one of the most moments

lets go lesbians!!! lets go!!!!

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[ID: the image is a digital illustration of beau and yasha kissing from Critical Role, campaign 2, episode 126. Beau has brown skin and long dark hair tied up in an undercut. She is wearing a dark blue crop top, dark grey-blue pants, and a blue bow tie. She is on her knees, leaning over yasha, one hand resting on her thigh, and the other is on her back. Yasha has pale skin, and long slightly curly white-black ombre hair. She is wearing a lose muted brown tank top and grey pants. one of her arms is on beau’s back, and the other is propping herself up on the picnic blanket they are on. they are in a vast field of wildflowers under a sunny sky with large white clouds, something about the background looks almost illusory. end ID]

I wanna talk about the dancehall. Because I can.

The mental image of Astrid and Caleb dancing in this duel-like manner is a very interesting idea. It’s a callback to the conversation she and Caleb fist had earlier in the campaign: this toying with power and dominance in a way that brings up a bittersweet past. It’s endearing, but it’s also a warning. A reminder that whole Astrid doesn’t like getting her hands dirty, she could always take the upper hand. And Caleb could easily do the same. Not only that, but it’s a reminder of a hurt past that, while love existed, was fueled by competition.

Then he looks over at Jester, dancing ridiculously and being herself. Not using this time as a negotiation, but as a slight bit of relief and freedom while making sure Valeb is safe. It’s a reminder of the life he found; the path he chose and forged for himself. He wants to dance there with her. He wants to move past whatever dance with death he is doing. And I love the mental image of Caleb seeing what he chose for himself vs what was almost chosen for him

Caduceus: My dad’s a simple man, so send a simple message. Say hello, tell him we’re visiting soon, and ask if the grove is alright or if anything weird is happening. Just don’t scare him

Jester: Yeah, yeah, yeah. Nice and simple, I’ll just give it some flare.

Jester: Yo Cornelius, any creepy shit going on over there?! 

I question why I am so tired, as if I didn't stay up until 2 in the morning to watch fictional lesbians confess their love and fight ninja cats

I love that half of tonight’s chat was,

“BEST EP EVER”

and

“I hate d&d.”

Everyone watching the Nein like

The mutual feelings of “I want to kiss you so bad”

when the stream starts and i don’t know what to draw, i resort to the m9 in cast clothes. mostly just yasha.

THE DATE’S GONNA START AFTER BREAK I’M—AAAAHHHGSJSGDJDB

and I fucking helped

Caleb: I can’t believe I have to waltz with my ex in a nostalgic and romantic location from our school days to make this plan work

M9: I mean, you don’t have to

Caleb: No I’m going to

Travis + Fidget Spinner shenanigans

beau: just so you know, i don’t have any expectations for tonight, if you’re not feeling it that’s fine

yasha: well i’m in love with you and have been since kamordah, so jot that down

It is episodes like these that make me think again and again about how much Critical Role is a show just drenched in love, in a way so much media isn't. And I don't even mean romantically, because- yes, of course, it was a date. But its more about- the attention to detail, the care, the way the soft and the fullhearted and the nostalgic are all so deeply indulged.

It's about how Caleb put together a whole experience, multiple effects, dazzling rooms and effects and tiny touches to details, for this. Yes, at Beau's request, but all the smaller touches- were him, the little liberties he took, the note that left off with gentle well wishes like a steady hand on the shoulder.

It's about Beau brainstorming and planning and anxiously reworking and working her plans for an experience that was about them- that took the important things, the small things, and rolled them together, a long and elaborate love letter about new paths and old memories and paying attention. Paying attention and honoring.

Its about Yasha fighting through her fears, through her guilt, to accept the love, to say yes to dates, to bravely charge ahead. About her enthusiastically cheering on everything Beau shows her. About her telling Beau, carefully and intent- "I am so proud of how far you've come. How hard you've worked to get where you are."

Its about, conversations not just about "You're beautiful and I love you." but asking questions, wanting to know the answers, sinking into the sensation of knowing someone and being known, like a warm bath. Promises to forge ahead together, of little glimmers of good for the future.

Its about the fact that we got an hour- an hour- of expressions of love, in so many forms. Just a celebration of people loving each other, indulgent and breathtaking and a little silly. I love Critical Role. I really do.

currently: emotionally unstable