Fanbinding: am i a stranger to you? by @chasingfictions

Summary:

Just then, the last of the blood slipping from that boy into Spike, him and Dru grabbing for each other with their fangs in each other’s mouths, then walking hand in hand up Fifth Avenue, all the way back home, a little prayer croaks out of him, before he realizes enough to grab it back— Please. Please, let it be like this always. - (In which New York City is one of the various loves of Spike's unlife, he can’t stop thinking about the Slayer, and in which, mostly, he just really wants to belong somewhere, if anyone will have him.)

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I was inspired by the folks at the Renegade Bookbinding Guild and their Binderary 2024 events to try my hand at binding some of my favorite works of fanfiction. This one is the fifth part of chasingfictions my blood tastes like laughter series and has had a special place in my heart since 2021. I'm from NY and I read this between classes my first semester back at school during the pandemic and Spike's love for the city seemed to perfectly resonated with my own so I wanted to commemorate that in print!

This is the first text block I've ever sewn by hand. At four signatures, this seemed like a perfect starter project. I'm learning that part of designing books is doing it by ✨vibe✨ The gray/white/silver/gold marbled cover said New York to me, sort of a glass and concrete with a bit of shine aesthetic. I went with red end papers because vampires. The typesetting isn't too fancy but I really wanted to find an art deco ornament to separate sections of the fic. It took me a while to figure out how I wanted to decorate the spine. I originally used a gold foil quill to trace the text of the title and author but then went over it with a paint pen recommended in one of the Binderary sessions last month and fell in love with the effect. I can't believe my hand was steady enough to get it that clean 😅

maybe i'm ready to love you by chasingfictions [NC-17]

“Buffy?” He almost never used to call her Buffy. Did he? Always Slayer, or pet, or love. Or like, he’d use her name, but it always sounded odd, in his mouth. All tender, touchy. Like, like he was making eye contact with her, just by saying it. "Spike." She wonders if it feels the same, for him. His name, her tongue. - (Or: Spike’s gone, and Buffy doesn’t care. No, really, she doesn’t. Cross her heart.)

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I’m Your Man- Mitski

hi bestie i dont know if u take gif requests but if u do can i ask for a parallels set of laszlo wwdits 4x10's "if i'd've known i'd be born with a thick cock" joke vs spike btvs 7x20's "i didnt ask to be this good looking and athletic, we all have crosses to bear" joke ? it's horny victorian vampire wife guy dad hours

shsjskks ANYTHING FOR YOU but this rly made me laugh out loud so i gotta publish it 😭

:))) so hyped this blog exists :))) delightful :))) literally good for him :)) so nice for Our Boy :))) he's hired himself out as an attraction :))

it's what he deserves 😌😌

☕️ + high as hope the album!!!

hello u asked and you shall receive!!! (months later... Let's Not Talk About It)

literally impeccable album!!!! greatness in forty minutes! fun fact my friend who got me into fatm recommended me big god & no light no light as my first exposure!!! i mean i have Known about some songs before but this was truly my first time being a real listener so !! shout out to paula <3 my favourite song from high as hope is uhh i can't even choose actually. maybe hunger?? maybe patricia?? who KNOWS

I love your yj sets so much btw the coloring is always so gorgeous

I hope you know that every time I see you in my activity I am always prepared to read the most fun (and probably sad!) takes in your tags of my sets and it is truly a pleasure, so I'm so glad you enjoy them 🥺🥺 Thank you SO much! 💜

hello just wanna say I love all ur coffy week posts so much !!!!!!!! u r feeding the coffy ecosystem and it’s so vital .

hi!!!! holy cow thank you!!! that means SO much to me because I literally go !!!! every single time I read your tags on any of my posts (or really any post). you have the BEST tags and insights!!! also i just love coffy sm so happy to be of service 🫡

spike :)))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my favorite sp*ffy !!!!!!!!! i already told u happy birthday but i am engaging in a camp performance act by also sending u a birthday ask for the public.

truly u are a gift on this webbed site . if I couldn’t rant in paragraphs about bad takes in your DMs I don’t know who I would be . I hope your birthday is camp and degenerate I hope it deprograms the masses from ********* I hope it considers how myth refracts through the hero’s journey I hope it reflects on the interplay of public and private in modern storytelling as a vessel for queerness I hope it does a drag show at catholic mass i hope it pushes hank summers off a ledge . i hope it FUCKS . being libras who are spuffies and lesbians is such a special thing to share with u !!! i love u so my friend !!!! happy solar return!!!! arf. fuckinh ARF . bitch . i love u!!

ARF FUCKING ARF BITCH!!!! ILY <333333333

my day has been a little shitty emotionally, but it makes it better to think of it as camp and degenerate and metatextual kjdhsgjksdg. also I love that image so much, if you have any more you need to send them to me. LIBRA SP*FFY LESBIANS RISE 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

if ur still taking requests for mean tarot, I’d like to put one in 💜 thank u!

four of wands reversed. stop trying to fix other people’s problems. while you’re at it, stop getting involved in the first place.

hi hello I just went through your like entire yellowjackets tag and please know your yj edits fuck harder than anything on this whole site my brain is vibrating u get them so hard u get them so hard!!!! Help!!!!!! <3

hi hey hello!!!!

thank you so much for this message!! it totally made my day!!! 💗🌻

i am so happy you enjoy them!! means so much that you took the time to drop by and tell me this 🥺💗

but yes yellowjacket is just a whole different vibe can't wait for the next season 🤩

love making narrative comparisons with spike btvs I am holding him up to other shows like a paint swatch

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I love that I can always go to your messages to scream and I love fangirling with you 🥰

buffyverse femslash rapidfire for the ship game - coffy, buffy/dru, willow/faith, buffy/tara, darla/dru

tbh i don't have very strong feelings toward any of them except darla/dru. that slays. and i think coffy is cute!! 🥰 i love tara and buffy's friendship but i never thought of them romantically

hi friends !!! can i request a set of unlikely spike goodness/heroism moments?

like, idk if that's a concise description but im thinking about for example the 2x22 'i wanna save the world' or where the wild things are offering to be the hero before he talks himself out of it, or like, having to convince himself to bite people in crush / smashed . or the 'im not good and im ok' moment with dawn? kjdf the more i think about this the more examples i think of, im going insane about him <3 like, ??? him in crush being like 'if that means turning my back on the whole evil thing' and it's like . ok u are objectively way too ready to do that at any moment what's up with you baby boy <3

pls and thank u !!

here you go <3