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Goodbye Big Gun or Big Jim. Stood 6 foot six back in the day and lived larger than life. He lived nearly 88 years of what could only be described as a very good life. He instilled in me my love of boats, Northwest seafood, politics, skiing. So much. This is him enjoying the boat with me in early October. After his recent hospital stay, just a few days ago we were talking about him keeping up with his occupational therapy so he would have no problem getting in and out of the boat this coming season. I loved you, Dad. I’ll miss you. . . *** #deathsucks #goodbyedad #largerthanlife #agoodlife #happytravels #oldboatersneverdie (at Filucy Bay, Puget Sound, WA) https://www.instagram.com/p/CoB1r79OTYr/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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Losing someone close to you really puts a lot of things into perspective
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Objectways
The object is an imprint, texture of labrador fur, shape of cut toenail, multiplying by
streching deathpowered steeltendrils across lichen-covered stones and attaching objectself
on all sides of each individual molecule.
Lichen breaks into pyramid shapes hard like compressed fabric small like sandgrains and scatter
spiralpatterned till raw rocksurfaces outwardsness.
Stonesurface infected with cancerous machinery, a human rectums total volume in salt
condensed to diameter of leukocyte covered on all sides by hypodermic legs rotating
on cogwheels.
Rifts of cancerous infection draw deeper rockinto
and widerspread: hypostasis of rock and object.
"Savior of all inanimate kind!"
Realityback with sleepjerk hand coffeescalded up and outdoor westward and ever cosmic
sleepmachineryeruption of pain and antidote, stillbirth on picnicblanket.
"Pigsty Neptune! Graveyard Saturn! Bordello Mercury! Oh, Earth, our telegraphic savior:
On heavenbound invasive species stillbirthmachinery outeastwardsslightlynorth to celibate destructive infection. Rock pierced hypodermic arrow shot from unakite bow, stainless hedgescissor cutting mansized larvae.
Ghosts of insects lost at sea, crabcarcasseater, “in memory of those loved and hated."
A tree rained dreamspores and when they touched the molecular darkness the object found a way in.
A woman stared blankly into the darkness and didn’t notice the object entering through her gaze, molecular castration and darkness forever. It layered itself chessboard with all her molecules. She walked for 25 years after that, pyramids in the brain travel and spread
spores: garden of the eternal, damned world.
"Get this object away from my molecules!"
Everfeared cry of the compromised. Even animals speak when objectsick.
Donkeyurine and risenchristpowder ablution, expiation of kyrialescribe pawned objectwards
boardflipped moleculecutter carcasseater.
"Cum jubilo!"
One verse one sound one touch one clench one gaze.
"Stelliferi conditor orbis!"
Quill with maggot-teeth-end dipped in black insectslurry.
"Moleculegod condition me! Crawl off that cross and carve from me a knife to cut cosmic dreams!!"
Object disguised as crown of thorns. Thornycrown theater mischief. Blood on forehead now dried: tears still flowing.
"Crawl faster! I need my heavenboundedness steelstrong gripped like wings."
The object molecular sidebysideness.
"Cuntypotency Genital Anus!"
Godecule errplaced sidebysidecule. Molded by tendrils, deathdestroyed.
Moonmotions roundedness heavenboundedness siltrealm. Crepgayscular, nighthomo masturbation roundedlessness motion.
Carnival stiltrealm. Moon siltrealm.
Objectways stillsensesatiety moved realm to a moving clockface outwardlymasturbatory, grained like sandgrain,
saintways stiltsucker punchcunt moonchild.
"Killed cockend, dropdeaded demoneyed realmcarcass."
Tendril split urethra. Deathsucker splitflesh animator.
"A dog is dreaming. I explain the dog. The dream is my explanation."
Dreamwish objectdestroyer. Cockball knifesplit. Tincaneatery unakite teethformed smile.
A smile like conifer. Each bite one hundred wounds.
Chalcedonyblade moleculesplitter, categorical grid-de-maker and objectcutter.
Sunset magnetism. Scorched lands sadistic intent. Masochism sunmooncycle magnetblocker nightness suddengone.
Cyclic spiraltime, unknown depths.
Suddenly an anomaly in the pattern. “Chromatic sequence, vertical dissonance,
horizontal consonance. Sex magic at work."
Object lost: unknownorigindream.
Novascribe siter of staralignment, necrotic galaxy on course
with fragile machinery of light and darknesslessness.
Knifewielder dreamless sleepwalker. Instrument of hollowcipher: unakite frogpoisonblade.
"Cut a nazi throat! Cut nazi scumsucker of earth silteater! Rite of knife to nazi eye."
Eftsoons sorrow. Westering peregrinate. Ylemrealm; succedaneum for fallen leaves and mirrorshards.
Insects westering feedingpath, knifesplit carapace and dream in molecular heaven. Ylemdestruction by cuntpunch and sorrowdeath by tendril.
Necrotic consonance. Picnicblanket washed by blood and semen. Rottingchristdust in volcanic stillbirthsequence. Saviorsuccedaneum housefly hammered to table.
“Blue like how the sea is blue. And deep like how my ass is deep. Cogwheel Saturn and plutonic dissonance. Symbolic death by volcanic machinery. Stillbirthed dreams, origin of unknown planetwaves.”
Crucifixions of common housepests. Existence and exitsense. Confessions of clergy, calloused knuckles, singed whiskers, and limp swords dancing in sardonic masturbatory relief. Social upheaval for the sake of limestone pages, described by automatic sequential realism, scribbled like penhanded Twombly falling down a crack in a mountain.
The symbolic unto itself.
The masturbatory unto cumself.
The crucifixion unto ourselves.
The planetwaves unto realmself.
The carcass unto seabedself and original sky poetry like rotations in love and hatred.
Eating itself from back to front. The deep ass and the rotating cogwheels absorb dust of fallen prophets. Pure light stillbirthed. Impure darkness, raised with sardonic and cannibalistic affectations, public discourse and drugfueled, peregrinate rhythm of scribblings in cosmic collision course.
Crabcarcass, eaten like solar flares.
The oceanic rhythms cascading sequences for nails in handedness.
Unoceanic, festering, westering, perspiring crepusculation.
Twilight twas two towering twats twofor twerrible townships.
Foreign origin, forensic originality, foresworn loveship.
In eftsoons as sorrow sacral bonding and westering skeletal roll.
In erstwhile cadence, a sequence of trickery and malice.
“Hear what I’ve unheard.”
“Touch what I’ve untouched.”
The windows
separating pollen
and birdsongs
from my insular
war with myself.
The longing gaze of one avian to another wingspread beast of the rapids of the Sundownlands.
How the snow falls, it fell so close to the area of inexistence.
Inside the outside. The realm of skin and pollen.
Harken to symbolics, harken to sutures.
Stitched dreamsymbol, surrogate pasttimes.
Surroundings, limestone pageturner, scribbled ablution and ascentionofchristpowder.
One hundred insects crushed in oceanic dreamrite.
“The eyes of nazis becomes unto itself a target for stabbings”
Watching the blade glide close to iris, sober realisation that no cogwheel will turn onto you or any mountain you climb. This mountain I unclimb, this beach I ungrain, this water I unwet.
Saffrondreams and greenpaths to the next cog in cogwheelsequence.
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The world gained an angel Monday night 🥲 that smile says it all! I was lucky enough to call her grandma but she touched so many hearts. My dad always said she was the best mom in the world. And she was certainly the best grandmother you could ask for. 💕💔🥰. That broody looking group are her children 😀#grandma #worldsbest #deathishard #deathsucks #family #crying #littleoldlady #howcuteisshe #shewillbemissed❤️ #shortbutstrong #shortbutsweet https://www.instagram.com/p/CQwrWMnBO8q/?utm_medium=tumblr
#grandma#worldsbest#deathishard#deathsucks#family#crying#littleoldlady#howcuteisshe#shewillbemissed❤️#shortbutstrong#shortbutsweet
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Having to go to the graveyard to visit your friends 💔
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living with grief doesn’t go away, you just learn to live a new life around it.
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@rodmanningjones @rod.jones979 What an awesome but emotional day. I underestimated how hard it would be to say goodbye to you. See you on the other side Rod Jones Rodney Jones Rod Jones...Nothing touches the depths of what an amazing, creative & genuinely loving person you were. I truly feel heart broken 💔💔#sad #brokenheart #deathsucks #empty #missyou #begood #love #passion #💋 (at Tugun, Queensland, Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp_pmJkhKzN/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=18kird7mgtfce
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Oh god, you guys, I don’t know where to start. I grew up watching this man. He starred in one of the most important shows in my personal culture. My dad showed me his part in The Aristocrats in 2005 and I fell in love. The duality of his content and the scope of his humor ONE THOUSAND percent enamored me. I will forever regret not seeing him live. I’m floored. I am crushed. I am absolutely shattered by the untimely loss of this comedic powerhouse. I love you, Bob Saget. Fly high in those stars you filthy, hilarious, sexy man. I will celebrate the media you gave me regularly. Forever.✨ . . . #ouch #bobsaget #saget #iloveyou #comedy #fullhouse #thearistocrats #americasfunniesthomevideos #comedian #deathsucks #crush (at Greenville, South Carolina) https://www.instagram.com/p/CYikQWjsjsK/?utm_medium=tumblr
#ouch#bobsaget#saget#iloveyou#comedy#fullhouse#thearistocrats#americasfunniesthomevideos#comedian#deathsucks#crush
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Death
The thought of death is terrifying to me. To think of not existing, of being nowhere makes me nauseous. Brings on the panic, the anxiety, the depression. Yet we don’t know if we won’t exist SOMEWHERE. I prefer to believe that we go on. Not as some bug or lower life form, but that we do continue learning what we need to. But I don’t want to leave the people I’m with now. :(
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Trying to look happy at a sad occasion! We came to pay our respects! #friends #friendship #life #death #deathsucks #funeral #blackswhotravel #black #blackcouple #couples #melanin #melaninpoppin (at Sanford, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTIPLtWJetL/?utm_medium=tumblr
#friends#friendship#life#death#deathsucks#funeral#blackswhotravel#black#blackcouple#couples#melanin#melaninpoppin
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Morning you sexy mofos!!!!!! Time to let the animal out and smash!!!! Each day we face struggles and how we choose to deal with them makes us who we are. We can’t let them beat us! Enjoy everyday you never know when it’s your last. Cherish every moment. This world has taken many folks and again continues to again and I will always cherish each and everyday!! Hope you do the same and have an amazing day!! #fuscosmash #fuscogonewild #dailyshenanigans #enjoylife #beexcellenttoeachother #cherisheverymoment #deathsucks #makesomeonesmile #bethebestyou (at Pro Fitness RI) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLZa7BmnFSV/?igshid=bi6n7xavx4mr
#fuscosmash#fuscogonewild#dailyshenanigans#enjoylife#beexcellenttoeachother#cherisheverymoment#deathsucks#makesomeonesmile#bethebestyou
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Dry Bones
I remember when I was little
There was a tree standing near you
At some point I hid behind it
Because I didn’t want to look at you
Perhaps I thought I was safe
That the wind blowing through the leaves
Could also blow me away
That was when I was probably seven
I didn’t go back there till 2012
I wanted to be put through hell
So I visited but couldn’t find the tree
I was trying hard to pull the memory
To remember everything
But I was a fucking child !!
I went to England without saying bye
Without telling you how I felt inside
About all the bullshit you put me through
And how you were never there for me
You spent the entirety of my childhood
Beneath that stupid fucking tree
And when I went to see you
To say I missed and loved you
That I was a better man than you
I couldn’t. Because I couldn’t see the tree
My wife convinced me to go back
In 2016 we made the plans
I traveled two days in a car
Scripting what I’d say to you
When we got there my wife found you
Before I ever found the tree
She walked with me to see you
My name laying face up on the ground
You had no Sr so I won’t put a Jr
When they place me next to you
I stood there. Shaking
My wife seeing my heart breaking
For 30 years I have wanted to talk
And now that I can
I can’t move my mouth
I just shake out of 30 years of emotions
The hatred the rage
The love that never came
The father you weren’t
The father I am
How I need you
To be proud
To hold up my hands
To stop the thoughts
Of suicide from
The shitty life
You left me to live
Dead before I was born
It doesn’t make a difference
I was your last child
And I needed you most
She named me after you
So I was a constant reminder
Of the abuse that she took from you
They said I look just like you
Perhaps when I die
My dry bones will too
I never said a word out loud
My wife just walked me back to the car
We went to a wedding after seeing your grave
I just prayed there child wouldn’t suffer
From their father passing away
And only leaving dry bones
To guide the way.
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#RIP Emerson who passed on last night. This hurts so much. Ironically, had meds coming for him but they didn't ship until this morning instead of last week. This year just keeps sucking more and more. #ithurts #deathsucks #lost #bestfriend #bestmemories #sadness #furballs #rabbit https://www.instagram.com/p/B_P1tP6AZ-3/?igshid=nd7s3l3hc6dm
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Depression sucks and I miss my gran. She could be a right pain in the arse sometimes but she never hesitated to listen to your woes before telling you buck up and crack on. I miss her no nonsense ways more than ever #mothersday #missingyou #deathsucks #depression (at Belfast) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-DDi5XpreNfatZntivjA89nHxOHzYFUNpfAno0/?igshid=1xxe6rrwmmqbt
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@rodmanningjones @rod.jones979 What an awesome but emotional day. I underestimated how hard it would be to say goodbye to you. See you on the other side Rod Jones Rodney Jones Rod Jones...Nothing touches the depths of what an amazing, creative & genuinely loving person you were. I truly feel heart broken 💔💔#sad #brokenheart #deathsucks #empty #missyou #begood #love #passion #💋 (at Tugun, Queensland, Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp_peuUg4ok/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1oghzred3oexp
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😧 R.I.P. to my Queens borough brother... You were one of my favorites. I remember the last time we saw each other, when we were shootin' the sh*t and still laughing at the fact we had the same first name, while eating chicken and drinkin' grape juice back stage... You said, "Life don't owe you nothin', so don't expect." That has stuck to me until this day... What a shock and so young, only 42. #RIP #Prodigy #MobbDeep - QUEENS ALL DAY!!! 💪 . #rap #hiphop #music #death #dead #deathsucks #Queens #NYC #NewYork #NewYorkCity
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