LIKEEEEEEE idk obvs i am sad for the rarris and i want them to do well but its times when the failure appears that reminds me of whyyyy i find charlos so interesting
like they truly do have such a charming dynamic, they have fun together they laugh they find a lot of similarities in one another, and we joke we joke about how charles is like the nagging girlfriend at times and carlos the playfully bullying boyfriend its qualities that when we push into the more like. chaotic and bad side of the ship thats just so WOW
like we already see this weekend a bit of heat from charles that bit of annoyance but hes too polite too nice you get bits of passive aggression here and there he is so housewife coded....
so much of why i like charlos is in all honesty like. using one another as a channel for the frustration towards the team. solace in one another, someone else who UNDERSTANDS, who gets the way youre feeling towards the car towards the team etc etc etc... and it can be so sweet and soft and caring and it can also be sooo toxic and codependent and strange
i love a ship that feels like an uncomfortable marriage but theyre staying together because thats what they committed to. because theyre perfect for each other, duh. he understands what no one else does.
just like picturing charles after he spins out, just waiting watching and brewing full of just. annoyance and shame and sadness and anger but charles doesnt blow up, charles looks pitiful, just a race incident, no one to blame. (no one but himself of course the voice in the back of his head says) and carlos has it all on his shoulders the rest of the way. just trying to get something, anything for the team and he does. until he doesnt and again its not fair none of it's fair and he cant do anything lest it gets worse and they both fail in such spectacularly different directions and if that doesn't describe them so well what does.
The idea of finding comfort in one another against mutual failing, really being them taking out the frustrations on one another. Tell yourselves you just need a rough fuck to feel better but both knowing............charles knowing its punishment, its get better, its be smarter, it hurts and he should say something but be wont because he needs to be BETTER. and for carlos its release but not comfort its release in the way smashing in a window is, slashing a tire, screaming expletives at a retail worker who cant talk back, its taking back some scrap of power to make up for it all. and they tell themselves it helps, they come, they lay in each others arms afterwards and they do it again next time they fail. same failed strategy same failed result.
just a cycle of using each other for harm and calling it comfort but not knowing how to go on without it...its reliable thats for sure 👬 and you push down the guilt or the shame of what you did you ignore the bruises and the words you said and the things you begged for and pretend you dont hold it against him in any way but youve learned nothing can truly be trusted around here!!!! but thats a failure you'll reach when you get to it for now youre apart you'll lick your wounds and come back smiling hand in hand laughing at each others jokes staring lovingly at his smile running your fingers through his hair and for a while the car wont matter until it does . amen.
#literally just me ranting over the charlos dynamic#and imagining my ideal post ausgp scenarios#1655
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First of all im confessing my love to you.
second off, i want to write about all the lines that touched my heart but then id have to write about every word you wrote.
you’re hurting me so bad but i cant help but love the pain because its so full of love but its all lost in the dust unseen by the two exactly how you resemble them as the sun and moon the distance between them is all the painful secrets and untold love
also congrats you gave me a character to hate as much as i do yeosang, seungmin you better run and fast
poor hannie thats my babie💔( dont make him the gossip acc pls hes the loml i cant handle that maybe seungmin though so he and yeosang can fight for worst character to live)
this shows us yn is such a new light and shows us all the pain she went through and why she did the things she did and how it influenced her behaviours in college i want to give her a big hug and tell her everything will be okay and take her to the prettiest garden and make her happy forever
and hyunjin 💔 i love that we now see his faults when before we only saw yns and saw him as angelic here it’s switched we see how he was in the relationship and how he never fully showed her his love and when he wanted to he was too late she was already gone (i hope she sees the sketch book one day) it really balances them out and shows how similar they are truly soulmates imo
oh my god i want to kiss you rn that was so beautiful you got me crying at 4 am seriously that was so so beautiful i cant describe it in words
stop im like blushing so hard rn dont flirt w my writing like that
and yes exactly this is why this chapter was so important to get out before we move on, it shows just how much yn has suffered to end up where she ended up and she really had no one to seek support from yk aside from the traumatic events itself she was always let down by the men around her (her dad, seungmin, hyunjin) it allows you to sympathize w her in a new different way
and it shows hyunjin being really flawed as you said i do believe if they spent more time together and hyunjin gave her more attention she would have told him everything eventually
thank you for reading my love i'm so happy you got to enjoy this despite the angst lmao <3
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Thank you so much for your tags ;; it's been fucking forever a minute since I posted anything. so if you wish, this is absolutely a request for some word vomit. and if you don't want to get into it, it's a heartfelt 'ehehe the tags are very nice, thank you' to keep your ask box warm
walks in with a book with like fifteen different annotation stickies I’m so ready pls bear with me if I sound incoherent .. have no clue if this'll be a lot but i'm going 2 put read more just in case ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡
i could probably comment on literally every sentence like no exaggeration but i'm like containing the silliness as much as i can as to sound coherent so i just wanna point out small parts i really really like ^^
“Yet there’s a smile that glitters in the corner of his eyes, and as he steps down onto the pebbles he offers you a gloved hand.”
GHJHKL It just makes me explode ,,, I enjoy descriptions of understanding without a character having to verbally express it . It kills me every time regardless because it feels like you can understand the amount of trust between the two characters in the scene . Like in general , it could be an action that can appear like such a small , insignificant detail but you can tell that it means so much more than that and I just adore it so so much ???
“The butler simply… couldn’t let you go just yet. There’s a shimmer of gold in his eyes, a little greed shining through when he thinks of parting from your company.”
Bangs my head against the wall I ALWAYYYS REALLY LOVE IT WHEN PPL MAKE A SLIGHT REMARK ABOUT BARBATOS AND GREED IT’S JUST SOOOOO<333333 IT GETS ME SO EXCITED BECAUSE I START REMEMBERING LIKE THE SMALL REMARKS IN GAME ABOUT HIM RESTRAINING HIS GREED ETC AND HIS CHARACTER SONG . It’s just like so fun seeing different sides of characters expressed it’s just like AHHHH but I digress
The entire scene feels like it’s a moment that’s quiet and reserved away from other people but between the two characters it’s such a loud expression of emotions ,, especially because of Barbatos and how he is as a character too ?? ☆ｏ(＞＜；)○
I’m a bit new to the fandom so please bear with me a bit with explanations but I’ve read him as like a character that’s detached from personhood as a result of his profession and when there are moments when he clearly wants to pursue something he holds himself back from indulging into his greed but when it comes to MC he allows himself to finally take . To allow himself to enjoy their presence when they’re finally alone and able to …
SIDENOTE BUT ESPECIALLY SO BC OF HOOOW HARD THE OTHER CAST OF CHARACTERS GET SIDELINED HARD IN GENERAL SOMETIMES ,,, LIKE IN BARBS LATEST BIRTHDAY UR HOW DO U LITERALLY GET DOOMED BY THE NARRATIVE IN UR OWN DREAM.. BUT THAAAT’S LIKE AN ENTIRE RAMBLE I’VE HAD FOR A MINUTE AND THAT’S BESIDES THE POINT )))
“Of everyone, he knows keenly how precious your time is.”
Im literally vibrating off the walls rn I cant describe it any better than that and especially the next sentences that follow it ohhhg idk if it literally wasn’t late as hell rn I’d def just print this out n’ scribble a bunch of hearts on this like omg
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THE ENDING … I am literally pacing I don’t usually enjoy angst all that much and try to avoid it altogether but the way you wrote it I’m like a little crazy actually. like a little bit insane. A humans existence is such a fleeting moment to a demon and it’s like AAAA YOU JUST LIKE FEEL THE TENSION FROM THE PREVIOUS SCENES THEN THE WARMTH FROM THE ENDING IT’S JUST LIKE A BITTERSWEET ?? FEELING THAT MAKES IT SO ENJOYABLE AND IT’S SUCH AN INSTILLING FEELING THAT’S LIKE SOOOO BEAUTIFUL ?? HIM HOLDING THE AIR ??? I sound so insane I just really really get excited when I read that it’s such an infectious feeling but that’s what your writing feels like. I’m not the best at English so I’m hoping this comes off well enough but I feel like the idea of living on in another persons memory despite all the years to come, especially with a demons lifespan IT JUST FEELS SOOO /pos
This is going to sound absolutely cornball cheesy but ur writing style , and I haven’t checked out ur other works yet but , from this alone it reminds me of a nice sweet . Personally I’m thinking of a Mexican dessert as I’m Mexican myself and I enjoy food analogies as compliments but the way you describe your scenes feels like taking a bite out of a concha (insane person rambling but please stick with me) . it’s such a sweet feeling that like , you don’t really forget the first time you experience it ?? I know I’m def going to be giggling abt ur writing for like a fat week honestly . i could probably reread it more than I already have while typing this and still find things to comment on even if it's just a keysmash
idk idk just the way you present scenarios stick so nicely ? It’s just something so handcrafted with love that I can tell that you enjoy what u write ?? I don’t know :,)
IF LIKE ANY OF THIS DOESN’T RLLY SOUND RIGHT LIKE , CHARACTER DESCS ESP OF BARB ive been in this fandom for like not super long so im still info-diving rlly slowly and its so difficult </3 I get so nervous posting stuff but like I wanna get this out of my system SOO bad
Plus I don’t think I could type out any of the info I do know about him in an orderly way lol I’ve tried for months but it ends in so many side tangents in rambles bc I just like his character so much
I just think he’s such an interesting character y’know ??? There’s so many ways people can interpret a character and when you see other peoples ideas and some of them just HIT like getting all giddy thinking wow this is so cool ,,, I have to eat what I’m reading because there are no words in my lexicon to verbally express how much I love this
#using my terrible peer review skills to attempt to coherently describe my appreciation for written scenes instead of acting insane in tags#typing this was kind of a struggle bc like one i have not talked abt my om!/barb fixation in a minute & 2 i got too giddy rereading LMFAOOO#fixations kill people (me)#i need to draw this man so bad it's actually getting out of hand#i hope i formatted this okay honestly i haaaave not done a gigantic ramble like this ever I don't think#i don't think i'm gunna tag this in the main tags bc this feels a lil embarrassing lol but YEAH MUCH LOVE ♡
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I'm aroace and coming up on my 1 year anniversary of engagement to my lovely fiance who is not aro or ace and I do not use the term qpp. I have the type of relationship that tends to cause a lot of arguments so when irl people or strangers ask I just say I'm straight. (There's also an added layer of confusion from some people since I'm an ace guy and that seems to be a hot button topic rn)
I tend not to share this because people who know that I'm aroace think that I was previously going through a phase when I say I love my partner. I do love my partner but I'm still aroace and it looks different and this is the first time I've ever felt so secure with another person and what we were able to create is beautiful because I stopped listening to people tell me what a relationship is or should be. And we work amazingly together.
-a fellow aro mutual still too nervous to talk about being aroace with my actual unsername (but wanted to show solidarity)
omg hiiiiiiii!!!! ::3
ok first off CONGRATS ON ALMOST A YEAR OH EM GEE!!!!!!!! thats awesome im glad you found someone you can be yourself with ^u^
and uh. the rest of this is gonna be gibberish sorry jfkshdksj i was literally walking around my kitchen last night when i first got this ask trying to figure out how to word what i want to say for like an hour or 2 😭😭
but like. i think alot of people dont understand just how *open* the terms aro and ace can really be. like. idk at least to me its kinda like nonbinary. like nonbinary is anything that doest strictyly fit into the gender binary. and thats. uh. A Fuck Ton Of Things jfkshdjsj. like im aro but i might honestly feel romantic attraction. but for me its my strong dislike of the idea of being in a relationship, along with like. almost being disillusioned with the very concept of romantic attraction. (and being sorta kinda poly??)
this is the part that is gonna be incomprehensible jfksjsks. but the way i think about it is almost like. idk a diagnosis jfkshdks (NOT to be the weirdos that are like "romance is an illness" i just want to describe the fact that the borders and definitions of these attractions are socially constructed)
like romantic attraction has a bunch of "symptoms" (again value neutral i canmot stress enough that im not like anti people who like romance hfkshdjsj) like yk liking someone a bunch or butterflies in their stomach or like. yk whatever doesnt matter you get what i mean. the different thoughts and feelings and experiences that typically come up when someone is romantically attracted to someone. what im saying is i dont think there is *actually* a single Romantic Feeling people get, i think a lot of people just have a very similar experience, and so it sort of becomes a seperate thing yk. there isnt actually a Romantic Emotion but its a combo of a bunch of stuff that alot of people experience close enough to each others experiences that it is helpful for it to be named something.
but like. then people assume the Thing is actually real. or not that it isnt real but like. that the Thing came first and is law. when really its just a bunch of components that commonly make up the thing. and so when you share alot of those components of the Thing (saying i love you or being in a relationship that isnt a qpr with an allo person), people will say that you feel the Thing. but *you* know that you dont.
i dont really know where im going with this other than like. i wish people didnt see aro and ace people (specifically aro people jfksjsjs) as like. either you feel the Thing or you Dont. like 1. the Thing (romantic attraction) is something allo people cant even define comprehensibly and 2. the human experience is so varied that like. every single person is different and its v frustrating when people shit on others for not fitting into their idea of what that type of person is (shitting on aro people for not being what they think aro people are).
god this is nonsense im sorry but hopefully you understand what i mean. tl;dr everyone is different and everyones experiences of queer labels are different, id argue *especially* aro and ace people, and if you shit on aro and ace people for acting or feeling in a way you didnt expect or like, im killing you with a chainsaw
hopefully you can find other people who are not weird about your aroace-ness and if you ever need to talk about it id be down ^u^
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@bourgeoix tagged me in a fun lil book game so here! we go! i thought i’d be so many books down already this year but alas, it turns out, working in publishing means you have 3084039 different admin things or manuscripts to read bits of instead of actual books. who knew!
💘 last book i read: 💘
M@d About Y0u by Mh@iri McF@rlane
ok forgive me i had to censor this because it’s on our list and i DON’T need my team finding my tumblr lmao, even if they know i’m a former tumblr girlie with inside info on the nature of fandom and fic writers. i’m working in general commercial fiction rn which isn’t something i’ve read a lot of, so i’m trying to familiarise myself and thought this would be a fun n quick read. it was! it’s still not my favourite kind of writing, but it’s definitely...fic adjacent tbh...excessively white english in a way that was less annoying than the flatshare, and also if you’re thinking of reading that you should just read this instead because it has a lot of similarities and is generally just better. however i’m deducting points for this being touted a romcom and there being such minimal romance, just terrible exes being terrible ALL the TIME.
💘 currently reading: 💘
Really Good, Actually by Monica Heisey
i’ve only just started this but i’m really enjoying it so far! maybe bc i haven’t read a book that’s ~my vibe~ in a while and i’m elbow deep in psychological thriller and old school romance.....it’s sharp and witty and quick and horrifically relatable and very Of The Moment, as far as cool sad girl millennials are concerned. i saw it described as a Coming of Divorce novel which is great lmao, anyway it’s exactly what you’d expect from a Schitt’s Creek writer doing a story about a 29 yr old who’s suddenly alone for the first time.
💘 what is on my list 💘
Yellowface by Rebecca F. Kuang
i FINALLY got a proof of this yesterday after being told it’s the best thing ever for three weeks...the premise is very good...i’m very intrigued since it’s the same writer of Babel and this is a VERY different book...basically a nobody white writer steals the manuscript of an east asian literary darling writer and passes it off as her own under an ambiguously asian pseudonym.
Totally Wired: The Rise and Fall of the Music Press by Paul Gorman
a fat non-fiction that is specifically tailored to my niche interests...jacket design looks like the screenprints i made which is a weird coincidence...it’s just very me! haven’t had a moment to sit down and get into it yet but love that it covers US and UK music journalism bc i don’t really know so much about what the american equivalents of nme and melody maker were!
August Blue by Deborah Levy
WILD HOWLING SCREAMS!!!!!! idk when deborah quietly announced this but i’m her biggest most embarrassing fan. penguin should give me a commission for how many people i’ve converted to the church of deborah. so interesting bc it sounds like it’s based on information we already glimpsed in the living autobiographies but it’s also sounds much more philosophical than the last few novels, almost like a combination of both. anyway it doesn’t release until may cry
tagging the smart beautiful pals who read more than i can possibly hope to and some of the old usual suspects @bris-eis @whenharrymetsallys @wolfhalls @themoonmins @amarkls bee i’m tagging you but i cant remember what ur url is or if your made a new account or did i imagine that maybe you’re still awol
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HELLO BKG TWINNIE I'M HERE TO GUSH ABOUT UR PORTRAYAL ON MAIN. because okay, if this ends up a whole ass essay about how amazing your bkg is, don't even perceive me because it's gonna be true TO THE LAST WORD. and words won't even be enough to describe how much i appreciate seeing your bkg on the dash because i absolutely adore how well you write his mannerisms and speech and how you describe his features, i love the headcanons and the little tidbits that just make your katsuki so unique and yet so true to the canon material, and i cannot get enough of his interactions with others whether it's a short or long response. and i know i ain't on my izuku atm but shush, okay, i fuckin LOVE how we've started writing bkdk, where they're just playfully mean to each other but understand that that's just their whole ass love language to each other, and it's just... chefs kiss...
not to mention how much i fucking LOVE seeing you write krbk with ashe, like you guys have such a beautiful rendition of krbk and it's such a joy to see whether it's eiji and kats or kai and kei. your rendition of krbk is so AMAZING and yknow me n charlie write a rendition too, but oh my god, i hardcore appreciate seeing you guys goof around with them... cannot get enough of them. if you guys ever stop writing them on my dash i will be on the news because that'll be the day the fucking world ends on god.
LIKE OK I KNOW THIS IS FOR THE PORTRAYAL MEME N ALL BUT I ALSO JUST NEED TO GUSH ABOUT YOU PERSONALLY ON MAIN RN BC I JUST. HAVE SUCH A GREAT TIME TALKING TO U OOC. like yeah ok so u bully me for my aussie ways but it's honestly so fun. it's so fuckin goofy when we jump into whatever wacky rabbit hole we find about some obscure difference, like the fact we ain't even got goldfish crackers or our fun lil town names which get u reeling bc they don't sound real. woolloomooloo who? but genuinely having the chance to talk to you ooc every day about our boys, or literally ANYONE within the twinverse, or just ANY CHARACTER EVER... it brightens up my whole ass motherfuckin day. i just need you to know this, 100%, undeniably no take-backsies kinda thing.
point being: amazing katsuki, amazing writing, beautiful everything bc there's not one bad thing i can say about this blog, and the most chill dude to talk to who i would literally die for. <3
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I JUST READ THE CHALTWR SMD IM 🤭🤭🤭🤭 had to try so hard not to moan 😔💔💔 anyways BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP I’m gonna tell you what i think 🤭🤭
splitting it again bc it makes it a lot easier n feels more organized ig? so yeah !!
listen ik i talk a lot about the way you present the characters but i can’t oh my god i csnt stop. i’ll start off with ran again n i hope it won’t be too long so !! there’s so much to say about the past part i was not okay i was about to scream and throw up and cry why would you do that to me 💔💔 i’ve noticed you always describe rans words as sharp and sometimes even loud and when i talk ab rin i’ll mention the difference and how important i think it is 🤭🤭 not only do i think it’s extremely fitting, but that one word always sets the mood and pace for the next few paragraphs at least if h get what i mean. throughout the majority of tjr chapters, rans tone is being presented as very..asserting? i guess? and it’s such a small smalll tiny detail but it does wonders for, not only his character and character development, but also for understanding him and rins AND him and yns relationship. a lot of the time his sharp tone isn’t even menacing, it’s more grounding and in some situations, asserting. i think someone else mentioned how ran is big on eye contact snd i think that this AND the eye contact thing is jusy so… intimate idk how else to explain it. yn is always shying away from their gazes but also their words and i think tnst ran using a more firm tone in situations where yn may be a little…yk unwell or overstimulated is so beautiful to read idk i love it im just 🤭🤭🤭💗💗💗💗 and oh my gof in this chapter… when the roles were reversed and it was ran being unable to meet her eyes, ran holding his tongue because and not even being able to speak, ran being more vulnerable and emotional than we’ve ever seen him… i cant i had to stop reading for a second i jsut,, the roles being reversed was so interesting snd i didn’t expect it AT ALLL. and the way he made her promise??? i love that ran is big on eye contact and yk yn using her words bc that’s EXACTLY HOW I SEE HIM AND I LOVE THSY YOU WRIYE HIM THIS WAY !! wanna give you a kiss for showing us a more vulnerable side of him im screaming oh my god…
that’s enough of ran for now idw it to b too long 💔💔 BUT oh my FUCKING GOD the way you reversed the roles between ran and yn, RIGJT SFTER DOING TJR SAME W RSN SND RIN?? i’m so used to seeing the words “sharp” and “hissed” being used with ran i had to do a double take n reread the paragraph to make sure it was rin you were talking about. this definitely counts as cjaracter development to me and it was so beautifully done i can’t even think of a better way for that scene to have been depicted tbh. rindou has always been the more shy? and just generally softer one between the two (at least with yn 🤭🤭) so seeing tnst drastic change and watching HIM get fed up was so insane i never knew i needed it tnst bad. i don’t think ive ever really talked about rin much but god i love how you write him so much i csnt think of anyone tnst writes the brothers as well as you im jsut.. oh my god. i love the way you emphasize the tone they’re using but it’s done in such a smooth way idk how to explain it but i hope you get what i mean 🤷🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️ “rindous voice was sharper than it ever had been with you” and “help us understand, we want to understand” give me a moment i’m going to sob i csnt do this rn. he sounds so desperate and so fed up at the same time and idk if that’s what you were going for but it completely changed the mood for the entire past bit and made it so much more emotional (to me at least 🤭) it’s just so heartbreaking i had to stop AGAIN you can’t keep doing this to me cat i’m going to cry soon. the scene where rindou and yn were arguing and when she mentioned her uncle yk the bit, every single one of yns dialogues ended so abruptly because rindou cut her off every single time and oh my god… i cannot do this it’s far too late for this why would you do that. it adds to the mood but also the pacing i said this last time but holy fuck your pacing is absolutely amazing reading your works is always just the best because you know how to set a mood, and how to make sure it matches the pace and it just goes together so well if that makes sense i can’t find the words atm but whatever. both yn and rindou were so desperate in that scene but their desperation was written in different ways and i csmt even begin to find the words to tell you how fucking impressive tnst is?? you wrote?? two desperate people??? arguing??? but both of them??? we’re desperate in completely different ways??? OH TKDJISNAISHISZ i absolutely admire the little details in your writing i csnt fo this. before i move on from characters and thei developments (i barely wroye ab the development im sorry sob 💔💔💔💔 but jsut know tnst i haven’t read any pieces, in any fandom, that had character development as good as yours, i’ll talk ab it next time tho 💗🫶🏼) i said i was also going to mention the differences in rsn and rindous way of speech. i already said ran has a sharper and more firm and asserting tone, whereas rindou is a lot more soft spoken (especially w yn) and not as assertive as ran is. alone it’s already great but seeing you wriye them both TOGETHER AND reversing their roles is nothing short of impressive i’m absolute and completely in awe of your understanding of them and, not just their separate personalities, but also their personalities TOGETHER and with yn.
anyways moving on !! i wanted to mention your use of analogies involving the sky and weight. it’s repeated in many chapters and in different ways based on the context, but it’s so??? effective?? like it adds so much to the story but also to our understanding of the characters ESPECIALLY yn seeing as it is used on her the most i’ve noticed. i’ll never stop talking ab how much i love that you didn’t just forget about yn but you continue to build and develop her ever chapter it’s so refreshing i love it.
i won’t speak about pacing on its own because i think that i mentioned it a lot in the other bits but AAGIN YOUR USE OF REPETITION IS SO SOOSOSOSOS BEAUTIFUL and well placed and just genuinely perfect to me. it says eitjer slows everythint down or speeds it up or does both and makes me dizzy (in a good way 💗💗) but either way it’s so perfect, especially here with the repetition AND the bold font to emphasize certain phrases. it doesn’t just emphasize it, it changes the tone and has you reading the repeated phrase differently snd it changes so much if you get what i mean. speaking of repetition actuslly, the sky thing isn’t the only thing you repeat in chapters,, the paragraph about how her uncle said smth sb jump starting and all that you knwo the one, everytime you repeat something ESPECIALLY IF ITD IN ANOTJER CHAOTER, it jsut adds so much to it like the way i read it, it almost sounds like she’s trying to remind herself and using tnst as justification for her actions so the guilt doesn’t get to her snd tnst desperation is fucking doubled everytime its repeated THIS MIGJG NOT MSKE SENSE BC ITS LIGERSLLY 4 AM HERE BUJT WHSTEVER ITS OKAY 🤭🤭
last thing !! the way you subtly mention characters is so cool like, izana was barely mentioned in tnst one chapter. all you said was his hair was white and his eyes were purple and then boom he ends up being one of the most impoetstn characters for both yn and the entire stories development. you briefly mentioned mikey in a similar way at one point as well and it’s been fucking my head up bc i’m trying to figure out if ur doing it again cat please stop playing with my head i am gonna pass out 🙏🙏 ALSO hanma bring mentioned at the end of this chapter made me giggle a little bit bc k hate him but i don’t but i really do but i love the way you write him and i want him to come back im waiting on hanma to make an appearance so i can actuslly talk ab him cuz i love the sys you write him. OH AND the quick change in mood between the past and present bits had my head reeling i loved it 🤭🤭
ANYWAYS THIS IS SOSOSOEHODJS LONG but ig it sort of makes up for the fact that i LIGERSLLY DIDNT WRITE SNYTBINT FOR THE KASY CHAOTWR even tho it’s one of my faves so far but it’s okay. IM SORRU ITS SO LONG BUT HESH POINT IS LDA IS SOSJOWHSJSKSDNJSIAJZKANSKSJZ🤭🤭🤭💗💗💔💔💔💔💔💔🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼💓💓💓💓💓👍😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 if you get what i mean :p y never disappoint and k was actuslly do stressed cuz i have school again tomorrow and idw go but you made my night i can sleep well now thanks 🤭🤭
ANYWYS BYE BYE ILY 💋💋🤭🤭🤭
SOBS I DONT THINJ ILL EVER BE ABLE TO CONVEY ENOUGH HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU 🥹 DONT EVER APOLOGIZE FOR IT BEINF LONG I SWEAR IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY EVERY TUME no bc deadass :((( i literally cried when i read this ask, and i read it like 40 times. i dont even know where to start sobs you literally catch all of the little things i put in there and hope that ppl will catch -- like the switch up with rindou, and the brief appearance of izana who ended up being a huge character. AND THE WAY RAN ACTS WITH READER. YES. OMG. HE IS ONE HUNDRED PERCENT ASSERTIVE LIKE THAT AS A WAY TO KEEP HER GROUNDED AND PAYING ATTENTION TO THEM OTHERWISE HE KNOWS DAMN WELL THAT SHE'LL EITHER TRY TO SLIP AWAY OR CHANGE THE SUBJECT OR EVEN WHEN SHE'S JUST GETTING OVERWHELMED.
AND RINDOU'S SWITCH UP IN THE AIRPORT DUDE. i had so much fun writing that bc he had always been the one shielding her from ran when they were younger bc ran would lose his temper and get snappy with her. like not only was it jarring for HER but honestly it was jarring for me to write bc i was so used to having him being the mediator between the two of them.
omg the analogies with the sky/atlas is some of my favorite parts to add in there bc she rlly does feel like the whole weight of the world is on her shoulder, and her and izana had been so big on different types of mythologies that thinking back to it and relating the pressure on her to myths that they had talked about is honestly kind of a comfort for her, if it makes sense.
AND YES omg the repetition with the mention of the uncle is 100% her trying to (1) justify to herself what she was doing and (2) convince herself that it was the only viable choice.
hanma. hehe.
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I LOVE YOUR ART SO MUCH!!!! WIANRKWJEJW Gosh I'm just IN LOVEEEE with the way you draw omg
Like, your line art??? GOSH I LOVE YOUR LINE ART SO MUCH AAAAAAA LIKE, THE THICK LINES??? THE LITTLE TO NO LINE WEIGHT??? GOSH ITS SO BEAUTIFUL WJAHJEEJJE
Also I LOVEEEE your colors omg. EEEE LIKE GOSH I LOVE YOUR USE OF COLORS SO MUCH!!! ESPECIALLY YOUR SATURATED COLORS!!! THEY SCRATCH THIS ITCH IN MY BRAIN AND IT'S VERY PLEASANT!!!
Also I LOVEEEE the way you stylise faces :'D The way you draw eyes... I can't get over it omg. ALSO the way you draw hair and noses and mouths and GOSH I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT IT
Also, I LOVE THE WAY YOU DRAW FOLDS!!! Honestly I just love everything about your art <333 IT' S SO PRETTY AND GORGEOUS AND I WANT TO STEAL YOUR ART STYLE SOOOOOO BADLY
Omg, also your more detailed drawings??? Chef's kiss man. LIKE OMG THAT DRAWING YOU DID OF MIKAMI WHERE YOU TRIED TO DO TWO DIFFERENT ART STYLES??? GOSH I LOVED IT EEEEEEEEEEEE GOSH I LOVE EVERYTHING YOU MAKE
Also I LOVE YOUR LINELESS ART A LOT WUQNDJEJ Gosh I love lineless art <333 Everything you make is BEAUTIFUL and gosh I just love your art so SOOOOO much
Sorry if my compliments are repetitive, I am not the best with words. Your art makes my brain go "WIAJSKKE WAAAA PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY EIAHRIENDKJE PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY WUSBEJEJEJEJ EEEEEEEEEE" so my thoughts aren't very coherent 😭
But gosh I love your art so much... Was scrolling through your art tag and kicking and giggling and ranting to my wall about how pretty it is. I have been thinking about your art for like, the past hour and a half? Gosh it's so good man (update! It has been like 2 and a half hours 😭)
I'm not a big fan of blood, but you make it look so pretty <3 Honestly it's kinda making me want to try to draw some bloody pieces (but I'm too scared to look for references)
EEEEEE GOSH I LOVE YOUR ART STYLE SO MUCH LIKE THE COLORS AND THE LINEART AND THE WAY YOU STYLISE EVERYTHING AND WAAAAA THE COLORS GOD THEY MAKE ME GO EEEEEEEE CANT GET OVER YOUR COLORS AND YOUR LINES AND EVERYTHING OK SORRY ITS SO GOOD
Your art makes me want to cry... You made lawmane art and it was SOOOO pretty I was smiling so much and giggling at how pretty the colors are and YOUR LINEEEEEES GOD I CANT GET OVER THEM EEEEEEEEEEE and it's just so pretty it put tears in my eyes (FOR REAL) and gosh your art is just super duper pretty it's like one of the best things ever (GOSH I WISH I COULD PROPERLY DESCRIBE HOW GOOD YOUR ART IS IM SO SORRY FOR BEING POOR WITH WORDS YOUR ART DESERVES BETTER PRAISES!!!) I'm not even a fan of lawmane but omg your art is just the prettiest
Your art is everything it's so pretty omg gosh I wish I could draw like you, your art is super duper pretty it's the prettiest of all the pretties it's very color and EEEEEE GOSH I LOVE EVERYTHING YOU MAKE GOING CRAZY OVER YOUR ART EEEEEEEE PRETTY PRETTY WIAJRJEJWJEJ EEEEE
I actually tried to make a drawing in your style! I failed lol. I can't draw lines and color the way you do (GOSH YOURE AWESOME AT IT) but it was super fun omg gosh I love your art style so so SOOOO much omg (sucks that I failed at copying your art style, it'd be funny if I could imitate both the way you draw and talk, but I guess it's a good thing for you haha) I want to try drawing like you more because your art style is so pretty but if it makes you uncomfy because that's like stealing your art style I will stop BUT GOSH ITS SO PRETTYYYY 😭
Sorry for the super long rant! I want to go on longer but this is getting too long I guess I'll continue ranting to the wall but I'm at a bday party rn so I can't rant to the wall but omg gosh your art is so so pretty I wish I could properly describe how gorgeous it is ok this is getting WAYYYY too long ok bye
ANYWAYS!!! Your art is PRETTY and I hope you have a good day and good sleep!!! Thank you so much for existing! Your art provides me with so much happiness gosh I can't believe you follow me like OMG KNOWING AN ARTIST LIKE YOU FOLLOWS ME BACK IS MAKING ME SO GIDDY AND HAPPY LIKE GOSH YOURE AN ART GOD AND OK THIS IS WAY TOO LONG BYE BYE HAVE A GOOD DAY!!!! YOUR ART IS GORGEOUS!!!!!
(so sorry for the rant and incoherent mess!)
i'm like. literally speechless. wow
(cue me speaking in the tags bc they make more sense to me)
#i'm really really glad you like my art!!!!!!!!! i've had issues liking my own art so i'm glad someone likes it lol#and dw even keysmash about my art makes me so so happy!!!#don't call me an art god though it'll go straight to my massive ego lmao#and i like your art too!! i love the pixel art and the ms paint drawings are very nostalgic and funny#but feel free to copy my style i really don't care. art is all about stealing from other people it would be hypocritical to tell you no lol#if it makes you happy then feel free to go at it#tho if you can copy my art and my way of speaking we'll have to fight to the death i hope you understand. there can only be one#if you ever want to talk about art i'm happy to btw. i love talking w other artists about art!!#ty for the ask!!!!!!! it makes me happy in ways i cannot express in words#ask
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may 16th - my family on: being skinnnny 4ever
had a pretty nice mother's day myself, that side of my family is just a handful of really amazing women i love love so much, and in latin america mothers day means of course going to have a pretty loud lunch in your grandmas house. and then i get to my point.
dont get me wrong, it was big indeed, like a whole chicken, salad 1, rice, salad 2, salad 1 with mayo but no apple, fish and potatos for the pescatarian granddaughter (moi), and 2 deserts i cant even begin to describe the mastery of right here. divided to all of us, it's a pretty big meal. though i must say it's waaay different than fast "food" or other calorically dense highly palatable processed "food".
ok but then the talks, after desert. my aunt, my mom, my grandma, they all make a point of how many days they're going to do detox on the next week, specifically to compensate that day. how they've eaten too much and need to do this or that exercise (even my grandma). and i participate in all the same things. from literal childhood. we're all lean girlies, we've always been, and younger me was proper skinny skinny.
and just lately i've been noticing these talks and references i was raised on. didn't stand out to me so much bc they never negatively commented on my body, it was quite the opposite, they basically made it clear that i was so beautiful bc i was so skinny. that plus some childhood modelling made me extremely aware of my body, and how thin it should be, by a really early age. i remember trying to make my waist smaller bc it can always be smaller, and at the same time make my calves bigger bc they looked too weird... cz i was already very skinny by that time wtf. i was 11 or 12 i think. anyway, back to my family, i don't blame them so much bc to me rn it's better to go trough the 24/7 torture of body obsession that was born from body awareness, than to be relapse and lose control of my eating and the way my body looks, should look (for own happiness and sanity).
it's what some ppl call diet culture, the big bad wolf, like everyone lives in their first world suburban fantasy. it's a part of our culture here that i don't dislike. it's also resistence against the western way of getting labs to make food addictive to ppl like they're their abused lab rats, the deforestation to get their beef mass produced, the economic imperialism of *literally" destroying the health, livelihood and even water supplies of entire fuckibg countries while pushing away any sign of native gastronomy and local businesses. so yeah i'll keep my ""diet culture"". me, my momma, my grandma, my aunts, my cousins. and we're gonna remain thin and correct.
i guess you can tell i'm not sixteen anymore? though at that age i was already politically engaged, and enraged may i add. anyway bybye.
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Also don't hate me i think the edits were smart. I don't think they need to talk about what will change, that's not what she's emotional about. She's still hurt by him leaving and is afraid to be left again. I think that's what's emphasized by what was taken out. And having her not hug him is emblematic of that. She can't get close out of fear. She's not ready. She can't let him take care of her. She can't allow herself the hope. It's too scary.
okay so the actual story aspect that we got honestly doesnt bother me i just think the edits are really poorly done HFSHDFHF theres literally like. a continuity error or bad adr on every shot at the fridge 😭 it just really disrupts the intensity of the scene and if they had just. originally written a rejection (which overall i actually think they did ? i dont think they were like. gonna get together in this ep) and filmed a full version where they dont kiss it wouldve looked better ultimately 😵💫 it just seemed like they were running out of time + the scene right before i think they chopped up liv and carisi's conversation?
BUT yeah it makes sense that liv isnt ready and im currently taking that article that accidentally described a different ending as canon. (it was nbc insider and now its been edited but it originally described her breaking down in tears in his arms when she keeps saying she cant do it) like liv is honestly really not There yet but the end of this trilogy showing her at her loneliest point is.. not good. A better put together version of that conversation and whatever elliot said before "what if things work out" wouldve been even better. and i do love the scene overall i just think she wants to be held by him after all of this, and all the nuzzling (insane) felt like it was supposed to build up to her crying in his arms like she cant do ALL of this yet but she does want to. she wants to. shes being literally pulled to him the whole scene.
as far as editing out the kiss i understand plotwise bc. and maybe ive read too many fics. but theres no way liv would stop kissing him after theyve started. like kissing him and immediately saying "actually i cant do this" is not her tea. i really think she would have to be way more Ready for a kiss to happen. like there are two things she has not done and its say "i love (you) elliot stabler" and try to initiate actual romance? or like imply it. you know what i mean. she keeps grabbing his hands and telling him she wants to but also. how about we call it a friendship? what do you say partner? thought this was an oc case (its always good to work with you liv) NEW SUBJECT! (all that time together its like we were married) but you weren't. he was someone else's husband. BASICALLY I THINK THE KISS IS A VERY FINAL LINE FOR LIV THAT SHE IS NOT READY TO CROSS BECAUSE SHE CANT QUITE PUT THE LONGEVITY OF HER FEELINGS FOR ELLIOT INTO WORDS. HAHAHAAA IM FINE
theres a Lot in the clip where she leans in and elliots moves to look at her. bc he Wants to but he can tell shes all over the place rn. im sick
like wow what a beautiful tender crushing scene. hey what’s that
#i hope this doesnt sound rude i do agree shes scared and pushing him away bc shes not ready. i just wish theyd showed that more smoothly#also the lack of screentime attributed to noah and elliot becomes more irritating with every passing second.#like oh. oh yeah btw the biggest clearest marker of livs feelings about Her and Elliot has moved. the noah game of life car#its moved up a square#and we dont hear a damn thing about it until the last five seconds.#its mostly annoying me bc they already threw in that scene in svu 23 where liv and noah bump into elliot and that control is taken away#from liv#so now we're 2/2 on like. noah and elliot in a situation liv cant control or moderate#and yes obviously theres no one she could or should trust more with noah's physical safety but. no phone call?? NO CONVERSATION?#unserious#?#in a parallel universe (semper fi)
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I WAS TAGGED BY @hobeah TO DO MY FAV THING AKA STUFF RELATED TO GIF MAKING AKA STUFF RELATED TO COLOURING SO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! before/after colouring ✌️
i decided to show my prev ones (1st and 2nd gifs) too bc i still have psds ALSO I APOLOGIZE FOR THE UGLI LAYOUT AND HOW EVERY GIF HAS DIFFERENT DIMENSIONs AND IT JUST DOESNT LOOK RIGHT BUT I CANT just redo im too excited to do this and its middle of the night so plz dont throw hands ok :( this is not sth huge i could do a lot better but im too hyped rn i cant wait for tomorrow
looking at my older colouring im like 😃 wtf this is kinda extreme and yeah cuz i used to use gradient with one transparent side lmao T_T djksfksdf and that one weird solid colour layed that made everything purple-ish and yellow-ish more saturated somehow in a certain blending mode idk why dont ask i thought it was pretty
3rd and 4th ones r same psd that i use nowadays i use it pretty much almost everywhere around 85% of my content is with it but ofc i adjust some layers if there is a need
i do it from scratch if there arent too many colours/colours r too simple/lighting is too dark/performances/psd doesnt help (for example last gif with taehyung from concert)
how do i describe my current style hm skin tones less green not tooo yellow but more red/magenta + solid blacks + fade + cyans if there r blues + less greens + highlights arent white too + whatever my mood is
im tagging in whatever order @jung-koook @taeyungie @jjoon @lifegoesmon @flipthatjacketjiminie @everythingoes @kkulmoon @joenns @syubb @jjeongukie @jiminslight @vjimin @tearuntold @namgination @hopekidoki @minhope @jiminswn @hobibestboy @yoongi-bts @oncupid @jinvant @yoonqiful there should also be @/jinv :/ i just know that i forgot 85964605 ppl but my mind is out rn T_T also tagging myself as always just in case to check the notifications @eternal-bangtan
also wanted to say that there r so many ppl on this site that feel colours in a such an incredible beautiful way whenever i see those pretty things it makes me scream ofc and it inspires me to go and try to experiment to do sth with colours T_T im very grateful for all the talented ppl those who i tagged or not yall r very cool thank u for being a creator <3 not ONLY THOSE WHO MAKE GIFS TOO THIS IS ABOUT EVERYTHIGN ACTUALLY also thanks those who spread creations and write nice tags and appreciates <3
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100 questions and answers
Who is your hero?
Probably future me, i want to be able to grow up and be the better person that i hope they are, and the only way of knowing that is by making it happen.
If you could live anywhere, where would it be?
New Zealand, Canada or USA. I lived in TX for 3 months and loved it there and I have family in NZ and Canada.
What is your biggest fear?
Wasps, 100%. Not being stung but the way they look scares me.
What is your favorite family vacation?
When we went to Krakow in Poland.
What would you change about yourself if you could?
My skin color. I hate it so much.
What really makes you angry?
People hating others or stopping others from being themselves.
What motivates you to work hard?
To make future me happier than I am now.
What is your favorite thing about your career?
I want to be in cabin crew, so probably the traveling.
What is your biggest complaint about your job?
Being away from family.
What is your proudest accomplishment?
Getting through the shit 2020 brought me without killing myself.
What is your child's proudest accomplishment?
No kids rn.
What is your favorite book to read?
Noughts and Crosses by Malorie Blackman
What makes you laugh the most?
My boyfriend.
What was the last movie you went to? What did you think?
Freaks. I was a bad movie, a little like the scary movies franchise. My friend was scared at parts which was super funny to watch
What did you want to be when you were small?
An actor. Typical Leo ;)
What does your child want to be when he/she grows up?
They can be anything they want to be.
If you could choose to do anything for a day, what would it be?
Visit Edinburgh alone.
What is your favorite game or sport to watch and play?
To watch, American Football. To play, archery.
Would you rather ride a bike, ride a horse, or drive a car?
Drive a car, it's peaceful and warm. I would blast music.
What would you sing at Karaoke night?
no idea.
What two radio stations do you listen to in the car the most?
Heart and Capital
Which would you rather do: wash dishes, mow the lawn, clean the bathroom, or vacuum the house?
Dishes or vacuum.
If you could hire someone to help you, would it be with cleaning, cooking, or yard work?
Yard work!!!
If you could only eat one meal for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Tandoori Prawn curry.
Who is your favorite author?
Jacqueline Wilson or JK Rowling (only her books, not her)
Have you ever had a nickname? What is it?
Just Em. But id like to be called Millie.
Do you like or dislike surprises? Why or why not?
Depends on the surprise tbh, I like to plan a lot.
In the evening, would you rather play a game, visit a relative, watch a movie, or read?
Watch a movie.
Would you rather vacation in Hawaii or Alaska, and why?
Hawaii. I was meant to go this year but covid and leaving the US fucked it up.
Would you rather win the lottery or work at the perfect job? And why?
Work the perfect job, id get bored sitting around all day.
Who would you want to be stranded with on a deserted island?
my boyfriend.
If money was no object, what would you do all day?
Travel and see the world.
If you could go back in time, what year would you travel to?
2012. To see my Nana again.
How would your friends describe you?
Stupid.
What are your hobbies?
Traveling, photography, music and shopping.
What is the best gift you have been given?
Forgiveness from myself.
What is the worst gift you have received?
Sixe XXL jacket when im an XS
Aside from necessities, what one thing could you not go a day without?
My macbook.
List two pet peeves.
- Breaking trust
- Bad table manners
Where do you see yourself in five years?
Hopefully working my dream job, maybe moved to a different country and traveling the world.
How many pairs of shoes do you own?
too many, roughly 16
If you were a super-hero, what powers would you have?
Invisibility or teleportation.
What would you do if you won the lottery?
build my own house
What form of public transportation do you prefer? (air, boat, train, bus, car, etc.)
Train, its so relaxing. Then planes.
What's your favorite zoo animal?
Lions or tigers.
If you could go back in time to change one thing, what would it be?
My time in America.
If you could share a meal with any 4 individuals, living or dead, who would they be?
- My nana
- my bf
- Princess Diana
- Obama
How many pillows do you sleep with?
4, two on each side.
What's the longest you've gone without sleep (and why)?
26 hours, traveling to Texarkana from Edinburgh.
What's the tallest building you've been to the top in?
Idk tbh
Would you rather trade intelligence for looks or looks for intelligence?
looks for intelligence because then you can earn enough for plastic surgery.
How often do you buy clothes?
1/2 a month
Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Idk I guess so.
What's your favorite holiday?
Summer vacation
Christmas for an actual holiday
What's the most daring thing you've ever done?
Moved half way across the world and lived with strangers.
What was the last thing you recorded on TV?
Nothing
What was the last book you read?
1984
What's your favorite type of foreign food?
Indian
Are you a clean or messy person?
Both, but relatively clean
Who would you want to play you in a movie of your life?
Millie Bobbie Brown probably
How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
1 hour
What kitchen appliance do you use every day?
Kettle
What's your favorite fast food chain?
Chick fil A (i know, i cant buy it now tho)
What's your favorite family recipe?
Nana's bacon and egg pie
Do you love or hate rollercoasters?
LOVE
What's your favorite family tradition?
Opening gifts on Christmas Eve
What is your favorite childhood memory?
I dunno really, Ive forgotten a lot of my childhood.
What's your favorite movie?
Ferris Bueller's Day Off or Beautiful Boy
How old were you when you learned Santa wasn't real? How did you find out?
Probably 7/8 but I dont remember.
Is your glass half full or half empty?
Half empty.
What's the craziest thing you’ve done in the name of love?
Said i'd come back one day.
What three items would you take with you on a deserted island?
A boat and food. Yes i am that person.
What was your favorite subject in school?
Scottish school, geography. US school, government.
What's the most unusual thing you've ever eaten?
Haggis
Do you collect anything?
Foreign coins
Is there anything you wished would come back into fashion?
Skinny jeans, my ass looks gooood in them
Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
introvert that likes being sociable
Which of the five senses would you say is your strongest?
hearing
Have you ever had a surprise party? (that was an actual surprise)
nope
Are you related or distantly related to anyone famous?
my dad is well know in the whisky business. Has his own prime tv show
What do you do to keep fit?
Walk a lot and swim.
Does your family have a “motto” – spoken or unspoken?
nope
If you were ruler of your own country what would be the first law you would introduce?
everyone is equal.
Who was your favorite teacher in school and why?
Scottish School, my geo teacher. US school, my english teacher.
What three things do you think of the most each day?
My bf, my mum and America
If you had a warning label, what would yours say?
Sad, angry and anxious
What song would you say best sums you up?
17 again
What celebrity would you like to meet at Starbucks for a cup of coffee?
Timothee Chalamet or Tom Holland
Who was your first crush?
a boy called Finlay who i rode the bus with
What's the most interesting thing you can see out of your office or kitchen window?
sheep or cows very often
On a scale of 1-10 how funny would you say you are?
5
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
kids, married, settled down and happy. moved countries 100%
What was your first job?
never had one
If you could join any past or current music group which would you want to join?
5sos
How many languages do you speak?
1 - english
What is your favorite family holiday tradition?
opening gifts on Christmas Eve
Who is the most intelligent person you know?
my mum
If you had to describe yourself as an animal, which one would it be?
a cat probably or a tiger
What is one thing you will never do again?
trust people fully
Who knows you the best?
my bf.
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hi sweetheart !! may i please req an ateez and bts personality ship ?? my description was SUPER long (I GOT CARRIED AWAY </3) so you can cut my request at the personality part when posting my ship! tysm in advance <3
I’m an ‘03 liner that’s 5’9.5 (basically 5’10) with dark skin, jet black hair (currently in long twists rn!!), and i’m on the curvier side (esp hips and my thighs) !! some of my favorite features are my plump lips (and i have a beauty mark near the inside of my bottom lip!), my long legs (they’re 40.5 inches long and look so good in dresses and skirts <33), my kempt and pretty fingernails, and my eyelashes !!! i’m a virgo (and surprisingly i get along with all the signs, i cant think of a sole zodiac sign i DONT mix well with but i love cancers and virgos <33) ! i’m also an ambivert all the way! i often come off as cold/shy/quiet when meeting new people (one of my closest friends avoided me for a month before meeting me because i looked so intimidating LMAO), but once you get close to me i turn into a goofy (heavy on the goofy im never not laughing) bundle of warmth and love: i will never stop texting them the <3 emoji every morning or buying my friends/s/o their favorite starbucks order when they need a little cheer-me-up. also, lots of people say i’m mature and carry myself well, but around my friends i’m one of the most goofiest people ever (probably bc my face will literally be 😐 one sec and then 🥰 the next second when someone makes me laugh <3)
tysm in advance!!! Have an amazing day/afternoon/evening!
@anpanseok DARLING! I hope you love your ship <3 I'm actually really proud of this one, you'll have to let me know what you think! <3
In ATEEZ, I ship you with one and only demon San!
(I thought you'd like that gif ;) )
Okay, when you were describing all of the things that you would want in the relationship, I thought of San due to how clingy and affectionate he is with the other members of ATEEZ. He is a Cancer, which is good because that is one of the star signs that are compatible with yours. I don't believe that the age difference of four years would be that much of an issue, especially since San acts younger than he is most of the time anyway. I feel like most men are intimidated when their female significant other is tall themselves, but he is tall himself and I feel like the fact that you are taller is kind of one of his favorite things about you? One of his other favorite things about you are your curves, he always puts his hand on your thighs during movie night at the boys' dorm or in the back pocket of your jeans when you two are walking into KQ Entertainment together. When you wear dresses when all of you go out to fancy dinners together, he has to hold himself back because he ADORES you when you wear dresses! You said you're am ambivert, I feel like he relates to that in some form of way, like I feel like there are certain situations where he feels a bit more introverted about. Sometimes Hongjoong has to scold him because he texts you so much, but he can't stay mad at you when you pop into the building with their favorite Starbucks drinks and hand-made lunch boxes for them. Just as you always support his creative endeavors, he always returns it for you tenfold and when you are talking about issues you care deeply about, he gives you his full attention and stares at you lovingly. Not just San, but all of the boys, come to you whenever they are dealing with stress and they just want someone to talk to because you are so amazing at giving advice and supporting them. There was a time when a sasaeng approached you, San, Wooyoung and Jongho when you were doing some late night grocery shopping when another ATINY stopped her, causing an argument and nasty words to be exchanged. Let's just say, you shut that sasaeng down REAL quick when you heard some of the things she said. One day you woke up and found a present that San made for you, a mixtape of all of your favorite songs from all your favorite genres of music, along with a little keychain that had tokens of all of the states you had visited. He wholeheartedly loves you and he makes every effort to support all of your dreams. When he has days off from work, the two of you make a blanket fort in your living room and watch old episodes of Forensic Files and Law & Order: SVU, whilst surrounded by fluffy blankets and a couple of his favorite plushies. His life an idol doesn't afford him much down time, unfortunately, but he always makes time for you and you always have the craziest adventures with not only each other, but all of the other boys as well. Squishy San will want all of the cuddles, have you SEEN how affectionate he is with the other members?! Also, him in all black outfits.... YES, PLEASE AND THANK YOU. One day he was visiting your apartment and he surprised you with matching beaded pearl bracelets and he never takes it off, not even for performances. The boys don't really think nothing of walking into the bathroom to brush their teeth whilst one of the others is showering, that just comes with their busy schedules and their dorm life. Let's just say this: Mingi wasn't able to look you in the eyes for two weeks because he did just that, not realize that you had snuck in and stayed the night, and were currently going to the bathroom whilst San was in the shower. Your camera roll is not only filled with silly pictures of San that you've captured, but of the most magazine worthy, model pictures you have ever been lucky enough to take. He accepts you for all of your flaws, and helps you to try to work on them, however that may be and you do the same for him.
In summary: You both are simps for each other and I AM HERE FOR IT.
In BTS, I ship you with Namjoon!
Another tall boy for you, I got you! You both are Virgos, but I looked it up worried that two Virgos would clash, and it said that they would be very intuitive with each other and would understand each other! The age gap is quite large, I don't know how okay you are with that? I know everyone has different preferences. He approached you first when he saw you at the mom & pop coffee shop/cafe around the corner from your apartment, and he thought you were the most beautiful person he had ever seen. Another man who I don't think would be bothered by your curves (men can be shallow dicks), I think that is his favorite thing (same as San) about you. Not even in a sexual way, I feel like his hands would always end up on your butt without him even noticing. Most of the time, one of the other boys will point it out when all of you are hanging out together, and he will be proud that he has a significant other like you, but he almost might become a shy mess about it I feel like. I feel like he can get jealous, just because you are closest to Jungkook in the group and you often pull pranks on the other members together. There is never a shortage of laughs when all of you are together, pure crackhead energy if I've ever seen it, just non stop jokes and banter between all of you. You were able to get time off from work and were actually able to join them (their managers were surprisingly chill about you tagging along? CONFUSION?) on their tour around Europe and you had so many memories. You actually brought along a Polaroid camera that you found in a little store one day when the two of you were shopping, and you ended up having to buy an extra suitcase on the trip because you took LITERAL hundreds of pictures of all of your adventures and the tour shenanigans. He has childish tendencies, I feel like he would love to play Roblox with you? I feel like he would take a very mathematical approach to building things, that's just the vibe I get from him. He often stares at you when you're doing your makeup in the morning, he finds it fascinating and he even asked you to do his makeup for some of his shows. His makeup artists weren't angry, luckily, all of their staffs absolutely adore you two together. He is all up for adventures, I feel like he would chicken out at the idea of skydiving, though lol. You keep stealing his sweaters, which he low-key highkey is SO happy about because he loves the way that you look in them. The size difference is only three or four inches (I've seen people say he's 6 feet, but then others say he's 6 foot 2, WHICH IS IT?!), so it's pretty easy to sneak kisses from him whenever you want them when you're together. If he sees you struggling to stay awake whilst studying, he'll softly close your book and drag you over to your bed for a couple hours so you can take a quick nap to regain the energy. I don't really know his temperament that well, he has to be rather even-tempered to deal with those hooligans he calls the rest of BTS, so I feel like you wouldn't have that many fights. You both are always striving to help each other to be the best versions of each other you can be. You joined the boys on vacation at a lake house and one night you were having dinner and he blushed after you said something cheeky to him, causing you to say to him, "You look like a cute tomato when you blush, my cutie pie." in front of the other members. Needless to say, he turned even more red and the boys teased him mercilessly for the rest of the night. Don't know how the cooking would go (this boy is a DISASTER in the kitchen), but you would have fun learning new dishes. He would brag about getting a dish right, and you quickly praise him but also say, " and that's why you a big ass head.", causing him to die laughing. He is the very definition of a hard worker, and I feel like he would love being praised and doing the same for his significant other, so I'm glad that you said that you liked the words of affirmation love language, because GET READY. He's definitely been buffing up (I SCREAM WHENEVER I SEE PICTURES OF HIM NOWADAYS), so
his hugs would always be the best things, so warm and comforting. Don't know how you feel about children? We've all seen that VLive where this idiot literally bought baby shoes because he thought they were cute, so I think he would definitely want children down the road in your relationship if you were both comfortable with it. Best father and husband award goes to him.
In conclusion: SIMP. SIMP. SIMP. SIMP. SIMPPPPPPPPPPPP.
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This is a vent.
You can do what you want with this post but please do read the part from where your name starts in bold and pink.
I have decided it's okay for me to type my thoughts out here In tumblr. Safer than my journal at least lol
So I'm doing okay but I also feel like shit for the past few days lol. To the point where I cried myself to sleep. Ever felt like crying badly but the tears won't come out but you can't even act frustrated? Yeah that too.
I'll be honest. I changed schools so now I have about 3 supportive friends but we haven't interacted much.
My friends from my previous school are really very cool and supportive and it is because of them, I had a thought of exploring me and thinking about my sexuality and everything.
I have a lot of friendship problems. Im kinda losing touch with My friends from the previous school and i saw it coming almost 1 years ago. But I still talk to them bc I like them. I have been betrayed and neglected and taken for granted by loads of people who were my friends. We're still in touch but there is a disconnection.
I really considered them my friends. I trusted them. I was looking for a special bond with them. But it never happened. Half of them betrayed and verbally bullied me. Some of them strayed away. Some were Influenced by other bullies. Some took me for granted.
I'm awkward at voicing out my true feelings. I wanted them to know through my actions how much they meant to me, how I bragged about how nice they were, how I loved it when we went on little adventures and screamed and laughed. But they just had to go away.
My one and only lovely best friend moved away and now we live about 2000 kms apart but we still talk and she supports me (and simple for me lol) and she is kinda like one of the top reasons I'm sane rn. I'm very grateful to have her.She sometimes visits my blog through Google and reads my fics.
I've been having depressive episodes since last year. It's definitely better than last year bc back then, I used to cry in secret like- every single day. Including my birthday. I've actually kinda mastered the art of masking my feelings.
On top of that I have family problems. My dad is not really emotionally present. I hate to say this but my mom kinda victimizes herself. Evertime they have fights, I hear and notice this. It pisses me off but the points they make about themselves make sense. Eventually they make up and they sat down and made me under stand that nothing is gonna happen but it mentally affects me a lot.
Believe me when I say that I love my parents. But I'm growing distant. On top of that there is some toxic advice and they are homophobic oof.
I know there are millions of people with more worse conditions than mine and when I think about this, I get sad and start to invalidate my feelings but with the help of some motivational people, I understand that my problems are valid and I'm allowed to feel sad. At this point I'm like my own supporter. I'm proud of it.
Every time I see jean, I relate to him a lot. Putting a strong front for others but your terrified inside. (Also thighs mm)
So Hazel. Listen to me
When I found out of tumblr and fanfics, I was overjoyed. I spend weeks reading comfort fics by many different authors including yours and it made me feel safe.
I finally decided to make an account and follow people. I mostly interacted with you. There are so many blogs and moots that I follow now, and now I'm not shy or scared to interact with them.
You know why? Because of you.
It is from your blog I first felt like I could feel safe. I never felt weird about going in your inbox more than once. Everytime you responded I felt butterflies. After that when you followed me back, I actually almost cried. Every single time I saw you in my dash, inbox or responding to me, or just interacting with your fellow moots, I felt happy.
And after that I met amber, izzy, and so many cool moots. If we ever met In real love I wouldn't hesitate to give you a big hug and thank you.
Hazel baby when I say I love you, I fucking mean it.
I love you. I love you so much
I love all of my moots, and people who I interact with every day. I found so many supportive people and people from the lgbtq and people who share the same thoughts here.
Thank you for being you.
I hope you never forget how much I admire you. I'm almost tearing up as I write this. All of you guys give me so much motivation to move forward in my life.
himani please the way you had me crying because of this i love you so so so much i cant stress it enough
(imma put a read more cos this got kinda long lol)
im so happy that you found a safe space and you feel comfortable enough to tell me all of this too. you have me on discord as well and i'd always be happy to listen to you if you need to talk or just to simply simp over 2d people lmao
and im so sorry that you've been feeling terrible, it honestly breaks my heart and i wish there was something i could do. i'd hold you and be there to fight everyone for you if i could. if those friends dont keep in touch with you, they'll be missing out and they'd be losing such a precious and amazing person. but once you lose something you always gain something - thats something i've realised so you will find the right people that will stick by you for a very long time ❤❤ i'm so glad you have your best friend there to support you and sticking by you because even when you feel like everything's just going to shit i know they'd be there for you and im happy about that
your feelings are completely valid and im glad you realised that. just know that im always going to be here too to support you and to just be there for you whenever you need it
bye the way you have my heart himani, it makes me so happy that you feel safe here and that you never felt weird about interacting with me. please you give me butterflies all the time, how could i not follow a beautiful person like you. honestly the same goes to you - i love seeing you on my dash and i love seeing you have a great time and interacting with people especially with my moots it makes me so happy i cant describe it 😭
if we ever meet im not letting you leave my side, you're gonna permanently be in my arms
i love you so much more i wish there was a way i could show just how much... im glad you found people you love and those that support you and that give you motivation. and im always going to be here to support you and for anything else you need
thank you for being comfortable enough to talk to me and to share this. you're an amazing person never doubt that 🥺🥰💖
#himani 💗#i simp for you#hazel's angels#shes a certified hazel simp 😌😏#things like this are the reason im still using tumblr#the way i had literal tears#i love you so fucking much himani#lets get married
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updated top albums list + recommended tracks from each bc im bored lol
*tentatively* in order
unnatural - wjsn | recommended songs: all of them (especially unnatural, supermoon, and yalla) except for rewind | skips: just rewind bc ballad /// im not sure what style to call this album but they really made such a smash, its crazy that it came out so early in the year and no gg is touching it (album wise). literally the only complaints i have are the obligatory ballad (that they always do bc they can all sing lmfao), the album cover/title (dont love the cover design and i dont love when the album name is the tt name, except in certain circumstances (a full album (especially where the title isnt necessarily from the title track) like montero) or when it's a single album (the inverse of this being rsq's prequel which couldve just been called colorfull since that was the only damn song 😐)). i also was disappointed with the outfits for last dance but that's peripheral.
timeabout, - yukika | recommended songs: insomnia & secret | skips: none /// okay to keep it very real im genuinely scared that she'll never surpass soul lady. i love, and i mean LOVE timeabout, but soul lady was on another plane of existence. like she could've held that album a little bit
the other side of the moon - gwsn | recommended songs: like it hot, starry night, i cant breathe | skips: i sing, depending on my mood /// i dont have much commentary tbh,this is just a very solid mini idk. id like to see a fusion of i cant breathe/tweaks/after the bloom/burn, maybe on their next mini. i love their brighter stuff but maybe a darker concept next (halloween cb pls pls pls)
montero - lil nas x | lowkey too soon for me to pick recommended songs but i'll say montero, scoop, lost in the citadel, sun goes down, and am i dreaming for now. will update! | skips: none /// i cant say that this is this year's sawayama bc sawayama was kinda more like a collection of really strong singles? whereas i feel like these songs shine as an album. i dont even know what to say except that im soooo surprised and impressed because i didnt know that this is the type of music he made???? like he raps but theres a lot of singing? not like belting but definitely not rapping. its kinda...alt ish? in some places? if i had to use ine genre to describe the whole album id probably say alt pop? idk but whatever it is it's definitely working
hide & seek - purple kiss | recommended songs: zombie & so why (tbh all of them) | 2am and zzzz depend on my mood but theyre def not full skips /// no bad song on the album this is crazy....i might rerank since i just listened to it for the first time but as of now idk, its good im just super impressed. ponzona wasnt for me but this cb theyre really doing all the things, lovr tht for them
produced by: [myself] - onlyoneof | recommended songs: coy & night flight | question mark depends on my mood /// im still mad at them (read: 8d) sooooo...idk. i can’t really listen to their music rn. but this mini is still good
play game: holiday - weeekly | recommended songs: check it out, weekend, holiday party | i like memories of summer rain and la luna but it depends on my mood /// very cohesive mini, def their best overall imo! not much to say, but i hope jiyoon gets well soon TTTT
enchant - orbit | recommended songs: gokurakuchouka & never gonna get away but also all of them except flor lunar | skips: flor lunar is nice but boring /// i need kpoppies to get into it im tired of being here alone cmon y’all
set - woodz | recommended songs: feel like | skips: none /// i prefer his bright tracks but this mini was solid as usual. where is the full album tho seungyoun hmmm????
guess who - itzy | recommended songs: sorry not sorry, tennis (0:0), kidding me | skips: in the morning, occasionally wild wild west /// i remember being very surprised that i liked this album, especially given that i dont like mitm. not anything groundbreaking but still solid. i think the naming of tennis (0:0) was really clever
intersection: trace - bae173 | recommended songs: green light, loved you | skips: none (sometimes the intro tho) /// honestly their music is really good??? mbk just hasn’t promoted them well, i feel like they make it a little hard to stan...i really appreciate that they’re not doing the stereotypical hard bg concept thing
lilac - iu | recommended songs: coin, flu, ah puh, troll | skips: honestly id have to relisten, some of the songs a lil boring but idr them at the moment
hello future - nct dream | recommended songs: hello future, life is still going on | skips: idr tbh, probably hot sauce though //// was very surprised that i liked this album, but the outro of hello future really got me after a few listens so i had to check it out. very decent!
killa - mirae | recommended songs: killa, sweet dreams, 1 thing | skips: none really but all of the bsides are a little mid tbh /// i will be 1000% honest in saying that the three reasons this allbum made this list are 1.) killa (the tt), 2.) none of the songs are bad, 3.) lien’s vocals. something about lien....he really just sells whatever song he’s on. his belting >>>>>>>>>>>. he makes their music very enjoyable to listen to, next in that department would be junhyuk. based on their most recent cb, siyoung and khael also contribute a lot as well. shame that the rest of the cb album kinda does nothing for me idk. random but i would really like a gg to cover higher and/or killa
& - loona | recommended songs: ur, ptt | skips: a different night, dance on my own /// these r my girls but this is not their best. ur is wonderful though, and ptt is addicting somehow. wow and be honest are fine but really not their best. i like wow’s choreo tho!
albums im excited to listen to (no particular order):
last year was weird volume 3, tkay maidza (i’ve already listened to a bunch of it but i need to sit and just listen to the whole thing)
troubled paradise, slayyter (same as above, but i didn’t even realize it came out this year, i thought it was old for some reason lol)
jo1, challenger (every song of theirs i hear i like pretty much so i need to take an organized look at them lmfao)
jo1, stranger (same as above)
only lovers left, woodz (duhhh its woodz. not out yet but im excited! i do prefer his brighter concepts and this def isn’t that. he says its not gonna be like what he’s done before but the title and concept photo that’s out rn is giving lift up)
the book of us: negentropy - chaos swallowed up in love, day6 (the title kinda bored me but we’ll see. also sungjin’s gone so.....................we’ll see.)
ancient dreams in a modern land, marina (i barely got past venus fly trap because its soooooo good. i’ve listened to a little after that but the songs i heard didn’t really compare. i have to give it a shot tho)
the chaos chapter: fight or escape, txt (i liked the blue hour mini so i need to give them a chance i suppose)
333, tinashe (i just feel like i should idk)
honorable mentions (no particular order):
blue hour, txt - discovered this year, came out last year. retroactively makes the 2020 albums list bc whew the market research that went into that thing paid off
hula hoop/ starseed ~kakusei~, loona (why tf does the album not have a name) - duhhh loona + synths = a smash. in fact like i said when it dropped i dont even wanna call them loona anymore. this is kongetsu no shoujo!!! this isn’t on my top albums list because im counting as two songs and my limit is 3. i might add it anyways lmfao. we’ll see
ugly beauty, jolin tsai - discovered this year, came out in 2018. i just really like jolin tsai idk. i had only heard that album w play and i’m not yours, both are iconic but the production quality sounds...low? like its older but ik they’re not *that* old. either way, ugly beauty does everything i wanted it to - dramatic, vocals, rapping, boa vibes...jolin tsai is a queen what can i say
also, there are of course a ton of singles that i love as well, this is albums only though lmfao. i have no idea if i could even attempt to organize the singles lol
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