I just want to talk about the nursery being painted and the purpose of the Tomb to be without a door. Anastasia had a family - and putting to the side the pact with Alecto there's some implicit symbolism to John asking for the workers of the Ninth to die constructing the Tomb with that image of new life. (Still can't articulate my disbelief that he went and didn't think that asking Anastasia of all people, The one who lost her cavalier to him, would have problems)

Yeah. Especially finding this out about the Ninth, where nurseries becoming tombs is a thing we're sensitive about.

On one level we've always known Anastasia had a family. Like, we know she's Harrow's direct ancestor. You can't be heir to the line of someone who never had children. But the nursery.... Yeah. It really hammers it in. Her friends painted a nursery mint green for her children.

And now it's a tomb.

AWH... I'm skipping through Roier's QSMP Day 1 VOD because I'm looking for a specific thing, and I just noticed that when Jaiden stands in front of the group to do her introduction and her mic isn't working, Mariana laughs (not in a mean way, I laughed too) and Roier immediately smacks him and tells him off for laughing.

[Timestamp ~36m 50s, volume warning for Quackity's awful mic]

It's such a little thing, but I think it's really sweet in retrospect, especially considering how Roier and Jaiden have become such good friends in recent weeks :')

i need alfred f. jones to drink like five of the panera death lemonades. as an experiment.

The mistake of starting unfinished fics, god, please, deliver me from the evil of waiting for an update

Hey! Long-time lurker crawling out of the woodwork because your recent stuff has been absolutely destroying me :D The way you draw L in particular is so fantastic and visually striking, I just love it so much! You manage to capture his vibe/mannerisms perfectly while still making him so expressive—it’s such a hard balance to strike, but you’ve nailed it! Still reeling over how soft his face is in that one thing you posted under the readmore, I’m SO here for that kind of content :)

Kicking myself for not sending this sooner because you literally just did them, but if you’re still taking asks for that expression/palette thing, it’d be sick to see L in H6 and Light in B6 with owo or i hate sand! No pressure at all though, looking forward to seeing whatever you feel up to posting next :D

I just got hit with the realization that I will never ever have to take another written exam again and I started crying tears of happiness

hello rain world tumblr i would like you to meet my friend Big Ol Eyes (i named them that for their big ol fuckin Lookers and tiny ass . . pupils)

they followed me back to my shelter and proceeded to adopt me as their emotional support animal for the next cycle

the CEO of NIANTIC liked my art on twitter?!?!?!?! 🫠 I am passing away 👻

Yup, still up.

Once again reminded my brain works like a fucking dog's

I'm having separation anxiety AGAIN

And it's only the beginning. Like. I'll get him back tomorrow and then he's leaving for longer yet on Wednesday. And this on and off for weeks.

That means I won't be able to sleep properly, or work properly, or do my chores properly (rather: worse than usual. I'm not doing any of that properly even when he's there, I never could), or do anything, for weeks. And I hate that I finally got a grasp on it and I hate that he knows that too and I hate that I can't do shit about it even if it's OBVIOUS

But yeah I'm a perfectly functional adult, yeah, why bother trying to get a diagnosis, uh? You got a PhD after all that means you're functional - thanks, shitty therapist I paid 60€/h monthly for two years. Damn useful. She really did say that by the way. Multiple times.

I should sleep. Wish I could have a good cry but I can't even seem to manage that. Urgh.

jfc salt in the fucking wound

SO I FINALLY, AFTER FOUR YEARS, TESTED POSITIVE FOR COVID

would you like to know. the ONLY place I have gone in the entire last week. the only place?

hauling up to boston to go to my job :))) that I am leaving :)))) because of how often they make me commute to boston :))))))) the job that I just gave my two weeks notice at on monday :))))))))

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he's so special to me actually.

I have posted 64 hrpf works...I should do something when I hit 69 lmao. Like how the y/n girlies do little celebrations when they hit follower counts? A kasper moregraceful celebration of an arbitrary milestone